For Lee ❤️

After living an extraordinary life, and fighting a brave battle with mental illness, my heart breaks to share with you that my ex partner Lee MacMillan took her life on Friday, March 26, 2021. Lee was the brightest light, a magnetic force of nature, and was loved by so so many.
#SpeakUpForLee​
If you need immediate support, please reach out to your local crisis text line:
USA: Text HOME to 741741
UK: Text SHOUT to 85258
Canada: Text CONNECT to 686868 or 741741
AUSTRALIA
Beyond Blue: 1300 224 636
Lifeline: 131114
More resources at
www.crisisservicescanada.ca/en/​ and afsp.org/​
www.blackdoginstitute.org.au/
www.beyondblue.org.au/
www.lifeline.org.au/
www.stopbullying.gov/resource...
If we can do one thing for Lee now, in the midst of this soul-crushing loss, it’s to spread the message that mental health is just as real as physical health, and that illness can strike anyone, no matter how unlikely they may seem. Lee's struggles with her mental health were also compounded in her last months of life by persistent and often vicious cyberbullying, and we want to drive home the point that cyberbullying has real life consequences -- the people on the other side of the screen have real lives, real feelings, and real struggles of their own.
We are raising funds in her name to donate towards Mental Health Awareness and to combat Cyberbullying. If even one person can be spared her fate, it will be worth it.
bit.ly/2QsKYal​
Life is more complex than a single social media post. Things are complicated. Don’t believe what you see online. Get out into the world and talk to your loved ones. Check in. Ask them genuinely how they’re doing. Be available to help. To listen. To offer help. Remove the stigma of asking for help.
Please help us spread the awareness of this issue, for Lee and every one else who needs to hear this: share this page using #speakupforlee​ and share it broadly...you never know who is struggling quietly.
And hold your loved ones tight. Tell them you love them. Because life can change in an instant.
We will miss her with every fibre of our hearts.
Thank you for contributing to her mission - her story will live on in all those she touched, let's honour her life by helping those who are not able to help themselves.
(words from her family & friends)

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  • @MaxandOccy
    @MaxandOccy3 жыл бұрын

    I will always cherish my time with you in this world and hope beyond hope to see you in the next ✨ Save some mini eggs for me Mountie 💛

  • @Parisplantss

    @Parisplantss

    3 жыл бұрын

    We love you max and Lee loves you too❤️❤️❤️

  • @wyatthoover3376

    @wyatthoover3376

    3 жыл бұрын

    Takes an extreme amount strength to post this man.

  • @stellaundmaja

    @stellaundmaja

    3 жыл бұрын

    ❤️

  • @lottebaudert4526

    @lottebaudert4526

    3 жыл бұрын

    Take care Max ❤️ Sending you all the love

  • @jackiei5006

    @jackiei5006

    3 жыл бұрын

    This video is officially making me cry! Max and Occy, please keep her memories in ur heart. Thank u for being vulnerable and sharing these memories with us.

  • @eamonandbec
    @eamonandbec3 жыл бұрын

    Max, you have so bravely shared Lee’s truth and we are so unbelievably proud of you 💛. She had SO MUCH life in her years and those four years travelling the world with you are a great snapshot of the fearless, joyful and disarming Lee we all know and love 🌻. Equally as important (but so difficult to share) were those darker days of depression and the dark side to this online world. May it act as a reminder to us all that mental illness can strike ANYONE and that those who shine the brightest can still be suffering. Choose kindness and #SpeakUpForLee We love you 🌞

  • @eamonandbec

    @eamonandbec

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@Cindy-hi7gg I can assure you that our support for one another goes far beyond KZread comments but I do know what you mean 🤗. Feel VERY lucky to have Max and a few others in our grieving bubble (even if we are half way across the world and stay up way too late on FaceTime 😆).

  • @tom_bids6023

    @tom_bids6023

    3 жыл бұрын

    Hi Eamon and Bec Thank you so much for the amazing ongoing support and friendship you are providing Max. I see first hand the impact your chats have on him. The shared tears, laughter and stories are making each day slowly easier for him. Thank you from my entire family, keep well guys, hope to meet you both one day xx

  • @iwillsay113

    @iwillsay113

    3 жыл бұрын

    Eamon & Bec, I agree! This was such a beautiful tribute, so honest, so loving, and yet, so difficult for Max to do. Hugs to all of you as you continue to spread Lee's word and try to help your hearts heal from such an immense loss.

  • @iwillsay113

    @iwillsay113

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@tom_bids6023 good to know your family is right there supporting Max. I have visions of sweet Occy licking his tears and lying right beside him also. Sending thoughts of comfort to all of you at such a difficult time. Thanks for letting us know Max is continuing to share his emotions. It helps.

  • @clairelruth

    @clairelruth

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@eamonandbec 💙

  • @Eastie_
    @Eastie_17 күн бұрын

    I've seen this video before. But for some reason it popped up again today. That smile - What a tragic loss. RIP Lee.

  • @lachola1647

    @lachola1647

    14 күн бұрын

    These apps listen, I know someone that has taken their own life recently and I believe this is why this video has come up for me. I might be wrong.

  • @beast1728
    @beast1728Ай бұрын

    I still can’t believe she is gone from us. I just wanted to wish you and Occy continued joy and bliss on your journeyʻs. Lee was an angel and a bright shining light of love for this world. I miss her and all 3 of you together. 🙏🏽😎❤️

  • @lynn2574
    @lynn25743 жыл бұрын

    I remember a couple years ago, you and Lee were doing an awareness / fundraiser video about suicide/MH awareness . I commented my thanks, and shared that my brother in law took his life in 2008 (while I was pregnant with his first niece)after experiencing a brain injury from active duty in Afghanistan. Lee responded to my comment with such love and compassion that it made me cry. And she reminded me that Tim was still a part of our family as long as we kept him in our hearts. It meant the world to me at the time. She wasn’t an ‘influencer’ or ‘youtuber’ in that moment. She was a friend. Her words have echoes in my head this past 5 weeks. I hope you find comfort, too. Broken up or not - she’d want the best for you. ❤️

  • @mohummus3235

    @mohummus3235

    3 жыл бұрын

    rip to lee and rip to your sweet brother

  • @crystalfrancis218

    @crystalfrancis218

    3 жыл бұрын

    ❤️

  • @ChamillahDesigns

    @ChamillahDesigns

    3 жыл бұрын

    Lee was so amazing and special that she made us feel special too every time we engaged with her in the comments. I felt she was a friend to me too even though I never met her. ❤️❤️❤️ Love you Lee!!

  • @MichellinavanLoder

    @MichellinavanLoder

    3 жыл бұрын

    ❤️

  • @nomade1697

    @nomade1697

    3 жыл бұрын

    💕

  • @theindieprojects
    @theindieprojects3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing this Max, we can’t begin to imagine how hard it must have been ❤️ speaking out and breaking down the stigma around mental health is so important. Sending you a massive hug ❤️

  • @user-ub8hp1cg5t

    @user-ub8hp1cg5t

    3 жыл бұрын

    And thank you again for opening up too. You also have my deepest respect. Take care

  • @kathy888

    @kathy888

    3 жыл бұрын

    Such a beautiful soul, both Max and Lee. They have been like family to many who are not so blessed.

  • @debbiblakeslee2373

    @debbiblakeslee2373

    3 жыл бұрын

    💞💞

  • @aylaruby2376

    @aylaruby2376

    3 жыл бұрын

    💓🌼💓🌼

  • @roywright9804

    @roywright9804

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@kathy888 you are so right they were my first glimps into vanlife and i love the vanlifer seen but max occy & lee were the first

  • @LaGrenouille09
    @LaGrenouille09 Жыл бұрын

    I know this is a year later, but I hope you know that this message is just as important now as it was then. Sending light and love ❤️

  • @ronni6346

    @ronni6346

    Жыл бұрын

    I totally agree

  • @StElmosFire53

    @StElmosFire53

    7 күн бұрын

    It’s a message that will be relevant forever.

  • @jocelynoslear1578
    @jocelynoslear15782 жыл бұрын

    “I could have told you, Vincent…this world was never meant for One as Beautiful as You”

  • @lizame65
    @lizame653 жыл бұрын

    Lee was a gift to the world. Max please never blame yourself for what happened to Lee. You loved her with all of your heart. She knew that. I am sending you a giant hug. Be good to yourself. This video shows how brave and carrying you are.

  • @ladiandmargaret
    @ladiandmargaret3 жыл бұрын

    What a beautiful video, Max. We're sure you've put so much pressure on yourself to make it perfect for Lee, and you did. I still can't imagine being able to sit down infront of the camera and speak about the loss of a loved one as candidly as you did.. It was heartbreaking, honest, and you spoke with your heart. Lee was, as you said, too good for this world, and everyone who followed her journey has had to grapple with that loss in some form or another. Sending you love as you pick up the pieces.

  • @taga2699

    @taga2699

    3 жыл бұрын

    💕💕

  • @barbvoth4704

    @barbvoth4704

    3 жыл бұрын

    Beautifully said.💝

  • @SusanPaskaruk

    @SusanPaskaruk

    3 жыл бұрын

    You said it all so perfectly ♥️

  • @nan_see2211

    @nan_see2211

    3 жыл бұрын

    A beautiful dedication for a beautiful person,, I just started following you two late 2019 and wished from then on to find true souls on my path like you both are! I’m going through similiar condition Lee suffered. I found peace in my heart listening to Lee share her story and looked up to her... I was deeply shooked by her passing and think of her everyday since. Thank s for your courage for sharing a sweet hommage for Lee. Take good care of yourself and may you be blessed🧚🏽‍♂️🌞🌈🌹

  • @Dreamysunshine23

    @Dreamysunshine23

    3 жыл бұрын

    Amén! 🙏🏼💞

  • @heatherb3315
    @heatherb331511 ай бұрын

    This just came up in my feed agian, and she’s still making an impact in peoples lives to this day/ minute/second. For lee❤

  • @footballmom2502
    @footballmom2502 Жыл бұрын

    Fly high sweet Angel. Covid definitely played a huge part in mental health. Lost my world on April 27 2020. When my sweet boy gave into it. He was 21. Be kind. Be kind. Be kind because you never know what someone’s going through

  • @barbwatkins3676

    @barbwatkins3676

    Жыл бұрын

    My heart aches for you. I hope you have found some peace. Although our memories and love can help to sustain us, nothing means more than having our loved ones with us in our life. Godspeed to your beautiful son.

  • @jdizzle6324

    @jdizzle6324

    Жыл бұрын

    Sorry for your loss. Did he happen to have had the covid vaccine?

  • @jj-if6it

    @jj-if6it

    Жыл бұрын

    @@jdizzle6324 It was 2020, obviously there was no vaccine yet. Please be quiet you horrible troll

  • @julieparker5043

    @julieparker5043

    Жыл бұрын

    ❤️❤️❤️

  • @Lone_Wolf_LT

    @Lone_Wolf_LT

    11 ай бұрын

    Sorry for your loss 😢

  • @dianeeichenberg9616
    @dianeeichenberg96163 жыл бұрын

    I am happy to say that I supported Lee earlier this year when she was attacked for using the “Max and Lee” channel to show videos of Jordan and her. I am happy to say that Lee responded personally to me so I feel like she heard my words of encouragement. At 68, I am a lifelong sufferer of depression. I understood what I saw in Lee’s last vlogs. She was trying so hard to appear happy and “normal.” But it was not really her. She was fighting depression the best way she knew how. Sadly, for all of us, Lee chose suicide to end her pain. She suffers no more. I think “we” have been waiting to hear from you Max. I have to say that through it all, I never felt like you quit supporting Lee. I don’t feel like you judged her for introducing Jordan on your shared channel. Your feelings and love for each other was deeper than any pettiness could destroy. My heart aches for you. May you heal and know that only Lee could save Lee. She knew she was loved. Sometimes it just doesn’t matter. Sometimes it’s not the “cure.” Love to all. And for all who suffer from depression, please, if nothing else, take it one day at a time. Tomorrow could be the best day of your life. 😎✌️🤙🤘😎

  • @suerumis1963

    @suerumis1963

    3 жыл бұрын

    I have suffered depression and anxiety on and off for 30+years. As a nurse, spending all my time treating/healing others, everyday I would put on a smiley mask so that people around me wouldn't see that I was dying inside. I have been close to the edge a few times and have needed crisis intervention. When you come back from the edge you realise how bloody scarey it is being in that place. I know people say its a permanent solution to a temporary problem but its not that easy. When you are that close to the edge, you don't want to die, and leave all your friends and family, you don't want them to hurt as much as you do right in that moment, all you want is for the pain to stop, and quite often you will have tried many other ways and means of solving or treating the problem and none of it works, and ending it all seems to be the only answer. What you have to remember is that when you get to that point you are not seeing things clearly or rationally, you know your family and friends love you but that doesn't ease your pain. It is not something you can just "snap out off" or "pull yourself together". When my mood is low and I'm reacting to things I can hear myself saying that I'm being totally unreasonable but thats the chemical imbalance I'm my brain. So yes before you speak your mind, either verbally or written think, is it correct, is it necessary, is it kind because you never know the impact those words could have on someone else. You don't know what they are dealing with and your words could be the last straw. If you disagree with someone's post, and you can't be nice scroll by. Like @Max and Occy said if you see someone else being unkind, report them. I understand there were some who were very unkind to Lee on social media and that must have affected her massively with her struggles, and whilst we don't know what it was exactly that drove her to that drastic action that day, I'm sure some of those harsh words would most undoubtedly will have stuck with her. Trolling, bullying and harassment is unforgivable. Lee, sweetheart, I hope you have found peace from your struggles, God bless you, you beautiful young woman. Please watch over your loved ones and keep them all safe. 💜💜💜

  • @gwendolynsinclair

    @gwendolynsinclair

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@suerumis1963 💓

  • @KayLee19676

    @KayLee19676

    3 жыл бұрын

    Well said Diane, I feel exactly the same way. ♥♥♥

  • @sniperwiper100

    @sniperwiper100

    3 жыл бұрын

    I read your comments....I am proud of you for standing up for her. Bless you. ♥️

  • @klw8771

    @klw8771

    3 жыл бұрын

    THANK YOU for speaking up for Lee, Diane. The last line of your comment is SO TRUE and I wish all pepole suffering from depression could remember and take to heart; “tomorow could be the best day of your life”. Holding onto that faith & belief in tomorrow is the challenge when one is living with depression and/or anxiety. But absolutely the best advice ever. God bless Max for preparing such a difficult but necessary & honorary video to Lee and #speakingupforLee as you did too.. ❤️🙏🏼

  • @losttransfer63again93
    @losttransfer63again933 жыл бұрын

    I’m a 57 year old man from Canada, I’m crying with you my friend and feel your pain! Cheers Max and Occy! I’ll miss Lee!

  • @gailhickman9035
    @gailhickman9035 Жыл бұрын

    I hope the 'people' that cyber bullied Lee are feeling pleased with themselves as they contributed to this beautiful girls' death. Shame on you!

  • @shanehartley8131
    @shanehartley8131 Жыл бұрын

    WOW. I'm a Paramedic in Canada and suffer from PTSD and Depression. My name is Shane and I want to truly thank you for such a heart felt video. I have followed Lee and others that you are tied to. When I heard about Lee it broke my heart and and I can truly relate. Your candour is truly a breath of fresh air. I have just started following you and you are an inspiration and a leader. As was Lee and you cant beat yourself up, My heart goes out to you, Lee and everyone that knows both of you. Thank you so much for doing this video. I have been suffering due to 17 bad paediatric calls that went south. Luck of the draw they say. I have been struggling with this for sometime now and you have made an amazing video that allow a glimpse of inside life of Lee and yourself. Keep up the great work and continue on. I know you went to Emman and Becks and other van people but if you're ever in Ontario again from one medic to another you have a place here anytime. Cheers and thank you

  • @Mushroomshay

    @Mushroomshay

    10 ай бұрын

    Hey Shane! Have you ever tried Psilocybin? It’s been really helpful for me!

  • @user-bh2fz5sf5e
    @user-bh2fz5sf5e3 жыл бұрын

    She died so young.. but honestly she lived more life in the short time she was here then most people get the opportunity to live in an entire lifetime.. ♥️ she definitely didn't waste the time she was given and I think that's a bigger thing to remember then how it ended for her.

  • @LightPathWarrior

    @LightPathWarrior

    3 жыл бұрын

    This is a beautiful way to look at her life. Thank you for sharing...

  • @comedianmattrossey

    @comedianmattrossey

    3 жыл бұрын

    So true!

  • @connierussett8190

    @connierussett8190

    3 жыл бұрын

    I love your comment. It is a comfort to look at someone's life and the way they lived it, not the way it ended.

  • @007nadineL

    @007nadineL

    3 жыл бұрын

    Well said

  • @monsoon9055

    @monsoon9055

    3 жыл бұрын

    Exactly

  • @ruinsane100
    @ruinsane1003 жыл бұрын

    As a sufferer of chronic, debilitating depression and anxiety, Lee's death has had an impact on me that can't be fully described and due to the disconnect and brain fog that comes with this disease, I won't try. But Max, please know that there was NOTHING more you could have done. The beast that is clinical depression has a mind of its own. It doesn't know logic. It can't be reasoned with. It cannot be penetrated. To highlight that point, I have the most supportive, loving, patient, kind and compassionate husband who is a gifted listener. And yet my depression persists and I have been close to suicide many times, despite having a "great life" and an ideal marriage that many people will never attain. So PLEASE, Max, do not blame yourself. You are a kind and decent man, but at a time like this you are only going to see your own faults and shortcomings. Any perceived failures on your part did not cause Lee to take her life. Lee's personal monster did. None of Lee's loved ones could fight or win the battle for her because the battle was hers and hers alone. That is the nature of this horrid beast. Despite massive support and love, ultimately you have to fight it alone. Hugs to you and everyone who is grieving this indescribable loss. And my heart goes out to all those who suffer from this destructive and relentless disease.

  • @59newt

    @59newt

    3 жыл бұрын

    This comment is perfect. After battling depression/anxiety since the age of 17 I agree there’s NOTHING anyone could have done for Lee at that crossroad in her illness. We loved her and we love you too. Be kind to YOURSELF. Allow us to comfort you. You deserve it.❤️🙏🏻❤️

  • @tiffanysnyder8673

    @tiffanysnyder8673

    3 жыл бұрын

    I could not have said this better. I suffer as well....

  • @NancyH25

    @NancyH25

    3 жыл бұрын

    Very well said. Depression is a personal monster

  • @morningstarscotty.8656

    @morningstarscotty.8656

    3 жыл бұрын

    Ruinsane100 how are you doing these days?I too suffer from depression insomnia you name it

  • @59newt

    @59newt

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@morningstarscotty.8656 it’s usually when I’m in what I call “The Pit”... on medication that seems to be working right now so insomnia now due to Fibromyalgia!!! You win some you lose some!❤️

  • @selahrising
    @selahrising Жыл бұрын

    Thanks Max while I was watching this I’ve been in the midst of a major depression episode and I’ve been trying to push through it alone. I booked an appointment with my doctor before the end of the video. Thank you for your beautiful tribute to Lee.

  • @Helen-mh8mq

    @Helen-mh8mq

    Жыл бұрын

    Hope you are feeling better!❤

  • @selahrising

    @selahrising

    Жыл бұрын

    @@Helen-mh8mqthank you! Yes, I ended up getting on antidepressants and it’s been ok. Getting used to them has been a bit of adjustment but I’m starting to feel better. I didn’t realize how bad the anxiety was until they started working.

  • @Helen-mh8mq

    @Helen-mh8mq

    Жыл бұрын

    @@selahrising Glad it's helping.Anxiety is a horrible thing!!

  • @Mushroomshay

    @Mushroomshay

    10 ай бұрын

    @@selahrisinghey there! Just checking in on you. How are you doing? I wanted to tell you about psilocybin. It has been so helpful for my depression. Do I still struggle with depression? Yes, but nearly as bad as it used to be. Anyway, look into it if you’re ever feeling like giving up!

  • @pensandpears

    @pensandpears

    9 ай бұрын

    I don't know you, but I'm so proud of you new friend. I've had a hard time making that call.

  • @mikeveilleux1592
    @mikeveilleux1592 Жыл бұрын

    Hey Max just found your channel this evening and I'm so glad I did. This video hits home. I just lost my wife to depression and suicide on dec1 2022. She battled it for many many years. It's so hard. I'm so sorry Lee had to put up with negativity on top of how she was already feeling. Thanks for putting out this video. Everything you said was so how I've felt these last 6 months. Also, I've watched some of your newer videos and it gives me hope that things will be good again. Thanks and I look forward to new videos from you. Congrats on the house and property!

  • @tsgthesleepinggiant

    @tsgthesleepinggiant

    Жыл бұрын

    Strength to you as well mate.

  • @mikeveilleux1592

    @mikeveilleux1592

    Жыл бұрын

    @@tsgthesleepinggiant thanks

  • @marenski5327

    @marenski5327

    Жыл бұрын

    Love and light to you. Hope your doing ok and have some good people around you. Don't forget she's still walking with you. ⭐✨🌻🌸

  • @zino6310
    @zino63103 жыл бұрын

    BECAUSE OF YOU MAX.....YOU PROVIDED HER SOME OF THE GREATEST LAST YEARS OF HER LIFE!!! SHE WAS LIVIN LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!

  • @VanBooter

    @VanBooter

    3 жыл бұрын

    No need to use caps, show some respect

  • @jamieosygus141

    @jamieosygus141

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@VanBooter Your preference for lowercase makes a post disrespectful? Got it🙄

  • @denisebernard3062

    @denisebernard3062

    3 жыл бұрын

    I agree you did partner with her on some of the greatest adventures.

  • @andrew348

    @andrew348

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@jamieosygus141 It was kinda weird to use caps...it's not preference but cultural expectations. Usually caps are interpreted as yelling. It was odd for you to assign the appearance of capital letters as the preference of an individual.

  • @mircat28

    @mircat28

    11 ай бұрын

    @@cazigrey836caps on equals shouting. It always has . Be aware.

  • @19ebenezer77
    @19ebenezer773 жыл бұрын

    Hope you don't beat yourself over this. "What if I could've done something different." My brother committed suicide and I questioned a lot of things. But I came to the conclusion that there's nothing I could've done differently. You can't turn back time. You get one shot and you try to do the best you can. Sorry for your loss.

  • @MrLebro11

    @MrLebro11

    3 жыл бұрын

    It’s the greatest tragedy of those left behind....”what if....If only I” So take care of your heart ❤️

  • @LubaAlanna

    @LubaAlanna

    3 жыл бұрын

    You’re absolutely right. Sending love and strength to you as well ❤️

  • @loisr1560
    @loisr15603 ай бұрын

    Max, i only just found your channel and this episode. I have had mental health issues for a almost 20 years. I tried going off the medication two years ago. Oh boy was that the worst. I ended up at my doctors pleading fir an appointment to go back on the medication. I am 62 and know i will always be on the medication. I am loving occy. my 14 yo samoyed passed away two years ago. Enjoying watchingvyou renovate you little place. I am a avid bird photographer, i bet you have wonderful birdlife.

  • @p.poirot4643
    @p.poirot46432 ай бұрын

    Once in a while this video pops up on my feed and I cant help it I re watch it and cry every single time. She is very much missed.

  • @oregonstrong1080
    @oregonstrong10803 жыл бұрын

    Max ✨A True Gentleman

  • @Mati-mm6ht
    @Mati-mm6ht3 жыл бұрын

    My ex girlfriend, passed away in the same way as Lee.We watched Max & Lee together. She was strugling too. Never felt free. Until now. She has shown me in ways you won't believe. I don't regret a day with her. Even the diffucult ones. I loved her so much. So Let's speak up together. Let's be strong together. Let's love life together. Once more.

  • @Mati-mm6ht

    @Mati-mm6ht

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@sandram4670 Thank u 💜

  • @kennethham7675

    @kennethham7675

    3 жыл бұрын

    Am so sorry for what had happened. Mental illness is something serious. Let's fight it together and to help those suffering from it

  • @sellers8133

    @sellers8133

    3 жыл бұрын

    How did she pass

  • @dollyscorner4850

    @dollyscorner4850

    3 жыл бұрын

    So sorry for your loss🙏🏻❤️

  • @AB-C1

    @AB-C1

    3 жыл бұрын

    Sorry for your tragic loss mate 😥🙏

  • @TakeTheRide
    @TakeTheRide16 күн бұрын

    I just found your channel today. Came across this one. I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my fiance due to surgery complications. This is the part of life that really sucks. I'm so sorry. My prayers and condolences. ~ just a cello player.

  • @sarahblanchard5900
    @sarahblanchard590011 ай бұрын

    I had my 5th brain surgery at the beginning of Covid. And no one was allowed to visit for a month. I am a lot like Lee, very social, happy, adventurous and suffer from depression. My fiance lost his brother to mental illness in 2011. Lee was a beautiful person. Her light burned bright & hot! I'm glad you have these videos, to remember some of the great times! Do not go down the guilt road. It is not your fault. Mental illness is stronger than most.

  • @lermoojuelah8856
    @lermoojuelah88563 жыл бұрын

    The audacity of those dislikes... is truly heart breaking

  • @kawardle

    @kawardle

    3 жыл бұрын

    Maybe they dislike what has happened to Lee. Maybe it’s not the video or message they dislike. Let’s pray that what that means.

  • @taulguedi637

    @taulguedi637

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@kawardle I was thinking the same.

  • @EchoBravo370

    @EchoBravo370

    3 жыл бұрын

    You have to learn to say 'who cares' when things dont look how you expect.

  • @Mistuppy
    @Mistuppy3 жыл бұрын

    I commented earlier but wanted to come back and say something about online hate talk. The worst thing most of us ever learnt in childhood was "Sticks and stones can break my bones but words will never hurt me." Wrong! Wrong! SO WRONG! I'm gonna quote the inimitable Tim Minchin: "Sticks and stones can break your bones, but words can break hearts." And now I want to quote Max from this vid: "Be kind." Kindness costs nothing, but it can be a gift beyond measure. Big love, Max.

  • @phoebeatkins1235

    @phoebeatkins1235

    3 жыл бұрын

    E the one I

  • @KiwikimNZ
    @KiwikimNZ Жыл бұрын

    I just came across your channel tonight and I do not know you or Lee, but I’m crying like a baby. As a person who is very sensitive and who has suffered from depression and anxiety for most of my 53 years, I have spent many intense moments months where it has taken every ounce of my being to stay alive when I wanted so desperately to not be here. I get mental illness and I am so sorry that this beautiful human being fell victim to its devastating power of pulling her under. It is so sad and my thoughts are with all her love and are grieving for her. This life is full of highs and lows and for some of us the lows are just too overwhelming and we get extremely tired. Rest peacefully Lee, I hope that you are now free from your torment and pain. ❤

  • @judycarter4185

    @judycarter4185

    Жыл бұрын

    Thanks for the wonderful closing videos❤️

  • @c.m.303
    @c.m.3032 жыл бұрын

    I lost my husband in 2001 while I was pregnant...same way. He was such a beautiful person as well, and I wonder if maybe this world just isn't good enough for some of these souls that feel and love so deeply. I pray that you keep working on making it through each day, the first year is the hardest. The pain of that day is not forgotten, and I still miss him with all my heart...but life has continued, and I have had other wonderful experiences. It is hard, but I am sure his soul would be hurting if he understood how much it hurt me. In his memory, I go on...until we meet again. God be with you.

  • @EvaAliceD

    @EvaAliceD

    Жыл бұрын

    Sorry to hear that, take care 😘😘

  • @morpheuszzz662

    @morpheuszzz662

    Жыл бұрын

    My condolences about your great loss. I'm sure your kindness and true understanding of the situation does/has helped Lee's loved ones. It's very selfless of you to share your experience. I hope after all these years you do feel some peace.

  • @timandfin
    @timandfin3 жыл бұрын

    Max, what an incredibly beautiful ending to a very courageous video. I wanted to share with you that Lee’s story has been really life changing for me over the past 4 weeks. It inspired me to check in on my mental health for the first time in a while. After reflection, Lee inspired me to completely remove myself from Instagram stories and my life in the past month has been more filled with joy, less anxiety and we’ve had a stronger marriage. I am forever grateful to her and to you and your community for Speaking up for Lee. Her story has now truly changed my life. 💕 Continuing to keep you in our hearts, Fin

  • @jilllangelaar1457

    @jilllangelaar1457

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing this message with us ❤️ i hope you Will speak about it on youre channel (did not know youre channel) but you can see how much 1 person can change so many people 😢❤️😘

  • @jffpviana
    @jffpviana3 жыл бұрын

    She lived more in her short life than most people would live in a thousand lives. What a human.

  • @jffpviana

    @jffpviana

    3 жыл бұрын

    It means to live one life's to the fullest and actively choosing not to leave petty comments online. Have a good day, mate.

  • @rahulsinha1977

    @rahulsinha1977

    3 жыл бұрын

    my thoughts exactly

  • @rahulsinha1977

    @rahulsinha1977

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@jcoltrane8976 experiences

  • @angela32615

    @angela32615

    3 жыл бұрын

    Wow well said!!

  • @Nangaparbat-2022

    @Nangaparbat-2022

    Ай бұрын

    ​@@jffpviana Man muss doch nicht so übertreiben. 🙄 Was hat sie Großartiges getan? Es ist nur das zweite Video, das ich hier sehe, ich vermute, dass sie Reisebloggerin war? Das wäre für mich der langweiligste und sinnloseste Job überhaupt. Strand, Meer, Bungee Jumping. Das sind sinnleere Dinge für mich. Mich langweilen Reisen. Und ich will nicht 200.000 Menschen motivieren mit einem Flugzeug an "schöne Plätze" zu fliegen und für diesen sinnlosen "Genuß" die Umwelt zu zerstören. Ich persönlich würde jedenfalls extrem deprimiert werden, wenn ich dazu Videos drehen und täglich lächeln müsste. Ich würde die Kamera in die Ecke werfen und in meine Heimat fahren. Jeden Tag mehr, höher, weiter, spektakulärer. Das ist klar, dass man als Influencer innerlich ausbrennt. Ich dachte schon zweimal darüber nach, mein Leben zu beenden, (wegen PTBS/ erlebter Gewalt). Aber: Während COVID wäre ich nie auf die Idee gekommen. Zu dieser Zeit wurde nämlich mein Vater krank und ich war rund um die Uhr beschäftigt ihn zu retten. Ich hatte monatelang etwas Sinnvolles und extrem Wichtiges zu tun! Er war so dankbar. Echte Dankbarkeit und dieses glückliche Lächeln. Das ist echte Befriedigung. Das erhält den Lebenswillen. Lesen Sie Viktor Frankl, den berühmten Psychiater der gegen Suizid geforscht hat. Der fehlende Sinn ist das Übel. Eine fehlende Antwort auf "wozu das alles"? Und ich muss sagen in meinem Land gibt es unzählige Influencer, die von ihren Depressionen sprechen. Vor allem junge und sehr reiche Menschen, die alles haben, reden darüber. Zuwenig gesprochen wird bei uns definitiv nicht, es ist ein Dauerthema. Ich bin der Ansicht, dass Reisen von der eigenen Seele wegbringen. Soviel Neues. Überflutung, sinnleere Orientierungslosigkeit. Warum nicht an einem Ort bleiben und zur Ruhe kommen? Werden Sie Farmer, suchen Sie sich eine solide Aufgabe mit sinnvollem Ergebnissen. Harte Arbeit, das härtet ab. Es ist spannend all die Tiere zu beobachten und zu pflegen, oder die Ernte zu bewachen. 😣 Es ist NICHT der Genuß, der ein Leben befriedigend macht. Es ist der Sinn! Ich weiß, Sie wollten etwas Nettes sagen, @jffpviana. Aber es ist doch Unfug wenn man Dinge schönredet um "Trost zu spenden". Wenn man jungen Menschen einredet, dass man mit viel Action dann ein erfülltes Leben als Ergebnis haben, dann wird es schiefgehen. Wie ein Hamster im Rad, der ewig rennt. 🙄 Vielleicht ist genau dieser Lifestyle der Fehler. Das ist so, als würden Sie einem einsamen Witwer sagen "du bist nicht allein" sobald er auf dem Marktplatz von Venedig steht. Ja, dort sind viele Menschen, das stimmt. Und viele Menschen würden dort gerne Urlaub machen. Aber das heißt doch nicht, dass DORT die Einsamkeit des Herzens weggeht. Einsamkeit kann dort extrem hart zuschlagen. Ich finde es zudem unglaublich verwirrend, wenn in diesem Video so viele fröhliche Szenen gezeigt werden. Sowas ist nur die halbe Wahrheit und kein Mensch will Halbwahrheiten sehen. In der Werbebranche gibt es genügend davon. Um Suizide künftig zu vermeiden wird man über Auslöser konkret sprechen müssen. Ich glaube nicht, dass einem ehemaligen Lebenspartner diese Aufgabe gelingen kann. Ärzte und Psychiater sind da besser geeignet. Ich finde es auch schwierig, wenn jemand seinen Channel weiterführen will, aber kritische Kommentare zensiert. Das hilft dem KZreadr. Aber es hilft anderen nicht. Keinem lebensmüden Menschen, keinem Angehörigen, ist geholfen wenn man behauptet: "Wir hätten nichts besser machen können." Diese ewigen Floskeln blockieren die ernsthafte Forschung, die herausfinden will, ob man nicht doch etwas besser machen kann. Natürlich gilt dem Channelbetreiber mein Beileid für den Verlust. Aber ich bin es gleichzeitig leid von Hinterbliebenen zu hören "Da kann man nichts machen", während es ehrlicherweise lauten muss: "Ich konnte es leider nicht verhindern". Geben Sie der Suizidprävention mehr Chancen.

  • @cloudhorse
    @cloudhorse Жыл бұрын

    Max, thank you. You have no idea what hearing this as a 68 year old woman who sometimes feels so very isolated (post covid) and depressed has meant to me. I am so very, very sorry that you lost your beloved Lee. Mental illness is indeed as important, and actually more important than physical health. Bless and take care.

  • @sahar2629

    @sahar2629

    Жыл бұрын

    I'm 37 and used to be a social butterfly before covid despite being an introvert. I'm struggling to keep in touch with friends now, covid isolation made me comfortable with my introvert self and I can't even find the energy to go out and meet anyone. I guess we all have to relearn social skills again. Much love to you and to Lee's memory

  • @patriciaking7892

    @patriciaking7892

    Жыл бұрын

    ​@@sahar2629 same with me, and I'm 61 yrs young. Covid lockdown didn't bother me , but living around negative energies did. I'm in an environment of mostly mental people. My grandson, whom I raised from birth, is ,24 yrs old has schizophrenia. I don't have anyone to help me, the grandfather don't care, uncle don't care, the other half brother don't care. He works but refuse medical help. When he graduated from high school, he stop taking medications. I've worn myself out taking care of necessary business for him along with household matters. I appreciate everyday he goes to work. I'm taking a mild antidepressant to cope. My entire life has been spent taking care of my siblings responsibilities, parents, kids, and never having the chance to accomplish my dreams. You're not alone in this. I look out the window before I go outside cause I don't want to run into any of these nut cases. Mainly the environment I'm in is causing my depression and anxiety. I'm looking for a place to relocate, but I will let my Dr know what I'm going through. I'm considering seeling counselling too. Hope the best for you ❤. Stay blessed and safe 💞.

  • @kimwatson7463

    @kimwatson7463

    Жыл бұрын

    It’s eye-opening to read so many people of our age (I’m 67) are having the same issues. Your story could be mine. I am going to call someone tomorrow.

  • @mmamallama1827
    @mmamallama18273 жыл бұрын

    Forgive yourself for what you think you “should have” done. Lee already did. She would not want you to throw your life away with regret. Being a forgiving person requires that you also forgive yourself ♥️

  • @MarketImmersion

    @MarketImmersion

    3 жыл бұрын

    Well said. ❤️

  • @XenaTheQuadCamBikah

    @XenaTheQuadCamBikah

    3 жыл бұрын

    So true ☀️🌙💫❤️‍🩹

  • @i8zmnm
    @i8zmnm3 жыл бұрын

    Oh Max. I’m heartbroken again and again and again. She didn’t have to know someone in person to crawl inside their hearts. This is such a huge loss. I’m so sorry you have to walk this road.

  • @phoenixaleks
    @phoenixaleks2 жыл бұрын

    this video has made me consider getting help, I'm so sorry about Lee and my condolences to you and her family. I want to thank you for making me want to make the right steps to healing.

  • @peekaboopixie
    @peekaboopixie2 ай бұрын

    I come back to this video from time-to-time to specifically see the end clip of her gliding calmly in the sky. That was perfection! RIP Lee.

  • @jonlouis4263
    @jonlouis42633 жыл бұрын

    THANK YOU for this. I'm a psychotherapist and have seen close up how painful suicide can be. "We believe in being good people", there is no better epitaph for Lee. You have done us all a service and this needs to be spread throughout. Social media can be a gift (your travels to SA reminded me of my own life journeys) but it also has its dark side. Let's all be good people.

  • @jean-63

    @jean-63

    3 жыл бұрын

    Bless you. I suffer with mental illness and just last Sat. was my last suicide attempt especially after seeing this. I'm back on my antidepressants and have had a rough start but am doing a bit better now after my start date April 24/21. Please everyone, please be kind when texting on social media as you have no idea what people are going through in their lives. God bless you all and please stay Healthy & Safe. 🙏❤🙏

  • @kathy888

    @kathy888

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@jean-63 My mother always said 'you don't know what people are going through' such wise words. Love to you Jean!

  • @jonlouis4263

    @jonlouis4263

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@jean-63 You are more than your worst days. We all can be good people!

  • @Suprachiasmatic

    @Suprachiasmatic

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@jean-63 the world needs you in it. I promise you that. I know personally how hard that is to believe when you’re so deep in the pain and darkness that depression brings. But we all have a purpose here and it’s worth the fight. I’m proud of you for muscling through the hard times. Keep it up. One step forward at a time. Healing hurts like hell but it’s worth it. 💙

  • @jean-63

    @jean-63

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@Suprachiasmatic Thank you for your kind words 🙏 but I'm 57 and have been fighting this battle to long and just wish science could figure this out and cure all of us. Right now I'm fighting every day not to go through with it and when you live in a small town up North (Canada) and the health care system fails you and your mental health worker kicks you to the curb and Life Skill worker kicks you to the curb, it really makes me wonder if I should listen to my step niece that told me to go kill myself on IG for the world to see. * *TEARS* *

  • @tommynikon2283
    @tommynikon22833 жыл бұрын

    TEARS........I only "knew" Lee by your videos together, and "floored" doesn't begin to explain my own reactions to her death. I'm 65; this hit me hard....... and I have to admit, I'm only still around because I never wanted to hurt my parents if I ever went thru w/ it all. My dad is 91; it would crush him.....and that's my secret vow to self: Don't.

  • @DeborahLong7777

    @DeborahLong7777

    3 жыл бұрын

    It's only a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I can relate, I have been there. I'm 67 and have lost my whole family. Alone is harder, stick with positive people. Throw out the trash, draw lines and take care of YOU. My advice to myself as well. Jesus bless you 🕊

  • @mohummus3235

    @mohummus3235

    3 жыл бұрын

    tommy i feel the exact same way. when i learned the news i had the hardest week. haven't felt the same since. :( i struggle with depression and anxiety and know how hard it is. just know that i want you here and the only thing we can do is keep trying. things will get better.

  • @joannerodford7394

    @joannerodford7394

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing. I was in total shock when I heard the sad news and it hit me pretty hard, even though I only knew you both through You Tube. You both have such magnetic personalities. Please get all the support and help you can to cope with this difficult loss, I’ve been worried for you. 💔. Recovery is a journey and you will have good days and bad days and go through all the emotions even anger at times. Please take care! You’re doing great! Everyday will get a bit easier!

  • @danielgrayson7789

    @danielgrayson7789

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you Tommy. You just described what I felt for a very long time. The only thing stopping me was the pain would be unbearable to my mom. Losing my dad in 2014 was difficult for us both . But being the only person,by law, to have to decide to pull the plug on my uncles (her baby brother) life support in 2012 was unimaginable. I could not put her through anymore pain. I was grateful that I resources to reach out to for help. And it saddens me, yet does not surprise me, that she could not get the medical care in the US that was desperately needed. Please, everyone reading these com comments, if you are struggling reach out to someone , anyone. And those who don’t suffer from any form of depression, remember this time. No one, not one person should ever be denied mental health care in this,the so called greatest country in the world. Perhaps we should suspend using that title until we actually begin acting like it. A beautiful soul was lost and as easy as it is to point fingers, we all should look in the mirror. If you do not like you reflection, seek help. If you are sad , angry , and are tired of losing people to suicide and depression, reach back and help those in need . Pull them close . And fight for more access for all and especially mental health care. Some of us are just a family members death away from the unknown. #SPEAKUPFORLEE

  • @MHarenArt
    @MHarenArt2 жыл бұрын

    I will never be able to wrap my head around cyber bullying. It's heartbreaking to know that so many people are hateful and have ugly, dark hearts. I know this video is older, but I pray for your continued comfort, because the grief never really goes away. We learn to live with it, and that's it.

  • @kimberlyenglehardt5770

    @kimberlyenglehardt5770

    Жыл бұрын

    I’m blown away by the pathetic boredom and spite required in someone to bully such a light.

  • @giselelaslo3249
    @giselelaslo3249 Жыл бұрын

    It still touches my heart that lee lost her battle. After struggling for years with this debilitating affliction I’ve come out on the other side. Many times I never thought things would change. I feel blessed im still here whilst many like Lee lost their battles. However unfortunately we can never tell when, where and if it will hit again. For me Lee represents so many beautiful souls lost. 😢

  • @Stepsof2Foreigners
    @Stepsof2Foreigners3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for your vulnerability and courage Max. We learned a lot from this video and we can't thank you enough for talking more about mental health and cyberbullying. We wish you and Occy a lot of light and healing throughout your journey.

  • @tonifoster6253

    @tonifoster6253

    3 жыл бұрын

    Beautiful comment guys, I agree with everything you shared. Xx

  • @DPM_182
    @DPM_1823 жыл бұрын

    Anyone who dislikes this video doesn’t understand the magnitude of what you’re doing. Focus on the positive and the good in the world. It can literally change someone’s life... (Edited for grammar)

  • @MrProphetius

    @MrProphetius

    3 жыл бұрын

    probably they dont understand what the thumbs mean.

  • @TheKingJesusVibe
    @TheKingJesusVibe2 жыл бұрын

    Back in 2018, I watched you guys when I was going through my own stage of depression, your KZread channel kept me in a place of light and hope. Thank you Lee for sharing your essence and time. 🙏🏾🕊

  • @luvelvahacker8425
    @luvelvahacker8425 Жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry for your loss, I know how you feel as my husband of 15 years took his life 3 years ago struggled with mental illness. ❤️🙏😥

  • @marleeshore1387

    @marleeshore1387

    Жыл бұрын

    So sorry for your loss

  • @belizeguy
    @belizeguy3 жыл бұрын

    I can not imagine how difficult this was for you to do, and what a brave and fitting tribute to her and her life. Be well Max.

  • @0fficialnomad
    @0fficialnomad3 жыл бұрын

    For all those like myself who rarely comment, I'd like to say that our prayers are with you and Lee's family. So many that simply won't comment but their hearts are with you.

  • @anontough6907

    @anontough6907

    2 жыл бұрын

    You have no idea how many people kill themselves and no one care. A LOT of good people with good intention being left by themselves in an hopeless situation. Yet, Big corp like KZread, Google, even Gov and Biggest Corporations in the world, don't care. Been there.... My Actual Suicide tendencies just became melancholic Music... I Hate This World with Passion.

  • @patriciabebout8515
    @patriciabebout85159 ай бұрын

    I feel your pain, it must be hard but you need to be strong 😢. I had depression for years and now I am getting better life is a miracle . She is and Angel looking over you now.

  • @shirraalexander6366
    @shirraalexander63662 жыл бұрын

    How shocking - Lee seems so full of life and spirit! Who would ever be aware that somebody who gives of such a beautiful aura is in so much pain! You are so right that we must always talk about how we are feeling as I think so many people seem so embarrassed of the words mental health! God bless you Lee xxx

  • @zenseed75
    @zenseed753 жыл бұрын

    Oh Max... 💔 This video is a perfect tribute to an amazing soul. She lived a whole lot more than most people in her 28 years. Lee deserved a fighting chance. Our healthcare system is awful.

  • @MsSAMMACK

    @MsSAMMACK

    3 жыл бұрын

    It really is awful. It can take years to get the meds right and months to get in with a doctor that takes insurance. Can you imagine asking someone to hold on for that long that had cancer or diabetes. Mental illness is just as critical. People also need to understand that these serious illnesses show up in women around age 25 and men around 19 and waiting to seek help will only increase the time it takes to get depression or mania under control.

  • @chrismccreight5230

    @chrismccreight5230

    3 жыл бұрын

    God help her what a waste of a young girl

  • @zenseed75

    @zenseed75

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@MsSAMMACK agree mine started around that age, over 15 years ago... I just now got the right medication mix and dose. Thanks to Lee. 💔

  • @zenseed75

    @zenseed75

    3 жыл бұрын

    😔 Didn't even know her but think about her every single day. Wish this was a dream.

  • @MsSAMMACK

    @MsSAMMACK

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@zenseed75 I will never look at anyone on or offline the same again. Who would have thought that beautiful smile was hiding so much pain. Changed forever.

  • @ssadvweld1
    @ssadvweld13 жыл бұрын

    My therapist removed the stigma I was carrying about medication. He said when you can't see you get glasses and anti-depressants are just "glasses for the brain". They have helped me a lot. It also helped me a lot to talk to a therapist.

  • @laurahogan3247
    @laurahogan32474 ай бұрын

    Wow ...what a light she was so full of love n life ... beautiful jist absolutely beautiful ❤️ she will be missed loved and still talked about alot ...rest now Lee .💜🙏🏻

  • @kerridavis2630
    @kerridavis2630 Жыл бұрын

    Thankyou for sharing ❤️ I'm so sorry 😔 I've battled with depression for years off and on but this last year and a half has been the absolute worst 😔 I'm sending love 💕

  • @KathyM1611

    @KathyM1611

    Жыл бұрын

    You are loved, God bless you. Take care.

  • @kerridavis2630

    @kerridavis2630

    Жыл бұрын

    @@KathyM1611 thankyou ❤️

  • @Joe-hw4xq
    @Joe-hw4xq3 жыл бұрын

    Lee wasn't here for a long time, But she had such a huge impact on this world while she was here. What a powerful soul. Thank you Lee for your gift.❤️

  • @panda-wy5mk
    @panda-wy5mk3 жыл бұрын

    Honestly, Lee's death has hurt me so much. I'm so sad and angry this has happened. I just wish so so much that this didn't happen. I've cried loads, and I didn't even know her personally. What a beautiful, kind, kind, kind girl. I'm so sorry Lee. 🌻

  • @LubaAlanna

    @LubaAlanna

    3 жыл бұрын

    I feel so similarly. At the time I found out she had passed, I was struggling mentally ..and I got it. I just understood why she took her life. It made sense. And while I wasn’t contemplating it myself, it’s like my brain clicked and just said I get why people do it. And that I didn’t want to. I’ve been mentally better since but I’m grieving for Lee in ways I’ve not grieved for others. Her soul was purely angelic and I am at least grateful that so much conversation about mental health has come from her passing. So much friendship and bonds are being made through these videos. Sending love to all of us grieving our sweet Lee☀️

  • @jaynebensaad2886

    @jaynebensaad2886

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@LubaAlanna perfectly said... 💓

  • @jaynebensaad2886

    @jaynebensaad2886

    3 жыл бұрын

    Feel the same... I've cried buckets for lee since hearing of her passing... it hit my like when really loud thunder makes your heart tremble... but then I feel so ashamed of myself, ashamed of my feelings of grief. Who am I to grieve her passing? I didn't even know her, and she didn't know me, so I don't have the right to feel this way... its like a constant battle in my head. I can't even begin to imagine how her family and close friends are feeling... I feel like her passing has brought so many of my own emotions to the surface, emotions and feelings and memories I've buried for a long long time. Also, my family don't understand my grieving. They are anti-youtube as a whole... They all watch the odd video of course but the don't follow any particular channel, so they have no idea how as a viewer of Max and Lee, how we get emotionally attached to their openness... the real reality of such youtubers is what has caught us... I just hope my feeling of sympathy to Max AND Occy, and all of her friends and family will be read and heard... there hasn't been a day since that I've not thought of her and whish things had been different... Bless you all... Bless Beautiful Lee... 🌟

  • @LubaAlanna

    @LubaAlanna

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@jaynebensaad2886 I understand exactly why you feel ashamed. But know that I don’t think you should, none of us should. I think it shows our humanness to care for others this way even if we don’t truly know them in our every day life. I remember when princess Diana passed, my mom was so incredibly upset. So was a lot of the world and most didn’t know her. She’s still talked about today about how kind and caring she was. That’s our Lee! She will be remembered by us that way❤️ it’s difficult when our family and friends can’t grasp why we would feel that way but we as a community understand. We are here for one another

  • @amandasteele1610
    @amandasteele1610 Жыл бұрын

    I came across you very recently and only seen you without Lee. I'm so sorry for your loss but you're also lucky to have had that time with her. I've have lived with a partner who has had serious MH issues and hospitalised often. . He recently tried twice in the last 6 months thinking I would be better off without him. People don't understand that it could happen to them. Xx

  • @ttbko
    @ttbko Жыл бұрын

    Hey Max, I just found this again and it made me cry again. This time for different reasons. Last April I lost my soulmate, the love of my life, my best friend, my travel buddy. Some days I'm ok but far more often I'm absolutely not! You seem, in the videos you post now, to be in a better place but I suspect it's transitory so, I feel your pain. Here's to better times but here's to always remembering the person we loved and why we loved them. X

  • @katkohler
    @katkohler3 жыл бұрын

    This year, I nearly lost a friend to suicide. She Texted me and said she was going to end her life. I called the police and they were so kind to her even when she bit one of them and tore off her clothes screaming. I lost a friendship with her, but I am at peace with knowing she is still alive. She chose to no longer be my friend and I can live with that. I am truly saddened by the loss of Lee. She was a vibrant, beautiful young women who was stronger than she realized.

  • @Suprachiasmatic

    @Suprachiasmatic

    3 жыл бұрын

    Such a terribly difficult decision to make. But I’m proud of you. Having worked in emergency mental health I’ve seen the aftermath of these calls and so often I’ve seen people heal and apologize for being angry with the people who loved them enough to save their life even though it was a risk to their relationship. Even if you never get an apology you did the right thing. It takes a strong and empathetic person to risk a close relationship for the greater good. 💙 hoping the best for your friend, and for you. May all heal with time.

  • @fairyintothewild8443

    @fairyintothewild8443

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thanks, Kat, for sharing this personal story. That must have been very hard. Wishing you all the best.

  • @lorrainecalvert4635

    @lorrainecalvert4635

    3 жыл бұрын

    Everyone needs a friend like you! And I'm SO glad that the police handled it well. Sadly, that's not always the case and the police are not to blame since they are not mental health professionals. So much has to change before we can truly get those with mental illness the help they need, myself included.

  • @marielamanriquez2697

    @marielamanriquez2697

    3 жыл бұрын

    You did what was right, when she heals she will know with how much love for her you did that call

  • @jaktag

    @jaktag

    11 күн бұрын

    Fly high beautiful lady 💕🌈

  • @MrNightraider
    @MrNightraider3 жыл бұрын

    God bless you Max and to all those who suffer mental illness. We’re all sorry for Lee’s loss!🙏❤️

  • @flacoral
    @flacoral9 ай бұрын

    I'm crying as I write this. We can never know what's going on in someone's head. This is the first I've heard of Lee. Being a person of heart, myself, I can see what a beautiful person she is{not was}. I'm sorry Lee, and I'm sorry Max. I live with a mild depression of all the things that went wrong or never happened in my life. But I try to be positive and keep living as best as I can. I know it's cliche', but keep remembering the good you both had. I believe people come into our lives for a reason, even though, sometimes, we don't know or understand the reason. I know this to be true. I've missed my wife since the day she made me walk out the door. She recently passed and all I can do is NOT try to think of her. But I know you will always think of Lee and her beautiful heart. I know you don't know me but I love you both. I wish you a happy life. And to all of you who see this, FIGHT AGAINST THE NEGATIVE ! And to all of you "negatives", show some respect !!!!

  • @annibelles
    @annibelles Жыл бұрын

    You said it all so well. Nurse here. Chose to walk away from "friends" Bravely. For my mental health. 3 years of tough work in healthcare, I realised I outgrew my friends who never saw a problem, They begrudged their freedom lost. For three years, I have daily held the hands of many who sufferred through COVID. Lost jobs, lost dreams, , raising children in a far from normal world. I have grown. I have changed. I could wallow in the pits of depression, but instead I choose to raise my arms, and hope that others arms are held in mine, as we lift them high. We survived.

  • @HandyC
    @HandyC3 жыл бұрын

    I'm not very good with words. I love you Max, that's all I've got. Stay strong. ❤️

  • @helloall4013
    @helloall40133 жыл бұрын

    She was so much more than her illness...you did good Max💜💜

  • @annearmagh
    @annearmagh8 ай бұрын

    Max just watched this again in memory of a beautiful human being. Thank you for highlighting this sad time because you have brought light to a lot of people and don't ever forget this, Max. Lee was on earth to share her amazing insights but had to go for now. You will meet again like we all will. Peace and love Max. ❤️

  • @Goddess73
    @Goddess73 Жыл бұрын

    My heart goes out to you, Max. Thank you for continuing to be so amazingly strong. You are such a light in a world full of darkness. Thank you for sharing this extremely difficult topic with us. You are loved and most appreciated, Max. ❤️ Trish

  • @jayaitch88
    @jayaitch883 жыл бұрын

    Max, I’m crying along with you. We’re all crying along with you. This loss is huge and will affect this community for a long, long time. I don’t even know what more to say. Love you Lee ❤️

  • @jrwilliams6313
    @jrwilliams63133 жыл бұрын

    Godspeed brother!!! I lost my son to suicide in 2019. I understand how devastating and surreal life can be in the aftermath. Just be good to and take care of yourself, reach out and ask for help if you need it, and remember it’s okay to not be okay. Sharing this was a very brave and beautiful thing for you to do. Love and. Respect to you!

  • @aggiesart6

    @aggiesart6

    3 жыл бұрын

  • @i.sonnenschein3520

    @i.sonnenschein3520

    3 жыл бұрын

    ❤️

  • @uwdawn11
    @uwdawn112 жыл бұрын

    My heart breaks for you. Please don't carry the guilt you feel about sticking up for Lee. That's an impossible feat. I'm so grateful you've shared her story. Opening up about mental illness is important. Our son has it and your words are so kind and beautiful.

  • @Nepo.Potshangbam
    @Nepo.Potshangbam2 жыл бұрын

    I miss you so much Lee. You were a great role model to many, you changes many lives. You're still alive in my heart 🤍

  • @ruthlow4058
    @ruthlow40583 жыл бұрын

    What a beautiful tribute to an amazing young woman. I share in your grief. I lost my 25yr young daughter by suicide. Somedays the pain is overwhelming. I too suffer from depression. I guess we just hold on tight and love each other even tighter. Pls reach out if u r in pain. I don't want another mother to experience this. 💜💛

  • @Dil3MM4

    @Dil3MM4

    3 жыл бұрын

    Sending some love your way. I'm so sorry about your daughter. ❤🌻

  • @julieharpa9372

    @julieharpa9372

    3 жыл бұрын

    Sending love to you ❤

  • @jolly9872

    @jolly9872

    3 жыл бұрын

    Lots of love and warm embrace 💜🤗

  • @margoburns9085
    @margoburns90853 жыл бұрын

    Oh Max, you did so well with this video. My son suffers from chronic anxiety and depression. Everything you just shared is going to help people so much. Let's stop hatefulness. Big big hug to you from Canada. You are a beautiful person. Lee is and was an angel. Pure magic. Thank you.

  • @karenprophet-lacasse8893

    @karenprophet-lacasse8893

    3 жыл бұрын

    That’s exactly how I feel as well! I send you and Occy huge hugs also and I’m very proud and grateful for your honesty with this lovely tribute to Lee. God bless 🙏❤️🤗😔🥰🇨🇦

  • @tinalouise1764
    @tinalouise17649 ай бұрын

    So sorry for Lee's pain, and sorry for the loss of your best mate. She was a bright light in the world and just wanted to spread love everywhere.💜

  • @susie9010
    @susie90102 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing Lee’s story with us! I am so sorry for your loss. ❤️🙏🏻 My sister suffered from severe depression and passed in 2017. I find my self searching for others on YT that have had similar experiences with loved ones with depression. 🙏🏻 Looking at Lee from the outside, she appeared to have everything… beauty, adventure, family, friends, you as her partner, travel… but people don’t understand… just because you appear to have everything doesn’t mean your brain is 100%. If you are suffering from depression, please speak to someone and know that you are so loved. I wish I could have met Lee. May she forever Rest In Peace. ❤️🙏🏻 ThAnk you for sharing her with us, Max. ❤️

  • @Mushroomshay

    @Mushroomshay

    10 ай бұрын

    I lost my mom in 2013. I started experiencing depression in 2016. I came across psilocybin in 2021 and it’s been so life changing. Now I show people how to grow it. I want everyone struggling with depression to be able to access this. One works for one may not work for all but it’s worth a shot.

  • @Sweetlyfe
    @Sweetlyfe3 жыл бұрын

    A beautiful and heartfelt tribute, I lost an ex girlfriend to suicide in 1997 she was 30yrs old, the grief was brutal and I still think about her, it’s a lot harder to have to grieve so publicly and have people comment on it, and also not being able to go to Lee’s funeral makes it more difficult and the grief more complicated. Be gentle on yourself. Take care.

  • @danielgrayson7789
    @danielgrayson77893 жыл бұрын

    Brother, let me tell you that was straight courage making this video. I’m terribly sorry for your loss. Over these past couple years I’ve followed your journey together and there was no doubt of the love and bond you two shared in all of the incredible experiences discovered together. It was Occy that first brought me into your world. An Aussie lover seeing an Australian Shepard in Costa Rica? So cool. Then I watched every episode over time and I am grateful for all of it. I grieve with you for Lee was an old soul. As you said, too good for this time. Yet this is just a part of your own journey, and watching this I felt relieved and gutted. So now you must move forward and I will follow your journey, as we all will. And we will always love and remember Lee by spreading the message #SPEAKUPFORLEE You are loved mate. Now you and Occy keep sending us a postcard now and then...🐺

  • @dianaparsons7897
    @dianaparsons78972 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for the tribute to Lee

  • @FernGray
    @FernGray Жыл бұрын

    Mental health is more important than physical health.. you cannot sustain physical health without mental health.. our mind is the most powerful and instrumental organ in our body.. the body follows the mind…

  • @sashal.hawkins5010
    @sashal.hawkins50103 жыл бұрын

    Max, I have followed you, Lee & Occy since the very beginning. The three of you brought a tremendous amount of joy to life over the years. The loss of Lee is absolutely soul crushing. I was driving when I got the notification of Lee's passing and I literally yelled, Nooooo! I have mourned her death in a way I didn't think was possible for a person that I'd never met. She was a LIGHT and will continue to be a light through all of us! Her energy is still here. Her essence is still here. ❤ I've struggled with depression this year in a big way... pretending to be okay. I don't do that anymore. I've spoken out about my own mental health struggles with friends who have in turn done the same. Lee and I share the same spirit and energy. When she said that she had lost her joy and felt like she had nothing left to give to the people around her... I felt this in my core. I'm a fixer, a hugger, a laugher, a "counselor", a listener, a cheerleader and above all a lover. On my bad days, I share the sentiment of those words. My purpose in this life is to love people just as they are. My "energy" is a gift for other people and without it I feel like I'm unable to contribute. Lee's life and death have greatly impacted my life. She was one of the most beautiful souls and I believe you're correct in saying that she was too good for this world. I'm sending so much love to you and Occy and everyone who loved Lee. 🙏 - Sasha Leigh

  • @TheCorinne87

    @TheCorinne87

    3 жыл бұрын

    ❤️

  • @lindatait5326
    @lindatait53263 жыл бұрын

    My dearest Max, this is the bravest and most honest video I have ever seen. I wish I could reach through the screen and hold you close. There is a big community here who care for you and love you so very much, please take care of yourself before you take care of the world. You cannot pour from an empty cup, please fill yours to the very top. You are never alone, I’m always here. Much love to you and Occy xxxxx

  • @catherinekennedy8358
    @catherinekennedy83582 жыл бұрын

    What is wrong with humanity that people are so wicked that they can hide behind a screen and write negative comments.? Disgusting and wicked behaviour. I am so sorry for your loss and hope and pray for healing.I know it’s hard for you and it will take time to heal. God bless you and keep you safe. I’m sure she is at peace and is an Angel up in Heaven. What wonderful human beings you both are.

  • @savanahortega8648
    @savanahortega86482 жыл бұрын

    I truly appreciate you sharing! I needed to hear this! Prayers sent your way!

  • @mfnannygram
    @mfnannygram3 жыл бұрын

    Dear Max, what a beautiful and incredibly moving tribute to Lee. By sharing your own story you've amplified her message about mental health. A river of tears are flowing around the world. Peace, love, and kindness. 🙏

  • @maxdemers
    @maxdemers3 жыл бұрын

    Such a devastating news. At least she experienced more things in her short life than 95% of us will ever do in our entire life. Sending prayers to you Max, her family and everyone who loved her. 💔

  • @letsberealwithkylie167
    @letsberealwithkylie1678 ай бұрын

    I didn’t know Lee, I came into Max and Occy world when building a van…. I have started backtracking and I can’t thank you enough for shining a light on mental health and yes we all need to talk about it more. What a wonderful video - I cried and laughed and wished that I knew her. Many hugs to you Max and Occy and all that was a part of her life.

  • @aprilpadalino2503
    @aprilpadalino25032 жыл бұрын

    Sending hugs and so glad you shared this message.

  • @JitsIntoTheSunset
    @JitsIntoTheSunset3 жыл бұрын

    The most beautiful, thoughtful and rounded tribute to Lee. This was heart wrenching to watch, and yet uplifting and hopeful. Thank you for putting this together, Max. We can only image how hard it must be to go back through the hours of footage of your adventures together, and to distill your emotions and experiences into a single film. And thank you for bravely opening up about your own struggles - we truly hope you are and continue to receive the help & support you need. Sending you lots of love to you and the rest of Lee’s loved ones 💛 xx Tania

  • @crystalfrancis218

    @crystalfrancis218

    3 жыл бұрын

    ❤️

  • @leigho6658

    @leigho6658

    3 жыл бұрын

    Beautifully said

  • @awarenessvillage

    @awarenessvillage

    3 жыл бұрын

    Well said. ❤☮

  • @LatmaTVulpanstudent
    @LatmaTVulpanstudent3 жыл бұрын

    "Now I know I have a heart, because it's breaking." The Tin Woodman,, "The Wizard of Oz" Sending lots of love.❤️

  • @dianegenx
    @dianegenx2 жыл бұрын

    I cant even imagine how any person could have ever left a negative comment about Lee. That baffles me. She was the most beautiful, most positive life force I've ever seen. ❤

  • @kathyannk

    @kathyannk

    Жыл бұрын

    Their comments said nothing about Lee and everything about themselves.Unfortunately many people don't know how to handle their own pain other than to try to hurt other people.

  • @mycharmedunicorn8715

    @mycharmedunicorn8715

    Жыл бұрын

    @@kathyannksome people are just horrible. They were obviously very jealous

  • @inannaqueenofheavenandeart8915
    @inannaqueenofheavenandeart89152 жыл бұрын

    I’m sorry for your loss. I lost my two nephews on st. Pat’s day in 2018 from this illness. One in the morning and the other in the evening of that day. They was brothers. It is heart breaking that a sweet girl like Lee has left so early. She will always be with you. Peace and love to you and family and friends

  • @carolannelunan8331
    @carolannelunan83313 жыл бұрын

    I reached out to my daughter today ..... thanks to you and Lee. Lee’s death scared me as I know in depression I am not thinking clearly and making the best decisions. I am making lots of poor decisions ...... Lee gave me hope as like me getting up and accomplishing things was very difficult for her. I realized I was not alone. I saw myself in Lee even though I am her parents age. Outgoing and friendly to the world and dying inside. I tried to explain to an old friend how much I was hurting .... last September, but she cut me off after over 50 years of friendship. Some people do not understand depression or possibly are not ‘real’ friends. You both helped me to be honest and brave again even though the first time it did not go so well. As I watched you share about how much harder van life was alone my 💔 broke for you. I could feel your pain. I was glad you went to meet up with a new friend in Tasmania. I saw you genuinely having fun again! I think you are falsely taking responsibility for the online bullies ..... I thought you were very classy and heard you speak up for Lee. Guilt is anger turned inwards. You do not deserve that .....please be kind to yourself too. You are a great guy! I truly think trolls would not have listened whether you spoke up once or twice like you did or a million times. No one deserves bullies .... I say block and delete or turn comments off during vulnerable times. Model kindness and change one person at a time. I do not usually read comments left for others so I was surprised when I heard you speak up. I had no idea she had trolls. I truly think Covid isolation threw gasoline on a fire she was already fighting. Her difficulty getting the needed healthcare crippled her ability to fight ...... the bullies were the nail in the coffin. It simply was too much to deal with. The effort to put on a happy face was too much pressure. I do not think anybody could have done anything more. Lee was well loved. She needed to be home in Canada getting professional health. Her family, her friends, you and her newest partner are in my prayers. Grief is a long road and has many setbacks that hit you like waves when you least expect it. It was easy to see how much people loved Lee..... there was so much to love about her. Speaking up for Lee is really helping people. I know because it helped me speak up when I had given up. Lee’s light continues to shine bright! Sending prayers and hugs to you all. I am glad you are surrounded by friends and family. 😪🙏🥰😓

  • @terryhuffaker3615

    @terryhuffaker3615

    3 жыл бұрын

    Hope you found a better person to replace that one who rejected you.. She was not strong enough to give you the support you are needing.. I'm praying for you sweet soul.

  • @jenbarclay4679
    @jenbarclay46793 жыл бұрын

    I don’t know if I’ve ever seen anyone speak so honestly and raw about grief before. Thank you so much for this Max, I know it will move and affect and help many people 💛

  • @lynzeemckay3722
    @lynzeemckay3722 Жыл бұрын

    This story broke my heart. We all in our life time have depression. She was so young and beautiful and had a whole life ahead of her, me being a senior now knows everything that she will miss out on my heart breaks for her parents and you that have loved her, one of my daughters best friends in middle school had taken her life and my daughter now 50 with tree children know what her friend has missed out on. If they could of only known that things would of gotten better in time. Death is not the answer, it’s the end. Max there is nothing you could of done, do the rest of your life twice as fun for her to. Be kind to yourself.

  • @elizabethsmith7914
    @elizabethsmith7914 Жыл бұрын

    Thank you for speaking so honestly. I am so sorry for your loss.

  • @cathiepreece1200
    @cathiepreece12003 жыл бұрын

    Depression is a horrible disease. I too was a very outgoing and confident person, then in my late 20’s depression set in. I have been on antidepressants since then and now I am in my sixties. I am a loner and that is how I cope. Watching you and all the other van lifers is my escape, you have all helped me soooo much. You are all my extended family. It is difficult to talk out because people just don’t want to know, I don’t even speak with my three daughters as I know it upsets them and they worry about me. I am OK so long as I remember my meds. I fought against taking medication as I felt such a failure but now realise it is a chemical imbalance and not my ability to move past it. My heart goes out to you and Lee’s family and everyone effected by this great loss. We owe it to Lee to move on with our lives and enjoy ourselves, have fun and help each other, that is what she would want us to do. Thinking of you Max and Occy. 😘🙏🏻🙏🏻

  • @LilyGazou

    @LilyGazou

    Жыл бұрын

    ❤️🌺

  • @mikeschaefer6194
    @mikeschaefer61943 жыл бұрын

    Max You are the bravest man that I have ever known. It takes an Extraordinary person to bear their heart to just one but you did it to everyone for the sake of Lee. You are a shining example of what a man should be in this time of deepest sorrow. We all love you and are here for you. Thank you for passing on Lee's message to the word ❤

  • @Land_of_Oz_Images

    @Land_of_Oz_Images

    3 жыл бұрын

    Perfectly said Mike.

  • @ginaramos9050
    @ginaramos9050 Жыл бұрын

    So sorry for your loss.beautiful tribute to lee .

  • @mariondiemert430
    @mariondiemert4302 жыл бұрын

    Such a beautiful tribute to a beautiful person.

  • @pinebearclub
    @pinebearclub3 жыл бұрын

    Max... I just wanted to jump through the screen and give you a big hug bro! We are all torn over what happened, and I commend you for speaking up for Lee, for yourself, and for others who are suffering through mental illness. Thank you mate! Bryan from Vancouver

  • @TraceAiken

    @TraceAiken

    3 жыл бұрын

    Ditto… 🙏🏽❤️