"why is it when I'm hurt I'm the one sending the apology" this hit harder than home.

@jamesbrownraps2202

5 жыл бұрын

fucking same

@kjthawriter

5 жыл бұрын

Haley is great damn... that’s so on point... This Man is speaking some real hurt and some real truth

@asap.rhymes9766

5 жыл бұрын

Hit harder than a semi.... >_

@chandlerwills1573

4 жыл бұрын

Don't feel bad I just cought my wife yes my wife lying hideing shit and cheated and I'm the one who was going crazy like it was fault like I'm the one who was cheating

@tonyravioli1982

3 жыл бұрын

@@chandlerwills1573 Divorce dat bitch

This is how many hearts Ivan has touched: 👇🏽

@ErdemOzcan362

5 жыл бұрын

@godishakira

5 жыл бұрын

Fuck off.

@breezysports4962

5 жыл бұрын

It should be so much more

@isaiahcortez5601

5 жыл бұрын

Nice

@carlosalicea9409

5 жыл бұрын

Mine. Usually every day

It's finally yours! Be sure to share the music as much as possible. You all mean a lot to me! #STAYREADY

@jayrock002

5 жыл бұрын

Just do everyone a favor dude. Don't ever stop making music, this is what the world needs right now even if they don't know it. I'll take something I can feel over something I can just listen to any day. Keep grinding man, God Bless.

@lexiebear15

5 жыл бұрын

We love you Ivan 💕

@cklausnacho8373

2 жыл бұрын

Las letras de las canciones que haces . Te destrozan y te vuelven a reconstruir . Saludos.

@allahusnackbar9856

2 жыл бұрын

It's been three years since you posted it but man I swear I really need this rn I have a mental disability and don't have all my emotions It keeps me from having that life but I know I want it even if it's not perfect

[Verse 1] I'm on my lowest point, I'm on my lowest point God, I need you more than ever I need to hear your voice I don't know what to say I don't know how to feel I've looked over so many things Can you tell me when I'm gonna heal? I wonder when I'm going to stand up for myself Stand for the things I believe in Who's gonna tell me they love me and mean it? Who can I trust? I won't keep any secrets You said I could trust you, I ended up bleeding And you ended up leaving, you ended up leaving No star's gonna shine forever No sky lives without any storm There's always a cloud in the summer Is it love if nobody endures? Is it love when you tell me you love me at night when you want to feel warm? Is it love when I tell you I love you so you don't feel hurt anymore? Is it love if the love ain't the same anymore? There's pain in my chest, it won't leave me alone Didn't need much, just don't leave me alone Cars, planes, and boats, this feeling just don't wanna go Feels like I'm outta control, feel like I'm losing my mind Feels like I'm outta my mind They say time heals everything Feels like I'm outta time, yeah [Verse 2] Why is it always me? Why is it always me? Why is it when I'm hurt I send the apology? My heart is my greatest strength Right now it's my greatest weakness The deepest cuts you won't never see Sometimes we don't even see it Sometimes I get in my car just to drive Sometimes I feel like I'm not alive Sometimes I look up to Heaven like, "Is there a ladder to climb?" Put on my forehead, "I'm fine" I don't got too many friends Every day I just sit in my room Some people will knock on my door But I'm sorry, don't got any room People come in, they eventually leave Starting to think that maybe it's me Like maybe this is just all I'ma be Ruin the good thing then put it in music Rewind and repeat This is my lowest point This is my lowest moment There's always remains of the past They live in all of us, every moment Learning to live with them Learning to deal with them Learning you can't just let 'em go Why do things just disappear when you pass a certain road? I wrote you a text, I'm scared to send it Kinda don't want you to read it 'Cause if I send it to you now I know I'ma say I don't mean it, yeah [Outro] Let me sleep I am tired of my grief Ay, I don't know man, I'm just tired And I would like you If you're not gonna keep promises, don't make some in the first place To love me, to love me, to love me I guess it's always just me in the end, huh? This is the night when these woods sigh Yeah, I don't know; that's it, I'm done

I am going to be listening to this song for the next ten years.

Thank you for your gift. Your music is therapeutic.

@bmxkid1417

3 жыл бұрын

Yes. Agreed

@emanuelcurry5542

2 жыл бұрын

Yw

I don't live for this music... This music is why I can live. 😿😿

His best song yet.

Man... I'm heartbroken listening to this song :( Thanks for the beautiful music Ivan.

You’ll be alright, everyone feels like they’re at their lowest point at a time, something new will come along

@incog0956

5 жыл бұрын

We don't want new

I've been listening to this song for 3 weeks straight

@VIthekitty

Ай бұрын

Ha, (me who’s been listening to it on repeat for month and a half) weak…

WE NEED AN NF AND IVAN B COLLAB!

Ivan thank you.. your music has always been comforting. I'm at a low point in life, your music keeps my head high.

I am a huge fan of your music bc I relate to damn near everything you've written. But this song.. it's like you are putting MY life into music. I can't even explain to you the depths at which God uses you, and the struggles you've clearly had to endure, to help others of us not feel so alone or broken. Praise Him for the gifts He's given you Ivan B. May He bless your faithfulness and continually renew your spirit.

This is my favorite song of the album.

This is why I love this artist. He can be completely sentimental and so relatable and it makes you melt. Also the dude is an amazing rapper I can snap at any moment and put out a fire track

*”if you’re not gonna keep promises, don’t make some in the first place.”* god damn

Your music is helping me everyday. This song is amazing and I relate to it so much

@TheDark-jh1do

5 жыл бұрын

All Fucked up I do too 🙃

Thank God for ivan b and for all of us the loyal fanbase i wanna say thank u bro for songs like this i know its a therapy for you and its also a therapy for all of us man i love ur music so much bro thank u honestly

wow.

The Beat is called Winter Aid- The Wisp Sings ! You’re welcome !

this song touches me in so many ways.. undescribeable. this is the music i fw tbh...

Truth. Wow nearly 40 yrs old. Brought back too as my teens. Damn crazy. 🔥🔥

thank you Ivan B for your beautiful art to help me get through these tough days

I'm at my lowest point, god I need you more then ever I need to hear your voice 😩

I'm on my lowest point, I'm on my lowest point God, I need you more than ever I need to hear your voice I don't know what to say I don't know how to feel I've looked over so many things Can you tell me when I'm gonna heal? I wonder when I'm going to stand up for myself Stand for the things I believe in Who's gonna tell me they love me and mean it? Who can I trust? I won't keep any secrets You said I could trust you, I ended up bleeding And you ended up leaving, you ended up leaving No star's gonna shine forever No sky lives without any storm There's always a cloud in the summer Is it love if nobody endures? Is it love when you tell me you love me at night when you want to feel warm? Is it love when I tell you I love you so you don't feel hurt anymore? Is it love if the love ain't the same anymore? There's pain in my chest, it won't leave me alone Didn't need much, just don't leave me alone Cars, planes, and boats, this feeling just don't wanna go Feels like I'm outta control, feel like I'm losing my mind Feels like I'm outta my mind They say time heals everything Feels like I'm outta time, yeah Why is it always me? Why is it always me? Why is it when I'm hurt I send the apology? My heart is my greatest strength Right now it's my greatest weakness The deepest cuts you won't never see Sometimes we don't even see it Sometimes I get in my car just to drive Sometimes I feel like I'm not alive Sometimes I look up to Heaven like, "Is there a ladder to climb?" Put on my forehead, "I'm fine" I don't got too many friends Every day I just sit in my room Some people will knock on my door But I'm sorry, don't got any room People come in, they eventually leave Starting to think that maybe it's me Like maybe this is just all I'ma be Ruin the good thing then put it in music Rewind and repeat This is my lowest point This is my lowest moment There's always remains of the past They live in all of us, every moment Learning to live with them Learning to deal with them Learning you can't just let 'em go Why do things just disappear when you pass a certain road? I wrote you a text, I'm scared to send it Kinda don't want you to read it 'Cause if I send it to you now I know I'ma say I don't mean it, yeah Let me sleep I am tired of my grief Ay, I don't know man, I'm just tired And I would like you If you're not gonna keep promises, don't make some in the first place To love me, to love me, to love me I guess it's always just me in the end, huh? This is the night when these woods sigh Yeah, I don't know; that's it, I'm done

your music helps me get through so much

Nothing like listening to your music after a long day. Keep doing what your doing cause to me, this is music. Many can relate, such as myself. Much love.

Every time I listen to his songs it remind me so much of my past. Im already crying again. I love it so much. It's a great song. Thank you so much ❤️

I swear this dude is sooo good at making music, even if it’s love, life, whatever it is. He makes it great! People should’ve make music like this more about life, and if you’ve heard of one please comment own below. Thanks 🙏

So beautiful, another amazing album Ivan

Love this song

Ivan you are a true goat love you

my best song, i feel like its so relatable, my life in a song.

Wow. Amazing Ivan 👌

Dude, thank you. Seems like no one around get the pain of loving someone who did nothing but fuck you up inside and out. The music does help, especially when the alcoholic and smoke becomes to weak to numb sometimes

I love all his music

I feel like I've been here to many times recently. I've been to this exact song over and over again. God I need more than ever, sometimes I feel like ending it works out in the end. I don't have to worry about anything anymore, I don't have to feel anything anymore. I won't have a sense of regret or a sense of emptiness. Feels like I'm out of time.

Remind for u Iván, God never forget♡. Nice song🔥

"Is it love when i tell you i love you so you don't feel hurt anymore" hit me so hard💔

this guy is dope. IVAN you the best

this album came out at the same time i feel that i am at my lowest point

God doesn’t leave us, he never turns his back on us but we do... I’ve gone through this feeling before

Chill vibes 🥀💯

ooof, right in the heart

Best song on album!! This needs a video. This needs more shares. This right here is real. This right here is

thank you for your skills on the music, awe really makes me think so much about a person ive took for granted and didnt see it like that it hurt me to run from him while i was at my lowest, yet i been more wounded than i was after he helped me heal from the first love i had yet i was in denial on falling for him in that progress of him standing by me when i was broken yet i up and ran as i questioned my self on loving him more than a friend, than started to get faded on a daily for 3 years ,. all of the reason of taken him for granted was lack of communication.. :( buh i know im healing now from my mistakes one day soon once i get to see him in 19 months ill be able to love my own reflection and show him the love he deserves i wish i never ran from my own hurt, buh the feeling of being hurt the first time i fell in love, and he was patient enough and had that heart of gold and put time into my broken heart and hurt people hurt other people and i wish i didnt hurt him, buh i guess 2020 ill be ready to face my fears, and speak out my truth on all because i used to act cold and emotionless he proved to loyalty should be mixed with love, risking couldve gave me healing instead i chooose to run being afraid to hurt him more not knowing i was hurting both of us by all the distance for 3 years yet i only thought it was 2 buh the night we reunited for a few hour i was for sure viewed my own feelings by feeling hurt knowing i felt so completed after 3 years of feeling like i lost a part of me. buh love ur musicc its something that opens the eyes and heart and yes thank you for your gifted talent, it'll get me by til 2020 with the right answers

If anyone needs to talk, let's talk about anything.

@trippin6828

5 жыл бұрын

Do you have a gf? Or are u a girl cause I need advice how to get her to like you if you are already ftiends

@akman1931

5 жыл бұрын

@@trippin6828all I can advise is be yourself and let her tell you if she likes you more than that... you force something and itll damage the relationship. I liked a couple girls before that were good friends of mine and they didnt want to be anything more. It hurt but I eventually moved on. Hope you're all good with your thoughts and all.

@trippin6828

5 жыл бұрын

@@akman1931 thanks man ☺

@butchadrian5940

5 жыл бұрын

@@trippin6828 look up Based Zeus on here helps out alot with girls

@ashley__c

5 жыл бұрын

I feel like I'll never find the man and the love of my life, the one who I have a vision about in my head :(

I hope that one day i will come here with everything healed 🖤

This song hit hard

i can’t express how fucking beautiful this song is and how much it means to me. it has done much more than just satisfy my eardrums… it has saved me in so many ways. i love you ivan b 💖

Me and my family are going through our lowest point right now and this song is uncomfortably relatable. This brings me to tears everytime I listen. Thank you so much Ivan

Thank you for your beautiful gift. Truely a voice of an angel. Thanks for serving him through music to reach many♡

My boyfriend and I broke up a couple days ago, and ever since I've been putting this song on repeat. I loved him for so long, liked him ever since my freshman year of high school and finally confessed during my senior year. Everything hurts so much, he told me he never felt the same way, if so then why did he date me? kiss me? told me he loved me? whispered me those sweet nothings? held me? why? were they all lies? God, everything hurts, now looking back at those pictures we took together, now knowing that he never felt the same in any of them. His heart never fluttered, no butterflies in his tummy, his heart never skipped a beat when he received a text from me, never laughed or felt happy around me. Only I felt all that 😭😭😭😭😭😭 I give my all in a relationship for the SECOND time only to have my heart used, broken and bruised. I'm tired of trying, thanks Ivan B....I never thought i'd ever relate to this song, but right now it's the thing I can relate to the most. Love you ❤❤

@haleyrose3407

4 жыл бұрын

I understand how you feel I'm in the same boat

@haleyrose3407

4 жыл бұрын

luckily I moved on and found someone else who loved me

@elliex7551

4 жыл бұрын

@@haleyrose3407 that's good to hear! Hope you're doing well!! 😊

@haleyrose3407

4 жыл бұрын

@@elliex7551 trying to be.

@elliex7551

4 жыл бұрын

@@haleyrose3407 aww, if you ever need anything feel free to talk 😊 you aren't alone in anything!

Honestly started to listen to you Ivan B about 2 months ago and your music expresses the emotion you put into your craft You should keep doing what your doing and keep making music.

Hebrews 13:5 Never will i leave you; never will i forsake you.

Just know you loved bro no matter what

Deep Ivan that deep

damn that is deep

Subtitulado al español para los que quieran! Likee Estoy en mi punto más bajo, estoy en mi punto más bajo Dios, Te necesito más que nunca Necesito escuchar tu voz No sé que decir No sé cómo sentirme He buscado por tantas cosas ¿Puedes decirme cuando me voy a curar? Me pregunto cuando voy a defenderme Levantarme por las cosas en las que creo ¿Quién va a decirme que me ama y decirlo enserio? ¿En quién puedo confiar? Nadie mantiene ningún secreto Tu dijiste que puedo confiar en ti y termine sangrando Y terminaste por irte, terminaste por irte. Ninguna estrella va a brillar para siempre Ningún cielo vive sin tormenta. Siempre hay una nube en el verano. ¿Es amor si nadie perdura? ¿Es amor cuando me dices que me amas por la noche cuando quieres sentir calor? ¿Es amor cuando te digo que te amo para que ya no te sientas herida? ¿Es amor si el amor no es el mismo ya? Hay dolor en mi pecho que no me dejara solo No necesitaba mucho, simplemente no me dejes solo. Coches, aviones y barcos, esta sensación no se quiere ir Se siente como si estuviera perdiendo el control Se siente como si estuviera perdiendo la cabeza Dicen que el tiempo lo cura todo Se siente como si me hubiera quedado sin tiempo. (Verso 2) ¿Porque siempre soy yo? ¿Porque siempre soy yo? ¿Por qué es cuando estoy herido que envió una disculpa? Mi corazón es mi mayor fortaleza Ahora mismo es mi mayor debilidad Los cortes más profundos que nunca veras A veces ni siquiera lo vemos. A veces me meto en mi auto solo para conducir A veces siento que no estoy vivo A veces miro hacia el cielo como “¿hay una escalera para subir?” Ponerme en la frente “estoy bien” No tengo demasiados amigos Todos los días me siento en mi habitación. Algunas personas quieren golpear mi puerta Pero lo siento, no consegui ninguna habitación. La gente entra y finalmente se van. Comienzo a pensar que tal vez soy yo Como esto es todo lo que soy Arruinar lo bueno luego ponerlo en la música Rebobinar y repetir Este es mi punto mas bajo Este es mi momento mas bajo Siempre quedan resto del pasado Viven en todos nosotros, en cada momento. Aprendiendo a vivir con ellos Aprendiendo a tratar con ellos Aprendiendo que no puedes simplemente dejarlos ir ¿Por qué las cosas simplemente desaparecen cuando pasas por un camino determinado? Te escribí un mensaje, tengo miedo de enviarlo. Un poco no quiero leerlo Porque si te lo envió ahora Se que lo que digo no es enserio..

Anyone notice the beat a altered version of “The Wisp Stings” by winter aid

@bestbassbooster

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for pointing that out! I've been trying to find the background music for the longest time. Beautiful song!

@Lunz6472

4 жыл бұрын

Yes! Thank God someone noticed it!

@khanyambeki2929

4 жыл бұрын

It's credited in the description

This Music..... I Get emotional every single time I listen to Ivan

This is one of many reasons why I love Ivan B and this was the very first song of his that made me cry. His music is blend of self reflection along with the reality of life with relatable experiences. Not to mention he’s very blunt about the message he wants to point out without the need of swearing

@sohzwicky2425

3 жыл бұрын

What's his first?

Always waiting sir

😭😭🖤🖤 just found about him he's great

Finally🙌🏼👌🏼

You're the best Ivan B! Truly talented and my favourite rapper! Keep dropping tracks!

Damn man, so powerful and relatable. Tough times don’t last but tough people do. Keep fighting the good fight brother. Your music speaks to a lot of people.

I always come back this on moments I feel shattered and like I can’t pick up the pieces💔😭

This told my life story 🥺

Favorite song in this album 😍🎵

wowwwwwwww am speachless😍😍😢 heart touching

So much to relate to. Really needed this Ivan thank you so much

This song made me cry and think of my life story. I guess I don't have friends because they say they are for me for when I feel sad or whatever but when I reach out for help nobody answers. I keep counting on God but as a teenager it is very hard for me to have no friends. I feel so bad when I see other girls that have their father and their father gives a lot of love to them or they go shopping or something but I don't feel like my dad is like that with me. I love very much my father but he isn't like a paternal figuer I could use like rolemodel because a years ago he hit my mom. They're still together and don't fight but it still hurts me. I've had this problem of seeking for "love" or wanting to feel loved because my father doesn't give me much attention. I feel very depressed these last years and now I'm really on my lowest point because I think I wasted a lot of time meeting fake friends and people who don't really care about me.

@Vale23M

3 жыл бұрын

People please mention me in your prayers. I need liberation from this depression. I want to love myself and care for my own life like I did when I was in my childhood.

@jeosanchez3600

3 жыл бұрын

@@Vale23M I wish I can too, just like when I was younger. And I'll pray for you

@Vale23M

3 жыл бұрын

@@jeosanchez3600 Thank You

Hey Ivan. You are inspiring and your pain shared is letting us know you are special and we all will pray for increased success in all that you do. I know music is a true outlet for release and your heart and soul reach out. Embrace the challenges, clench your fists, fight back in your lyrics and above all, never lose HOPE... In yourself, your music and others... Keep bringing it...

Ivan B just went way higher in my estimations when I heard this sample from Winter Aid - The Wisp Sings. For this that haven’t heard the original then I strongly suggest you do. I absolutely loved this song and it hit deep man.

I relate do much to this and it hurts... Tears are coming.... Keep it up bro! ❤️

Thank you for this song. I needed this

I just heard this today for the first time an wow, You are extremely talented! An it is true that the people with the biggest hearts get hurt and stomped on the most I know from personal experience too brother. Stay strong, keep your head up and always keep your faith.

best one on the album. So good, I hope this gets the recognition it deserves

Dayummm

This song deserves millions

I'm on my lowest line.. For me, it seems like it is the lowest point but in fact, it is Line. Sometimes there is a hole in this line. This music creates one. Helps a lot. Thank you.

I feel you, in every word every line... God I need you

Thank you for this song.

I have real love and Respect for you Ivan you are great homie

This song is something means a lot and has many meanings it’s awesome

Deep music Ivan B Honestly speaks to my soul and thoughts Your music is great you are a great rapper and i hope other ppl can feel the emotion and actual issues. You keep doing what youre doing you doing a thing for ppl like me i bump all your albums. You keep doing you youre doing great. Deep song my dude. I really hope to hear of your stuff on the radio in laredo tx. Youre a true rapper keep it up

If anyone feels at their lowest point? Just know I'm here for you...all you need to do is talk.

Beautiful

Your legendary Ivan

👍!👍!👍!👍!👍!👍!👍!👍!👍!👍! Definitely been there myself. At least I hope so, because if I ever have to go lower than the lowest i've already been, I don't even want to think about it. Anyway, Thanks for the honesty & great song.

I’ve hit rock bottom recently and this masterpiece almost got me weeping

Thats amazing

You're okay. You got this. Deep breath. One day at a time. Tomorrow the sun comes up. So do you.

The instrumentals are amazing and then you add the lyrics...this song is ridiculously beautiful.

Omg dude I love ur music

💔💔💔

This! This is amazing.

On repeat