i wish i had a time machine to help this dude growing up

@SoftWhiteUnderbelly

4 жыл бұрын

DIGs We do...for the next generation.

@Rolo-Tony

4 жыл бұрын

Kids still going through this...

@adamcoleman6541

4 жыл бұрын

@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly oh are you videos gonna stop drug addicts from having kids? Better yet, drug addicts from selling their bodies? or drug addicts from getting raped?

@zackmoore3456

4 жыл бұрын

@@adamcoleman6541 wtf is that supposed to mean. Its awareness dumbass and that in itself will help the next generations cause of the young people who are interested in the shit compared to people who need to grow up in it to servive the world is fucked up and you cant blame one person for it but one person can make a diffrence about it, these guys have crazy story's and fucked up lives lots of people doo and that's what hes getting out there alot are still alive surprisingly and alot have turned around or matured but you grow up a sertan way most people follow that path few brake it but more and more are cause of things like this cause a person's message today can reach 100x farther then it did in the past

@adamcoleman6541

4 жыл бұрын

Zack Moore with your thinking, you’d fault the 95 percent of people that never make it out of those situations as failures. That’s what bothers me. By showing these videos to 13 year old boys, if they don’t immediately want to go to Harvard, it’s their fault. It bothers me that you all believe a bunch of KZread videos is all that these kids need to escape.

He's so traumatized he can't even cry real tears anymore.

@JimA-pp2nu

4 жыл бұрын

oh shut up

@breezetix

4 жыл бұрын

@@JimA-pp2nu mad?

@ukdrillvsusdrill7587

4 жыл бұрын

@@breezetix Yu do heroin tho

@breezetix

4 жыл бұрын

@@ukdrillvsusdrill7587 lol, i've never done heroin and never will. i'm fucking afraid of needles and of overdoses. I only smoked weed.

@ThaKidd1006

4 жыл бұрын

Hes just off of drugs

This man's sorrow is so deep. Every time he says "I don't like me" My heart breaks a little

@shanicedavenport1366

4 жыл бұрын

So sad

@Nantosuelta

4 жыл бұрын

its very sad, you can hear the pain in his voice

@thegob1in

4 жыл бұрын

@Beyond Midnight that is a load of horseshit.

@Realizinq

4 жыл бұрын

this is what happens when u abuse drugs that make u happy ( E pills ,Molly ,Crystal ) now what happened to him as a child was very sad but that part is due to drug abuse, hes chemically imbalanced , hes pumped too much dopamine to his brain, now he cant be happy without those drugs

@drake7439

4 жыл бұрын

158

His daughter waited for him before she left the world

when i clicked on this i didn’t expect this interview to go like this. i pray he gets better.

@d.biancaklinglesmith6932

4 жыл бұрын

I second that emotion.

@taikey80

3 жыл бұрын

Love sent bro

@toenonaaqubo8771

3 жыл бұрын

Took the words right out of my mouth and mind. This was deep!!

@hshshdjdhdhdhdjd7828

3 жыл бұрын

Why? Cause you thought he'd be just a hoodlum or something? Ignorant ass.

@Kumorini

2 жыл бұрын

@@hshshdjdhdhdhdjd7828 Ignorant? So you expected him to go onto this video with smiles and good vibes and shit? You're the ignorant one here

“I don’t think I like being sober, because I’ll have to deal with me.” Wow. Many aren’t tough enough to confess this.

@nickgavis0305

4 жыл бұрын

For real. It’s true though I been through a lot of shit as a child and as and adult and the only way I could deal with the trauma was by getting high. I couldn’t cope with everything that happened in a healthy way, I would just rather get high and be numb.

@mytimebytony2315

4 жыл бұрын

nickgavis0305 I hella feel you brother. Stay strong. Just remember, you went through sh*t, you are not sh*t. You feel me. ✌🏾and ❤️.

4 жыл бұрын

I can relate

@mytimebytony2315

4 жыл бұрын

Jesse W I’ve been there. Hang in there. ✌🏾you got this.

@aliascortez1084

4 жыл бұрын

@@mytimebytony2315 my bad I took your commit the wrong way

Lord forgive me if I’m ever ungrateful

@VPDJTrump

4 жыл бұрын

It is easy to do. Thank you for helping me to remember.

@elbat5946

4 жыл бұрын

Adrian Derrett - amen

@socially_ambidextrous8004

4 жыл бұрын

Adrian Derrett 🙏🏾

@basbapappa5004

4 жыл бұрын

Why let the lord this happen

@basegodtybg8880

4 жыл бұрын

Stop looking to the “lord” for your meaningless lives.

When he talked about his 'twin bond' with his sister and discovered her being raped.. my heart nearly fell out. So sad :-( Adults that sexually abuse children are demonic.

@sourdiesel681

4 жыл бұрын

No more like it's a Demonic spirit being passed around because more than often the people doing the raping or molesting were once victims of the same act. It's like a disease being passed around from generation to generation.

@RO2.0

4 жыл бұрын

Sour Diesel🍀 You are so right. Smh

@suavomcbravo679

3 жыл бұрын

Literal subspecies

@DS-ig6hl

2 жыл бұрын

The pain is so severe. I work with juvenile offenders and while they do horrific things, I give them unconditional love/acceptance. I know that I cannot fathom what they have witnessed or been through. I still believe they need to pay for their crimes but they still deserve unconditional acceptance along the way.

Im a grown ass man. And this dude had me in tears. No wonder he's an addict. I think we all would be if we went thru what he has gone thru. So terribly sad. Wish there was something I could do to help him

@Kobe29261

2 жыл бұрын

You and me both brother. I'm Christian but some days I don't even care if there's some other hell beyond this one; takes all I have to forgive God for just one 'Country', it wouldn't be right if an entire village had to bear the burden he's born. May the sun rise for him tomorrow

@chrislangowski4438

2 жыл бұрын

Same here

@jwel9828

2 жыл бұрын

I get the point your trying to make but honestly... no, we would not "all be addicts" just like him. Most would go insane or take their own life after going through the things this man has... his strength is leagues above your 'average joe'

@SparkWater

Жыл бұрын

Bro same here , how some people can be so evil

Yeah I mean look, can you really blame his mom for stabbing that guy for what essentially amounts to sexual abuse of a child? At least she had the balls to do what many of us would say we'd do but never do.

@R700Sparkles

4 жыл бұрын

@michael x she was a drug addict, although she must be held accountable she was probably around those scumbags for a source of cash.

@katiewashington7338

4 жыл бұрын

But we can blame her for almost selling his sister we can blame her for bringing all these dumb motherfukers around her children we can blame her yes we can and I am

@yungsorrow5896

4 жыл бұрын

mosipd one of my homeboys mommas was locked up for stabbing a nigga turns out she schizophrenic she calls it her gift

@msfredachanel

4 жыл бұрын

michael x you should tell the interviewee his mother is at fault...see how that goes over!

@MrzGodivaCouture

4 жыл бұрын

mosipd she had the guts but at what cost? Look at him. You can’t do things in the moment. You gotta think

"She left." Sad as hell. This man is a product of his shitty environment. He's smart and has a huge heart. Unfortunately, he's playing the hand he was dealt...

@RoseRamis718

4 жыл бұрын

All facts I felt that when I red it

@biilsmith9659

4 жыл бұрын

That's all we can do

@Spoonwranglerz

3 жыл бұрын

Notice the theme in all of these videos: born into a shit childhood with a single mother. People want to talk about “white privilege” the only privilege is being born into a loving family. Black, white, whatever. It’s having a loving family that makes a difference. BLM want to dissolve the “nuclear family” and it makes no sense.

@jlindsay

3 жыл бұрын

Finding the Finders kzread.info/dash/bejne/eJaa05hmdbnUj9I.html ?fgh3

@palao9997

3 жыл бұрын

Empathy come in many forms. He has my heart and I pray for his healing and freedom from his broken heart and mental prison.

I feel so sad for this guy. You can just hear in his voice that he’s torn and hurting. I pray to God he finds hope...even after all he’s gone through.

@Unc1ecee

4 жыл бұрын

That hope is God...pray for him @Jasmine

@juniorloaf12

4 жыл бұрын

Oh spare me the platitudes. There is no God, this dude's life illustrates that

@dedrickdodge452

4 жыл бұрын

You can hear and feel the pain through the entire interview

@Mrpachuko13

4 жыл бұрын

Instead of praying for him, which is hopeless, why wouldn't you want to do something instead. Like track him down. Take him into your home. Take him to work with you. Teach the man to fish. Prayers are just words. Like being compassion. Take action. Do something about. Stop praying people!! People need help not prayers!

@biilsmith9659

4 жыл бұрын

Yes I feel his pain

I'm 6 minutes into this and I'm having to emotionally prepare myself to hear the rest. What some people have to endure is just heart breaking.

Childhood trauma inflicted by adults (be it phsical, mental or sexual) clearly results in episodic PTSD in adulthood - this is something that should be researched more - just tragic

@izzysmomtattoos8274

4 жыл бұрын

Oh absolutely. I agree.

@johnnybankston9340

4 жыл бұрын

Bullshit

@johnnybankston9340

4 жыл бұрын

This is not PTSD

@valenciavasquez8021

4 жыл бұрын

@@johnnybankston9340 What is it then?

@mississippiBull

4 жыл бұрын

They do research and study people that suffer through what we have been through. Paul Mooney talks about it on one of his stand ups.

These interviews really changed me as a person. I respect life more now

@SirSmizzi

4 жыл бұрын

Y I was thinking the same thing

@athoughttothinkabout6072

3 жыл бұрын

me too

@jlindsay

3 жыл бұрын

Finding the Finders kzread.info/dash/bejne/eJaa05hmdbnUj9I.html ?fgh3

The way he holds his tears in... please release that!

@kenziemich

3 жыл бұрын

Yasss that will kill you. Some men have the misconception that crying means weakness...and that's not the case. God is able!

@Jaden-bp6kh

3 жыл бұрын

@@kenziemich it’s sad but most older men still believe that they shouldn’t cry because it isn’t many or makes you less of a man.

@corneisharatcliffe8053

3 жыл бұрын

He don't know how, it's a sign of weakness he thinks he he let's go in reality it's the strongest thing one can do is cry.

@scrillscrill1099

3 жыл бұрын

I feel that he has endured so much ,that he is " all cried out." There are many stages to grief and I think he is at a stage where the tears just " won't" fall.

Now I got a knot in my throat 😭😭 no one deserves a life like this man I pray for complete healing & restoration for this strong man

Don’t ever judge a person with a whole different struggle than you. You have no right.

@ItsOttis

4 жыл бұрын

@Joepie De poepie ?

@cslantz4020

4 жыл бұрын

@Joepie De poepie jumping to conclusions. very typical for somebody who has a lot of hidden insecurities on the topic being discussed. no reason hiding it and being an asshole, and i'm not gonna tell you to go fuck yourself either. move on or get help

@nik-at-nite

4 жыл бұрын

Joepie De poepie so why do you watch the videos then? The point of the channel is that there’s more than what meets the eye. And you come on here just to condemn them.

@dominiquejenkins5495

4 жыл бұрын

Say that

@dominiquejenkins5495

4 жыл бұрын

@@cslantz4020 that part

This is one of the realest and most sincere pain an individual has revealed in the interviews ive watched so far. Reminder for the spoiled folks who think their life is bad. This man has rarely had a fair moment in his life.

Man the story about his youngest dauhter is so deep. This channel is incredible. Gives a voice to those who think they have never had one or the opportunity to speak. This man has been through some wild shit. Insanely rough childhood, lost two seperate children and probably so much more.

If you read this big bro, dont hate yourself. I see a soldier with a heart of gold.. you have a lot to give. Keep strong. Proud of you..

@kikihuntley9897

4 жыл бұрын

Brock Nichols that’s 💯💯💯💯💯

@thetyleraugust

4 жыл бұрын

you da man for writing this. Agreed 1000%

@GrabinGears

4 жыл бұрын

💯💯💯

@Raphsophomes

4 жыл бұрын

Stop.

@GrabinGears

4 жыл бұрын

@Mr Tea 82 loser

There is so much pain in this interview. He seems so genuinely broken. Losing both is daughters so tragically 😢 I just wanna hug this man. I hope he knows he can honor his daughters by celebrating life and making it his mission to be a better man, clean & sober

@zannib6

4 жыл бұрын

Kita B heart wrenching 🤗

@MkG-ce8ul

4 жыл бұрын

🥰🥰

@davidadams2395

4 жыл бұрын

First, he has to love himself. Self-hatred runs deep.

@gritgold8330

4 жыл бұрын

@@davidadams2395 that's hard to do when you have a shitty upbringing like his even though he isnt at fault a young mans mind can be mysterious

@kadenater123

4 жыл бұрын

@@davidadams2395 its hard to get over self hate if you cant affect the situation/things that make you hate yourself

This is why single mothers need to be careful about who they date & let around their kids.

@GirlyGirlMsp

4 жыл бұрын

ben yosep someone obviously has mommy issues lmfao

@Lostinmyhead23

4 жыл бұрын

Maybe deadbeat dads need to start taking responsibility for who they create

@jada7300

4 жыл бұрын

chiefs816kc maybe, just maybe men should keep their hands to themselves...

@killplayz1000

4 жыл бұрын

@ben yosep lmfao 💀 sounds like a "single mother" broke your heart and left you bitter ASF!!! Hahahaha

@strangefruit8776

3 жыл бұрын

@@killplayz1000 are you seriously against what he said?

He’s so broken... my heart yearns for him. He’s in my prayers I want nothing but peace and healing for him 🥺

this is the most powerful interview yet. should start a gofundme to get him off skid row

@mosethegreat7415

4 жыл бұрын

jinxie clark real talk

@brienwilson249

4 жыл бұрын

Amen

@goochmcduck4285

4 жыл бұрын

How do we do this??? I’m so serious!??

@LanaBandsTopic

4 жыл бұрын

I agree whole heartedly

@yessssiiirrr

4 жыл бұрын

Did he say he lived on skid row? And he can make his own money he doesn’t have a problem doin such he’s a soldier he knows his way. What he does need is positivity and some mental health and addiction services to deal with all the trauma

You can really feel his emotions when he pauses momentarily to flash backs of his childhood.

@sharondiane227

4 жыл бұрын

Right..Like there was so much more that happened that he didn't even divulge.

The thing that caught my attention more than anything in this video was his ability to say “losing my daughters is my fault”. That takes a hell of a man.

The emptiness in this mans voice is heart shattering.... I totally understand why he gets high. But I wonder if he ever thought about what a testimony he could be? Him telling his story to ppl that’s not even been thru what he has but knowing the road they’re own could lead them to that might would help them stop too.... Idk, I just don’t know what else to say. I want to help this man some how. I also want a follow up video he needs to know there’s ppl out here that wants to listen to him and help him. There’s power in prayer and I will be doing that for sure.

"I ain't got no light at the end of my tunnel.... And I don't Care..." Damn

@blackbutterfly9925

4 жыл бұрын

😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢

@LostCause36

4 жыл бұрын

There is with Jesus. Shame that he’s never been around people to properly introduce him to the Saviour.

@lilkingspade

4 жыл бұрын

@@LostCause36 whatever you say space-man, yeshua ben hoseph is who i believe you are referring to. jesus is a fictitious name for a mythological demi-god. who was crucified on a pagan symbol for the sun, on a day where the sun set at its lowest point of the year, remained dead during the spring equinox and was resurrected the very morning the sun began its new cycle and started rising each morning. he had 12 disciples around him, just like the sun has 12 months before earth does a full rotation around it. son/sun the sun of god is the morning star, the bringer of light, the sun/son of god that is worshiped, is Lucifer, the morning star, (the only star seen in daytime), gods most beautiful angel , ''the sun of god who was cast out of heaven for thinking he was the center of the universe.'' all which was written by men who believed the sun rotated the earth, and not the other way around. like it or not, you're following pagan based religion. don't believe me? research how your bible was entirely sanctioned by the roman emperor Constantine and the council of nicea. where they chose what was allowed in the bible and what was taken out (some of which is now known as the dead sea scrolls). which is important because Constantine at the time was a devout pagan and did not believe in god, jesus, or anything he was allowing in the book, and waited till his death bed to be ''baptized'' so his sanction would not be in conjecture with the vatican. he purposefully took out any mentioning of yeshua from age 13-30, because in that time, he was married and had children. his wife was too important in certain situations to be discarded from the story entirely, so she was called a prostitute instead. he died at age 33, mason number, god is called the great architect, come on man. you worship the newest pagan idol, thats why you eat his flesh and drink his blood for communion, thats a pagan ritual, just like eating the heart of what you hunt.- you worship the son/sun of god, Lucifer. = now, i am sorry to talk shit on your beliefs, but i feel that you commented because of my username, and i feel that you were talking shit on my beliefs bu the way you did it. and you did it in an uppity, holier than thou type of way so i look like an asshole if i say anything negative. by design, i can't call it forsure, but thats what it is. if you would have said god instead of jesus, i would have agreed with you and left it at that. make sure you go watch the sonrise this morning

@gostpurp

4 жыл бұрын

Everett Ika i read it and it makes absolutely sense. Lol ur mad ur god doesnt exist

@lilkingspade

4 жыл бұрын

@Everett Ika whats sad is your closed-narrow minded, blind obedience and inability to understand your supposed opposition. everything i said has evidence to back it up, well, everything except the supernatural portion, but still.

This has taught me that Sometimes I can be so judgemental. Hearing his story gave me true understanding of why some people do drugs and live life styles such as his. Goes to show, you never know what a person has been through in life. I feel so bad for this man.💔💔

@ozreality

4 жыл бұрын

It's crazy you say that... the whole country America where I grew up is so fucked up we all became the judges the jury and executioner !! Yeah there are bad fucked up people out there no doubt but nowadays it's like everyone sits behind their phone or whatever and judges everyone over anything... crazy tho this man sheds light on how someone gets to where they are... and his road ain't a road I'd ever want my girl to walk ever. I pray for people who go thru the fire and change try to be better and dont give up ! Peace to all

@Lulumelon333

4 жыл бұрын

I work in Social Services and am on the Human Trafficking Response Team...I have yet to meet a victim that was NOT sexually abused as a child. Facts

@sandy_she3469

4 жыл бұрын

LuLu Pryce Damn

@yellowblanka6058

4 жыл бұрын

There's usually an underlying trauma/issue that is the root cause of addiction. If we ever want to win the war on drugs, we need better access to mental health services so more people can have a healthy outlet/some support and won't feel the need to turn to a vice to dull the pain.

@michaelschneider9305

4 жыл бұрын

Hi nice too meet you beautiful

Hey boss hope this gets to you somehow, I sat here watching this relating to parts of your story, I am of Mexican descent & I am very proud of my ethnicity & want to say not all Latinos are Mexican. I sincerely feel for what you have gone and currently going through I felt the need to tell you that although life put you through tough times you're a king and it's not too late to change, everyday every morning we have on this earth is a new opportunity. I want to finish this by saying you got 2 very special Angel's watching over you who protect you I love you man keep that chin up og

This is sad. This is probably the first time he's every talked about this to anyone.

Being a twin ain’t no joke. I always know when something is going on with my brother even when we’re not physically together. A different type of bond foreal

@dontbelongherefromanotherp9807

4 жыл бұрын

Identical twins share similar genetics, and that's why they feel connected. They are basically the same person with different bodies

@thegamechanger1203

4 жыл бұрын

@@dontbelongherefromanotherp9807 no theyre not

@shannonjohnson4314

4 жыл бұрын

I believe it my siblings are boy/girl twins and I grew up experiencing them feel each other’s pain

@SeniorFellow74.5

4 жыл бұрын

How do you know exactly I’m sure it’s a subtle feeling or something but I’ve always been curious and never really heard a satisfying explanation

@lamBETTERthanY0U

4 жыл бұрын

Don't Belong Here, From Another Planet Not at all

Country we love you man. You have been through a lot I wish I could take your pain. Your a smart man, and have so much potential. God loves you and always will.

My black brother, you may feel that you don’t like you but I LOVE YOU! You are the world and the entire universe. I commend you because you still have air in your lungs, your heart is beating. You have such a great purpose. And that is to live. To live and tell your story but please know, your story is not your destination. You are beautiful, you are strong. You are WORTHY! You are enough. You are the definition of greatness. Please stand up and take your rightful place my brother. Your place is not to take life, it is to give life and to live life and to BE LIFE. YOU ARE LIFE! God bless you, anything that ever made you feel unlike life, was always dead. You ARE LIFE 👌🏽👌🏽💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽

He took care of his daughter while living in a hotel with a drug addiction. Wow his will to survive is relentless, he has more potential than he realizes, just too high to see it.

@sourdiesel681

4 жыл бұрын

Yeah he's Relentless ✊🏾

@CockLobster

4 жыл бұрын

Too high? Nah on a deeper level he's extremely depressed because of his abusive childhood so he's in perpetual survival mode to defend his mind from painful memories and satisfy other addictions like gangbanging, his own words. Getting high isn't the chief cause of unrealized potential in his case is what I'm saying.

@jlindsay

3 жыл бұрын

Finding the Finders kzread.info/dash/bejne/eJaa05hmdbnUj9I.html ?fgh3

@DS-ig6hl

2 жыл бұрын

@@CockLobster I agree with you. He is so messed up that the drugs are just the icing on the cake. His trauma is indescribable.

It always amazes me how children can break the hardest of people. This guy's story digs deeper than normal.

You’re not ugly. You’re beautiful 🖤❤️💚

@gregorychatman5316

4 жыл бұрын

Thanks God for you ✳️ forever sister ✡️ ♑✳️ ✳️ for uplifting the brother God bless you Lord Almighty is with you

@ernestocalderon3453

4 жыл бұрын

Shara Harry don’t patronise the man

@8213apice

4 жыл бұрын

Gregory Chatman I love all my brothers. We need to love each other. We got enough problems.

@8213apice

4 жыл бұрын

Ernesto Calderon I see my Comment about black love got deleted? Hmmm? How funny 😂 just proves my point. I love all my BLACK KINGS. Loving your people is not patronizing.. it’s called self love and If you don’t like it keep it moving...

@gregorychatman5316

4 жыл бұрын

Thanks God bless you ✳️ brother forever always May God Almighty God bless you ✳️ forever sister ✡️♑⚕️✳️ forever for uplifting the brothers Amen 😇✡️✳️✳️✳️ Thanks

This shattered my heart. Nobody should ever go through that, especially a child. The pain in this man's eyes makes me tear up.

See this is why addicts are addicts people think you choose to do this well people usually why we choose to is bc TERRIBLE TERRIBLE things happen to us & the only thing to make us feel nothing is drugs or alcohol...if you choose to give birth remember you are that child’s protector you are that child’s example ...& if you can’t get yourself together give that child to someone who will love them protect them !

@sourdiesel681

4 жыл бұрын

Alcohol is a drug, one of the most lethal at that

@biilsmith9659

4 жыл бұрын

I sorry for your losd

@biilsmith9659

4 жыл бұрын

Loss

@jlindsay

3 жыл бұрын

Finding the Finders kzread.info/dash/bejne/eJaa05hmdbnUj9I.html ?fgh3

This is the most amount of humanity I've ever seen on the internet. Thank you.

@danielmata2824

4 жыл бұрын

‼️😟

@AntonioRodriguez-wo6kk

3 жыл бұрын

For real 💯💯

Country... You'll probably never read this but... your story is one of the heaviest things I've ever heard. After all you've been through, and you still say it makes you smile to see your friends smile, and living for other people makes you happy... this story has changed me. I love you man. Forgive yourself. You're so much better than you realize...

@robbrown1352

3 жыл бұрын

Ong I dropped a tear

These stories seem to always be heartbreaking, but this one was another level of soul wrenching and I’m at a loss for words. 💔

@jessicahandelman1993

2 жыл бұрын

same here. i had to watch it split in days and i can take sad, dark tales, but this--its just a punch to the soul and gut wrenching

@DS-ig6hl

2 жыл бұрын

I agree. This poor baby.

@alvarojneto

Жыл бұрын

How do you turn to God, if your second child, whom you are proud of, is randomly killed by a distracted driver?

Bruh, This dude here reminds me of some friends I had growing up, 3 of them particularly all brothers, came to my house with cigarette burns all over them at 3 AM once, my dad went to their dad (they lived alone with him at the time) and I just remember going with my mom to bail him out and seeing his dad sitting there in processing when they opened the doors and his face swollen up and bloody and my mom busted through the door and started screaming at the guy that burned his kids and told him they arent going back and they are staying with us now. For 8 years my parents took care of them and to this day they are all still my little brothers and I love them dearly, the most loyal down for whatever guys I know. My parents were both preachers, we didnt have much but we offered a lot of love back then before everything went crazy and we had a tight knit loving family that most people were jealous and ashamed not to have. We had little- we lived poor its amazing what having a father in the house can change, married couples have it hard enough keeping up with everything happening around them single parents got no chance at all. Man I feel for this dude I really wish I could have been there to help him and try to make him see that life isn't about rage or anger- its about living to the fullest and respecting yourself enough to own up to what you owe yourself - That is pursuing your dream and instead of being surrounded by yes men (like gangsters who will tell you anything to flip you into their gang as a young person to form and mold you how they want) instead finding people who are willing to say "no bruh thats a horrible idea" people who encourage you, lift you up. It gets better in time, don't live jaded if you see this comment please don't let a mind as good as yours be stuck in the hamster wheel I can tell you're better than that dont get caught up in that loop anymore. Take control of that shit and make it yours man. God bless and I hope things get better.

@hellbabyy

4 жыл бұрын

Nobody cares man. Just shut the fuck up

@kylctio

4 жыл бұрын

Hellbaby I tried not to laugh- but I did AHAHAH

@lilkingspade

4 жыл бұрын

even i wanna tell your parents thank you.. damn..

@Chynna98

4 жыл бұрын

Shut up. White men like you stay coming into spaces making things about yourself and your perspective of life. White privilege man...

@thedisconnect5769

4 жыл бұрын

Do you have any idea how ignorant you sound? "My white privilege kills my ability to make a solid point?" I spoke truth and it offended you and the best you can pop off with is "white privilege man" like an insult? You don't even know my heritage at all. Ironically I have no Anglo blood at all but hey if you want to use basic insults I guess I can go with "Simple minded crotch pheasant with no good opinions of her own whom can't think for herself." Yeah I like that one , simple enough for a laymen to understand and long enough for only someone intelligent with the ability of forethought to get. Fantastic. Cheers.

Coming from a mexican, you my brother man. We in this shit together homie. I don't care bout no hood politics or anything man, we brothers.

@charlieboy501

4 жыл бұрын

I'm a Blackman coming from Oakland it use to be a time we're we all we're tight with each other black and brown wish we all understood each other

@silvercreekflyfishing

4 жыл бұрын

@@charlieboy501 yeah man, if only. We're all brothers

@8BallBroadway

4 жыл бұрын

I hear back in the 80s that the Mexicans and blacks who shared hoods or lived close by would actually kick it when they weren't at war with their their enemies

@matthewalex5104

4 жыл бұрын

@@8BallBroadway True Story

@8BallBroadway

4 жыл бұрын

@@matthewalex5104 thanx for verifying I heard it in an interview Kev Mac videos a OG named Lil Doc Thone from ECC said it in one of his interviews....

STAY STRONG BROTHER.

He broke my heart...wish I could give him a hug and make him understand that he DOES have value.

Am not a native english speaker, but I understand enough to feel so damn sorry for you. NOBODY deserve this. NOBODY 😔

Man. This was a powerful interview. I'm sitting here...emotionally drained.

Can y’all imagine how strong this man is to keep in his tears like that 💯💯

@_RobBanks

4 жыл бұрын

Jrock 317 crying don’t make y weak

@tspks2128

4 жыл бұрын

He has probably cried every tear that he has. So terribly sad

@ras4782

4 жыл бұрын

Right ik my big ass couldn't listen to this

@SeniorFellow74.5

4 жыл бұрын

Crying feels good you need to let it flow, it’s actually kinda scary when you get sad but the tears won’t come out anymore the consolation is over it’s just time to nut up and do what needs to be done

@biilsmith9659

4 жыл бұрын

@@_RobBanks amen

my favourite of interviews so far, this dude is genuine and delivers his story in such a heartdelt way. Best of wishes to you my man, i hope you rest easy

When he starts talking about his sister you can watch him tense up. Nobody should have to go through these things

Probably the MOST touching of all the videos I’ve seen. I can truly feel his pain..no one should have to feel the pain of losing a child

@yellowblanka6058

4 жыл бұрын

Yeah, I can fully understand why this guy became a gang member unlike some of the others where they kind of play off their felonies etc. as the "good old days" etc. and never really show much contrition.

He seems like a good dude for the most part. He was trying to take care of his kids. To lose two kids and everything from childhood its overwhelming. He shouldn't beat himself up. I think he should like himself more. He didn't kill his kids both circumstances were out of his control. Tragic story..I was hoping the end result didn't have to end that way. Country your handsome just so you know, articulate and caring. Your a decent guy in my book.

@gravityisreal.8170

4 жыл бұрын

I agree.

@jaybigshake

4 жыл бұрын

Totally agree, but I didn’t get who shot his daughter

@marcellburton9349

4 жыл бұрын

His daughter getting shot hurt me

@jaybigshake

4 жыл бұрын

M Ciddy that’s what I’m trying to find out

@donkingisafatbiotch

4 жыл бұрын

sadly i believe he is implying that his gang life was the reason his daughter got shot

I just love this channel so much it really gives us a chance to see inside the minds of different walks of life. I can’t imagine the things these people have experienced. These stories definitely make me look at people differently and never jump to judgement.

He may not like himself but I LOVE HIM ❤️

There is a special place in Hell for the dirtbags who abuse children, like the ones who hurt this man when he (and his sister) were little.

@kuro7146

4 жыл бұрын

we already live in hell.

@Norwalquero

4 жыл бұрын

Ethan Derrick No. In Hell, there is no hope. No goodness. No redemption. HERE, on earth, there still is.

@kuro7146

4 жыл бұрын

@@Norwalquero doesnt mean we dont live in hell. our definitions must be different. praisethedevil2k20

@Norwalquero

4 жыл бұрын

Ethan Derrick Yes, I was referring to ‘Hell’ in the theological sense, (I.e. traditional Judeo-Christian theological), rather than a metaphorical word to convey the notion of life being hard and unjust. “Praise the devil”?! Uhm....yeah ok.

@holymoses78

4 жыл бұрын

But I don’t understand what happened with the rubber band???

We live in a Cold Cold Cold world boy. Smh wow that story hit me.

@Avgslaveworker

4 жыл бұрын

cOLD cOLD cOLD

Hearing this man talk about his daughter man breaks my heart. My son jus turned 2 years old and I couldn’t even imagine a thing happening to him. Much love to this man I pray he gets better.

All this man wanted was to be the father he never had for his daughters. This is as real as it gets . thankyou for your story country 💪😎.

He couldn’t even cry... my heart hurts hearing his story I just wanna hug him 😢😔

I swear I will never take my life for granted. Watching your stories makes me realize how extremely blessed I am and the problems I face with my family are so incredibly small compared to others. 😞🥺❤️🙏🏾

I come back to this interview periodically to listen to him again and again. Please do an update on him soon. I want the best for him in life he’s been through so much😔and no matter how life hardened him because of all the shit he went through, you can still feel how huge his heart is..

Jeez, it's like the universe refuses to give this guy a break. I hope that one day he can find help and some peace. What a shame to have to go through all that he went through, from a child till now. From the bottom of my heart, May God Bless You Country!

PTSD Is a soul destroyer. It seeks you everyday and reminds you everyday that your peace is only for a moment. You can't sleep, can't eat and your thoughts just repeat itself every second it gets. It literally fills like your mind is destroying you. May God have mercy on us.

This page makes me a lot nicer to EVERYONE! Keep this page alive. It’s healthy

Mark thank you for giving this people a voice! I really didn't expect this to be soooo heavy. Kids shouldn't go through this. 😢 Love from South Africa 🇿🇦

I'm very jaded to the hard life, but this brought me to tears. If he finds himself in northern ca I would extend my resources to him to have a place to live and get him in that suit and tie.

@robertbailey2570

4 жыл бұрын

Im hurting listening to This

seems like a decent man to me, can tell he's genuine, unlike some of them. Feel bad for him, with a back story like that how the hell is anyone ever going to get up over it? Some people really are, through life circumstance, just set up to fail. Sorry about your daughter man, that's hard.

@softshoedancer

4 жыл бұрын

oh shit I carried on watching. Dude lost his other daughter as well. Speechless

@janeokeeffe5297

4 жыл бұрын

I agree with you it's very sad and he seems like a good person

@Leandatastic

4 жыл бұрын

Mark Rice same here - no words for his suffering 🧚🏻‍♂️

@davidadams2395

4 жыл бұрын

His gangbangin' notwithstanding, Country does seem like a decent guy.

@lizapowell3993

4 жыл бұрын

Wish i could help. Most geniune real guy

Listening to Country's story brung me to tears and I'm a 52 year old man. Everyone has a story and if you don't know what a person has been through don't be so quick to point the finger.

I appreciate his honesty. I do not blame him. I’d use too. I pray he can find a meaning in life one that can bring him closer to his family on earth until he’s reunited with them.

This is absolutely the worst story I’ve ever heard and I’m a corrections officer. 😔

@johnboy2437

4 жыл бұрын

I was a correctional officer but I had to quit. The inmates was cool but the CO are dangerous 😂😂😂 frfr lol

@joewatts4839

4 жыл бұрын

I bet you still treat him like a subhuman if he was in one of your cages

@goldenzdancer4444

4 жыл бұрын

This story is alot of people's story. They might just have slight variations. Its so sad.

@ZenMonkeyGod

4 жыл бұрын

@@joewatts4839 The types of COs that would do that aren't the same kind who would come on to KZread and leave a comment like this. Have some respect.

@jrpenjoe21

4 жыл бұрын

You’re a pussy

His poor daughter ... this gang life is such a multi faceted horror story

Wow! That emotion was so real, so raw, i could literally feel it pulling at my heart. Amazing!

Beautiful channel, thank you for documenting these lives.

This man has a heart full of REAL SORROW! When u don’t have parents and then adults abusing you, is it a wonder these people turn out like this. What are children to do? They raising themselves!

I just want to give him a hug 🥺nobody deserves to be alone

@CrAzyAsSiLeNt

4 жыл бұрын

Me too .. but I wonder if he'd accept a hug from a Mexican ? 😔

He takes a Break when he's about to cry, when he does that it breaks my heart! He has been through so much, he can't cry, I just wish I could hug him!!! This man needs peace!!!!!

thank you for sharing! all the shit you been through, youre an amazing person, and I hope you get what you deserve, peace of mind and love.

Literally speechless. My heart hurt watching him share his story. He is a survivor. These good people go through so much tragedy. There’s no time to recover with blow after blow. I know he’s doing his very best. I hope he heals. Your story is unbelievable. You deserve a little peace and a lot of love.

Ahhh man the ending broke my heart... “I don’t have a light at the end of my tunnel” 😢😔😣😔😣😔😢😢

This channel does some amazing work. Thank you.

I am grateful for anyone involved in putting these interviews together. Everyone has a story. I have a year clean from heroin and all other mind altering drugs. I used drugs and alcohol to numb out from the traumatic events that have happened to me or things I've done. We live in a society that is disconnected from anything spiritual. That connection is everything. Whatever path that leads you to that source. That source being love, compassion, forgiveness of others and of ones self. PTSD is a plague in itself and I hope more people are able to talk about it and establish that human connection.

Country you’re not ugly! Truly you’re a beautiful man who needs to know how truly beautiful and loved you are .

This has got to be the saddest person you’ve interviewed! Where is his twin

@bitchnigga6334

4 жыл бұрын

Dora Wilson fuck you he ain't sad, he a victim of the streets bitch

@donkingisafatbiotch

4 жыл бұрын

@@bitchnigga6334 he cried multiple times you fucking idiot

@anthonymelchor689

4 жыл бұрын

@@bitchnigga6334 wishing you weren't a victim will make you cry.

@foreverforward1806

4 жыл бұрын

bitch nigga bitch nigga

@foreverforward1806

4 жыл бұрын

Ray Mone 😂😭 hommie set him self up

😢 This interview broke my heart. I’m looking at a grown man but I can’t help but see the hurt child in him. God help him in his journey, he should go on the road and be an advisor to parents.

I felt this...I haven't been through no where near what he has but my twin brother and I went through some stuff. I don't know you but I got love for you. I pray that your heart finds healing and your soul is renewed. Thank you for being transparent ❤

I will echo what everyone is saying. This is a man with a good nature and a good, kind, compassionate heart. One day, I hope he will be rewarded for that. He did more than his best but some of us are born under a bad sign....we have to go through it

@weeannie495

4 жыл бұрын

Damien Dolomite I really like him. If his mother and father done there job. He would have been an assume son to be proud of.

@damiendolomite6492

4 жыл бұрын

@@weeannie495 yes he is the kind of friend one would want to have.

@weeannie495

4 жыл бұрын

Damien Dolomite Definitely. I would love more friends like him. Everyone is so self centred these days

God bless him - how much can one person take ? Such torment and self hatred - so so sad 😞

@Leandatastic

4 жыл бұрын

Jack Mehoff and the same to you sir 😊

@kirstiekat3

4 жыл бұрын

Jack Mehoff troll go away

@Softwhiteunderbelly it's wonderful you give these folks an opportunity to tell their stories. Do you know how often your interviewees see their interviews (and comments)? This guy has such warm and loving energy. I hope he's alright.

one of the toughest stories ive seen so far from this page. I feel so bad for this man.

Good lord. Life is unfair. I would live to give him a genuine, kind hug. And hot meal.

Hey bro, I’m really sorry for your life story, I sympathize with you 💯 I know you don’t like Mexicans, but we not all like that. Keep your head up and your faith in our god. Love.

@shthbd

4 жыл бұрын

This shit is real

@evilasspimp1532

4 жыл бұрын

✊🏽❤️💯

@davidadams2395

4 жыл бұрын

I think he saw that with the Mexican woman who helped him at the hospital.

@gustotrankin7383

4 жыл бұрын

@@davidadams2395 that lady was an asshole to him

@deexonedeexone9773

4 жыл бұрын

She helped him but you wouldn’t know cause you didn’t pay attention

This is by far the strongest & best interview yet man!

this is so powerful! this has made me motivated to always be a good person to people.

@aermax7321

4 жыл бұрын

.. DO UNTO OTHERS 👥

He’s carrying so much pain and hurt. He looks crippled with hopelessness. All he wanted to do was look after his sister Life’s so difficult now. We all must count our blessings. He’s such a nice sole.

What he said about his friends was deep. This guy has a good heart didnt deserve this life

Damn. I have tears in my eyes from this man life story. I hope and pray this man finds himself and finds genuine happiness in the world. Hearing him talking about his sister....respect for him, dawg. Really praying for you brother 🤙🏽

I’ve never been able to watch these interviews all the way through this is the first one I’ve watched all the way through and man I’m really emotional right now he’s been through so much he lost both his daughters man💔 but I’m going to pray for this man!

I definitely appreciate how the interviewer doesn't interrupt the interviewee!! He just lets them get it out👏