Best tracks from my channel on a SPOTIFY playlist: spoti.fi/4aH2Phn (Daily updated) ▶️ About my channel: My Channel is a non-monetized music channel on KZread, created and operated by one anonymous individual under the alias Navo159. My Goal is creating the ultimate escapism music library on KZread, for people that need to escape reality, even for a second. I also network with artists and labels, so that their music can be heard and supported. Every Artist name along with the track title is always in the description of every video. So, if you want to support the artists, go and support them on their respective streaming platforms as well. Furthermore, all of the tracks used in my youtube playlists are copyrighted music, so if you see ads in my videos, it's because youtube places them automatically based on copyright-owners needs, I have no control over it, so sorry about that. And lastly, thank you so much for being a part of a wonderful community. Never thought I would be able to help so many people. Let's escape this reality together, at least for a moment. I will never stop making these videos. I just love music, and love sharing it with others who love it too. 💛 Mental health helplines: helpguide.org/find-help.htm 🔎 Contact me, for anything: instagram.com/navowi159/ 💙 PATREON: www.patreon.com/navo159/membership ⭐ If you choose to donate on PATREON, the money will go towards buying new music for the channel so that everyone can benefit from your generosity. Donation is completely optional and I only made this Patreon so that those who feel the need to do so may have that ability. Thank you for your continued support, and most importantly, thank you for listening! 📝 Want your music featured on my playlists? Do you think it will help other people? Email me • navowi99@gmail.com 👀 Let me review your music: groover.co/band/signup/referral/influencer/16554/?.navo159&widget_id=16554

@Glen27

9 ай бұрын

You are not the sad guy

@petercurrie8047

9 ай бұрын

​@@Glen27 No that's me, I've battled anxiety and depression for ten years. it never gets easier and the only reason im still here today is music,music is so powerful it can literally safe a life. Tc look after you're mental health sometimes there's no second chances.😔🖤 there's definitely no plan B.

@kenrockmordecail1358

8 ай бұрын

who's the photograph of the picture ?

@ethicalgaming9694

8 ай бұрын

@pilothyper

8 ай бұрын

The fact that they featured a helpline in this comment is highly- no, EXTREMELY commendable. This person knows their audience, and is a true-hearted one for offering and helping them get help. Few of a kind, this person :)

"You don't miss when times were easier, you miss when you were happier."

@jameskerr3257

8 ай бұрын

I never thought of it that way. So true.

@nordic_edits

8 ай бұрын

actually .. yes. this hit. but I think in a good way. i think my happiest time were not like the easiest.. maybe even kinda full and sometimes really stress full but.. happy :) thanks

@smakkdat

8 ай бұрын

I’ve lost a part of myself over the past few years. I’m not as sharp, I can’t socialize long. I miss old me.

@zrzolako1047

8 ай бұрын

​​@@smakkdatsometimes I fell happy with not be that socialist anymore

@eljana123

8 ай бұрын

it is true. now i cant be happy. i will always think of only that time and those moments...forever

I think the best part about these low emotional song videos is reading the comments. To see connections with others and to know you aren’t alone.

@Oceansplayz

8 ай бұрын

i understand you completely hope your ok.

@lesterkoon503

8 ай бұрын

😢 4oo❤

@Lord_Tubi

8 ай бұрын

Yeah I love the emo ass comments from 12 year olds trying to be deep, it’s pretty funny.

@CJ-137

8 ай бұрын

Whenever you feel lonely , God is always with you. ❤

@Hellfreeza

8 ай бұрын

Amen

To anybody who’s reading this, I pray that whatever is hurting you or whatever you are constantly stressing about gets better. May the dark thoughts , the overthinking , and the doubt exit your mind . May clarity replace confusion. May peace and calmness fill your life ❤

@Duarteyahoo272

6 ай бұрын

Thank you for the kind words, im praying for you too. May the God of peace and mercy bless you 🙏🙏

@Nobody28817

5 ай бұрын

Were it so simple

@jokpok7119

4 ай бұрын

My mom abused me and I wanna die sometimes

@patremagilbert682

3 ай бұрын

Thanku peace unto u. 🙏

@DiegoLopez-gt8ik

3 ай бұрын

Thanks

"Time heals nothing, it just makes your memories fade away."

@secondalex7788

3 ай бұрын

Where's this quote from,

@Moon_Editz6278

3 ай бұрын

It's from Anime naruto

@purplevanilla

3 ай бұрын

time may make your memories fade a way, but time also make us grow stronger than ever.

@marceloraphael7222

3 ай бұрын

Não desaparecem , você só está destraido...

@Moon_Editz6278

3 ай бұрын

@@purplevanilla 💀isn't it the same

First day of school. I cried quite a bit, happy and sad that I have a new school year, i keep looking in the mirror, wondering why I am so fat and ugly. I try to boost my confidence but it never seems to work. Now I sit here with my dogs, starting to believe in myself that I will get my good looks later, and that I just need to focus on my body. I went to the park with my cousin, having a blast, I forgot about everything, my looks, my body and my phone. First Time I laughed and smiled, I haven’t smiled since last school year, just fake smiles. I now sit on a beach, my family with bright smiles and loud laughs, our dog’s playing and chasing each other, sun setting as we start a campfire and marshmallows. *im happy.*

@siryugen

8 ай бұрын

So proud of you, im sure you will cherish these memories in the future. You can do this, and im sure over time with the work you put in your confidence will slowly boost.

"We used to look up at the sky and wonder at our place in the stars, Now we just look down and worry about our place in the dirt." This hit home for me.

@kelpy_kel

8 ай бұрын

Interstellar hits hard bro. One hell of a movie.

@eccenchick7138

8 ай бұрын

Yeah.. I used to look up at the night sky in love and in awe and wonder.

@mitch-mountain6774

8 ай бұрын

Truth!!! Life is a beautiful lie😢, but life is life. Enjoy the ride to the most while you are here. Leave no stone unturned! I love you all! All my fellow passengers!

@Jesus_Christ_loves_you_alot

8 ай бұрын

Guys, Jesus Christ really exists. There is really a God. There is really meaning to life and it isn't just a gap in time. You can have hope again, even more than ever before! People don't believe that but thats on them. Don't be that person. He changed me and can change you. He loves you and died taking on your sins, but now lives and wants to have a personal relationship with you! "Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest." -Matthew 11:28

@mthedirectioner

7 ай бұрын

@@Jesus_Christ_loves_you_alotI’m glad that you found Jesus, I’m glad that that’s a good way for you to improve your life. Can I just kindly ask you not to try and force your belief on other people? Of course you weren’t really forcing, I get that, so please don’t take this the wrong way. It’s just kinda- if Jesus existed and it was our fate to experience his love at some point in life, it’s probably not gonna happen because of someone commenting something. It should happen to someone in real life, where they truly experience the existence and acceptance of a higher being/something else (in this case, Jesus). I hope this kind of made sense. Have a great day mate :)

Going through one of the hardest depression episodes I've ever had. Cut off my friends and family and feel so so alone. Putting on ambient songs like this helps me stay calm and focused. If you are struggling you aren't alone. You are loved

@lghostyl

8 ай бұрын

if you need someone i'm here

@Wyan860

8 ай бұрын

Being the one cut off and the one who has cut people off, give them a message to say you are ok, they are worrying about you, even if they do not say so. Don't be afraid to ask for help, it's the biggest step you can take but it is the first one needed.

@pabloBRPW

8 ай бұрын

if you need someone to talk @venanciopablo

@RealSushi

8 ай бұрын

@franciscomoutinho4390

8 ай бұрын

I went through a tough depression too, I even wanted to commit suicide at one point; yet looking back at it now, I think it is these moments, these dark times, that make the good times worth getting through. Dark times are like murky waters in a cold lake; as if you fell in the water and are slowly drowning and freezing, but the sun will rise and warm them up. When you cut off your relationship with your friends and family, it might seem like you're sparing them of your pain, but all that does is drown you deeper, I learned that the hard way; but when you get out of the water, which you will, you are just left wondering; "was it worth it?". Was it worth it to "spare them" of your pain? And I think that thought is what makes that reunion just so much more meaningful, so much more *powerful* even. You are loved, and even if you think you're not, you shouldn't believe you're alone and you should NEVER think that there's only one way out.

i miss the old me The man who was always laughing The man who smiled all the time The man who was happy The man who didn't ask anybody for anything The man who celebrated his 5th birthday The man who loved to celebrate Christmas The man who saw his family The man who was always asking questions The man everyone loved The man who asked no questions The man who wasn't afraid The man who wasn't afraid of money problems The man who lived well The man who had a happy family The man who was in love The man who felt good The man who went to school without problems The man who went to school without a care in the world The man who had real friends The man who talked to everyone The man who liked to go out The man who didn't worry about family problems The man who liked to fight with his buddies for fun The man who got good grades The man who knew what to do with his life The man who had confidence in himself The man who knew nothing The man who trusted everyone The man who liked to laugh in front of a cartoon The man who loved Christmas movies with his family in front of the TV The man who was happy to see his friends succeed The man who always called his friends to ask if they were okay The man who listened to people's problems The man who loved life The man who loved to eat The man who loved to smell The man who loved love The man who liked to scare others for laughs The man who liked to help people but now it's the other way around, but you have to stop thinking about the past, become a new person, reinvent yourself while remaining yourself, get by, that's how life works, you have to enjoy it despite everything and love yourself above all. Absolutely, "Be yourself" is valuable advice. Authenticity and acceptance of who you really are can lead to greater satisfaction and deeper relationships. Here are a few more tips for being authentic: Assume your Passions and Interests: Don't hide your passions or interests to fit in with what others expect of you. Openly express what you're passionate about, even if it differs from social norms. Develop Confidence in Yourself: Having confidence in your opinions and decisions can enable you to be more true to yourself. Self-confidence is acquired gradually by stepping out of your comfort zone and achieving small victories. Accept your weaknesses: Nobody's perfect. Accepting your flaws and weaknesses is part of authenticity. Working on them is an opportunity to grow and improve. Choose Positive Relationships: Surround yourself with people who accept and support you as you are. Authentic relationships are those where you don't have to pretend to be someone you're not. Express your Needs: Don't be afraid to communicate your needs and preferences in interpersonal relationships. This can lead to more honest and satisfying relationships. Listen to your Inner Voice: Take time to listen to your intuition and feelings. Sometimes, your own inner voice can guide you toward choices that are authentic for you. Learn and Grow: Authenticity doesn't mean staying stagnant. Keep learning, growing and evolving, while staying true to your core values. Remember that you have the right to be yourself and that you deserve to be accepted for who you are. Authenticity will help you create a more meaningful and fulfilling life. and if you don't love yourself, know that someone loves you, know that someone wants you to be well, your mother, your father, your brothers and sisters, your friends, your family, or even a secret love, there will always be someone who loves you. don't let your sadness overwhelm you, destroy your life, prove to yourself the opposite, prove to yourself that life/the world is a beautiful thing, a unique opportunity, so enjoy it! have a great day !

@Ruby-gm5do

8 ай бұрын

I hope your doing okay. Please keep going 💞

@MALUquinhaa

8 ай бұрын

thank you for the kind words... i needed that so bad

@hassenalwaely6215

8 ай бұрын

at this point just take drugs, that will shut u up trust me.

@Jabullz

8 ай бұрын

The world is a casino, with matching bright lights and loud sounds. A daily distraction of the impending doom that's set upon us all, at the very second of our birth. The countdown is a small blessing afforded by your love, pain, gratitude, suffering, devotion, stress, convictions and apathy. Your allowed glimpse of life is paid by your eternal death.

@kanohunt7361

8 ай бұрын

Thank you ❤

“Everybody wants happiness. Nobody wants pain. But you can’t have a rainbow without a little rain” Remember this.

@CamTooSlow

11 күн бұрын

I hope I'm through the rain

People that listen to this stuff, and just have that weird, good but sad comfort, i love yall, thank you for making me feel less alone

@TheWierdKid-ls2xm

7 ай бұрын

They might be the best friends to talk to, but their mental health needs a check, they do all they can for others, and close to nothing for themselves

@BossMan-qi6nb

7 ай бұрын

likewise

@pacewalk7396

6 ай бұрын

take care brother

@haakamsandhu

2 ай бұрын

Many blessings brother. I hope you’re well, reading this knowing you’re not on your own

@JesusAPalomino

Ай бұрын

love you too

it is my birthday today and i have turned 18,but i feel like its the worst day i've ever witnessed. Parent's fights, constant sadness with loneliness but this playlist gives me a corner of comfort. Thank you so much for this

@bridgetroberts2189

8 ай бұрын

Sometimes that's all we have, and that's okay.

@walmartbag6937

8 ай бұрын

Hit the gym. It helps.❤

@Jesus_Christ_loves_you_alot

8 ай бұрын

Hey there. I understand, I'm 17. But life isn't meaningless. You can have true comfort. Jesus Christ really exists. There is really a God. There is really meaning to life and it isn't just a gap in time. People don't believe that but thats on them. Don't be that person. He changed me and can change you. He loves you and died taking on your sins, but now lives and wants to have a personal relationship with you. "Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest." -Matthew 11:28

@Eddi3xBac0n

8 ай бұрын

@@walmartbag6937no it doesnt because you will still meet the monster that you cannot beat with just strength alone.

@evelynmontagnini8554

8 ай бұрын

Happy belated birthday!!! I wish you a wonderful life, full of health and I hope you always have at least one reason to smile everyday ❤ Your existence is worthy and appreciated, never forget this

We don't miss the past, we miss the way we felt before.

@Nobody28817

7 ай бұрын

I don't wanna miss anything Just wish everything would fade away

@patremagilbert682

3 ай бұрын

Yes

@harlie2009

2 ай бұрын

well that is the thing for me tho, i *do* miss the past. i do miss how i felt but i miss the past by itself though cause it reminds me of the feelings i felt of happiness. i wish i could go back and cherish those moments more then i did. they were memories i didn’t know i would remember nor care about now i just wish i was more grateful

I don't think my parents know how much of a connection I have with this kind of music, nor do I think my close friends even know..

@profox12

8 ай бұрын

mine too

@hassenalwaely6215

8 ай бұрын

and y would they care?

@lostsignal_3412fgwzxgrt

8 ай бұрын

@@hassenalwaely6215 I think they would care but they don’t know, that’s the thin

@wtfboom4585

8 ай бұрын

You should tell them

@DromeG60

8 ай бұрын

Hey man if you enjoy chill ambience and lo-fi music, you're certainly in a huge pool of people who enjoy the same thing! It's really common to enjoy relaxing music and if this kind of chill tone is the vibe that radiates from you then I'm sure people have guessed that's what you enjoy :)

Loneliness is being in a dark room and giving up on looking for the light.

100 reasons to stay alive: 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your Favorite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you are religious) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone like you. 75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships. 76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person. 77. Joy and happiness in the little things. 78. The power to inspire others. 79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression. 80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life. 81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet. 82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family. 83. Learn new things and develop new skills. 84. Create a legacy that will outlive you. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Cuddles 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it. Ps : Never forget you are a beautiful person 💕 Life is so beautiful so live, live like no one else exist, live for yourself, don't care of bad people, you are strong, i love you 🫶🏼.

What peope fail to understand is that transitioning into an adult isn't something to be glamorized im 28 now and feel no different the only thing I've noticed is that all other adults around me are playing pretend giving themselves goals or using addictions to hide the fact that they are truly confused, in pain, and badly want to revert back to those fabled "good old days" all generations do it but for some reason each generation bullies the next instead of safe guarding them and teaching them how to self heal through troubled time😞

@amberadams2935

9 ай бұрын

The ending sentiment is exactly the change I wanna be ...

@Repkoto12

8 ай бұрын

The sooner you understand that those "old times" will never return, the sooner you can fix your life together through the implementation of goals. No one stays Peter Pan forever whether they like it or not. So make something of yourself, for our old self's sake and other people's. The world will be a better place with you being the best version of yourself.

@jin6000

7 ай бұрын

Well said. ❤

@Cooper_Da_Snoopster

7 ай бұрын

We all long for our old selves. But because we were in such a hurry to grow up we left the good ole days so far behind us without even realizing. It's an incurable thing. Besides maybe love. I think falling in love again could remedy it

Every night at 3AM, i come across the same videos such as this one. And like others said, reading the comments is a beautiful thing because there are other people out there with different thoughts and realities as mine, but when we all hear music like this it takes us back to a simpler time, a special time when we didn’t have to worry about the external life around us and everything felt good in the moment. I find beauty in knowing that I’m not alone in the way i feel, and we all have our own situations to deal with but can still grasp similar thoughts and feelings of one another.

@1x5x7

8 ай бұрын

It's 3:10AM right now. I randomly stumbled upon this and your comment. Wishing you well.

@Hunter_IRL

8 ай бұрын

Facts.

@naethynberry-chan4265

8 ай бұрын

I think ur talking about the feeling u get when u get choked up and are hugging a loved one goodbye for now

@ChristBeardify

3 ай бұрын

@@1x5x7wow it’s 3:10 for me right but 5 months later lol have a good life stranger

@farmersmith7057

3 ай бұрын

I love listening to music like this and spacing out. No drugs. Just feeling relaxed without anything. I swear I’ve been this all my life. 52 years old today.

Born 1993, when I was around 5/6 me and my family had to move to Germany, Osnabruck because my Dad was stationed there for being in the British Army. We stayed there until 2001. I can honestly say from what memories are still there in my head, are the best years of my life. If I could just relive those days, just for a few hours, I would be so happy. I spend hours crying happy/sad tears on Google Earth Pro with the time machine of the maps. Seeing my old Primary School before it was demolished. Seeing the Army barracks my dad was at before that too was sadly demolished. Seeing my old childhood home which I haven't seen since we left 22 years ago. It's even more saddening with how Germanys privacy laws are. Google Street view is practically none existent. So the buildings and the streets I fondly remember are mainly just these pixelated resemblances of buildings that I still vividly remember from my childhood but i can't see how are now or was a few years ago. I only have what I remember, and the odd remnants of videos here on KZread which is extremely lacking and rare to find. The walks we went on, the Warner Brothers Movie Theme Park down south near Dorsten. Pony rides in the woods and picking the oldest one there who was called Boris. I picked him all the time because he liked to eat the grass a lot which made the ride last longer so I could spend more time with him. The little & big lake walk just behind the Nettebad. The traditional Christmas Markets in the town centre. Playing video games when my Dad finally came home on my Playstation 1, we would try and beat the games in one day but never could because I didn't have a memory card. Getting excited whenever Pokemon was on the TV. Friends round mine to share the big swimming pool I had. Watching Halloween Town before going out trick or treating. Finding our first ever pet, a kitten abandoned behind a grit bin while we were on a bike ride and taking her home, we named her Millie. So many memories. All lost to time. With only old VHS tapes & photographs to try and relive those memories at least just a tiny bit. Oh what Id do just to go back to those days. Nostalgia is such a beautiful but cruel mistress. I hate to love it and love to hate it. I Miss you Osnabruck. I miss you childhood. But. I have a baby daughter now. And I honestly can not wait to be the best father I can possibly be. And to make everlasting memories with her that she can look back on and smile just as much as I do looking back at the ones I made with my Mum & Dad. Oh Germany. Oh Osnabruck. Oh childhood. You were the best of days. I'll revisit you one day. With the whole family hopefully.

@randomduck-fx7ir

9 ай бұрын

I'm sure you'll visit it soon with your family and remered the memory you made

@bygamzeee938

9 ай бұрын

Geography is destiny. Believe me, your memories are beautiful. I wish everyone had such memories.. Look at life not from your own window, but from the universal window and understand how happy you should be. I wish you happiness., 🙏🏻

@kabu3992

9 ай бұрын

I did not expect to see the city I go to visit my boyfriend pop up in this comment section, haha... Osna is a wonderful city, I promise you that it's most likely as nice as in your memories.

@okalsdi

9 ай бұрын

You can always relive them in your head. That's a gift. Take it :) and appreciate it. It really isn't all lost to time, it only is, if you say that it is. Also you should really go there and revisit. Don't make yourself reliant on Google Maps. This will be an adventure and a step forward for your soul. Greetings from Austria

@litiviousspartus4611

9 ай бұрын

You have an anxiety disorder. Trust me, I can tell... you are depressed. Get on anxiety pills they make you feel normal again.

To everyone here listening to this awesome relaxing music, If you are feeling down today, remember this: Life its like a rollercoaster, full of ups and downs but in the end it will always be worth it. Don’t give up! We believe in you !

@andrewb90

8 ай бұрын

Idk man i been just having downs ☠️

@torgath5088

8 ай бұрын

sometimes it hits too hard... After that you are not the same, never the same again.

@luisclark3693

8 ай бұрын

change is a necessary thing for growth. dont look at change as a bad thing. look at is as an opportunity to grow and think of things in a new perspective @@torgath5088

@Eightfinger

8 ай бұрын

@@torgath5088 I thought that too many times in my life. And somehow, yes, I was never the same again, but better in the end. Different, but better. Some experiences can heal things that seem so impossibly broken... It gave me hope. And then life found a way to hit so damn hard, that there really seems to be no way out. No way back or forward. No escape.

@Unknowi7777

8 ай бұрын

Its a beautiful comment ❤

This playlist reminds me how much you dont realize how important a moment is until it become only a memorie but still your alive keep in mind its not too late to continue and do better

@dylpickle1906

7 ай бұрын

"We didn't know we were making memories, we were just having fun."

We are all battling something. No matter how long it lasts, we must prevail.

@Nobody28817

7 ай бұрын

Why battle you're enemies constantly? Why not wiped them out for good It would be so simple... wouldn't it?

@DefeatLust

7 ай бұрын

Never. Give. Up.

This has been the loneliest year of my life, I got sober and all my friends decided I wasn't worth keeping around if I wasn't going to party anymore, music has become my solitary refuge...thanks for this playlist.

@drawlove6044

7 ай бұрын

Hope you will feel better sometime soon

@cptkkz_natsuki

7 ай бұрын

Yeah. I’d rather be like this than go back to the bottle

@calixfyy

7 ай бұрын

You made the right decision, and took the first step, proud of you bro. People are going to leave once you start to be more serious in life. It’s the harsh reality of life. You’ll be okay man.

@Seachell1971

7 ай бұрын

Find some new friends, groups, church, college. I hope you find your happy place again very soon.

@drxx777

7 ай бұрын

You’re finding your own solitude and that is definitely a gift, it’s ok to free up space for those that will appreciate you for who you are and not for what they want you to be(:

9:31 the song is called November 8th. this is a special day to me because it was the last time I saw my mother alive. November 8th 2017. its going to be 6 years since I last saw her.

@the.seagull.35

8 ай бұрын

☹ sorry to hear that.

@jin6000

7 ай бұрын

Incredible song. I’m deeply sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story. Much love to you. I’m sure your late mother was a remarkable woman and is looking over you. ❤

No matter what or who hurt you, just know, you are capable of taking care of yourself, you are capable of healing, you are capable of loving yourself and loving yourself first. You just have to be willing. You’re never alone if you hold down your own! Remember that

@Nobody28817

7 ай бұрын

I see no reason to love myself.. I'll just move forward Fuck my family Fuck my friends Fuck everyone Fuck this shitty world.. nothing's worth it I'm tired of emotions I don't want emotions anymore I don't wanna be human I don't wanna survive Wish it all would disappear and fuck off forever... nobody gives a shit Kill it all.. leave it bleeding in the street Don't care if it kills me... I'm just sick of noise I wanna silence them Throw the burdens and emotions away... just not have any care or morals anymore Just be who I've always been

“Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened”. hold your head up high, it’s not over yet. Do it for your friends. Family. Teachers. Pets. Do it for me. I know i’m just a weird stranger in the internet, but please. Please. Keep fighting, even if you want to give up. I love you, and am happy you’re here right now, with me. Life is unfair. Tough. Stressful. Overwhelming. But don’t forget that there are new chances everyday to experience something new. Don’t wait for it to just happen. Work for it. Chase it. Have a good night/day, wherever you are and whatever time it is for you. I am rooting for you in this battle, so keep going.

@Nobody28817

9 ай бұрын

The only thing that'll make everything better is if this world disappears

@monsehuertero8466

8 ай бұрын

You made me cry thanks

@voltsinsss

8 ай бұрын

@@monsehuertero8466 ❤

@pjtrow

8 ай бұрын

im actually crying thank you

@voltsinsss

8 ай бұрын

@@pjtrow ily ♥

For all the people who survive on the stories they write, you are not alone. My main character will meet yours one day.

i feel like as I've gotten older, I'm no longer who I once used to be. looking back I was brash, I was silly, I was loveable and loved life. Slowly, I began to become more self conscious, and so I talked less, laughed less, and loved less. By the time I got to university I wasn't interested in anything anymore , just played games and studied all the time. Although, recently I have been having fun again and diving into new hobbies; I just wish I wasn't so anxious around people, I wish I could show the world the real "me" warts and all. anyways that felt therapeutic to write, have a nice night y'all

If you're reading this and you are wondering if things will ever get better or if you will find a reason to live, I just want to let you know that I was in a bad headspace almost all my teenage years. Very depressed. I go back to videos like these and I remember how alone and panicky I used to feel. I sometimes even see comments I left all those years ago. I can never really say that it gets easier or better in every facet of life. I think the reason I'm still here is that good things have happened. Stupid things to look forward to. TV shows you want to binge. Stuff you want to buy. Phone calls you'll laugh over. New observations of yourself, what you like and don't like. I only realized very recently that I am bound to disappoint someone for giving into something that, to others, seems stupid. But life is made up simple little things. So I gave up, started allowing myself to enjoy the things I liked without fear of rejection. And I think things have already improved, but that's only because I believe in myself now. So, TL;DR, life is not a big important mission to be as productive as possible. You are allowed and expected to make memories from simple joys. That in itself is worth living for.

@michaeldost8155

7 ай бұрын

I think that’s partly why I was miserable and uncomfortable with myself for a long time. I thought my self-worth was from how much work I did, and so, I tried doing as many tasks as possible each day, thinking it would make me happy in the end. Now I don’t really know exactly what to do with my life ever since I’ve taken my foot off the gas. I’m not exactly looking to be a billionaire, have expensive things or have the best body etc. I just want to do something that’s meaningful to me, and not feel like I’m lesser than others who work harder than me or are in a far better position than me.

The sad thing is, I can’t get old me back no matter how hard I try.

@thesaltypineapple7663

9 ай бұрын

I thought I was the only one who did that? It’s become an obsession of mine for years. I’ve asked many people over my life if they noticed a significant change between young adolescents to adulthood. No one noticed any change other than maturity. I’ve felt such an enormous lacking for a long time, I just want to be be young again. Not for the snack time or naps, I want to feel happy again. I want to be a kind person again I want to be wholesome again. I’ve tried desperately to go back to the way things were, through therapy and supplements to completely removing technology. I can’t do it. I can’t go back.

@Sharpless2

9 ай бұрын

@@thesaltypineapple7663 The lacking youre feeling is... i have no explanation either but i feel the same. At one point in life you start to realize that your only real use in this world is to generate revenue. The only thing youre supposed to do in life is work. The feeling is like a state of constant depression, without it actually being depressed. I would almost call it oppression, because this world makes you oppress your real self in order to blend into society. Its like all the happy is gone, and once its gone it will never come back. Living just doesnt feel worth it anymore, not in a "i dont want to exist anymore" type, but rather that no matter what you do, life is just boring. This kind of music makes you feel this way because this is what you "sound like on the inside". No more happy, no more easy. Just boring life, for the rest of your life. Antidepressants work for me, but what do i gain from it? Nothing. They are a mere tool to make you a "functioning member of society" again. Im not doing another therapy because it doesnt change anything anyways.

@danwhitee8550

9 ай бұрын

All sayings are sad but true. I feel the same way 😕

@kalebross6033

9 ай бұрын

It's hard, because once you let go, you can never get it back.

@OfficialSpring

9 ай бұрын

@WinstonBlack Your observation is profoundly accurate. In our modern world, there's an unrelenting push to impose certain viewpoints and beliefs on everyone, leaving little space for genuine individuality. It's disheartening to witness the necessity of conforming to a manufactured version of oneself, merely to fit into a community fraught with harsh critique and scrutiny. Many of us yearn for the freedom we experienced as children, when expressing our true selves was natural and unhindered by repercussions or judgments. Personally, I'm becoming weary of this status quo. The need for change is palpable, though pinpointing where to commence this transformation remains a formidable challenge. I recognize that this sentiment might be perceived as just another online comment, accompanied by somber music-a fleeting plea unlikely to incite change. Nevertheless, advocating for individuality, self-expression, and personal liberties is vital. It's time for someone to voice these concerns to the masses, even if the path is arduous.

At the loneliest point I've ever been in my life. Playlists like this help me feel something most accurate to represent how I feel. Just wanted to share incase someone else feels this way. ❤

it feels so good to cry then sit here listening to the rest of this video with that numb feeling after you cry for like 30 minutes to an hour your eyes feel heavy your head filled with nothing and your body just relaxing. it’s an amazing feeling to me

I’m so glad to see I’m not the only one experiencing intense emotions because of these songs. Nostalgia, pain, regret, hope, all of these things I go over and over feeling while I’m stuck in this depression. I haven’t been this bad since I was 18. I hope I find my way out.

@johnfisher7757

8 ай бұрын

Sending some Good Vibes. I hope they find you!

@brianrodriguez6897

8 ай бұрын

Been very rough for me too. Let me know if you need to talk I'll share my sc

@beerussolos1063

8 ай бұрын

Damn, same here. I dont know whats happening with me but im seeing stuff inside of me that makes me question if i even know myself and if i even can trust myself

@Jesus_Christ_loves_you_alot

8 ай бұрын

Hey there! I truly wish you the best. Look, life isn't meaningless. You can have true comfort knowing that Jesus Christ really exists. There is really a God. There is really meaning to life and it isn't just a gap in time. People don't believe that but thats on them. Don't be that person. He changed me and can change you. He loves you and died taking on your sins, but now lives and wants to have a personal relationship with you. "Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest." -Matthew 11:28

@rafox66

8 ай бұрын

You will get out of this. I'm in there too right now, worst it's ever been, so you're not alone. Yesterday I planned on not being here today but something convinced me to stay and keep fighting. Maybe it was so I could tell you today that things are going to be better someday, if you believe in those sort of things. You are not alone, we fight this fight together although it may not feel that way. Never allow yourself to give up no matter how hard it gets, because the sun does shine on the other side.

Snowfall just makes me think about how much happier I was when I was younger and how I wish I could relive those days. It’s almost like it’s triggering something inside of me that’s saying “please let me go back I’ll do anything”

We gonna make it guys, don't think, don't hesitate, the answer is within you and always wlll. Beaucoup d'amour, much love

You know I might be drunk right now, and it is 2 in the morning and I found this video while listening to the credit song for my death, but you know when I look at my life and what I have lived through, I find it in my self that I miss just a small part of my childhood and that is from when I can remember anything to the 5th grade of elementary school. After that its been all downhill, that is until last year when I finally started going to the gym and trying to make my self better, for who you ask? For my self and those who love and wish me the best, that is who, I looked one day into the mirror and thought I don't look to bad really...but I could look better, if I just tried at all. And from that day on I tried to be even just 1% better then I was yesterday. I won't lie, there are days I fall and stumble, when I feel like no matter how hard I try I will always stay the same. Yet I know to stand back up and try again because while I might not think I am anything great, there are people that think I am and can be great, all I need is a will to persevere and not to give up. Why, because I still have a lot of time left on this planet and I will not wast it on self pity and guilt when I could be happy, I believe today people are to concerned with what others think of them that they forget that the most important opinion is that of one self and of those that love you. So I shall focus on that. On the opinion of those that want me good and want to see me prosper. And while there are times I look back and see something that I will never have again and miss dearly, I will also look at where I am today and I will be proud for I have reached a place my younger self could not even dream of. So if you are reading this and are thinking of ending it because there is none that believe in you and you feel like there is no reason to go on, don't do it, for there always is at least one person that is rooting for you, be it even just a small part of yourself, someone that you might have pushed away in your anger and grief, or just a guardian angel that has been with you and seen your all, or hell a random stranger on the internet listening to the same music video as you, keep on fighting, stumbling and falling for as long as you are doing those thing it means you are not giving up. And at the end you will look back and be happy that you did all those thing because they will give you the strength to find happiness in every waking moment that you spent on this planet, yes there will be times when you are sad, angry or all sorts of other emotions but that just means you are still living and at the end of the day remember we find our own happiness for our self, it is not something someone can give you, they can help you, push you to keep going or just be there to listen, but remember it is YOU who has to forge your own path. Good luck and may you find your happiness.

@DigitallPimp

8 ай бұрын

Thank you, this really helped

@algemarquien3775

8 ай бұрын

Thank you man..thank you

@paulschmitz97

8 ай бұрын

Thank you brother ❤

@Dayndawn01

8 ай бұрын

tears

@Hunter_IRL

8 ай бұрын

Really well written 🙏

Looking to the heavens on a trampoline ,smoking a joint while reminiscing about the love that could've been and what's my purpose to this life .

@AR-hw9zi

8 ай бұрын

that's a vibe

@justwaller10

7 ай бұрын

Amen to that 😔

If you're still in school, enjoy your life to the fullest. Because after that welcome to the real world where everything is hard and you're now fully responsible for your future. It's very stressful and you'll miss the old days :)

@ekwi

9 ай бұрын

sad but true. And what you're going to do... Live on, keep on, carry on. Greetings from Poland.

@noog6756

9 ай бұрын

No. Life's supposed to be beautiful throughout your entire lifespan. struggles are inevitable. It doesn't end when your out of highschool, that's self destruction.

@TheWehzy

9 ай бұрын

So true. school times is actually so much fun compared to being adult.

Just lost the love of my life… idk how im going to do this anymore.. so grateful for music like this to help me drown out the harsh reality right now.

@Ray-dj5sq

8 ай бұрын

Maybe there's something better waiting for you in the future, always be hopeful that allah will give you something better , something will make your eyes tear from happiness, i will pray for you may allal make it easy for you , and dont be sad , maybe you loved something that was bad for you , and sometimes we hater something that it's good for us , take care of yourself❤

@JohnWilksBooth907

8 ай бұрын

I’m sure she’ll be quite happy to see you when your time comes but for now I’m know she’s up their hoping your living your best life Idk how I’d could go through what your going through but I know your stronger then your believe you are you may not be together but your not apart your souls are connected and she’ll be waiting for you on the other said for you to tell her all your experiences you’ve had while she was away And if it’s a break up I know Heavenly Father has someone better coming your way Stay loyal stay strong 💪 my friend

Its the fact all of us are here because we feel sad or just had a bad day but remember we arent going to relive this day or yesterday every again we are growing and ageing and we have to try make the most out of days like this and turn them into a lesson and do something nice that would bring up our mood life is to short to be wasting it on pointless saddness and anger ❤️

I'm an adult now. None of the dreams I had during my youth became real. None of the partners I loved have remained in my life. None of my creativity is left. None of the energy and enthusiasm I used to have during my youth is left. The list goes on. This is the adult life we craved for as children? I just wanna go back to teenage life forever. It's the one short time period of life where you feel more alive than in any other era of your life. After your youth all the magic of life just slowly fades away.

@CrabmanReturns

8 ай бұрын

Real

I just wish one day i will find the version of me i've been always wanting ....💔

@maelysjacqmain9865

8 ай бұрын

You don't even need to find it. You can build it (sorry if that doesn't make any sense, I am not a native speaker 😅) Have a great day and never forget your dreams

@StrangeDooropen

8 ай бұрын

@maelysjacqmain9865 What I meant by " find it " is to look for that " me " I've always wanted, and building new features of personality is defenetly a part of this process .

you know what? I can confidently say I don't miss the old me. He wouldn't make it in this world so I had to get rid of him. Alas, there is hope. Hope for a better future. Don't you ever give up my brothers and sisters. You are the only one who can get yourself out of your rut. See you in another life. ✨

I dont feel too good right now but at least i know there is bunch of people here who feel the same, you're not alone. Hope you feel better after reading this.

@Nobody28817

9 ай бұрын

Just existing makes me feel miserable... It makes sense when you know you've been misplaced I despise this world

@victorantoniollanosllanos9500

8 ай бұрын

You are loved guys....even though you don't know it.

@victorantoniollanosllanos9500

8 ай бұрын

​@LostChild35 I feel your pain...nothing I could ever say could make you feel better, but know your feelings are justified, but it also never has to stay this way. Not unless you want it to.

@Nobody28817

8 ай бұрын

@@victorantoniollanosllanos9500me hating this world feels like instinct.. it doesn't have to be this way But it is anyway

I miss the old days. This pulls me back to memories I had long forgotten of times through out my life when novelty was at its peak. This helps me experience that again.

@jin6000

7 ай бұрын

Well said. ❤

How did I stumble upon this video during a really hard time in my life? Listening to this and reading the comments is oddly comforting. I've just been through heartbreak with someone who I will love until the end of my days, we were never together, but best of friends and that was ended due to some difficulties. Stars know I miss her more than anything and maybe, hopefully, she'll reach out one day. But now, like everyone I'm trying to move forward and during this time I find myself discovering videos like these and the experiences people are sharing, it's quite a thing right?

@jin6000

7 ай бұрын

Much love and respect to you. Sorry to hear about what happened with you and your special person. One day, possibly far from now, you’ll be able to reach out (or they will) and all of this won’t hurt nearly as bad and you’ll get your closure, and who knows; maybe even start a new and more beautiful chapter. Take care and focus on yourself in the meantime. You deserve your own love. All the best.

@varden288

7 ай бұрын

Thats crazy im in the same place as you. A situationship that never was but it had all the possibilities of being a fantastic future together. Move on, grow and learn from it is all ive found

@Farniro

7 ай бұрын

Thank you for the kind words.@@jin6000

The pain never goes away, no matter how old we get.

@charlesthurman6

8 ай бұрын

You just cope...

@naethynberry-chan4265

8 ай бұрын

Just like the space probe perseverance

@naethynberry-chan4265

8 ай бұрын

U got to persever or otherwise cope to get the best out of it

@jojishiishiguro

7 ай бұрын

you're right. sometimes it is less though. Best i usually get is about half a day

@Nobody28817

7 ай бұрын

Can only cope for so long It ain't no way to live too me

You're here for a reason, dont ever stop being you. Just in case you haven't heard it in a while... I love you ❤

@pjtrow

8 ай бұрын

we love you too

@deneaz

8 ай бұрын

❤️❤️

@LwkyDead

8 ай бұрын

Say it again

@sk8boredd

8 ай бұрын

@@LwkyDead I love you

@naethynberry-chan4265

8 ай бұрын

I love u and I do believe we're here for a reason

tbh i just miss feeling joy and seeing light in everything it all feels clouded

@jin6000

7 ай бұрын

Same here friend. Same here. ❤

I wish I could get the old me back, I miss my brother RIP YOU LEGEND, unfortunately I'll see you sooner than I've been diagnosed with brain cancer I'm sorry brother I love you ❤️

@hunterj1312

8 ай бұрын

I miss my brother too man, he passed away recently. I'm gonna say a little prayer for you and your future. I wish you the best sincerely. I hope we can both see our brothers again.

@oSpecialx

8 ай бұрын

my prayers go out to you

Isn’t it interesting? How these songs can bring up memories we miss. How they bring emotions to the surface we’ve oppressed for however long. How they make you stop worrying, stressing, being anxious. How loneliness doesn’t seem so lonely. You’re at a calmer peace of mind, and it’s just from some songs. Songs that don’t have words. I love every bit of it. It’s nice to be able to escape the prison of the mind

The funny thing is, is that I'm 64 and I started coming back to me after my Mother died. And then recently my home town burned to the ground destroyed everything I ever knew growing up. For some reason I had to painfully pull all of those memories out of time to comfort myself. It brought me back to myself, unexpected as so, but wonderful. I still don't know what to make of it.

@MaikelxD88

9 ай бұрын

Stay streng

@MaikelxD88

9 ай бұрын

Strong

@charlesmuller7081

9 ай бұрын

I'm glad to have read this because your comment provides company. I think we seldom choose to learn painful truths, regardless of age. I'm 33 and consider myself healthy and strong, yet so far this year have fractured my elbow, been hospitalized for a stomach issue, and welcomed my first child. It's funny how suddenly my fragile mortality, not to mention that of my parents and other relatives, has suddenly taken over my thoughts. Being a parent is forcing me to revisit so many memories in order to understand truths which run deeper than logic. You're right, it's impossible to sort everything out; the more details that fall into place, the more obscure the puzzle becomes. I'm sorry for what you've lost, and I'm grateful for what you've gained. During significant trials like yours, small comforts are writ large.

@debraphillips8921

9 ай бұрын

I am sorry for your loss of your mother. I lost my Momma, February 13, 23. Life doesn't make sense right now. I understand.. prayers for you..

@fuzzypandabear3793

9 ай бұрын

I'm sorry for your loss, stay strong! We all love you. You're never in this alone. The moment you feel alone is when everyone is there

This is incredible to find out that I'm not the only one who feels that way! I wish we could all meet and live all in the same town, be friends,hang out because only we can understand each other. Love to you all guys!

@deneaz

8 ай бұрын

thank you so much, i wish you will find your happiness, hug🫂❤️

@AshyLarryson

8 ай бұрын

If we were all in the same room we would avoid eye contact let’s be real

@torgath5088

8 ай бұрын

@@deneaz you too, my friend, you too!

@juliocflores03

8 ай бұрын

That sounds nice, even if it's just a dream. Happiness and Love to you my friend ❤

@jin6000

7 ай бұрын

So well said. ❤

I wanna leave a little story about these kinds of playlists. They remind me of my old life. How I used to see the world and how the world was. I loved it back then, we all did right? For the most part, Christmas, Halloween, there is so much in the past that shines so bright. And I wanna leave my experience with this. I miss it every day, I want to go back. But I can’t, and I’ll never see that kind of time again. But, I’m so fuxking happy it happened. I’m so happy I can look back and remember all the magic and warmth. One of my vows, for why I live, is to put the magic back in life. Put color in the sky, put warm smells in summer, step back, away from all the worries for a moment, and feel the magic of all the small things. My advice for anyone who feels like magic or the enjoyment of life and the past is gone, is to try to put it back. I know it sounds insane and difficult, but put it back. On Christmas, try to get a small tree, some lights, whatever you can to make it nice for you. Try to go out of your way for Christmas crafts, or Halloween, anything that you enjoy. The thing about growing up is that the people who made it magical don’t anymore, so it’s up to you to brighten your own world. It helped me, it works for me sometimes, and sometimes I smile and enjoy the holidays even if they do hurt. I feel happy giving the world meaning in my own silly way. Good luck guys, I hope that this made snese, it is late and I’m tired, goodnight.

@Unit0998

9 ай бұрын

hope you had a goodnight

@wastedwally

9 ай бұрын

@@Unit0998 it was wonderful. I just enjoyed the last days of my summer

@Unit0998

9 ай бұрын

@@wastedwally Well sleep good Tonight, and every night after.

@wastedwally

9 ай бұрын

appreciated dude, and same goes for you!@@Unit0998

@debraphillips8921

9 ай бұрын

I lost my Momma February 13 23 and I inherited the property of which I grew up on starting (69) and watched and helped build the new world. I'm honored that my mom and daddy could have done that. Lol I didn't even know that they had wills.

My brothers my sisters ....YOU....are NOT..ALONE..when you go through trials just remember we're right behind you going through the same battle!

@Nobody28817

7 ай бұрын

I am alone

@ahmetmagara8236

5 ай бұрын

@@Nobody28817 talk to me

@ahmetmagara8236

5 ай бұрын

@@Nobody28817 talk to me

@Nobody28817

5 ай бұрын

@@ahmetmagara8236 bout what?.. my loneliness, my well being 😁 It's harsh but I've come to accept it now. I am alone, alone, alone alone alone All alone... Alone forever I'll live alone I'll stay alone I'll eat alone I'll sit alone I'll stand alone I'll fight alone I'll struggle alone I'll breathe alone I'll get old alone "if I even make it that far probably" I'll die alone No matter what! I cannot stop feeling alone!😄 No matter how much family or friends I have, it always feels the same! 😂 I am alone eternally that's simply fact for me So.. there you go 😊 questions if you so inclined

@ahmetmagara8236

4 ай бұрын

@@Nobody28817 you always feel alone? when was the last time you didn't

I just wish i could travel to a blue foggy field like this…

"Hey mom our water tank is empty" i shouted while juggling the water tank trying to see if it can spare me a few water left No response, i shouted again "Mom?" I said as i make my way to where my mom usually is "Hey mom i said the water tank is emp-" i stopped when the realization hit me We are used to our parents always be there for us, that we can't imagine that one day we are just gonna come out of our room to look for them like we usually do only to realized that their not here anymore and we are on our own now.

@johnjamesjoseph3814

4 ай бұрын

Oh yes. Totally get it.

I didn't think anyone else felt like this. I'm glad to know its not just me

To everyone who clicked on this video, sending an overflow of love, tranquility, and abundant blessings your way. You're much closer to your goals than you realize. I genuinely love and believe in you! ♥🤞🏾✨🌈

I miss the girl who had never been hurt or abandoned. She had such a better outlook on life. I know that’s just a part of life. In a way it’s beautiful. I am lucky enough to live a life where I get to experience all these emotions. Doesn’t mean it doesn’t also almost kill me. It didn’t though. Life truly does go on and there’s nothing you can do but keep moving with it.

I miss the old me who was spellbound at wonder and mysteries of the world, getting chills reading watching sci fi stuff. contemplating nature , That youthful dream

I miss who I was in 2003. I was confident, hard working, enjoying learning new skills and reasonably healthy.

I went through hell and back as a kid. Like it was tough. My dad hated me and was an alcoholic and a user and my mom was bipolar and was also a user. She choose drugs over her kids and I felt bad for her because of her illness since she gave me her bipolar but now that I' m older I now know that she didn't do it because of her illness but because she was selfish. That's besides the point but when I was younger I used to be the sweetest, happiest, most positive kid you would've ever met. If you found out my backstory and my home life you would think how could a kid like this stay happy? Well it was only because I believed my mom and dad would change for the better. I never got love from my mom growing up, I was like a stranger in their home. They loved my other siblings but not me. My dad was extremely abusive to me and my older sister. I got the worst of it tho. I remember the day everything changed for me. April 6th, 2018. I was 11 at the time and my dad came back from work all pissed off. He would always take his anger out on me so we went to my room. While he was beating me it wasn't like the others. It was way more aggressive and it hurt way worse. I began crying like I usually did and he grabbed me by my throat and lifted me up. I remember these words like the back of my hand. While he choked me he said loudly. "No one will ever love you. You are a dirty little slut and you will never find anyone. If you killed yourself no one would ever care. Me and your mother hate you more then anything. We will never love you so stop trying to fucking get our love and be a normal kid for once." He threw me on the ground after that and stormed out of the house. I don't remember much after that. Only that I sat there for house, crying. Crying until I couldn't breathe, crying until I lost my voice, crying until I couldn't cry anymore. After that moment I don't think I ever truly smiled again. I was broken emotionally, physically, verbally, inside and out. I was empty and all I felt was disgust and rage. I became a cold, mean person. I hurt the ones I loved. I stopped crying when my dad hit me. I started fighting him back. I HATED him so much to the point I couldn't even stand him. Everytime I saw him I began to attack him. My mom and dad were scared of me. They put me in therapy and even my therapist was terrified of me. I felt misunderstood but I knew no one would ever get my story or me. All they saw was a angry, hostile woman but I was really just a hurt little girl who just wanted to feel loved. So yes. Everyday I miss the old me. I miss the girl who smiled and was excited for another day. My father is too old to hurt me anymore but I will forever despise him. Little me would be so sad I turned into the person I hated. The person who destroyed me. This is a reminder to people out there. If you EVER see a person yelling, attacking, being violent. Please just know that chances of 99/100 they are a hurt person that is so worn out that they don't feel anymore. Hurt people HURT PEOPLE. I am now in therapy and I am getting better but I will never be the sweet, happy, positive little girl I once was. Shes still there, somewhere. She's just resting now. Getting the peace and violent less world she deserved all those years.

@zennieluvzz

9 ай бұрын

I'm so sorry about that, I hope that you can get better

@sweetbea

9 ай бұрын

Thank you for share your story, it must be so hard for you, but im so happy that you are getting better, that inner little girl is so proud of you 💗 Have a nice life ❤

@Ruby-gm5do

8 ай бұрын

That's heartbreaking I think I'm simular age to you and I deeply hope things get better for you. Please keep going I'm here if u wanna talk 💞

@jin6000

7 ай бұрын

Jesus Christ, I’m so sorry. I’m so so sorry that happened to you. No one should ever have to go through that. Thank you for the insight. Whilst you can’t rewrite your past, you have helped me (and god knows how many others) by sharing this insight. I will for sure take it on board and keep the lesson with me. Much love and respect to you. You deserve love and I’m sorry it wasn’t given to you by your parents. ❤️

I like these types of videos the music connecting hundreds of people as you scroll through the comments. The feeling of pain, depression, love, hate is something I believe everyone has.

to whoever sees this comment hope your ok x

Just feel comfort and relieve when hearing this, feels like I'm back to my normal happy childhood

one day you'll look back and wish you were this young again

When crying aint an option no more

The old me who had the drive to persue whatever they wanted and never be detered by what was thrown at them. The old me who smiled. The old me who trusted. The old me who tried no matter what. The old me who people looked up to. The old me who didn't feel let down. The old me who lives deep inside with no way to reach the surface. Who are you now? Not the old me, i miss them.

@haileyt857

7 ай бұрын

This is the most accurate comment here to me personally. I'm a mediocre person at best, I turned out to be a disappoint, my life turned out to be a disappoint. I had such big dreams and goals. Now they can't happen, because I've grown incapable due to life throwing me for a loop one too many. My brain is mush.

@Solidslicer

7 ай бұрын

@@haileyt857 I know I'm just some guy on the internet, but I just wanted to let you know that it's never too late to get back up and achieve your dreams. The fact that they're still your dreams means somewhere deep down you truly care about reaching that goal to this very day.

@DefeatLust

7 ай бұрын

​@@Solidslicer Do you hold yourself to the level of the advice you're giving to others, brother? Or were you also writting to yourself just as much as you were writting to others?

@Solidslicer

7 ай бұрын

@@DefeatLust I do, in fact, write from experience

@DefeatLust

7 ай бұрын

@@Solidslicer Nice. My man 🤝🏽

Hardest part is similing to everyone, pretending to be ok... until someone suddendly asks you how you are truly feeling (this music is kind of that someone asking)

Beautiful words on the comments but so many beautiful people. It’s these types of videos and comments that get me to feel a new feeling, a feeling that is lost to time as we progress in life “happiness” As we age it’s harder for us to stay happy, it’s harder for us to satisfy ourselves, it’s harder for us to believe that we are capable. In music we trust There is no war No fights No arguments No isolation No loneliness There is only you and the music, but also we the people who leave the comments for a new visitor to see

I enjoy this kind of music. I cannot, however, say I miss the old me. The old me was callous, spiteful, hateful, took everything for granted; I wasn’t a good person. It’s been almost four years since I started to attempt to break my cycles and change who I am. I’ve hurt people, I’ve caused irreversible damage to people’s lives, and I hold a tremendous amount of guilt over it. But, it’s never too late to be a better person than you were yesterday.

Its not that i miss the old me, its more that Ive forgotten who I am now.. I miss knowing

@jin6000

7 ай бұрын

Same, my friend. Same. Much love to you. ❤

@noahcarey1114

7 ай бұрын

@@jin6000 hope you are well too my friend

I came here to vibe and I ended up crying. These comments man. Thank you for your worst to one stranger to another.

Have you ever felt that there comes a time in your sadness where you don't feel sad anymore. You start feeling relaxed. Cuz you know that it cannot hurt you more than it already has. You know it cannot get worse than this. And when it cannot get worse, it can only get better.

@jin6000

7 ай бұрын

Beautifully said friend. I never thought of it this way, and it brings me great comfort. Much love and respect to you. ❤

@neDi_

7 ай бұрын

Belive me or not, but it can get worse. I hope it won''t happen to you.

These songs..bring so many memories of my childhood, friends, and family…Now things have changed…

Id love to go back to when I was younger and experience all my firsts again, or just be carefree. Life has been so stressful lately and these Playlists are something that has been helping me forget that even for just an hour. To all those who read this know that I love you.

I'm glad to say that I don't miss the old me anymore :)

idk why i clicked on this but reading these comments while listening to this is comforting and relaxing seeing people in the same situations as you by yourself are in ( Remember your never alone no matter what Situation your in

@ravindrachauhan5708

2 ай бұрын

Thank you bro😭

One of my biggest fears is dying alone and sad, or to think that I spent my whole life simply doing absolutely nothing

@jin6000

7 ай бұрын

One of those is very much within your control. Go out there and get it! ❤

@GloomyTheWizard

7 ай бұрын

@@jin6000 thanks man, you too!

Just seeing the light in the darkness…. I hear you knocking Lord.

It's so hard to explain any of this, these different emotions and thoughts into a simple word or sentence, words can't describe what we, or at least I feel like. I know my struggles are different from everyone else's, but we are all struggling, and I think that brings us together as a group. My words probably wont reach some people, and that's alright. I just hope for the people it does reach, it can help. The burden gets lighter when you know others are struggling with you through life as well, and I hope you guys can get through these lows and back into the highs. Much love and wishes to yall, -Another person struggling in life

@dalo5052

5 ай бұрын

Thank you, this helped a lot.

Incomplete, endless, lack of everything, addiction, and yet I have years left why is life so long and short at the same time.

All you people on the comments, you are my people ❤ Much love to you all.

A life of emptiness is very hard especially when you don't have a true friends

@Daniel-pr4dn

9 ай бұрын

yep

@fami_loz

9 ай бұрын

i do not have the right to tell you what to do, however i do feel that it would be right for me to say this: in a world where many young men and women are facing loneliness, depression, and emptiness in their life, there is still something that you are able to do. if you are looking to change your life, one must first think that they are not able to do it instantly, and must be patient to face challenges, up and downs that come along the way. and remember, that you are still in control of your own life, and can make decisions, and can change something, even if that something is a small change. before you actively do anything, one must write down what exactly they want. and make an outline of a plan to see what they should do to start to get those wants. anyway, one of the first crucial aspects is to take responsibility of what you feel is important, whether it be those who you feel like are a influencing a negative change on your life or your health, you would need the discipline and will be needed to start to make a change. the other crucial aspect is to realize that you do not find friends, you do not find opportunities, you do not find income, ... . what you should do is to build value, as in improving yourself, building your skillsets, making your own opportunities. another very important thing to remember, is to stay true to yourself in adversity, life is diverse. that is all i can say for now, as i do not know how you are doing, or how your life is going, please do take note that this is only what i think is best using my own experiences. before i end this already lengthy and annoying to read comment i would like to share one of the special quotes over the years that has resonated with me, "do not misuse your time to chase butterflies, build a beautiful garden so that you attract the butterflies to come. if they do not, you will still have the beautiful garden." good luck, you are not alone.

@randomduck-fx7ir

9 ай бұрын

Having friends but having this feeling of being alone. I understand you but never give up no matter how hard it is. Remember god is always there for you no matter how hard your life is. Y.O.L.O :)

@Isnotreal42

9 ай бұрын

We are fledglings waiting patiently to leave the nest, be sure you seize opportunities or you may miss out, early birds gets the worms, sell your gaming set up and start truly living. better yet, donate all excess money you make to those in need and god will fill you with the strength you need to start doing what you need to do, just trust me, you are fine,be brave and you will find your way. this applies to every reader in a similar scenario, i am you in 10 years and sincerely regretting not changing, learning more...when i had the opportunities

@fami_loz

9 ай бұрын

@@Isnotreal42 i wholeheartedly agree, just that at times opportunities don't come, you have to attract or make them yourself.

I don't miss the old me I just miss the old life.

@nicvoss

7 ай бұрын

Me too

the most thing i love in these emotional songs videos the comments, i feel heard without talking thanks guys

I don't know why, but hearing this high it's something else. I can feel peace while this, connected with myself and like floating in a dream. I wish I could be happier

Thank you for sharing. I'm working on publishing my book, trying to power through college, regulate my raging hormones, and while trying to survive poverty. This body of work that creators like you make, creates a sense of euphoria and peace for me. Thank you.

I want to bring myself to be childhood again….. the fact that "Snowfall" can fit with every context possible...

@debraphillips8921

9 ай бұрын

I was blessed with that one, heck of a sleigh ride needless to say. I also learned to ice skate on the same hill. You only biff it once and learn. I used to horseback without anything Just the two of us, Pegasus and myself. I'm moving back home which I inherited from my parents.

@debraphillips8921

9 ай бұрын

I can't wait to get a horse again. Going to fly again on my best friend in Junior and high school ... Yabba Dabba Doo

I do miss the man I once was. More light-hearted, not quite as serious. Nor as jaded or cynical. That man died a long time ago. In his place is someone else. Yet I am still here.

"The mirror is my best friend, whren I cry it doesn't laugh" ~Charlie Chaplin

It amazes me how we all are in a constant state of change, and it’s funny because sometimes we just want to feel in the way we might have felt in a certain moment but the truth is that even if you we’re going trough the exact same thing you are not the same anymore, just like us, feelings transmute and transform into something way much bigger which is consciousness and the sense of self

I miss the old me, He was funny, He didn't need validation, In my mind, he was cool, He was smart, He had friends, In my heart...he was loved, I hate the new me, He's not even fun, He works for accreditation, In my mind, he is petty, He's lost his brain, He cries because he feels alone, In my heart... He "was" loved The old me wouldn't have let you hurt him, He wouldn't have cared In my mind that part was not cool, The new me continues to start a conversation in hope that you'd stay, But he knows that you'll grow tired and leave, In my heart I know you miss the old me, and I have changed, I'm starting to know myself more, but I know that you won't, I know that you don't want to know him. You once were in love with him... But you're not. He needs love. Real love

@Unit0998

9 ай бұрын

One day, You'll look back and see that you've always been the same person. The only thing changing was the world around you

Maybe I don't miss my old self, I just miss the people who were with my old self, and I can really only cry silently remembering the past and knowing it's wrong. Maybe I should get over myself, look forward because that's the cycle of life but I miss being with them and I think it's a feeling I'll never forget, thanks for reading unknown person, I just want to vent a little.

When you feel like running and feeling so goddamn lost and there's no one left but yourself. All you can think about is great I'm stuck with myself again. Where to go next.? Shes everywhere I go. Good playlist taking it with me tonight.

i dont have a sob story or depression i like how it sounds :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

the more we grow up the more that smile fade.

Reading the conments here helps me feel more human. I always feel expected to do many things, but reading these comments helps me remember that it's alright to have time to myself and to take a moment to think.

Ladies and gentleman.. you are here by a 400 trillion chance..this is your gift. Look around.. this is your gift.