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Kiki's Delivery Service & YouTube Burnout
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Take a break if you need, we aren't going anywhere
@raptorjaune7588
4 жыл бұрын
Please, make this one top comment guys
@ziweiwang1704
4 жыл бұрын
And his parents are seriously awesome, if Patrick can't come up with idea, he could always film some random stuff with the Wilhelms
@ziweiwang1704
4 жыл бұрын
Dang, I misspelled everything lol
@fizcrackdadon8178
4 жыл бұрын
Ja, keiner geht! Super Kanal, ich liebe dein Zeug!
@aaronbiehl
4 жыл бұрын
That's what the subscription is for. We're definitely staying subbed.
Only parents should be allowed to do ad reads from now on for every KZread channel
@aderita209
4 жыл бұрын
Samuel c137 it’s the first time I stayed for an ad...hahaha it was great.
@aadityabhattacharya
4 жыл бұрын
Yes & I am still waiting for Dad's lasso explanation.
@endTHEhegemony_Today
4 жыл бұрын
Oh my God, I couldn't click away from that ad. They were the cutest!!!
What?! You mean there is an alternative stress reliever to drinking a lot of alcohol?
@jatinsinghyadav5941
4 жыл бұрын
Focus on engineering not in filmmaking
@g.x.i4074
4 жыл бұрын
Have you tried ice cream? Works for me. =) Big fan of your channel btw, keep up the good work.
@doctaflo
4 жыл бұрын
you two know each other???!
@samanjj
4 жыл бұрын
It’s a conspiracy I tell you!
@TalDSruler
4 жыл бұрын
With the wonders of anime, ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE.
This video has summed up so much of how I've been feeling with my own work lately, right up to the point mere minutes before this dropped into my subscriptions. Thank you for being so honest, and capturing all my frustrations. I hope this channel never stops, but if you need to take a break - we'll be here when you get back.
@songsfordustmites
4 жыл бұрын
You two are my favorite KZreadrs
@danmetz8676
4 жыл бұрын
A reminder that this goes for you too. Please don't burn out.
@helenl3193
4 жыл бұрын
@Malou Lewin or a union, maybe? (not being sarcastic, I think workers supporting each other is hugely important and beneficial)
I love watching your videos, but I'd rather get one every six months where you loved it than regular ones where you're being worn down. Why not do Q&A's when you need a break? Literally film yourself on a couch answering our questions. Then you still get content up for the almighty algorithm, but you can also take two weeks off because you can probably do that one in a day.
@tatehildyard5332
4 жыл бұрын
I like that idea.
@matthewmckibben
4 жыл бұрын
I second all of this. We'll be here no matter how long it takes between videos and the Q+A thing would be a way to keep the algorithm thing chugging along. Those might even help it if they become popular.
@jennyraylen8410
4 жыл бұрын
This is a great idea!
@bibliophilecb
4 жыл бұрын
Seconded!
@aria5614
4 жыл бұрын
Agreed. Something casual thats less stressful.
Having your parents do your shilling is straight big brain and I love it
The take, has a video very similar to this on how the movie appeals to overworked melannials. So it's no surprise this movie really appeals to you at this time of your life. The movie just captures the essence of overwork so well.
@aimeemariet
4 жыл бұрын
I've been watching this movie when I am overwhelmed and artistically blocked since it was first released in the US, and I had 3 shitty jobs to put myself through college at the time, so some of the gen-xers are there too. My habit of this movie when I feel shitty and burnt out is now old enough to drink.
@haldir108
4 жыл бұрын
I don't particularly see kiki being overworked though. I think of it way more as a movie about slumping than burnout.
Hi, I'm crying on my lunch break at work because this is too relatable. I had the same epiphany of sorts with Kikis about two years ago because of burning out, and I'm in the middle of burning out again with my work. I had already booked myself a week off at the end of the month (this our slow period) to really take a breather of some variety, but your description of that feeling that "if I work really hard now, and get those numbers up, THEN I can relax" and it never actually happening that way has been getting me super down I will be here to watch your videos, and I'll love them even more if you're rested and taking care of yourself. I wish the algorithm and these platforms that have you create content and make tons of money off of it just to give you a piece would be more generous. You deserve incredible, good things without having to break yourself to get them. Lots of love 💜💜💜
@christinecastro7212
4 жыл бұрын
I can also relate. I work for myself and I think people think being your own boss is somehow less stressful but it isn't.
"Spirited away is Miyazaki's best movie, but Kiki is still my favourite" I FELT THAT
@MarkQuick0411
4 жыл бұрын
3dnygma Tht hit me in the soul
@BB-kc4bs
4 жыл бұрын
SAME
@jussiparkkonen9853
4 жыл бұрын
3dnygma my thoughts exactly
@rickifriki
Ай бұрын
Same thing here bro.
I love your mum and dad x look after yourself man
@tatehildyard5332
4 жыл бұрын
Their presence in the video made me happy. I love how enthusiastic they were to shoot more Patrick Explains.
@hadinasrallah8928
4 жыл бұрын
lmao those arent his parents
Really relate to this to myself. Chasing a goal on KZread that probably isn't real and will never eventuate. Good talk man 👍
@destro6971
2 жыл бұрын
Hello From the Future. You’re still doing great man, stay groovy. 🤘🏼
@robwhitmore3040
8 ай бұрын
Just checks your channel and you're at just over 1 mil subs now. Nice too see :)
We’ll be here, dude. And those 40-minute videos can always be two-parters, which suddenly means hey, you’re ahead now.
"The last video was supposed to be a way more ambitious one, but I was struggling to figure it out. So I swapped it out at the last minute with a simpler one... and even that was a challenge to finish." This whole video hit me real hard. Been feeling a lot of the exact same anxieties this year and it means a lot to know, at least, that I'm not alone in that.
Such a great video! Another thing I really loved is how Kiki is paid in the film. She doesn't have a set fee, instead she just kind of excepts what ever chum change people throw her way. And it's obvious that while her clientel apprieciates her, they also don't pay her that well, even though she acts like it in the film. There's this throwaway scene where Kiki sees some nice shoes, she wanna buy. But we never see her go back and get them. So she can't be making that much. As someone who has been working in the freelance writing industry for next to nothing for three years now, I'm properly projecting... But it still yet another element of this film that I love.
@CaptainRaccoonWhitly
4 жыл бұрын
As a courier myself, I can relate. Especially when Kiki helps out that elderly lady around the house and is worried that she was overpaid. There've been times where I've received bonus tips without warning for being punctual and immediately felt guilty for getting more than the required value of what I was delivering.
Patrick’s parents are my favourite characters in the Willems cinematic universe
The extra material on that Blu-Ray is delightful, especially if you're swedish. It has a nice japanese lady walking around Stockholm and Visby like it's a fantasy land. She imagines Kiki flying around the towns, asks shop owners about trolls and witches etc. Watch it if you haven't.
@mrflipperinvader7922
4 жыл бұрын
The best version is the first edition disney dub released on dvd
There's something to consider about the sabbath. Its less about adhering to some obscure commandment and more about taking time to refresh for the week's work.
@segamble1679
4 жыл бұрын
Sabbath! That's an itch I can scratch, but if all you're doing is resting so you can be more productive, you're missing the point of Sabbath. Eugene Peterson calls that a "bastard Sabbath" (love that guy). Keep diggin' on the Sabbath thing, but hunt for more meaning than just "productivity" or "optimization". Blessings.
@trillo3332
4 жыл бұрын
@@segamble1679 You beat me to it. 😉
@JINORU_
4 жыл бұрын
@@segamble1679 Rest can mean more than lack of productivity. Of course what Sabbath means is moving from the profane work week into the spiritual realm, letting the work week person rest and put your focus and efforts on different pursuits. Either way, it helps the rest of the week, which was my point.
I love the modern critical lens that this film's been receiving -- how it so perfectly captures the struggles of artists, millennials, or just anyone who feels beaten down by expectations -- it's always been one of my favorites, ever since I was a kid, but nowadays I feel like I resonate with it even more now than I used to
If Every Frame a Painting came out with a new video today I'd still go straight over to that channel and watch it. Relax Patrick we're here with you
"It looks like a combination of Paris and Stockholm." Stockholm and Visby, actually! (Old medieval city, also located in Sweden.) These were the two locations Miyazaki visited to scout out location concepts for the movie.
Patrick, when a person cares about their work the way you do it can be difficult to finish projects. Please keep doing what you do because you produce some of the very best work available on the KZreads. Thank you for all your content.
been feeling similar lately. i stopped putting pressure on myself to be doing something at all times and just started enjoying my time. freelancing and filmmaking full time means your brain is never off. you're always brainstorming and planning your next move. we teach ourselves to always be "on" for survival. relaxation will let us live longer. i know you mostly said all of this more eloquently, but just know most of us are feeling it.
I thought you were about to ask your parents to make one video a month while you go on your mini vacations.
@Visuwyg
4 жыл бұрын
Mini vacations? You mean weekends?
@Dorian_sapiens
4 жыл бұрын
I would 100% watch those!
God, this whole video is a big mood and I needed to hear it.
I'm feeding you by feeding the algorithm. Full watch minutes, upvote and comment! I need you here for the long run, Patrick!
Holy crap your parents are the cutest ❤️
I work in recording and music production, and feel THE EXACT SAME WAY. Impossible deadlines, constant self-doubt, and a guilt that surrounds being burned out at a "cool" job I should feel lucky to have. It's eerie when a total stranger starts describing the inner turmoil that surrounds productivity and self-worth and it sounds exactly like my own inner monologue. Thank you so much for your candor and honesty. It's helpful to feel like you're not alone.
This video hit home so much. Thank you for making this! You have no idea how impactful this video was for me.
Kiki’s Delivery Service is also my favorite Miyazaki film. Thank you for putting the beauty of this film into words in a way I never could. Your work means a lot to some many people. Please always remember to take care of yourself.
House in the woods to watch Kiki's Delivery Service? What a perfect setting! Also, thank you for your incredible insight into this incredible movie, it really gives it a whole other meaning. I often thought the ending was a little disjointed but your explanation made me appreciate it in a whole new way. The beauty of movies, books, art, music, videogames etc they can inspire you in so many ways and without having to say it, in this instance they can help you cope. To see your current situation from another point of view. Simply excellent Patrick, THIS IS YOUR REASON TO FLY!!!
@SuPeRNinJaRed
4 жыл бұрын
Also you are a perfect blend of your mom and dad you look exactly like BOTH of them!!!
This spoke to me so much. I make games and we are in crunch now. I live on the other side of the world, away from friends and family. I am burning out. Your mum asking "Is there anything we can do?" put a tear in my eye. Love your parents. I smiled when I saw them :) Take the time you need Patrick. We will be waiting! Back to work...
If you haven't yet, you should watch Whisper of the Heart. It's not a Miyazaki film, but I think you'd like it quite a bit.
@lianalobinha
4 жыл бұрын
For sure! It's wonderful
OH MY GOD IT'S LIKE YOU PULLED THIS FROM MY BRAIN
I know this is all about managing stress and burnout but I just remembered how Kiki's Delivery Service has, like, the best flying scenes I've ever seen in anything and now that's all I can think about.
Movies that have made Patrick cry is probably one that makes every one cry. (Paddington 2’s ending is so tough not to cry through holy shit)
Relating to this so much, especially the feeling guilty when not working part. And feeling stressed and anxious constantly because of all the pressure to upload on time.
Patrick! You gotta take care of you. Loved your little homage footage to Kiki (like sighing on your parent's counter, and making pancakes), plus your parents are adorable and loved how they read the sponsored segment at the end! While having higher ambitions for each video is a good thing, quality vs quantity while improving is a hard balance. But when you were talking about the ever increasing runtime of your videos, I have to say that try to aim a limit for a video's runtime. Like for instance this video at 14:00 is perfect, anything that's longer than 25 minutes can be a chore for most viewers. I know it's more of an investment but have you considered maybe working with an editor? Kiki's Delivery Service is my favorite Ghibli film too, plus don't worry, I also cried recently during the "fly" scene as my recent struggles resonated those of Kiki's and of yours illustrated in this video when I was introducing the film to my nieces and nephews earlier this summer. Anyway always a fan of your videos and look forward to them, take as many breaks as you need to keep your mind sharp and from being overwhelmed. All the best.
I left my career four months ago when I felt this way. Take a break Pat, you deserve it.
You're not alone brother! Parts of this had me clutching my chest with tears in my eyes. "Returning home after working late into the night and collapsing, canceling plans with friends because you're falling apart due to work and don't have the energy to interact with people". I HAVE to watch this film now. Thank you for this. Workaholics/ Creatives go through so much under the surface and for the longest we have ZERO to show for it. Take your time friend. Your work, efforts, creativity and experiences are important. We'll be here waiting for the alerts after you get some time to live your life ✌🏾
Just watched Kiki's Delivery Service for the first time and adored it, then came straight to this video for your take. You hit on so many of the things that I also responded to in the film. I moved to Dublin 6 years ago and am finishing up a PhD, and find myself in the same place as you were in this video - I love it, but it's draining me. Your discussion of the film was really enlightening and your honesty about stress and burnout was relatable and very affecting. Thanks you!
Great video about burnout. If only it hadn't been so much work to produce eh? Also the first time in years I haven't immediately closed the video once the ad started. Take care of yourself Patrick
Aaaaaaaaand now the girlfriend and I are going to watch Kiki's Delivery Service this weekend. Great video!
I understand Patrick. I run an online business and I'm constantly rotating between manic excitement over how I want to expand and grow with crippling anxiety over the un-ending work load and oppressive responsibility that never ends. Being your own boss means you don't get to clock out at 5 and put work out of your mind. It's always in the back of your head, even when you're taking a break. It's amazing because it's YOU and you have so much control, but it also never lets you out of its grasp. We love and enjoy your work. Please take the time you need to relax (regularly) so we can continue to enjoy your insight for years to come.
I only recently discovered your channel, but took no time at all in tearing my way through your archives. You helped remind me what I love about film after going through my own burnout. You've got a fan for life.
Fantastic video as always. Don’t work too hard, your well-being is more important!
We love ya Pat, take as much rest as you need. We don’t mind waiting.
The reason I subscribe to Patrick and youtubers like him is that he takes his time with videos and they're always good. I like seeing his updates every few weeks and knowing it's gonna be interesting instead of getting weekly or bi-weekly updates of filler. So he can take his time with videos.
As someone who just got back from a family holiday where I spent 8+ hours every day working because I have two weeks left to finish my thesis for a 4 year PhD that left me mentally drained, exhausted and sobbing from frustration and defeat more times than I can remember, this video really resonated with me. Academic science is obviously different from creative/gig economy work in many ways, but it’s also defined by incredibly long hours, high pressure to succeed, constantly shifting goalposts for what “success” actually is, the need to work the hours required to fulfil whatever the latest goal is, no matter what toll it takes on your physical or mental health and uncertainty over income and employment if you fail to adequately meet every increasing criteria for “success” in your field. So yeah, I can definitely relate. Thanks for making this video and being open about the struggles you face despite working a job you love and chose to do.
Sounds like Patrick is on a path to becoming hbomberguy: over 400k subs and a vid every 5 or so months.
@Argacyan
4 жыл бұрын
Patrick H Bomberguy, lol. Tbh the crossover would be cool.
@DwRockett
4 жыл бұрын
What are you talking about? All we need to do is sacrifice 4 lambs and a jar of honey to the ocean every Saturday and then hbomb is sure to release a new video then
@djaevlenselv
4 жыл бұрын
To the ocean? Are you sure that would work? Isn't Sobek more of a river god?
@valeoncat13
4 жыл бұрын
@@Argacyan They've had a crossover since this comment has been made! In the Kingdom Hearts video, Hbomberguy can be seen walking past the camera in the background.
Patrick, I could have sworn I saw your Mum(Mom) a couple of weeks ago, on a vintage bus, at a vintage fair, just outside London UK. I couldn't think where I knew this woman from, but then I remembered her saying "Patrick!" in her accent, and my brain did the dolly-zoom from Jaws. Probably wasn't her but there ya go. Take a break, a holiday. You're lucky you have awesome parents, who clearly love you and what you do very much. Spend more time with them.
@DarkDoughnutsVids
4 жыл бұрын
Doppelganger/alternate timeline/hallucination maybe?
This is a really important video for so many people to see, including myself. I'm just now leaving college and trying to get myself into a life where I work mostly for myself and produce art for an audience of friends and strangers. It's what I've always wanted to do, too. Hearing you talk about this, though, especially considering you have what I want, and hearing you talk about you struggle with mental health, it brings a lot of things into perspective. I mean, I also feel shitty about myself if I'm not constantly doing things with my time. That's a big reason I want the life I want. But again, I'm very happy to have seen this video. You're one of my favorite artists on the internet, and it feels like a personal letter (or maybe a diary entry?) on how to slow down and take care of yourself.
You, sir, are fantastic. I watch your videos in batches while I’m washing dishes, cleaning my house, etc. I really appreciate your perspective on films, and your videos make me love watching movies more. And Jameson also gives me joy. Do whatever makes/keeps you healthy & liking what you do. I love seeing new videos pop up in my feed, but if I don’t see any new ones, I always go back to your old stuff. I’ll be here regardless. Wishing the best for you!
“Up” isn’t on your list of movies that have made you cry, and I just want you to know I am judging you real hard for that omission
Mental health is important man. Take the time you need. We'll see your stuff when we see it :]
I've been there. I did KZread nearly full time for 6 years and never managed to break through but really wanted to. So full time KZread with two day jobs and musical projects on the side. I was anti-social and frequently unavailable but i'm glad i had friends (most of them anyways) who understood i had a goal and were patient with me. This video really spoke to me, as did Kiki's Delivery Service when i first watched it earlier this year. Kind of amazing i started watching your channel last week, then the next video you release is basically one written directly for me. I love your channel and your work. I won't just casually drop a "take a break, you've earned it" cause i know the fear involved in that, but i guess i'm commenting right now to just say "i hear you, and i understand that struggle".
Hope you get through this burnout, Patrick... left unchecked it can lead to worse health problems. I too have been suffering with similar issues for the past year and left my job in March to take a break and try and get refreshed. I'm still struggling, but working through it slowly. Best wishes!
This reminds me of Jazza's videos when he's struggling through burnouts and creative blocks. Don't stretch yourself too far buddy, go enjoy your idle minds.
Mate just take a damn holiday! You deserve it!
I, too, rarely cry during movies. My list goes: • It’s A Wonderful Life • Rocky • The Straight Story • Up • Boyhood • Inside Out • Sing Street
Started crying like a minute in because this movie is so important to me and I relate so much with you here. I don't think I go a single year without watching this movie. And I completely feel you on your experiences being burnt out and finding comfort in the film. I'm a freelance composer by trade but also work various gigs to make a living. I've gone through burnout so many times in the last few years and I'm only in my 20s. But the movie is always there to....serve as this kind of reminder that something isn't wrong with me, but is something that can just happen to anyone. idk I have a lot of thoughts about it but im not sure now is a moment where I can articulate them all. Anyway, point is thanks for the fantastic video. This is the first I've seen from you but I'll definitely follow what you done from here on. That said, take your time! Good luck with everything in the future!
Bein an artist with social media is complitely craycray. Take your time !
I’ll still be here to watch your videos when you get back. Just don’t quit for good you beautiful bald ginger.
This is one of those uniquely relatable videos that ascends a content creator from one I enjoy to a new favorite. I didn't know I needed a video about this topic so hard.
I, for one, am happy to see you spend an appropriate amount of time making videos you really want to make, instead of stressing and cramming to fulfill the needs of an arbitrary schedule you made to please an algorithm. Good job. It's nice to see this kind of candor from an Internet Personality; they're usually a lot more opaque than this, especially about issues of burnout.
It's sad that youtube favors creators that upload regulary, it forces creators to upload a video even if they have nothing to show or say. Maybe the algorythm should do the exact opposite. Personaly Im more liklely to watch a Video from someone I haven't seen in a while.
Wonderful video! Thank you. Remember to slow down and take it easy.
" I think Spirited Away is probably Miyazaki's best movie... But this is my favorite " I literally say this phrase, THIS EXACT PHRASE, all the time. For the same reasons as you do, the relatability level is off the charts, great video !
I’m watching this while on leave from work due to burnout, and your situation is really resonating with me today. I’ve stopped half way to avoid spoilers, but I’ll watch the film this weekend and hopefully I enjoy it as much as you have.
By the way, I can't see _Up_ on the list of movies that made Patrick cry, which seems to me like a clear indication that he's A LITERAL HEARTLESS MONSTER, I kid you not (I do... partially). Seriously, though: take care of yourself, Patrick, that's always the number one priority.
I'm no youtube creator, but no matter i do i've always made a big deal out of keeping the weekends off, i think that's important (Two consecutive days off every week).
Hey, man. First off, you're doing great. Take a break, recoup, and just do your thing you'll always have followers. Fall is coming soon and it's a reminder that change is ever constant and may yours be golden. Also, your parents are just lovely. Good vibes all around.
Wow... I think you just voiced my problems right now. I’m an artist and I’ve been struggling to make more art and stress out when I’m not making more art and my energy has just dried up. I’m so glad you shared this video, I think it helps other creators not feel alone in their struggles.
Work burnout is real. Breaks and vacations are important!
Just saying a few words to keep the yt algorithm machine ticking.
kiki's delivery service is such a happy and feel good movie. there are a few movies that I use as Anti-depressants (star wars, scott pilgrim, etc.) and Kiki is one of those. As a working (and studyied) musician, I can relate to a lot of your problems and I always connected with Kiki but never quite knew why. So thanks patrick willems. You explainend to me how I am a 13 year old Witch that struggles to fly. jokes aside, burnout and depression are not funny things and as soon as it affects your working schedule or private life, they need to be tackled and adressed. Artistic perfection is both a blessing and a curse, as it pushes you further to make the best art you've ever made while also prohibiting you from creating something simpler or easier or even stop creating when you're body needs some space and time out. Listen to your body and head and take as much time as you need, cause, well, you need it. Also that ad was the best ad I've ever seen.
I broke myself with work a few years back. To this day, I have not mentally recovered from it. I used to be just like you, feeling guilty if I am not working but now there are days where the thought of having to work gives me panic attacks and anxiety. I was diagnosed with PTSD caused by work. Learn to switch off because it is really hard to fix yourself if you collapse.
Lindsay Ellis appears to be taking a break. Also, I wish I had your parents.
Dang. 8 months without a vacation sounds terrible Even if you love your job
@Jza_Dragon
4 жыл бұрын
Or a weekend.
Oh my, your video hit home, hard and I'm so glad I found this. I can't even begin to describe how much I relate to you - and Kiki - but I will try. I'm not a youtuber, but an artist and even though I am not yet at the point where I can make a living off of my art, it's my passion, it's what I live and breathe for. But recently, during the past few weeks or months it's become such a...Chore and I've been struggling, partially because I've been having trouble concentrating. And yet I keep pushing forward, telling myself I need to "deliver" and "produce" results because it's what people expect from me. I update my social media pages on FB and IG twice a week, so I'm always dreading what happens if I don't have anything to show for...On top of it all I get so frustrated with myself - just like your videos get longer and you feel viewers expect that, my drawings get more and more elaborate. I want to draw something simple, but end up spending days working on tiny details - and for what? Because I am also chasing a goal, like you too, with your aim of publishing one video a month. I'm telling myself I need to finish my ToDo list with drawings I owe to other people, in order to have time for myself, that once I am done with that, I can focus on illustrations for my novel and things like that. I can't relax, I constantly think of work I have yet to do. I literally have to FORCE myself not to work on weekends, but every so often whenever I'm not productive enough, I will cancel my weekend to catch up. Due to all that pressure I put on myself, I haven't even had time for my other passion, writing, even though I miss it dearly. And I miss being creative, really drawing just for the fun of it, enjoying it, not just...Producing. I didn't realize until I watched your video that it might be artistic Burnout, though. I thought maybe I just lost my inspiration and convinced myself to join Inktober next month to recapture the creative flame. But maybe, once this challenge is over, I should take a step back too, and pause for a while, just like Ursula did... I dunno. In any case, I want to say thank you for your amazing video, it really opened my eyes.
Ok. You got me pretty good with the parents reading the skill share ad thing. That had me laughing genuinely out loud. Well done sir
I always wanted to live in Kiki's world too.
Simply set work only hours and leisure only hours. And force yourself to the schedule. You find the job magically starts to fit inside the deadline after a while.
The quality of your work is ridiculously good for how much you put out, I'm not surprised that's taking a lot out of you. When I first subscribed I never expected the quantity of videos you put out, I was just looking forward to the quality. As an aside, Kiki's delivery service is beautiful, I watch it in the same way.
Thank you for sharing this, Patrick. I too had this exact same experience with both KZread and Kiki. Early in 2018 I got burnt out trying to make this channel a full-time gig, it completely crippled my creativity and ability to work. In this time I rewatched Kiki and it taught me that you can't force it, and in time it will all return. And then I made a video about Fisherman's Horizon from Final Fantasy VIII and my KZread burnout / anxiety, and what Kiki had taught me. I'm so grateful to hear your story and how much it parallels with my own. It's nice to know you're not alone.
Your parents are adorable. I detect an accent from your mom, where is she from?
@erraticonteuse
4 жыл бұрын
Well, she named her son Patrick... (She's Irish.)
I want to Thank You so much for this video. Just yesterday I posted on FB how I'm feeling burnt out and questioning the worth of my efforts. Now I see my situation is not unique, and, more importantly, is more the product of the expectations I force upon myself due to the KZread atmosphere. I need to find me a copy of Kiki's Delivery Service! Got to go and make my next video, but just want to say Thanks again!
Kiki's means soo much to my growing up and I'm excited to see it's such an inspiration and comfort to you too! Hope you find that groove again soon, but take the time you need!
You're an amazing creator Patrick. Thank you for all your hardwork. I can significantly relate to your struggle, and I hope your continuing work on achieving balance and practicing wellness succeed fabulously. Also, that's one of the few times I've watched all the way through the endorsement -pure gold. Give your parents a hug from KZread.
Good for you. Life is far to short to throw years away due to stress and work. Your talent and intelligence are evident in every video you have, so all of us who are lucky enough to see them, will be here whenever they come out. Schedules are great as a road map, but don’t forget to sit back, look up from the map, and enjoy the fact your alive and the view of a passing world.
I never really dove too deeply into doing KZread/creative work until recently, and I appreciate honest little projects like this that shed some insight on the experience. Your voice is one that I respect and I hope you know that what you say has immense value to a ton of folks. Returning the favor and being here for you when you come back from a vacation of any length is the least we can do.
This video was beautiful. Not ashamed to say I teared up a little hearing your story. Take the break you need, Im sure all the fans of your videos will be more than happy to wait a bit for the sake of your well being.
I deal with so much of this same stuff as a podcast producer. And I take the exact same refuge in Kiki's. With you, man.
God damn! ... this video comes at the right time. I'm becoming a teacher and the words you said, were the things I felt for the past weeks. So eerie to hear them from you. Thanks to open my eyes to that I'm also actually struggling with this and have to bring back a sensible balance back into my life.
Trust me man, I started watching back in the old days with the fun short films and I know a lot of your fans are ,like me, from the old days. Every single day the early Patrick inspires me, shows me that I can make anything I want to with no budget and make it great. If you wanna make a fun, goofy, short video, trust me, we’re all for it
I hope that you enjoy your break(s). You're content is more than worth sticking around for, no matter the math. I've seen a good few videos/posts like this were the KZreadr explains about their burnout but this one is the first to really show me what that's like (even if that was against the whole point) - you're amazingly talented at this & I wish you all the best
Such a fascinating way to look at burnout! This is why you are such a great creator mate, because you can extrapolate the meaning from one of your favourite movies and connect with the character in a whole new way.
Have I said how much I love your parents lately? Because I love your parents. Also, I hope you figure out a better life/work balance. I've been burnt out (by a job I loved and ended up having to leave), and it sucks hard because the recovery is as hard if not harder than the process of reaching burnout. Good luck!
As a teacher man do I relate but we have “forced” breaks built into our schedule, that are so necessary. I can’t imagine having to dictate that myself, especially with my income so directly tied to it. In short, I empathize. More to the point, thank you for what you do. Your videos allow me to think, learn, but also unplug. Lately they’ve even been a big help to the Film Club I just started sponsoring, at my school. So many of those students want to learn about film and storytelling through the medium; many videos have served as great resource for that. Also, several of them want to create and they appreciate your occasional focus on the process of creating. With that in mind, I think a lot of people would be interested in just simple videos answering user submitted questions or some behind the scenes shorts. Maybe this helps, maybe it doesn’t, regardless we are still here... be that weekly, monthly, or just the occasional gem, lovingly dropped in our lap.
Bless you and how hard you obviously work on these, Patrick. I haven't watched a single video of yours without true enjoyment and, often, a more profound understanding of cinema. Keep on keeping on, and take a break if you think you need one. I know we all support you, dude.
That describes depression and major anxiety. You described the exact symptoms I felt 10 months ago, before I got help and started working towards getting better. And the cycle of freelancing you mention is a vicious one : you don`t do the work, you miss a schedule, you stress about not delivering, you get more tired, you don`t do the work, you miss a schedule...etc! It's a vicious, vicious, cycle. It feeds itself. Seek help, get help, and do it you way Also, Joe Hisa/ishi (Sorry, my Japanese pronunciation system shorted out when you said it lol)