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If you're like me, you may have felt like the whole world, including the Church, has gone insane and you're exhausted from standing your ground in opposition to it all. In this video I describe a recent experience of contemplating a way that I could surrender the fight, especially the fight for traditional Catholicism and where that time of prayer led me.
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Stay strong Brian. "I do not care if I have against me all the Bishops ; I have with me the Saints and all the Doctors of the Church." St. Thomas More
@elizabethinnes9404
2 жыл бұрын
Amen
@mellink14
2 жыл бұрын
Yes! The more Christianity as a whole tries to be more on the level of the world the less interested the world becomes in what the church has to offer. Lack of reverence in the churches across the globe has caused such a decline in interest from the lost (and sadly even the proclaimed Christians, Catholic or Protestant) If we are no different then why would they be interested? The lost & suffering are searching for something vastly different than what they have! The church needs to be different, set to a higher standard and stand out, not blend in!!
@cathy1679
2 жыл бұрын
Amen
@vkbowers
2 жыл бұрын
Amen!!
@charmendro
2 жыл бұрын
This is so good amen!
“When the whole world is running towards a cliff, he who is running in the opposite direction appears to have lost his mind.” - C.S. Lewis
@firangele8094
2 жыл бұрын
I understand, I am Catholic and also Vegan . 🙏🙏🙏
@c.matthias.t.3256
2 жыл бұрын
"No one is more hated than he who speaks the truth." ~ Plato
@meme-vd5rm
2 жыл бұрын
Thanks thats a great quote!
I found this very helpful as I’m feeling very isolated lately, too. I feel like I don’t fit anywhere. I’m thankful that you said this out loud so I don’t feel “crazy.”
@robmarshall956
2 жыл бұрын
You most certainly do fit, when I was born again the most liberating truth and change for me was that my identity was found in Christ not fitting in with a group even my local church group ) I’m a isolater by choice I like my own company and space so that might not be you, but I was just trying to impress that truth that in Christ I have everything and I don’t need the “””things””” of this world to fit in anymore if that makes sense ) I believe we are all crazy to a degree, I’m not catholic but I have found my identity in Christ ) and that has transformed my life for eternity ) just wanted to state that. I still have my struggles due to the groans of this world and all that entails, just wanted to say you ain’t alone and Christ knows our struggles very personally and the Holy Spirit comforts us when these matters arise ) we are blessed beyond measure.
@Graciemaeinpa
2 жыл бұрын
I'm thankful and a sense of relief to read your comment here also, which expresses the isolation I've been experiencing too. I've been asking my husband lately what if it's us that's crazy. And reading all these great comments here tonight, I'm finding I'm not alone. Thanks.
I know the feeling well. As Anglicans, we had the beautiful and reverent English liturgy, fantastic old hymn books, gorgeous architecture, well-crafted homilies, a wonderful parish community, and not to mention altar rails, ad orientem posture, Eucharistic reception on the tongue, and many more of the same features many love about the TLM. But we lacked one big thing: communion with Rome. So we gave all that up and took a leap of faith to join the Church. It has had its rough spots, but we’ve never regretted that decision. Plus, with the gift from Pope Benedict to the Church of the Ordinariate, we’ve even been able to get almost all of those traditions back. God never takes anything away unless he’s planning to give back far more than he’s taken. We only have to have the trust to let go and take a leap of faith.
@xtreme_survival7879
2 жыл бұрын
Woody R You have come Home, you are loved.
@transfigurationyouthminist3619
2 жыл бұрын
The Ordinariate is a HUGE gift to the Church. I love it dearly!
@MB-zn9vg
2 жыл бұрын
Most of the things you listed are originally Catholic… like the architecture, the most beautiful CoE and Lutheran buildings are from before they split. But good for you for joining. We’ve survived heresies in the past, even the early Church, at points it seemed like the heretics had control of it all.
I am right there with you Brian. It is hard to be a Catholic, even harder to be Traditional. But that is where I am called by God. As for the difficulty of being in the minority, so were the Apostles. So take heart my friend, we are in good company.
@jackieann5494
2 жыл бұрын
Beautifully stated . I also feel as though I have been called to traditional Catholicism . It is simply but profoundly where I belong for worship . It is the closest I've come to worship worthy of Our Great God . May we pray , one for the other , through these difficult times .
@jcawalton
2 жыл бұрын
Well said, Karen.
@kubatism6658
2 жыл бұрын
Let’s just remember not to have pride guide us. Saint we are not.
@jackieann5494
2 жыл бұрын
@@kubatism6658 Good point. Let's remember that there should not have spiritual pride in our hearts. And the liturgy of the Latin Mass reminds me of that , and of my desperate need for mercy , unlike anything else .
@michaelgetz6554
2 жыл бұрын
The Traditional mass goers of today remind me of the Apostles hiding in the Upper Room until the Pentecost, when after having received the fire of God's fierce Love, they went out into the world and changed it. So, here is my prayer: Dear Holy Spirit, give my Catholic brothers the courage to come out from hiding and help change hearts and minds of their brothers in the Novus Ordo Church. I am fighting all alone and I attend both forms on Sundays. Yes, dear Lord, you gave them the best form of Adoration of Our Lord Jesus, but this time you forgot to give them the courage that goes with it. Therefore Holy Spirit, "Send forth Thy Spirit and they shall be created, and You shall renew the face of the earth... "
Hold on, chear up! I'm a seminarian... Just want to tell you, your videos have been a source of great light in this troubled times for me. God bless!
@verum-in-omnibus1035
2 жыл бұрын
God Bless you in your vocation Juan 🙏🏼
@phoebedigs1356
2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for your vocation! May Jesus and Mary protect you always.
@littlelobster3213
2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so so much for your vocation! 🙏
@danpan001
2 жыл бұрын
Novus Ordo Seminary?
@christianRafaelCasti
2 жыл бұрын
+1 Ave Maria for you vocation!
Brian, YOU might not deserve the Traditional Mass, but GOD does. The mass isn’t about us, it’s about God. He deserves the best we have to offer Him.
@anitamahajan4796
2 жыл бұрын
Well said
@salvadoralmeida7294
2 жыл бұрын
Beautifully stated. "The mass isn't about us, it's about God. He deserves the best we have to offer him." That's why we should defend and attend the traditional mass.
@musicarroll
2 жыл бұрын
Amen, sister!
@BreakingTradSermons
2 жыл бұрын
I was just going to write that same sentiment, but I liked your comment instead. You are absolutely right on! God deserves to be worshipped according to His revealed way of worshipping him. It is a matter of Justice to give God what is due to Him alone. To Him be the Glory+
@nelsonteixeira6153
2 жыл бұрын
Well said Donna!
The must powerful healing prayer from Father Pio: “Pray, Hope and DON’T WORRY “
@JacobThomasRudd
2 жыл бұрын
I wrote a song about it :) kzread.info/dash/bejne/rJmjqLabhLXenco.html
@silviamarholin615
2 жыл бұрын
@@JacobThomasRudd That is great!!!!
@silviamarholin615
2 жыл бұрын
@@JacobThomasRudd I watched your video and the song is beatiful... You also have a precious family and a wonderful talent . Congratulations!!!!!!
Hi, revert millennial here. It really echoed with me this video. During the first year of my conversion I used to go to a “charismatic renewal” parish, full of the tambourines and cringe dancing we all Catholics know from some of the novus ordo. It hit my faith. I converted mainly during college after reading medieval philosophy and then getting into studying the Bible. What I found in the Gospels was that something that I had been looking for, it resonated through me so much I felt it stabbed my heart with light and truth. I somehow didn’t see it reflected in that mass. I went through a crisis and decided not to to return and even considered abandoning Catholicism altogether. But something kept pushing inside me and I continued praying the rosary and reading the Bible. One day I attended a mass in a little chapel inside my college campus, not even knowing why I did it. It was small event but full of solemnity and I felt for the first time I had attended a mass dedicated to God instead of dedicated to people. I knew right then I was a catholic and that there was only that path. I don’t know what to say to you that would ease your struggle because we are all so different, but focusing on God instead of the ones who attack Him and refraining from caring too much about people’s opinions has helped me. “Stat Crux dum volvitur orbis” . The Cross is steady while the world turns.
@lovelettknight9344
2 жыл бұрын
"The Cross is steady while the world turns." AMEN. How beautifully said. A word to our souls for sure... thank you.
@claudiacaprin4904
2 жыл бұрын
Mmm powerful words you got there, "a Mass dedicated to God instead of dedicated to the people".
@antw3114
2 жыл бұрын
@@lovelettknight9344 that is the motto of the Carthusian order
Deeply empathetic to your struggle, Brian, because it is OUR struggle. Sometimes we need to shut the ‘news’ out and focus on our little portion of the vineyard, which begins with our very self/soul. It is in these times that Christ calls us to trust.
@mariadeven4112
2 жыл бұрын
Excellent comment, thank you. I can only control myself and need to focus on building those virtues I wish other’s had in myself.
John Voight: “It is difficult!” God: “It’s supposed to be difficult…” Hang in there, I go through the same struggle…
@baseballmomof8
2 жыл бұрын
As do most faithful Catholics 😉
@artgarcia110
2 жыл бұрын
We have plenty of help
@patricegravino6283
2 жыл бұрын
Laure, please don't hold up fake-Catholic Jon Voight as anyone to listen to for wisdom. Voight starred in the first general release X-rated Hollywood films in the '60s: Midnight Cowboy. And at the time, he had a baby girl named Angelina Jolie (Voight), whom he virtually ignored for several years until her mother died from cancer. Really, he's not a good guy.
@baseballmomof8
2 жыл бұрын
@@patricegravino6283 and let’s not hold up that Augustine of Hippo dude either…. Talk about not a good guy!!!!
@suino1433
2 жыл бұрын
@@patricegravino6283 I'm not a good guy either. Is there a process that has to be gone through that is forgiveness or is it only judgement? Isn't that a problem with Catholicism even for Catholics?
I'll tell ya brother. If you're struggling, you're on the right path. The Enemy has no need to attack his own. For my part, I'm thankful to have access to the Sacraments in my simple mountain church. I love learning about the struggles of the Saints. Our Faith is the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced. As you mine deeper and press harder into the precepts and Traditions of the Faith things get richer, more vibrant and more alive. Also, I'm so happy to be alive in this time of the ascendancy of evil as these are the times that Saints are made. These are times we can live out our Faith in opposition to the powers of this world. To live the Faith under the threat of oppression and even lethal hatred is awesome, to me at least... I love it. This is the time to be a Faithful Catholic!
@peaceandjoy2568
2 жыл бұрын
That is true. God deemed us somehow for some reason right to live in this age of Holy Mother Church where she is being subverted and attacked from within. We stay faithful and proclaim the true Catholic Faith. We are fewer but we are fighting in Christ's army. We win in the end. Quis ut Deus?
@rosezingleman5007
2 жыл бұрын
God intended us to be *here in this place now.* He has His reasons and maybe all will be revealed but maybe not. But we must stay the course. No matter what. You managed to convert at the worst of times and there will be others who do too. When my parents converted after WW2, they felt that the Church was hopelessly out of “style.” They felt distinctly excluded by Vat2. We had No Mass at all to attend for pretty much THIRTY YEARS. Imagine that. Imagine being like the young Athanasius Schneider, taking a train trip to attend Mass. We ourselves are that “Church” you want to exist. The NO liturgy is a train wreck. My older sister loves that crap (born in 1952). She sometimes goes to the Methodist Church too! Explains it all, right? She is one of those boomers who just loves every deviation from the old faith. Ugh. We can’t speak. My parents were appalled, while they were living. Soldier on.
@wilhufftarkin8543
2 жыл бұрын
You have the mindset of a spiritual warrior and I like it.
@johnpglackin345
2 жыл бұрын
But not just to pray and only receive sacraments. But we also must act and stand up for Christ and His True Teaçhings.
@josiemartinez3875
2 жыл бұрын
I’ve got to agree, if anything worry if your not struggling..
Brian, stay the course. Your struggle is shared by many. Our Lord is working in this struggle to bring us closer to Him. A priest told during a recent confession to ask God for joy in the midst of these struggles. The Catholic Church has suffered with this before. The good Lord does his best work when we are walking through the desert. God bless and keep you.🙏🙏🙏
I’m a weird one. I’m excited it’s the world vs us. Thank God He deemed us worthy to live in this time
@p.doetsch6209
2 жыл бұрын
Doesn't that ignore Ephesians 6:12? For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places.
@p.doetsch6209
2 жыл бұрын
@Brian Farley But that doesn't make the same distinction made in Ephesians. Our fight is NOT against flesh and blood. It's against the principalities and powers who are permanently fallen. Humanity isn't considered in that category.
@p.doetsch6209
2 жыл бұрын
@Brian Farley Yes but it's not us vs the world as much as us versus evil. The world is only one manifestation and not even the most important.
@wilhufftarkin8543
2 жыл бұрын
"Thank God He deemed us worthy to live in this time" I had a similar thought as well and I find it quite encouraging. Maybe the fact that God chose to put us into this time period means that we are more resilient than people who lived in easier times, spiritually speaking. I hope it's not too prideful to think this way, but I sometimes do believe that it's a miracle that I'm still a Catholic and received the grace to understand Catholic morality as someone who grew up 24/7 surrounded by sin and debauchery through pop culture and constant propaganda against the Church.
@JohnFromAccounting
2 жыл бұрын
It makes me excited, but afraid. I might lose everything, my job, my family, my friends, but I gain a powerful faith and the undying love of God.
As a Catholic theology professor, I feel a lot of this. I'm tired, too. And a lot of my colleagues do, as well. And most of us do not even teach at particularly traddy colleges and universities. I take a lot of comfort in St Athanasius' nickname these days: contra mundum.
It's OK to take a retreat from the news media. Attend adoration or whatever you need to do center yourself around Christ. Rosary etc. My prayers are with you Brian.
@joolz5747
2 жыл бұрын
Yes I totally agree! I sent som of that too. Stop watching the news and focus only on Jesus!
@southbug27
2 жыл бұрын
I had to stopmwatching the news leading up to the 2016 election. The plan was to be able to return to watching news after the election, but it's just gotten worse, so I may never return to regular news watching again. It's just too damaging to my peace & state of mind.
@CantusTropus
2 жыл бұрын
@@southbug27 Given the shoddy journalistic quality of most of it, you aren't missing much.
@ninodjuras
2 жыл бұрын
I'm from Croatia and I stop watching news 2 months ago, more Bible reading, praying and everyday mass help me through day, only Sunday mass is not enough for me these days because I can't handle the world without Christ strenght anymore.
@uptoolate2793
2 жыл бұрын
Why would anyone watch the news? It's mostly lies, propaganda and glaring omissions. Satan himself writes the news.
Just wanna say you're not alone. Literally 100% agree and share the same struggles.
“A time is coming when men will go mad, and when they see someone who is not mad, they will attack him, saying, 'You are mad; you are not like us.” Saint Anthony
@d.o.7784
2 жыл бұрын
That time has always been there, think about the world situation 100 years ago, would you say those were old good days? Absolutely not!
@sgtmac110
2 жыл бұрын
Saint Anthony called it perfectly.
@user-mc5wc5jm4f
2 жыл бұрын
@@d.o.7784 I would certainly say we have different challenges today that in many respects have more gravity to them
@andrear6094
2 жыл бұрын
Great quote! Never heard it before.
@maryl.8417
2 жыл бұрын
Brian, I understand your struggle. I am a convert (30+ years) My first experience was as a child at a TLM. In converting I was a bit disappointed of all that was missing but I still felt called. Pendulums swing far right then back. I pray we return to more of what drew me and many others to the church. As it is, it can feel dry. We are to be set apart for God. Why are we trying so diligently to blend with a culture we don’t respect? God bless you for your honest and edifying talks.
" I have told you these things so that in Me you may have peace; but take heart - I have overcome the world. " (- John 16:33)
In Eastern Christianity "right glory" (orthodoxy) must be given to God. So it is not about human entitlement, but about the responsibility man has to properly glorify God.
my wife and I are both Catholic physicians and know exactly how you feel about the confusion. I would highly recommend the Catholic identity conference by Michael Matt and the Remnant we were there this year 700 likes-minded traditional-minded Catholic and it was a real shot in the arm
@majorpuggington
2 жыл бұрын
I'm through the 1st third of those talks and they are such a gift, like Brian is here. P.S. Catholic lay chaplain here just fired this week from health system for living jab free.
@alexanderspear7332
2 жыл бұрын
Good to hear from doctors of the church.
@danpan001
2 жыл бұрын
My understanding is Matt and other semi traditional Catholics recognize Bergoglio as valid Pope. So bashing Francis is not Catholic and harmful to one's soul.
@blaise6744
2 жыл бұрын
I was there too. Great stuff.
@lisaasad6652
2 жыл бұрын
@@majorpuggington it’s outrageous. I’m so very sorry.
Brian, there's nothing wrong with you or what you're feeling. We all experience what you do at various times. Hang in there!
@SandyL0uise
2 жыл бұрын
Hello John. You have the same name as my brother! Please pray for him :)
@johnciesla4715
2 жыл бұрын
@@SandyL0uise I will be happy to!
@SandyL0uise
2 жыл бұрын
@@johnciesla4715 I come from NW Indiana Cieslas. How about you?
@johnciesla4715
2 жыл бұрын
@@SandyL0uise 40 miles west of Boston
Dear Brian, with all the loving and thoughtful comments you must realize how you are certainly not alone. You are living through “The Dark Night of the Soul.” Please read the works of St John of the Cross, a doctor of the Church. Remember, we are the Church militant. Our Mother Mary loves you. Viva Christo Rey.
@mrjeffjob
2 жыл бұрын
That’s NOT the dark night at all. Every struggle is now considered a dark night. A dark night is the loss of the sense of God’s love and presence. The rest of one’s life can be and usually is just fine. Read the book again.
@Marietta5045
2 жыл бұрын
@@mrjeffjob charity. Remember charity when offering counsel.
@gray_mara
2 жыл бұрын
@@mrjeffjob is correct and does not seem uncharitable in speaking the truth. People frequently assume that the dark night of the soul refers to any struggle. It does not. It is a spiritual affliction particularly relevant to a person's progress in prayer. While it is a desolation, it is a sign that God has prepared us to detach ourselves from the things of this world so that we can cleave only unto Him. It is a sign of progress in the spiritual life and there is great beauty beyond it. It is tremendously difficult, but can be beautiful in its very difficulty. We experience the dark night of the soul as a result of our spiritual condition, not because of our outward conditions.
Brian Your struggles are my struggles. That what we, as brothers in Christ, must embrace. I attend the NO Liturgy, in my Church, that is practiced with great reverence and solemnity. I’ve had those who usually attend the Traditional Latin Mass, come to me after the Divine Liturgy and say they were amazed at the beauty of the liturgy. I remain a Novus Ordo practitioner, but I have great respect for the TLM and other Liturgical Rites as demonstrated in the Eastern Catholic Churches. With that said, I morn for the high handed ness of the hierarchy who are trying to suppress a wonderful liturgy. They are injuring faithful Catholics.
My friend , I have been “ working” in the church for over 30 years . Trust me , I’ve been where you are at . Actually quite recently , thanks to the indifference of our parish priest during this pandemic . Very very trying times. Be strong . Pray , pray a lot .
@itsmekaren1884
2 жыл бұрын
Please remain strong!! I too am struggling and am in the desert. I will pray for you if you will pray for me!
@itsmekaren1884
2 жыл бұрын
Rosary, Rosary,Rosary
@miguelsemidei7619
2 жыл бұрын
@@itsmekaren1884 Amen
God will never let His people down. Nobody told us that we were entitled to get our way. We have to try to understand the ways of God and to accept and offer our struggle.
@eliuluisdelaguiladelacolin5489
2 жыл бұрын
There's no God for a few people, there's God for everybody and nobody
@joolz5747
2 жыл бұрын
Yes amen! God’s will be fine! Rest your brain awhile and listen with your heart, Brian!
@Sanpioxiisubito
2 жыл бұрын
The Novus Ordo and Bergoglio are not of God. "By their fruits ye shall know them".
@kubasniak
2 жыл бұрын
Cope and hope. If I believed in god I'd definitely be an anti theist. All the "good" gods abandoned good people. You guys live too comfortable like there are no traumas, shitty circumstances, unfairness etc and it is all allowed by your pathetic beloved god. If he's there, he's not good at all.
@terrylm235
2 жыл бұрын
@@kubasniak You're ignoring all evidence for God's Existence.
We are not alone. This is not our home. We will not know home until we rest in Christ. God be with you Brian, praying for you.
We have these conversations in Protestantism also. To quote a vicar I heard this week, it's all well and good to make the church door wider so more will come in but it also makes it easier for them to leave. So true. The beauty of art inspired by God is often the route by which people come to see the beauty of God himself, so I would stand up for it and say it is indispensable to the soul.
I am a revert and that transition involved some growth in the faith, character and devotion. Meaning, since returning to the church I have gone from what I would consider a nominal to devout Catholic. I now cherish both the faith and the culture. While that has set me apart from others, to some degree, I try to remain open and loving to everyone. But, something has shifted. I completely agree with you Brian. I too feel the world becoming less tolerant of us - more boldly critical. And, it's not just me but my Protestant friends say the same.
@kevinkelly2162
2 жыл бұрын
Well there is that whole sexual abuse scandal and how the church is reacting to it. That would make people a little critical.
@bozenaszucs4191
2 жыл бұрын
Christianity is under attack now. It's scary sometimes.
@dorasnop7771
2 жыл бұрын
it was prophesies...if they mock us because of Jesus,you can not ask for better gift
@Kitiwake
2 жыл бұрын
@@kevinkelly2162 you have to take that in the context of bad behavior generally and of sin in the history of the world. Compared to that, it's almost nothing.
@khatack
2 жыл бұрын
Jesus never promised an easy life for his followers, he promised persecution and death. That is simply part of the true FAITH. The Church has grown so fat and lazy that it relies fully on tradition, ritual and silly pseudo-philosophical arguments to justify their belief in God. Real FAITH is almost nonexistent in the modern Church, and that is precisely because of the lack of struggle. Comfort and wealth are the DEATH of faith, and it is about time the Church gets attacked by the world of flesh, now the worthless deadwood can burn away and Christianity can start growing stronger again instead of simply growing larger and more fat.
“He who marries the spirit of the age becomes a widower in the next” - GK Chesterton “There is no there there” - Gertrude Stein. Brian you have described well the banality of our culture and the Church that ran to embrace it. However, if Catholics priests and laity came back to believing in the Real Presence of Jesus Christ in the Blessed Sacrament as He told us in John 6, they would run back to Church and get on their knees in awe. The Church’s response in providing beautiful architecture, traditional liturgy, powerful homilies and the discipline of the sacraments would naturally follow.
@TheRealShrike
2 жыл бұрын
This doesn't make any sense. There's no data showing that priests don't believe in the real presence.
@Kitiwake
2 жыл бұрын
That's nonsense.
@heathsavage4852
2 жыл бұрын
Spot on. The modernized, "sanitized" mass fails miserably in the worship of the real presence of Christ in the eucharistic celebration.
@khatack
2 жыл бұрын
@@TheRealShrike The only "data" that is required is the sad state of the Church today. It is amazing how little wisdom there is in those sad excuses of souls who call themselves Christian today. Anyone with even a TRACE of righteousness can see this, and the fact that you cannot see without "data" means that you are blind indeed.
@TheRealShrike
2 жыл бұрын
@@khatack My goodness, you sound like a wonderful Christian! Keep up the incriminations. I'm told god really likes that.
Thanks for sharing your struggle my dear friend, I will leave you with this quote from Scott Hahn. The Mass and I mean every single Mass, is heaven on earth. Scott Hahn
Brian, I can’t thank you enough for opening this can of worms. You’ve discussed so many excellent points and wounds we are all experiencing to varying degrees. Keep this discussion going! It is especially powerful coming from a lay faithful Catholic. If a faithful member of the clergy can enter into it, that would be so great.
Stay with the Church but ultimately do not rely on anyone but God alone.
@lovelettknight9344
2 жыл бұрын
Yes "ultimately do not rely on anyone but God alone". That is precisely has been my directive going forward every day. He will not fail us... He is purifying us and cleansing us from the ways of the world ...to be His SPOTLESS BRIDE...
@leejennifercorlewayres9193
2 жыл бұрын
Exactly.
@theresadavies9212
2 жыл бұрын
It's all about the Eucharist, stay focused on the cross and try not to get distracted.
"If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you." ~ John 15:19
@danpan001
2 жыл бұрын
Exactly the religion of Vatican II is of the world so objectively Novus Ordo followers belong to the world not Christ.
@PalingenesisRebirth
2 жыл бұрын
@@danpan001 I did not say that
@PalingenesisRebirth
2 жыл бұрын
I was talking about the COVID news
Brian, you have expressed what I am feeling these days as well. I’m exhausted and feel so alone these days. My only refuge has been the TLM which I consider God’s mercy in life. It is possible to stay the course but despair is real… may God’s Peace be with you. 🙏🏻
Pray, hope and don’t worry 💕 The one who perseveres until the end will be saved.
How do u think Moses felt when he saw them all dancing and partying over the golden calf- I appreciate you brother- we all have to carry our cross💪🏼🙏🏼💪🏼
@joshuag.4873
2 жыл бұрын
Amen!
@TheRealShrike
2 жыл бұрын
Moses committed mass murder...is that what you mean? Read the rest of the story...he turned into a homicidal maniac.
@therese3084
2 жыл бұрын
Amen! Such a great example to draw from.
@joshuag.4873
2 жыл бұрын
@@TheRealShrike Good for him. It’s always a good thing to be enraged by what is evil.
@TheRealShrike
2 жыл бұрын
@@joshuag.4873 Slaughtering ignorant people, many of whom are innocent, is not a moral strategy for a successful servant leader. It's probably a moot point, though, because many scholars, including Catholic scholars, believe Moses did not exist.
I find your sincerity and vulnerability in this reignites my love for the Church.
I've found that accepting loneliness in our battles can often bring a sense of comfort. Especially if we are connected to God and have his grace.
As someone who sees you occasionally at Mass, I want you to know that the way I see things is we are all on a journey struggling to figure out what is right, in faith and in life. I don't agree with everything you say, but I appreciate that you are genuinely trying to figure things out and honest about your journey. So I appreciate your channel.
Brian, as I told my priest friends 30+ years ago. "If my faith was in you, I'd be long gone!" I'm Catholic still because of the Transubstation. I so appreciate your position. Stay true to yourself and Christ!
Brother, I’ve been chronically ill and mostly home bound since 2013. I can’t even access the Sacraments because my illness relates to the environment. I attended the Traditional Mass at Mater Dei in Irving, Tx. I’m holding on to hope and Faith despite my circumstances. My wife and kids attend the Novus Ordo because we live out in the middle of the sticks. Our children are the future. The Latin Mass will carry on, and be restored at some point. Your attitude towards deserving h*ll is accurate. Me too. We are being put to the test. Trust God’s permissive Will. Trust that despite the internal pain in you and the Church, that Christ is with us and will restore all things.
@bretstanley8931
2 жыл бұрын
Thanks for sharing some of your struggles! I too have several chronic conditions that make getting to Mass very difficult. (Although I can get there about once a month). I struggle with understanding why God allows this in my life--specifically, the inability to lead my family to church? If you feel comfortable could you share how you cope with this trial and what helps you? God Bless!
@KnightsofChristendom
2 жыл бұрын
@@bretstanley8931 I’ll make a video and post it. Maybe I need to speak to some of these things if that is what God is asking of me.
@daddada2984
2 жыл бұрын
You dont need the sacrament, you need Jesus. Don't be ritualistic only... Part of God permissive will is to know Him in the rightfully.
@sallyrastogi9853
2 жыл бұрын
Firstly, so sorry for your struggles... Not being able to attend mass would be incredibly difficult and I'm proud of you for persevering. And also, hello neighbor! I'm a parishioner of St Ann in Coppell :)
@KnightsofChristendom
2 жыл бұрын
@@sallyrastogi9853 Nice to meet you! We are out around the Hico, Texas area now. In normal terms we are a bit away from each other, but in Texas terms we really aren’t that far apart. 😁
I'm struggling too. My chihuahua died last week and my mom unexpectedly in August. It's so hard I lived with them both
Brian, thank you for sharing your vulnerability. We have a beautiful Church for sure. Many great Saints have suffered as you are now. You are in awesome company❤️🔥Praying for you and your continued journey. We are warriors. Sometimes we get battle weary, but our Lord is Faithful.
Several years ago when I started attending the traditional Latin Mass I had a protestant friend who had grown up Catholic visit me. I took her to 3 different masses during that visit. One was the novus ordo mass in my small town the other was a little bit more reverent of a novus ordo mass. And the 3rd was my traditional Latin mass parish. When I asked her about it later she compared all 3 masses and said without a doubt the one that she liked the most and felt God's presence was the Latin mass. It was hard for her to articulate why. But she just knew that if she were to ever come back to the faith it would be to the TLM. Please pray for her. Her name is Traci. Also pray for my son Devin who has also left the Church. I've managed to get him to go to a few TLMs and he did say he could see himself return at some point. Not exactly sure what is holding him back. But PLEASE in your charity could you say one prayer for him today or offer a small suffering or sacrifice for him. I would be so grateful.
@theticoboy
2 жыл бұрын
🙏🏽
@tolkienlewis6887
2 жыл бұрын
Just done. Blessings on you, your son and your friend 🙏
@musicarroll
2 жыл бұрын
Thanks for sharing. This is a common theme. Two points. 1) Reverence at liturgy is highly dependent on the reverence of the priest and that of the people, not the form of the liturgy. The people and priest at TLM crave that sort of reverence and jointly bring it about. That could happen at novus ordu liturgies too, if the people and priest made it a priority. It is still a valid form of liturgy. Excessive preoccupation with the lack of reverence shown by others may border on seeing others' splinters (or beams) and ignoring one's own beams. 2) News apps are of course going to highlight the negative news. They do not take random samples of all the events happening in the world. But your observation about Google banners being random is spot on and it is indeed very good to know that the majority is not buying it. Maybe a sea change is coming.
@tolkienlewis6887
2 жыл бұрын
@@musicarroll well expressed and I hope you're right about that change!
@silversurfer2703
2 жыл бұрын
Perhaps more smells and bells?
I deeply connect with this episode. It was so refreshing to hear my thoughts organized into words and to walk through it with you. Beautiful.
My first time seeing you. We all struggle in our faith, especially in these times when the church seems to be letting us down. Stay true and keep God close to you and your family.
I found this video expressive of many of my own thoughts and feelings, stating them more clearly than I have been able to myself and leading to more contemplation. I am member of a high church Anglican church where at least some of what happened and happens in the Catholic church also are to be seen and, along with having found myself, as you describe, opposed to the narrative, I came to be tormented by questions. And so it is with profound sincerity that I thank you for this frank, honest video. The Lord be with you, give you profound peace and guide and inspire you in these wicked days.
I am totally with you Brian! I became Catholic at the age of 51 in one of the Historical Missions in CA - it was so beautiful and so much history (our Baptismal font was a copper bowl made by the Chumash Indians) and the Art Work hundreds of years old. Run by the Capuchins of the Western Province it was so amazing! Then I move to East TN and man what a slap in the face! Most of the churches here (Catholic Ones) looked more like protestant churches, did Novos Ordo Mass, with all sorts of modernist not very reverent things going on! After 4 yrs of this I finally found the Latin Mass community - had never been to a Latin Mass - but wow! It is so reverent and in an older Catholic Church that at one time was the old Cathedral in Knoxville. Going there to the Latin Mass is like having a piece of Heaven on Earth. The time for prayer and contemplation, the beauty the smells and the Love for God is so real. Then Covid hits - and wow - what a nightmare! Between the churches being closed and me wondering where everyone's Faith in God is (I mean you could still go to Walmart so why not Mass?)...and then having all the sex crimes revealed more in the Church AND the Hierarchy doing things like having worship sessions to Pachamama - I was thrown for a huge whammy! I do believe that we have to make our homes now the place of worship - not to replace the church - but in case we can't get to Mass we have at least a corner of our home that focuses on Christ and a love and reverence for him! Some people are even making their homes places where a priest can come say Mass with a small altar area. I also find that my friends are much more drawn to the TRUE Faith of the AGES and the modernist music and bingo and happenings really put them off - I mean why would they leave their protestant churches for something that mimics them? We have to be strong in the Lord and His Word by studying the scripture, reading the lives and works for the great Saints - and make ourselves ready for our own death or the day when the Lord returns to Earth like he promised us! YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!
Brian, you don’t know how much I needed to hear this tonight. I will be praying for you and know that we are out here- feeling the same isolation and desiring to leave this earthly place. Offering our suffering as penance, complete submission to the Holy Will is our road now and goes against all things of the world.
Brian we all struggle at a certain time. Don't worry you will overcome it. God bless you always!! I've sent some of your videos to my daughter and my sister and they were moved by your words. Greetings from Argentina!! Hang in please!!!!
Simply Brilliant! Brian, you're one of my favorite thinkers. You say you're not a philosopher; well speaking as a philosopher, your reasoning is impeccable. Your struggles are shared by many excepts by those Bishops who have lost the mandate of heaven way back in the sixties. They have allowed the sway of Protestants and Masons to gut the Catholic Church. May God have mercy on their souls. Their actions have brought their ugliness into the Church while causing the exodus of millions of Catholics. I feel your pain, Brian.
The whole world besides a few were against Jesus in the Cross, don’t loss Hope. Jesus is with you in your struggle.
You’re not crazy man, you definitely have a calm and collected sense of things and I hope you find peace in the coming days. I also think you are 100% right about beautiful aesthetic being a thing that draws people in, that hymn you play during the intro and ending of your videos is what originally kept me clicking on your videos even though I’m not catholic. I remember thinking of it and actually searching for your channel just so I could hear that hymn and then I would end up staying for whatever you were discussing.
@rsmyth75
2 жыл бұрын
Be not afraid!!! Become Catholic!!!
@lifewasgiventous1614
2 жыл бұрын
@@rsmyth75 Thank you but I’m very content where I am at with my faith.
Wow! So eloquently put Brian. I share your sentiments 100% and I can assure you that you are FAR from being alone. Every day I feel like the world has gone absolutely insane and that most of the leadership of the Church (tragically) has gone along for the ride. As I am sure you understand, I know people who can relate with how I think on certain points; but literally NO ONE who has put all the dots together in the same way that I have. And, like you, I conclude "Well, I guess it must be me, Lord". But I hesitate (as I am sure that you do) to abandon those things that I have come to be convinced are true - through many decades of blood, sweat, tears, correction, prayer, and study. I read myself into the Church (from Evangelicalism) about 20 years ago and was immediately attracted to the old Latin Mass. And my thinking did radically change in many ways. However, I have stubbornly refused to let go of those aspects of my previous spiritual worldview that were consistent with Scripture and Church teaching. As a result, when I am with friends who are Evangelical I feel like a Catholic, and when I am with Catholic friends I feel like an Evangelical. And that feeling of not REALLY being understood (by just about anyone), and therefore alone, can be extremely painful. Regarding your not feeling that you "deserve" a transcendent worship experience you are correct. HOWEVER, that is not the central question. The central question is "How does God deserve to be worshipped?" So keep fighting the good fight and doing this great work. And please don't back down on any issue that you feel strongly about in your spirit, even if you feel alone (for now). Humbly trust the Holy Spirit to lead and guide you into all truth. Remember, our earthly critics will not be standing with is at the Judgment Seat of Christ. We will stand there alone, and we will be answerable ONLY to Him.
I’ve felt precisely the same way for over a year now. I find myself jealous of those who are willfully ignorant and going along with the media’s/government’s narratives so that things “can go back to normal.” I’m jealous of the semblance of peace that they have. I know it’s not genuine peace, and I know it’s a coping mechanism. I just wish I could feel like I had more people in my corner. Thank you for sharing, welcome to my corner lol.
@lauraceballos9217
2 жыл бұрын
I feel exactly as you described.😔
@lawdogwales5921
2 жыл бұрын
Peace, peace, but there is no peace. Also, misinformation is truth. And the mainstream media's narrative is false.
@samr.i.9485
2 жыл бұрын
Feel the exact same way
@paulpalmer6364
2 жыл бұрын
Make sure you are not one of the willfully ignorant. Saying you're not is a sign you are.
@paulpalmer6364
2 жыл бұрын
@@lawdogwales5921 what is mainstream media. Is Fox News mainstream media. How about BBC, or PRAVDA. Define Mainstream media other than anything I don't like.
Bro, say the Rosary daily and do it in Latin. It brings you so close to Christ, and it makes all the political and subversive forces in the Magisterium quieter. It makes these corrosive voices so obvious and bland; it just bounces off. I’ve found hope and close connection with Christ through the Rosary. You’re in my prayers brother.
@charlesscarpelli7939
2 жыл бұрын
In Latin 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻
@jenniferthanhhango5018
2 жыл бұрын
Exactly, October 7th, Our Lady of Victory aka Our Lady of the Holy Rosary, the destroyer of heresies (Arianism) by St. Dominic de Guzman, that the Holy Rosary is a formidable weapon to whip Satan! A battering ram! Daily! To grow in holiness, to live in state of grace, to meditate on 15 Mysteries!
@Kitiwake
2 жыл бұрын
I do it in Spanish, is that any good?
@MyMusiqueLive
2 жыл бұрын
I’m a Christian and I’m honestly curious; why do Catholics think the Rosary is necessary? Why not just speak to God directly and freely? He’s not just some god that needs rituals and specific prayers. He is our Father and loves to hear our pains and struggles, in plain English (or whatever your language is)
@SmolTerribleTornado
2 жыл бұрын
@@MyMusiqueLive The rosary is a sacramental, a type of meditation with prayers, not a ritual. In the Catholic churches two things which are sacraments (signs established by God to save mankind), and sacramentals (objects and actions which have the purpose to help christians to be fruitful). There is also some cases of what's called "private revelation" which may explain the rosary's spiritual nature further, but catholics are not required to believe them to be saved.
Thank you! I feel just as you do. I have been feeling isolated, especially when talking with coworkers. I feel great peace when praying in solitude, on detachment from the world. I hope that you see all of us out here who are with you as the mystical body of Christ.
This is the first time I've seen one of your videos and I have to say I'm very impressed. You are very articulate and have expressed exactly how I feel. Truth is what I desire most and that is what keeps me faithful. Thank you for posting.
"The road to hell is paved with the skulls of priests and monks with bishops as the lamp posts." Saint John Chrysostom. Christ's church is perfect. The people in it are not. The evil one wants you to give up and causes you to feel that way. This world is his. You must push through your exhaustion and his deception that is emotional.
@frdkehagias1
2 жыл бұрын
@jjdwf You're funny.
I am right there with you brother! I felt like I was listening to myself there. It's out of love for the most Holy Trinity and for what God deserves in reverence and beauty that keeps me centered in my desire to worship him with all my heart and soul in the Mass of Ages. This gets all the more difficult in trying to keep hope, unity, and joy in the home with the family to focus more on the beauty of our faith and less around the craziness of the world and church unfortunately. I'm expecting #8 in April so please folks say an Ave for my wife and baby. In JMJ- Francesco
Thank you for sharing! I was raised in the Catholic Church (and then left in high school) and always felt this way but found it difficult to articulate. I just recently - last week! - returned to the Church. Of course the first church that I attended was a TLM, it was beautiful.
@lightgoldenlight
2 жыл бұрын
@CJ P. Thank you!
Hi Brian! In my country there is no Latin Mass. We have New form all over. I find going to this new right, which by the way has been the only one I have ever known I find it filling to my needs. Be grateful that you have the chance to go to the Latin Mass. Hang in there my Brother.
The way I think of it is this. The society is tilted. This means that everything that occurs is tilted too. It does not matter if it is overtly anti-Christian (burning churches etc.) or not (Covid). Because of the tilt, it tilts too, and the tilt is against Christianity. This is what makes living at the moment so tiring. We are constantly working uphill. All I can say is that every age has its trial, and this is ours. Your videos reach and help people around the world.
I wanted to tell you that you expressed everything I am feeling. I too am tired and feel like I'm always being antagonistic. I love being Catholic and will never leave but you are right it is hard to defend sometimes especially with all of the ugly scandals. I found a parish that is within a fifteen minute drive that I love and that has been a blessing. I live one block away from another parish but unfortunately I don't feel the reverence and peace in that parish. God bless you for what you do. Thank you, your work is appreciated.
Yeah, I am tired of the battling/struggling also. When Christ had enough and was tired, He would go off and get away. We must always recharge our batteries in small ways. Sometimes big ways. Blessings to you Brian and your family.
@andrear6094
2 жыл бұрын
Such good advice that I'm taking it myself 🙂
Dear Mr. Holdsworth: You are, most definitely, not alone. My struggle, a crisis of faith, encompassed 25 years - during which I became so frustrated and confused that I stopped the struggle and accepted being swept away in a maelstrom of indifference while endeavoring to achieve "success". One day, years ago, I began again and continue still to solidify my relationship with Jesus Christ, the Father and the Holy Spirit. Please accept my prayers and best wishes that your struggle be of short duration. May God be with you, always.
Our Lord felt this during His public ministry. The meaning present in the small cross on His Sacred Heart. Can we expect anything less. But He had His Mother for consolation. Beauty is His reflection and the mass is His gift to us. 😇
@aliasreco
2 жыл бұрын
I wonder how you got this conviction. Even his mother and brothers did not believe in Him...
Join the club, Brian. You’re not the only one. The world has gone entirely insane. Just wish we had Church leaders were there to help the faithful.
@SensusFidelium
2 жыл бұрын
Hence why I do clown planet shows
Love you Brian. Ave Maria Cor Jesu sacratissimum, miserere nobis
@MrDupledge
2 жыл бұрын
Domine non sum dignus...
@mikeq5807
2 жыл бұрын
@@MrDupledge I am sorry you were lied to by your religion. You are worthy. All life is worthy. "You are the light of the world." Jesus "Be perfect as your heavenly father is perfect." Jesus Live by your intuition, not by your gullibility.
@mikeq5807
2 жыл бұрын
You beg for mercy. Have mercy on yourself, and pull your mind out of the propaganda that is enslaving it. "Be merciful as your heavenly father is merciful." Jesus As one sows, so shall one reap. Sow wisely. This is the foundation of the teaching of Jesus.
I am so with you. I speak as a Catholic organist who loves sacred music and the sacred aesthetic. I appreciate the formality of the faith which includes the sights, sounds, and smells. The initial impression and the aesthetic of my rural parish, which takes all of this very seriously, is what originally led to my conversion. Had I stumbled onto one of the “boomer” churches, I may very well not be Catholic. I realize the faith is so much more than these things, but these things open the door of one’s mind to a more heavenly reality. Thanks for your message.
This is me spot on! You are not crazy. It’s okay to doubt. The whole world is on fire and sometimes we feel like we are the sole fireman. My personal anxiety level is through the roof, but that anxiety has brought me to my knees more. Anxiety is not fun, but we can harness it to action.
You bring it down to earth and you make it real! We all struggle and we need each other in support of these struggles!
I can't even tell you how deeply I'm feeling every word you're saying and how many parallels you're digging into in my life! It's the liturgy, the politics, the education, everything to do with child raising, the prayers for a good husband now that I'm annulled from my abuser, the interaction among my own family, maintaining friendships... It's just everything! It's literally everything! It feels like the whole world is upside down! I can't thank you enough for this video! God bless you and your family!
Struggling...you are not kidding. You said what so many of us are feeling. Keep doing what you do, I am listening and it is so helpful to hear. God bless you!
this video popped up in my feed and i just want to say, welcome home :) sending you digital hugs from Manila
You're not alone. My time is spent discussing this with Our Lord every late hour at night and at TLM. Stay strong. He is with us in Gethsemane.
Lately I have had this image in my mind whenever I feel discouraged and overwhelmed by this feeling of everything being in opposition to me. It is that I am walking in a dark wood but ahead of me is Jesus Christ holding a lantern for me to see by, and as long as I follow the light of Christ I will not get lost.
@dariofromthefuture3075
2 жыл бұрын
watch the lectures of Swami Kriyananda. See what you think. I find his lectures wonderful.
@Graciemaeinpa
2 жыл бұрын
Beautiful reflection....I will try to remember this. Thank you
I live in Southern California and while there is some amount of the boomer modernism in local parishes, it does not seem to be prevalent. Even the "mariachi mass" seems to follow a traditional structure outside of the music choice. The more traditional a service is, the more diversity you see in age as well as race, and the higher the attendance. One of the most crowded events of the year is Christmas midnight mass, which includes incense, choir, and lots of Latin. It's nice to see that even in somewhere as lost as California, modernist Christianity's contradictions are sorting themselves out. I think in more homogeneous places like Canada, you'll probably see modernism recede as boomers make up smaller and smaller shares of church membership.
I am such a Mediaeval Catholic that I am, also, a Monarchist. You can't imagine how isolating that is. Not even traditional Catholics understand the importance of Monarchy for a Christian society to flourish. There are two kinds of government -- Monarchy and Oligarchy.
@kinghenry100
2 жыл бұрын
Agreed, democracy is a fallen state.
"Everything is a grace, everything is the direct effect of our Father's love-difficulties, contradictions, humiliations, all the soul's miseries, her burdens, her needs - everything because, through them, she learns humility, realizes her weakness. Everything is a grace because everything is God's gift. Whatever be the character of life or its unexpected events, to the heart that loves, all is well." St. Therese of Lisieux
@richard8242
2 жыл бұрын
Wonderful
@jjmj7095
2 жыл бұрын
DITTO! Stay with the ship. Pax in Christo per Mariam 📿📿📿📿📿📿📿📿📿📿🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
15:00 YOU and I don't deserve the TLM, but GOD does. That's why we need to fight... not for our rite, but for GOD's rights.
@ninodjuras
2 жыл бұрын
God will be all right don't worry, we need mass for our path to sanctification, we can't make God more saintly with it but we certainly need it. Liturgy is not dogma it's a form for incorporating dogmatic teachings.
@duartecosta2043
2 жыл бұрын
A sacred liturgy is God’s Will. That is enough to fight for it.
@playlist6093
2 жыл бұрын
A mother has no need for the wild-flowers which her children find and bring to her. But the child has a need to give the flowers to it's mother. Those who would say that God does not care what "type" of worship we offer they are correct but they are also wrong. God has no need of the TLM. But we have a need to give Our God the greatest expression of our hearts desires. The TLM (well celebrated, of course) does that.
@kittentricksandtips4877
2 жыл бұрын
Fair point
@donnafoster2022
2 жыл бұрын
Apostolado Petrine, I should have read the comments before making my own. All I did was unwittingly parrot you.
I too was sick fighting or being an outcast, banal liturgy, leaving Mass without peace due to vapid homilies faithless celebrants/ activists. I became Orthodox at Pentecost. It was a journey that lasted 30 years. I can honestly say Orthodoxy has completed/ fulfilled my Catholic faith. I sincerely hope for the best for you in your struggle.
@ShaNaNa242
2 жыл бұрын
I mean, it's about doctrine, not about how pretty the liturgy or how good the homily is.
@johnpecoraro8942
2 жыл бұрын
@@ShaNaNa242 indeed yes I agree 100% it is about doctrine. But since the content of the video was concentrated around liturgy, I limited my comments to that. I could speak about doctrine, but I do not wish to engage in arguments and points on the comments section of a Catholic channel from a person who I happen to respect. Plus I have to be heading to work in 30 mins. I’ll just leave this.. prayer=belief. If this is true, the Roman Church is far smaller than most Catholics realize.
@ShaNaNa242
2 жыл бұрын
@@johnpecoraro8942 you're right about that last part.
@nikitachirich7985
Жыл бұрын
No need to accept bad doctrine of the protestant Pope if you fulfill your faith with the actual original Church the holy apostolic Church orthodoxy , whether it be in Jerusalem, Antioch or Constantinople , and you wont have to deal with questionable Vatican councils, state supported evil doings and current financial and sexual allegations. Nice huh
Thanks for sharing your struggle. You are not alone nor crazy. I enjoy your sound advice. I feel much alone in the Church...with all the liberalism. Your faithfulness is encouraging.
Finally someone that is saying what I am thinking out loud! God bless you, you are not the only one. I am a Traditional Latin Catholic and I feel the same way as you, thank you for being open an honest about these issues across the board. Defend the TLM always!
Whether celebrating Mass traditional or novus, Jesus is the same. Receive him while we still can. Seek Him while he may be found. Spend some time with Him at adoration. And keep the Faith.
Please note how St Maximilian Kolbe celebrated mass in prison: it was still a means to grace...
Both my husband and I came into the Church in 2014. If it had not been for a parish that had both the Tridentine and reverent Novis Ordo Mass, I seriously doubt we would have converted. Love the Catholic Church!
Brian this is my 1st time viewing one of your videos. The title caught me, so I clicked to watch. You have nailed exactly the way I have been feeling for about a year now. You have expressed those feelings much better than I believe that I could myself. I am 100% in agreement with you. Thank you for stepping out and expressing those feelings. + Pax
Thank you, Thank you, Thank you. I converted to the Catholic Church in the late 1990's and you have articulated exactly what I am going through also. I can't think of a single point or sentiment you didn't cover. You might be surprised to know that I have never been to a Tridentine Mass, yet feel I am where you are also. I guess though, that I have been blessed to have been at fairly solid Novus Ordo Masses and witnessed few clown masses. So, this is not brought on by your love of the Tridentine Mass alone. Like you I don't like what is happening in the secular world but am more shocked by what is going on within our Church that we can no longer run from but never seems to be addressed let alone acknowledged. It appears many in the Church, leaders included have embraced this secular plan and we are not all privy to it, but what's worse is our Shepards won't fill us in or tell us why we are wrong and need corse correction (if we really do.) I am reminded of St. Augustine's quote, " all truth is God's truth, and when one encounters truth, one encounters the God whose truth it is." I've surrendered to my Lord Jesus Christ and need my Shepards to address truth and stop talking around it. For me, I now have to focus on Jesus and rely upon my own understanding alone as it seems our shepards are struggling with teaching truth even it if hurts us or them.
I can relate very much to what you struggle with. I'm a very recent convert, it's not yet two years since I attended Mass for the first time consciously. It was the rite of 1970, but nothing like you described: A 600 year old Gothic church with a real history: in 1526 the place of the first public dispute between the adherents of the Old Faith and the followers of Zwingli (it resulted in a draw - the cities continued with the Reformation, but the rural adherents of the Old Faith were not convinced). Beautiful church, and a priest who celebrated the Mass very reverently. Organ, candles, no modern songs - for me it was a solemn celebration of the Triune God and the Real Presence of Jesus Christ by the Church of all times. And this experience was, what converted me. I learned since that a Mass can also be different: The historic parish church is being thoroughly renovated for six months (no change, just renew the gold plating, clean the walls and woodwork, restore the statues and paintings etc) and so we are in the next village's 1970s concrete church - looks and feels anything but spiritual. Our priest still celebrates reverently when it is his turn, but there is another one who talks about disciplesses and disciples at the Consecration and prays "dear fatherly and motherly God".... that's for me doing penance during Mass :-( Being the new kid on the block I have no idea if such wordings are ok, if the other attendees find it acceptable, so I don't rise a protest. Actually, I avoid now these Masses and attend on those Sundays the Tridentine Mass in a nearby chapel - it's for me not the different quality of the rite that counts, but the reverent celebration.
I am feeling the exact same way, and not sure what to do about it. I love Jesus and the teachings of the Church, but can barely bring myself to go to mass. I suffer from major depression and the Church was one of my only solaces. When that got taken away during lockdowns after a major out-of-state move, I got lost and still can't get back. That was one of the only places I had outside contact with anyone pre-covid after our move. GONE. When I was able to come back, it was even uglier. Seemingly on purpose. Please pray for me.
Beautiful reflection Brian! WHEN we come back to what fully the Fathers at Vat II intended we see a restoration, a new splendor; It is happening in this blessed struggle we are living in!! Praise be Jesus Christ
Brian, there is a prophecy from Ralph Martin going back to the late '70s where he was told that God would strip away everything, even the things that are good within the Church and the devotions and such so we have nothing to rely on but God alone. God Alone. And then we will have everything else in abundance. Maybe not material things, but love and family and most importantly, God will truly be first in our lives. Keep faithful.
@terrylm235
2 жыл бұрын
joan62, I've found that in my life, He has stripped away these things. Satanists are in charge.
@joolz5747
2 жыл бұрын
Yes do not fear! Relax accept God’s plan even if it is not yours.
@lovelettknight9344
2 жыл бұрын
Hebrews 12:25 See to it that you do not refuse Him who is speaking. For if those did not escape when they refused him who warned them on earth, [i]much less will we escape who turn away from Him who warns us from heaven. 26 And His voice shook the earth then, but now He has promised, saying, “Yet once more I will shake not only the earth, but also the heaven.” 27 This expression, “Yet once more,” denotes the removing of those things which can be shaken, as of created things, so that those things which cannot be shaken may remain. 28 Therefore, since we receive a kingdom which cannot be shaken, let’s [j]show gratitude, by which we may offer to God an acceptable service with reverence and awe; 29 for our God is a consuming fire.." The shaking going on is causing us to penetrate God more deeply and more passionately, to redefine our core faith, refining our habits and behaviors ..to go against the flow makes us stronger and more effective in our walk in our Faith. Stay the course ... rooted and grounded in LOVE.. His for us and ours for Him and the world ,who is in great distress and darkness. Peace and Viva Cristo Rey.
@terrylm235
2 жыл бұрын
@@lovelettknight9344 Well said!
@popebenedict7615
2 жыл бұрын
We need to be stripped as He was. And after that the worse still comes. The nailing to the cross, the death. But we also know what came after that.
I am nearly 60. I remember as a child the mystery of attending Holy Mass on Sundays. I remember everyone getting dressed in their Sunday best. The smell of perfume, white gloves and hats. The ringing of the bells upon arriving at Mass, and the bells during the liturgy. The smell of incense. The kneeling rails, the alter boys, and the Paton that went under your chin when you received the Holy Eucharist so that no piece should drop to the floor. The seventies encouraged receiving in the hand, the removal of kneeling rails, removing the Tabernacle over to the side of the Church, Modern music, and come as you are dress. Just prior to my attending grade one, everyone learned Latin at school, and then it ended. I am a TRAD. Proudly call myself a Traditional Catholic, but like you still struggling because we are in this world, but not of this world. The struggle will intensify. God Bless you in your honesty. I stumbled on your channel today and it made me glad.
Comment 2: in the late 60’s I didn’t go back to mass after experiencing that crazy guitar mass on Christmas Eve😱 I was probably 21 y o then, During this Covid lockdown , I watched mass from the Divine Mercy National Shrine, listened to Fr Chris’ series on Explaining the Faith, especially the one on Confession. I went back 50 yrs later having a much fuller understanding of My Lord, SCRIPTURE, MASS, and the presence of the church Especially in this time of confusion. Join prayer groups, volunteer, you need like minded ppl to TALK with, IN PERSON.
I think that’s how a lot of us feel… I never really felt like I loved mass until I started attending TLM, that’s when I truly understood the beauty and the gift that the mass is.
@peace-and-quiet
2 жыл бұрын
Ditto!
Brian Holdsworth Don't give up the struggle, your fighting the good fight. Your videos have helped us to understand our own situations in the struggle in today's Church. Your Videos have borne good fruit. Your Videos are great, I think you would have made a good Bishop.
What a beautiful talk. Thank you
I am a new subscriber, please continue doing what you're doing. I am a traditional catholic. I am learning a lot from you, because you explain it in layman's terms.