6:59 조명 - 근데 이거 어쩔. 왜 이렇게 커. 8:03 어? 잠깐만 생각보다 크다. 이거 왜 이렇게 길어. 9:14 오 짱 크네 9:50 너무 작은 거 아니야? 10:14 크지만! 이게 유리가 아니니까 부담도 없고 더 좋은데요? 11:03 생각보다 스툴도 커 가지고 (7:35 vitra 스툴에 택~도 없죠.) 모빌, 머그컵 빼고 소희가 생각한 사이즈 아닌 게 너무 귀여워 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

소희님만의 인테리어 센스도 볼수있어서 너무 좋아요 ☺️💜💜🍋

소희는 하나를 골라도 뭔가 센스가 넘쳐서 진짜 손민수하고싶은게 넘 많아

사랑스러운 안소희~~ 못하는게없고 다잘해 언니영상이 너무다양해서 최고야^^ 뭘해도 이쁨~❤

언니 집 구석의 화분이 되고 싶다....

와우 언니 브이로그 보는거 좋아해요 멋진 아이디어가 샘솟네요 멋진 컨텐츠 많이 올려주세요♥

크,,,, 이런 영상 너무 좋구 ㅠㅠ 센스 넘치고ㅠㅠ 귀엽고 다해ㅠㅠㅠ 점점 더 자연스러운 모습들이 많이 담기는거 같아서 더 좋아요ㅠ 우런니 유튭 평생하쟈ㅠㅠ

크리스마스 인테리어들은 넘나 예쁜거같아요💞

첨에 입은 원피스 넘 예뻐요,,🥺

다 소희소희한 아이템들!!! 크기가 예상과 빗나갔다고 하지만 막상 놓으니 자기 자리인마냥 딱딱 맞네ㅎㅎㅎㅎ

영상 때 입은 옷정보도 알려주심 좋겠어요ㅠ 첫번째, 세번째 착장 정보 알고 싶네요

감각적인 소희님 지름신은 볼 때마다 기분이 넘 조와영 ㅎㅎㅎㅎ

컬러렌즈영상찍을때가 엊그제같은데 벌써 1년이... 1년동안 열심히 함께해주셔서 감사합니다ㅠㅠ 앞으로더 번창하고 알려질 솧튜브가 되기를!!!! 사랑합니다💛💛💛💛💛

It feels like I'm watching a friend 🤩😍..I was smiling while I was watching..always excited to see your video's ..

4:24 아… 이부분 너무귀여워 미치겠어

소희처럼 소품 하나 하나도 센스가 ㅠ ㅜ 넘 이뻐 옷 잘입는 센스 어디 안가쥬..,,, 소히가 사는건 다 탐나는 것!!!! 오늘 영상도 너무 재밌어요 ㅠ ㅜ ㅜ

소희 넘넘 이뻐용 ㅎㅎㅎ 따라해봐야겟어요

왜케고급지냐소희님자체가

조명, 러그 사이즠ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 그래도 너무 예쁘고 좋아욬ㅋ

사람들이 괜히 향초소희에 푹 빠졌던게 아니라니까.. 진짜 평온해지는 영상들이 꼭 소희랑 닮은 것 같다구.. *ㅅ*!! 매번 영상 잘 보고 있어요..!

이거보구 공부하러 가야겠따 😆

소품들이 다 이쁘네요 ㅎㅎ 나도 가끔 실제 크기 확인 안하고 사서 도착한 다음 당황한 경우 있음 ㅎㅎ

귀여워 진짜…. 🧡

소소소희님♡ 언제봐도 싱그러운 에너지~ 너무너무 좋아요^^ 솧튜브는 정말 다양한 영상이 올라와서 너무 재밌어요.!! 언니~ "머그컵" 지인~~~짜 이뻐요! 그리고 현관 들어오는데 어쩜 러그가 그렇게 딱 맞아요?!^^ 제가 다 속 시원함. ㅎㅎㅎ 또 재밌는 영상 올려주세요 소희님♡ 늘 싱그러운 에너지 받아갑니다.^^ 소소솧♡

크리스마스 집꾸미기 해조요~~

안소희 역시 원더걸스! 근데 트렌비는 뭔데 이렇게 아이템이 많지?

누나 인테니어 센스 너무 짱 누나 사랑해요

오늘도 이쁨! ㅋㅋ 저도 오늘 트리 만들었는데 딱 크리스마스 영상 올려주시네요 :₩

너무 귀여워서 또 왓스여,,,

트렌비에서 인테리어소품도 파는지 처음 알았네요 굿굿

So cute miss thank you have fun today take care 😍💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

Light make up really makes you more beautiful so hee 🥰💕💕

토끼컵 무슨일이야 너무 귀엽다..

I love the lamp

I really love sohee. Sohee so cute, sweet, pretty and lovely. Sohee is amazing girl

귀여워요♡♡♡

우리소히❤ 하고싶은거다해

헐 트렌비에서 아르테미데 19%나 할인하고있네요!!!

언니 fw에 살만한 가방도 추천해주새요💞💞

아 너무 예뻐

취향도 소희언니답다♨♭♭♭😘

Te extramos!!!!!!

트렌비 패션 제품들만 판매하는 줄 알았는데????? 인테리어 제품도 파는군요????? 대박...

이사온지 1년이 지나도 데뷔때모습 그대로~~~ 지구인이 아닐지도 몰러!

소희닷 ❤

😍

❤❤❤

착장정보 알수있을까요??

ㅈㄴ예쁘다 소희 서른살인데 무슨 십대같네.. 지금이 옜날보다 더 예쁜거 같어 😍

멋져

향초소희 느낌난다..이 영상ㅜㅜ

머그컵 솧민수하러 갑니다

I will always love you miss beautiful so hee 🥰😘😘

아이템 배치 후에 어떻게 달라졌는지 궁금해요!

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ조명 크깈ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

11:12 스툴이 딱 고양이들 스크래쳐 같이 생겼어 솧이 고앵이라서 끌렸는가바,,

누나 너무 똑똑하세요 아이큐 세계1위

👍😮😮😮 nice! 😄😄😄😄

토끼 소희

Hay stuff are overpriced but they often get heavily discounted.

ソヒ🧡ありがとう🧡🧡🧡 だいすき🤗

찐템 소개해줘요

I love you miss beautiful so hee 😍😍😍

언박싱할때 입은 조끼 정보 아시는분 ㅠㅠ

❤ S❤HEE ❤

조끼 어디껀지 아시는분? 🙏

🙃

Love you sohee ♥️

중학생이 말 잘하네-* ♡

쏘하

귀여워욯 쏳ㅎ

누나 너무 귀여워서 더예쁘세요

옷정보 궁금해요

9:55 흐아.....

🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

You're really very very beautiful so hee 😍😍😍

소파 브랜드 알고싶어요..

저 스툴은 반려묘 가정에선 못 쓰겠네요..고양이들이 발톱 긁는 그거 같아요..ㅋ

No omicron covid-19 there so hee ???

누나 근데... 길이, 높이, 깊이 같은건... 안보는 편이에요..? 스펙터클 하고 좋아요~ :), 그리구 컵은 무용총 보는거 같아요.

스다마사키입니다

3:00

누나힘내세요

나도갱상도댯

ganadaramabasa

계속 그렇게 급식 페이스 유지해 주세요.ㅋㅋ 저는 항상 누가 나이 물어보면 소희랑 동갑이라고 하고 있습니다. 개 이득입니다.

@user-nl5jj2bm9j

2 жыл бұрын

고맙숲니닷

나무아미타불

누나 댓글 달았주세요

Please come decorate my house ... it so boring :(

그래도 아직은 소희지

박진영 아빠 · 큰 딸 안소희氏

누나 말은 전부 사실

아아 그거 저도 알아요 @용@벌@돈@자@ ㅎㅎ 어려운것도 없고 간단한 분석할 수 있으면 할 수있음

나 라크슈미야

그래도뭘해도귀여우니까 다시는날떠나지마 콩떡빙수

Oink Oink.. I hope that this MOON.. on the Night he sees YOU.. the MOON is able to tell YOU the Message I have sent to HIM.. that One day.. some day soon.. I will see YOU and will love YOU for the rest of my life.. for ever I shall love YOU...Looking so Good too.. you look young and always Beautiful in my eyes.. Do you want to see WHO is inside this Basket.. has a Covering over.. I cannot show YOU until YOU answer the First question.. Don't break My Heart.. the second is.. CAN I please have YOUR HEART.. I want Your Heart.. I want to take YOUR HEART with me so that MY HEART can be together with YOURS and be happy forever.. But let me see Your Heart.. I am looking at YOU.. YOU are holding an Empty Glass Jar.. WHY don't you put Your Heart inside that Glass Jar.. and I can PUT your Heart inside this Basket.. I will walk away.. Only too tell YOUR HEART I can breathe again and can Live with a Smile.. I want to ask YOU THIS.. do YOU love Me.. Because I want to love YOU.. then Please Show me YOUR HEART.. I lifted UP the Basket.. grabbing the Cover Sheet and I would remove off and I see YOU walk closer and YOU look inside the basket.. And I look at YOU.. Look at what YOU have Done.. Do you see that Heart.. It is Me Heart.. Do you see that MY HEART is sick.. Told me that HE has caught a Flu.. and Tells me that HE is sick right Now.. Do you know WHY MY HEART is sick.. because of Loving YOU TOO MUCH.. Loving you for a Long time.. and Missing YOU every day.. My Heart wants to Die.. because HE is Not healthy.. I feel so SICK TOO.. because I want Your Love.. I want Your Love and Your Heart.. I told YOU.. WHY Did you break this Heart.. this Heart tells me HE IS SICK and DYING.. wants me to PUT IN the Basket.. I would hear HIM asking me For Your Heart.. telling me.. GO and ask HER for HER HEART.. we can lay together because we belong together.. MY HEART told me to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I love you when I am sick.. I love you when there is a distance between US and I can't see YOU.. I love you because I want to see Your Heart.. I love you because I miss YOU.. I love you that MY HEART got Sick of just loving YOU and I got sick of watching MY Heart sick.. getting sicker because ALL MY HEART does is call for YOU.. I would ask.. WHY DO YOU KEEP ON calling for YOU.. My Heart tells me.. can I write Your name on This Heart.. SO that I don't feel so sick anymore.. that I am able to get back UP to love you More.. I would PUT MY HEART.. He Was laying on my pillow.. and I be looking at HIM.. as I would show MY HEART MY TEARS.. HE tells me.. why are YOU crying.. WHY do you show so much Emotions and keep on crying.. STOP Crying.. I would be wiping my Tears.. If you keep on laying ON this Pillow and YOU be telling me that YOU are Sick.. HOW can I not cry over YOU and for YOU.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. IF you can sit UP and just Be a stronger Heart.. then I do not have to show you these tears anymore.. My Heart looks at me.. I am so Sick.. I feel so ill.. I love YOU.. I want to sit UP but I feel so weak because of Loving YOU.. I look.. tears and drops flowing Down.. WHY DO I have to feel this way TOO MUCH.. and My Heart tells me.. IF YOU want me to be stronger Heart.. more healthier Heart.. Please PUT me inside the basket and TAKE me to Her.. when I see Her.. which is YOU.. I know I can feel better.. will live and beat Once again.. Please.. put me inside the Basket and I will ask Her for Her Heart.. YOUR HEART.. I grab Me Heart.. I put HIM inside the basket.. and here I have come.. and I look.. My Heart would sit UP and Looks at YOU.. My Heart says.. As I see YOU looking at My Heart.. HE looks UP.. DO you know How much I love YOU.. wanting to tell YOU this for a Long time.. that I want YOU to ask YOUR HEART.. Can YOUR HEART please stay with me.. I will be YOUR HEART's best friend.. I will Not let anyone ever hurt YOU but to tell YOU.. HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. I love you where I am able to walk at Night.. Looking at the stars and the Moon.. and even though I do not see YOU around.. I am able to close both of my Eyes and say to the Moon.. I am sure YOU are on the Other side.. Looking at the same Moon.. I know you can hear me.. YOU can try to ignore me but I know you can't.. because MY LOVE is so much stronger.. that It can go through the MOON and goes straight to YOUR HEART.. YOU can close your eyes.. Put your hands over your ears and say.. I don't hear YOU.. but MY WORDS which Has Love in my Heart.. my Words are stronger because I love YOU and I miss YOU.. I want to be with YOU.. will you let me be a part of your Life.. it does not matter where YOU are or what YOU Doing.. I am still in love with YOU.. as YOU are looking at My Heart.. MY HEART shows his arms.. WILL you let Your Heart come on over.. Tell YOUR HEART that I am a friend.. and I can protect Your Heart because I will always Love YOU.. will always love YOUR HEART.. Please.. pretty pretty Please.. tell YOUR HEART.. ask YOUR HEART.. come over to this basket so that I can really love YOU.. why don't YOU tell YOUR HEART.. what is that IN your Hands.. it is Empty.. I see a empty glass jar.. So are YOU asking MY HEART to go over to that Empty Glass Jar.. What are you going to do with MY HEART if He goes Over.. WILL YOU LOVE MY HEART the way I love YOU.. WILL you speak to MY HEART and TELL MY HEART how much YOU love HIM.. Misses HIM.. then Why did YOU bring that Empty glass jar for.. IS it to put YOUR HEART inside and give it to someone else who can't Love YOU.. why waste the TIME if I am the One you really really want and truly need.. I am a Friend but also a Great Lover too.. I can Love you where YOU can skip around a race track.. I can love YOU where your Confidence boost like a Rocket going to the sky. I can love YOU the way a real Man can Love YOU.. I can love YOU where you will say I don't need any love from someone else.. WHY DID YOU bring that Empty Glass Jar.. IF you can Love MY HEART and don't break MY HEART.. I can Put my Heart inside that GLASS JAR and YOU can walk away.. BUT IF you can't.. Please.. MY HEART can Love Your Heart.. can warm UP your Heart.. kiss YOUR HEART and tell YOUR HEART how much I love YOU.. I am sure Your Heart can beat again.. the beating that brings JOY and Music to YOUR HEART.. I want to love YOU.. WILL you let me Love YOU.. I want to love YOU.. so Please.. I am holding this Basket.. Let my heart be the One to love Your Heart.. COME so that MY HEART will not feel lonely anymore but have someone to Love.. I want to Love.. I really really want to Love.. LET ME LOVE YOU because I am ready to give you this Love of MINE to your Heart.. I look at MY Heart.. I guess.. SHE.. YOU are not ready yet.. I look at you.. I see you walking few steps back.. and I am wondering.. am I just moving too fast.. Am I suppose to walk few steps closer.. what Am I suppose to do.. Are you letting me know that It is NO.. or is it Yes.. because I want Your Answer to be a YES.. NOT to break my Heart by rejecting or pushing or going the Other way.. Please Don't go.. Please don't leave Now.. I will be waiting for YOU if I am scaring YOU.. I am not trying to scare you.. but just offering that I can love YOU.. will you Not step Back.. Please.. come closer.. so that I can see YOU.. I am looking at Your Picture.. Not sure why I keep on looking at It.. of course.. Now Matter how much I would take a Look at your Picture.. I just wish that I am able to speak to YOU.. if the Picture can speak back and tell me what is in your Heart.. what is IN your thoughts.. for a long time.. I wanted to hear what YOU have to say.. as I would look at your Picture.. I see the Glass Jar.. it is an empty Glass jar.. and I would be looking at this Window but has a Glass wall.. I am wondering about the Door.. I have pass by the Open door.. which I came to this second Line and I see the Empty Glass Jar.. I know that it is YOU who must left it behind.. even with this Picture TOO.. Where is the Door because I only saw the first Door opened.. How can I enter.. there is this Big Window.. and inside is the Glass Wall.. I am looking around.. does the Glass wall opens and slides.. I am not sure.. How am I suppose to get Inside.. I told YOU.. I came here only for One thing.. It is Your Heart.. I want Your Heart.. I want to Hold Your Heart.. I am asking if YOU can tell me How am I suppose to go inside.. my finger touches the Glass wall.. I know that If I step closer.. I see the third Line which is very close to the second line.. I know I cross the first line which is behind me.. Please tell Me.. did YOU leave a key behind.. I am holding this Glass Jar.. and I know that If the Glass Jar is empty.. it is telling me that I am suppose to put something inside and I know that YOUR HEART can fit in.. I know that I can put Your Heart inside this Glass jar.

@devinj-np7dd

10 ай бұрын

MAH MAH.. I am sitting on the Ground.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. as I am looking.. MAH MAH.. where are YOU.. I need to see YOU.. MAH MAH.. and I can feel the wind blowing against my face.. MAH MAH.. I want to see YOU some day.. I want to see YOU soon.. How about today.. my both hands holding the side of the Paper.. looking at Your face.. MAH MAH.. when Can I see you.. I want to meet YOU.. how about today.. and the rain starts to fall.. One drop falls from the skies.. and the rain becomes multiple rains and showers down lightly.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. When can I see YOU.. how about today.. If I come to see you today.. would you let me see your Beautiful face.. and I can see the Art Sketch Paper.. the picture of YOU getting wet.. getting hit by the rain as it suddenly falls harder.. and I would open my mouth and say Loud.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. when can I see YOU.. will you let me see your face.. if I come to you.. how about tonight.. would you let me see you.. and I can see the Art sketch paper ripping before my eyes.. and I would start to cry.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. My father stands behind me.. watching me crying.. holding the ripped half papers in my hands.. putting it against my chest.. and My father holds me from behind.. pulls me Out of the ground.. as He brings me back into the home.. and I am standing next to YOU.. Looking at the bed of Flowers.. the place where My father is buried and laid in rest.. and I do remember I wanted to see YOU so bad.. I have never met you before.. But seems like I knew YOU.. and I turned to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I am not sure why YOU are here.. YOU do not belong here.. Why did you bring me to the Garden.. YOU belong in the Palace.. where YOU are suppose be.. Not to stand here next with me.. MY father was a servant.. He was the lowest of the lows.. and coming here is Not even a good idea.. I am a Son of a Low Born Slave.. I don't know why YOU are here.. I think it is good for YOU to go.. even though I love YOU.. I know that It is Not meant to Be.. because YOU belong to be Loved by the Prince.. and YOU are wondering.. why am I acting this Way.. why am I pushing YOU away.. It is because I don't belong with YOU.. I know this for a Fact.. but I know that I never stopped loved YOU.. ever since I saw the Art sketch paper.. My Father brought to me.. of course I had no idea.. even my Father too had no idea because YOU are a Princess.. so he just wanted to show me who he served and worked for the King.. and thought None of It.. MAH MAH.. I know that this is wrong.. what YOU are doing is wrong.. and I know that what I am doing is wrong.. but even though I am so wrong.. I just can't get YOU off my chest.. I just can't get you off my mind.. It is killing me because YOU live in my Heart.. live in my mind.. I tried so many times to erase YOU.. but as much as I tried too.. YOU just don't go away.. CONG JU NIM.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. I know that coming here was a Bad Idea.. I told you many times that I have left this Garden and I don't know why you keep on bringing me to this Place.. I want to leave this Garden to start a new life.. a new chapter in my life but YOU keep on bringing me to this Garden.. How about going to the Palace.. so much More to see.. so much to do there but here.. there is nothing to see any more.. I just want to bury the old.. the memories.. to be gone and away.. as I would be looking at YOU.. there are three of my close friends.. who are guards comes.. and they stopped by me.. and I would turn around to see the three guards.. and I would look behind them.. I look and see.. More Guards are coming.. and they are wearing different helmet colors.. and I would say.. Protect the Princess.. Protect MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. please stay here and the three guards turns around.. and More guards are coming.. and they come into the garden.. I would pull out the sword and the three Guards with me.. they all pull out the swords.. and I would yell.. Charge.. Protect the Princess.. Protect CONG JU MAH MAH.. and I would run Up.. and two guards on the Other side.. they pull out the swords and they would run towards me.. I would swing my Sword UP and Down and jump Up and swing side ways.. and hitting the blades together.. as I land on the ground.. Charge.. Protect CONG JU NIM.. and the three of my friends they would run.. I see more Guards coming.. I hear branches shaking and I look up.. I see more guards.. standing at the Branches.. Arrows are shooting at me.. the three of my friends are behind me.. and I would swing my sword and cut the arrows into half.. and I turn to One friend.. Protect the Princess.. go and protect MAH MAH.. I will fight.. and One of the friends turns and runs back where YOU at.. and I look.. I see More Guards coming.. from the field into the Garden.. and I would run toward.. and the two friends would follow me.. the two friends fight off the two guards and they die.. I turn.. the two friends looks at me.. and we would run out of the Garden.. the guards up on the tree branches looks down.. arrow points and YOU turn.. the Guards on the tree branches knows YOU.. MAH MAH.. it is the Princess.. BOW your Knees and they climb down the tree.. and I am out in the field.. my sword is swing.. and blades hit each other.. I am swinging the sword right left.. up down.. side to side and jumps up swing my sword.. and it strikes one guard down.. and I turn around.. the two friends are behind me.. More guards fell on the ground by the edge of the swords.. I see more running in the field.. pulling out swords.. and I would run up and I would swing my sword.. left right.. right left and I would kick.. one of the guard on the Other side swings back his sword and the blades hit each other.. I would go back and I kick and swing the sword harder.. the guard drops the sword on the ground.. YOU run out of the Garden.. and more guards are coming.. the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH and the Guards all put the swords down and bows the knee.. and I am thinking.. are they not enemies.. and the two friends puts the swords on the ground and Bow to KNEE.. and I put my sword down.. BOW to Knee.. One of the Guards.. PEH HA is calling YOU to come back.. we are here to get YOU back to the Palace.. the King.. PEH HA is looking for YOU.. and I am looking on the ground.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. we will also go with YOU.. to bring YOU back to PEH HA.. and I hear your voice and I would get UP.. and I look.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. did you not hear the order.. your Father.. the King.. PEH HA is calling for YOU.. WHY are you not going.. PEH HA is asking YOU to go to HIM.. I told you that YOU do not belong here.. I will remain here if YOU go.. I just can't see you here because there is NO future here for YOU.. YOU Must go back to the Palace.. if YOU go.. I will stay here.. because it is better for me to stay here.. I belong here to the Garden.. but YOU don't belong here.. YOU before to be with the Prince.. going to the palace has much better future for YOU.. so Please.. why don't you listen to the voice of your Father.. I just showed YOU where my Father is buried.. in the garden.. I did not listen to his voice.. and look at the result of what happened to HIM because of me.. I don't want you to face what I had to go through.. YOU know that NO matter where you at.. I will always love YOU.. and I believe that I will see you again.. I believe that If I love YOU.. if YOU love me.. something will happen later on a better days that comes.. but right Now.. YOU must leave the Garden.. Please MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. going back the the Palace.. YOU be much happier there.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. PRINCESS.. as I am looking at YOU.. I see you turning away and YOU are walking back into the Garden and I look.. MAH MAH.. Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. LOOK.. you have the special Body Guards.. they have come just to take you back Home.. I don't think they will leave until YOU go with them.. I see you walk into the Garden.. Now there is One Garden who gets UP and He pulls out the sword.. and I turn.. I see Him walking up.. I grab the sword.. and He walks up.. We both start to swing our swords.. hitting the blades left to right.. blades hits together and I would walk back and I would swing faster.. as he walks up and I jump up and swings my sword hitting hit blades.. and I use full force to knock the sword out of his hand and Put the sword on his neck.. and strikes him down.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM and I turn and I would walk back.. into the garden.. I see you Nowhere.. and I am thinking.. by the tree.. so I would walk UP the hill.. the three friends are walking behind me.. and I see the Moon out.. the Sun has gone down.. and I see YOU standing by the tree.. but YOU are looking at the Soil.. as I would walk closer.. another Bed of flowers.. this is where My Mother is buried.. I stand next to YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I don't know why you are doing this.. this is where my Mother is buried.. My Father told me Once.. YOU are so much like her.. I can see why because just looking at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. you don't have to do this.. I don't want you to feel so sorry for me because I am doing good Now.. I just wanted to show you the people who gave me birth and raised me are here.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. why are you doing this and I see you turn and YOU look at the Moon.. and YOU smiled looking at the Moon and I turn to look at what YOU are seeing.. and I do remember.. when I first told YOU.. when I started to Miss YOU.

@devinj-np7dd

10 ай бұрын

MAH MAH.. when I wanted to say I love YOU.. and I just could not say the words.. I would be looking at that Moon.. when words just could not come out right and I was afraid to say what If you don't want to hear me say anything.. I would be turning to that Moon.. and I would say what is in my Heart looking at that Moon.. I remember few years back.. when YOU came to the Garden and YOU would leave.. I even brought you a Flower.. to show YOU what it means when I look at YOU.. I would show YOU the Flower.. How I wanted to give it to YOU.. when YOU would leave.. I would run UP to this Hill top.. I would come here at Night.. I would see the Same Moon we are looking at this very Night.. when YOU were here.. I just could not say any words to YOU.. but only wanted to give you this One Flower.. I would be upset because My Heart wanted to say something more.. I would wonder.. why couldn't I tell YOU when you were hear.. but Now you have left the Garden.. I am standing here alone.. I look up to the Moon.. I am able to speak to that Moon about YOU.. I would open my mouth and speak.. sharing How my Heart felt about you to that Moon.. Now.. We are standing here at the same Hill top.. looking at the MOON I spoke of YOU.. and if YOU want to hear me say something to the MOON about YOU.. Please come closer and open your ears and open your Heart.. because it comes from MY Heart loving YOU.. MAH MAH.. I am taking you to the Garden.. I want to show YOU something.. and I am walking.. my hand on the Strings of the Horse.. and YOU are sitting on the Top of the Horse.. with Your White Dress.. as I am walking.. hand grabbing unto the strings and the Horse is walking next to me.. I see the Garden.. and Closer and closer we are getting.. I would turn my Head looking UP toward YOU.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. YOU know that YOU did not have to do this.. YOU are in the Royal Blood Line.. and I am a son of a servant.. but why do you want to go with me here.. you know that I am a low Born.. from the lowest clan.. but tell me Why.. all you need to say is one word and I can just die in the streets.. and No one would know my Name.. would ever recognize me.. but why do you want me to take YOU back to this Garden.. and I would turn my Head looking straight and I went into the Garden.. hand grabbing unto the strings of the Horse.. I don't hear any words from YOU.. as YOU are sitting.. with a Crown on top of Your Head.. with the most beautiful white Dress.. My eyes.. which I just can't keep it still.. My eyes just kept on looking at YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. MAH MAH.. My Princess.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. why are you asking me to take YOU back to this Garden.. I told you that my Heart left this Garden long ago.. the day I left was when I saw YOU with another MAN.. the royal Prince.. it hurts me when I come back to this Garden.. it hurts me of the bad memories I had when My Heart would torn into pieces.. knowing that I am so little.. I am so lost.. I was so confused.. even though I knew that I could never be with YOU.. but still.. my Heart was torn when I saw YOU standing with the Royal Prince.. How small and little I felt when I saw YOU holding his Hand.. I would stop.. the Horse stops.. and I am looking at the Bed of flowers.. and I am not sure why you wanted to come to this Flower.. as I would stand next to YOU.. two guards also came.. and they would help YOU to get Out of the Horse.. and I am looking at the Bed of Flowers.. and this is where my Father is buried.. of course YOU don't know it.. but I have taken you to his Grave.. as YOU were standing next to me.. and I wanted to tell YOU something.. which I had Not before.. and I turn my Head on the side to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. do YOU know what this Is.. and I would look at YOU.. turning your head to look at me.. and I would turn my Head to look at the bed of Flowers.. I know that YOU wanted to come to the Garden but before we can go further down.. I wanted to stop by my Father's grave.. this is where My Father is buried.. When he died.. I did not know where to put His Body.. but I wanted his Grave to be close where I am able to find and to go.. my Father may not be here.. but I know his spirit is with me.. I wanted to remember my Father.. and wanted to be close to HIM.. so I remember this would be the best place to bury his Body.. so with the grave diggers.. I would be standing here.. crying as my Father's body would be laid to rest.. I remember I would be crying for him.. days after days would go by.. I still could Not believe that My Father would be gone.. and I wanted to show YOU.. this is my Father's Grave.. when times are rough.. when times are tough.. and I feel like pouring out my tears.. I would come to my Father's grave.. I remember when I would be sad.. when I be hurt.. He would be next to me.. I would be crying as he would tell me all things be okay in the end.. Now MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that YOU may not remember my Father.. He was close to you Once.. and yes.. he was your servant.. the King.. PEH HA would put my father in charge to look after YOU.. I am not sure if YOU ever remember my Father.. of course something happened that my father went into the prison.. and he was sentence to death.. I saw HIM in the prison bars.. a carriage with bars.. and he told me.. never to Love YOU.. Never to love the Princess.. and I saw the carriage with bars leave off.. that was the last thing.. I think YOU were young back then.. because I was Young too when he died.. MAH MAH.. do you remember the Man who was your servant.. and I see YOU turn your head to look at me.. I see your head moving Up and down.. means YOU do remember my Father.. I think he told me YOU were so bright.. very bold and courageous.. Loves to shoot bows and arrows.. told me that YOU love riding Horses and loves to Hunt wild games.. has never seen any one like YOU before.. that My father believes if YOU were a Prince.. YOU be a Mighty warrior Prince is what he told me.. but YOU are a Princess instead.. I don't know why and I don't know how this happened to me.. why would I love a Mighty Warrior Princess.. my father told me before He was going to prison.. Never Love the Princess.. Because something Horrible can happen to me in the end.. and Now.. I have brought YOU to the Man.. the one who use to serve YOU as a servant.. this is my Father's Grave.. this is the bed of Flowers I was talking to YOU about for a long time.. and now you were wondering how come I am telling YOU this HUH.. MAH MAH.. I know its be long years since then.. and many years has passed by.. there was No chance where I was able to tell YOU.. everything happened so fast.. I know that I should of never met YOU.. then I am sure I would never fall in love.. but what good is all that talk about the past when I am here in the present with YOU.. I told YOU that I am Not afraid to Die.. if I die because of loving YOU is a sin.. then Please.. Kill me for my Sin.. but I did not mean to love YOU this Long.. I did not mean to love YOU.. it just happened out of nowhere.. I remember it was the day my Father came from work.. serving YOU.. and He brought a Picture.. he brought the Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. he told me when he came Home late into the night.. I was Not sleeping.. and showed me the Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. My father was smiling when He gave me the Picture.. the sketch paper.. telling me an Artist drew this Picture of CONG JU NIM.. I would be asking How YOU.. MAH MAH was like.. I was very curious because my Father who served YOU would always be smiling.. and He was very happy to be there as Your Servant.. of course.. I took the Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU into my hands and I looked.. when my eyes first saw this Picture.. I would feel something was wrong with my Heart.. it would burn and kept on burning with me.. I would place my hand on the chest.. I don't know but something is wrong with me.. what is happening to My Heart.. it burns like fire within me.. and my Father would stand there and He looks.. He told me it should not be.. that this is Wrong.. and I would be looking at the Picture of YOU.. the Art sketch paper.. My Father looks.. and he grabs the Sketch Paper and snatches off my Hands.. and He turns and walks off.. I remember I started to cry.. crying loud and loud.. asking for the Sketch Art Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I want to see the Picture.. I want to see YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. I want to see YOU.. I would be looking for it.. my father would tell me Not to love YOU.. I just can't.. I should Not.. because If the King knows that I do.. even he can die because of Me.. if the words get out.. and someone finds Out.. I can be executed with my Father and he tells me never to Love YOU.. I remember my father was sleeping in his room.. and I came into my father's room.. I see the Art Sketch paper laying next to HIM.. I went over and I grabbed the Art sketch paper.. walking into my room.. I would unfold and find myself looking at the Picture of YOU.. my hand goes across the paper.. and I just wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to see MAH MAH.. can I ever see CONG JU MAH MAH.. would I get the chance to see YOU.. and I would sit by myself.. looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. my Hands.. my arms.. putting the Picture of YOU.. the Art sketch Paper to my chest.. I want to see YOU but I want to love YOU.. I saw my Father looking at me.. he stands in the room.. He sees my arms.. the Art sketch paper.. the picture of YOU close to my Chest.

@devinj-np7dd

10 ай бұрын

MAH MAH.. Close to my Heart and I turn too look up.. I want to see CONG JU NIM.. CAN I SEE MAH MAH.. Father.. can I please see how CONG JU NIM is like.. Please Father.. and He gets very angry at me and grabs.. snatches it off.. take the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture and tears it into the pieces and tosses it out side.. and He walks off the house.. and I would look out side.. I see the Art sketch paper torn into pieces.. and I would cry.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I would go out and sit.. picking UP the pieces toward.. trying to find each torn pieces of papers.. and the light rain would not help me at all.. as it became soak and wet over the rain fall.. I would try to put the pieces together but the rain and I would sit in the rain crying.. crying for YOU.. wanting to see the Picture of YOU and It torn my heart into pieces.. As I am now with YOU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. it was such a long ago when I first saw your Picture.. I wanted to glue it back.. some way and some how I wanted the Art sketch Paper.. I started to miss looking at you through the Picture.. asking My Father.. begging HIM to get an Artist to draw another picture.. from the Sketch paper.. I wanted to see MAH MAH.. I wanted to see the Princess.. I wanted to see CONG JU NIM.. my Father kept on telling me that If I keep on doing this.. I will die sooner.. if the Word breaks Out.. I can be executed and told me to forget you.. and as I am now looking at the bed of Flowers.. I am standing next to you and I would show YOU.. this is my Father's grave.. I wanted to bring YOU to this Bed of flowers because this is where My Father is buried.. it has been a long time since I visited him.. but I wanted to tell YOU this.. my Father wanted me Not to Love YOU.. told me that YOU were so dangerous to Me.. that my life has to be on the line if I cross this Line and yes.. I have crossed the line for a long time.. but the Word never got out until now.. I have been loving YOU the day I saw Your Picture.. I have never met YOU in my life but knew that one day something has to happened.. I wanted to tell my Father.. I am at his grave with YOU next to Me.. of course he is right because I am on the verge of facing my own death.. but I want to tell my Father.. I will go down with HIM.. and I turn to you.. MAH MAH.. I loved YOU then.. I loved you when I never met YOU.. I started to love you when I met YOU the first time.. I love you much more because I still have life in me.. if I am given me a new day.. I am so thankful that this day is made so that I can love YOU MORE.. Now.. I am able to show you my Father's grave.. I was warned and been warned for a long time.. not to cross the line.. Not to love YOU.. but My Heart.. I just could not let YOU go MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I guess I wanted to tell YOU.. whatever happens to me in the future.. at least YOU get to see my Father's grave.. in the bed of flowers where he is buried.. I am Not sure if this was the main reason why you wanted to come to this Garden.. is it too meet my Father's grave.. because this is where My Father was buried.. after he died.. His Body.. his Bones are here now.. as long as I still have life in me for a day.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. PRINCESS.. I will always love YOU.. even then.. even now and forever I will love YOU.. I am looking at You.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and we are both standing by the Tree.. as I am looking.. I see five Guards approaching.. and I turn to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please stand Back.. Go behind Me.. MAH MAH.. I am ready.. and I am holding the Sword in my hand.. and I see one of the Guards.. looks and points at me.. and He pulls out his sword and runs.. I turn too look back.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. do you trust Me.. I know that I can handle this.. and as the One of the Guards comes up.. I turn too look.. and I run and I jump into the air.. I would swing my Sword.. Both the blades hits together.. and I land on the ground.. He swings and I swings.. I would jump back and I would swing the sword.. the Four Guards comes and circles around me.. I would turn back.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please Go back.. and I see the Five Guards holding the Swords.. and I would walk forward.. Swing my sword.. and I can Hear the words Stop.. and the Five Guards would stop.. and they would drop the swords on the Ground.. and they would all kneel on the ground.. and I see you walking forward.. and I grab Your Arm.. MAH MAH.. PRINCESS.. what are you doing.. I asked of YOU to step back.. I wanted to protect YOU.. if Harm would come.. YOU know that I will fight for YOU.. on your Behalf.. I was ready to strike back.. ready to die if I have to here.. But.. why did you stop the fight.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I grabbed unto your wrist.. Please.. don't go.. and Be here with me.. and I see YOU turn your head looking at me.. telling me that YOU needs to go.. I would hold unto your wrist.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that once I let this Wrist Go.. I may never be able to Hold unto this wrist ever again.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. why did YOU even bring me to this Place if YOU are going to let go.. YOU are the one who wanted to bring me here.. I was standing by the Gates.. YOU know that I was happy just being in the palace.. just being close to your Chamber.. just watching your figure.. even from the distance.. as long as I get to see YOU.. it made me the most happiest place.. then.. why did YOU tell me to come.. YOU are the one who got the Horse for me.. YOU are the one who asked me to come and follow YOU.. I only agreed too because YOU asked me.. and Now.. why are you changing your Mind.. if I let YOU go.. YOU should just let me Die here.. I don't want to go if I can't be with YOU.. if I can Not hold unto your wrist.. what is the point if I let it go now.. Let me just die here.. Let me fight these Guards.. if they win.. I will die here.. Bury me next to my Father.. Bury me here.. if I win this fight.. then you can be with me forever.. How about that.. and I see you turn your Head looking at me.. and I would fall on my knees.. kneeling with the five Guards.. I even drop my sword on the floor.. WHY do I have to let go.. I can't let your wrist go.. do YOU not remember How I got here.. ever since YOU came to the garden.. I would also take you to this Tree.. the reason why I have brought you to this tree.. my Mother is buried next to this Tree.. My Mother died giving me birth.. so I never met my Mother.. MAH MAH.. I have never met my mother.. so I have never seen her.. never heard the voice.. but My Father told me that she was very beautiful and was very bold.. had the Heart like a lion and would fight even in battles.. but giving birth to me was hard and gave her last breathe after I came into this world.. I remember my Father told me as He was watching YOU growing UP.. some reason YOU reminded of My Mother.. and told me a lot about her.. I remember when I was young boy.. I would follow my Father.. did not know where he was taking me and would take me to this Tree.. I would ask my Father.. what is this tree all about.. it must have a meaning because.. My Father would come nights.. He would be talking to this Tree.. and crying.. and told Me.. My mother is buried next to this Tree.. a little bed of flowers.. this is where.. and told me that MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM is so much like Your Mother and One day.. he tells me that I am going to love YOU.. that is why my father would tell me never get too close to YOU.. I would laugh at those words.. but Now.. I realize that He is truly right.. because my father tells me I am so much like him.. and Now.. I do see myself more like my Father as time goes by.. Now.. I do miss my mother who I never seen before.. but when I look at YOU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. what my father said is so True.. I love YOU because YOU are so Strong and YOU are so bold.. courageous.. which I never met my Mother before.. I wanted to take you to this Tree.. so that I can introduce YOU to my Mother who is buried by this Bed of flowers.. but.. I did not want to tell YOU who.. but just wanted to show YOU there is someone very special and dear to me.. I believe my mother's spirit is here.. and I just wanted to tell my Mother.. her spirit.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM is the One who I love.. I don't know why it has to be you.. if you are asking me.. WHY DO I LOVE YOU.. what am I suppose to say.. How am I suppose to answer if it is just because Y O U.. DO I needs to explain why or How much I love YOU.. isn't just enough to tell you that I love YOU.. MAH MAH.. and Now you are wondering why DO I tell you this Now.. I just had to know for sure if YOU are the One who I truly Love.. I wanted to know for sure.. is it really CONG JU NIM.. is it really MAH MAH.. the princess.. and I had to hold it for years.. do you know how many years it had to cross.. how many times I had to ask myself if this is real.. if this is true and had to ask thousand times.. maybe even million times I had to ask myself before I would accept the truth.. and yes.. Like I said to YOU.. I have never felt like this way before.. because I just love YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I just had to tell myself.. it can't be.. I would ponder on this for a long time.. my Father would look at me when I was young.. what am I suppose to do with his Son.. knowing that I was going to love YOU.. he told me.. I don't want me to love YOU.. but He knows that I was going to love you anyways.. my Father when he was alive.. looked at me.. told me never to get close to YOU.. it is going to hurt me more when I do.. it is going to tear my heart into pieces if I do.. Now.. Look at me.. I can't help but just fall in love with YOU.

@devinj-np7dd

10 ай бұрын

MAH MAH.. I am holding unto your wrist.. I just can't let go.. but I see that YOU want me to let it go.. if I do let Go.. would you let me hold unto your wrist again and next time I do.. that you.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I am not going to let It go.. Please don't put my hand away.. because I won't let it go any more.. as I would look at you.. I open my hand and I release your wrist.. My Chest pains.. it comes and hits me Hard and I can feel this Pain growing stronger.. I just can't.. I see you walking forward.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. Will you please come back.. I am going to wait for YOU.. you know where to find me.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please don't Go.. WHY do you have to go.. if you love me.. if YOU really really Love me.. would you not stay here with Me.. and as I would watch YOU keep walking.. I see the Five Guards getting UP.. and I see them also walking and they would follow You.. and I am here by the Tree.. my Heart.. and I would Open my Mouth Wide yelling.. WHY do you have to Go.. why do I have to let Your wrist Go.. my hand hits My chest.. I can't let YOU go.. and I get UP.. and I look.. my tears just falling from my eyes.. I grab the sword on the ground.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. WHY do YOU have to go and One of the Guard looks back.. and He has a sword.. and I grab the sword and I would start to run forward.. the Other Guards would turn too look back.. running and holding the sword.. the One Guard.. we both swings the swords at each other.. and the Blades hits and Hits together.. I see you turn around and YOU look.. I would jump UP.. yelling and screaming.. swinging the sword.. and the Guard swings back and I am jumping swinging the sword at the Guard.. another Guard runs up and Plunges the Sword into me.. and He pulls the sword Out and I drop the Sword.. and I am yelling.. I see you telling to Stop.. the five Guards stops and pulls back.. and I can feel.. I am dying inside.. I can feel the chills in my body as I would kneel.. and I know that I am going to die soon.. my tears.. my blood on the side.. my hand holding the side.. I see you running.. and as I am feeling like.. I am just like my father.. I am also losing YOU.. But I love YOU.. I love you so much.. I can feel this Ache MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. WHY do I have to die like this without fully able to love YOU.. I want to love YOU and love you well.. but I think that I just can't.. Look at me and I would lay on the ground.. Bury me next to my Father.. or you can bury me next to my mother.. I am dying because I love YOU so much.. it hurts.. and I would cough blood.. and it is so hard to move.. and I see you next too me.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. if I hold unto your wrist.. I asked you.. if you come back.. can I hold to your wrist and this time.. Please don't go.. I am not going to let the wrist go.. as I would lay my head on your lap.. I can feel the wind blowing.. I see the grey clouds gathering.. and I see the sky darkens and I know it is about to rain.. I know this time.. when it rains.. I can go gone with the Wind.. I would ask YOU.. MAH MAH.. Send my ashes away.. to the waters that I love.. put my ashes into the waters where I can go as far.. I will be with YOU.. because I will still love you then.. I will love YOU forever.. and as I would close my eyes.. my eyes open.. And I am AT THE Outer Court.. Looking at YOU and the King.. and I cry Out.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I get your attention.. DO you remember the Tree incident.. and I see the King.. PEH HA and he sits on the Chair.. and YOU are next to Him.. Do you remember what happened at the Tree.. WHY did you save me.. I was close to death.. I was very close to dying.. why did YOU save me back there.. I asked of YOU to release me.. and I look at YOU.. CONG JU NIM.. if you just let me Go.. I would not be here.. Please tell the King.. PEH HA what happened.. and I see the King turns too look at YOU.. and you just stoop there speechless.. PEH HA.. CONG JU NIM is the one who saved me.. I closed my both eyes and sword plunged into the side.. and I knew that I was going to die that day.. but MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM saved my Life.. what does this Means.. and the King LOOKS at me.. and He turns too look at You.. if the ROYAL Family saves a Life.. there is a rule.. that I become a slave in that family.. and the King looks at me.. Am I not to be a Slave for the Princess.. I am Now a Servant for the CONG JU NIM.. and I would look at the ground.. and the King turns too look at YOU.. He gets UP and He leaves the chair.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. I am your Slave Now.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Did YOU not tell me that YOU were never going to come Back.. YOU told me to Leave.. that YOU wish not to see me Any More.. YOU told me that YOU were never going to come back to see Me.. and those words left Bruises in My Heart.. YOU told me when I stood by this Tree.. You were with the Prince.. and YOU looked at my eyes.. telling me to Leave and that YOU wish that YOU would not see me again.. It really torn My Heart.. it really Hurt me deep inside when YOU told me.. YOU never loved Me and that YOU wished Never to see me again.. and TOLD me to Leave.. I just could Not help it.. as I would turn the Other way.. I looked down on the Hill TOP.. started to walk down this Hill.. My Heart just could not take it any more.. as I was walking down.. I felt heavy in My Chest.. My tears just could Not help but come down very fast and very Hard.. I just could Not believe the Words I had to hear.. WHY did YOU say in a Harsh Way.. that My Heart had to fall off.. I remember as I sat in the Room.. I just kept on crying.. sitting on the Bed.. I just could Not stop.. I felt so Bad.. Unfolding.. LOOKING at the sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I begin to think.. why was I still having this Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. after hearing Your Words.. that YOU wanted me to Leave and Never wanted to see me again.. and How I had to linger on those words.. I was still holding unto the Sketch Paper.. I just could Not throw it away even though I knew that YOU never Loved me.. My hand pressing onto my Chest.. I would Unfold the sketch Paper.. My eyes would close.. Hand presses down on my chest.. feeling my Heart.. weeping inside and crying with Me.. I would say.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. WHY.. WHY don't you love me the way I love YOU.. is it because I am a Lowly Person.. just a servant.. is it because I don't fit Your Standards to be Your Man.. Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. I really needed to know why couldn't YOU love Me.. is there a reason WHY you chose to Not.. DID I do something wrong.. Have I said something that Made YOU change Your Mind or YOU never felt anything for Me in Your Heart.. Then How about My Heart.. WHY can't you accept the fact that I love YOU.. I am Not expecting anything back.. but just to know How much I love YOU and that I just can't stop loving YOU.. WHY tell me YOU do not want to see me anything.. Is it really that WHAT you want.. is that the real reason WHY.. as I would be looking at the Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I would be wiping the tears from my eyes.. and Now I grabbed Your Wrist.. MAH MAH.. do you not remember what YOU said to Me.. it was right here.. I was standing by this Tree.. YOU told me Never to come Back.. Never to come see YOU.. and TO Leave.. WHY can't you look me in the eyes and tell me why did you say those words to Me.. I still remember.. It hurts so bad when I think about that TIME you told me.. WHY would you say that to me and WHY would you bring me back to this Same spot where I was Hurt the Most.. And Now.. why can't YOU face me.. why are you looking at the other way.. Please.. CONG JU NIM.. Please.. turn Your Head and please look at me in the eyes.. I need the answers why.. I am still lingered of that thought because I cried all Night thinking of YOU.. is it because I am Not the prince.. Am I suppose to be the Prince.. is that WHAT YOU want.. a Prince.. but I am Not the prince.. I am now a Palace Guard.. but was a Lowly servant when YOU told me those words.. Please.. MAH MAH.. Princess.. MAH MAH tell me why.. I am trying to get YOU to look at me.. It seems like YOU did not want to answer.. I guess then I am Not going to ask YOU about it anymore.. But.. this Place.. gives me such a bad taste of memories.. I felt my Happiest but also the Worst in my Life when I was told.. YOU never loved Me.. and to Go.. as YOU can see.. I am still hurt of the Past.. don't know why because much Time has passed by.. maybe because I never let YOU go.. I always loved YOU here.. always wanted you to be Near.. always I would turn to look at the Big Palace.. asking if I can see YOU.. but.. No matter how many calling Out your name.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. PRINCESS.. I would say here.. I would Not here YOU respond Back.. it would be Me always standing.. yelling Out.. calling Out to YOU to come.. that I would be missing YOU.. and just wish that YOU would stop by to at least to say HELLO.. but many times I stand here calling Out.. I would wait with silent.. it is because I love YOU.. and Have never left that thought.. But I do remember after I left this Behind.. I did not know where to Go.. I just wanted to Die.. WHY do I have to live if there is NO way for me to Love YOU.. So I tried to end my Life.. I drank something with Poison.. and ALL I remember I fell on the Floor.. on the ground.. but for some reason.. a MAN found me laying on the street.. on the ground.. and some way.. some how.. He took me In.. older MAN and

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10 ай бұрын

MAH MAH.. I remember I woke UP.. the Older MAN looks at me and told me why I wanted to Die.. I got better with Time and I told the Older man.. why would you save my Life.. I did Not want to live.. and He showed me something.. unfolded the Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and He looks at me.. is this the reason WHY I wanted to Die.. I told him the truth.. Yes.. and He looks at me.. THIS IS the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. this is a Picture of MAH MAH.. and I told the Older Man.. yes.. THIS is the princess.. CONG JU NIM.. He smiles.. I have great Dreams and Vision.. but also asking for a Death.. He tells Me.. I told him How I met YOU.. and the Older man started to show Me what it means to Practice with a Sword.. started to teach Me the way of the Warrior.. told me that He worked in the palace.. was the Chief General.. and ranked up to the Commander Position.. and Knows the King.. and Knows the princess.. but I tell this Older man.. I love YOU.. it does Not matter if I die.. anyways I wanted to end My life.. the Older man smiles.. I remember he would teach me for years and told me that I was ready to take the test.. the Military portion and will pass.. I went for the Testing.. I saw YOU.. and You were in the back.. all the new men came.. I looked at YOU.. as YOU sat with the judges at the table.. My Heart.. I just could Not believe.. why DO I start to love YOU again.. for years I would be spending with the Older man.. the Commander who became my Mentor.. I begin to wonder.. if I should take this Test.. I did Not want to disappoint YOU.. and felt so Nervous.. and I was wondering.. WHY were you at the Military testing Post.. sitting with the Judges.. but I do remember I saw YOU looking around.. and my Heart.. it kept on beating faster and faster.. Names were being called to perform.. I remember my name was called UP.. and I stood.. as I looked.. I saw YOU.. I am standing at the center of the training Ground.. I am Not sure if YOU recognized me or Not.. but I saw YOU sitting.. and YOU took my breathe away.. as I would show YOU the performance.. Holding the Sword.. I would be swinging.. I just could not take it any more.. My Heart.. it was breaking.. It was breaking into pieces as I was performing the swordsmanship.. I was hurt.. but also felt Like I needed to release this Heart of Mine.. as I would be swinging the sword with each Movement.. my tears would roll down.. remembering what YOU told me.. to Leave.. Never to be IN your presence again and Here I was.. did Not follow your orders or YOUR commands.. But I had a Dream.. to be a Soldier.. to be a warrior and to Protect the Nation.. As I finished the performance of the Art of swordsmanship.. I stood there.. and I was Not sure if YOU knew who I was because YOU acted like YOU did not know who I was.. But I saw YOU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I saw YOU at the table.. sitting with the Judges as they gave me the passing sign.. I felt like I wanted to show YOU.. prove to YOU that by doing this.. maybe someday YOU can notice me too.. I only wanted your Love.. I wanted to know.. do YOU love me.. will you ever love Me.. will you ever look me in the eye and say.. Yes YOU love Me.. I want to know because My Heart is hurting without Your Answers being heard.. I want the answer to be Yes.. so that I know I am going on the right path.. that what I am doing is right.. tell me.. as I stood beside YOU.. I am holding your wrist.. I am pulling Your wrist.. trying to see Your eyes.. why can't YOU look me in the eyes and tell me what Your true answer is.. why do you have to pull away.. why do you have to look away from my eyes.. I know that I can get the answers if I see your eyes.. I know you can tell me the truth.. for a Long time.. I have been waiting for YOU.. for this Very day.. I been waiting for you to tell me something.. I don't like to guess.. because guessing means I am not sure.. but Now.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please tell me your heart.. tell me the answers that is in Your Heart.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. WHY can't you tell me the truth.. I remember I was told to be guarding the back gates of the Palace.. I was so excited that Now I was a Part.. that I am entering at the King's service.. as I would stood to watch the back gate.. I heard someone say.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH IS Coming.. Bow to Knee.. BOW to Knee and all the People inside who were attending YOU.. they fell on their face down.. Knees on the ground.. I turn to LOOK back.. I see YOU walking on a White Dress.. people were behind YOU.. with special.. MAH MAH.. I am Looking at YOU.. You with the White Dress.. and I just can't believe it is YOU.. MAH MAH.. It is My Princess.. NEH CONG JU NIM.. Still can't believe that I am standing next to YOU.. Never imagine that I be able to share my Heart to YOU.. Always felt Like I am a Shadow.. just Distance and Miles apart.. Separated from YOU.. How is it that I am able to share my Heart.. Share this Heart of Mine.. How is it possible that I am able to tell YOU.. How much I love YOU.. I remember.. this Place.. BY this Tree.. only thing that I can do was to Look across.. and Only I can be dreaming.. Wishing upon the Stars.. I would watch over.. Looking at the Sky.. Looking at the Night.. Looking at the Moon.. and just be wishing.. Only It may happen.. but.. I would only put my Hand on this Chest.. and Only can be thinking.. dreaming.. even though I may be dreaming.. will it ever come true.. Is it possible that I am able to express my Heart and share my Heart direct to YOU.. How can it be.. As I am standing By YOU.. I turn to face YOU.. Looking at YOU.. Can YOU feel what I feel.. Can YOU Hear my Heart beating for YOU.. YOU are so Near to Me.. How can this be True.. and I put my hand on my Chest.. DO you see My hand.. it is touching my Chest.. but Inside is My Heart.. touching my Heart because My Heart is beating only for YOU.. Because I love YOU.. I just can't take my eyes off of YOU.. As I look Up.. I see the Sun.. and I pull the Sword Off the sheath and I show you the Blade of the Sword.. and I turn to YOU and I show you the Sword I am holding.. For a Long Time.. I dreamed of Holding a Sword.. I dreamed of holding this Sword to Protect YOU.. to protect the Nation.. the Palace.. to protect YOU CONG JU NIM.. I wanted to show YOU someday that I can be a Warrior.. that I can fight so that I can protect YOU.. to take Charge over to show YOU that I am also a MAN.. When I first saw YOU.. I do remember that I could Not even Hold a Sword.. only a Stick in my hand.. but what can a Stick do if a Person has a Sword.. I will die and I can't even protect myself.. I remember the first time I saw YOU.. I couldn't do anything.. holding a stick.. for what.. to do Nothing on my part.. I saw YOU riding on the Horse.. the White Horse and YOU blew my Mind.. I couldn't think straight.. I felt I was going crazy over YOU.. just fell on my knees.. because YOU are so Beautiful.. I remember I asked a person who I knew.. the Person said that Young Girl who is riding on that Horse.. She is the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH is what the person told Me.. and there is NO way YOU can even lift UP your eyes unless YOU wish to Die.. if YOU want to dig up your Own grave.. YOU can love but WILL die if the King.. or the Queen finds Out.. I remember I just could Not stop Looking at YOU.. YOU were wearing the same dress.. the White Dress on a White Horse.. going through the Fields.. fields of Flowers.. your hands would be holding.. grabbing unto the Flowers.. it was at this Same garden.. not Here at the hill top.. but at the Bottom below.. I was holding a Bucket of waters.. working and I saw YOU.. I remember the Bucket fell off my hands.. and I see YOU Off the White Horse.. walking across the field.. Your Smile.. the twinkles in your eyes sparked and felt like I saw a Shooting stars from your lovely Eyes.. and I would stand there.. the Bucket on the floor.. water across the ground.. My Heart would be pounding.. it be pounding with Beatings coming with it.. I felt like My Heart has been attacked.. Never felt this way in my Life.. I stood there.. wondering.. what just happened to My Heart.. another Boy who works with me comes and stands next to me.. and he looks at my eyes and turns to look.. and He could not believe.. I turn to look at the boy who worked with me.. he says.. that is MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. SHE is MAH MAH.. CONG JU MAH MAH NIM.. and I just couldn't believe it.. How does He knows but I don't know that.. I felt so Ashamed and I felt hurt for Not knowing but what was going to Happen to my Heart.. My Hand kept on touching my Chest.. I wanted my hand to stop.. but My Heart from the Inside kept on Beating and Pounding.. I felt I am going out of control.. HE looks at me.. He was another person who told me.. Not to think of YOU.. Don't even think about it because YOU will die.. YOU will be killed by Guards.. and yes.. I saw few Special Body Guards and Guards standing.. with Swords.. and they were watching over YOU.. and I started to Cry.. as the Boy who works with me left.. I can't believe it.. WHY.. WHY do I have to Love YOU.. I know that I am going to Die.. I know I will not live a Long time but WHY.. I asked myself.. I know it is IMPOSSIBLE to love someone who is the Princess.. But What can I do.. How can I stop if I already started to Love YOU.. I just couldn't believe it.. I be holding a stick in my hand.. and I lift to look at it.. I told myself.. Can I ever hold a sword.. what can I do with this Small stick.. Nothing I can do.. can't even protect my own self then How can I protect YOU My Princess.. as I watch YOU come and go.

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