emotional amnesia- OH MY GOD IT HAS A NAME-

@lynn5403

3 жыл бұрын

Honestly right!

@drpigglesnuudelworte5209

3 жыл бұрын

I KNOW IM FREAKING OUT AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

@Clementine_D

3 жыл бұрын

Damn

Never, ever seen anyone talk about emotional amnesia... thanks.

I thought I had DID before I saw this, but I was so worried that I had just been subconsciously making it up or something because I never fit the description exactly. The first time one of my altars came out (normally they stay on the inside and just chat with me), I was even more worried that I had made this up because I didn't experience that amnesia, just an emotional detachment to the memories. It's a relief to know for sure that my condition is valid, just different than I thought, and so are my friends in my head.

@stupidlyxander

Жыл бұрын

You’re literally me ily

I didn't know there were more diagnoses than just DID. That gives me hope that a professional will actually be able to help me. :)

You made me feel so VALID as an OSDD-1b system. Thank you!

@hydratheta1971

5 жыл бұрын

Yes me too, I feel much better about all of it.

@saraslightlyawkwardintuiti8055

5 жыл бұрын

Same!

@BearticanWolf

4 жыл бұрын

Me too 😭♥️

I’ve been doing my best to explain why it’s so hard for me to answer the “how have you been since you last saw me” question from my therapist. I could only ever describe how I currently felt to her because I felt a whole completely different way a few days before and I was so detached from it now that I couldn’t begin to describe it or my thought process then. I didn’t even know emotional amnesia was a thing but it explains so much

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

❤️❤️ Best of luck with therapy!

@itisdevonly

Жыл бұрын

I have this reaction pretty much every time I come in and she's like, "how was your week?" and I'm like, "I can't remember past a few hours ago..." Not off the top of my head, anyway. After a while of thinking, I can start to remember the events that happened (usually by referencing some kind of mental calendar of notable events), and then from that I can piece together a timeline and start to connect to some of the emotional memories, but it's like first trying to find the address of the data in the hard drive, then looking it up and loading a chunk of the data into RAM, and it's very slow and incomplete.

I’m still trying to figure out what kind of system I have. I’ve only recently started looking into dissociative disorders so everything feels weirdly foreign and familiar at the same time. I know I have alters since I spend a lot of time co-conscious but as a host I can’t seem to stop being at the front of the mind. A part of me wants to switch fully as a way of telling my alters I trust them but I can’t figure out how to do it and I can’t help but be a bit scared of what might happen to me if I stop fronting. I haven’t asked my alters what it’s like since I’m still trying to build up our communication skills and we aren’t at a point where free communication is possible yet.

@sad_doggo2504

5 жыл бұрын

Hang in there! Even just being aware of your alters as alters can make a huge difference. -Holly

@moltenkitty7157

5 жыл бұрын

I relate. Often they have to just shove me off so they can fully front and it's not co-fronting. It's a knee-jerk reaction for me to try to take back control due to wanting to feel/act like "myself" again as a child, which built that negative muscle memory. One step at a time.

@skarletmason1009

5 жыл бұрын

I am the same way. I just found out about them late last year and am learning more and more about them every day. I don't remember a lot from my childhood but a few years ago it started being co-conscious/me observing so I never realized and thought it was moods, though some things caught my eye since one of my littles (or child alters) wouldn't talk for years so I couldn't at times either. It is definitely hard to try and figure things out at times, though I can say getting to know them has helped me a lot. I will tend to "think" of something I want to ask one of them and either I will get a feeling or I might get a quick brief answer that seems more like a thought than anything. I have learned to pay attention more to the "thoughts" to try and figure out what is mine and what is them talking to me. (and yes, I know this was posted a few months ago. I just now found this video and was looking through the comments).

@BearticanWolf

4 жыл бұрын

@@skarletmason1009 I relate to this a lot.

@pearblossom1390

4 жыл бұрын

@@BearticanWolf I understand that Tug-of-war your talking about completely.

I’m trying to figure out if I have DID or OSDD-1B or something related. This video was very helpful thx.

Omg i knew it i was right, our host spiraled into denial a lot because we always say "we dont have trauma" but WE KNOW, we're not just one person. The emotional amnesia makes so much sense, the dissociation too but we still remember. Our alters have COMPLETELY different personalities and opinions. We used to think we were just overthinkers like we think different perspective, but this makes so much sense. We didn't want to assume a mental illness but this makes so much sense. We finally feel validated.....well until the denial sets in again. -Sena (protector)

Me, throughout the video, connecting the dots: _o h._

@randomizedcontent1177

3 жыл бұрын

Sameee

the emotional amnesia thing makes me feel so validated as an osdd-1b system! we try to not think about it and usually talk about our life in a general sense as to prevent extra dissociating from being uncomfortable about the emotional amnesia. we also have early life amnesia and god this video was great. on communication the closest we can do to communicate right now, as we dont have an inner world or anything, is we take all the information from what theyve done and when theyve fronted, and make an educated guess on how they would respond. its certainly not foolproof like i would assume our little likes chocolate (they dont and were very disappointed when discovering this) as the rest of us do, but in actuality they think its kinda icky. but its kinda like making headcanons for characters except the canon is just what the alter actually thinks. we also dont know how to switch and thus just let it come naturally

i’ve experienced emotional amnesia so many times and i can’t believe there’s a word for it. i gasped when i got to that part cause you described it exactly how it feels 😭

Emotional amnesia reminds me of when in a dream you are playing the role a character and but that character isn't necessarily yourself. So you're doing stuff as that character in the dream but don't feel that character's emotions directly. Anyone else have that happen? That's just immediately what it reminded me of.

We are a newly discovered osdd-1b system :) love your videos. Thank you! I am still in so much denial. You make me feel so validated.

@pinklov4447

2 жыл бұрын

Hey, I don't know if you will see this and I know it's been a while but how's your progression in coming to terms with it now if you don't mind answering. I'm just trying to come to terms with if I have this and I don't know who to ask.

This is a very good description. There's so little talk about OSDD systems comparing to DID.

Hi! This video is great! I often feel like I'm neither DID or OSDD. My parts are distinct, so it's not 1a, I get some total amnesia so I'm not 1b, but then I also feel like I don't have total amnesia enough to qualify for DID (There's only one alter I get blackout amnesia for, and I've lost time maybe once in the past year)

@TheRingsSystem

5 жыл бұрын

Hiya! Some general thoughts?: I'm pretty sure you only need blackout/time loss amnesia once between alters to qualify as having DID (when considering OSDD-1b). I would highly recommend checking out did-research.org/did/identity_alteration/time_loss.html. Time loss in DID systems can be very much varied in frequency - but the most important differentiating factor is that it *exists* :) Good luck on your journey! 💜

@pearblossom1390

4 жыл бұрын

HI. Im so close to your situation. Familiar? Almost exactly the same. And for me that really COOL. Bc then I'm not alone

@carlonashley7849

4 жыл бұрын

This is me too! My fiancee gets so frustrated sometimes because we will have the same conversations 3+ times a day sometimes and I have no recollection of all or parts of that conversation. As I've started therapy, 3 alters have made themselves more distinct over the but I don't really lose time and they've been there for quite a while but I thought they were just my over active imagination. Since I started therapy, I've had small fragments like flashes of light but no one else has been made aware to me as of yet. This is still a really new diagnosis and I'm still struggling a bit with all of it so I really appreciate educational videos like this where I can meet people who are going through the same thing I am and not feel so alone. ❤

@VanitasHowl

Жыл бұрын

This, omg, exactly this, thank you for sharing, def makes us feel less alone

Ok so I hear “voices”in my head. It’s like the inner voice, but different. Like I’ll be talking to myself/inner voice and then all of the sudden a new, different voice will come in. And it sounds different. I don’t think I expirence amnesia, but I also don’t know if any of these “voices” front. Would this be like OSDD or am I just insane?

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Hello! I can't diagnose you but here are some places to start: I would check out our videos on passive influence and internal communication. Check out did-research.org on DID vs OSDD: did-research.org/comorbid/dd/osdd_udd/did_osdd.html Here's some quotes from there: “Some individuals with OSDD-1 lack both amnesia and highly distinct parts, and other individuals with OSDD-1 have highly distinct parts but rarely or never switch between them. These latter cases are also sometimes described as OSDD-1b.” (from did-research.org) “For individuals with OSDD-1a, dissociated parts are more likely to present as the same individual at different ages, as the same individual in different modes, or as different versions of the same individual. The individual may go by the same name regardless of which part is present, and each part may view itself as the main part. However, parts may still have different skills, emotional reactivity, or ways of interacting with the world. … For example, someone with OSDD-1a may have a work self, a family self, a 5 year old self, and an angry self in addition to several parts that hold trauma memories. The work self may fully believe that work always needs to come first while the family self always prioritizes family” (did-research.org) Hope that helps! :)

@kyrabytes563

4 жыл бұрын

Damn that's literally me. I have like 5 people in my head, 2 girls one and the other 3 are males, they are so different is scary, but by "switch" is so different, like sometimes I feel like ok, this voice is basically "fronting" but is more like "i changed of personality" like if another personality took my body but I know it's me or even sometimes is like out of nowhere talking to them and one of them get mad I immediately show it pyshically. Once one of my voice got mad because we were talking about my dad being annoyingly injustice and I "myself" threw a cup, but it wasn't me, it was more like that voice wanted to do and I did it. I do not present amnesia neither, but I do forget a lot of thing that happend like seconds ago. Yesterday I was playing with some friends and I think I zoned out and the match we were playing ended it and I don't know why I don't remember the match I just remember the final seconds.

@user-zv9no2my6j

4 жыл бұрын

​@@TheRingsSystem and if someone has no highly distinct parts and no amnesia, but different emotional reactivity that can get triggered by triggers and emotional flashbacks from C-PTSD? is that than only C-PTSD when you kind of zone out, dissociate a bit, hide it from others and just force yourself to pretend to function as much as possible and don't have enough control to do what you want and it's difficult to make good decisions - could that be only severe social anxiety and some dissociation? bc if someone doesn't feel like they're different age, maybe like different modes or versions but it could just be due to flashbacks and stress? how is it possible to tell that apart if it is caused by C-PTSD or is actual OSDD-1a?

@user-zv9no2my6j

4 жыл бұрын

​@@TheRingsSystem ​ ​because, in the case I mean or try to describe, it basically could also "just" be the very ingrained, severe fawn response from C-PTSD, combined with emotional flashbacks. maybe that can seem very similar and is a bit close to each other from the underlying processes and that is why it's so difficult to distinct between them. fawn response is a trauma response like freeze or flight. it's kind of the people pleaser and avoid any conflict and be a complete push over doormat - mode. out of severe, long-term anxiety conditioning and such. it probably can be on a spectrum regarding the severety, so in very ingrained conditioning cases not easy to distinct between OSDD-1a? or could it be seen as the same just with different explanations?

@ire8277

3 жыл бұрын

@@kyrabytes563 yes, that's exactly how we feel too! It's odd

Your knowledge and confident (and pleasant) delivery will quickly place you amongst the more prominent educators/stigma fighters. I enjoy your videos!

@TheRingsSystem

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you!!! 💜

@pearblossom1390

4 жыл бұрын

I've been watching the POPULAR SYSTEMS. I'm sorry but they seem to have becone more of celebrities. I'm not looking for that. Yes I do learn alot from DissiciaDID...abit from The Entropy system, I'm just wayyyy over here looking at them not sure what to make if it. Perhaps this sounds neg but I have a right to be confused.

NO WAYYYY THE EMOTIONAL AMNESIA PART- I talked to my friend who has DID about my dissociative symptoms and he told me he went through the exact same thing when he was diagnosed, so i did my research and found out about OSDD and now i’m here in this video, this explains a LOT of things but i’m still confused bc i do not feel like there’s other personalities in my head. On monday i’m going for the first time to a therapist (my mental health literally declined and i can’t anymore) i hope she knows about this ;(

@briss6665

3 жыл бұрын

Also idk why but i feel like before i had connections with my memories, but now i literally feel like i’m not emotionally connected to what happened to me or idk how to explain it:(

@TheRingsSystem

3 жыл бұрын

Good luck with your therapist!! I hope it all goes well ❤️️

I never really understood DID or even knew about OSDD 1b. But recently due to heavy amounts of stress I noticed at times I start to age regress. Like I vaguely know what is happening but my body feels off. My mind reverts to a seven yr old instead of a 22 yr old. I thought it was all of my mental issues messing with me. But now that I know about OSDD 1b I plan on seeing a therapist to see if it is that. This video really helped out a lot 💕

Thank you so much for this video! I'm a system with OSDD-1B as well, and I also experience emotional amnesia ❤ A lot of people like to use this as a way to say I'm faking the disorder, could you do a video on how emotional amnesia has a stigma within the community?

@TheRingsSystem

5 жыл бұрын

You're welcome! I recently did a video about misconceptions of OSDD-1b alters, which you might find helpful? but I personally haven't run into any inter-community stigma around OSDD-1b so I don't know how qualified I would be to make a video addressing that :)

@TheRingsSystem

5 жыл бұрын

Working on a myths and misconceptions video, and there's a section on OSDD-1b specific misconceptions, and this is included! 💜

@angiedominique8888

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you!

I always thought I was just trying to mimic a DID system until my therapist told me yesterday that I have Osdd-1b. Everything made sence. I feel not crazy anymore.

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

I'm so glad you found OSDD and a label to help make sense of your experiences. I hope the rest of the discovery process goes well ❤️

Thank you so much! This was such a great video! We are a DID system. We know a lot about DID, but as it turned out we still have a lot to learn about OSDD-1. Thank you for this insight. There are far too few DID chanals and a lot less OSDD-1 chanals. You are grately appreciated guys! Keep up the great work and stay strong! ~Rainbow Systems

@TheRingsSystem

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much!💜💜

@saradodd4062

5 жыл бұрын

@@TheRingsSystem your welcome. Did you see our other comments? Only asking because I asked a question under one of your videos (the one that talks about dissociation and school. Keep up the amazing work! ~Dalia

@TheRingsSystem

5 жыл бұрын

Yup! Just saw it now :)

This same thing happens to my system. We’re all different. Myself being the host I have memories where I can tell I wasn’t the front and I don’t have any emotional reaction to

Hey, you did a very good job explaining the differences between DID and OSDD. The metaphores were pretty easy to understand :) I'm looking forward to your next video ^^ PS: I recognised the empty white background. Maybe you wanna hang a picture or a tapestry there so it won't be so "boring". Just a thought :)

@TheRingsSystem

5 жыл бұрын

Yeah! I hope that I'll be able to do that in the future! Currently I'm living in a college dorm, which has VERY strict fire codes (which means no tapestries D: ) and I covered the old poster because I felt it a little tooo unprofessional, and I have a close friend who's triggered by the source. The goal when I move out is nice wall with either a tapestry or a bookshelf someday :)

@angiedominique8888

5 жыл бұрын

The entropy systems bookshelf wall is amazing 😊

I've been doing a lot of research on did as I feel I share similar qualities but never fully experienced certain features of did. Growing up, I was alone often and would have a person in my head in which I would "be" if that makes sense. I started doing it as a coping mechanism and seen it as an escape route. Over the years it has gradually gotten worse and after watching this I feel like I may have osdd-1b as everything correlated with me. Thank you for the video it helped me realise a lot 😊

i’d like to thank you for creating the videos on did/osdd, i’ve been wondering for.. 2-3 years now if i have did/osdd yet subconsciously i’ve thought ‘what if i’m faking this?’ or ‘what if it’s an overreaction’ but watching these makes me feel more open to settling if i do or don’t because well.. it has more information of course, i’m not certain if i have a disorder like this but i’m beating myself up less for thinking about it.. so thank you :3

So far I’ve been wading thru what just feels like a mess of unending questions and diagnoses that lack any clarity. I’ve been prescribed many different pills, having to stop because there was never a noticeable change with them. The diagnoses I mention have been depression, anxiety, bipolar, and BPD.. I’ve recently been looking more into DID and I’m glad I came across a topic that dealt with OSDD-1b because this seems more on the nose with my situation. I’m curious about the hobbies people find themselves interested in with OSDD, if anyone feels like sharing? Mine have been stage acting, drawing, and video games. The one that was really prominent for me was acting.. it felt very natural because whoever I portrayed, I got to believe I was that person. As silly as that may sound. Thank you for the informative video.

For years I felt as though something was wrong with me, and getting called a hypochondriac because of it. I’m extremely glad that I found your page, it makes me feel like I’m not a fake, or an attention seeker (as I get told often), I feel valid. Thank you! 😢❤️

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

I'm glad we could help!! ❤️❤️❤️

I’m so glad I found your channel! I have OSDD-1b as well and I’m so happy to have found a channel who does too 😊 thank you for sharing your knowledge with the world! It will help break stigma for sure - Faith

omg! Have been watching DID videos and thinking a lot all evening and here you are, talking about emotional amnesia! Just the thing I mentioned to my new trauma therapist, that I shut off parts of my emotional nature while still having the same memories. And I can't relate to the person I was when I felt empathy or was overwhelmed by love, it's like I was a different person back then.. so weird.

thank you from an osdd-1b system myself!

@TheRingsSystem

5 жыл бұрын

:)

I’ve been searching like crazy to find OSDD info! This explains it SO well! Thanks!

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Thanks! I'm glad it helped! ❤️

You're really smart for explaining this so well and really brave for stepping forward and showing the world a vulnerable side to you for the purpose to help and educate others. Much respect.

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you!! ❤️

Thank you very much for making this video and using the metaphors you did. They made everything much easier to comprehend and understand!

omg I don't know how to explain how happy I am to find this! I had such a hard time explaining this experience except by saying it feels like being on camera. thank you so much for this video it helps me so much you have no idea. 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

I'm so glad we could help!!! ❤️❤️

This has cleared up so many things for me, thank you so much!!!! I looked everywhere to find if there was anything that could cause that partial amnesia I have without it being DID and this is it!!! I have all the traumatic memories (although foggy) but i cant feel them at all even if they are very recent

Ohhhhhh my g-d everything you just described around emotional amnesia is me. That is literally how I remember so much of my life.

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Aa I'm so glad we could help!! That's big dissociation feels! I recommend our video on OSDD-1b vs DPDR experiences on this subject as well :)

I know you uploaded this a year ago, but I just wanted to say thank you. As someone who started learning about DID and saw too many parallels but also enough inconsistencies between the DID experince and my own that I knew DID wasn't something I have, this has given me hope that I will be able to get a real diagnosis. I dont feel quite as crazy as i have for as long as i can remeber. Thank you so much for helping me to feel more valid and hopeful going forward.

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

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I know this video is old BUT BY GOD THANK YOU. We sent this to my friends (who just recently found out we’re not a singlet) and this explains everything so well. Thank y’all sm we can’t repay you

This is a fabulous explanation. Thanks so much! Glad to have found your channel!

@TheRingsSystem

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you!

this was really helpful for me!! i have been struggling to figure out whats been going on for a while now, and all ive really had to go on is that i am host of a system and i dont experience blackouts. the emotional amnesia thing really clicked and i am so relieved that i found your channel. thank you for making videos about this topic

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

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thank you! I've known I have some sort of a dissociative disorder for years but my experience never fit anywhere, especially not DID. I don't really know my alters, it doesn't seem like there's a finite number of them, it has only happened a few times on that drastic actual hours long switch level, but I always remembered what happened, I didn't lose any memory. my therapist told me I do use dissociation as a coping mechanism but she wasn't a specialist so she couldn't diagnose me. this encouraged me to seek out a specialist that could help me understand myself better :) thanks again!

ugh this answers so man questions. This sounds just like me! Thank you so much for making this video, I'm glad I found you. I do believe I'm an OSDD-1b system because I don't completely fit into DID, as I don't think i've switched more than a couple times. I know there are still other people with me, and I know sometimes when they are up front with me. Thank you again aaa!

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Good luck!! I hope figuring things out goes easily ❤️❤️

Thank you so, so much. You have no idea how much this means to me.

As a newly discovered/discovering system, this was really helpful as I see so little about this compared to DID. Thank you so much

this was so well explained! thank you so much for making this video

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Thanks! :) ❤️

this helps a LOT with the holes that have come up in my recent research, along with helping me be a little more conscious and understanding of my own system (I've been having issues accepting my alters and the system as a whole because I don't have the dissociative amnesia that someone with DID would have, thus ultimately left me to think that I needed to disprove the validity and existence of my system. Though, as I do more and more and more research, I am rather content to be aware that there is a genuine name to what is going on with me). All in all, I am very happy to have come across this video.

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

I'm glad it was helpful!! Did-research.org has a good page on did vs osdd if you want to learn more :)

This made me understand myself and my system so much better. Thank you

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Glad to be able to help ❤️❤️❤️

oh no, the emotional amnesia is painfully relatable i feel i have alota memories with little to no connection to what i was feeling, i would have to guess my memory shit feels like a pile of a mess, everything so messy and memories can require so much digging, idk why

I'm having such a silly big cry to this.... I've kind of been struggling with my brain because I felt so connected to DID systems but I knew I didn't have amnesia, I knew where I'd been but I had no idea why I was doing or feeling whatever it was I remembered.... This is kind of hitting home hard. Thank you for making this, I'm gonna binge your videos now 😅❤️

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

I'm so glad it was impactful!! ❤️

thank you so so much this has helped us so much. i personally have always been afraid to talk about this because most of the time i still remember a lot of what happened when another alter fronted. i just knew it wasn't me when i looked back at the memories. i thought i was probably faking it though because i didn't have that amnesia that everyone with did talks about. thanfully i found out about osdd and the different types through you guys. thank you so much!

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

I’m so glad the video is so helpful!! ❤️❤️❤️

Holy moly. My therapist told me I had DDNOS and when I looked it up, I was confused, so confused, cuz I don't have amnesia. Emotional amnesia on the other hand, I have that constantly. I can feel all of the emotions as they happen, I know I can. But I can't bring them back to me. I can't feel them after, I can recall the panic attack, I can remember the rocking, the hitting myself in the head, but I can't feel the emotions. It's like I'm dead inside. The reason she said I have DDNOS is because when doing EMDR therapy, I can very clearly see myself at different ages, have conversations with those parts of me, reassure the baby part of me, I can see how angry and protective the 17 year old part of me is and when I go through severe emotions, I can see myself reverting to that part of me, the way I reacted to things at 17. I can see the part in my head that is constantly telling me to kill myself and I am now able to tell that part that suicide is always off the table, that it is never an option and it quiets down. (I say it because it is covered head to toe in a black robe.) I knew I had these parts but the lack of amnesia was so confusing to me. Thank you for the explanation.

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

I'm so glad we could be helpful!!! 💜

dang thank you so much, this was really informative!!!! you're really clear and concise when u explain things, it made it really easy to understand!!!!

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you!!

I'm figuring out things lately, I think I've taken a lot of pressure of myself and people may be coming out. I'm not quite ready to say, yes, I think I have a dissociative disorder but hearing stuff like this and relating to it is helping so much. Thank you

This was so amazingly helpful, thank you

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you!

This really help yo understand what my friends system is going through, thank you

Thankyou. Im trying to figure out if I really do have osdd. That blurry blob comment I so relate. We have extensive dissociation and amnesia due to the type of trauma an depending on the level of stress/number of triggers and/or flashbacks in a day so our none of us do life well but as some parts improve communication we as a team are able to make the body 'do life' a little better especially with the support an guidence of what I'm calling our inner caretaker protector but I'm not sure she fronts as I think a trauma memory holder blocks her from fronting. I can identify with the experience of feeling dissociated an shoved way back watching but the stress of the ordeal often wipes most of my memory. We have a semi solid diagnosis of CPTSD but we haven't felt safe enough or found a specialist to discuss osdd propperly. I'm compiling my notes on how we work an why it seems very possible. I just haven't figured out if ppl w 1a have differing dress sense. We're blended or co con so damn often making one step back far enough to get only one to try an pick what they want to where takes a bit. Its like we have different personalities but so many don't feel safe to front alone an be judged as individuals. Which is understandable considering the experiences they hold which I don't remember pretty much at all.

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Good luck on your journey to self-discovery! :)

Osdd-1a. Thank you for sharing and for the validation ❤

Thanks, this video has been so informational and has helped me get an idea of what I might have myself. I've become more conscious of other people "in my head" and I even experience emotional amnesia when it comes to remembering certain things such as trauma. I personally do not think of a lot of my memories as my own. Its like I'm watching someone else's life from their eyes when I think about it. Thanks again for this video. I'll be talking to my therapist soon to see about seeing a psychologist or psychiatrist about my symptoms. Thank you

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Good luck with your therapist ❤️

@identitysystem3308

4 жыл бұрын

@@TheRingsSystem thanks! My appointment is tomorrow!

Thank you so much it makes me feel so much better about everything and it makes me not feel crazy

Finally found something that I can actually fit myself into. I can't even explain the distress I have faced all these years just trying to figure what was wrong with me and now it is actually starting to nake sense. Thank you for explaining this so wonderfully. Hopefully now I can scout out a therapist to help me get a hold of this.

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

I'm so glad our video was able to help ❤️❤️❤️ Good luck with the therapist search!

Thank you for answering so many questions. Angel hugs and blessings

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Of course! ❤️

On the building connection bit. I can relate to that, one of our alters, Charm, the one who usually deals with strangers that give us a bad feeling or people we know we have problems with, does not like any of us except our little, she's gotten better and its best to talk to her with music playing but it still hard.

i'm just seeing this now but IT HAS A NAME OH MY GOSH. EMOTIONAL AMNESIA. our protector is laughing slightly at the fact that i'm so happy about finding a name for this dhfkjsdkj

great video! i like the way you speak and gesture

Thank you for making this

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you!! ❤️

Great vid, really appreciate your explanations, you’re very clear and articulate :)

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you!

Do you know about Borderline Personality Disorder also being in the same category of structural dissociation as OSDD-1b? When I started researching, I thought I might have BPD, but I connected more to the dissociative aspects of feeling like I lose control or like I have control “technically” but I lose my //options// (like someone is forcing me to either do one thing or shut down). I definitely fit many (if not all) criteria for BPD, but it’s the experience of losing control of myself and losing my ability to understand reality (getting dissociated and feeling like parts of my head are fighting each other and I can still see what’s really happening, but those fighting aspects won’t let me have a say because they’re convinced i’m in danger), so when I’m triggered that is the biggest thing, and I’ve always wondered if that’s more of an OSDD thing.. I’m not asking you to diagnose me or anything, but I thought Id put it out there in case anyone wants to discuss and also say that if you ever wanted to make a video on the topic of BPD vs OSDD vs CPTSD or soemthing like that (since they are all categorized as secondary structural dissociation) then I’d greatly appreciate it!!!! Thank you all so much for these wonderful videos.

@TheRingsSystem

3 жыл бұрын

Here’s a quote from did-research.org/comorbid/dd/osdd_udd/did_osdd : “On the other side of the spectrum, it is the presence of at least two parts that contain more than just posttraumatic reactions, attachment needs, or emotions that differentiates OSDD-1a from borderline personality disorder (BPD), posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD), and complex posttraumatic stress disorder (C-PTSD). Individuals with all of these disorders can experience dissociative amnesia when under extreme stress or when reminded of trauma. This can leave OSDD-1a in a murky grey area. The same individual might be diagnosed with DID, OSDD-1, or C-PTSD depending on which clinician diagnoses them and how they present at the time. However, individuals with OSDD-1 generally have at least one part that is more differentiated, separate, and autonomous than the most developed parts that naturally occur in BPD, PTSD, or C-PTSD. Individuals with these latter disorders may be very confused about who they are or sometimes feel out of control, but they never feel that different parts of them are capable of acting independently or that different parts of them have and express their own views or goals.”

Ok damn. I didn't know much about OSDD and the types before stumbling upon your channel. I figured over the years that I meet some criteria of did, but never fully, never in the complete"did" sense, and man, i was so confused. My impostor syndrome went crazy and i was sometimes convinced im faking did without realizing. Fuck, this answers so many things, thank you so much. I will begin a period of extensive research on OSDD, since diagnosing something like this is a big deal, but it's such a relief to know that there can exist valid variety in systemz

This was very informative. Thank you a lot :3 I didn't know about all these kinds of amnesia and traits..

This was actually very helpful for me since for some years already I've noticed I have more than one personality in my body, but always thought it was weird that I was fully conscious and kept the memories of when the other personalities took over, and it was making me really sick because one of this personalities does thing that really disgust me and I think are unacceptable, but I could only watch and was starting to doubt if maybe that was me, if I was that person doing that horrible stuff

Thank you for making this video. A friend of mine is an undiagnosed system and so I'm trying to educate myself so I can help them

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Thanks for doing your research for them!!

this is a very informative and well-crafter video, thank you -fellow osdd-1b system

Oh my gosh, I love that this exists! We've been really anxious about faking because we don't have time gaps or blackouts. Thank you!

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

❤️❤️

Im working towards therapy but this video means a lot to me. Thank you for discribing the load up screen perfectly. Processing with the concept of did helped but I didnt get full blackout amnesia, except for my life LOL. But when memory is recalled i can feel if I don't have it but then when I do recall, its often like a picture shoved in front of me. I usee to describe it as a filing cabinet, i just have to find the filing cabniet. As communication increased jt was way easier. Thank you so kich

I'm like filling your comments haha, just found your channel and am going through pretty much every video haha. Thank you so much for doing this!

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Of course! ❤️

You're such a legend 💕💕💕

@TheRingsSystem

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you 😊💞

This has made a lot of sense in our journey! We definitely feel like we fall under osdd 1-b 🍓 Thank you for helping!

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

I’m glad it’s been helpful!

You told it very exactly! We agree with your every word! So, we didn't know that this kind of amnesia called "emotional". We couldn't explain what we feel, but now we understand everything. We hope that more attention will be payed to OSDD-1b, it's important to talk about it (sorry for my English)) Thank you for this video!

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Us too! I'm glad we could be helpful! 💕

WOW that amnesia thing !!! The memory/emotional connection you were talking about ? I relate completely ! Last year during summer I spent months literally battling myself. Waking up in the mornings already mad at life (Bc I was unhappy w my life) and I would take a shower and yell at myself have arguments Bc the actions of the day before I could remember but didn’t agree with like wtf was I doing all that .. it was crazy trying to satisfy my wants and needs when they flipped everyday

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

We have two more videos on that!!! I highly recommend checking them out if you relate so strongly :)

Thanks for explaining that is so helpful! I've been learning alot about DID and have never heard of OSDD before 1A OR B! :)

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you!

Thank you so much. I was confused, because I thought my symptoms were those of D.I.D. I was worried that I was faking it because of the relative lack of amnesia/time gaps. But now I know that this is really what’s going on. ❤️

thank you so much for this video i've been struggling so hard trying to work out what was wrong with me, i was convinced i had DID but i kept feeling like i was a liar because i didn't experience blackouts but i do experience the emotional amnesia, everything that was explained in this video was so spot on it made me want to cry thank you so much for helping me finally understand what this all means

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

❤️❤️❤️ I’m so glad we could help. We have two other videos on emotional amnesia that I think would also be relateable and helpful to y’all :)

LOVE the videos. Keep doing you! Definitely subscribed 👌👌✌️ -Lia

@TheRingsSystem

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you!!! 💜

i've been really struggling lately unsure what exactly i have and feeling like DID doesn't fit me at all. OSDD-1b sounds very much like what i'm experiencing. thank you such an informative video!!

I had heard some of the DID systems mention OSDD-1a & -1b, but not in any real depth. It's great to see so many DID systems posting about their experiences on youtube & I've learnt so much about DID. But it was very interesting to listen to you talk about how they differ from the other side of the two, and what OSDD-1b is like for you. You're correct that when people with DID have mentioned the lack of amnesiac barriers that it came across to me as if OSDD-1b means you remember everything without problem. I can see how it would be disorientating to switch into the body and get that sudden 'download' of memories, especially if you're just switching in after a long period of someone else fronting. Does the lack of emotional memory sharing create it's own problems? One of the DID systems that I follow has used the car situation as a way to explain consiousness of what's going on (not unique to them but) they then went on to to describe that time in between one alter switching out and the other alter switching in as like switching drivers of the car, so like one person gets out of the driver seat, walks round the car and waits for the passenger to scootch over into the driver seat before they climb in. Which helped it make sense to someone who doesn't have a dissociative disorder. It even can kinda help understand the longer switches too, I was thinking of it as maybe the person moving to the driver seat can't get their seat belt off at first, or if they''re scootching across they get stuck on the handbrake, or decide to get out and walk round but something catches their eye... maybe there was no one in the passenger seat and instead you're waiting for the new driver to get their coat & shoes on and come out of the house to get in the car. So for that length of time noone is driving and it's a little fuzzy-bleh because 2 people are semi-aware but from different angles and not fully sharing. What do you think of that as an analogy? Anyway, I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your perspective. I'm looking forward to watching more of your videos.

Oh my god thank you sooo much for this video! I just started therapy and i was so so so confused. I had a hinch i might have DID and i seen other therapists before, so i wanted to mention this at the start of my new therapy. I felt like i cant pretend im ONE alter, because i want to actually get therapy done properly... but i also felt like such a faker because i didnt had as many alters as others and i didnt had full amnesia. I did in the past had full amnesia with blackouts and all... but not anymore... And because of that my therapist wasn`t fully sure if i have DID either and i felt so embarrassed. And then he used the term OSDD (possibly) and i felt overall confused. But what you described fits me just so so perfectly. Of course i want my therapist to make a diagnosis and all. But since i cant see him until in a few months this means so much to me. Because i really dont want to be a pretender, but neither did describing myself as one whole feel right and true.

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

❤️❤️ I'm so glad your therapist sounds like a good one, and I'm so glad we could help y'all feel better!!

This is excellent content! Do you have (or maybe would you make) any videos on how to get to know your alters or how to recognise them? Or maybe a sort of “guide” on that. Explaining how the process of finding them out and communicating with them works. I’d love to get to know more about that.

@TheRingsSystem

3 жыл бұрын

I don’t think we do yet! We have some planned - but if you want to send us a message on social media (check video description) we’d be happy to share some longer tips with y’all!

Hello there Rings System! Though you’re probably not replying to comments anymore due to you know this video being over a year old but I’m currently questioning if I have D.I.D/OSDD or not. First off, whenever I’m alone or walking alone I all of sudden start talking out loud to myself, and look at a side of me like a person is standing/walking beside me. I have normal chats with this figure. I hear them ask a question sometimes in my head but it’s very subtle and I answer clearly. Sometimes I get randomly angry at no-one, and “make up” fights in my heads for no reason. When I was a little wee chap, I would use my hands to represent me and this strange figure and whenever they talked I made my left hand do an action and whenever I replied I made my right hand so an action (The kid who sat next to me must’ve been creeped out-). As my life continued on, I heard new voices all different ages and accents but the one that formed first is usually dominant in my head. Just a few days ago, I wrote down names in a list just for fun, and I got to the name ‘Enigma’ and I heard the voice say “I like that one” and now their name is officially Enigma. Secondly, friends, family and I sometimes catch myself randomly fidgeting, I can do it without even noticing. I can also catch myself just staring at random objects for like a few seconds and after I return to what I was doing, I immediately forget what happened just before said staring, and it takes me a few seconds to process what actually happened before. This happens to me as well when my vision gets immediately blurry out of nowhere and after a few blinks my vision goes back to normal. Sometimes after this I can also see I have different opinions on things and sometimes act like a hypocrite in other people’s eyes, I can also feel younger or older than my current age so yeah. (P.S: Whenever we have classwork about talking about ourselves or when someone just asks me about myself, it’s very difficult for me to come up with answers and the majority of my answers are like “depends on my mood”, which I find weird) Thirdly, when people ask me to do something or to do them a favour, I usually forget what the steps are and have to pester them again and again and again about what they want me to do. Even though they’ve explained them very clearly and usually the steps are pretty simple. I just don’t why this happens, it annoys me and the person who asked said thing. The only problems are: 1. I can’t recount or even remember childhood trauma or abuse, I’m not a traumatised individual. Childhood trauma is usually a big factor in this disorder, so me not carrying any trauma can literally through my earlier question out the window. 2. Though I’ve said it’s tricky to define ‘me’, I always go by the same name (except Enigma) and my personality or clothing style doesn’t change that much. Only usually opinions on specific things change. (Side note: I forgot to mention when I was younger I wanted to go by two different names back-to-back. First one was Lukas, and the other one was Edward. So yeah.. I just think it was just young me being creative) 3. I experience emotional amnesia very rarely to when I’m recounting on things in my childhood. So.. If I could get any help on this, it would be greatly appreciated! ❤️

@TheRingsSystem

3 жыл бұрын

Hah! We read every comment :) Secondly, we're not a professional, so can't really tell you what's going on here. However, our two videos on trauma should help clear some stuff up (they're in brown/tan color schemes). Secondly, we can recommend some resources that have good information: did-research.org, traumadissociation.com, and Amongst Ourselves: A Self-Help Guide to Living with Dissociative Identity Disorder by Tracy Alderman

The other alters aren't all co-con at the same time as me, but I (the host and core) am usually co-con with anyone else who fronts and still have some control, but that's not always the case.

I love this channel and would LOVE to see a video on creating bonds between alters. :)

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Oh! That's a good idea! I'll put it on the idea list :) In the mean time, our "accepting we're a system" video has a lot of these vibes!

you explained this so very well - thank you :)

@TheRingsSystem

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you!

Legit going to cry, I always thought because of me not having amnesia, there where no alters in my head. I am going to bring this up and see if I have it.

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Good luck, and I hope figuring things out goes easily :) did-research.org is a good site for more info!

@moonheartmo2435

4 жыл бұрын

The Rings System thank you! Just read it, it will take sometime but we got this! Thank you again! -Sly.

This was extremely helpful. My friend thinks she may have a dissociative disorder but both of us have only heard of DID. Osdd 1b may be where she falls. The comparison was so so helpful. Thank you for making videos.

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Thanks! I'm so glad we could help 💖

thank you for sharing~!

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

❤️

Omg I have never related to something so much. I thought my issues weren't as real because I wasn't having black outs. Now I'm more confident in explaining my therapist what's going on. Thank you so much, I'm so glad I clicked on this

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

I'm so glad we could help ❤️❤️

Very clear explanation!

@TheRingsSystem

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you!

Thanks for this.

Thank you for your video. I think I’m an OSDD-1B system. But things are all really confusing right now. Identities are all a little wibbly right now, but your video has helped. I’m best friends with a DID system and I was doing research to familiarize myself with their condition and I sort of tripped over my own trauma and coping mechanisms. So here I am, wibbly. Also with terrible headaches.

@theclovis.

4 жыл бұрын

Hey, just like me lol. Im afraid to tell my friend because he might think I'm faking it to be like him, lol