"Yes I fell over, but I'm standing back up again and that's what matters" GIRL YES. YES YES YES. I'm wildly dancing over that statement. Sosososo proud of you!

I love that you say "you are allowed to eat things that you like" Hugs💚

Fi, this timing is so perfect. 1. I’m SO PROUD of you for recommitting to doing all the hard work because you know you deserve YOU back, one minute, one next right thing at a time. 2. I say the timing is perfect, because I’m going to be filming my own, more-positive, recommitted-to-recovery video as my recent journey has been similar to yours (once discharged in late November, did well until the new year, and have been mostly stuck since mid-January, but literally a week ago I had a fire lit under me that has me more determined to just DO THE THINGS more than ever, because life is worth so much more than a disordered existence). I’m so thankful you had that conversation with your parents, and that it helped light that fire under you, too. It was a conversation with my husband that had a similar effect on me. You say “nothing has changed” in the last few weeks, but doing all that mental, thinking work IS changing, and it’s the only way we’re able to make further changes in actions. I’m not joking when I feel like our journeys right now are similar mirror experiences (granted, I’m 33 and married, so there are also some big differences, but the general trajectory and the thought processes you’ve been having about life, and what you REALLY want and don’t want, is so familiar). I’ve also been in a state of nearly continuous burnout which also results in anger, and I’ve been blaming myself, and literally last night, my husband said something similar to your mom when I was calling myself a failure and a screw-up: “No, YOU are not a failure. The system, and the disorder, has failed you, but YOU are not the failure. Failure only happens if you quit, and you’re working harder than I’ve seen anyone ever work to not quit.” I know this is a long comment, but I just want to say I’m rooting for you and cheering you on what that message, too. Like your mom said, you didn’t choose this, and the fact that you keep being so determined even when things are so freaking hard means you are the furthest thing from someone who’s failed or quit. This update is amazing, and I am almost in tears hearing your resolve to do whatever it takes to get YOU back. Both because I’ve followed your journey, and also because it feels very much like where I am, finally, too.

I love this new confident mindset! You've got this Fi!

Your paint by numbers is beautiful! I will be staying glued to your videos for the next six months. I know you can do this Fi. Much love from California :)

I love that in the "update" portion of this video you are sitting in your bedroom facing the window and the sunlight is shining on you. It is such symbolism for what you said about how you have been thinking about your life and finding your way out of the "dark place" ❤ Keep fighting, Fi! You've got this!! PS I found the cookies and creme CRISPY quest bars...if you'd like I can send you a box or 2 😊

You have got this! Your strength really inspires me. You're amazing xx You may not see it but you've come so far. Be kind to yourself. As well as everything else you were recovering from Covid. We're all so proud of you xx

This is my absolute favourite video you've ever done. Full of resolve, the way your voice sings, your eyes are smiling with you, your beautiful cohesive thoughts You are so incredible, Fi. I'm also really chuffed to hear you are a Crunchie bar enjoyer too 🥺 it is definitely my absolute favourite as well!!

So proud of you Fi!! You have turned the corner!! You can be angry: angry at ED!! He’s an asshole who only wants to hold you down. You’re so much stronger and braver and deserve life!!!! Fi is a fun, spirited, strong, lovely, and brave!! 💕

You’ve got this, Fi! I’m so proud of you! xxxxxxxxxx

Great to hear you sounding so much more positive 🙏❤️ glad Fi is gradually fighting back 💪❤️ you got this xx

You’ve got this Fi and I’m so proud of you . Loving the confident mind set and that what’s. Ended to reach you’re goals and allow you to do the things you want in life. I h started with anorexia at the age of 10 and been suffering with periods of remission for many many years. You can do this . I love you’re dress and so looking forward to seeing you wearing it again hopefully for you’re birthday. But if not then then sometime in the future as it will look amazing . Stay strong fi. You are an inspiration picking yourself up. Hugs sweetheart. You’ve got this xx xx xx

You are doing such an amazing job, keep up the hard work. I hope you are very proud of how far you have come. You have so many people behind you cheering you on and excited for your success. You can do hard things & have shown that throughout your videos💜

I know it's hard to see the light but you are doing all the next best things. There is color to your checks. Covid drained is all so please give yourself grace. You are loved. One phrase I love is "choose your mood". You can and will fit this!

YES FI!!! So proud of you 🤍

Amazing ! You've sooo got this Fi ! 💕👍

You got this Fi!!!! ❤

Love this video. Wishing you all the luck

You are super strong and I admire you.

YAY go Fi- this is great determination! You can totally achieve all this.

So wonderful to watch this video having seen your birthday video. You did it darling girl ❤️ sending you so much love and support, I believe in you!

Sounds like a great plan. I'm so proud of you. ❤️🙏

I am so incredibly proud of you Fi!!!

Sending so much love and support your way. You can do this!

Ahhh I am so excited for you!! You can do this and you will have a great birthday 🎂

You are amazing, loved this video, you are going to do the next right thing, hour by hour, day by day ❤️ xx

Good for you Fi!! Im so proud of you!! YOuve GOT THIS!!!

You got this!!! Love and Light

Absolutely amazing and inspiring ✨💖💖 Sending you so much strength and that dress is beautiful!

I know you can do it, you have so much love and support 💖💖

Really glad things are looking up ❤️

so so proud of you dear!! hang in there. You are doing so good. love from the Netherlands

You are beyond amazing ⭐️

I loved this video! your positivity is amazing 🤩 x

I'm so excited for you and can't wait to be along for your journey over the next 6 months! You're an amazing person and I believe in you!

Gosh it’s so good to see you smile. I’m glad some things have shifted for the better. We are all cheering you on!!!

Your doing so well and I love the positivity. It will take time but you will get there and so will I. Sending my love and support ❤

So proud of you! I love the dress

There it is! Good work!

I’m so happy to hear you’re feeling better mentally ❤️ You’ve got this. I can’t wait to see you fit into that dress!! It’s gorgeous!

Beautiful Fiona, you are inspiring. My journey is different from yours but you’ve encouraged me to take a step to be the person I want to be in 6 months. Let’s go ❤️

Keep going Fi! 💜

I love the way you edit your video's, your very clever and it's nice to hear to say you enjoy the food eat you eat and say that was really nice. I know your probaby still feel guity about enjoying your food but hopefully you might start to look forward to eating without the guilt. X

Awww so nice to see u used the quote I sent you in this video ❤ And seeing u so positive in this update is soooooooo brilliant!! You’re doing amazing xxx

So very proud of you! You found your strength again, and it is truly lovely to see. We believe in you - you've got this!

on the second day in this video during breakfast you looked genuinely happier! it warmed my heart! i can see you’re on track to getting Fi back now ❤️ so proud of you and your journey. keep up the confidence

Brilliantly motivating words! Go girl, rediscover your why & get Fi back xx

So proud of you Fi!! I would love to see an update with the dress!! :)

I love this update and the positive note and choosing! This!! Always praying for you hon and knowing you will be in uni in the fall. I will walk with you through this in prayer and intercession.

You have so much sparkle in this video 🌟

Love that dress, and love to see your positive outlook today. Knowing where you are and where you want to be is a great thing, you should be proud of yourself for how far you've come, even with the few bumps along the way. You've got this!

Lovely Fi, I’m astounded by you! Loving this energy and this confidence. You’re going to do it, yes you are 🥰

Thanks for your videos it’s reminding me to keep vigilant and persevere in my recovery, in my scariest times in recovery I just kept watching recovery videos all the time to keep motivation and strong mind xx

Yeeess💪 you got this🦋

Love that you've got things to aim for- gives you so much more motivation. Lovely that you seem so much more positive - you have got to have your downs in life to appreciate your ups. I really hope this works for you Fi. Love to you and your lovely mum and dad. Xx

Love, love, love seeing that fighting spark in your eyes. Get it Fi! You can do this, so many of us believe in you and am proud of you.

Never been more proud of someone I have never even met before. Keep going Fi! All the way from Australia

Fi! I love the video ❤ You are so incredibly courageous. Love the 4 pairs of socks lol. Being angry at the disease is so on point, why the hell should that little horror win? You know you will conquer. I Hope you have many more hours & days like this. oh and love the dress! Can't wait to see you in it ❤

Yes! Be angry at the illness!! Use that energy to fight it!!!! When it gets tough…and you feel overwhelmed…get angry! Fight for Fi!!

I read something so amazing yesterday pertaining to making change. It went something like “the stonemason may strike a stone 100 times, yet it does not break until the 101st blow. It’s not because the 101st hit was that one to break the stone, but all others lead to the breakthrough.” So all in all even though progress may seem slow, keep going, keep going and one day your own stone will break and start resembling the work of art you are!! Consistency makes progress!

I just wish I could give u a big hug. U inspire me so. Hugs lovely

Loving absolutely loving thisFi,but please don’t push too hard. Small steps gets you better and each one will make us see that lovely Fi smile,so proud of you sweetheart 💐

You truly have amazing strength and I know sometimes it doesn’t feel that way. You have days that really suck and you feel like you’re defeated. But you aren’t giving up! You are fighting an incredible battle. Every day that you don’t give up, no matter how hard it is, it is a win! You will defeat this illness, you will get Fi back! 🌺

Fi it was so awesome to see a genuine smile on your face during this video. Your smile is so beautiful!! You got this girl. Keep on going - you can do it. 💛💛

I love your videos, still struggling with my own 20 year battle and I see so much of myself in you , love the updates, it's like I'm not on my own and others know the daily struggle. Keep fighting, you deserve a healthy and happy life. I have a saying I use.... " I will fight the anorexia and feed myself, not feed the anorexia and fight myself xxx

Hey Fi, I’m usually a silent viewer but I have been following along your journey for a good 5 months now and I am so so proud of how far you’ve come. I love your resilience and determination to keep going even when things are extremely tough. X

I see a spark in your eye that has been missing. You got this Fi. Thank you for your positive comments. It is helping me to re evaluate some things that are dragging me down so I can move forward. Keep going Fi!

Fi sometimes you just have to wing it....like I say on tiktok...you keep going no matter what the challenge is and that's tenacity. Be proud of the work you have done so far because it's not a small feat love. Be gentle on yourself and remember we love you

You're so much stronger than your mind lets you think you are!!!!

The dress is gorgeous and you look gorgeous in it!!

I can't wait to see you in your beautiful dress again, we're all cheering you on from the sidelines! You go girl!!!

Crunchie bar's are my favourite!

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Go fi 🥹😍

I am happy to see a mire optimistic outlook from you Fi.But...I honestly think you're being unrealistic regarding your goals for your Birthday. It's incredibly unlikely that your physical state will have changed so dramatically in 4 weeks that walking around London will be a good idea.Of course it's up to you what you do; but you're putting alot of pressure on yourself. Best wishes for your long term recovery 💖

Hiya sweetheart you are doing such an amazing job keep going sweetheart 🥰🥰

Girl, you need a jacket that has a personal heater in it, my mom is same way she is alwasy cold

What do you want to do fi? Tell us everything you want to do?

You know what will help you get your life back quicker? Inpatient. If you were able to do this on your own, at home you would have by now Fi. I am wishing reality sets in for you soon so you can have the life you really want.

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I totally agree. I've been there; & as difficult as inpatient is,it's really the only way to boost the calories and cut out exercise. Even incidental exercise- like standing. Though I wish Fi all the best,the recovery process is going to be so much longer at home. Also,inpatient provides more therapy opportunities.

The more you return to having regular activities, the less you will hear the voices.