Please read the full video description and watch the entire video before commenting. To all of you who have stuck with me through all of the ups and downs over the years: I appreciate you more than you will ever know. Thank you ❤️

@Gumby703

3 жыл бұрын

Have you considered that she might be Gay? And she likes you ?

@becnimi

3 жыл бұрын

@@Gumby703 That doesn't make it any less worse. If someone liked another person, they wouldn't stalk and harass them. Not only that, but Cari is deleting negative comments and trying to brush this off like it never happened...it's super weird and not what another person does when they like someone.

@OnlyMarriedKorean2TranslateBTS

2 жыл бұрын

But why is your narrative focused on her youtube followers ? To me , you talked more about social media moreso than what the title says . Followers and obsession with it and so on . All KZreadrs have a persona all workers go to work and put on a smile . Everyone is somewhat fake and only shows what they want to people . Kpop , actors and so on . But this video is your therapy and whatever makes you feel better . Good luck to u and your future .

@bishopmusa1997

2 жыл бұрын

instablaster.

From talking about seeking validation on social media, to not getting closure, even to how parents can make mistakes.. This was actually so relatable and I really respect how consistent you are in still choosing to take the high road by not stooping to Cari's level while still allowing yourself to express how you feel (which is valid). It felt like listening to a friend. Thanks for opening up to us Rachel. *hugs*

Girl, yes to you speaking your truth or should I say THE truth. She should count her lucky stars every day that she didn't try this on someone else because she could've faced serious legal and criminal consequences when looking at the extent of the damage that was done. It would have been the end of her potential career and then some. I still remember our conversation after everything had come to light, I know we were both hurting, although in different ways but the way you were handling the situation was on some other mature level that I don't even know if she truly deserved. But as long as you were good and were taking care of your mental health, that's number one- and now with you opening up to speak on it...you are in your every right. If there's anyone who doesn't think that- imma fight.

@ohjaymarie

3 жыл бұрын

Preach. 😬

@katieokitty

3 жыл бұрын

If my best friend isn’t as amazing supportive and caring as yo’ homegirl I don’t want it 😤

@YOHOMEGIRL

3 жыл бұрын

@@ohjaymarie right and after I came to terms with what happened on my end of the situation, I was ready to throw down, best believe I was.

@corazones002

3 жыл бұрын

After learning about what happened, I had so much respect for Rach and how she chose not to publicly drag that person (even though she had every right to). As a victim of bullying myself, I could never support someone (like Cari) who did so much damage to another person, even if it was a long time ago. Hits too close to home for me. We love you, DearSeoul!

@15Banshee

3 жыл бұрын

Rachel is too nice!!!

To anyone else who is frustrated that Cari is walking away from this with very few consequences: Rachel was right when she said that social media isn't "real" and it's not the full picture. I highly doubt that Cari's life is anywhere near as perfect as it looks on social media. Cari has to live with what she did for the rest of her life and whatever toxic mindset allowed her to cyberbully/stalk a stranger for almost a year (not as a teenager but as 26/27-year-old!) doesn't just go away after 3 years and some therapy. I hope that Cari has learned from this, but I unsubscribed from her channel. And to Rachel, if you're reading this: you seem like such a kind and gentle soul and I'm so sorry you went through this. The way you speak about all you went through shows so much maturity and strength. I don't know you but I can't help but wish you all the happiness in the world

@kora4185

3 жыл бұрын

Fantastic comment!! It really made me think because my family went through hell duo to my narcissist step-mother and in the end, as much as it was insanely hard to put our pieces together, we somehow did, but she didn’t (even though it may seem like she did) because she’s still the same broken person, who was either born that way or was raised terribly to make her that way, so that in itself it’s her karma, and not even her deserves that...

@ItsFran.

3 жыл бұрын

Wait is it cari the KZread who loves reading books currently living in Korea!!!?????

@diamondhawkins8538

3 жыл бұрын

Which youtuber is this? I dont want to accidentally support someone who is insensitive to other creators yknow?

@madison1275

3 жыл бұрын

@@ItsFran. yeah it's cari cakes / cari can read. It sucks because I liked her book channel but there's lots of great booktubers out there who deserve your support more

@Carlito1980

2 жыл бұрын

Im remember hearing bout this drama back in the day cause i was subbed to both channels but never knew wtf happened between them. I remember Rachel had a korean stalker and thats all. Can you fill me in on what happened?

“Your apology needs to be as loud as your disrespect was” People are out here bullying others for YEARS, causing all this trauma, and then expect people to “let it go” with a one-time, halfhearted apology. Sorry, but no. Love you, DearSeoul. We’re on this healing journey with you. ❤️

@lbvg1013

3 жыл бұрын

I concur with you 💯

@adamkondracki3201

3 ай бұрын

​@@lbvg1013concrete is so strong! So we DO agree strongly 😊💪 I hope she has happy days 😊 ❤❤

I don't think it was because she assumed you were a bad person or anything. She did it because she was jealous, as simple as that. Jealous of you, your growth, your followers, your beauty and your success. And it's incredible how her fans refuse to see what she did.

@tigerlover34

3 жыл бұрын

I agree with this 100%

@gabbiebobbs3543

3 жыл бұрын

Agreed!!! She had to take out her competition!

@shannon2748

3 жыл бұрын

I agree. Cari Cakes is actually creepy and I saw that right away.

@victoriatroncoso6905

3 жыл бұрын

LMAO what was Cari going to gain from stalking her?

@15Banshee

3 жыл бұрын

@@victoriatroncoso6905 well, she got exactly what she wanted, since Rachel quit KZread because of her.

She kept deleting my comments. It upsets me that fans can just excuse someones behaviour so easily. "She apologised get over it"but yet she goes on like normal nothing has effected her. I have had mean stuff said to me in the past and it stays with you forever whilst they move on.

@SoulReaver

3 жыл бұрын

What did you write though?

@shannon2748

3 жыл бұрын

She deleted some of mine, too.

@SoulReaver

3 жыл бұрын

@@shannon2748 what did you write?

@maryhiano9154

3 жыл бұрын

There's a good number of ex-fans or even current fans of cari who spoke up about her very unapologetic apology, but comments were deleted too.

@Danie9121

3 жыл бұрын

She deleted my comment too and kept the ones forgiving her. It's so upsetting that I followed and supported her for years without knowing she did this...

One thing that still upsets me is how much Cari preaches about positivity and empowering others (typically women) and yet she stole a literal year of your life as a result of her har*ssment, cyber b*llying and cyber st*lking. Like, if this were a male youtuber that had done this we all know his channel would have been canceled... like, where’s that same energy when it’s another woman doing it??? Why was she so easily forgiven??

@Lrbrz

3 жыл бұрын

This. I agree completely

@MomotheFuzzyUnicorn

3 жыл бұрын

I totally agree. It has given me such bad vibes too after finding out what she did and she still continues to preach these things but not fully acknowledge her own issues. My friend always told me something seemed off about her when I showed her caris videos and she called it 🤷‍♀️

@alumiuquer3993

3 жыл бұрын

I mean if you don't forgive then dont. Were only viewers, the only one who can forgive her is her victim.

@ekm.91

3 жыл бұрын

@@alumiuquer3993 Absolutely, I completely agree with you! I guess I should have expanded on my comment. My point is why were other women so willing to accept and “gloss over” everything Cari did when they wouldn’t have tolerated if it were a man. They would have unfollowed en masse and demanded his account be taken down, etc. because that’s the kind of unstable behavior that gets womxn killed. And at the time, I was surprised to see so many women condoning Cari’s behavior just because she “apologized” in a lame 6 minute video (where she didn’t even address the fact that she also har*ssed other youtubers.) It just seemed odd considering how much Cari touts supporting/protecting womxn, but then she went and destroyed someone’s life/YT career

@shinyeee1709

3 жыл бұрын

The situation was absolutely in the wrong of Cari. Her actions were things that affected Rachel’s life. But with that being said people learn and they change for the better (hopefully). Just as a human/person, I’d rather her be a changed person and empowering others rather than dwelling on her past to define her as a person. However it’s an unfortunate situation for Rachel and she has her absolute right to feel how she feels. As her followers, we can only wish and hope that she can find the peace she needs at her own pace and heal.

When you first started your channel years ago I LOVED your content so much and I had always felt sorry and wondered what happened. She is extremely lucky you never pressed charges and didn't expose her immediately. I'm so glad you finally feel comfortable enough to speak about it. Your experience is YOURS and it is up to you how you process it. Here for you girl 💖

It makes me so sad and angry Cari moved on and her channel has grown while she harassed you and this impacted your channel and happiness.

@robynjohnson8116

3 жыл бұрын

I feel this. I know she said she doesn’t want to “put all this” on Cari, but look at what trauma Cari has given her. She should be held accountable for this and face some real consequences.

@AR777bomb

3 жыл бұрын

What's cari's channel?

@Charmedious

3 жыл бұрын

@@AR777bomb Cari cakes

@TomNook.

3 жыл бұрын

cari definitely got out of jail free

she deleted my comment last week when i tried to defend rachel from someone in the comment section. cari’s excuses are so weak. rachel really is being the better person. it’s actually so annoying that she is deleting comments. like it wasn’t negative what i was saying. i just said what rachel said from her tiktok’s how it affected her and the ppl in her life and that commenter was just writing it off like cari made a minor mistake… like??? what rachel went through was horrible and scary.

Just stumbled on this a year later, but just wanted to pray for your healing. I pray your heart be healed from this trauma and may God redeem all that was lost. Although I haven’t experienced what you have publicly, I have experienced private toxic relationships for decades (I’m much older than you), and I know how difficult it is to heal. May you be surrounded by love and peace and find your joy again in posting on KZread. I’m so sorry what you went through and admire you didn’t disclose details despite your suffering. That was very mature of you. I pray for your total restoration and that you will find love, joy, peace, and happiness on your journey! ❤️❤️❤️ There are so many that love and support you, and you’re doing great. Keep going. KZread or social media is not an easy journey when you’re not feeling great behind the scenes. I also stopped posting on social media for a while on my other account because of trauma as well. May you find healing through the journey of posting again. Don’t let any negative feelings keep you hiding. Let your light shine. ✨😁

What happened to you was traumatic, it’s gonna take a lot to be able to move past that, if people don’t realise that then they’ve never experienced trauma. Be gentle with yourself 💖 Sending you tons of love!

I’m a newer subscriber and just felt like first saying I adore your videos and they always make me smile! I just love your personality and seeing you be raw like this is very inspiring. I also want to add... I know this was probably hard to talk about, even edit, and especially live through... and I’m so, so sorry for the pain you’ve experienced. Extremely sorry. But now I understand why you have such a beaming aura of confidence. And you’ll only get stronger. Girl, your life is already bright and it’s only going to get brighter✨ Much love! 💕

You had every right to make a full-blown angry video years ago in response to this and exposing her but you didn't, your followers can definitely tell you're a very mature person. And the fact that cari was so late and hesitant in posting her apology video says a lot about her character too

@kylie4ever

3 жыл бұрын

the only reason she made that "apology" video was because she got called out. it seems she was more than happy to keep everything under the rug and pretend it never happened.

@mimishimaineko1173

3 жыл бұрын

@@kylie4ever I don't assume anything about the feelings/thoughts of others, nor their intent.

@kylie4ever

3 жыл бұрын

@@mimishimaineko1173 and what's the point of your comment?

@kylie4ever

3 жыл бұрын

@@livingig7469 I'll assume and believe whatever i want if i think there's enough proof. Now, since both your comments added absolutely nothing important to the conversation i suggest you move on with your lives and have a good day :)

I just want to say how shocked and angry I am that Cari stalked you and has totally gotten away with it. The whole situation and how unjust it is makes me ill. I respect your wishes 100% but there should have been some legal action against her. She basically committed a crime against you and despite that you've been so calm and civil throughout. I can't stand the fact she tries to pass herself off as this beacon of positivity and kindness even though she made you fear for your safety and attacked your loved ones. I have literally watched you for ages and I even lived in Seoul for two years myself. I find your content so funny and relatable. You are legit the most real and down to earth Korea based KZreadr I've watched. Keep posting because you are thriving sis.

I was truly disappointed in Cari when I saw that video that I had to unsubscribe to her channel. I truly couldn’t support her after hearing “her side” and TO ME... just my opinion she glazed over a lot of things, and swept a lot under the rug. And didn’t seem genuinely apologetic. You can’t just traumatize another person and not have any repercussions to their actions. I’m sorry for what happened to you The Real Ones are still here! For you gurl!

@Rae-wv6ic

3 жыл бұрын

I felt the same. Her apology was short but also came off preemptive to me, and while I won't know the depth of what happened, imo, that made me think whatever did happen was more than Cari made it seem in her vid. I just... I couldn't support her, just like I don't support certain actors, authors and directors. Some made me more sad/upset and conflicted than others but if I wouldn't condone it in a real life relationship I don't feel great about doing so if they're famous, so I don't.

@gabbiebobbs3543

3 жыл бұрын

@@Rae-wv6ic I agree! 100% you can’t just attempt to ruin some ones life. And IMO Cari probably wanted to be Rachel in a way... Rachel and Jay were definitely on the up and up when their channel first came out. And I think it’s interesting now that Rachel took a break and Cari “magically” has all of these subscribers it’s totally not a coincidence to me. 🤷🏾‍♀️ just saying...

Just the fact you are still being so careful and caring about other's feeling even after they've done so much to hurt you speaks volumes about your character and kind heart ❤️

So proud of you being for so brave about talking about this. Once I found out about what happened with Cari I unsubscribed and never looked back, everyone was way too forgiving and she moved on SO quickly from the situation. For someone that promoted positivity and trying to be mentally healthy using social media, that was so hypocritical for her to do to you. I wish something like this never happened to you, your content and passion was so great in your videos. The universe owes you alot of love and good things, what goes around comes around ❤️

I’m so glad you decided to share this, I remember asking you about this via Instagram and was extremely shocked and disgusted with cari as an avid watcher of you both. You deserve to tell your side especially when the girl only posted an apology cause she got called out ......

I am really glad that you found the courage to come back on KZread and speak your truth after what happened to you. The way you handled this situation as well as how you shared your thoughts in this video shows everything people need to know about this whole situation, especially Cari's viewers. Thus, I am so happy to see you have great friends supporting you such as Jay Marie and Yo' Homegirl-- you really deserve the world and I hope nothing will ever stop you from the things you want to do. So glad you are back, hope that you are feeling somehow better about this whole situation; hope you were able to heal from this traumatic experience. Been there since day 1 and counting, we love and support you girl-- take care

i love your honesty and relate a lot to your values & way of seeing things. not everybody will get it, but i think it's more important to be openly authentic & human, than to be perfectly pleasing to the world. this video is so vulnerable and real - thank you for your courage & for showing up as you are. the ones who support you, support the real you, through the ups and downs :)

finding peace after things like this is super hard, but i hope you're able to find solace in the good in your life and move towards healing!! your feelings and you opening up about this, now or ever again, is completely valid. anyone who says otherwise has no idea how impactful trauma like this is on people and how it literally reshapes how you see and interact with the world. it's hard, but i'm rooting for you and will support you in your future endeavors! stay safe!!

What makes me so upset is how Cari just promotes the happy, positivity vibes but she didn’t want to open up about how she ruthlessly haras$ed and stalked and threatened someone just purely out of jealously and nothing directly????? Cari when she finally got outed she just made a small what was is 10 minute or so apology ON KZread. Not directly Btw blamed her mental health and moved on back to her regular happy sunshine BS. I was bullied when I was 12-15 and I’m 23 today and it still affects me people want us to forgive and forget but Ffff that people need to be help accountable especially for affecting someone so much that she ponders on what her life could of been like if she wasn’t so traumatized!? Do better Cari.

@jazzyr5579

3 жыл бұрын

Sorry correction a 6 minute apology* just enough time to apologize for years of hurt 👍🏼

@Marko50000

3 жыл бұрын

@@jazzyr5579 Cari? Like Cari cakes??

@sallibyul4697

3 жыл бұрын

@@Marko50000 yes

@luckycarolineDC

3 жыл бұрын

Exactly lol I immediately stopped watching her videos

@molly139

3 жыл бұрын

I agree. Not to mention plenty of people have mental health issues, but that doesn't lead them to bullying and stalking...that's no excuse!

To be honest, after caris apology video I felt upset that more of her viewers didn’t seem to hold her more accountable. I used to respect her and enjoy watching her videos but I stopped after finding out what she did and no longer think highly of her at all. But I notice her fan base seemed to falter only slightly or comment on it in that moment and then just continue on. But that just doesn’t seem to sit right and like others have mentioned caris actions don’t seem to speak very much of showing true apology. I’m just so sorry you had to go through this and it’s disappointing someone did this to you in the first place.

@TheVocaLove

3 жыл бұрын

Omg same I literally couldn’t enjoy her videos anymore

@seachelles7

3 жыл бұрын

I was shocked to see how many of her fans were trying to comfort her after she admitted (in an extremely glossed over way) what she’d done.

@Mimlou

3 жыл бұрын

Same! I stopped following her as I could see through the fakeness now..The veil was lifted and revealed an ugly side I could not ignore...

@arose8083

3 жыл бұрын

I used to watch Cari’s videos but I don’t plan to going forward

@senamarienne

3 жыл бұрын

I couldn’t continue to support her after that video. I was just so shocked

This whole situation seriously still blows my mind! I was subbed to both of you back in the days & even when you left KZread I stayed subscribed & would check in every so often. Knowing that Cari’s channel grew so much in the time she harassed you off the platform is so dark to me, and her non apology video & her actions after (deleting comments, downplaying her actions & generally acting like it was not a big deal) is really scary. I unsubscribed straight away & flag any of her videos that end up on my feed as ‘not interested’ I still cant get over how nonchalant she is about the whole thing & it shows how manipulative she is that she glossed over the details because of how personal it is to you knowing that you wont speak on it fully.

Honestly this video was not mean or nasty at all, just like actually honest about how it feels to have someone with a huge audience harass you for a year and move on like nothing happened... you're super chill and doing a really good job!! I'm so sorry she did that to you!

I always felt she handled things in the the bare minimum way and tried to make it seem like she was deeply apologetic but never truly owned up to what she did. I didn’t know she was deleting comments and that makes me so sad that your narrative is being rewritten for you by strangers who believe a sanitized version of what happened. Never feel obligated to upload but we’re all in your corner with whenever and whatever you choose to do with you channel. ❤️❤️❤️

@ekm.91

3 жыл бұрын

No wonder my comments weren’t showing up on her apology video... I posted like two times and nothing happened so I figured she was filtering the comments. Then I found out she went on Instagram and blocked me even though I wasn’t even following her lol. I wouldn’t be surprised if she blocked everyone who called her behavior out... makes me feel even worse for Rachel knowing most of Cari’s followers will likely never know the full extent of what she did or how it hurt others since Rachel wasn’t the only victim that she har*ssed

@kylie4ever

3 жыл бұрын

@@ekm.91 the fact that they dont know the extent of her actions/choose to ignore what happened, means it's purely their fault for supporting cari blindly (accepting one side of the story) and stupidly continuing to do so. I mean the fact that she did something as horrible as what she did should raise tons of red flags about her as a person and yet she's still somehow thriving 🤷‍♀️ (*cough* thanks to ignorant followers *cough*)

@oliviam469

3 жыл бұрын

@@ekm.91 wait i haven’t watched the video yet, she harassed MORE than rachel?!

@ekm.91

3 жыл бұрын

@@oliviam469 I also follow Nathalie (itsyohomegirl on KZread) and when everything came out about Cari, Nathalie alluded to the fact that someone was spreading rumors about her similar to what Rachel experienced, and the worst part is that this person was also pretending to be her “friend” in real life. I don’t know more than that since it was from a short TikTok and Nathalie didn’t name drop, but still - it’s obvious Cari was intentionally trying to sabotage other youtubers

i found your channel through cari's apology video - she was one of my favourite youtubers before i found out about this situation, after which i had to unsubscribe. i've been stalked before by a stranger who i had also done nothing to - i truly hope humanity grasps that not everything is two-sided

Urgh I just love you ! The way you are so soft spoken and your whole vibe is just contagious.

I literally never comment on youtube videos but I just want to say that you are so strong! You don't come across as less of a sweet person, you are far more gracious than many (including myself!) would be when faced with what you've been through. Sending love ❤️❤️❤️

i had been wondering why you haven’t posted on youtube for awhile. i was upset when cari posted about what she did. i quickly unsubscribe to her. i don’t see how she moved on so quickly. i hope the future treats you well.

I remember watching cari’s apology and reading how much support she got for...hurting someone else but apologizing anyways. As a long time viewer of you (and someone who was bullied in the past) the fact that the instigator can just get off and be forgiven so easily while people are coming for the victim of the entire situation really just hurts. I wish you the best moving forward and that this video was healing for you. 🥺🥺❤️

@joduo

3 жыл бұрын

honestly... the amount of people that forgave her but that wasn't your position to forgive her, it was rachel's?? as someone whos been bullied before too it was really a slap in the face 😞

@loveecrashx

3 жыл бұрын

@@joduo this is what really annoyed me too..there were so many comments saying "it's okay, it's a mistake, we forgive you :)" like...you don't even know the full extent of what happened, how can you just say it's okay? and like you said, it's not their position to forgive her in the first place.

@batsugame1

3 жыл бұрын

i was baffled by the amount of people i saw in cari's comments talking about "i was a bully once too and i understand how you feel, we all make mistakes" like... what kind of response??

@Victoria-yo6pm

3 жыл бұрын

@@batsugame1 I think the thing that pisses me off is her deleting any negative comments off the video...like girl, that is NOT helping your case. Don’t try to hide what’s been done because that will come back to bite you. I just hope Rachel is doing ok because this entire situation is just so shitty and no one deserves this

@BBaaaaa

3 жыл бұрын

@@batsugame1 yes! I saw several comments of people admitting to stalking, art theft and cyberbullying all saying that "I did the same, so we understand you ❤️" like... how can they normalize this type of stuff?

I'm so sorry things were so awful for you, thank you for sharing your story as well. I had been subscribed to Cari for a long time and had no idea she was capable of something so malicious. I don't feel like I can support someone who has done something so horrible, and Ive come to see what a lovely and honest person you are from your youtube and our interactions on IG. I hope things continue to go well for you, and will be supporting your channel! ❤️

I will nevvvver see Cari the same ever again. Truly disturbing, revolting behaviour. Love to you Rachel 💗

@bobababy6089

3 жыл бұрын

Sameeee. I had to unsubscribe

@abigailsalmanac

3 жыл бұрын

Same. It was shocking and horrific and I can never look at her the same way.

@lorgabluc

3 жыл бұрын

Same here

@yunex7

Жыл бұрын

Learn to forgive and forget. Cari may not be the same today. Maybe she learned from her mistakes. Why you all point out so intensely her bad actions? Move on! You should condemn your OWN sins in the same way you condemn her sins. Yes, it is right to judge rightly and expose the bad actions, we must do it, but THEN you must forgive and give one more chance to that person.

@V3r0n7ca

Жыл бұрын

@@yunex7 no

I found out about you through Cari's apology and of course I stopped following her and started following you. We are the same age and I feel like I'm listening to a friend. I really admire your honesty and claiming your story as your own. I'm sure it was so hard to do. Thanks for sharing your story. I really loved how you said that you are a sweet person and you can say difficult truths. People are multi faceted and the internet doesn't have enough space to encapsulated the whole human experience.

@ugarteg8563

2 жыл бұрын

Is it Cari Cakes?

@asiram16

2 жыл бұрын

@@ugarteg8563 yes

I remember, when you first talked about a stalker but didn't want to say what who or what it was about. I happened to stumble upon Cari's apologetic video and then I knew. I was surprised that she would be the one that traumatized you. I was very disappointed in her, that she does that to you based on her own insecurities. You always were so sweet and positive on all your videos from the early videos with your sister. Till now doing this all by yourself. Please stay positive as always, we care and love you, and will always support you. 🥰❤️

I still remember when Cari posted that video about her "confession". I immediately unsubscribed and subscribed to all of your SNS. I felt so angry and betrayed and upset that she hurt you like that 😢 I hope nobody tells you to be quiet. It's okay to have emotions about those horrible things she did to you. Take as much time as you need to recover from it ❤️

@sandralazarus6772

3 жыл бұрын

You are sad

I unfollowed Cari. Im sorry but I cannot support a bully

And also I am honestly soooooooooooo happy you're active on KZread again, you were and are seriously one of my favorite people to watch because your edits and humor + South Korea is my cup of tea 🥺💕

I think the worst part of it is cari is trying so hard to portray this image of positivity and empowerment that her fans can't even comprehend that she really did this stuff. it's the dangers of only believing what you see from these types of content creators that makes this all so dangerous and almost blows over the real realities

@TM-wt5wq

2 жыл бұрын

@@helen-marie3562 are these comments also not in turn bullying Cari? How do two wrongs make a right? "There was *always something off" is literally word for word bullying which is exactly what you're supposedly protesting

@hamnaraza779

Жыл бұрын

@@TM-wt5wq well ,she should taste her own medicine.

@sleepy.timaeus.arts.

Жыл бұрын

i agree. we shouldnt see someone's online person and think that's the full truth of who they are in real life, and the same way of thinking someone in real life will act the same way online (like parents who cant believe their angel child would cyberbully). the thing is, we need to view everyone as humans, plain and simple. everyone's got a mix of good and bad in them, and it's easier to just view everyone neutrally instead of putting them on a pedestal & thinking these /strangers/ would never harm someone. we dont know them personally, only what they show. if we accept that the person we're watching/interacting with online is a human capable of good and bad, then we dont fall into disappointment or shock. i dont think there's anything wrong with wanting to spread positivity, even if you are being hypocritical. not to excuse her wrongdoing, but everyone does bad things (some worse than others ofc). despite these bad choices, you can still want to be a better person or even want to see the world be better than you

@9cloudrachel207

Жыл бұрын

It’s the dangers of assuming that what you see from people online is every part of that person. EVERY influencer has things like this in their past or present, humans aren’t black and white, they aren’t all good or all bad. That’s the lesson we need to finally learn

I love the honest vibes. What happened is truly horrible. A real nightmare of anyone despite beeing a contant creator or not. We sometimes really are too forgiving, but that does not change the past. I admire you so much for coming out of it stronger, and as you said ... cheers to a new, clean page. Wish you happiness and peace. 💜🙏

I gotta say, I never comment on videos. But I need on this one. You're a gorgeous person, and I'm so sorry you had to go through all of this. You have all the right to tell your side and I'm glad you did. I hope this will help you move on and hopefully give you the will to continue posting here. I find your sense of humor SOOOO amazing. You're actually the only youtuber I laugh out loud while watching. You're so funny and genuine, not afraid of saying what needs to be said and I love you for that. I actually watch you for you and not for Korean content. Hope you'll only feel better from now on!

Sometimes shedding your own light on something can help you feel like a weight lifted off your chest. You didn’t owe us explanation to the extent you did but I am so happy you now feel comfortable enough to do it. Especially because it will most likely feel a bit more relieving to you to tell your truth after Cari made that video and is policing the comments to brush over really deep damage she did to others. It’s the lack of accountability on her part that definitely leaves a bad taste from that attempt of an apology video she did. I’ve been stalked as well (although not exactly to the extent as in w/ your case) and it’s an awful feeling and can lead to your own sense of paranoia around wondering what that person is gonna do/say about you next or what things they’ll try to do to the people close to you. Still I am trying to get out of the paranoid mindset and forgive more as well. I’m so happy you were able to forgive her because you deserve to spend all your energy on yourself and go be happy and free. Always rooting for u Rachel -Katie :)

I used to love the content Cari was posting and I was a subscriber for a fair amount of time. Then she posted that apology video. To me,in that video she didn't seem genuine at all. She posted it because your tiktok was getting attention if I remember correctly. As someone who doesn't have any connection to your story I still got really really mad at people who decided to still support Cari after that. I'm not trying to send hate to Cari,but after that I just couldn't continue to support her. I couldn't comprehend how can someone do that to another person. I'm really sorry that you had to go through all that and I hope you can move on from this and continue to post on youtube, because you seem to genuinely enjoy it. Sending you lots of love and support ❤️❤️❤️

I really admire your strength and resilience ❤️ I'm so glad you can be honest with us and I'm so happy to see you posting more! I hope talking about your pain helps to heal your heart a bit..

I’ve really enjoyed this channel for so long and I’m so happy you’re beginning to feel comfortable on the platform again. I appreciate your honesty and grace in how you spoke about everything. We could use a lot more of that in people. I hope it helps you to continue to heal 💛💛

“People only shows you what they want to show you” but what they show you is not always real. I always believe that one person has many different faces and that doesn’t mean that the other faces wasn’t real. Anyway, i’m happy for you to finally confronting your feelings now even if you might think it is a bit late. I believe that everyone just choose to do what is the best for them that time, and that doesn’t mean it was a bad choice because at that point, u thought it was the best choice u had. What is important now is that you decide to confront it and choose a better decision now. Wish you all the best, Rachel!

Tbh I’m so glad you posted this video. You have every right to talk about any situation you went through and how it made you feel. Traumatic experiences like this can really take a huge toll on a person’s mental health and I hope more people understand the results of their actions when they bully/harass/etc. Thank you for sharing with us and wishing you all the best💘 we all love and support you!!!💗💗

I watched all of your videos and kept this one to watch last and honestly I admire and love you even more…you’re such a nice and kind person and I love every video and literally anything you put up on your KZread channel and all of your other social medias💚 I love your shorts but also hope I can see more of your videos cuz you can do any video and it’ll be so great✨ I was even thinking about if you had a podcast I would definitely listen to it cuz you have such a lovely, warm and calming voice! And I know it’s kind of late but I do believe these kind of people who hurt others and don’t even try to accept their fault and apologize properly will get their karma and I’m so sorry that you experienced something so scary and hurtful. So much love to you💚

i've been a subscriber for quite a while and was one of cari's until she revealed her true self. The way she marketed herself to be the girl next door who can't do no wrong really came into play with her audience. I don't blame why you kept yourself away from youtube, especially since things seem to be worse than what is being known to us. I hope you continue on your healing journey and you can come back to us whenever you're ready, I'll be waiting for your content until then

People usually say that forgiveness is the key to happiness and move on, an sometimes no, if you don’t feel like forgiving (what is completely normal) you don’t have to. Why you should forgive her? I mean, I’m tired of people saying that we have to forgive, and maybe some people are able to and that helps them, but some people aren’t able to, and that’s completely fine, so don’t feel bad for that

I subscribe to both of you, and really had no idea about what went down....still really don’t...but I am thankful you still release videos. I’m glad your ok! I hope things go well for you!

One thing that always rubbed me the wrong way about her even before this whole thing went down is how desperate she seemed to be for views and subs, like you said. I remember she would get so panicky if her videos weren't showing up in people's notifications and would make multiple Instagram and KZread posts about it, telling people to watch her videos because she wasn't getting as many views as she wanted...but I mean I know a lot of youtubers do this so it's not just her. It just rubs me the wrong way when they're so open about the fact that they're only in this for the clout. Idk that's just my opinion.

I wish you all the love Rachel, and hope you'll be able to heal from this shit, cuz I know how a traumatic past haunts a person every single day... love xx

This is insane. Cyberbullying is serious. A week ago a KZreadr just comitted suicide because of cyberbullying. Most of the cyberbullying was lead by another KZreadr. I've been subscribed to your channel since the very beginning and have always admired how genuine and down to earth you've always come off. You truly are an incredibly strong person and so glad you're posting again!

you have such grace, beauty and emotional intelligence, and i admire your kindness so much but being kind doesn’t always mean being nice and sweet. i think we all understand that and you have every right to feel whatever it is you’re feeling. just like you said, the camera can be deceiving but i feel like you have such a genuine heart. you have 100% of my support!! sending you lots of love 💕

What she did was so disgusting. After watching her apology video I completely stopped watching her. Her apology is bs and something she only did because she thought she was being exposed.

@cerenslayengel6003

3 жыл бұрын

EXACTLY!!

@abigailsalmanac

3 жыл бұрын

Yep. Same. I could just never look at her the same way again.

@Anneart05

3 жыл бұрын

@@abigailsalmanac what is her name

@abigailsalmanac

3 жыл бұрын

@@Anneart05 CariCakes

I hope that doing this video and posting it was freeing you in some way. I followed you since day one and just wanted to tell you that I am proud of you for doing this. Just know that you never failed doing this youtube thing, quite the opposite actually. You are a genuine soul and I am thankful that you didn’t force yourself doing something that didn’t feel right just to please others. You might not have the most following, but those who do support you, really support YOU and have your back 💯. 💜

I think it's understandable that you're still talking about this. You went through a trauma...it was a horrifying experience for you and your boyfriend that rendered you guys helpless. Have you thought about working through this in therapy? It would help so much. ❤️

I've said it before and I'll say it again, you're my favourite KZreadr! And I'd be so happy to watch you on Twitch! Keep going strong, we all appreciate it so much

I love watching your videos (will definitely stay subscribed lol) and I hope you are able to heal from this because no one deserves what happened to you 💛💛

Just want to say I'm so happy and thankful every time you post a new video! I hope you have a good day!

You need to tell your truth whichever way you see fit ALWAYS! This story is yours to tell!!! It always has been, I’m glad you were able to let off a bit more steam 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 whoever has a bit more contact with you KNOWS the truth. And you know the truth, and it’s all that matters. And if someone doesn’t like it that’s their own problem. The fact she deleted all negative comments says all we need to know tbh. It was obvious to me and a lot of people that she sugarcoated the whole thing so she wouldn’t look as bad.... but she’s the only one losing with that behavior. And your makeup looks beautiful AND I love that jumper so much!

Hi, I know this is late and so you probably won't see this but I just wanted to say this video is helping me get my head back into the right space. I've had an ongoing situation (more irl than online) that is similar (foreigners in Korea, being st*lked, h*rassed, b*llied online) and it is very hard to keep myself from descending to her level. I saw your video when I again wanted to descend to the other's level just because I am so tired of it all and it helped reset my mind again (for a while at least).

I remember the first youtuber based in korea I ever watched was you and then Cari. For so long I watched her videos without really knowing what was going on backstage and I’m really sorry for not acknowledging how fake she was for so long. It really surprises me to know she did what she did and just put out a video apologizing when in reality she shouldn’t have done it in the first place! I really enjoy your videos and I hope you get the joy of doing them again, your mental health and happiness comes first 💕

I'm glad you're back, and tbh I remained subscribed to you for the whole time you were gone because I just appreciate your vibe. I also think I can relate to your sense of receiving an incomplete apology - I've had incomplete apologies made to me where the contents involved mostly "I'm such a horrible person, I lost control, I was so stressed and I lashed out. I'm sorry." etc, and didn't actually account for what they did in the sense of "I did xxx, and it resulted in xxx for you (in detail). That's on me". Being unable to account for the specificities of the actions and damage done says a lot about the person's readiness to fully own up. It may be for lack of courage, or a self-defense mechanism like repression of memories, or just not being sorry enough. We don't know for sure what's going on with the perpetrator in this instance. Regardless of the apology though, I think it will never wipe from your mind the knowledge of the risk you open yourself up to when online. Nevertheless, I hope you find ways to be online while also keeping yourself safe. I hope you find content that you can feel comfortable with sharing. And for anybody who pressures you into revealing more than you are want or are ready to, fuck what they think. Personally, I've greatly enjoyed your sass and strong gen-z x millennial energy because it's so much like my friends ever since they discovered tiktok. So even if you have to film in a white styrofoam box to hide any hint of your location, or hide your bf/close friends etc. Girl do what you gotta do. I subscribed and stayed for your personality!

You're a real one. As a creator I know it's probably frustrating to not post as much as you want but as a viewer it reinforces the authenticity of your voice and keeps it so much more fresh than people who churn out daily videos. (no hate to those people, i just want to watch content lol)

Speaking up for yourself is really important so don’t feel bad about it. Also know that whatever content you make it’s going to be awesome, trust me you really don’t have to stick to one concept/vibe for it to be interesting 👏

Thank you for sharing your truth. Cari would have gone the rest of her life without addressing this if you hadn’t brought it up. I hope people will consider this when they choose to support her or not in the future. Your feelings are so valid and I hope that you can heal from this and do what makes you happy.

I think I speak for most of us when I say we don’t just follow you for korea related content but also because we love you and your personality, and want to see more of it!! This video was so relatable and real, I love every point you made and it makes me so upset that you have to keep justifying yourself for talking about YOUR story and what you went through. You’re right we all choose what to believe as well as who to support in this platform and I just hope this is one of many more amazing videos to come, can’t wait!!! *sending you virtual hugs*

I've been a long-time follower of yours Rachel and I was pretty sad that you left KZread at the time, but finding out the real reason why you went on a long hiatus is understandable now. It's pretty shitty how people can do those things. To me, it shows a lot of insecurity from Cari's side. She saw you as an up-and-coming KZreadr and felt threatened, and probably thought of you as a competition based on her insecurities which is so disgusting. You're the bigger person here, and if I were you I would have taken legal action on her.. she really got off lucky. Anyways on a lighter note... GIRLLL I can't wait for your future videos 💕You should also stream on Twitch!!! 😊✨

I feel like you’re still holding back on how you feel. Honestly, any anger or other feelings you have towards Cari are valid. What she did was crazy and dangerous. I never fully understood what happened because I heard her video first and I was subscribed to her first but I can’t support her anymore. I hope you get some sort of justice eventually.

@DoctorAfree

3 жыл бұрын

What did Cari do to her?

@coucouvalery4636

3 жыл бұрын

@@DoctorAfree yeah i want to know too 🥺

@heysafaaa6428

3 жыл бұрын

@@DoctorAfree wanna know too :((

@MothGirl007

2 жыл бұрын

@@heysafaaa6428 She stalked her and harrassed her and it was incredibly abusive and scary.

@yunex7

Жыл бұрын

Learn to forgive and forget. Cari may not be the same today. Maybe she learned from her mistakes. Why you all point out so intensely her bad actions? Move on! You should condemn your OWN sins in the same way you condemn her sins. Yes, it is right to judge rightly and expose the bad actions, we must do it, but THEN you must forgive and give one more chance to that person.

I had no idea and i’m so sorry to hear this! I relate very Much , when I was younger I had a blog that was pretty big in Sweden and another blogger (who today is a reallyyy popular youtuber ) bullied me intensily for years online until I quit. The worst thing is that She hurt other people in the process cause she spammed a dead girls commentsection with my blogadress and I only heard about this cause I got a LOt of hate because of it. It really hurts when a person who have this hate and jelousy inside of them seems to be an amazing person online and have a lot of unknowing followers who supports them while They live like nothing has happened while victims like you and me really suffers ..

@SpringNotes

Жыл бұрын

This sounds nightmarish. I hope you're doing well.

You shouldn’t feel bad for letting out your feelings on the situation. You handled it with grace in my opinion. To be honest I don’t know how Carrie continues with her channel. I would die of embarrassment if tons of people knew that I stalked and emotionally abused a stranger over the internet. Keep going Rachel, I loved your videos since the start!

@andrikfelix6507

3 жыл бұрын

*Cari

Her actions are inexcusable and disgusting. As a grown adult, she intentionally went out of her way to stalk and harass you when she didn't even know you! Jealousy is a disease so I hope she gets well soon. At the end of the day, you're a beautiful person inside & out. Something she'll never be.

@yunex7

Жыл бұрын

Learn to forgive and forget. Cari may not be the same today. Maybe she learned from her mistakes. Why you all point out so intensely her bad actions? Move on! You should condemn your OWN sins in the same way you condemn her sins. Yes, it is right to judge rightly and expose the bad actions, we must do it, but THEN you must forgive and give one more chance to that person.

@_lilyofthevalley_

Жыл бұрын

Her actions were inexcusable but honestly, she went to therapy, got counseling and she's doing a lot better now

@sunflower2929

Жыл бұрын

@@_lilyofthevalley_ what did she do exactly

@_lilyofthevalley_

Жыл бұрын

@@sunflower2929 stalking, harassment, cyber bullying- details are in the video

I hate when a bully wins like this.. it makes me lose my faith in humanity.

@uzmanawaz7344

3 жыл бұрын

She hasn't won, her demons will always torment her. I just hope Rachel will have contentment, which fame and money can't buy.

@Leanniette

3 жыл бұрын

I meant to hit 'reply', not to dislike your comment. The word "win" struck me. What has her bully won? I don't even know whether having a yt channel with below 1 million subs is deemed as super successful by today's standards. The apology video is still on her channel. Subs can still choose to unsub whenever they please. I hope Rachel will continue to discuss this on occasion. I'm still on the fence about Cari's past actions. I am still subbed because I enjoy watching her videos. I think about others that create content out there. All sorts of artists with their bad deeds hidden away. Their fans completely oblivious. Some we know everything they've done wrong and yet they still have fans. Just when I try to make sense out of these sorts of situations, I end up making no sense again. Eh. Anyways, what I was trying to get to was this: what goes on over here in yt rarely leaves me losing or gaining any faith in humanity, because it is only yt. I hope something happens to you soon that helps your faith in humanity rise again. x

@Leanniette

3 жыл бұрын

@@uzmanawaz7344 That's what I was thinking, too. She has to live with she did.

@kh417

3 жыл бұрын

@@Leanniette Thank you.. ugh I wish I could just forgive and forget and move on but I actually met Cari in person when she had very little subscribers.. I thought she was killing it and doing it all in an honest way. What I mean by "win" wasn't really success through youtube but moreso that in a little while, people will forget the evil acts she did and "move on" while Rachel has to live with the hurt and damaging effects it may have had on her... I know, I feel conflicted because I still love Cari's videos and the Cari that I knew back then wasn't like the one I hear from Rachel and it just makes me sad? Though I know I shouldn't be so naive that people show their true colors online.

@kh417

3 жыл бұрын

@@Leanniette That's true..

I’m still watching and I love you ☺️ Thank you for sharing with us ❤️❤️❤️

rewatching again and huhuuuu when you got teary-eyed, I felt that 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

Naturally I am curious about what she said to you, but I can tell this still hurts. You are so strong and brave for going through and sharing this, so I can’t imagine the terrible things she must have said to you. It’s just crazy how cari can find the time to make a 20 minute of her walking to some cafe to read a book but couldn’t even make her apology video a mere 7 minutes. And of course she did it with no makeup on like every other KZreadr. The way she proceeded back to normal and didn’t take some kind of hiatus to reflect really irked me Anyways your inconsistent channel doesn’t bother me. It’s hard to find genuine people on KZread who make videos because they just want to and not because of money. 💗

I’ve been following your accounts (both youtube and instagram) for a long time and I felt there was something going on in your life! I was sad to hear the truth of what happened and I am glad that you were able to get past it and realize you should not let it affect your life anymore! I support you still and hope you can be free to express yourself and your caring and bubbly personality on KZread! Love you too 🤍

As someone who was bullied for ~6 years, I can never understand how someone can just do this sort of thing, hurt another, even if the bully was hurt, why hurt others? And why are they so easily forgiven, when they were the ones who hurt others?

I'm so glad that you're speaking your truth about the situation! Sending you tons of love and healing vibes

I used to watch a lot of Seoul vloggers, although now it's mostly Sarah and Kyuho and Nathalie, but I stumbled across your apartment tour and remembered that I used to watch your channel also. Anyways, I never watched Cari. I tried a couple of times, but she just didn't seem like a very nice person to me, and I couldn't even tell you why. I just didn't like her personality. Something felt off. I hate that I'm usually right about that stuff. I'm glad it's not happening anymore, and idk how I missed it at the time, but I'm sorry you dealt with that. She honestly has always seemed like a very internally miserable person to me. I hope she finds happiness in growth, but that's totally up to her.

Sometimes people are so fucked up they need a target/victim for their frustrations to make themselves feel better; while pretending to be sweet and girl next door to others lmao. I pray and hope you can move on for the better - and honestly, in my opinion it seems like you're way more happier, fulfilled, and have things going for you in life. When it comes to people like that, sometimes you just gotta say to yourself "wow, i'm glad i'm not a fuck up like him/her" and be the better person :)

@bobababy6089

3 жыл бұрын

Cari recommended one book by tana french wherein one of the characters is kinda similar to hers. Into the woods is the name of the book and the antagonist was so sweet you wouldnt think she's a psycho

@DorkiiPanda18

3 жыл бұрын

@@bobababy6089 thats creepy af

Rachel, you seem like such a genuine person and I’m absolutely sorry you had to go through something like this. The way you have moved through this situation is honestly makes me look up to you so much. The irony about this whole thing for me is I found your channel through Cari. I was never on your “side” of KZread and just happen to find Cari’s book tube and so forth. When I watched her apology video I was so shocked and I just couldn’t watch her anymore. But it did introduce me to your channel and I’m grateful for that. On a completely random note, your voice is so soothing and I love the vibes your channel gives! I’m glad I was able to find your channel even if the way I did wasn’t the best.

I am glad you are in a space where you can share your story...

I'm really sorry this happened to you. This is actually an incredibly insightful video and I actually wrote down what you said about about how sometimes when we're talking about personal experiences it can't be helped that certain people may be cast in a poor light because of their actions. It really struck me as a profound bit of advice that we need to carry with us throughout life in order to empower ourselves to speak up. I watched Cari's videos for a long time before hearing anything about this, and I have to admit that I thought she was being authentic in her positivity and kindness. You give us all a timely reminder that we can't hold any online personality up on a pedestal to the point where we would be reluctant or unwilling to accept their wrongdoings. For all we might enjoy the online personality that is projected, we can never truly know someone just through their social media personality. All of this to say that you seem like you have become a very wise person and I hope you can move forward and have great success. Take care!

The only thing I'm thankful that I got to know from cxxx was you. I am so happy I found you and I will continue to support you and your voice. Ly bunny. Proud of you. 🥺❤️

Im new to your channel but its super refreshing to hear someone on here speak truthfully and like an adult

So sorry you went through this but I have no idea what happened even after watching your video. Hope you're okay.

There is no way to see you in a different light you were way to kind in this video to be honest. I love your channel and I am so so so sorry that you experienced that. ♡♡♡

Girl I love your videos. It’s not even because you live in South Korea. It’s just a vibe. I enjoy how you edit your videos and how funny you are. Thank you for being honest about how you feel. We like you for you! I always get excited when you upload a video. 💜

I’m so happy to have passed that mini vibe check ✨ Girl keep speaking your truth, and the truth may not always be pretty but in the words of Beyoncé “pretty hurts”. I have always loved your content since the beginning and your viewers will always be here for you ♥️

So proud of you for speaking your truth~!🥺💖

@rachelheheh

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you Iman ❤️

You seem to have a very beautiful heart… you’re real. You’re raw. And on top of that you’re stunning. It had nothing to do with you and everything to do with how she feels and felt about herself. I’m sorry you had to go through that..

Rachel - you do you. Thank you for your honesty. Please remember your feeling are valid, always. I just adore your personality, channel and wish you all th best I have been a huge fan of Cari but since her apology - I just felt so weird/uncomfortale watching her and still can't decide whether she is a good person that did something bad or the other way around. But I don't feel she has been honest with her fans about her feelings and it is just sad. All the best to you!

wishing you all the success and happiness in the world rachel ♡ you’ve been through so much and your feelings are so valid!! i’ve never forgotten about this situation it makes me beyond angry! karma will come for her and people like her don’t you worry ♡♡

I stopped following Cari the minute I watched her “apology” video. She is not a good person, if she was she would never do all those things she did to you! And yet she continues to portray this innocent positive sweet online persona that clearly is not her in real life. Anyways, I love you and I’ll always be waiting for your next video cause your content always make me happy 🥰 keep going Rachel 💖

I think you are being incredibly kind and forgiving. It really shows that you are a strong person. Your videos were incredibly influential in my decision to move to Korea in 2019 because you kept it real. I don't need to see all the aesthetic camera angles. I need to see the real place.