I want to thank you for honoring your mother, and commend you for your bravery in telling her story. It's YOUR story, too. Anxiety and Panic Disorder runs in my family, and my 39 year old son is crippled by it, and always has been. He is a big, handsome, extremely intelligent and honorable young man, and all that goes to waste because the anxiety holds him prisoner. Luckily, he does go for counseling and he has an amazing wife, but he can't seem to get past the illness. I worry for him every day and wish he could go out and live a happy life. So many are suffering in silence, so people like you who tell their stories, are a blessing to those who feel alone.

@debraberg1763

Жыл бұрын

I have no medical training, but I think that your son has a vagual nerve disorder. His vagual nerve is over- responding to stimulus. I have a genetic disorder called Ehiler-Danlos and vasovagal syncope as a result. I sort of faint under stress. I take a small dose of Lexapro 5ml., and I stop crying. It calms my vagual nerve. I'm going to learn the Silva mind control style next. Hope something here helps.

@atdepaulis

Жыл бұрын

This sounds like my husband. He thinks counseling is stupid and won’t try any medications as he thinks those of course will cause side effects that make his anxiety worse like dry mouth or nausea.. idk very sad to see life so wasted and crippled by fear which is always from the devil 😢

@NZDefinity

Жыл бұрын

I totally understand your story and thank you for sharing about your having a Mum and how this affected your life. I have a 45 year old son who has schizophrenia and is medicated

@theresaohman7187

Жыл бұрын

I also suffer from anxiety and it is crippling people. Luckily I had the right meds, it took awhile but I can control it better. I didn't like counseling. Luckily I had to work because I wouldn't have left the house. I had a very physical and mentally challenging situation. I worked on the Alzheimer's unit. I finally had a stroke and had to retire. Even though I'm not as stressed, I still get bouts of it. Family inheritance.......🙄😕

@arzucufoglu8932

Жыл бұрын

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Im glad your mom is no longer suffering. People with schizophrenia are often suffering more than anyone ever imagines. The pain physical and emotional the loneliness and confusion. Very heartbreaking.

My friend from high school also had a single mom with schizophrenia. It was terrible beyond words. Her mom told her she could only get dressed under the covers because men were watching through the ceiling lightbulbs. They could only shower in the absolute dark for the same reason. Her mom had so many rules about everything. Rules that were outrageous and didn't make sense designed to protect against spies, poisonings from spies, the devil, voices, etc. A tragic, difficult childhood. My friend got pregnant at 16 and her mom thought the devil made the baby! The baby was placed in an open adoption. My own experience with schizophrenia was when I saw the neighbors' son change from a bright, early high school graduate, graduated college in 3 years, entered medical school. 1 year into medical school he washed out. The medical school told his dad they suspected onset of schizophrenia. The disease devastated him. He stopped hygiene, refused haircuts, long scraggly beard, mumbling nonstop, wild eyes, etc. He suicided. A terrible tragedy back in the early 80's.

@indigobunting2431

9 ай бұрын

Minimal help was available and I sure believe that he earned some peace.

@happybergner9832

6 ай бұрын

😔

@NANASplash

Ай бұрын

Sounds a lot like my brother.

@SarahBearah2023

11 күн бұрын

It's demons..

@LuvableAF

8 күн бұрын

Absolutely. I knew two in the 90’s, ^both of them talked about Demons constantly….

I have a sister with this disorder. She is unbelievably abusive and has devastated hers and her children’s lives. She is currently homeless and none of our family can take her in. She is a screaming, ranting trainwreck and has verbally abused us all. She regularly posts hundreds of social media posts a day accusing us and others of horrible things. It went into overdrive when we cut her off of the money we were giving her. We have called police, the district attorney, DHS, and were told that nothing can be done until she hurts herself or others. The system is not set up to help these people and expecting family to take them in and be abused is not the answer. Blessings to you for your forgiveness and healing. I don’t think it’s as simple as “someone get them help”. It’s not there. They don’t want to get better. You have to protect yourself and your own family sometimes.

@Sarahopal

4 күн бұрын

I'm so sorry you're going through that. You're right the system is not set up to help. My cousin was shot by the police during a really bad schizophrenic episode. My mother has schizophrenia and she was incredibly abusive. I cut off all contact with her 8 years ago. She's also a pretty severe drug addict. She tells everyone awful things that never happened. My heart aches for her. I know she doesn't mean to be this way. She's in so much pain. But I need some stability in my life and I am not required to live a miserable life to help her. It became too much. When I was in the hospital dying she stole my medicine and keys from my purse. Got into my home and stole from me. I couldn't take it anymore. We can only do so much for other people. I know some people won't understand but you are doing the right thing. Hugs and blessings! ❤

@julief7234

4 күн бұрын

@@Sarahopal thank you, I know you understand the pain. Blessings to you and love to all who know this struggle. Hoping someday there will be help for these people who so desperately need it.

@Sarahopal

4 күн бұрын

@@julief7234 Amen and agreed ❤️ they shouldn't have to hurt themselves or others to get the help they need.

@j.k.6089

3 күн бұрын

Does not sound like schizophrenia (only)..

@julief7234

3 күн бұрын

@@j.k.6089you are correct. She has been diagnosed bipolar and borderline also. It’s so complicated 😢

My mother was ALL of the things you mentioned, which freaks me out…but she was very abusive, neglectful, and violent with me too. I got taken away from her twice and put into foster care…or she’d drop me off on somebody’s porch. I was basically raised by a string of relatives. My father was never involved, and she said she hated me because I looked just like him. She also was diagnosed both Schizophrenic and Bipolar/Manic Depressive on top of it. And this was all in the 80’s/90’s. I was very scared of her, and never got the chance to understand her because she committed suicide. In hindsight, schizophrenia is hell. They actually hear/see things. I’m sorry you went through what you did❤️

@arneedlund8512

Жыл бұрын

Sorry ❤

@tallblonde1976

Жыл бұрын

So sorry Meagan

@thinklogic2731

Жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing ❤

@osajohnson1957

Жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry she hurt you.

@miapdx503

Жыл бұрын

Yes, my mother passed away on Christmas day, two years ago. I felt strange, relieved and couldn't cry...it was over. Now I can heal and grieve. But my initial reaction was relief...she can't hurt me anymore. Rest in peace mama 🌹

I grew up with a mother who has schizophrenia as well. In fact there are many people with in my extended family have mental illnesses. It was and still is very difficult to interact with my mom at times. She informed me of some of the environmental factors from her childhood and I think this contributed to her developing schizophrenia. Ultimately, I love my mom because she’s my mom and she did the best she could but there’s a lot of pain there. One day I hope to go to therapy to discuss these things. Sending love your way ❤

@saardfetner8620

Жыл бұрын

She is demon possessed. How awful it is.

@JohnSmith-lk8cy

Ай бұрын

You don't have to love your abuser. In fact I can't understand why anyone would stand by an abuser.

@androgynylunacy

8 күн бұрын

​@@JohnSmith-lk8cyBecause it wasn't intentional. She didn't ask to be born with schizophrenia and maybe going to therapy was still seen as messed up during the period of time of her childhood or if she was part of some type of religious groups. So hush. I am sorry you went through that and I respect that you can see that your mom tried the best she could. No one asks to have mental illness and when either their entire family is distant or has it themselves, it is beyond far from being miraculously cured. You love her, but hate things that she did. You don't gotta completely hate her as a human being. I understand being unable to forgive a mom who takes zero responsibility for any wrongdoing, but some abusers just can't see that they're mentally ill and what they're doing is wrong. And that's why there is the guilty by legal insanity defense.

@adimeter

4 күн бұрын

@@androgynylunacy I just love you. And I admire your compassion for your mom.

I don't know which sounds worse, having schizophrenia or being raised by a parent with it. My mom has untreated mental illness but she is at least relatively sound of mind compared to schizophrenia. Possibly autism. My heart goes out to you. You are very compassionate and understanding of the illness. That is a beautiful thing. Blessings to you and your family.❤

@sarajesusismyking

Күн бұрын

Autism os not mental illness... How ignorant to say at least

@lindawaas6417

13 сағат бұрын

Autism Spectrum Disorders are NOT mental illnesses. Please educate yourself.

@FRANCESCA01234

2 сағат бұрын

@@sarajesusismykingits a developmental disorder and often comes hand in hand with mental ilnesses like anxiety and depression

My Mom is 83 and I now see the signs. She was better when she was busy. Got worse in her 70's, but Thank God my Dad never left her. 64 yrs married today.. Thank goodness I could forgive her for a wild childhood🙏

@davisholman8149

Жыл бұрын

Your Dad is a saint. What a blessing that your father stayed & I am sure your mama loved you dearly. Blessings for your bravery & being a person who can take some of the stigma by at least TALKING a about MENTAL ILLNESS.✌🏽😎

@davisholman8149

Жыл бұрын

Btw - you look👀like your maternal grandmother.

@zochbuppet448

Жыл бұрын

If you didn't see the signs before she was 60 then its not Schizophrenic. Your mother has Dementia / Alzheimer's which happens to many people with older age. Schizophrenic / Schizo disorders are first noticed at a younger age under 40, usually teens to 35.. /and mostly in their 20's. Usually starts with major life changes..School /jobs and they cant handle the pressure and there is usually some sort of break or break down that starts it.

@tartaninka

Жыл бұрын

Better get a clear diagnosis for her first. And then some help for your farher and her.

My mother had schizophrenia paranoia which only became visible to me and my dad when she was 55. From that moment on life became a horrible hollywood movie. My mum was the sweetest kindest person on this planet and everybody she came in contact with knew she was special. I am a single child and my mum and I had a very very close relationship. With the illness becoming very bad very quick at the age of 62 she ended up living in a psychiatric ward for 20 years. In total those 25 years since the outbreak were stolen from her and were stolen from me. It is absolutely devastating. I never again managed to be serene or carefree with that situation going on during the last 25 years of my own life. She was still alive but so absent from the drugs and from the illness keeping her in pain. I was suffering and sad every day during these years. My mum died 6 days ago from the side effects of the drugs at 81. I am 54 and I feel deeply traumatised from all this ......though I know that I was still so lucky because we had very good times with no signs of illness untill I was 28.....so my childhood was not hurt by this......but the last 25 years of losing her while she still was alive were horribly painful. With her death all the pain for the lost years came back all at once. I feel devastated and it helps a lot to see videos like these. Thank you so much!!!!

I am sorry that your mom went through this, she needed treatment. I had an aunt that was diagnosed with schizophrenia before I was even born. She had a very traumatic childhood. However, she was one of the nicest caregivers I ever had. When I was around 4 I realized she would be talking to herself, and laughing. She was a beautiful soul. I miss her so much! She taught many good things. Even though she was sick, the relatives didn't provide her with the love respect, and care she deserved. She was used as their unpaid babysitter, she ran all of the errands for the family every single day. She would walk to every store, there were no cars in our home. I think she only rested on Sundays because all the stores where closed. Otherwise they would have her working 7 days a week. While the supposedly" healthy ones" sat around and enjoyed life. She enjoyed reading, that was her escape. She was the most peaceful too. She never married, she was single, and she was happy.

I am one year older than your mum. I have suffered from mental health issues for most of my life, not schizophrenia. I too have also been called crazy, attention seeking and worse. I have always accepted help for my disorders, although for the last few years there is none. I have been on the medication roundabout and had several hospital admissions. I raised 3 children as a single parent and am now estranged from all of them as well as my biological family. I had 3 bad relationships with men and have lived on my own for the last 10 years since my youngest son left home. I haven't had a man in my life for 36 years. I now live only with my 2 dogs. I have always had a good relationship with animals and have always had my fair share of many different types. I got all my emotional support from my dear dad who passed away 4 years ago. My life has gone downhill ever since. Thankyou for sharing your story it reminds me a lot of my own and has me in tears.

Your story has me in tears, this is so similar to my own story with my mothers schizophrenia. Thank you for sharing your story.

@genderrebeljo3051

2 жыл бұрын

Ditto!

@lesliecarnes8775

Жыл бұрын

I can totally relate.

This one was very tough for me to watch, hits extremely close to home.

My mother has had paranoia schizophrenia my whole life. Before i was born with my siblings said she had issues then. So my mother has been suffering from schizophrenia her whole life, undiagnosed. My mother thinks its normal. The chaos, thinking everyone is out to get her. My mother and i barely have a relationship now. Shes 73 , she’s just a shell of her mental illnesses , schizophrenia, ptsd, bipolar, depression, yeah my mother has alot of issues. Because of her childhood abuse from my grandparents. narcissistic rages, My mother never found help , It was hard for me growing up. Dealing with it. I really discovered okay there’s something wrong when i was 32. Now im taking care of myself, when i see someone struggling with mental illness, it isnt funny. It breaks my hearrt.

Except for the homelessness, sounds like you are describing my mom. She talked weird and depressing talk ALL day long. As a teenager I would escape from the house as early in the day as possible. But once I got married and my father died I realized she needed help. her psychiatrist was able to help her and within 3 weeks she was released to come home. From there she gradually improved. I never has sense enough to ask him what her diagnosis. Thank you for sharing this. I am 76 yrs ol and have had a little bit of therapy. From California.

This hits really close to home, I’m 15 and my mom is 44. And all my life I ve yk known my mom was different. She is a diagnosed schizophrenic so I saw eat medicines everyday I used to go with her to hospital every mnth when I was younger but my family is very not feel touch-y so we have actually never really talked about this just twice , once I was younger my mom was having delusionals and I got so mad at her and my dad said it’s not her fault all we can do is help her and like one in covid when I asked my dad what mental disease does mom really have. So all I know about her story is what I ve heard. So from what I ve gathered my mom was married before my dad for about 6-12 mnths around the age of 23 and the guy used physically and mentally abuse her like really really bad and give her drugs and shit, so she divorced him then was diagnosed with depression then schizophrenia then she got okay or so they thought and went off her medicine then married my dad then during or after being pregnant with me her schizophrenia came back . And I don’t remember much about my childhood but I remember a couple of time I remember her being in the hospital for a long time dont if sh3 was sick or it schizophrenia, which made me have a really good connection with my dad and all my childhood I was kinda scared of my mom and think she hated me. When I was younger yk she used to slap me a lot then be like oh my god I did not mean to do that are you okay. So I definitely don’t have the bong that I have with my dad. But as the years went on I think she got better coz she no longer hits me I don’t even remember the last time she slapped ( so guys don’t worry I’m fine). But like yk re delusions are still there like so many times she is like that person said that and I’m just like nothing like that happened and like she sees ppl in bathroom and shit. Once I was about 10-11 I remember her crying because apparently she thought somebody raped me. And at times she just goes into this mood where she is totally silent and angry. And I hate myself for screaming at her when she says something delusional because ik she can’t help it but at times it’s too much. There are many times when I felt like I was the parent. But at the end of day she is the best mom I could ask for Ik she loves me a lot and would do anything for me literally anything. She srsly is so sweet and I love her so goddamn much.

@megb9700

Жыл бұрын

I hope you get some therapy for yourself so you know what’s normal and what’s not. Therapy helps with making all the adult decisions you are starting to make now, so you can be a mentally healthy adult for yourself. I bet you are very strong and fragile at the same time. Therapy helps balance that out. (My brother is schizophrenic and bipolar.)

@deborahburroughs8905

Жыл бұрын

@@megb9700 Great advice.

@Sedgies

Жыл бұрын

What a wonderful daughter you are. God bless you always and your family as well. ❤

@Jendromeda

Жыл бұрын

i joined a nation wide group called NAMI...NATIONAL ALLIANCE FOR THE MENTALLY ILL. Their groups are held for family members...i was shocked at how many people were there talking about their situations with their family members who were very sick with a mental illness. It is a great group to join ! Look it up. You will hear stories the same as yours and even worse. These things are kept secret and hidden many times...you will be shocked at how many people are living with problems like yours. Good luck!!! I have several mentally ill family members, some more severe than others, some schizophrenia.

@hopeful6157

Жыл бұрын

Your mom is absolutely blessed to have you for a daughter, God bless you all , take care 🙏❤💯

My husband is schizophrenic as well. He's just turned 72. Routine is key to the schizophrenic. They can thrive if they indeed get help. At this very moment he hasn't talked to me for who knows what. On days like this I am grateful that we don't live together. He got his Master's in English. He held a job for 33 years as a librarian. He studies the most amazing things. Right now he studies Ancient Greek. He then wishes he had someone to talk to. I've looked for anything that can put him in touch with someone who does. However, he's apprehensive about the thought of meeting new people. It can be happy and sad. Tomorrow we'll talk and not mention today and it will be great.

@donnabowman9059

Жыл бұрын

God bless you! ❤

@lacecocoa6272

Жыл бұрын

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@lillemy4260

22 күн бұрын

Is he autistic?» Masters in English and he noe studies Ancient Greek. «

I'm crying hearing your story, I have cried in the past about my mother and my relationship with her but it had been a while so I probably needed to. I'm glad I tuned in, it isn't a subject I've talked about very much because, as is the case with you, it triggers so many feelings of guilt around my inability to understand what was happening to my mother and my reactions to her psychotic symptoms and behaviors. Your story is similar in some ways to our experience but different in other ways. My mother married my father at 32, I was born 2 yr. later, and they remained married and shared our home throughout each of their relatively short lives. I don't recall anything out of the ordinary until I was around 10 or 11 when my mother began having paranoid ideas, believing others were saying terrible things about her, becoming delusional, hallucinating, and being hospitalized the first time. She was prescribed medication, returned home after a month's stay, and seemed to be stable, but a couple of years later the same thing occurred and she was hospitalized again. My paternal grandmother lived 2 blocks from us and did not treat my mother nor my younger sister well. My father worked long hours and was away from home much of the time. There was no one my mother socialized with except for family occasionally and I think she was lonely. I remember being afraid of my mother on some level, not physically, but emotionally cut by some of the things she said to me, and I recall being embarrassed by some of her bizarre behaviors in public. After her 2nd hspitalization, I began spending more time at my grandmother's house or at the home of friends, often overnight. My mother was a beautiful woman with an awesome singing voice. I didn't have either of my parents long, my father died of cancer when I was 15 and my mother died of a brain hemorrhage a year later. She had a history of physical complaints for which Drs. could find no reason, so when she suffered the hemorrhage, she diagnosed what was happening although no one believed her, including myself, thinking she was imagining things again. I became a registered nurse and worked in the area of psychiatry during my career, I believe to try and understand both myself and my mother. I often wonder what my relationship would have been with my mother, and father, had they lived longer and as I developed more maturity and understanding. I like to think it would have been better. Thank you for sharing your experience which has helped me feel so not quite alone.

Oh man, my mom has schizophrenia. I see you! I hear you! I am so sorry she was never properly diagnosed. When my mom takes her meds, she is herself. But she often chooses not to take them... Thank you for sharing your story

My daughter is paranoid schitzophrenic. I appreciate you taking time to do this video on it. My daughter growing up was a cheerleader all thru school. She had to try out and always made it. They had varcity basketball, and football and she made both. So when around age 17... I started noticing things more. God Bless you on your journey.

@ashleybergstrom8934

Жыл бұрын

That is the age my grandson was diagnosed and we could see things changing.

@miapdx503

Жыл бұрын

Yes, my handsome, intelligent son began having symptoms at that age then a full blown psychotic episode, where he broke with reality completely. He's in his thirties now...

I am sorry for your loss of your mom she sounds like she was a proud woman and she took care of you. Your mother had her problems, but having your mother’s family ignoring her is beyond cruel. They should’ve pulled together money every month to give her an apartment a small apartment for her to call home and be safe. I enjoyed your video, thank you.

@barpoe

Жыл бұрын

It's not that simple. My brother is schizophrenic. My parents did everything to make sure he had a home, but one day, he stood on my doorstep saying, he didn't want to live there anymore and wanted to be homeless, and not to tell my parents about this decision. He asked me to be happy for him, that were his last words to me. It's very difficult, because helping someone who thinks you are out to get them, even when you're the sweetest person alive, is just so heartbreaking and impossible to help.

@theynot4u

Жыл бұрын

​@barpoe People who don't know anyone with schizophrenia assume they can somehow "fix" them by being kind and providing support. I know a man who has paranoid schizophrenia. He calls me regularly with his paranoid delusions. He calls me because I listen, and he tells me he has no one who cares about him. I know that's not true, but he has burned every bridge countless times. It's a really sad situation.

My daughter was diagnosed recently and I’m devastated. I’m in shock and I’m so depressed and stressed about this. Her life will be very very hard. My older sister has it.

@Jendromeda

Жыл бұрын

we have similar story...my granddaughter was diagnosed in the past year and i am dealing with this day to day, one day at a time, I am so depressed that now, a grandchild has a mental disorder that my family is so familiar with. I have only two grandchildren and one has been diagnosed. We have had a hellish time with all sorts of disorders and illnesses, i posted above. BE KIND TO YOURSELF and do not let anyone run you down--be careful and protect yourself and your daughter--there are people who will not accept our "type" of family and will criticize and judge. Be looking out for yourself and your daughter and try to be around compassionate people and people who understand....not the ignorant ones. The world needs much more enlightenment concerning mental illness. The family suffers along with the diagnosed family member. I suggest a group called NAMI. National Alliance for the Mentally Ill. Godspeed !

@kimalonzo3363

Жыл бұрын

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@happycook6737

Жыл бұрын

Yes, it is a very hard diagnosis but we have more medication options now, plus group homes, etc. Get her a case manager through your state office. Let them help her. It takes a team and government resources. It also takes time and being on wait lists so start now. Make it clear when she graduates high school she must move out or she will be living in your basement as you age and become her victim. You must protect yourself. You deserve to have a happy life. (((Hugs)))

@kathleenmcbride1471

Жыл бұрын

​@@Jendromeda I totally understand everything you said and it is all true. I am there too. God bless you.

@kathleenmcbride1471

Жыл бұрын

​@@happycook6737 Even when she finally gets a group home or apartment - which is SO hard to do as you know - my daughter leaves within the FIRST DAY. What then? I have not found any answers. I have tried everything. She is convinced every time that she can go out on her own without meds and will not comply with ANY house rules or supervision. Unless she is in the hospital no one can get her to take her meds and no one can keep her safe.

Well done. You did so well telling this story of growing up with a mum that suffered from schizophrenia. It's not easy road to travel. Thank you for opening up and breaking stigma ❤

Yes yes yes....I grew up with my mom who was schizophrenic. But she was institutionalized when I was 10. I grew up with fear,, isolation, and secrets because of the stigmas. I didn't speak about it until I was in my 20's. Alot of trauma for me. She wasn't treated until she was in her 50's. Sad. She was even given electro shock therapy. All of us suffered so much. I still have those feelings of being afraid to speak about it. Thank you for sharing your story! I'm not the only one! ❤

@adimeter

4 күн бұрын

May you be blessed going forward.

Have you seen “Living well with Schizophrenia”? A young woman who describes her life, with her disorder lives a full life. So sad your mother didn’t get treatment, and a better, less scary life. 🌹

Thank you for sharing your Mother’s story! My brother was diagnosed with Schizophrenia when he was 19 and was in and out of mental hospitals the rest of his life. He was perfectly normal as long as he was on his meds and Dad would bring him home then he wouldn’t take his meds and have to be re-admitted. Jerry was super smart in school I’m told he had an IQ that was genius level. He had a horrible breakdown when he was 19 and was hearing voices and delusional very early on. He used to gather up all the guns ( Dad was a hunter) and then March around saying they are coming to get us etc… he immobilized Dads truck so he couldn’t go get help and back then ( the 1960s) we didn’t even have a house phone! I remember hiding in the closet from him… I was 11 years younger than him.. later in his life my uncle took him in till he was unable to care for him( my uncle was a sheriff’s deputy and a big man so he could handle him better and Jerry listened to him and did really well) Jerry was in a halfway house after that with a caregiver… he died from Emphysema in 1996. I cry a lot thinking of him. There’s an episode of House called The Socratic Method… if you haven’t watched please do if you get a chance… turns out the lady who was diagnosed with Schizophrenia actually had Wilson’s Disease and House caught it and she got her son back! I cried and cried cause I always wonder if Jerry was misdiagnosed! Thanks again for sharing your Mother’s and your journey with this ❤❤

Your story has many similarities to mine. But our mom was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder and she doesn't believe she is mentally ill. She has had lots of treatment and we have helped her alot but she won't accept any more treatment...it's beyond frustrating and we understand her illness pretty well. Thank you for sharing your story!

@staylor5687

Жыл бұрын

Your situation sounds just like mine was. My mother has passed away now, but absolutely totally bullheaded on not accepting her diagnosis. The psychiatrist told me that she was in the top 10% of the most difficult to treat. Refuses to accept she is ill and refuses to take the medication. An absolute revolving door in and out of the state mental hospital her whole adult life. Very sad.

That is sad, my mum was an undiagnosed paranoid Schizophrenic until I was 15 years. She is of a similar age to your mum and it defiantly was not know about much back then. She was only diagnosed because I couldn't cope anymore and started playing up at school and skipping school. I ended up with a social worker who visited my mum once and she got my mum sectioned. Happily today my mum is outgoing, has lots of friends, still together with my dad and is a lot less symptomatic.

My close friend has a sister diagnosed with this disease. She is fine when she's taking her medication, but through the years she's kept herself on and off the meds so it's been up and down for decades now. This video is so obviously a labor of love, and I think it's given a lot of people encouragement and some peace of mind. Thank you so much for posting this. Your mother has a lovely daughter.

I've never been really been able to express my feelings regarding my schizophrenic mother. I've always felt it was a touchy subject and it's just not something you can easily talk about to others. So, for me, it's very refreshing to hear you talking about schizophrenia in an honest and open manner. My mother's symptoms didn't appear until she gave birth to me. .So, I always felt guilty. When I was in the third grade, my father put me and my sister in a foster home. This was way back in the fifties. I'm now 75. My mother was admitted to the Salem mental hospital in Oregon. It was the same hospital where the movie Who flew over the Cuckoo's Nest with Jack Nickolson was filmed. She was there for two years. When thorazine was found to help, she was discharged. She did have Grandiose delusions and hallucinations. She had been a journalist and read veraciously. So, the way I saw it she was very clever in her breakdowns, she would call the White House for universal health care. She thought she was a director and would want to stage a play, asking various neighbors for a casting call. I was embarrassed but they thought it was funny. But, the worse was when she became angry, very angry calling everyone and personally cutting them down in the most vicious & cutting way. As a child, I thought the devil possessed her and prayed for an exorcism. So, she was either very active, staying up days and nights in a hyper manic state or on thorazine, very dull and quiet. I suppose I sound a bit cold, but this was years ago. After my dad died, she kept a calendar and go off her thorazine on purpose when she knew the insurance would cover her. Then she would go into a heighten state of grandiose. I felt she enjoyed her manic states because it was like being drunk. That's just my personal opinion. So, my sister and I spent our forties running back and forth to the clinic. She'd be there for two weeks at time. She smoked a lot and at 75 had lung cancer. She was lucid during her hospice and tried to make it up to me in her last days. That meant a lot to me. It is nice how sensitive you are about your mother. I ended up with minor insecurities that I just cover up the best I know how. You appear very strong. I admire your courage in being open & honest about a topic that some of us never knew how to express.

@kimalonzo3363

Жыл бұрын

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@janicescott7338

Жыл бұрын

A healthcare worker told me once when my friend was very manic and refusing meds that some people are sorta addicted to being bi-polar, because it’s like a free cocaine trip where you can do anything and not be held accountable.

@December_Capricorn

Ай бұрын

This reminds me of my mother. After years of living through her episodes, she decided almost 10 years ago to go completely off meds. I do believe that she enjoys being without responsibilities and also being able to do and say whatever she pleases no matter how horrible.

My older sister is schizophrenic but is able to maintain a home. Her diagnosis displays itself when she interacts with others in the community. This constant conflict with others is impossible to live with.

@kathleenmcbride1471

Жыл бұрын

So glad she can maintain her living space. Very fortunate and dare I say not the norm? At least not for us... Yes - the constant conflict and chaos is truly hell on earth. I keep pictures in my phone of all the destruction I had to clean up behind and all the death threat messages to remind me - when the tears and manipulations and blame games go on and on and on at certain points in the cycle - to stay strong and not to go back to that because it is useless to do so. And I am too old to do it any more.

@icebergrose8955

Жыл бұрын

My sister is the same. So hard to live with and she can turn on you instantly. She also thought the prime minister was reading her emails so.. love her dearly.

@shook198

Ай бұрын

Same here. Absolutely exhausting to live with someone like this but we try to be compassionate. Very hard though.

My mother has schizophrenia paranoia and she is the sweetest and kindest person I know, I can only count on one hand the amount of times she has gotten mad at me. It was difficult growing up when she would have episodes but I would just have to remind myself that it’s not her fault. ❤

@jajajajaja357

7 ай бұрын

My mother had schizophrenia paranoia which only became visible to me and my dad when she was 55. From that moment on life became a horrible hollywood movie. My mum was the sweetest kindest person on this planet and everybody she came in contact with knew she was special. I am a single child and my mum and I had a very very close relationship. With the illness becoming very bad very quick at the age of 62 she ended up living in a psychiatric ward for 20 years. In total those 25 years since the outbreak were stolen from her and were stolen from me. It is absolutely devastating. I never again managed to be serene or carefree with that situation going on during the last 25 years of my own life. She was still alive but so absent from the drugs and from the illness keeping her in pain. I was suffering and sad every day during these years. My mum died 6 days ago from the side effects of the drugs at 81. I am 54 and I feel deeply traumatised from all this ......though I know that I was still so lucky because we had very good times with no signs of illness untill I was 28.....so my childhood was not hurt by this......but the last 25 years of losing her while she still was alive were horribly painful. With her death all the pain for the lost years came back all at once. I feel devastated and it helps a lot to see videos like these. Thank you so much!!!!

Thank you for honoring your mom and telling her story 💜💜

That is a very sad story and had me in tears many times. Youve explained this really well and in a way that I can understand. I'm sorry you had a hard childhood and your dear Mum was like she was. She is at peace now and nothing can trouble her. That was very brave of you to tell us your story and I hope and pray life treats you well from now on. God Bless You xxx

Paranoia usually is part of the illness. I think it is the thing that makes it the most difficult part to deal with. You’re a very kind and caring person and a strong person too. Thanks for sharing your story ❤

I have a cousin who is diagnosed as paranoid schizophrenic, and I never quite understood what that meant. A lot of people confuse it with multiple personality disorder. Thank you for this insight!

Your mum would be very very proud. You are very brave 💕

I am going through this exact thing with my brothers girlfriend. And sadly reacted by pushing her away. Thank you for putting this disorder so eloquently into words. Love the end you are doing your mother proud.

I thought abt writing a long comment to tell you that this sounded so much like my own life. My mom tho rebutted help, she was diagnosed as bi-polar and she didn’t think she was nor did she think she needed help. She didn’t have psychosis, as in hearing ppl talking to her, she was also like the “black sheep” and shunned from the family. As a result of her being “difficult” I was also put into that category and shunned. She also passed from cancer at age 56. Here’s what I wanted to say that not only do we need to normalize acceptance for a mental illness, we need to learn and educate ourselves abt that illness. We need stop treating ppl WITH a Mental illness like they are just difficult, if they are truly making an effort ie: medications and therapy then they are trying to be better. My mom was however not trying to get help, she was “right” and everyone disrespected her. We need to make how treating ppl with mental illness can affect them. Bi-polar runs in my family, my brother has it, it was called manic depression back then, his daughter has it…neither of them admit it nor get treatment. That is the hard part. I have chronic depression and anxiety but I have seen three doctors and asked them to test me for bi-polar and I was told by all threee that I do not have it. I wanted to be sure I was on the correct meds. Accepting my mental illness, talking abt it, and also taking meds n going to counseling def helps but does not cure. I’ve had a close family member tell me that I use my mental illness as an excuse and same person thinks I am lazy. Besides mental illness I do have several ailments that I take meds for and go to PT for. Anywho I did end up writing a novel here, lol but I wanted to let you know how much I appreciate you sharing your story. And to also let ppl know we need to bring awareness to educate ourselves on said mental illness of a family member and then learn how to treat them because of said illness. You wouldn’t expect your family member or friend to walk on a broken leg, you would help them and do what is necessary to aid in them healing……just because you cannot “see” mental illness on the outside doesn’t mean you should treat them like they are a burden or a difficult person. We need to treat them with love n kindness and help them cope.

@kimalonzo3363

Жыл бұрын

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@hopeful6157

Жыл бұрын

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My dad was schizophrenic. I struggled with some mental illness for most of my life. You may think it's farfetched but there was alot of addiction, incest and occultism in my family. Alot of dealing in the paranormal and witchcraft. I believe all these things contributed to family mental illness. My cousins and siblings have it too. In my case, I gave my life to Jesus Christ. A relationship with Christ. The Lord healed me. No mlre mental health issues and now I'm an author on a book tour! Thank you for your story.

@Jendromeda

Жыл бұрын

many dysfunctional and either scizophrenic or autism related illnesses in my family, also bi-polar OCD and brain disorders and even brain tumor. After about the 12th or 13th case of something, I questioned whether occultism could be a key to figuring out a catalyst for all of it. Well, that and don't forget a predisposition involving genetics. Maybe a recipe for mental illness disasters. Approximately SEVENTY FIVE years ago, my grandmother said the same thing, thanks to my mother passing the story down. So, there you go....a matriarch questioning a possible occultism catalyst. Seventy five years later, more than 10 or 11 more cases since then. It has happened in all four generations now, with only one or two people left from the first generation, along with the illnesses, we have super longevity. :/

@danilaroche1156

Жыл бұрын

@@Jendromeda Your very bright. Glad to hear from you.

@theresaohman7187

Жыл бұрын

Congratulations, you made the way out of your situation. And for the book you wrote 🎉🎉🎉🎉

@danilaroche1156

Жыл бұрын

@@theresaohman7187 I really appreciate that. The Lord be with your spirit. Grace be with you.

@Jendromeda

Жыл бұрын

@@danilaroche1156 thank you. these are very hard things for people to deal with. Personally, i am "fed up" especially since my grandchild's diagnosis. It's all across the board, now actually on both sides of my family--so no particular family...it's both. However, my paternal grandmother did believe something evil was at the bottom of it over 75-80 years ago, my mother now 95 was able to relay the story. I think the climate of today's society is creating more of it. There has been a general movement away from GOD for many decades now. Most people in my family have abandoned the catholic faith.

Thank you so much for posting this. My mother struggles with this illness.

Family cannot get loved one help unless loved one agrees to it. The loved one affected does not believe that they have a mental illness

Thank you for opening up and being vulnerable Through us opening up and healing ourselves we heal our mother's and daughters and sons, we are healing our ancestry lineage. We all need to heal that sadness that guilt within of yesterday and the first step towards healing is talking about it. Powerfully done Love Dannu South Africa

@GenevieveClough

3 жыл бұрын

YES! 🙌 Love your insights... so very true. When we heal ourselves, we heal our whole ancestry lineage.

@nicolepilgrim3142

2 жыл бұрын

@@GenevieveClough this issue resonates with me deeply, they say it has to do with an unhealthy gut too or gut issues (lack of gut bacteria) when off the meds it’s bad hearing seeing things etc not bathing or sleeping etc but on them she is semi “normal” this is sad that she never got a diagnosis ..she gets injections and attends the psychiatric hospital as she refuses to take the tablets which causes a relapse, she cried for 3 yrs straight about different family issues but I agree with you she had trauma as a child she grew up with a raging alcoholic uncle and a semi present mother my grandmother

Amazing how I have been drawn to your channel. Now I know why. Just starting this video but I would like to say I am an only child, I grew up around my Aunty & my Uncle being Schizophrenic. I loved them both and they died tragically. My Mum was bi-polar and omg I loved her I finally really got close with her mainly in the last 3 & 1/2 months of her life. I looked after her from when she found out she had cancer in 2015. I lost my Dad in 2013. I am still grieving for them both. ❤❤

@kimalonzo3363

Жыл бұрын

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Oh dear one, God bless you. You are very brave to share this from your pain but also from love. And your mother was also very brave.

Thanks for sharing your story ❤️

My teenage son is schizophrenic and one thing I always bragged about my son, for years now, before the diagnosis, is that he is the person with the most passive, self-control I’ve even encountered in my life. He’s still the same despite his diagnosis. The negative stigma is real… Thanks for this video ❤

@johnnygrageda3055

9 ай бұрын

Hi I have a 34 year old son with symptoms of schizophrenia. He is not cooperating with me and wife to seek professional help. What can you please advise us with your own experience. Thank you very much.

@Ikr2025

2 ай бұрын

@@johnnygrageda3055 Look up the genetic mutation of mthfr and how methylated B vitamins and other supplements can help. You can search up methylated B vitamins and buy them online. Sometimes called ‘activated’.

Thank you for bringing more light on this.

Very touching !! Thank you for sharing. Sending you a big hug.

Thank you for sharing your story Genevieve, it was a very brave step from you to make! I'm so sorry for the loss of your Mum but I'm sure she is very proud of you 😇 telling her & your story about this mental disorder! Sending you love and positive energy! 💜

So sorry you had to go through that. My mother was/is unable to show love, something I needed as a child. Thank you for opening your soul and sharing your story. I wish you nothing but the best.

@GenevieveClough

3 жыл бұрын

I’m sorry you had to go through that, too, Michael. It’s not easy for a child to have an emotionally distant mother! But we heal and find our way 🙏

@mikehoo66

3 жыл бұрын

@@GenevieveClough That's so true! I never let anyone in my life feel that they are not loved. We are on a journey and we navigate that journey the best way we can. I just try to improve a little each day.

You video was amazing. Thank you for sharing that very personal part of your life. 💜Much respect.

Thank you for sharing your story, I really felt for you. I am so sorry, May your mother rest In peace.

Your story is so heart warming, you did a really great job of telling it. Thank you for spreading awareness and sharing your story. This makes you really brave. This had me in tears. Thank you once again for sharing!

Thank you for sharing a very touching story. Several of us have lived with a loved one with mental illness. You are not alone.

Thankyou for sharing with us. Really helps to understanding. Really sorry for your loss, you really loved her xx

You are so brave, and you didn’t break down in tears! I don’t know if I could do that. Thanks for sharing your story.

Thank you for sharing your story. My mom is a schizophrenic so I can relate in many ways. Sorry for your loss though

Genevieve, I can see there is a lot of thought, energy, and beauty put into this video. You did it so well!!!! Thank you Ruth

Thank you for sharing your mother’s story, and your story too. What a beautiful daughter you are, and what a blessing you are!!

Thank you for your courage to share your and your mom's story. It's a complicated journey. Hope the way mental health is being addressed can be seen into a different light with paths for healing

So beautiful! Thank you for sharing your life and your mamas life. I know she’s watching over you ❤️

Thank you 🙏 for sharing your heart touching story with us. My own uncle is having same issues as your mother, i can definitely understand how it feels.😢 You are so brave!

Thank you for sharing your story. I worked in an inpatient mental health care hospital for three years. There has been movement toward greater understanding of mental health in our society but we still have a long way to go. You and others finding the strength to share is what will continue the development of a culture of care, decrease fear and encourage greater health. Thank you!

Thank you so much for sharing your story and allowing yourself to be open. I suffer from depression and anxiety and even as accepted those are getting productive help is difficult I'd imagine it was so much more difficult for your Mom. 🤗

Thank you for sharing and for your willingness to be open about such an important topic. I really felt your heart, and you told it with such grace , eloquence and empathy. Probably strengths that come from the lessons you have learned through your experience. I imagine these are all helpful traits in your life's work! ❤

Dear Genevieve, I am watching you because of Randonautica. And now such a video. 2018 I had psychosis and the doctor diagnosed schizophrenia ( i don't know if that was correct) But I took medicine since then and I am alright. Yes, there is a stigma. People don't understand that's a brain disease. We get too much dopamine. But that is a disease like other diseases and should be so treated. It is sad that your mum didn't get the medicine earlier. Thank you for that video and especially the words at the end. I cried...Love:)

What a incredible story and what an example of why we need better mental health care for everyone! Your story (and mom's story) is important!! Thank you for sharing!

Your story is heart touching. Thank you for sharing. Your compassion and insight will no doubt touch so many people. Keep telling your Mom's and your story.

I know this is a fairly old video! But I Love that your spreading awareness! Mental health can be a scary thing! Thanks for sharing your lovely story! ❤❤

Thank you for posting this, mental health awareness, is much better than when I was growing up, but stil too many affected by this. I can relate to so many of these comments too, thank you all!

I am sorry for your lost :( I feel you and thanks for sharing

Thank you for this informative and compassionate video/description of your mother. You did well; it couldn’t have been easy for you. God bless you.

Thank you for taking the time to tell your story. It helps. I've dealt with it for so long in my family just exactly the things you were talking about. I'm sorry for what you went through as a child but I have to say you turned out extremely well. God bless you child:-)

thank you for sharing your story. this undoubtedly will help many people

Seriously you have turned out to be such a fun and wonderful smart lady. You have learned so much and seemed you had to grow up a bit fast to deal with this untreated disease. You have a good head on your shoulders and are so great. I’ll send you coffee ☕️ when I get a card to put it on. Don’t stop your adventure app for sure. Much love to a very sweet person in my book 📖 ✅😁🥰🪴🪴

Thank you for sharing. It is one of the most stigmatised mental health disorders. Bless you ❤

@Genevieve Thank you for sharing this wonderful life lesson. I've never heard this before. This message is so important for everyone to hear. I've never looked at life that way before. You're such a wonderful person. Thank you for this video 💞🌹

Thank you Genevieve for sharing with your story. This was a beautiful and moving that you honored your mum. Stay strong and happy

Thank you so much! You sound just like me! Glad you are breaking down the stigma! I do it all the time. I have for years! Beautiful story xoxox ❤

My schizophrenic mother also got different with me at around puberty. She lived with my dad. We lived at as a family of 4, my dad, mom, brother and just me. She had support from the father, but told my brother that my dad was in the navy for 9 years and abandoned us. My brother told me this was a problem, but I didn't see it as such. He had 4 years before me with my mom. (I have to go for now. I will come back to this.) There are things that we have in common, but clearly things we don't. Thank you fir sharing your story. Cleatly some of the reasons your common sense tells you to blame are not at all what really burdened her, my mom either. My God. Im so sorry. I will try to be back here.

@adimeter

4 күн бұрын

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Genevieve, thank you for sharing. So sensitive and honest was your discourse. It’s amazing how you have prevailed over the difficulty in dealing with what was an abnormal parenting situation. I know that despite your mom’s difficulties, you came to the point of understanding that we need to love them (anyone for that matter) enough to help them find treatment and extend as much dignity toward them as we can. We don’t have to like certain situations, but they teach us to persist in dignity and kindness regardless. You are quite a remarkable person for having experienced this and prevailed to where you are in life and understanding. I felt that I wanted to sit across from you and just cry together while holding your hands. It felt like some lost opportunities between you and your mom. But, ultimately, her soul is free now - to be free of whatever brain dysfunction is inherent in the disease. I don’t think she had much choice while alive as to the progression of the disease, in a way similar to certain patients with dementia. But, I believe in the soul, and it is freed from these kinds of malfunctioning at death. Surely, she will in the afterlife appreciate the attempts at kindness and patience you extended toward her and in your relationship. We have to understand and embrace diversity and inclusion in this world of people. Each person will do the best that they can under their circumstances. It can be hard. As I said, you are remarkable for coming through this. I wish you much love and continued healing as you forgive where needed. Heaven is where we all are God’s own children. ❤️

Genevieve, you have such a beautiful soul and you have addressed so many questions of mine. I too took a very long time to realize and understand my mothers mental health issues as well as my own. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. So sorry for your loss.

You are a very brave lady to open up to people about your life growing up with a schizophrenic mother. Your video was very informative and I'm so happy that were able to understand your mom's condition.

Thank you for sharing your mom’s story. I truly feel badly for her. It’s so hard to hear that people ostracized her for the illness. If her life path were reversed and she first suffered from cancer, she may have received more support, love and understanding from those around her. Hopefully your moms story will make people stop and think about how we “treat” people living with mental illnesses. This would include providing medical intervention and treating their issues with as much respect and love as those living with cancer. May your mom rest peacefully, and if she ever sees that guy in heaven, she needs to tell him what a pain in the ass he was in this lifetime.

Wow! What a wonderful daughter she left behind. I'm sorry for your loss, I can only imagine how both your lives must have been. Thank you for bringing light to this illness. The part you mentioned, about the patient not being able to get help for themselves, is because they don't think there's a problem. Very important point. It's so important to be aware.

Such a powerful video. Thanks for sharing your mom’s story ❤️

@GenevieveClough

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you, Jen! 🥲

This video caught my attention because by two best friends who lived across the street had a mother who suffered with schizophrenia. When we were younger, she was the fun Mom on the block and we always like to play at her house. She did have an agoraphobia problem, so we went to the store for her and did a lot of things that we considered fun at the time. As years went by, she started saying a few odd things like "there are little green men in the backyard" and we would howl with laughter thinking she was kidding. I remember her looking at us as we looked outside to see if there were green men and realize now she really did see them, thought she might be losing it, and would feel better if we saw them, too. Of course, we didn't. Like the mother in this video, she thought all of her relatives had problems or didn't like her or weren't nice, etc. When her oldest daughter and I went off to college, she got really bad. She had a drinking problem, too, which doctors later said was her trying to self-medicate herself. One night, she took a knife to all of the paintings in the house- most of which she had painted herself. She began locking her younger daughter in the house and not allowing her to go to high school in the morning due to fear something would happen to her. The daughter had to call the high school and tell them that her mother would not let her out of the house. She also called her grandfather who lived nearby and he would come right over. Finally, with her mother refusing to go to a doctor to seek help, she and her grandfather went themselves to explain what was happening. It was decided that her mother had become a danger and she was removed to the hospital by hospital personnel and the police. It was very sad. The rest of her life was more back and forth through better days and bad days until she also died of cancer like the woman in this video. I like to remember her as the fun Mom who was always happy to welcome us kids into her home.

Thank you for your bravery in sharing your story. Your story shows the love u have for your Mom. You honored her and her story. You are a good and loving daughter. She would be proud of you. ❤️

My brother is 27 & was diagnosed with Schizophrenia due to heavy drug use & past trauma of my our dad's passing back in 2011. This vid touched home for me.

@GenevieveClough

3 жыл бұрын

Wow! So glad to help you know you’re not alone 🙏🤍

@trippyghostHG

3 жыл бұрын

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@truthshallsetufree1295

2 жыл бұрын

So sorry for ur dad n bro but its true drugs causes mental illness it sad i myself was a normal person i was very outgoing i was very social i loved being around people i will always be at family gathering and after smoking weed 3 times a week i had bad highs every time and i got anxiety depression psychosis derealization permanently and thats the symptoms i got when i was high and now i am a introvert i cant go to family gatherings i cant go anywhere because of my mental illness i am very weird my family all says im crazy and now i am alone 24/7 its very sad but i cant stress this enough but drugs are very bad even mary j

Than you for sharing your and your Mom’s story. I hope it was therapeutic for you. Your description of the dysfunctional cycle of persecutory delusions hits home for me personally, and is a self-fulfilling prophecy for those who experience it. Thank God mental health is being brought out of the shadows/closet, and your video is a valuable tool that I plan to share with all my friends and family. I’m sure your mother is very proud of you for loving her enough to try to understand her, and reaching out to help other’s with the same dynamic with their own loved ones. Great Job, and God Bless You.

Thank you for sharing your story it took a lot of courage for you to do that. I’m sorry for your loss❤️ Abundant Blessings to you.🙏

@GenevieveClough

3 жыл бұрын

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This is phenomenal. Thank you for your information.❤

Hi You are so sweet lady and well educated. Brave to talk about your mom’s illness. You speak loudly and clearly.lovely!!!

Sorry for the loss of your mum I lost mine 7 years ago and it's like yesterday every day be proud of your mum and her story of life 💕💞💕

@GenevieveClough

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you! 🤍

You seem like such good human. Sending love ♥️🙏🏽

Thank you for sharing this amazing story! This reminded me so very much of a relative who we always branded as eccentric and paranoid. She passed away many years ago, but this sounds so very much like her life towards the end of her life. Your compassion and hindsight is heartfelt and I'm sorry for your difficult life but appreciate your empathy for your Mom in spite of the struggle it had to be for you throughout your life.

Thank you for sharing the story of your mother's schizophrenia. You are very brave, and you are helping many people by sharing this!! Medication in the old days was much more hit-and-miss, but nowadays, it is miraculously effective.

So sorry about your loss. You are a very intelligent and strong woman. Please don’t feel bad about showing your emotions. God be with you!!

Thank you for sharing. I have a nephew that is suffering this as well. Thankfully he was diagnosed and being medically treated. We can't begin to understand what their world is like. God bless you