COOL FACT: the first line "I'm turning out the lights, to remember how to see"... inspired him to have all the musicians memorize the music, and they recorded this song in complete darkness.

@m.k.mcgill

4 жыл бұрын

That’s such a four thing wow

@sophiaredwood5825

4 жыл бұрын

Ethan Averton Oh my goodness, that’s crazy! I never knew that... as a Four, that makes me so happy...

@ohifonlyx33

4 жыл бұрын

This is why I love Ryan's artistry so much.

@thearlgrey

4 жыл бұрын

I made this 666 likes! Hope ya don't get bad luck 😝

@aubreymarquardt1818

4 жыл бұрын

Thar literally made my day. That’s so beautiful

“What if we already are what we’ve been dying to become.” Man this hit me hard. I think of myself as not good enough most of the time, but what if I’m already there? Fellow fours?

@CriVal4

4 жыл бұрын

Sydney Kurtyak I think we need someone to constantly mentor/remind us, I usually decline any "hey, are you okay?" Because I don't feel okay when sharing so when someone ask me if I'm okay, I'll ask if she/he is and later on I feel better, oblivion is still there though

@LoretOmgLoretOmg

4 жыл бұрын

That’s the line that hit me the most. It’s absolutely amazing how we and other people can feel indentified with just one phrase.

@marianoduarte0670

4 жыл бұрын

I mean, that shit was DEEP. It also hit home lol

@samanthatsuki4086

4 жыл бұрын

That line touches me - it's like I want to believe it so badly but I'm terrified of it not being the truth and realizing later that even when I thought I was who I've been dying to become, I never actually was. But at the same time, it's one of those things that I thing is true and you just have to take it on faith because it's the heart of the sentiment that matters, not the measurability of it.

@arturo9187

4 жыл бұрын

You are already there.

As a four we often feel we are impossible to be understood. We don’t really want to be understood. But this makes me feel safe, like I belong, like someone gets it, like I’m not alone.

@nivya4679

4 жыл бұрын

🌺

@kylamaclin5630

4 жыл бұрын

But I want to be understood

@emmawang2224

4 жыл бұрын

THANK YOU

@0skele272

4 жыл бұрын

Wow, someone really put it into words 💕

@glanderfire

4 жыл бұрын

You understand!

He could sing a menu to me and it’d still make me weep

@kumaraappadoo4719

5 жыл бұрын

You are very emotional...

@wanderingsoul3378

5 жыл бұрын

@@kumaraappadoo4719 would that be a bad thing?

@kumaraappadoo4719

5 жыл бұрын

@@wanderingsoul3378 it's a good thing I am also very emotional.

@kumaraappadoo4719

5 жыл бұрын

@Herval Cossi perfect comment

@sciencehacker7541

5 жыл бұрын

Lol

“Maybe my heart needs to break to be sure” I symbolized someone giving themselves up and dying for others, I am crying

@tiffanymarie8013

5 жыл бұрын

Kate Magic! Same

@3angel826

4 жыл бұрын

Nezuko Kamado Thats the line that got me

@dl2310

2 жыл бұрын

My personal Savior, Jesus Christ did this.

@annyeonggomenasai5564

2 жыл бұрын

@@dl2310 surprised to see this comment. He's my and everyone's Saviour too. God bless you!

@emilygrace3526

Жыл бұрын

That’s the strongest type of love, friend. Jesus did that for you. ♥️

*“This blurred photograph is proof”* Points to us feeling like we don’t have much of an identity, like we don’t quite know ourselves and we’re forever searching for our missing piece to fill a void that is easily widened by feeling like we’re not good enough and comparing ourselves to others...

@hehno4226

4 жыл бұрын

Wtf this is hitting me hard

@gabrielamaran3106

3 жыл бұрын

THANK YOU, I WAS TRYING TO UNDERSTAND. I thought it was something related to our childhood, how everything was so simple and easy and we were happy just because, but while growing up what we had disappeared and we stayed just with a "blurred photograph" of it, just a memory that we don't really understand anymore. .... But yours make more sense lol Thank you again. ❤️❤️

@aroura2000

3 жыл бұрын

This is so fucking accurate!!!!!!!

@aliibilli

2 жыл бұрын

brb gonna cry

@anushreeacharya6405

2 жыл бұрын

Beautifully put! The missing piece is within and not outside my dear sweet Individualists 🤍

Being a four is lonely, even if I have friends, I still wish there someone out there who could truly understand me.

@babyxie1555

4 жыл бұрын

I feel you :")

@triz9420

4 жыл бұрын

@@babyxie1555 fellow fours unite :'')

@angelodelacruz589

3 жыл бұрын

same

@graceshussy

3 жыл бұрын

Shit. Same.

@rebeccashefchek4431

3 жыл бұрын

I hear you, Triz.

Are there any fours here on the enneagram?? I am. Just laying here crying, haha...

@mirella2113

5 жыл бұрын

I cried too, though i don't know why...

@toxiwrites

5 жыл бұрын

4w3 here and yep crying

@karan.kk.h

5 жыл бұрын

Aly Anderson 4w3 as well crying as well

@meremcm2135

5 жыл бұрын

Me

@adacompton1443

5 жыл бұрын

Every song from him makes me ball. It’s just so beautiful we cry.

All the comments are so depressing, but this song is pointing out the strengths of type Fours. How we search for and find beauty in things, the way we find deeper layers and meanings in life; we bring a perspective to this world that it needs. The world may not always notice you but that's because you are quietly making it better in your own way. Just a little positivity :)

@JCKID99

3 жыл бұрын

I just finished crying and this comment made me start crying again. Thanks. (Seriously though, thank you.)

@mingan3781

3 жыл бұрын

No clue what these numbers stand for or what the point is but I really relate to almost all they're songs. Especially this one and eight. They are so good.

@MaybeLily1234

3 жыл бұрын

I agree with you, and positivity is great to exercise. Adding on to this though, I'd like to think its kind of beautiful that we all relate to each other in this melancholic, raw, emotional way even if its not all sunshine and rainbows.

@maligator8708

2 жыл бұрын

@@mingan3781 base on enneagram test results! My results the times I took the test were four and nine.

@shanicefaith8264

2 жыл бұрын

@@mingan3781 same this one and 8

A line that hit me deep and hard is, “I’ve fallen in love with a ghost” to me, means this: we are imaginative, therefore dreamers; falling in love with a ghost is like creating expectations and beauty in someone that is not truly there. Or, creating the perfect companion that most definitely could not even exist. We cling to someone transparent, flickering in the shadows, too perfect to take into our possession. It’s honestly a very hard, and depressing truth for us/me to understand fully. Fellow fours, agree? Opinions?

@hyesui9902

5 жыл бұрын

agreed! this is really beautiful

@kumaraappadoo4719

5 жыл бұрын

I agree with you...

@ljxyz2429

5 жыл бұрын

I love those words, the overflowing feelings, the sincerity and the sadness. I wonder why i love sad things.

@sarahpatella

5 жыл бұрын

to me is God

@berg_

5 жыл бұрын

it be like that sometimes

As a four, i feel identificated with most of the comments here. It's like having a lot of friends that feel exactly like you. This feels like a hug that says: youre not alone

@malinkteegan2906

3 жыл бұрын

I totally relate! In real life I often feel like I don't belong. Like I'm different to everyone and that I just can't fit in. I've really been craving for this feeling of belonging and acceptance and then I discovered the enneagram types and this song, and these comments just make me feel like I'm finally understood.

@radiantsvn

3 жыл бұрын

🖤

@eskaywai

3 жыл бұрын

yeah 🥺

@psaag111

14 күн бұрын

Oh my 💜

INFP and Type 4 I feel like I’m constantly contradicting myself. Wanting attention but feeling ashamed when I get it. Living a life of achievements but feeling as though none of them matter. I want to let out my emotions but am afraid of being dramatic and over emotional. I hide my emotions until something sends them flooding out. I call myself names, say that I’m not good enough, blame everything on myself. I feel as though I have so much responsibility for my life that others mistakes are the results of my wrongdoing. It’s a daily cycle of keeping things to myself before letting them all out, then beating myself up for doing so. It’s hard. Really hard. Song didn’t make me cry, but made me think about myself and what an unhealthy mindset I’ve had for such a long time. Maybe if I stopped comparing myself to others and hating myself for not being the best, it could stop

@Americanamae

3 жыл бұрын

Wow!! I relate to this so so much! I feel as if I were reading my own thoughts!! I also bottle up my feelings and only let them out when I have so much anxiety and pent up emotion that I can’t hold it back anymore. I also didn’t cry hearing this song for the first time, but if you catch me in one of those emotional explosion moods (which no one catches me in because I make sure that I’m alone so no one feels responsible for my tears and sadness), I will cry and feel so deeply about any and every song I hear! *Also an INFP personality type!

@thistleevergreen3267

3 жыл бұрын

woah this hit hard !! (I'm also an INFP and type 4)

@dianawong1663

3 жыл бұрын

Another INFP and type 4 here. feeling you!

@annatittonis1700

3 жыл бұрын

I'm pretty sure that we are like the same person 😳

@larie27

3 жыл бұрын

Same, i am a INFP and type 9 with a wings in 4

For those who dont get what the numbers are for, here's the list for each numbers info: One means the reformer Two means the helper Three means the achiever Four means the individualist Five means the investigator Six means the loyalist Seven means the enthusiast Eight means the challenger Nine means the peacemaker 😀😀😀

@neostorgaardmadsen5736

5 жыл бұрын

Where do you take the test?

@alexandriariley5209

5 жыл бұрын

Nine is the peacemaker, AKA the ideal type Two, AKA the Helper without all the messy need for attachments or the ugliness of grasping for control when you're down

@bjark2943

5 жыл бұрын

THANK YOU SO MUCH oh my god this makes so much more sense now

@gdottothegamer1001

5 жыл бұрын

@@neostorgaardmadsen5736 you can search it on Internet

@gdottothegamer1001

5 жыл бұрын

Im 9 with 8 as wing.

My lovely type four, You are the exception to all the rules and perhaps even you cannot understand what is inside of your heart. You are pasionate, sensitive, significant and overly dramatic. You are a drama queen that a few people get to understand. You are a unique soul in search of meaning and significance in your life. You are pure emotion even though sometimes it is so hard to describe yourself. You still lose yourself and your sense of identity every now and then but that is totally OK. You push people you love away in order to see if they come back. Maybe deep down in your heart you think you deserve to be alone. The thing is, there will always be someone that keeps coming back because you are so worth it. You want real things and yet you are abstraction. You are art, you are poetry, metaphors and you are definitely a song worth singing. Sometimes you are the only reason you are in pain. You can isolate yourself from the others but deep down I know you just defend yourself behind those big walls of yours. You are so sensitive, my friend. You want someone to read you like an open book, and when you find that person you make sure that relationship is valued. You are deep and special, even loving person. It is time you get closer to the real you. Maybe listen to yourself more often, start understanding who you are and accept yourself with compasion. Find gratitude for both the joy and sorrow, find beauty in ordinary. This fear of not being known, of not knowing your significance has to stop. You are known for who you are and you are really amazing. Sincerely yours, type two friend

@kitoburrito8163

3 жыл бұрын

you have left me speechless with how accurate these tests are omg

@eugenej1202

3 жыл бұрын

I am in tears. Thank you for this

@YusMemo

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you i cry........................................................

@verenavlcn

3 жыл бұрын

Hi, you made me cry but thank you so much for this

@wadeclarkson6464

3 жыл бұрын

The fact that this was written by someone that isn't a type four is what make me cry the most. Thanks, pal.

me: balling my eyes out bc i’m a four and I finally feel like someone understands me the outback ad that played at the end of the video: *steak*

@meganbird1251

5 жыл бұрын

Peaches and Cream hey, so I did the enneagram test, it said I was a 4,6,9 I don’t know what this means? Please can you tell me?

@aileenrojas6858

4 жыл бұрын

Megan Bird OH YM GOD THISE WERE MY TOP 3 YOURE LYING

@meganbird1251

4 жыл бұрын

aileen rojas I’m so confused with all of this bhaha

@aileenrojas6858

4 жыл бұрын

Megan Bird i think it’s your personality type, and this song makes u relate and gives u the feeling of just crying

@meganbird1251

4 жыл бұрын

aileen rojas ahhh gottt ittt, ty. I’ll go see if these make me cry now haha

Falling in love with a ghost means a lot to me. It means a lot of different things but mainly for us fours I think it shows how we have the romanticized idealized version of ourselves. A perfection, a uniqueness, a beauty, a certain thing we constantly try to achieve, but it’s not real. We fall in love with these concepts that can’t give us anything. We fall in love with the idea of being something that’s unattainable. We fall in love with a version of ourselves we either want to be or even think deep down we are. A version we feel nobody else can see. But It’s hard to come to terms with reality sometimes

@kyliesmith7519

5 жыл бұрын

And I think that ties in so perfectly to the we are already someone we want to become. We are in love with this idea of ourselves that’s going to constantly change, but what if we already are what we once longed for? It hard to see yourself, and as fours we are the most reflective group. But it’s still hard to step back and see how we’ve changed. It’s so easy to what something. To always want to become something or be something or be different. Maybe just you is enough

@ohmymy6951

5 жыл бұрын

@@kyliesmith7519 extremely well spoken

@Mariana-pm8fj

3 жыл бұрын

i love u.

@natkhu

3 жыл бұрын

Didn't say you could call me out like that. Lol

@rebeccashefchek4431

3 жыл бұрын

sounds fitting for a four

“I’m stuck swimming in shadows down here” for me this means: I always feel as if nobody is like me, nobody understands me or really cares to. As if I am swimming alone amongst shadows (everyone else).

@reaganvoetberg5741

4 жыл бұрын

I see it as I'll never be good enough. I'm always in someone else's shadow, striving for something unobtainable.

@peradabanbaruindonesia1546

4 жыл бұрын

Yes. Totally agree. But im a 4 and two... So i can mask every feelings and build others... And after all of that, i can just wondering why am I so miserable

@vulixirus

4 жыл бұрын

@@peradabanbaruindonesia1546 almost tied for four and two too, but slightly higher percentage in four. I get that so deeply. I'm a pleaser, i want to help, to give gifts, to make people laugh, to listen to their problems. and yet i still always feel like an outsider, i don't think i've ever had a proper friend group that i was integral to. i don't think anyone has ever cared about me as much as i've loved them, and it's kinda shitty and egotistical to say but i can't help it. :/

@peradabanbaruindonesia1546

4 жыл бұрын

@@vulixirus damn... Im sorry that you feel like that... I understand that some part of us just want everything to be okay... But Years and years giving ourselves to others... Doesn't make the alienated gets better...

@juul27

4 жыл бұрын

yeah it´s honestly the same for me, as you and to the person you replied to I am also a two and a four and what you said has been a problem of mine for a while now., it´s nice to know that I´m not the only one that thinks of this sort of matter.

"I can't help but think that ordinary has swallowed the key" "Maybe my heart needs too break to be sure" "This blurry photograph is proof of I'm not sure but it seems like truth" "Determined to find authenticity" "What if we already are what we've been dying to become" These lyrics hit hard and brought me to tears

@kenzosrevenge8451

4 жыл бұрын

Panic! at My Existence this is the line that got me too

as a four, yes i cried. and it was strange because the metaphors were mysterious, yet i understood them.

@lilsis2589

2 жыл бұрын

Ik, I understood right away what was being said and didnt realize how abstract it was until i showed smn else. They were confused and when I tried to explain I couldn't (Ik ur comment 2 yrs ago but i wanted to say smth:>)

*“bodies fashioned out of dirt and dust. for a moment we get to be glorious”* this one stuck. it’s like every time you think you’ve found yourself, you get a high from it. you tell yourself that you found the person you’ve been desperately searching for this whole time, but maybe you’ve built it to make yourself feel better about who you are. you can never be quite sure, because before you can analyze it, everything blows away like dust on wind. it leaves you empty until you find “yourself” again.

When I was a young girl I struggled with synthesia... For those that don’t know, synthesia is the association of all things even though they may not be related. For example, the number 4 to me is associated with the color of a light brown and is like the sunrise after a night storm. 4 to my mind is also the number that has felt so much pain but doesn’t let it show. No one knows that I have this, but now you all know a piece of my mind. -a number 4

@meganpitt

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing that part of you with us Elizabeth

@madeleine4266

4 жыл бұрын

I don't know if I had this but I gave personalities to numbers and colors to the days of the week when I was little. For me number 4 was the boyfriend of number 2 (she was pink) and number 3 wanted to get in the middle, she wanted 4 to herself. I always remember this. Same with colors, Pink and Light blue were partners, but Purple was so in love with Pink that I shipped them, even if their love was impossible.

@pinnipedwithhumanqualities5276

4 жыл бұрын

Hey! I also have synesthesia! I don't really struggle with, I just think it's cool. Letters, sounds, tastes and numbers register as colours in my brain. Four is light bluish-grey to me!

@aisekrem3216

4 жыл бұрын

I did not know this was a thing omg. Turns out it's not just a stupid thing I came up with and is something I can actually relate to?? Wow... Btw, 4 is a dark green to me, and I ship light blue with pink, too!

@noeem7960

4 жыл бұрын

My 4 is the same color !!!

*what if we already are, who we've been dying to become?* What if we're already the person we needed and want the most? We're just blinded by the thoughts that loves comes from other person rather than love comes right within ourselves? That acceptance comes from us first. Belongingness starts with us first. And most importantly, happiness is us and the others are just part of the happiness but WE are the one who complete it.

@aleenabeana7189

4 жыл бұрын

Thankyou for saying this ❤️ I’m in tears

@lorizielambuyat2122

4 жыл бұрын

@@aleenabeana7189 hi~ you are always welcome. I know all of us have a lot of things to ponder and every night we always question our existence and our purpose in life. But always remember that we will never be here if we can't do this and if we can't make it. Life is surely tough but that's what makes us human. I hope you are doing okay!!💙💙

@aleenabeana7189

4 жыл бұрын

Loriz Ambuyat your words are utterly beautiful, and you just told me exactly what I needed to hear. I struggle with finding happiness in myself so I search for it in others. It’s our jobs to be enough for ourselves. tysm for your kind words ❤️.

@lorizielambuyat2122

4 жыл бұрын

@@aleenabeana7189 it surely takes time and a ton of pain for us to realize that happiness starts within us. As long as we are alive, let's never get tired of looking for ourselves💖💖💖💖 Please take care, lovelots!

@cruzdaoust8632

4 жыл бұрын

I just started crying so hard reading this, like my whole entire life story has been about trying to find 'who I am' and never being satisfied

"maybe we already are who we've been dying to become, in a certain light I can plainly see, a reflection of magnificence hidden in you, maybe even in me" this lyric hit so close to home for me

*maybe I'm hiding behind metaphor*

@adacompton1443

5 жыл бұрын

Tereza Radová love that line

@simranpadhy9232

5 жыл бұрын

Maybe my heart needs to break to be sure ❤

@m.k.mcgill

5 жыл бұрын

Meta four

@sweetangellie

5 жыл бұрын

Tereza Radová maybe my heart needs to break to be sure

@rawovunlapin8201

4 жыл бұрын

@@m.k.mcgill nice

"flashlight in hand determined to find authenticity only poetry can try to describe" this hits home because i use poetry to describe my feelings when normal sentences can't

@venuscastrovia5024

3 жыл бұрын

Yes I do the same when I'm and in a confused state of longing or sadness. When I simply cannot describe my situation. Too often I listen to music and write poetry pages and pages of it to describe the deep intertwined meaning as I dig for what I'm feeling. Yet I can never fully describe the impact and the depth going on in my mind. Like a deep ocean endless, beautiful, dangerous, light and dark. I'm so thankful I get to listen to the song it describes this beautifully I love all of you. We truly are special. We are the four.

@hannahculp1158

3 жыл бұрын

Same

@laur7662

3 жыл бұрын

Same

@radiantsvn

3 жыл бұрын

@@venuscastrovia5024 I want to hug every single 4 in the world for minutes and in silence. Hopefully, when this pandemic ends.

@venuscastrovia5024

3 жыл бұрын

@@radiantsvn thank you I will virtually hug you back.🤗😘

I think I’m super emotionally drained already because I’m a 4 and I can’t really get emotional to this song right now

@kasendoel3353

4 жыл бұрын

Me too. Like I feel it but nothing happens

@awkally5429

4 жыл бұрын

Yep its relatable and true but it didnt hit me or make me sad.

@user-mr1ln1ko8n

4 жыл бұрын

I’ll have just let my tears out so I can’t cry

@BreBrevlogss

3 жыл бұрын

Sameee

@EmilyGomez-qt6hf

3 жыл бұрын

I just felt calm...like the other songs make me feel emotional (2 terrifies me) but this one my soul just sat still

I cant even begin to explain how brilliant this song is. Each part of it is a thesis on a 4. I'm a 4w5 and this song is my soul.

@Elizabeth-yf1dp

5 жыл бұрын

I’m 4w5 as well

@Tylr3

4 жыл бұрын

Me too :)

@saturn_sonne8167

4 жыл бұрын

me too!!

@jessicataylor8529

4 жыл бұрын

4w5 gang gang

@haroonahmedalvi9619

4 жыл бұрын

Hey my 4w5 gang. Did you know the 4W5 is bridge between the heart and brain. The feeling center and the thinking center. There is no line connection line between the 4 and 5 in the enneagram diagram. That kind of explains why we are so torn between what the heart wants and what the brain thinks makes sense. We value the heart and brain so much but these two always seem to be at war. That is the story of 4W5

As a four my days are filled with the person I idolize in my head. A me with no flaws, millions of talents that I can’t call my own yet, with people who adore me for being different. This song shows the inner loneliness that individualists struggle with when they divulge too much in their fantasy and less with real life.

the visual of being in the ocean and seemingly like you're drowning but somehow your head is still above water is giving me so many emotions that i can't even explain. as a four, it's like choosing to be in the middle of the ocean and struggling trying to keep breathing but somehow it's fine because here no one will be able to judge you and you can freely be yourself. it's sad, but that's kind of how i feel. sending all my love to the fours out there. it sucks being stuck between being a 4 and a 2.

@jessicajoerndt428

Жыл бұрын

Same! That’s so crazy how one visualization could make us feel exactly how it feels to be a four. You’re watching the waves go by up high above you, and you are just keeping your head above water, consistently, trying to figure out how to get higher… even when you think you’re drowning, your somehow not. But you’re just not where you want to be.

I find it difficult to fall asleep most nights and even though most of your songs sound sort of melancholic, they always help me fall asleep. it's comforting. thank you

@adacompton1443

5 жыл бұрын

Alex Otaku I listen to him for sleep or just to get in my feels or a good cry (:

@vwhatever8151

5 жыл бұрын

I guess they're called Sleeping At Last for a reason, huh? ❤️

@melaniebayadog7651

5 жыл бұрын

Same here.. i was having trouble sleeping one night until i came across their song "two"

How could someone be so Talented, he has the ability to Convey the feeling of Sadness, Happiness & Nostalgia all at once at the same time which hits you deep in the heart that you can't just help but cry, it feels like I'm being understood, the words I can't say, the heavy pain in my chest is being lifted & conveyed so effortlessly and beautifully through his Music...pls never stop creating such great Melody, listening to your music is one of the only thing that keeps me going in life

@sofiadiaz8800

5 жыл бұрын

ExoL BTS Gfriend I feel exactly like that, the feeling his music makes me feel it's so raw I can't even put it into words. SIMPLY AMAZING

I’m Hiding behind a metaphor- I try to use my words to hide what I’m feeling with blunt responses because I feel no one understands me at all

@hermionesings

Ай бұрын

I always talk in metaphors so people can understand me better

I'm turning out the lights To remember how to see Until a renaissance takes place And resuscitates the color of paint and divinity As if God hid the building blocks Of every beautiful thing In this game of hide and seek I can't help but think that ordinary has swallowed the key Bodies fashioned out of dirt and dust For a moment we get to be glorious Ice sculptures adorned in light Sand castles built tall in between the tides Maybe I'm hiding behind metaphor Maybe my heart needs to break to be sure One day I'll wear it all on my sleeve The insignificant with the sacred unique But I've fallen in love with a ghost And I lost my balance when I needed it most This blurry photograph is proof Of what I'm not sure but it feels like truth I'm stuck swimming in shadows down here It's been forever since I came up for air Flashlight in hand determined to find Authenticity only poetry could even begin to try to describe Bodies fashioned out of dirt and dust For a moment we get to be glorious Get to be glorious Get to be glorious What if we already are Who we've been dying to become In certain light I can plainly see A reflection of magnificence Hidden in you Maybe even in me

@Raven_Black_252

2 жыл бұрын

This isn't a song, this is a poem made into a song. Just read it in verses! Two by two, they all rhyme.

@pumpkinoligarchy6626

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you

There’s so many good lines in this song that struck me in the heart as a four. “I’m turning out the lights, to remember how to see.” - This is really sad to me and it’s hard to explain. Its like he’s telling people that in the light, everything he sees is just blinding him from seeing the truth. Like how love is blind. Meaning-for example-when one is in love they tend to not see all the red flags. “I’ve fallen in love with a ghost.” - This relates SOO SO much to me. I tend to get way into books sometimes that I set my standards for possible significant others so high. Because I’ve fallen in love with some image created in my head that I can’t physically grasp because it doesn’t exist. “As if god hid the building blocks of every beautiful thing.” - This one connects to the ghost one to me. Because I interpret this as if I were to have building blocks that could create whatever I wanted, I would never be able to create the perfection I crave. I would be stuck endlessly criticizing myself for not being able to do it even though I knew from the start it was never possible. All very sad but I can really see myself in these lyrics. I’m a self-absorbed perfectionist with high standards. Any fellow fours agree?

@felicity1661

5 жыл бұрын

Mysvie sameeee

@kanayadp1246

4 жыл бұрын

Same

@babyxie1555

4 жыл бұрын

same.

as an infp and type 4 enneagram,this feels like my theme song

@valentinagiallanza9639

3 жыл бұрын

Me too and I am also an infp type 4

@thelizzievb

Жыл бұрын

hi fellow type 4 infps 💛💛💛

This Type 4 finally feels a bit more understood ❤️

being a type four can feel like having your head through the sunset-painted clouds and your body in the depths of the ocean. too many ideas, too many dreams, too many thoughts and tangled words and blended colors and buried hopes. and no one understands the eternal overwhelming… _things_ that fester in your mind; it’s like a vast container of locked potential and chaos that refuses to open, sometimes. does that make any sense whatsoever? didn’t think so.

@willisknightsworth4057

2 жыл бұрын

You've just put it into words perfectly. I understand you friend. - A Fellow 4

@hormishrimp

Жыл бұрын

whoah you‘ve just made me feel much less alone

@waveii8615

Жыл бұрын

@@hormishrimp i'm glad i could do that for you

*maybe my heart needs to break to be sure*

@sweetangellie

5 жыл бұрын

Maddie Sovey that one hit close to home

@okayyjed4560

4 жыл бұрын

this hits hard

@mysincerestcondolences

4 жыл бұрын

i fricking _felt that_

“I’ve fallen in love with a ghost” was probably my favorite line. It just is so accurate for me. I fell in love with someone over a year ago, and we became very good friends, and I told her how I felt but she ended up not feeling the same and we are still friends now, but I just can’t seem to get over her. It’s like every time I start to, my brain will resurface all the things I’ve imagined In a universe where she loves me back. And she’s literally never loved me, but it feels like she has to me because of how much I wish it would be true and make it true in my head. I don’t see her much as we don’t go to the same school anymore, so when I think of her, there are two versions: real her, and my ghost I’ve created of her that exists only to partially torture me and partially make me finally feel whole. And when I do see her, my brain can’t seem to understand why she isn’t the same person as my ghost.

@phl0ra

4 жыл бұрын

Emma Kleven girl me too i fell in love w a guy and he didnt have the same feelings and thought it was a joke. i like to imagine that he does but ill never truly know for sure and it sucks because it makes me upset but when he does talk to me im happy

@medademirhan

3 жыл бұрын

This comment. Dear Emma, thank you so much for explaining me how i feel. This is like i wrote it myself, even though i was aware of my illusion, i wasn’t able to put it into words. I tried to explain this feeling to my best friend for months now and this comment does a better job. Whoever you are, whereever you are, i love you Emma.

@circe8777

2 жыл бұрын

this line is much deeper than that. its not about someone you're going to forget in a few years. its much important. its about you and you only. the ghost isnt a lover, cuz the ghost is your ideals, the person you want to be, and the ghost is you

“Flashlight in hand determined to find authenticity, only poetry could even begin to try to describe” This rlly hit home. (This entire song did) Us fours are trying to find something we know but can’t find. It’s like seeing something that doesn’t exist, yet. It’s a difficult feeling of reaching for something that you’re hoping that’ll be there but can’t grasp the knowledge of what it is you’re trying to reach for, but you have this nonexistent feeling/idea that it’s there. Something that’s true and real to you. It’s a philosophy of ones self identification. (Literally sounds like gibberish but trying my best to explain brain out lolll )

@marynguyen4380

3 жыл бұрын

I understand what ur saying❤️🥺

As a four, I most certainly am a daydreamer. It's really sad knowing all these friends, versions of myself, and worlds in my imagination aren't real. Sometimes it will just hit me how this beautiful thing I've created in my mind never will be experienced by someone else and it hurts. It makes me feel lonely. Although, I think another reason I feel that way is because I never can find something that I immediately associate as me. I take pieces of many things but never something whole. I feel like I'm everything and nothing somehow at the same time. So sometimes it's hard to relate to people. Does that make sense?

@YEAHRIGHT201

2 жыл бұрын

This is so beautiful and yes it makes complete sense. I feel you, your words hit me right in the feels.

My whole life I've struggled with identity and who I'm meant to be, and how the heck to get there. I felt that I had to fake it till I make it, and I conformed to this idolized idea of what a "perfect" person looks like and became that without feeling like it was me. When I was a little girl I would take refuge hiding in my closet in the dark, I would squeeze my eyes shut so that the dark world around me was warm. I couldn't see anything which allowed me to focus only and fully on my thoughts and feelings and all things unseen. I always thought that was strange, and somehow another thing to be insecure about. From the first line, "I'm turning out the lights to remember how to see" I was crying from that point on. This song gives me courage to show myself, my faults and all. My emotions, my feelings, my insecurities and know that I am not alone.

"I lost my balance when I needed it most" It's like your chemical balance is what im thinking.. You just start breaking down even though you don't want to you can't physically do anything about it.

@marebear0323

4 жыл бұрын

thats a cool way to look at it. im a type 4 but im also a libra so to me its like when everything falls apart and i have no control i lose that little bit of myself that i was starting to love and understand. regardless of whether astrology is real or not, i definitely feel connected to libra

I honestly relate to this so much. I am a four, always have been. I think that the ending was something that we all need to hear. It touched me and I almost cried, like balling my eyes out. This is exactly what I needed to hear right now.

As a four i have gone through a lot in my sjort period of life (13), i feel i could never be understood, because i dont let people understand me. I need a new goal in life but j dont know where to turn. Everything in life gets boring over time and I try to strive for new things even though I feel more lost in darkness. I dont socialize much, i am misunderstood for the funny kid beut deep down it just fills in my pain. If you are a four please tell me what you feel. I belive the reason why our picture in the backround is the ocean is because we feel lost. Or troubled. I and possibly you might have a big goal but you dont know how to bring it out.

@M6Heron

4 жыл бұрын

I think its ou hardest struggle as four : finding our identity. Since we want to be different but at the same time we kinda want to fit, it's always tricky. I get what you mean with the funny kid but inside you feel pain. I'm the funny kid, the good student, the confident girl, the happy fellow, who does a lot of things in her life so it seems great yanno. And yet... deep inside I doubt myself a lot, I feel lost most of the times, I keep filling my life to escape the emptiness that cannot stop running after me. I don't know what my goal is, but I think you just have to go on, do what feels good and progressively the answer will appear. It's hard to be understood as fours because we often don't want to, because if someone understands us then we're not unique anymore? But the truth is there, in that song. What if we already are who we've been dying to become? All we want is to be unique, and SO ARE WE subce every human being is unique in it's own way. We don't have to add anything because this is enough for an identity. Take care fellow four, and know that you are not alone, in spite of what you might think...

@yusrame3996

4 жыл бұрын

Oh if only you knew how much I can relate to you! I'm also a 4, and I'm 23 now but I remember what it was like to be a 13 year old struggling so intensely. I too was (and still am!) known as the funny kid, always lightening the conversation (possibly out of the fear that I won't be brave enough to be truly authentic, and that even if I am, the other person won't understand me or will think I am dramatic). I never truly connected with anyone, and felt so lost on my own. I thought for sure I must be meant for something meaningful and beautiful in this world but I didn't know how to connect that feeling with my reality. In truth, I was stuck in my head. It made for some really dark days, and I still have a heavy heart whenever I look back to that time in my life. What I can promise you is that it gets better. You grow to understand yourself better -- and that is infinitely better for us than being understood by anyone else. You'll come to realize that we weren't each designed for one single purpose in this life, but for a succession of many little beautiful purposes throughout our lives. As we go through different phases and interests, we are free to choose how to lead our lives in a way that makes us feel whole. We are free to live in the moment, without worrying so much about tomorrow's happiness.

@shaarabi8485

4 жыл бұрын

I’m 14 and definitely, my family and friends picture me as a happy girl who’s funny and doesn’t have many worries. But only I know how I really feel, I’m scared that I won’t meet my family’s expectations so I’m always envious of my friends who get better scores thinking why can’t I be them. Always creating an imaginary person that’s perfect and wanting to be like that person. It’s hard that nobody understands me and sometimes I give up and I think it’s good they understand me. If I tell my mum about a worry the thing she’ll say is u can do it, but that rlly doesn’t help. So yes as a 4 I very much relate to u 😊

@M6Heron

4 жыл бұрын

@@shaarabi8485 Oh I feel you. Knowing that some people believe in us and see our strength can sometimes be helpful but most of the times it feels like they're denying us the right to fear failure. Like "you shouldn't be afraid because you can do it". But I am afraid, and I can't help it, can't control it! I think that what helps me most are people who say : okay you might not be able to do it, but it's okay if you fail too.

@shaarabi8485

4 жыл бұрын

Noémie L. Yeah I rlly agree with u. Saying thing like u can do it, I believe in u just makes me more scared like what if I can’t do it. Telling me that it’s ok that u can’t do it helps so much more.

Hello. I am a Four too. I am sitting here not sure if it even means anything to be talking to strangers on the internet, but I think we can all agree that this song is beautiful.

i have never felt more understood by a song, every single one of the lyrics is perfect and hit so close to home. this makes me feel so comforted. it's kind of scary how accurate the lyrics are to how i feel about life. what a beautiful song.

'I'm turning off the lights to remember how to see" as a four, i love staying in the dark as i don't have to focus on much but just enough. This song is a safe space.

i could only really appreciate this song after listening to the podcast about it. It was really moving and the little things you've hid inside are just golden.

@summergirl4567

5 жыл бұрын

Where can I find their podcasts?

@hatemkhrouf8955

5 жыл бұрын

In which podcast did he mention this song please?

@pricoutinho2312

5 жыл бұрын

@@hatemkhrouf8955 m.soundcloud.com/ryancurtisoneal-1/episode-12 :)))

@wuxian1

Жыл бұрын

@@summergirl4567 its on their channel, look at playlists

@wuxian1

Жыл бұрын

@@hatemkhrouf8955in their channel's playlists

This song hit me so hard. My whole life I’ve created ideals and expectations that are unattainable or nonexistent in the people I meet. I’ve always doubted my differences from others and assumed out of the two of us I was inferior. So no joke literally sobbing 😂

I grow up being interested in books and electronics while other kids were playing outside and hanging out I was inside writing small stories I post online because even my friends don't find it cool or interesting, I started to realize that I don't fit in with my classmate's interest finding friend. I was fourteen when I got to learn about Psychology and had been self-aware of my mental issues, the same time I got to the Zodiac signs because if I know people zodiacs maybe I could understand them more. but all my effort wasn't a match when even my own parent told me I lived in my own world. its hurts when I tried my best to understand people but they don't give even a second to understand me.

“What if we already are what we are dying to become” this made me cry oh my gosh it hit hard

I am a four and this song makes me feel understood. It helps me cope with the pain of literally everything. Forever grateful

The line “what if we already are who we’ve been dying to become” hit me on such a deep level. My whole life I wanted to be this person in my head, that I created, a version of myself I felt like I could never fulfill. Until I heard those lines I realized that that person in my head is me, I am already who I’ve wanted to become.

I’ve listened to your music for a few months now, and have loved it. But now I really feel I can relate to your music. I found out today, a boy (14 years old) in my class took his own life and overdosed last night. I had talked to him a few times and he seemed nice but not the type I wanted to hangout with. It just boggles my mind that someone believes that they are better off dead. Now, he’s an angel and I hope whatever made him take his life has been resolved. I feel him smiling down. R.I.P Zach.

@Thangty77

5 жыл бұрын

Liza Walker that’s pretty sad. isn’t it strange that we all have dead lines and sometimes it hurts us to see that people leave too soon? May he Rest In Peace

I’m a 4, but I wasn’t left bawling. These past few years, the Lord has brought me home, where I’ve become more secure with who I am. I’m really good with being unique and misunderstood. I’m finally good with standing out. The glorious thing for us 4’s is, we are so hard to understand, and our Maker gets us! He grasps us, as every crashing wave seems to be beyond anyone’s grasp, He shows up and holds our hearts! Lose your balance, beloved, and come unraveled and undone...He’s got us.

@guvj4fyufudrs2444

2 жыл бұрын

i don't think the lord likes me, i'm extremely gay

@steffbenton-martyn6836

Жыл бұрын

Dunno, as a fellow (pagan) 4, it's not very individualist to push your chosen religion to strangers. You and I are not alike.

@nataliecastro5510

Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for your words. It brought me to tears knowing that God truly knows me and loves me. I’ve been going through a lot and I really needed to hear that ❤️

“what if we already are who we’re dying to become” gets me every single time. like not only does it make me think about whether i’m already the person i want to be and i refuse to see it, but am i literally killing myself? making myself more and more numb to the world, losing myself in the pits of my sadness and losing pieces of myself with every day that goes by where i don’t feel like enough? will i finally be content with myself once everything i am is gone and i am empty? what will that self-love be worth, then, if there is nothing left to who i am?

@emilykolodney1691

3 жыл бұрын

This put everything I've ever thought or wanted into words so eloquently, thank you.

@wuxian1

Жыл бұрын

what the fuck that comment fucking hit me in the feels

I don't know if there was ever any song which described me so well... gotta admit I'm in a bit of a crisis and some lines just... they just fit what's going on with me too closely, "this blurry photograph is proof of what I'm not sure, but it feels like truth", "flashlight in hand determined to find authenticity, only poetry could even begin to try to describe"... I'm gonna cry :') Sending love to every four and other type who read this: you're beautiful and amazing ❤

Any other type 4s constantly struggle between choosing the practical paths in life versus the paths that set their soul on fire...constant dreaming of what beauty there is in the world, but a little lost on how the fuck to find it. Restless and bored, but hyper focused when we finally find something that makes us feel alive.

His soft voice and the melody just makes you feel the presence of god’s love

So I just started crying, in complete awe of the cacophony of sounds that just grabbed my soul. This is definitely a four song. Melancholic, nostalgic, quietly triumphant yet wispy and lost: directionless, like a shooting star.

“Maybe my heart needs to break to be sure”that hit deep

What a beautiful mirror. Thank you for sharing your stunning artistry and mystical heart, Sleeping At Last.

I think this man can make us view the world in a different way.

My best friend is a four. And I'm being there for her as much as possible. ...I hope she sees that I'm trying.. :(

@dormanmom1

4 жыл бұрын

My son is a four and its so hard to see his pain and be there, know what to say, understand.

@bnuuyaa

4 жыл бұрын

@@dormanmom1 you can do it!!

@mortymorts7772

4 жыл бұрын

My friend ls don't even talk to me anymore I'm their second choice

@bnuuyaa

4 жыл бұрын

@@mortymorts7772 I'm really sorry, I hope things get better for you ❤️💖💞

@mortymorts7772

4 жыл бұрын

@@bnuuyaa they only talk to me when they need something

this is beautiful. as a four, i feel like this really captures us. the angst, the metaphors and even the aesthetic of the video. “what if we already are what we’ve been dying to become?” hit hard. I get so stuck in my head sometimes trying to be something else, like something’s missing. but nothing was ever missing❤️

No song has ever made me cry. But this song made me sob. I felt this song within my core.

The more I go through life and just experience and process things the more lyrics I seem to understand. It's just this slow journey of uncovering what each phrase means to me and relates to my life. I love that it's not a quick process but rather takes over a long period of time, slowly peeling away at the lyrics and piecing things together in my head.

I didn't realize how many other people felt this way and reading the comments, idk brings some sort of comfort? Someone said being a 4 is lonely but from reading all the comments, it made me feel less lonely. That there are people who can understand what I'm feeling. To anyone reading this, you're not alone, you're feelings are valid, and we'll figure this out together ♥

as a four, these are some lines that really affected me "ive fallen in love with a ghost" - I cant find comfort and understanding in real people, i read i try to escape i imagine things and i daydream of things and people that will never be real "bodies fashioned out of dirt and dust" -kinda connects to the ghost one, just the unreality of myself and wishing for someone that doesnt exist “Maybe my heart needs to break to be sure” -I feel everything, and strongly. i dont try to avoid things i know will hurt me, i want to cry and scream and smile i want to feel everything even though it becomes overwhelming sometimes. i dont know how to explain my emotions to others but i feel them constantly and try to figure out what it is. "maybe I'm hiding behind metaphor" -again with the emotions thing, i try to explain using metaphors and fancy words but it doesnt work “What if we already are what we’ve been dying to become.” -i have all these goals and dreams for myself that i think ill never achieve but maybe i will

Does anyone else forget to keep growing, to keep searching? Does anyone else stop trying to get people to understand? Do we just stop? Because i feel like I'm floating most of the time, through life, and I'm not sure I even understand myself.

"I lost my balance when I needed it the most." these words hits me hard right in the chest

I'm a 4 and this song means the world to me, so beautiful! Im in love with this whole project 😍💕

This is so beautifully written with such clever words, but it made me feel very sleepy an sad. I actually wanted to drown in that sea.......

ahhhh this cinematography though. the seas foam, the texture, the ocean-motion... it's good.

Hey, this is my personality type!! Who else did the test after hearing one of his songs?

@AminaPhoto

5 жыл бұрын

Hi! I think I´m a four to. But which test? I have not seen it.

@made-on-impulse2211

5 жыл бұрын

@@AminaPhoto the enneagram personality test -> www.eclecticenergies.com/enneagram/test This is where I took it. 😊

@AminaPhoto

5 жыл бұрын

+Made-On-Impulse Ah, Thank you so much!!!

@familykhadzhi5516

5 жыл бұрын

Tests are inaccurate. Mbti, and enneagram tests are both unreliable.

@mahamahmad4057

5 жыл бұрын

@@familykhadzhi5516 Do you know how to find out your type otherwise ?

I remember when I first heard this song for the first time & I was in tears because there was something that just resonated with me. I took the test and realised I am a type 4. This song feels like a love letter to every aspect of me if feels like no one else will ever see, and music that speaks to your heart and soul is generally rare. Not for Sleeping At Last, all of it is magic.

The more I listen, the more understand.

The last lines are what gets me. It's so easy to see the good things about other people and so hard to see my own strengths. I'm fine throughout the whole song but can't help but cry on the last line

I listen to this song every time I’m about to go swimming in the lake/ ocean. Then I go sing the song Two to myself while I’m warming up. So peaceful.

Listening to the podcast from him on the four made me cry for days ... “ordinary has swallowed the key” he wanted to have a dual meaning for healthy and sort of unhealthy fours and I will say when I listened to this I thought yes ordinary stole from me And unpacking that has been really emotional I love the care he took for all of his enneagram songs This one is my favorite and speaks to me on so many levels I will always cry when I hear it “The insignificant with the sacred unique” “This blurry photograph is proof of what I’m not sure but it feels like truth”

This song makes me think about how short my life is and all of our lives. We will all become dust one day which truly puts things into perspective. But while on this Earth I want to be the very best version of myself and keep striving to be greater than the person I already am, which makes me feel like it’s hard to stay present. Other times I’m stuck on an old version of me that I think is better, making it difficult to be content again. If you’re going through the same thing - know you are already enough and you’re already loved! God created you as you are for a special purpose and You are enough because He is within you. Something I have to constantly remind myself of. Less striving and more living.

“For a moment we get to be glorious” Love that line ❤️🎶

@frufruktsukker

4 жыл бұрын

Me too, best line.

“I’ve fallen in love with a ghost” freaking hit me in the feels... I lost my boyfriend to suicide and I’m falling in love with him still...

@aisekrem3216

4 жыл бұрын

Maurissa Weathers I am so sorry for your loss...

@ss37472

3 жыл бұрын

I am so sorry for your loss

@wuxian1

Жыл бұрын

im so fucking sorry. accept my condolences. i wish you the best in life.

"'I'm turning off the lights to remember how to see" for me this is my constant need to see myself from an outsider's perspective. Sometimes i worry my vision of myself and the world is so warped that i just need fresh eyes- someone to tell me the truth without worrying about how it might hurt me. The test isn't concrete of course but it helped me see myself from an objective view. After reading through the results i realised where exactly my faults were. As much as i'd like to change, though it has been.. difficult. Reading these comments makes me feel like someone else understands my struggles, though :)

I'm 6 but I feel connected to this song..

@aisekrem3216

4 жыл бұрын

Jayda They're not talking about age tho lol. They meant they're a type 6 - a personality type. If you want to know which personality type you are, search for "ennegram personality test". Have fun!

Raining outside. 2AM. And this. Can't describe the feeling

there is no song in the world that have touched me like this one, it's just extraordinary and beautiful.

"Body's fashioned out of dirt and dust, for a moment to be glorious." Think that means that we're made from nothing and we just want that fleeting moment of fame and self pride.....

I nearly choked when he mentioned on the podcast that many fours said they played the uke and the clarinet. Those are literally my two instruments and I have never felt so exposed as a four. Welp. Had to come over here just to share this experience with you all.

I've been feeling a deeper sense of loneliness and of being lost as of late... and I came back to this song, well cause I'm a 4 (and a 9). Just wanted to drop by to say thank you Ryan. Your music somehow speaks to me and makes sense of it all, as much as it can. So, thank you. Really.

For those who don't know, Ryan (the artist behind SAL) recorded a podcast episode for each song in the enneagram song series talking about the creation of each song, easter egg "finger print" sounds, featured artists, and his insights for the intentions of each song's messages (plural because there are intentionally multiple ways each song can be interpreted). I HIGHLY recommend you check em out. This series is such a perfect love letter to humanity in its myriad shapes and flavors.

*No tears left to cry*

9w1 here, and I'm crying. I feel like all these songs help me understand other people better. To be able to feel the pain, to deeply understand and connect. And also reconnect with the own emotions that have been burried so deep inside. Feeling blessed with this opportunity.

@JessicaUndseth

3 жыл бұрын

When I first heard the enneagram I had such a lack of sense of identity and I swore I was a 9w1. Over time of self discovery and awareness and growth I feel more like a 4w5 now. I wonder if my childhood programmed self is a 9w1 but I’m really a 4w5 at my true core. I don’t know if that’s possible. I feel like I know myself so much better now then when I first took the test. I retook the test and got 4w5.

@JessicaUndseth

3 жыл бұрын

I seriously really relate though with what you said. Totally agree

Wow, reading these comments might just be the most understood I’ve ever felt in my entire life. Exact same as everyone here. Lonely, feeling like there is more to me that I have yet to discover, feeling like I’m not enough, idolizing other people, thinking that they have everything that I don’t, and being an actor, singer and an artist, makes it all even harder. Constantly not feeling like I’m going to ever amount to who I want to be. The line that gets me the most is what if you already are who you’ve been dying to become. I’m trying to wrap my head around myself being just enough and exactly who I want to be. All of the things I idolize in other singers and actors, I know that I have in myself. It might take some work to get rid of my self-doubt and bring it out, but I plan to do that. This song is so gorgeous. Fours most definitely see and feel things the deepest. We are the individuals and the artists. And so many people see artists and celebrities and people of certain acclaim and they think that they live such a glorious life, but they do not know what a struggle it is to do the work that we do and to feel the depth of emotion that it takes to create art. They have no idea. Hang in there fours!

As a four, this whole song reflected my everyday life. "I'm stuck swimming in shadows down here, it's been forever since I came up for air"- this highlights how we isolate ourselves in the dark away from others, and the loneliness we can experience. This hit the hardest.

"I've fallen in love with a ghost." No one cares, BUT I'll put this on here anyway. The great part of the internet is it's ANONYMOUS. I've fallen in love with a person I created in my mind. Someone who doesn't hurt me, or judge me, someone who's just there for me no matter what. It's like I have this whole other world in my daydreams. And honestly? I would rather live in my daydreams than in real life.

tonight is one of the nights where i absolutely hate being a four. it's like i get the courage to pick myself up but shortly after i just fall apart again. it feels like i have to mask my eyes and live in a type of way that i pretend i understand. when it doesn't make any sense. and nothing truly makes sense. i feel so scared 'cause sometimes even i can't understand myself so i just start thinking about everything and my mind won't stop. how am i supposed to understand if what's going on in my mind is normal when nobody ever talks about it? and the worst part is that the next day after feeling like my world came to an end, i will go back to being ''normal''. but the emotions always flood me again. it's like a never ending cycle. it sucks being a four. i wish my mind could just completely stop.

i love how the video is of the sea. I've always felt an affinity to the sea and I'm a no.4

@Ri-sk4kb

4 жыл бұрын

Same! I love the ocean and water

I’m crying right now. This was posted 2 days before my beloved dog Lucy drowned. She was always there for me. I had her for 10 years, and I loved her.

@lynx7631

4 жыл бұрын

Bruh I just saw one of your videos. Your dog isn’t dead smh