As someone who have been told again and again to be grateful for what I have, I always struggled with going to God about feeling lost, left down, disappointed and even failed by him. Also I was thinking that venting about the negative would attract more negative and was a sign of ungratefulness or even big ego. But ever since I started learning about God outside of the church just by myself I began to tell him everything the good, the bad, the crazy and I’ve never felt more relieved. It’s like getting all that suffering out of my heart and be able to renew my faith in the Lord. To God be all the glory ❤

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

I’m so sorry you were told things like that for a big part of your life sis. When we don’t address these things they just pile up making us frustrated, sad etc. I’m so glad to hear how God has taken you on this journey in showing you that you actually are welcome to come to him with these things!! He’s a good father who loves you so much, ofcourse he wants to hear about these things too 🙏🏽🤍. May he continue to bless you and guide you along the path he has for you 🥰

@glorianoella

5 ай бұрын

He even says in His word cast your burdens and anxiety to Him for He cares for you.

Not enough people talk about this. Thank you for allowing the Holy Spirit to speak through you and give us wisdom.

Prayers for everyone who has been feeling lost . 🙏🏾

@glorianoella

5 ай бұрын

Pray for me guys🙏🏽

I was having this conversation with myself the other day and also came to this conclusion. God is so loving, so patient and so understanding, so it's not a crime to ask him uncomfortable questions. I've asked him about sex and sexuality, I've expressed my deepest emotions to him about almost everything! I promise, there is no limit! God will show you the why's in his perfect way!

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

Amen sis 🤍 That’s so beautiful to hear. You’re right, there is no subject too taboo for him

I got re-baptized today! Almost ten years ago in fifth grade was the first time I got baptized, and I was still going to church, but strayed away a little. In December of 2022, I prayed the prayer of repentance, and things were good, but then got really tough. I'm very grateful that I got baptized again at 21!

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

Ahh congratulations!! What a beautiful decision to publicly make that dedication for Jesus again 🥹🤍

Honestly this is how I have been feeling for this past few years, I feel so disappointed in God and I am so angry at him. I try so much to trust him with my life but I just end up being so heartbroken at how God is blessing other people around me but doesn't bless or give even answer my prayers. I hate myself for failing my grade 12(senior year) and I keep on daydreaming about my future and living off my fake scenarios in my mind just to escape my reality. I don't even want to be around people, I've isolated myself to the point where I lock myself in my room. I really saving and a breakthrough. I am emotionally, spiritually, mentally and physically drained.

@Peacebewithu34

5 ай бұрын

Hey, love. I'm sorry about what you're going through. Be honest with how you feel to God. Be consistent with his word and continue to press on him. ❤❤❤

@naomi7848

3 ай бұрын

Hey! I don't know exactly what you are going through. But a few years ago I was in a very similar situation and I used excessive daydreaming to cope with the unanswered prayers in my life. But I can honestly tell you that it only made things worse. It is very painful but God is the best source of healing even when everything seems to be saying that He isn't. Entrust Him with your pain and He will guide you. Speaking from the other side I can tell you that He will see you through this journey and will turn it around for your good. Love you 🫶🏾✨

Hang in there! God is going to show you Himself. It will be far greater than anything you’re asking for.

To everyone reading this, Smile, Jesus loves you!🤍

For a week I haven’t been able to go to God because of disappointment, doubt and just how angry I was/am. I struggled to tell Him how mad I was but this has encouraged me and I’m going to sit with God and be honest with my emotions. It’s hard but I guess it will be okay. Thank you for sharing Deborah 😊 You are Spirit -led. God bless you

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

It’s definitely not easy sis 😞 but I pray that God will reveal himself to you more and more as you open up to him. May he show you that he is indeed alpha and omega even when we don’t understand!! He is a good God who has so much in store for you. You’re loved beyond measure 🤍

If I can be honest i am and tears watching this video, I have been going through so much depression, unbelief, lostness,disappointment, and i even said I don't want to be here anymore, the battle has been so heavy and I want to believe, but I am so tired of always being strong for others and there is never anyone there to be strong for me, I know I have the holy spirit which is JESUS, but sometimes its not always easy to notice it at times because of the things that come against, at times i feel that i can't go to God because I've been praying I've been fasting I've been waiting, and the thing is I don't ask God my abba for much just to work on me and allow me to just love, I just ask that you pray for me, and thank you so much for being obedient to the holy spirit, this word is very much needed and a time that I am in

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

I will lift you up in prayer before our Heavenly Father sis. He knows everything you’ve been struggling with. He sees your broken and contrite heart. Lay it down at his feet, you don’t need to put up a front or stay strong is God’s presence. You can break down with him. In your weakness his strength is perfected - 2 Corinthians 12:9 ❤️‍🩹 it’s when we come to the very end of ourselves that our flesh finally gives up where Jesus picks you up to carry you further than you could’ve ever carried yourself. I pray for breakthrough in your mental health. Please rebuke to spirit of depression over yourself every single day in Jesus name! Rebuke all the lies the enemy has made you believe about yourself. There is sooo much to come, you are not alone sis. You’re loved beyond measure and I’m so honoured and grateful to have you here as a part of the family 🤍🤍

@DeanaMarie71

5 ай бұрын

Praying for you sister 🙏🏻❤

I was talking to my mother in law who recently lost her husband , as she was questioning why me to lose my husband. I asked her to read psalm 139 as this psalm help me to understand God’s plan for us on earth. It comforted me a lot when I lost my little sister at 31 years old and my other two siblings who died years back .

As someone who started to feel lost during the beginning of this year I started to begin developing my relationship with God. No matter how good , bad and the ugly moments of life I want a start the year off fresh and new. Hopefully everyone can find the light🤍 to overshine the dark🖤 moments. 🙏🏾 ✝️😊

I really needed to hear this! I’ve really been struggling with comparison and jealousy lately when at work. We’ve had a new coworker of mine get hired on on my team and she’s honestly great. The thing is, I’ve been at my work for almost three years and am looking at a promotion into leadership soon. With this new coworker and how smart she is and great with writing as well, I can’t help but compare myself and see her as a threat. Please pray for me; help me remember my identity in Christ!

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

I can only imagine how tough that is. We’ve all been in similar situations so please know that you’re not alone. Fix your eyes on Jesus again and the race he’s marked our before you. When we wonder onto the paths of other people we lose sight of God’s goodness. There is so much that he has in store for you! Even though things might seem stagnant in the natural. God is able to make ways where there are none, never forget that! Isaiah 43:19 🤍 I will keep you in my prayers

@Eplovesjesus

5 ай бұрын

@@deborahbx_ thank you for your words, I seriously appreciate them ❤️🙏🏼

I never thought to question my doubts. I really like the way you worded that and broke it down, it’s truly deep. Thank you sis 🙏🩷

Thank you sweet one for this teaching!!! When my daughter was turned against me during my divorce and God allowed her to be manipulated and lied to, I questioned, doubted and was EXCEEDINGLY angry at God and with God. I went directly to him pointing fingers and shouting not so nice words at him. The journey and the answers are ongoing and I am grateful for his Grace with me. I still question, I still doubt and I still take it ALL to Him . I dive into His word eagerly expecting Him to show up....and He always does. Go to the rock that is higher than you. Feel the feels and process them with Him!!! leave people and their opinions alone. If you have not seen or are not aware, the series "The Chosen" deals with this throughout the 3 seasons available to watch for free on Prime Video . Thank you Deborah for continuing to answer the call on your life. Dr. Tara United States

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

⁠Being honest with God involves the shouting and screaming. Like toddlers kicking a tantrum because we do not understand what our father understands. God knows that we often lash out because we’re too ‘young’ to understand. When a toddler kicks off, doesn’t a parent think: my child, you’re only doing this because you don’t know what I know. It’s a part of the process. We start self reflection when God questions us about the tantrum. When we let him in. When we become honest. We’ve all been there at some point in our lives sis, whoever says they have not are still on their journey with honesty themselves 🤍

@zechariah4663

5 ай бұрын

@@deborahbx_ 🔥😌🙏

amen! On time GOD because that's exactly what I needed. Thank God for inspiring you to talk about this topic 🙏🏼🤍

Gurl let me tell you! I just wrote a whole thesis in my prayer journal about all of this. Like you said when you go a long time with these emotions pent up you start to feel very frustrated, irritated all the time. Finally I said you know what I'm going to let it all out and it felt like a sigh of relief.

Yeah sometimes we like well God is good and and God is righteousness but sometimes we forgot we not righteousness because we are right through him we go throughout pain on the daily we struggle with anxiousness sadness tiredness not wanting to get up so laziness and it's like we don't wanna say but it's true you know

I have been reading the Bible with so many thoughts/questions in my mind, why is that, how is that. My brows are furrowed and confusion filled my mind every time. I allowed the "wisdom" of this world to corrupt my wisdom of who God is. When I try to read the Bible, I always voice out my opinion, it should be this, it should be that. And I feel so hurt by the fact that I couldn't accept God's truth just as easily as I could before, it's so hard being lost and full of doubt. I feel so unworthy and sinful because of me being double-minded about the Lord. I don't want this, I want to be back in the past when I was a child when I can accept what the Lord thinks. It's hard to surrender and lay over everything. It's comforting that I'm not the only one who is lost right now in their walk with God. Satan might try to fill our hearts with lies but he cannot overcome what Jesus had done on the cross. The Father sees me, He sees you. I remember Morgan Harper's quote, "She might be lost right now, but she is not out of sight of her Father who loves her." By God's deliverance, we will believe that we are found in Christ.

Major Key🔑: Let God in to every emotion I feel

😭I saw you at London bridge I felt so happy 😊❤❤❤.I love you sooooo much you have really helped me with me my journey with God 😊

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

I haven’t been near London Bridge for a while sis, when was this 😂

@OluwafunmilolaBubemi

5 ай бұрын

@@deborahbx_ Sorry I meant Liverpool street the station

very timely. I've been so consumed by these emotions of disappointment and doubt lately

I had to be honest with God and release the ideas I had about MY vision and be real about where I am right now - my fears, my insecurities and to put my trust in him. Not to try and prove anything to anyone but to let God work IN my life.

Sometimes I’m afraid to say out loud my true intentions of my prayers………..because I’m afraid the enemy will hear and take advantage of my surrender of them. Am I crazy?

@kopi_ling

5 ай бұрын

Even if we speak our true intentions or not, God will know our deepest motive and our thoughts. Whether or not the enemy will hear us is not something that we should be worried about because we are praying to God who is the most powerful of all. The moment you pray, you recognize the power of God so you should not worry anymore about the enemy.

@CRJR94

5 ай бұрын

@@kopi_lingI do know God hears my prayers, I just get so in my head, the enemy is such a liar, wish I had more confidence when praying. But today’s video helped.

Amen Deborah🦋! I’ve lately been trying to be more honest to God and I feel like sometimes it’s scary to say how I feel because I’m not sure how he will react🦋

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

Hi sis 🤍 it can definitely be daunting to open up at first, but Jesus is waiting for you. He’s not an angry God in the sky who will strike you with lightning when you say something he doesn’t like. He’s a dad who loves you beyond measure as his daughter. He knows being human isn’t easy! Those thoughts that he will get angry with your honesty are not from God. You have permission to open up to him and through that you’ll get to experience how deep his love for you actually is 😭🤍 don’t be scared!

@cerenasejour

5 ай бұрын

@@deborahbx_ amen thank you Deborah 🦋🦋

Enjoying the message inside the Uber passenger seat far away from home but home here. Faith Talk on the go❤😊. I am learning that appointment with God will always forestall disappointments through honest conversation with Him about everything. A blessed week ahead faith talk community.

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

Save travels and a blessed week Amos! Amen, the Lord will never reject us as his children 🤍🤍

@amosngalimani1974

5 ай бұрын

Amen. Thank you so much sister Deborah 😊❤

Wow, amen to this. David was very honest. We need to be transparent with other Christians as well. It's encouraging to know that even David felt the same emotions

Good Morning! Very much needed to watch this video today and see how I'm not going to go to church. Lately I've been depressed and discouraged I'm feeling defeated I'm telling God that I just don't know if he's going to be able to make everything all right again my trust in him is up and down.

@Beloved_Daughter

5 ай бұрын

Ephesians 3:20-21 💜

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

Jesus is right beside you sis!! I’m so sorry to hear how you’re struggling right now, but please know that you are never alone. This is not your portion. There is so much God has for you!! I rebuke the schemes of the enemy over your life right now in the mighty name of Jesus 🤍 1 Peter 5:7, God cares for you beyond measure. I pray that you’ll be able to believe that again in your life

Always right on time . 😢❤ Love you Deb ❤

God bless you Deborah, may He protect you, may He also bless your wonderful heart and grant you all your desires according to His will. You're so inspiring. Thank you for everything you do for His glory❤.

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

Thank you so much for your sweet words sis 🥹🙏🏽 praise the Lord! It’s such a blessing to have you here, and I pray that our Heavenly Father will continue to strengthen and encourage you on your journey with him also 🥰

@rambothomas2209

5 ай бұрын

@@deborahbx_and same to you , blessings for spreading the word of Christ 🙏🏿✝️🌲❤️‍🩹

@christagraceyoumenndzoudja6267

5 ай бұрын

@@deborahbx_ Amen, thank you so much🙏🏾

Thank you for your teaching today, I had to sit down and have a honest conversation with our Father God. I know he loves me, but I was afraid to be honest with him about what I was feeling. Not anymore. My relationship with God can’t grow unless I honest and open. Thank you for letting me see that today. God bless and have a fantastic week. 💛🙏🏾🤗

I’m grateful to have this loving god and a sister of god. Thank you for the podcast, praise lord 💕🙌✝

Got a good word from Pastor Td Jake’s this morning then came directly here as usual. Thank you Deborah. God Bless you all ❤

Thank you again Deborah for your words of encouragement every week. It is always on point , I to have been struggling with feeling lost in my situation, and this was so helpful. God is using you as his spokesperson in our lives and I am so happy to have found this channel. You are a blessing in our lives. May God continue to shine his face on you sis! see yah next week. 💓💓🙏

This video came right on time for me. I felt disappointed yesterday when I was on mental warfare all week. Attacks all week and it felt like God wasn’t there😭

Thank you for you sharing this word. God is a promise keeper that's why we have to be closer to him.

Wow, I can’t explain how much I needed this. thank you!! 🙏❤️

Great faith talks today🙌🏾 This is blessing my life!! I love the way you broke it down about being honest with God!! When you said that the enemy wants us to basically hold on to those emotions I really felt that!! This is where he gets his satisfaction, when he knows that we hold on and harbors these emotions and they eventually will cause us to harden our hearts and miss the glory and grace that God wants to bestow on our life. One thing I’m learning about myself and my walk with God is to be intentional!! Be intentional about everything that I do and say! 🙏🏾🙏🏾🤎

Thank you Deborah for this message it’s so timely. Every time you speak on something it really hits my heart.Thank you for the kind words of encouragement. Also I love your natural hair it’s so beautiful ✨

This is such perfect timing for me bc im having a bit of a rough patch in a certain area rn. And ive been crying and upset (not at God but I definitely been venting to Him!) ive felt very guilty about this and its just so nice to be reminded i dont need to take on that guilt. Opening up to the Lord about my full spectrum of emotions has dramatically improved my relationship with Him!!❤️

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

Ohh sis I’m sorry to hear about the rough path you’re facing right now. Please know that it’s valid. You’re allowed to feel the way you feel, life here on earth is tough let’s be honest! But like you said, the healing begins when you let God into those parts also. He loves you beyond measure and won’t reject your honest hear, ever! May you experience relief, peace and healing as you walk this out with Jesus. This too shall pass in his mighty name 🤍

@Godsloveministree

5 ай бұрын

@@deborahbx_ thank you sm😭you are so encouraging always and literally so comforting! and did you by chance get my email?? I sent it like a few weeks ago! It was under the name rachel bradford! But fr thanks so much for the encouragement you’re really out here doin the Lord’s work!!!

This was so good! To god be the glory

Finding you here was a blessing in my life. I’ve learned so much and have felt so encouraged from hearing your faith talks! Thank you for sharing your journey and wisdom. I pray that God blesses your KZread career so that you can continue to bless us through it and with Him ❤️

Thank you Holy Spirit 🙏, with this gospel it leads me to saying that we are not bothering God when we choose to talk to Him,, God is All-knowing hallelujah 🙌

@refentse_

5 ай бұрын

Amen 🙏🏽

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

Amen sis!! 🤍🙏🏽

Amen and Amen, thank you Jesus and may God bless you Deborah🤍🤍

Thank you i really needed to hear this today❤ may God continue to bless you and give you strength to keep going🙏❤

Amen

Amen 🙏🏽. Thank you for sharing yet another insightful topic.

Thank you, Deborah ❤ I just prayed that prayer with you, and I'm honored to be one of your subscribers, may your heavenly father continue to inspire your audience with your inspiration 🙏

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

It’s such a blessing to have you here sis 😭🤍 May our Heavenly Father continue to bless and encourage you on your journey with him!

Thank you for another insightful Faith Talk! Doubt n fear are huge human setbacks. Your message, your words gave me a lot of clarity today ..Thanks!!! Have a great week Debs ❣️✨

Happy Sunday! Morning From Spokane! Xoxo Love you my sister in Christ! *Hugs*

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

Happy Sunday sis! Sending much love and hugs back 🥰

@kissofdeathbeckajoybells9187

5 ай бұрын

@@deborahbx_ Aw thank you! God bless you, my friend.!🌹

Hmm, thank you Holy Spirit! So i felt downcasted throughout today. I couldn't even pray in the morning and didn't know why that was happening. So later in the evening, i boldly sat down and the Holy Spirit was remembering me 1 Thessalonians 5:16&18 saying "be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus, be joyful always. So i became honest to God in prayer and prayed throughout the evening. After, i felt so relieved by the help of the Holy Spirit. I thank God for dropping this video through you. Greater Grace sis!

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

Wauw, look at God! Thank you Jesus 🤍 I pray that this will only be the beginning sis of that healing journey with the Lord. May you grow deeper and deeper in Love with him :)

@auntievidaskitchen109

5 ай бұрын

@@deborahbx_ Amen, sis!!!

I appreciate this talk.

Thank you for this 🥺💗

Hi Deborah, thank you so much for this inspiring and important topic for your Faith Talks video this week! Doubt is a legitimate human emotion. We are not omniscient like our Father in Heaven. And so, that's why "we walk by faith and not by sight." And when you work on your intimate relationship with God by communing with Him regularly, trust is built up. And because He makes us feel safe and that He cares for us, we can confide in the all knowing God about all that we experience as humans in this world. It's His loving kindness and tender mercy that makes all the difference. And we need to be the same with one another. May God continue to bless you and keep you Deborah. Stay encouraged 😊

Thank you Deborah, God Bless you🙏🏾💕

Yes. He already knows our heart. I am brought to Psalm 51:17 " Contrite means to have or feel remorse." Whether we feel angry, far off or full of unforgiveness etc., God values our honesty. In a way when we come to Him about it we are saying 'I know I am wrong, I know I am lost and far off, I know I'm doubting if God is real... But I don't want to feel this way, God help me." He can work with it. But when we feel those things but won't humble and acknowledge these feelings we can't expect to find freedom. God loves and is waiting for us to be open with Him. I loved this. So true. So glad I found your channel.

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

Yesss exactly this!! 🙏🏽 it’s so good to have you here sis, praise the Lord!

@CandyCoated96

5 ай бұрын

@@deborahbx_ ❤

Yes new healing journeys for 2024 🙏🏽🙌🏽, I am in agreement with you!

Thank you Deborah for taking you time in making this video.May God bless everyone that is reading this comment.

I find it crazy how you always talking about what I really need to hear! Thank you for being so vulnerable to the Holy Spirit! Xx from 🇧🇷! 🙏🏼🤍

Amen! Thank you for that beautiful prayer sis! ❤

Thank you sister ❤ it's my birthday nextweek Tuesday and I am so excited. My week is definitely blessed😊

@deborahbx_

5 ай бұрын

Ohhh early happy birthday sis!! How exciting! 🤍🥳 continue to place God first in the new year of your life and you will reap many fruits in Jesus name. You belong in his arms! He’s only just getting started :)

@dimpho_by_grace

5 ай бұрын

@@deborahbx_ Thank you I appreciate that and I receive in Jesus name❤️

We Love you with the of Christ Deborah.

I`ve learn a lot of things today may God bless you 🙏

Thank you so much, Deborah! You answered so many of my questions! God Bless You!

You just said everything going on in my mind and head

Thank you for this Deborah, I really appreciate you sharing this with us. I am in a difficult time of confusion and dissapointment and I feel like God is bringing your videos into my life to help me know I'm not alone.

Ty sister so much for this video. I know it will bless a lot of people because your right uts not talked about enough. It helps to kbow that its ok to have those emotions and to know others do as well. I was going through this myself because i have been battling physical stuff for so long. So i started to question if God even cared, was He listening, why does He heal others, is He mad at me, punishing me etc. I was getting frustrated and having all sorts of emotions. But i took it to Him and He showed me the truth. He showed me how much He really does care and loves me. He is so good and so faithful. Some of it is like you mentioned He may not do it how we expected but that doesn't mean He's nor working and not there with us every step of the way 🙌🏻❤️

💕loved this

I'm really depressed and sad, angry at God. I moved to a new country and now I feel God has left me alone. Looking for Christian sisters here to help me and pray for me. If there is any online Bible study tag me. I struggles with doubting God will do it. Comparison has been eating me up that I just isolate myself please pray for me.

Thanks you for this💜

I. Needed. This!

when i watch you it calms me down and helps me come back to god

Thank you ❤❤❤❤❤❤

Deborah, you always do faith talks that I needed to hear 🥲 thank you so much, you're an instrument of God. I hope I can do faith talks like you (someday..)

Your channel is truly a blessing 💯❤️

I did not even know I needed this. Thank you!!!!

Thank you ❤

Thank you! I really needed this video!!

Thank you!❤

This video was definitely a blessing sis. I thank the Holy Spirit for putting this in your spirit and I thank you for the obedience. This video was a word if I ever heard one. God bless you and yours. May the Lord keep you covered and continue to keep you lifted and blessed beyond measure. In Jesus mighty name 🙏

Yes Lord....Here I Am 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

Thank you!

Thank you sis ❤

Amen & thank you 🙏🏻💕

Thank u girl that was amazing episode ❤

Amen thank you so so much

Loved the video as always thank you so much Deborah ❤

I really needed this 😌 thanks again Deborah

That’s awesome, He loves you so much girl. You are the joy of His heart!

Amen! Powerful word

I have been struggling so much lately. I’m battling mental illness but it’s getting worse by the day. I have prayed, meditated, tough loved myself, gentle loved myself, screamed and everything else in between but nothing is helping. I don’t want to live anymore. It’s all just too much. God feels so far away from me. I don’t know what to do

Thank you for creating this channel and having the courage to speak about these things. Thank you for your help ❤

So Lovely 🥰💛🎊🌸

Great book!

Thank you for your prayer. Have a Great week! Love your teachings!!❤

Thank you

Hey everyone, this week has been so hard for me. I would love some counseling from any Christian family member willing to give ❤ I am a university student and I share my living space with 5 others. I had a cup set with Bible verses written on it, and I let others use it. They really abused the cups, one of them even broke one. It crushed me really. The housemate that broke it is really satanic and I made her pay 15 dollars for the set, but that took a lot of argument. I wasn’t yelling, but it still made me feel upset. Where did I go wrong? How could people be so wicked? Is this what Jesus said when he said don’t give your pearls to pigs? If so, how do we share the love and good news of God?

@zechariah4663

5 ай бұрын

@BB-pv6cf I'm sorry they did not cherish your gift and your grace. Take it to God and HE will reveal the meaning of it all and your next steps ( if any). Praying for you. Dr. Tara United States

@BB-pv6cf

5 ай бұрын

@@zechariah4663 Thank you so much Dr. Tara, God bless you. The Lord has taught me a lot of lessons!

I’m praying for this, for my sister.

I LOVE YOUR HAIR! I LOVE YOU💙💜❤️ GLORY BE UNTO GOD AND FATHER🙂

God bless you ❤ your videos are so relatable to me, I mean it’s just the holy spirit leading me but …man ❤