This year's been nothing but kind to me. It's so weird to feel alright and happy after so many years of hating myself and all things related. I got a great job, one that I can wake up every day to. Living is great! There's much to do because I lost so much time to depression and I can't wait to try everything out. Wishing everyone a breezy afternoon. Love you all!

@rutagiedryte

2 жыл бұрын

This is so nice to read, made me smile :)) Have a great day, sending love!

@bananacat9139

2 жыл бұрын

Isn't that great? The wall that once stopping you from moving forward, now you just kinda breeze it and use that to lean on, to rest, and to look upward to see and mutter, "How beautiful the sky is"

@hiant0

2 жыл бұрын

good for you :) reading this gives me a bit of encouragement as I was in a depressive state a couple months ago, and now i'm starting my life anew by going out more. Thanks for sharing :).

@meokut3zui

2 жыл бұрын

Thanks for the kind words guys. I just realized depression eroded much of my personality so I haven't feel quite like myself... Just sharing to let you know you're not alone if you're going thru the same thing. There'll a be a void after depression leaves, so take the time to remind yourself of the awesome person that you are! I'm re-reading my diary and some of the books that I loved (and hated) for a start. Wishing you love and light and bubble tea always.

@sorriiez

2 жыл бұрын

This feels in such a personal level, I have absolutely the same thing. Even though they are still unresolvable problems in my life, I am now completely ok with that and just want to finally enjoy my life instead of trying to survive in it. Wishing you some love that u deserve a lot, u made me day (:

"Heavy hearts, like heavy clouds in the sky, are best relieved by the letting of a little water."

@aaronreau8556

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you

@aaronreau8556

2 жыл бұрын

I like rain better because it gives life and waters the fields.

@aaronreau8556

2 жыл бұрын

Those who sow in tears shall reap joy

@sinpfiec1047

2 жыл бұрын

but if all the water let go, then you might as well forgot who you are

@yousefmajednayef1987

2 жыл бұрын

thx for this!💜

Lived a life where nobody appreciated anything about me, the people I wanted to feel proud of me did nothing but mention what I couldn't achieve. Today, I'm sitting alone near a window, on a rainy day, wearing what I feel comfortable in, making myself the favourite coffee I was told a million things about, listening to this and enjoying the rain most people curse about, I feel proud of the kind person I have become. I enjoy my own company more than anything and I'm feeling more unique and fresh than ever. It's quiet and calm, with no rush for anything. I go at my own phase. Every day I learn something new about myself. Thank you, God, for this life. Thank you, Syros, for this masterpiece and for the 2% who read this, I hope you hold on to yourself, He/ She needs your love and care. I wish you all the peace and success.

@Ilikebirdsandbooks

Жыл бұрын

Thank you for this

@Cinnabunro

Жыл бұрын

Thank you ❤ wishing you a wonderful day today, tomorrow, and every day after that!!

@nv_chino

Жыл бұрын

She will be loved

@cocopiggi

Жыл бұрын

This paragraph is truly amazing, self love is most certainly the key to life. Without it, what kind of person would make a person enjoy life and it’s spectacular wonders

@TheRoxyorange

Жыл бұрын

Reading this 5 months later and super grateful for the words written.

I graduated college and I've moved out two weeks ago to live across the country. I never thought that I could ever feel like this. I never thought I could live with a light heart and not be at a constant threat to cry myself to sleep at night. I smile so much more, I talk to people more often, I'm more willing to meet with people outside of work. For everyone that's still living with their parents or still in school, I also didn't think that things would get better. It gets better, I promise. I never thought that I would feel so at peace in my life. If I can do it, I know you can do it too. It feels so surreal, the changes in my head and in my heart. You can do it, guys!!

@ratburgler

2 жыл бұрын

Any tips for securing a place of living and a job across the country right after college? D:

@VoxsPats

2 жыл бұрын

@@ratburgler What I did was find a job first! I was really lucky that a workplace with a great environment reached out to me through my Colleges program that connects students to employers. Find a place you dont mind working at and smash that interview, figure out what your monthly salary would probably be, and move!!

@caputinodelamour5983

Жыл бұрын

i hope- i really miss feeling the pain and letting it go away instead of forcing it down the carpet

@Lumenaus

Жыл бұрын

Really proud of you!! I see this was from 2 months ago so I really hope you're still doing so well, you deserve it!

@Exusiai.

Жыл бұрын

How's it going man? I hope you're doing well!

This playlist came to me just at the right time. I graduated high school a few days ago and I'm currently struggling with a phase of depression. Things just don't feel "normal" anymore, nothing really makes me completely happy. It's really nice and comforting to see all these people going through the same feelings and seeing everyone help really makes it easier. Normally I don't express these feelings because I don't want to feel like a burden to their lives by bringing up my problems or something, but it's easier when it's strangers going through similar struggles. Thank you if you're reading this, it helps a lot. I hope everything treats you well.

@alicialandim3145

2 жыл бұрын

I know things can be difficult. I'm also going through difficult times, away from home and trying hard to get everything in order, but things get out of our control sometimes. But don't give up, and don't stop looking for help. There are people who really care about you and who love you. I really hope that everything goes well for you and God bless u

@flitefulwantssubs402

2 жыл бұрын

I feel the same about everything you've said. Although it makes me sad to think others are like this. I wonder if it'll ever go away though, mine isn't really a "phase" since it's been 2 plus years. But you, you've got hope! It's only been a week. Reach out and try to improve while it's still small. I had the same feeling as you for a while until it got entirely out of hand, and I've never felt the same way since.

@alicialandim3145

2 жыл бұрын

@@flitefulwantssubs402 it will pass! Don't lose faith

@flitefulwantssubs402

2 жыл бұрын

​@@alicialandim3145 I appreciate it, thank you for the encouragement. I fear this is just who I am now. It's been long enough, anyways. I still don't feel like myself, so I hope I will go back to how I used to be rather than get used to this.

@Nick-fx1wf

2 жыл бұрын

I feel the same as you, i graduated middle school a week ago and the pression to choose and went to collage and a job immediately as i ended is overwellmed me so much. When i listen to this playlist i remember who i am and like you said, i looks like makes it easier to pass through this. Its good to know that you are not alone into this. I hope you going well, thank you for your comment

"i finally feel like myself again" maybe that's true, but there will always be a part of my self which i couldn't find anymore

I stopped smoking weed because at a certain point I was always in a haze around the wrong people, which was tripping me up. Now I am starting to feel more like my old self when I was more focused, less scatter-brained, and overall more optimistic about where I was going in life. Stay strong y'all!

@eyafilali1702

2 жыл бұрын

stay strong ^^

@nyx...5858

Жыл бұрын

I was always high even tho I don't smoke weeds and I don't even do drugs,,maybe because of my problems that I don't want to think about anything

@Xezlec

Жыл бұрын

I'm currently on the other end of that journey, trying any substance or activity I can that might make me feel something, or stop feeling something. I don't know what to do. Life is not as empty as a few years ago, but still an ominous hollowness in my world. None of the usual advice works for me; I don't seem to be built like other people. Nice music though. Maybe I can relax for long enough to get some sleep tonight.

@eyafilali1702

Жыл бұрын

@@Xezlec I am really glad that u r aiming for a change , we've been there all at some points but trying to break the chain of pain is a huge step even though u don't actually have a 100 % clear vision on what to do things will build up itself eventually , but most importantly when it's getting even harder you must not give up

one little thing, one step, that's all it takes to change a life. you'll be grateful when all the depression is gone and you can start freely living again! keep going, keep pushing guys, with every difficulty that pulls you back will come a great leap, like shooting an arrow. you will get through this. if you don't believe in yourself, I believe in you.

This year I’m actually proud of myself for the past like 5 years I’ve been struggling with mental health and now it’s not completely gone but I think I got it under control this the very first time in my whole life where I was genuinely love of my life it feels weird I feel like I am not deserving of it and why was I sad for all those years I know a lot of myself and I’m so glad I can finally enjoy life and live that child me would have wanted

@limxinhuibbss7739

Жыл бұрын

No, you deserve all of it

Note to self: Listen to this playlist whenever u feel mass amounts of anxiety to help calm down. (thank u for this playlist btw! it is very nice to listen to)

@ikramjouihri6216

Жыл бұрын

Try to listen to Quran, it helps too ❤ Ths is one of my favourite; kzread.info/dash/bejne/dYR-lKOHebu6ZLQ.html&ab_channel=TheCalmAmbience I hope you're better!

10 years ago when I was living the best time of my life in college I and my luck fckd up so badly that I ended in a depression, became an hikki, leaving college and losing friends. After touching bottom I started meeting new friends and 4 years ago with the help of my family I started over a new career (totally different than the previous one) Now after a long path of good, bad and really bad memories I'm in my last semester before graduating and I feel really optimistic about my future. Looking back and feeling so proud now, like when I was back then 10 years ago, so I can totally relate with the title of the video 😌

@bellbala8311

2 жыл бұрын

I am so proud of you, what a fascinating journey. I don't want to say that I'm proud without acknowledging the things you went through as well, I can't even imagine how far down you had to go to finally gain the courage to climb back up. Keep going, I am rooting for you!!

@seryodemasiado

3 ай бұрын

An update: I finally finished college last week :D

Hope that one day i can come here again and actually feel that way

A couple of years ago i started to feel really interested on EDM and how to dance it. I learned it by watching videos on internet. Dancing just made me feel so happy but i wasnt able to express myself completely because the city where i lived was small and there was no one i knew that all love dancing the same music i like. A few months ago i moved to another city to continue my studies and here i found a big community that love EDM and shuffle dancing, so finally i can be myself...

@gabimoreira7498

2 жыл бұрын

I'm so happy for you, its so good that u could keep doing what u love.

@lggolden_gaming

Жыл бұрын

FINALLY ANOTHER EDM SHUFFLE LOVER!!

I'm going through a hard period of exams every week and sometimes I feel like giving up, but when I listen to these playlists I know I shouldn't give up. For anyone struggling as well, I believe in you, keep going!! Great things are ahead! 🤍

@realPNDR

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you. Life is just as hard for anyone else so we need to keep up the positivity! We all need to lift each other up ❤️

@Anticaat

2 жыл бұрын

thanks. best wishes to everyone here!

@radiredwolfgirl

2 жыл бұрын

@vipy's guinea pig 1 Thank you and good luck to you too! Here is a quote that I saw someome comment on a video a while ago: Too many people overvalue what they are not and undervalue what they are Malcolm Forbes It's often that I feel not good enough, but this quote really helps me to refresh my mind.

@radiredwolfgirl

2 жыл бұрын

@@realPNDR True, that's actually what inspired me to write this, I always see people comment very wholesome messages, so I thought I would do the same because it makes me happy when I see comments like that

@radiredwolfgirl

2 жыл бұрын

@@Anticaat You too!! 💕

I've finally felt true happiness again, my parents went through a really toxic divorce, and it left me empty without me knowing it, even with all the negativity of the divorce remaining i've pushed throguh and have been feeling true joy for what feels like the first time in years. This music captures my feelings perfectly, and as a mesasge to everyone else out there, you'll get through it, trust me.

i saw the title of this playlist on my recommended and i was like 'i need this' because i am finally starting to feel like the best version of myself. thanks everyone in these comments for being so wholesome and honest, god i love the lo fi community 😭

Just pulled myself out of a depression hole once again. I'm proud of myself for getting out so quickly and with so much energy and strength, it's unbelievable. I picked up my whole place, heavily cleaned everything, set schedules to keep myself eating healthily and consistently, weekly to-dos to keep myself in check for cleaning to not let it build up again, set daily smart goals in advance and get them all done to feel accomplished each and every day, taking vitamins instead of antidepressants (almost started them, but I wanted to fix it naturally instead and decided against it), it's all working out. It's playlists like this that remind me of what I'm doing and why this is all so worth it, and it makes me so happy to read all of the comments of everyone else experiencing so much positive change. We all got this! Take a deep breath and let's get through life together :)

this is the perfect playlist for me- just had the best night of my life where I finally felt at home and found the family I've been searching for my entire life. After everything I've been through I finally had a night where everything didn't feel like it was crashing down. I got a taste of what it was like to be me again :')

I felt like this for 2 days for the first time in 3 years, it was beautiful. It's gone back down but I still hold hope that it will come back again, to stay this time

This title feels so relatable. After passing a difficult period finishing high school and dealing with other problems, slowly but surely I'm starting to feel in control of my life again. I wish a good lucky for everyone here in this comment session.

"I finally feel like myself again' a part of me wishes this was true.

I finally put to rest the echoes of those feelings I had for him that I didn't even know I had. I feel so free, it's nice to be unfettered.

the last year was so heavy and amazing at the same time. i definitely thank to it, and, especially, to myself. i've done so much for changing my life to better, and i got it. i'm so proud of me. at the last year i felt happiness and calm for the first time in my life.

I’m 12, and i’ve been in a bit of a chokehold due to a lot of things, i feel like i’ve been wasting my childhood worrying about things that i shouldn’t worry about, but i’ve been better ever since i’ve prayed and given my life to God, i should call my friends now!

Yes I totally feel like myself again. Rather I feel like I discovered myself new and I am being myself for the first time. Everything is going so damn perfect now. Guys never give up. I never thought I will feel like I do right now, but here I am. Life can be hella good

Very nice compilation. Recently I got to the point when I decided that I don't need therapy anymore so I do feel like myself again indeed. After 20 years of constant anxiety and depression.

been going through a hard time, im glad i stumbled on this i felt more at ease seriously thank you

@kragonX3

2 жыл бұрын

same here, hope things start looking up for you :)

after years of struggling with my mental health I find it weird to feel comfortable with myself and who i am, it's like the world was suddenly nice to me but it's nice to feel this way once in a while ^^ edit: i might need to listen to this in school because of my anxiety lol crowds scare me

This legit feels so nice to listen to, after being in a few years of depression and lots of lows with points I thought of giving up, losing myself in the process. I finally refound myself and my confidence that left me for years and this video just made it so much better! It feels weird to be this happy and confident but I'm glad it happened

We need more of these kinds of lo-fi, honestly. it's uplifting and makes me feel just happy

I think I finally found my purpose in life. For years I haven't had the guts to believe in what I was doing, thinking that no matter what I would've never been able to achieve my dreams. But now, after so many years spent without a proper purpose in life, I found who I truly am. It's not easy to understand, but it feels like everything has its own purpose again. Everything is where it is supposed to be. And I'm here for a reason, finally.

Lofi music has a strange way of making reality prettier than it actually is.👍👍

Going to use this as my study playlist...the tune is making me feel more alive and I hope i achieve my goal while studying via this....Thank you for creating this

I really like this kind of still/ moving artwork, the kind that is often in a chill lofi music/ ambience videos but I don't know what the artwork type is called exactly.

This playlist really hit home for me. I've gone through a B.A. and M.A. for a total of 6 years, and it's been a lot of pressure. After 6 years of going without stopping, I can finally rest. I finally have time to actually be myself. Thank you for this. :)

Ive been feeling insecure abt myself lately, and even these past few months I feel like I've lost a part of myself, I felt like I lost who I am. MAybe the reason for all this self doubt was because I myself did not know who I am but when this passed my recommended, tears finally burst out and I was hit by a spurt of epiphany. Everything finally feels real again and IM gonna discover who I am again. Thank you

@nateborg7286

Жыл бұрын

Props to you, I've been feeling the same, in my case prob due to addiction. I just can't even feeling good doing the things that I liked anymore, like play videogames, I feel it's a waste of time even when I try to relax. I barely feel anything watching things I like, I am trying to get out but it's difficult. I hope I can recover one day and feel like myself again (Although I'm still finding out about who Am I)

I love how I'm using this playlist to write an extremely depressing story so that I don't start crying myself 😭

Thank you to everyone who's shared where they're at. It's a blessing to see those who've come to the other side of many years of depression and mental health struggles, or who are starting a new and happier chapter, or who feel relief at this point in life. To those who are still struggling, please remember that there is hope for you, personally. "It cannot always be night," and it won't. Years of pain may come and go, but there is still a beautiful future ahead of you. It may be hard to believe - and that's okay, take your time. But there is a real you still in there, no matter how little you feel like yourself. You will come through to the other side. Take some time today to pray, meditate, sit outside - slow down. You are dearly loved.

“Life will always be good in the end, if life isn’t good its not the end”

So glad YT recommended me this, really needed this. I finally feel like myself again. Thank you, thank you so much for this!

It's been a relatively rough year, but I'm getting better, like the title of the video says, I feel like myself again

here's to healing. i hope to find other people who have been thru a lot like myself so we can create a safety net for each other. remember that progress isn't linear and that you're love

HOW does this not have more likes and views? this is amazing!

its crazy because i realized im happy for the first time that i can remember today. ive been thinking about it all day then i see this.

ur playlists keep me going when i feel overwhelmed

After a super stressful year I finally feel relaxed and happy even though I'm still busy and stressed out for my senior year. I live in a small social circle but distancing myself from toxic environments and people really helped. I'm still in the same social circle and I've kinda been dreading seeing them again, but I feel lighter knowing that I let them go in a sense. I don't want to hate them or anything but I hope things can get better without me and we can all go our separate ways someday.

@Ms.Harmunny

2 жыл бұрын

I passed Senior year this year and I'm out of high school. It may be heartbreaking or relieving, but I believe you can make that next step.

@ddelta02

2 жыл бұрын

@@Ms.Harmunny Thank you! Also good luck with whatever step you are taking next in life!

@Ms.Harmunny

2 жыл бұрын

@@ddelta02 Thank you so much.

One of my favorite playlist of all time. Entertaining, relaxing, not boring at all and beautiful

Been listening to your mixes and playlists for a long time, but the last time I did was over a year ago. This one came up as recommended recently, and it made me reflect a bit and realize yes, I do feel like "myself", something I never really knew. The last decade or so I've dreaded waking up daily for various reasons--depression, imposter syndrome, disgust towards my being, isolating myself from the world at every chance. The pandemic just gave me another opportunity to continue stewing in my misery for a long time. For the first time, listening to this playlist, I can say I wouldn't recognize myself from then. It hasn't even been that long, but I can sit here listening to this music knowing I'm employed, know who the people I love and care about are, and doing my own thing without guilt. There's a lot of things in the future I still worry about, but they don't seem as overwhelming because I know I can muster through them somehow. If you are reading this long winded self-reflection, I hope that you too can make it through whatever you may be struggling with. I don't think there is an ultimate meaning in life, and that is okay, I'm content chugging along at my own pace on this earth, having fun where I can. I'm doing fine. And you are too.

Even if you’re not there yet, practice being there. The next month or so is a good time to play at being all you want to be. Let yourself persist and persevere in becoming who you are deep down and watch something blossom...yourself.

We are so used to hearing people tell about their bad experiences but reading the comments its nice to see that life does have happiness in it!!! things can change and you can be happy!!

It's been a couple years since I started counselling, and I just realized at the start of this school year how much I've hated myself for years, even longer than I had serious mental health problems. I'm just starting to love myself and love myself, even with anxiety and worries about the future as the economy collapses. Senior year has barely started, but I absolutely love it. I'm genuinely HAPPY again, and I feel confident in who I am as a person. I don't blow up anymore, and I have people to talk about my issues with. My life isn't perfect yet, but it's happy, and I'm so proud of myself to have reached a place where I love life again. I finally feel like a good person again 😊

this channel is very healing 💙

I was suffering through immense heartbreak just a few days ago, this playlist has definitely helped me a lot in moving on. This is the type of playlist that reminds you that there are a lot of good things in life, and it also lets you see the brighter side of everything. Thank you for making this.

I don't like where I am at the moment, its a place that causes me anxiety that I didn't have before, sleeping less hours and always complaining. Sometimes I'm barely hanging on, trying not to break down. Yesterday I was reminded that this season in my life is all a lesson. I have learnt through my tears that i am stronger than this dark days, bold because no matter what I will wake up and face them every day because I refuse for my light to be taken away from me. Learned a lot about myself and found ways to be happy and grateful in the small things. Growing into myself.

I don't usually write comments in KZread videos. I'm usually the one that reads how sad, happy, lonely, or lovestruck some may feel. Sometimes I like to imagine myself vicariously living through others' comments. But today I want to be the one to express how I feel. It's been almost 2 months since I've been taking Lexapro and I feel like my anxieties are mostly gone. I've been battling depression and anxiety disorder pretty much my entire life but I finally feel like myself again. I have meaningful conversations with my friends and family and am really beginning to truly love myself. I am a little worried that once I get off of Lexapro I might fall back into the deep pit again. But I try not to think about that. I am cherishing this time where I am in love with who I am and what I have to offer to this world. If anyone is in a similar situation I highly recommend seeking a therapist or a psychiatrist because it's okay to admit you have problems. Don't be so hard on yourself!

I hit an incredibly rough mental health patch over the summer (sudden onset of major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety, and panic disorder) and found this playlist in the middle of it. After so many nights of breathing through panic attacks, of laying on my bed wondering if I'd ever feel normal again, I took my therapist's advice and decided to try medication. I've only been on Zoloft for 11 days now and the panic attacks have stopped, the anxiety has eased, the depressive fog is lifting, and the future feels bright. I finally really am starting to feel like myself again! If you've read this far, thank you. If you're going through hard times right now, stick through it! I'm proud of you, I know how difficult it can be. Take care of yourself and have a nice day/night, wherever you are ✌

your the best, this means the world to me

I feel like I’m allowed to be okay. It feels amazing. I can’t stop crying

This is probably the best lofi radio channel out there rn

I still don't quite feel like myself. It's like I get so close but then some blockade gets in my way and I've made such a habit that when something gets in my way I turn away and avoid it and go back to filling myself with dopamine. I wish I could feel normal and not someone who is trying to fit into everyone else's standards and losing myself to become someone I'm not.

This is just what I was looking for. Thank you so much!💙

i havent felt like myself ever, its dumb but i just keep going in the same cycles of self destruction every single time, getting out of this seems so hard but easy at the same time, to be honest man i just wanna improve, be better, have a better relationship with those around me and ironically enough knowing that i myself am the only person that can get me out of this place that i have been stuck in for years, is a terrifying thought.

Thank you for making such a beautiful playlist, I feel like hope doesn't gone yet.

love this so much, healing my whole soul

After a breakup i felt like i was going insane but everything went well for 2 months and then went on a down spiral 2x worse then the last one. I felt like giving up. Now I feel at a stalemate where im going up but down, finals and regents are coming up and after that i really hope the process of feeling like myself will come. thank you for this playlist i will listen to it for the finals

you ARE AMAZING!!!! keep going💗💗💗

This playlist sounds so nice and relaxing I needed this right now so thank you 💙

to everyone who's going through it, good luck, you can do it

Definitely adding to my study playlist. Thanks!!

This is my favorite mix right now. Comforting You is so catchy

💖WONDERFUL💖 you're doing a GREAT job !

Thank you for making this music , I love to listen it when I am study.

these playlist make me feel like everythings alright

love this compilation - listening whilst studying :(

i just love the art so much

Absolutely loved this playlist. It has become my favorite. THANK YOU

can't wait to feel like this in summer

saving this for when my transition and dysphoria is over and i finally can feel like myself again

Love this playlist. Thank you~

Gracias por tomarte tu tiempo para armar la playlist y el video, es hermoso

Life will get beautiful. Life can be beautiful

omg that first one is such a vibe!

A great way to start my day.

the first song got me in! love all the songs

Just started hearing the musics, they seem good up till now, but that art already got my like, it's so... pacefull.

this art and this title made my heart warm

Love for this playlist, this titel and this comment section

Just what I needed! I can do this!!!✨🎉

I dont feel like myself yet ...but i think i can do it! with God I Can do everything!

I've been in my house pretty much 24/7 for like half a year now because of a lot of mental health reasons and kinda just felt like i was wasting my life away. lately though i see or feel like myself for just a little bit and it's been happening more and more lately so i'm gonna take that as a good sign.

All my life I've struggled to understand why I behave the way I do. Recently, I've come to accept that I have BPD. By recently I mean I've been slowly coming to this conclusion for 7 years, and after a medical incident where I almost died, It really put a lot into perspective and made a lot of aspects of my ego that were holding me back feel irrelevant. Well informed self diagnosis can serve as a catalyst to understanding and treatment. Since realizing that I don't have to feel like a fraud, and accepting that a lot of my behavior can be traced to symptoms and masking behaviors of my disorder, I've been healing and working on myself more than I have in my entire life. I'm not really sure I know who I am as a person yet, but I'm loving the process of discovering myself. Sometimes it can be ugly, and sometimes I remember things I'm not yet ready to carry, but even in just a matter of months since my accident, I've already been making bounds. uh. another thing that's come from this acceptance of my disorder, is a better understanding of how i see the people around me. there's someone very dear to me, who I've always thought I've had a crush on. I've never been able to ask him out, because he's seeing someone. People have asked me if them dating bothers me because of it, and I've always said "no, not really. only when she does something that hurts him, like it would with any other friend, but it might hurt a little bit more." Talking to some people who also have BPD, I've come to the conclusion that it's a bit different than a crush. He's my special person. I need his approval like I need water, but I'd never tell him that, because that's too much pressure. When he's happy, I'm happy. when someone hurts him, it's like they've hurt me too, or even moreso. Realizing it's not romantic, I was able to tell him most of this recently, except for parts which I think would put unfair pressure on him to keep his feelings from me for my protection (which isnt what i want anyway!). He told me I'm his rock, and his best friend, and that we're closer than he is to most people he's known his whole life. I never knew he felt that way. It made me cry a lot. I'm tearing up right now just thinking about how much kindness he showed me, when I allowed myself to be more vulnerable to him than I've ever been to anyone. He makes me feel soft, when I've always tried to be rough. It feels so exhilerating that after years of bottling all of this up, he's able to know how much he means to me in a way that didn't hurt him. If anyone has read this far, I love you, as a human on this earth. I can't promise that it's going to get better, but I can promise you this. Sometimes getting better is a struggle that you have to claw tooth and nail for, but sometimes, in your darkest moments, that change will find its way to you outside of your own terms. If you're fortunate enough to find yourself in this situation, please let it. It's scary. It's terrifying, but it's worth it every day. Even the bad ones, when it doesn't feel like it at all. I love you, and let your heart stay soft, friends.

感到平静 坏心情也一扫而空 非常感谢推荐

I listen to it over and over again ❤

having goosebumps as i listen to this mix

this playlist is so good thank you very very very much

I love this playlist title so much, I haven't felt like myself for many years! Until recently this month :)) I think KZread is stalking me or something..Regardless, awesome mix of songs!! I can't wait to hopefully relate to more of these playlist titles

This is that one playlist I'm always coming back to every once in a while; I suppose it is mostly when I want to "feel like myself again" or when I feel the most like myself, haha. In less than 3 days I'm going to have the mock exam for a really important exam I have this year (that's taking place in June), so I kind of felt like coming back here, to comfort myself? that I'm doing great, and the best that I can. Wishing everyone luck with their studies or personal projects :) We can do itt ;)) Btw Syros! You haven't been uploading for quite a few months now, hope everything's going smoothly for you, and that you're always "feeling like yourself" :)

I felt so relaxed with this playlist

its okay to lose sight of who you really are, it happens but you'll eventually get back to that person. welcome home