I'm so sorry that you've been going through all of this - it sounds like a nightmare. 🥺 But I was so happy to see that you'd uploaded ♥️. I also LOVE that you're so passionate about breeding cresties. They're my favorite. 😍

I’m glad you’re back I’ve missed u 🥺

@MaddieSmith

3 жыл бұрын

🥺💕

I’m sooo glad you’re doing better and found a medication that is (sort of, mostly) working. You look gorgeous and it’s so nice to see you on KZread. It breaks my heart that you’ve been going THROUGH IT but I loved the good news at the end 🥰 we just got our first Crestie the other day! Can’t wait to purchase supplies and/or a new baby from you guys in the future. Sending you both love!

when i tell you i dropped everything to come watch this. hi maddie i missed watching your videos

Both my parents had COVID because they're both in medicine. My anxiety was through the roof when I heard my mom was intubated. Both my parents are better now. Everyone in my nuclear family is vaccinated as well. I agree with you..I also want to go back to the normal where you post animal videos and stuff. For now, I can only hope you keep getting better and better.

I remember watching Tyler’s video with your update a while ago and I’m glad to see you’re doing better and found something productive and fun to put all of your passion into. Looking forward to more celestial updates 😊

Welcome back love! So glad we have connected because of Cresteds 💕

I definitely understand the OCD part. I struggle with it myself, so please know you’re not alone. ❤️

I clicked so fast omg. Maddie I’ve missed you and your content so muchh

So glad to see you recovering! Proper diagnoses and a supportive partner are absolute (literal) lifesavers when it comes to physical and mental health. I'm super excited to see where Celestial Exotics takes you, and just keep taking everything one day at a time, it'll get better🧡

I'm glad to see you back and I'm happy you're doing better! Sending lots of love!

Hey, Maddie. Just finding your channel bc I was interested in tarantulas and stumbled upon Tyler's channel.. which led me to you! I just felt compelled to say YOU ARE AWESOME. Huge respect for coming on here and opening up about everything you've been going through this past year and a half. I can relate to a lot of the things you talked about (except for POTS - it sounds so incredibly debilitating and I am so sorry you've had to struggle with it) and I just wanted to commend you strength. I know how hard it is and I'm so glad you've been able to find doctors who have helped you. Again you rock and you're an inspiration and just seem like a super cool person :) Know that no matter how you feel about yourself random strangers on the internet love to see your face and hear what you have to say because you're THAT COOL. Much love and hope you continue to feel better 💕

So happy to hear you're doing better. also, the paint example you gave is honestly one of the best ways I've heard to describe contamination ocd, I was never able to put it into words this well

Hell yeah. Glad to see ya, Maddie! Total support. ❤️

The Queen has returned! Really happy to have you back Maddie! Looking forward to future uploads!

I've just checked out earlier this day your channel again and now you're here! I'm so glad you're back! 💕 You are super strong!!!

I'm so happy that you are doing better, Maddie! We missed your face. 🙂 Sending love, and good vibes your way. 💖✨

For the record I could never forget you existed. I mean, you were on Tyler's channel some. I knew you were having a super hard time. Glad to see you back.

Ive missed your content I hope your doing well and make sure to stay hydrated!

Yay maddie!!!! Missed your videos and glad you're doing better

I'm so freaking excited!!!! I'm sorry about you having POTS though, but I'm disabled with POTS too!❤ You're totally not alone there, I just didn't get POTS from Covid. I've been sick since I was 14, so I'm going on 13 years of being disabled now. I look forward to more videos from you again!! We've missed you!!

I’m so glad to see you’re back, Maddie! I love you girl ❤️

You're so strong going theough all that i could never. Im so glad your kinda back and i will always be following you no matter how long the break!! Thanks for updating us!

So nice to see you again and thank you for sharing what's been happening

YAY you're back!!

I have loved and watched your channel and I’m so happy you are starting to feel better and found something you are very passionate about. I have seen you around the crested geckos groups and I’ve even seen you like my posts. 😊

OMG YOURE BACK ON KZread I missed you here and I love you Maddie ❤️

I’m so glad your doing better ❤️

I appreciate that you talked about all of this. You definitely did not have to talk about. But I relate so much to what you are going through. I hope you feel better mentally and physically. 💜

So glad to see your face again! Sending you lots of love. ❤️

Oh my gods I missed you SO SO SO much! I'm so happy that you're doing better and I hope that you continue to do well!

Glad you are doing better. I also recently got into crested gecko breeding and love how goofy they can be. Good luck with your breeding projects.

I’m so sorry you went through all of this, Maddie! I send you my love & lots of hugs. Much, Much, MUCH, Love to you! I wish I could give you a big hug. I’m sending lots of love & virtual hugs ❤️

So happy to see you, this too shall pass! ❤️❤️

Maddie welcome home!

I havnt finished the video but I got to the part of the diagnosis and you can get service dog for it! There’s some youtubers that have pots that you could watch such as Service dog paws

@MaddieSmith

3 жыл бұрын

Yes I’ve seen! I considered doing that but since my medicine seems to be working pretty well and I have Tyler everywhere I go I’m going to keep it in the background for now. I’d most certainly have to get a program dog so they’d be properly mobility trained. Maybe some day!

@riverhollow8744

3 жыл бұрын

@@MaddieSmith ok! I’m really happy you found medicine that works for you!

It’s good to see you back!

It’s so good to see you on KZread again ❤️ love you Maddie

Hey I also have harm ocd and a couple of other types it’s lovely to hear that other people have the same disorder beacuse their are so few resources about harm/ pure o ocd . I hope you are doing well and I’m glad your back and are okay

Welcome back!

I was thinking about you the other day, glad you're doing better!!!

Im so happy your doing better now! Its great to see you here again

Glad to see that you are doing well and have found treatments that are helping. Even if it’s another year later, I’ll still look forward to your future content :)

We missed you !!! I'm sorry for everything that's happend but happy your getting back on track 💓 cannot wait for your future content but take some time getting back I to things ! Dont put too much pressure on yourself !!!

Yay your back ❤❤❤

So glad your back

So sorry you have had to go through all of this, but glad to see getting batter and back on KZread.❤

glad to see you bb!

I've been missing your videos, I'm glad you're doing better!

I'VE MISSED SEEING YOUR FACE. Welcome back (in whatever capacity that may entail

sending you all of the love and support!!!

glad you`re back, i didn`t unsubscribe :-)

I was so worried about you! I'm glad to see you though!

I'm glad you're feeling better. And i totally understand. When I saw the newest Star Wars movie in late January, I had trouble breathing. I've had debilitating vertigo and motion sickness since contracting coronavirus and have only just now started feeling better.

@MaddieSmith

3 жыл бұрын

I’m so glad you’re starting to feel better finally! It’s a mess and so scary when you’re not sure if or when you’ll pull through. I hope you’re able to rewatch the star wars movie and be able to fully enjoy it!

I totally get the OCD stuff - fellow sufferer - it's so hard and awkward to explain to people. I often explain my OCD that it's like having a magic button that you have no idea if it actually works and it probably doesn't but if it does it will protect the ones you love - so you press it incase. I'm glad you're coming through the other side of your tunnel, you definitely deserve some good times now 💙

@MaddieSmith

3 жыл бұрын

That’s a great analogy, and a very sad one. I understand it all too well. Thank you for your support 💕

@miloneedle8093

3 жыл бұрын

What a good way to explain it. I have had far to many people including medical professionals call me crazy. It’s just so lovely to hear other people ideas/ stores about their ocd

Hey Maddie! I live really local to you bc I'm in metro Detroit area too and grew up here. I've been tuning in to you and Tyler again recently, I hope you go to the Taylor Expo so I can meet you guys! 💕 The pandemic has been crazy and I've felt nervous about going there bc it gets crowded but maybe we will cross paths someday :^) Congrats on your business and I'm glad you are recovering since last year with everything

Welcome back I hope to meet you at the cin city reptile show never thought you would go to Ohio!❤️

Chronic illness squad unite! Glad you have found a doctor and medication that work well for you! Wishing you continued health improvements! ❤️

I’m exited to see your videos for the future Also crested geckos are a perfect investment for you

Glad you're back and doing better.

Oh Maddie!I hope you feel better,I remember when I was younger I wanted to be you so bad haha,keep going strong!I send you my best vibes✨🤍

Missed you alot 🥰

Its gonna be ok 😊

Covid is Brutal. one of my friends was in a coma from it for 2 months. and had multiple complications including infection of the lining of the heart shes only 30 and has lost the use of her right arm and left leg aswell as being on oxygen possibly for the rest of her life x stay strong and you have come so far x

@MaddieSmith

3 жыл бұрын

God that’s awful.. so heartbreaking. I really truly hope she improves with time as her body recovers a bit. Sending love to you and your friend!

I struggle with harm OCD. It’s hard. You explained it perfectly. Thinking of you. 🖤

hope you feel better Maddie

COVID really put a damper on a lot of channels, glad to see you are back

I was diagnosed with POTS post COVID as well; however, I had pots symptoms for years. I also have Multiple Sclerosis & I guess the two diagnosis often go hand in hand.

I really need your help, I'm so stressed out about this, I have a tegu and I can't find the right hood for her UVB, the UVB light is big and it fits for a bigger terriruiem hood, any links to where I can find any??

So happy you are doing well enough to come back. You have been missed.

Love ya sis!

@MaddieSmith

3 жыл бұрын

Miss you, hopefully we can come visit soon 🥰

I've always love you Maddie. I'm so sorry the past almost 2yrs has been so crap for you. I hope things start looking up.

I gasped when I saw your name pop up in my KZread notifications. It’s so nice to see your gorgeous face again, and I’m glad you’re pushing through. Kudos to Tyler for being a helpful boyfriend. I look forward to seeing more of you!

Oh my gosh! You've been through the ringer. So sorry this happen to you. The crested gecko project sounds amazing though and thank goodness you found a great doctor.

You're super funny you do a great job with what you're doing keep up the good work

Wow, I am so glad you are doing better! Did you get vaccinated? There are studies showing that long covid symptoms get way better with the vaccine. I hope you keep on getting better. Lots of love from Germany.

Hoping to see more from you soon!

You are pretty. I'm glad you are ok Maddie. You are a bright funny woman. I remember laughing with you at the lunch table and on the bus.

Do you have any recommendations for crested gecko groups for someone who is just getting started with breeding? Like...in the stage of growing out potential breeders starting lol so way early on, not planning on any pairings until at least next year. The group I'm in now is lovely but not friendly to people just starting out, every time someone posts about their potential pairings there's a slew of non constructive criticism and I feel like I don't actually learn anything. I can definitely identify good structure and know about coloration and patterns but it just doesn't feel newbie friendly lol. So glad you're back! And glad you've been doing better :)

@MaddieSmith

3 жыл бұрын

WMGW (what’s my gecko worth) and crested gecko pairing discussion and help group seem to be the most helpful! I’ve noticed some iffy attitudes towards newbies but thankfully I became active in the groups after already breeding for awhile so I had a small leg up there. Best of luck and I hope you have an awesome time breeding!

@kaehume4742

3 жыл бұрын

@@MaddieSmith thank you! I've loved following yours and Tyler's journey with your own geckos :) I might have to get one of yours next season!

❤❤

I don’t think you’re going to see this but I just now found it and want to tell you that I can totally relate with the mental health issues you’ve facing. I am a lot older than you are and there wasn’t enough knowledge out there to address the issues at the time I needed help the most. I have ADHD, anxiety and panic disorder, PTSD, fibromyalgia and a currently undiagnosed neurological disorder that has just started which leaves me pretty much out of commission. I’ve also had two cardiac arrest and a myocardial infarction. Personally I’ve never had Covid but a very close family member did have it and I almost lost her. So glad to see that you are doing better. I love Tyler‘s channel and I’m going to enjoy watching yours as well. 🙏❤️🙏

I've missed you so much. But your mental health is more important, so happy you're working to get back on your feet. So proud of you for figuring things out for yourself.

I’ve been okay, I have been hospitalized twice for ocd, but that’s okay because I have learned a lot and am in remission!! It took a lot but I’m here and I no longer think of it as this mental disorder that runs my life and more of as this little thing that comes up every once and a while to bother me. Ahh it feels so lovely to talk about it as I don’t feel comfortable talking about it in person. I hope you and anyother ocd strugglers a good recovery Also ask your physician about getting a medication genetic test that’s how I got on an obscure ocd led that changed my life and practically cured me. I hope you are well :)

Im glad your doing better covid has been a challenge for sure for everyone will support you forever

I know this veido was posted a while ago but I wanted to say this just popped up in my recommendations and I have the same experience. I had covid then the flu then a few months later I was having the exact same symptoms as you. I now have POTS and other conditions from this. I can understand what you mean. I have trouble in school now because of heart spikes and fainting episodes. (I’m 17 btw) thank you for sharing your story, I don’t feel alone in this

HI MADDIE ❤️

@MaddieSmith

3 жыл бұрын

Hi Emily 🥺💕

I have POTS, postural orthastatic tachycardia, as well as OI/OH, orthastatic intolerance or hypotension and also IST, in appropriate sinus tachycardia.

@dinozombie7007

3 жыл бұрын

I have to drink an ungodly amounts of water and keep up with electrolytes as they get depleted with the water intake. I also have to watch some foods I eat. With diet and fluids I've gotten a lot better but I still have it. Other symptoms are palpitations, low blood pressure, dizziness, presyncoppe etc. It wasn't due to covid just dumb luck. I don't have to be on meds thankfully. But if my blood pressure keeps dropping then I will be after I have my baby.

Hi Maddie, I know this is super old but I hope you are doing better these days. This sounds like a nightmare, and I am so sorry you had to go through it. So glad you have an amazing partner at your side to not only help take care of you, but all of the things you care about

I missed your face! 🥺

I'd love to meet you all at the Cincity Reptile show!! It's about 10 minutes from me!

My sister had the same thing happen after Covid and now has POTS 😢

@MaddieSmith

3 жыл бұрын

I hate to hear this :( I hope she is doing alright and finds something to help her improve

I go to the Cin City Reptile Show every month. Small world!

Yup, antivaccers GET WRECKED. Glad you're back

@mynameismyname17

2 жыл бұрын

I know your comment is 7 months old but this shows that even when you think you are right (calling out anti covid vaxxers) you dont always stay right long term.. now that the vaccine makers said oopps the vaccine doesnt really work recently it shows how incredibly political our society is and we even willing to hate our own family or friends in orders to "be right" about this vaccine.. When it all comes down we have to realize the lady who called out Dr Fauci as a fraud at the very beginning of covid and tried to tell the world that he was investing our tax money into Wuhan china to develop corronviruses and he had this insanely evil history when she worked for him for a long time and our media silenced her and told the world she lost her mind and was nutts and the govt basically physically had agents going to her home and yeah now we know she was 100% right and the vaccines didnt work so now we need to understand if they put something into everyone for other reasons or what.. btw I am not anti vax I did not get the covid vax because I have bad health issues similar to POTS actually in some ways called pericarditis which the covid vaccine ended up giving mostly younger 15-30 year olds pericarditis which can be life altering and deadly.. I got to meet a father whos 16 year old boy died 3 weeks after the vaccine from pericarditis complications and he got the vaccine because the media/biden told him directly it was SAFE and the way to save lives and now their kid is gone.. My 60 year old aunt who never missed a day of work in 35 years and no one ever knew of her being sick with even the flu ever dropped dead on her floor two days after getting the vaccine because she wanted to be safe and able to hold/meet my sisters first baby girl that was just born like 8 weeks prior..and unfortunately I had a co-worker send an email on a friday in June 2021 saying he was leaving early to go get his vaccine so he could be safe in order to visit with his elderly grandmother at an upcoming family event and its now March 2022 and he never made it back to work and our employer is a large company who publically pushed for everyone to get the shot and they are hiding the fact that he spent 5 months in the ICU after getting the vax and from what his wife told our manager he doesnt even know who he is or anything and he is paralyzed from the chest down and basically trapped alive in a dead body and he was a perfectly healthy former college athlete and only 37.. we also had two others that we know about pass away from the vaccine at this company which is big about 50k employees but still.. I have read countless other messages from people who got very sick or had a family member pass from this vaccine which in the end never actually was able to prevent covid so they lost their lives because people thought it was right to repeat what govt and media officials pushed onto us about it beiing safe and effective when it normally takes 15-25 years to test properly to understand that they decided to lie to us thinking it would save lives but covid just spread worse.. I just hope everyone who believed they were "right" pushing this narrative can hear a few true stories about how this vaccine was a death sentence for so many and now we are also hearing about how many have POTS and other rare conditions months down the road.. Also, I got was ambushed by an asshole who married into my family and came to my house while sick with covid (says he didnt know) and gave me delta in which I nearly died in December and the doctor I had saved my life by acting quickly and he told me that almost everyone who got it bad like me passed away if they were vaccinated but about 10 people who werent like me reacted 100% better to Remdesivir and recovered within 7 days... a really good high school friend of mine was two rooms down from me but i didnt know at the time and he got the vax and passed away he didnt respond to the meds at all.. so it just goes to say the shit were told is not always true and even if only 15% have this problem its not right to push this as safe and efffective.. it takes years to study the effects of what we put in our bodies like vaccines.. hell we dontr know what will happen to the babies who were not born yet and their parents got the shot.. what if they all or part of them have really bad issues come 5 or 10 years old.. its not right.. people need choice.

Body issues and an eating disorder.. I feel you.. a lot. Youre beautiful and I know hearing it doesn't help. But you're beautiful anyway

The same thing happened to me, I would feel super dizzy, I couldn’t walk straight and my knees would bend and joint would crack. I was diagnosed with POTS as well, started to see many doctors but no one was able to offer anything sustainable long term or a solution. Doctors told me I couldn’t drink coffee again, I was told running would be super hard. We tried a alternative medicine doctor here in Chicago and she has been treating me for almost a year now and the improvements have been insane

@cristiansuarez9264

3 жыл бұрын

Doing a water change for my fish tanks normally takes 2 hours max it would take me around 5 hours when I was feeling horrible

I got POTS the exact same way. The only thing that helped was when I got my second vaccine. It was like a cloud clearing in the sky. Absolutely crazy. I still have POTS but nowhere NEAR as bad. I really hope it helps you too. POTS is awful.

Okay but you describing the ocd stuff now has me wondering because I also do those things like the hand washing after touching anything and thinking something happened to my boyfriend if he hasn't sent me a text in a while.... 😬😬😬 I don't think it's severe enough that I have what you do but I know I have unregulated anxiety so that's probably the cause of my behaviors rather than ocd... But I gonna keep that in mind if it ever gets worse.

Well I become an alcoholic

@MaddieSmith

3 жыл бұрын

Man I’m sorry to hear that Mariah. :( take care of yourself 💕

Would never forget you I love you and Tyler and all the animals

It's been 2 months again