Depression-Tyrone

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Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Tyrone, a crack addict on Skid Row.
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  • @antinapay
    @antinapay11 ай бұрын

    That inner voice telling you that are worthless, that is the most dangerous voice you will ever hear. Either you are angry/sad/depressed when talking with it, or are numb and lonely when you silence it. It physically hurts every single day. Constant crying spells, panic attacks, suicidal tendencies. This is why people get addicted to vices and drugs, because for one glorious moment, that voice is gone, but you feel physically happy.

  • @StreetHierarchy

    @StreetHierarchy

    11 ай бұрын

    It's pretty wild when you live in a society that constantly reinforces the idea that your life has no inherent value

  • @rusty1748

    @rusty1748

    11 ай бұрын

    You need to toughen up ffs.

  • @TheEternalClown

    @TheEternalClown

    11 ай бұрын

    @@rusty1748 Who says they aren't tough? Just some times it isn't enough/you don't have outside help

  • @rachelrae860

    @rachelrae860

    11 ай бұрын

    ​@@TheEternalClownI agree with you 💯%

  • @rusty1748

    @rusty1748

    11 ай бұрын

    ​@@TheEternalClownoutside help like pills and medications? Toughen up. Everyone is anxious and depressed at times, most don't medicate because of it. Look at the weak, useless, welfare society of people who medicate because of these fake illnesses and provide nothing to society and are a drain on social systems. How many of the purple haired monsters waving trans flags in your kids face are medicating because of made up illnesses. All of them. Its lazy kids and shitty parenting. Most people need to stop having kids and everyone needs to put down the fake happy pills and toughen up. It's that simple.

  • @HelloJenni20
    @HelloJenni2011 ай бұрын

    “I thought I was doin alright but I was lost once again” I felt that.

  • @endodenise2090
    @endodenise209011 ай бұрын

    Tyrone knows what so many of us feel. He is real, and I thank him for that.

  • @rong2912

    @rong2912

    11 ай бұрын

    I know that feeling, often.

  • @paolaucci5302

    @paolaucci5302

    11 ай бұрын

    Was thinking the same thing... He is being real and honest.... And i hear him, i have been there and am still there... Not washing, not wanting to go to toilet, to eat but i am all alone in this.... No one here to help me and I cry almost every day because i cant deal with all of that pain by myself...

  • @paolaucci5302

    @paolaucci5302

    11 ай бұрын

    ... And the fact of being scared by that depression and that anxiety... They both scare me...he talks so well about that fright

  • @endodenise2090

    @endodenise2090

    11 ай бұрын

    @@paolaucci5302 it's an awful feeling.

  • @paolaucci5302

    @paolaucci5302

    11 ай бұрын

    @@endodenise2090 yes and especially if you are all alone in this world

  • @lauravaldivia7921
    @lauravaldivia792111 ай бұрын

    To hear a man be truly honest about his pain.. I hear him and I see him

  • @mariatwotimes
    @mariatwotimes11 ай бұрын

    If you think he felt that way just because his bike got stolen you missed the whole point .. it was that mixed with a million other things he was dealing with. The bike getting stolen was just the breaking point ‼️‼️

  • @PrimateProductions

    @PrimateProductions

    11 ай бұрын

    Yes..absolutely! That was just the straw that broke the camel's back.

  • @breezodinerooo8087

    @breezodinerooo8087

    11 ай бұрын

    Hit the nail on the head

  • @jah-marii8230

    @jah-marii8230

    8 ай бұрын

    Yep, that feeling of being lost & not knowing what to do is killer!

  • @niniwashington1820
    @niniwashington182011 ай бұрын

    As someone who’s been fighting all my life I felt almost everything he said

  • @rusty1748

    @rusty1748

    11 ай бұрын

    🤡

  • @SwampyWilkinson

    @SwampyWilkinson

    11 ай бұрын

    lmao shut up

  • @oneeyedlair

    @oneeyedlair

    11 ай бұрын

    Same here bro

  • @oneeyedlair

    @oneeyedlair

    11 ай бұрын

    ​@@rusty1748🐖🐷 OINK OINK

  • @amber76OH

    @amber76OH

    11 ай бұрын

    Agree 🥺🖤

  • @msdsplayground8360
    @msdsplayground836011 ай бұрын

    I've suffered from depression for 50 years, partly related to a severe head injury as a toddler an undiagnosed concussion. I ended up being given away and landed in a Catholic Orphanage, adopted, but raised the father who was a pedo and a mother who swept it under the rug. Now at the age of 60 have to fight everyday to combat the negative voice and feelings that press down on my mental health. Sending prayers to all the "Tyrones out there. You are Loved and You're Not Alone"!

  • @jackandlill

    @jackandlill

    11 ай бұрын

    As are you my friend ❣

  • @angelarobards8264

    @angelarobards8264

    11 ай бұрын

    Thank God for dogs❤

  • @joannasunday

    @joannasunday

    11 ай бұрын

    God bless you and thanks for sharing here. This is a safe space thanks to Mark.

  • @familylifescienceeducation5227

    @familylifescienceeducation5227

    11 ай бұрын

    May God heal you and believe that in all those dark valleys He is there. Look for the light and when you can't find it be it and through Him you can. 🙏🏽💙 In Jesus name.

  • @gldnsunrising7761

    @gldnsunrising7761

    11 ай бұрын

    @msdsplayground8360 I absolutely hear you and understand you ♡ Born in a mental hospital during someones Baker Act and went into foster for a year and then adopted by an extreeeemely hardcore abusive family, daily physically mentally emotionally verbal abuse. I literally dont remember ever not getting tf beat out of me every damn day from my earliest memories at 5 yrs old till the day i left on my 18th birthday and have been on my own since, fighting every damn day with zero family/support system no matter how bad or hard or challanging life gets , im on my own babe. Now im 47 and have had CPTSD and Clinical Depression and severe Adult A.D.D. all my life and obsess daily about my exit day off the earth. Have for over 20 yrs and I just dont have the strength to keep holding on anymore. I told myself last Christmas that this WILL be my last holiday season alone. HAAAATE the holidays. Every single solitary year over and over and over and over just one long reminder that im alone in this world and the endless barage of severe PTSD that eats my brain to death from november to january has literally finally put me to my breaking point.

  • @SugarMilkbro
    @SugarMilkbro11 ай бұрын

    "The devil speaks to me, in my own voice" That's one of the most profound things I've ever heard. Damn Tyrone. I hope all the good things happen for you

  • @amber76OH
    @amber76OH11 ай бұрын

    "I get into character, wherever i go...so i still dont know me..but i sure do have a lot of characters." 🥺 my gosh...ive never heard such an eloquent explanation of masking in my life. I have so much love for this man. He breaks my heart and i feel as if hes reading from my soul, every time. 🖤🖤

  • @conniehanses

    @conniehanses

    11 ай бұрын

    I'm good at it too..my own family can't tell with the mask I put on. Don't want to let anyone down.

  • @Antweak83

    @Antweak83

    11 ай бұрын

    @@conniehanses everyone who's ever been down for a long time knows how to wear that mask.

  • @UnitedStatesNational

    @UnitedStatesNational

    11 ай бұрын

    What's funny is that EVERYONE is doing this same thing....masking their REAL name with an ALTERNATE ID-entity on a piece of plastic with YOUR DATE OF BIRTH ON IT. That card violates the FIRST TWO COMMANDS....and Satan loves that. In fact, the "person" on that ID card is Satan's CHILD. Any questions?

  • @karendaley292
    @karendaley29211 ай бұрын

    Tyrone is the living definition of depression. Nothing but respect to you. Mad RESPECT❤🙏

  • @sasharivera5241
    @sasharivera524111 ай бұрын

    This triggered my depression and I couldnt help but cry for him and myself.

  • @AnnaH4R

    @AnnaH4R

    11 ай бұрын

    💞

  • @tifKh

    @tifKh

    11 ай бұрын

    Chin up babes

  • @556andy

    @556andy

    11 ай бұрын

    Ive dealt with that shit hard for years i had derealization episode depression and anxiety all together I couldn’t do it anymore it was eating me alive. What worked best for me is just ignore those feelings the best you can and be easy on yourself and get rid of people or things that might trigger it. Just push yourself into doing positive things keep yourself relatively busy and exercise. And dont find happiness from external sources or people purpose/happiness comes from within

  • @556andy

    @556andy

    11 ай бұрын

    Never check on yourself saying am i happy? Ask yourself do i have purpose. You know exactly what takes to find purpose on yourself. Once you find that, “happiness” will follow it

  • @AnnaH4R

    @AnnaH4R

    11 ай бұрын

    @@556andy that might be difficult for someone who feels useless hun.

  • @elishamiyahira4301
    @elishamiyahira430111 ай бұрын

    This is the most real and heartbreaking thing. I’ve never related to someone more in my life as a man

  • @AnnaH4R
    @AnnaH4R11 ай бұрын

    Tyrone is my favorite. I have so much love for him and can feel his pain. I pray he finds peace, joy and healing. He's stronger than he gives himself credit for.

  • @devontolly1596

    @devontolly1596

    11 ай бұрын

    He doesn't even want to find peace I promise you that. He is basking in his depression he has convinced himself he listens to Satan and that he can't overcome his depression basically. That's reality and not fake like you are.

  • @Jasyc207

    @Jasyc207

    11 ай бұрын

    SAMEEEEEE...in one of his videos he said something about his feelings at 5-7 years old and then said "Is this why I shed a tear so easily?" 😭😭😭 changed me and my story around my own csa...I think about him often and truly wish him so much love and healing.

  • @gonagetcha8102

    @gonagetcha8102

    11 ай бұрын

    He sure is one strong man. I pray he finds that strength to fight through those demons that try to get to him.

  • @AnnaH4R

    @AnnaH4R

    11 ай бұрын

    @@Jasyc207 I pray that you've experienced love and healing, as well. "The Boogie Man is Real." That one really stuck with me. "Changed me and my story around..." I hope that you'll pay it forward, by sharing your own story one day, so that it might help someone else in return 💝

  • @AnnaH4R

    @AnnaH4R

    11 ай бұрын

    @@gonagetcha8102amen!

  • @ddz1375
    @ddz137511 ай бұрын

    Tyrone is eloquent and honest. He has a place in my heart. I feel this.

  • @crayveonmiller3909

    @crayveonmiller3909

    11 ай бұрын

    Same man, i hope he can find peace cause this type of pain....i feel for him

  • @cosmicabyss7358

    @cosmicabyss7358

    11 ай бұрын

    Definitely not eloquent but honest yes. You're not very honest though calling him eloquent because he's clearly very far from eloquent.

  • @crayveonmiller3909

    @crayveonmiller3909

    11 ай бұрын

    @@cosmicabyss7358 i would say so....he expressed how he feels in great detail, just because he didnt sound "proper" or super articulate you can clearly sense where he is coming from

  • @cosmicabyss7358

    @cosmicabyss7358

    11 ай бұрын

    @@crayveonmiller3909 That's not what eloquent means though. Lol

  • @crayveonmiller3909

    @crayveonmiller3909

    11 ай бұрын

    @@cosmicabyss7358 eloquent means clearly expressing or indicating something. He did just that. This video was about his depression which he gave details and reasons why. Eloquent🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️

  • @amber76OH
    @amber76OH11 ай бұрын

    If anyone is interested, Tyrone has (at least) 3 more interviews on this channel, which explain his background and gives some more insight as to why he struggles like this. Its extremely heartbreaking and involves csa, but, they are definitely worth a listen. All my best to all who struggle like this..🖤💔

  • @gabrielledoucette2311

    @gabrielledoucette2311

    11 ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing

  • @amber76OH

    @amber76OH

    11 ай бұрын

    @@gabrielledoucette2311 you're welcome 💛✌🏼

  • @Jasyc207

    @Jasyc207

    11 ай бұрын

    His story and some of his words have changed my life. I appreciate his ability to share this with us. He is in my thoughts a lot and I truly hope amazing things for him 💖

  • @kelamram

    @kelamram

    11 ай бұрын

    Thanks for that information, I went back and watched the other videos. I love seeing updates (wish they were labeled as such)

  • @amdjpd

    @amdjpd

    11 ай бұрын

    His “Sucker for Pain” video explains a lot. 😢

  • @debraschubert9471
    @debraschubert947111 ай бұрын

    Tyrone, there are many of us who would love to hold you tight as your tears flowed. I think it's a sign of strength that a man can show his emotions as you do. Your feelings are raw and from the depth of your soul. So many of us love you and wish there was something we could do...

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

    Amen. Yes, we do. ❤

  • @damagemetal8198
    @damagemetal819811 ай бұрын

    They guy has a talent that he doesn’t realize he has In being a public speaker or even in the open Mike poetry community… if he just was honest like on here & speaks his pain like that he’d be very successful… he speaks From the depths of his pain & that’s not easy to tap into…. Hope he reads this & finds a way

  • @wesleyalan9179

    @wesleyalan9179

    11 ай бұрын

    💜absolutely

  • @whiteprism7004

    @whiteprism7004

    11 ай бұрын

    Yes amazing talent!

  • @BriaBarrows

    @BriaBarrows

    11 ай бұрын

    Forreal. Whole thing sounds like a monologue

  • @therealkamp
    @therealkamp11 ай бұрын

    Sometime All Someone Needs Is For Someone to listen and that's why he let it all out here. You never know him getting this out may have very much saved his life....

  • @trevellblackman8801

    @trevellblackman8801

    11 ай бұрын

    😢

  • @ketziruiz9749

    @ketziruiz9749

    11 ай бұрын

    Yuppp

  • @andrewwabik5125
    @andrewwabik512511 ай бұрын

    Usually, the interviewer has to start up the conversation. Here, Tyrone gets right to it. I felt this so terribly. 100 percent relate to his feelings. Depression is such an awful hell to be stuck in. I hope he gets better. This is hard to listen to :(

  • @JesusChrist-Gives-Eternal-Life

    @JesusChrist-Gives-Eternal-Life

    11 ай бұрын

    Yes, it is Hell, though it is extremely common. One would have to have a very low IQ to not have it sometimes. There are helpful ways to manage it. For me, I couldn't make it without God. All who believe the good news that Jesus died for their sins, was buried and rose again will have eternal life in Heaven. John 6:47. People more prone to depression MUST stay away from alcohol (or they don't stand a chance) and drugs, including weed. The only "drug" that helps a little is caffeine. Don't do a job you hate.

  • @cosmicabyss7358

    @cosmicabyss7358

    11 ай бұрын

    They clearly talked before the recording started.

  • @aleksastamenkovic5526

    @aleksastamenkovic5526

    9 ай бұрын

    @@cosmicabyss7358 You sound like a very bitter person.Ive stumbled upon a couple of your comments.You are just portraying a character thats a smartass,but in fact it comes off as nothing else but bitterness for whatever stupid reason.Get some help man.

  • @Eyezoffya
    @Eyezoffya11 ай бұрын

    “The devil is so insidious, he speaks to me, he speaks to me and I listen in my own voice”…🤯Realest thing Ive heard on the internet in a while. Thanks Tyrone

  • @Hoppy83NZ

    @Hoppy83NZ

    11 ай бұрын

    Yeah, that hit me too

  • @karenfryberger4260

    @karenfryberger4260

    11 ай бұрын

    @@JC-du6sn Look up "Ode: Intimations of Immortality from Recollections of Early Childhood" By William Wordsworth. You might find you recommend it once in a while, as a break from the one and only book you seem to know.

  • @BriaBarrows

    @BriaBarrows

    11 ай бұрын

    Deep

  • @bagelman10
    @bagelman1011 ай бұрын

    Tyrone is a tornado of emotion. So much so that I think I can feel some semblance of that anguish he’s always felt. I hope he finds friendships and comfort in anything. Watching him rock and cry for his mother was too much for my heart. Mark, please keep a close eye on Tyrone. This interview felt different than the others. Much love and peace for you, Tyrone.

  • @tifKh
    @tifKh11 ай бұрын

    For everyone feeling pain like this, you’re not alone. There are days where we feel like we’re back to where we started, that nothing has changed. Let it pass. Sometimes with the stormy days, those bring the wind of change

  • @angelicacabiles6918

    @angelicacabiles6918

    11 ай бұрын

    🙏🏼

  • @timhsvwalkinsha
    @timhsvwalkinsha11 ай бұрын

    "I thought I was doing alright; I thought I was making some progress. And then it took me back. It took me all the way back." This perfectly characterises one predicament with depression: an acutely depressive episode is never far away despite what you may genuinely be achieving by way of managing the illness and your lifestyle. This imparts a feeling of hopelessness that you cannot escape - the absolute last thing a depressed person needs. I was struck down as an adolescent. Despite success as a research scientist, as well as reasonable financial, relationship and family success, it still takes "me all the way back" and I'll again feel that sickening horror and impending doom that overtook me as a teenager.

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

    I’m proud of you for hanging in there by not quitting. ❤

  • @ProducerTSS

    @ProducerTSS

    11 ай бұрын

    Wow 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

  • @tatyana5761
    @tatyana576111 ай бұрын

    Oh my darling man I felt that to the core. It's so raw, so painful, the suffering unbearable. I mean there are NO words that can describe this kind of suffering. Like you, I have and continue to grapple with this illness. It's paralyzing, crippiling, terrifying & terrorizing. When we are in that acute state of mind it feels like it's all over but somehow YOU/ we are getting through it. We're still here. Your language of suffering is my language. I hear you so Crystal clear. I don't have showers for days on end. I don't eat. Water is the only thing I drink because I have to. But I get through it somehow. Ask, ask ask and keep bashing down doors to get treated for this insidious illness and never STOP❗❗❗I feel you with every breath I take. May you find all the inner minds peace and just remember you are so worthy. Thank you for your COURAGE in putting your story out for us to see. You have and are saving lives because of it. I will pray for you. Fck the devil ❗❗That mother fckrr CANNOT EVER WIN. Sending you ❤❤❤❤ and 🤗🤗🤗🤗🥰😘 from Melbourne, Australia 🇦🇺 and so much more.

  • @crazycatladyjo2688

    @crazycatladyjo2688

    11 ай бұрын

    ​@@JC-du6snI keep seeing this reply even on other videos . I don't know if it's just you or others too. Maybe I should read that book.

  • @crazycatladyjo2688

    @crazycatladyjo2688

    11 ай бұрын

    ​@@JC-du6snLately my go to is the song Meeting the Master.

  • @conniehanses

    @conniehanses

    11 ай бұрын

    Not alone as I thought

  • @karenfryberger4260

    @karenfryberger4260

    11 ай бұрын

    @@crazycatladyjo2688 It's just this person. Sometimes I get so tired of seeing the same comment over and over, I have taken to responding with: @JC - Look up "Ode: Intimations of Immortality from Recollections of Early Childhood" By William Wordsworth. You'll see variations of my response in today's comment section. I'm trying to get through to JC that there is more than one book worth reading in this world, but of course I won't succeed. The William Wordsworth poem is actually stunning, by the way. It's 54 pages of a masterful and beautiful use of language that addresses the human condition and spirituality without being tied to a specific religion. Just an alternate suggestion - "Of many, one."

  • @dianabarreras6872

    @dianabarreras6872

    11 ай бұрын

    ​@@crazycatladyjo2688Greta fucking Van Fleet!!

  • @Sangria
    @Sangria11 ай бұрын

    I'm praying for you, Tyrone

  • @gamebred26

    @gamebred26

    11 ай бұрын

    I.e. doing nothing....😊

  • @amber76OH

    @amber76OH

    11 ай бұрын

    ​@gamebred26 same as what your comment did...nothing...except hers came from a place of kindness and caring..and yours...?

  • @JesusChrist-Gives-Eternal-Life

    @JesusChrist-Gives-Eternal-Life

    11 ай бұрын

    @@gamebred26 Oh you are another ugly troll. Sangria did the most important thing there is to do. You added ugliness into the world, yet again.

  • @PrimateProductions

    @PrimateProductions

    11 ай бұрын

    ​@@amber76OHexactly

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

    ❤️🙏

  • @candice446
    @candice44611 ай бұрын

    Depression will have you yelling like this, especially if you’ve ever experienced a string of “bad” luck in your life before.

  • @breezyncj
    @breezyncj11 ай бұрын

    Felt this hard. We're not alone everyone.

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

    Amen. ❤

  • @simon01ize

    @simon01ize

    8 ай бұрын

    That's a nice and commendable message, but sadly many of us are.

  • @student22044
    @student2204411 ай бұрын

    Wow! This is powerful Tyrone. You perfectly explained how pain, depression and anger are intertwined. We can all take lessons from your words, thank you for sharing. Sometimes other’s advice just doesn’t help, you deserve your own compassion Tyrone. Be the friend to yourself that calms down the man.

  • @Diorvelli
    @Diorvelli11 ай бұрын

    As someone who’s been battling with depression for years, I feel like i might need this.

  • @ellensmith8919

    @ellensmith8919

    11 ай бұрын

    Same

  • @karenfryberger4260

    @karenfryberger4260

    11 ай бұрын

    @@JC-du6sn Look up "Ode: Intimations of Immortality from Recollections of Early Childhood" By William Wordsworth. You know, just for a change from your one and only recommendation.

  • @edwardl.492
    @edwardl.49211 ай бұрын

    3 things he said resonated with me.. "I am alright!, and i wasn't alright" "I got 2 sides of me" "I dance with the devil a whole lot".. that's depression + addiction right there, i feel u brother..

  • @gingerlancaster3033
    @gingerlancaster303311 ай бұрын

    Depression is very real. People telling u to "snap out of it" don't get it. It doesn't work that way

  • @NkiiA

    @NkiiA

    11 ай бұрын

    Exactly

  • @JesusChrist-Gives-Eternal-Life

    @JesusChrist-Gives-Eternal-Life

    11 ай бұрын

    Yes, it is real, but it is also very, very common. You almost have to have an incredibly low IQ not to be have depression sometimes. That being said, it is wise to not ignore it.

  • @Booky42

    @Booky42

    11 ай бұрын

    ​@@JesusChrist-Gives-Eternal-LifeThere's a difference between sadness and depression. Depression is a debilitating mental illness. Sadness is a mood.

  • @JesusChrist-Gives-Eternal-Life

    @JesusChrist-Gives-Eternal-Life

    11 ай бұрын

    @@Booky42 Depression is still a state of being. Yes, it is rough. Everyone goes through it sometimes, but some are more prone to it.

  • @viciousreasoning504
    @viciousreasoning50411 ай бұрын

    This has me in tears and my dog is trying to comfort me. I send light to Tyrone❤

  • @happyhippie8339

    @happyhippie8339

    11 ай бұрын

    Wow….. I’m so glad you found a dog that can sense heartaches. I have one that actually barely touches me on my arm and then looks straight into my eyes. … he’s amazing. Enjoy your friend.

  • @viciousreasoning504

    @viciousreasoning504

    8 ай бұрын

    @@happyhippie8339 thank you! My little one is my everything💖

  • @joelyons8238
    @joelyons823811 ай бұрын

    Praying for you Tyrone. This world is a very hard place. But there is no giving up. One day at a time, one foot in front of the other foot at a time. God bless you Tyrone.

  • @arthurvartanyan-ut5cf
    @arthurvartanyan-ut5cf11 ай бұрын

    As someone who has had depression in my early twenties and is now a healthier, happier person, i’ve come to realize depression never really leaves. It calms down and subsides, sometimes for years at a time but its always there underneath your personality. The difference is when you finally overcome depression you learn habits and build tools for dealing with it when it comes again. By understanding this, you can allow yourself to feel fleeting moments of unhappiness that are very temporary and don’t turn into long term battles within yourself. We’re all human and will continue to have both good and bad days.

  • @manofsteel7816
    @manofsteel781611 ай бұрын

    If you can’t relate to this, get on your knees and give thanks cause mental illness is a torture of the worst kind.

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

    Truth!

  • @user-xm3tn3nh3y
    @user-xm3tn3nh3y11 ай бұрын

    Clearly the most powerful SWUB video that I can personally relate to. Thank you Tyrone for your honesty.

  • @se7en5ins35
    @se7en5ins3511 ай бұрын

    this man is as REAL as it gets

  • @MariaGonzalez-nv3nl
    @MariaGonzalez-nv3nl11 ай бұрын

    Tyrone had his own answers,I think he’s one step ahead.

  • @imkenneth
    @imkenneth11 ай бұрын

    This made me cry, I feel for him and I just wanna give him a big hug.

  • @alfonso2501
    @alfonso250111 ай бұрын

    Seriously, I want to give the guy a hug

  • @qas-gu8ow
    @qas-gu8ow11 ай бұрын

    This is powerful. I hits home with me because I go through this often.

  • @tamarakonczal7975

    @tamarakonczal7975

    11 ай бұрын

    The pain. All the time. Exhausting. I have two people in me....all the time. Wow, he said it. Lost once again. God bless you sweet Tyrone. We, who live with depression understand. Even when we feel so completely alone and so shameful, what Tyrone says tells us we aren't.

  • @CuteCatsofIstanbul
    @CuteCatsofIstanbul11 ай бұрын

    This is so painful to watch. Depression is darkness, it's chronic pain of the soul, it's everything you ever cared about, ever made you happy meaning nothing to you. Food tastes bland, music sounds painful, clothes feel like a burden, breathing takes effort. I find solace in nature and in animals. Feeding stray cats here in Istanbul is my daily therapy session, it's often the only reason I get out of bed. I started filming my encounters and put them on my channel in the hope that these cats can help others. Tyrone, we appreciate your existence, we appreciate you sharing your raw reality with us. I see the pain in your eyes. I wish you all the strength in the world ....

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

    Thank you for taking care of the cats. ❤ Istanbul has a special place in my heart. Many of my family members have visited several and made friends. Good solid people. ❤

  • @kurdishgirl6361
    @kurdishgirl636111 ай бұрын

    Remember to always check on those who pretend to be alright. I know that in certain communities or cultures mental health issues aren’t even a topic because it’s simply labeled as being crazy or you’ve been told “get yourself together and man up!” Next thing you know is people don’t even accept themselves anymore, because they don’t know how to deal with depression. Not talking about it, numbing your feelings because you don’t even understand yourself anymore, not asking for help because of the fear of being labeled as weak…especially men in a lot of cultures struggle with this. I hope life treats him better than this. It takes a healthy village to raise a child and not everyone has a village.

  • @JesusChrist-Gives-Eternal-Life

    @JesusChrist-Gives-Eternal-Life

    11 ай бұрын

    That's everyone. Let us love one another. God bless you.

  • @melissamartin9615
    @melissamartin961511 ай бұрын

    This young man brought me to tears; his pain is deeper than deep. I pray he is led to a source of help and peace. Mark- your channel is phenomenal. It has opened my eyes to reality.

  • @BennyFazioRoxxSoxx8448
    @BennyFazioRoxxSoxx844811 ай бұрын

    I cn hear it in his voice this shit is no joke yall take care of yourself & blessings & good vibes to Tyrone man

  • @coritellastory
    @coritellastory11 ай бұрын

    "How can I get to know myself when im getting high with myself?" hit hard. Tyrone has an awareness and expression that hits hard in my heart. I see myself, a version of my timeline, in him. Tyrone, you dont need to do better or good, just do different including thoughts to listen to.

  • @MrDaigoRiki
    @MrDaigoRiki11 ай бұрын

    This’s as real as possible, I’ve got depression and anxiety myself, this hit me so hard and I almost cried. Thank you Tyrone, I never possibly be able to explain what I feel and you did it.

  • @victorroa9442
    @victorroa94429 ай бұрын

    Tyrone is one of my favorite faces, and voices on this channel. I feel like some of his phrases and things he says during his interviews have double meaning. It’s coming from a man who’s seen a lot, dealt with a lot of pain, and even though it’s a tough fight he’s been given the opportunity to still be here and tell his side of his story. We all just need someone to listen, forget the help and that’s what I learn watching his interviews is that he’s not asking for no type of help. We’re all just looking for some reassurance no matter how good/bad we might be doing, some of us have had harder fights than others. People like Tyrone speak for those who are afraid to break their ego cuz of pain. I genuinely love this brother for expressing himself in a very raw way that people can feel through a screen. Whether he knows it or not it’ll take him a long way, and it’ll help others see another day to hear what he’s got to say.

  • @reeluv
    @reeluv11 ай бұрын

    His cries break me down every interview 😢 It's like he can only release all that pain and suffering during Mark interviews. he's tired of fighting those inner demons, I hope he gets back on his meds.

  • @k.s4075
    @k.s407511 ай бұрын

    His anguish and the cries of a sorrowful mother are heart breaking..it’s natural for a mother to protect and soothe her child and when she can’t is truly an unbearable torture. I take comfort in this session because at least he was able to purge a bit and release some of the pain just by speaking it and being honest with himself.

  • @Calmontheoutside
    @Calmontheoutside9 ай бұрын

    I love when Tyrone says “Mark” as it adds to the wonderful reality that he is having a conversation with an in person human, a friend.

  • @col.cottonhill6655
    @col.cottonhill665511 ай бұрын

    Damn i can feel his pain. Stay strong Tyrone. Dont be afraid to beg out to Jesus for help. Prayer can definitely ease depression and fear.

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

  • @BeautifuluglyDTES
    @BeautifuluglyDTES11 ай бұрын

    This is off topic, but today is a special day for me,I am 1yr sober from being a drug addict. At 51, I am free of narcotics,and methadone etc,and it feels great. For anyone struggling with addiction there is a way out,I'm living proof. My back story is too long to get into,but it involves 12yrs on skid row,so anything is possible if you want it bad enough, especially a wonderful thing like getting a life back. Peace and love to all.

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

    Congratulations!!! Thank you for sharing such wonderful news. ❤❤❤

  • @illuminatibody3439
    @illuminatibody343911 ай бұрын

    My husband has been in a depressive episode since first week of December. Meds aren't working for him. He has not missed a dose. We have made lifestyle changes, exercise more, etc. And while the exercise and lifestyle changes helps temporarily a little bit, it does nothing for those mornings when he doesn't want to get out of bed. He's not even asleep, just lays there for hours. We are desperate for relief and his next step is to try ECT. I wish we hadn't waited this long to try it. Good luck to you tyrone, you are not alone my friend ❤❤❤

  • @sup393

    @sup393

    11 ай бұрын

    Stay up. ❤🙏

  • @janetnash9172

    @janetnash9172

    11 ай бұрын

    Has he sought the guidance of a psychiatrist? Many advise pharmaceutical help and talk therapy.

  • @viciousreasoning504

    @viciousreasoning504

    11 ай бұрын

    Has he tried spravato? A lot of my patients w mental health issues have tried it

  • @karlwalter2242
    @karlwalter224211 ай бұрын

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and PTSD, chronic OCD, the way I've been able to keep going forward is by rejecting anyone and anything that brings negativity into my life, and focus in me,myself and I.... 2dn the rest...

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

    Oh, yes. Cleaning the mess out of your life makes more difference than you imagine. I’m bipolar with boarderline and CPTSD.

  • @bigburr
    @bigburr11 ай бұрын

    I always enjoy Tyrone's interviews he's the most genuine soul.

  • @richalyncarrithers4056
    @richalyncarrithers405611 ай бұрын

    This really broke my heart I understand so much I have really bad depression and anxiety ❤

  • @siarraaaa6537
    @siarraaaa653711 ай бұрын

    i think this is one of the most important interviews you’ve done. 🥺❤️‍🩹

  • @AndresRoldan102
    @AndresRoldan10211 ай бұрын

    This might be the most passionate, self aware interview on this channel. Tyrone has a heart of gold, and is filled with wisdom

  • @whiteprism7004

    @whiteprism7004

    11 ай бұрын

    I agree.

  • @Roxannailene
    @Roxannailene11 ай бұрын

    This made me emotional, thank you for your story Tyrone

  • @labowski5201
    @labowski520111 ай бұрын

    I feel this man’s rage.

  • @Joel_Houtz
    @Joel_Houtz11 ай бұрын

    Thank you! 🙏 you may have saved lives by sharing this.

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

    Amen❤

  • @DaRealNorthside
    @DaRealNorthside11 ай бұрын

    Tyrone bro you are the voice of so many ppl who dont have a voice keep pushin brotha you got this take it a day at a time 🖤

  • @DEEPREST
    @DEEPREST11 ай бұрын

    If you ever think you're depressed. Remember this man and this video.

  • @BeautifuluglyDTES
    @BeautifuluglyDTES11 ай бұрын

    I've been following Tyrone's story for a while,and if there's one person who speaks 100% truth,it's Tyrone. Go back and hear Tyrone speak about his childhood abuse,and how he looked forward to when it would happen,cause it was attention that a neglected child craved,even though it was the worst kind. I know exactly what he's talking about,I couldn't stop crying when I realized that it wasn't just me who had experienced those things. You can say what you want about Tyrone,but he speaks BRUTAL TRUTH. You're a good man Tyrone,I don't know you,but I know about lack of self worth,but you are definitely priceless,and truth speaks volumes. Peace, love, health, and happiness to you brother.🙏

  • @Custom_Flip
    @Custom_Flip11 ай бұрын

    Mark, I really hope you gave this man a hug after. Dude just needs to feel accepted and understood.. If he only knew how many people feel just like he does on the inside and also stay behind "characters". Damn.

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

    Mark is the person called out to in his desperate time.

  • @Rcaneneophyte8906
    @Rcaneneophyte890611 ай бұрын

    You can actually see the inner child in this poor man's soul. 😢 I will pray for him.

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

  • @MariaT-wg7up

    @MariaT-wg7up

    10 ай бұрын

    Pray for yourself not getting any more mouth diarrhea

  • @isabelltecaxco-yd3lw
    @isabelltecaxco-yd3lw11 ай бұрын

    I've struggled with depression for decades and it's so awful because you want to die sometimes because the pain in super hard. I'm 62 now and I wonder why I'm still here...? Praying for you Tyrone and just don't give up, don't give up

  • @rusty1748

    @rusty1748

    11 ай бұрын

    Depression isn't real. You have been using it as a crutch your whole life instead of realizing that you just need to toughen up and live life. Medicating for these made up clinical illnesses like depression and anxiety has obviously done you more harm then good. Kids aren't anxious and depressed, they are lazy and ignored by their deadbeat parents who are trying to continue the cycle of weak and lazy people who are a drain on social systems. Everyone gets anxious and depressed at times, most of us realize a magic pill won't fix it but nake things worse. This world we live in sucks.

  • @rachelrae860

    @rachelrae860

    11 ай бұрын

    ​@@rusty1748depression is real 😪 and I have to take meds,,prescribed of course. You can have your opinion as we all do but I disagree with your comment. But at the end of the day we can all just get along

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

    @@rachelrae860Amen. ❤

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

    @@rusty1748I’m so glad you have it all figured out. Get back to us when you hit the wall at the end of your wisdom/knowledge and are lying on the ground.

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

    The pain of depression can get so severe you literally feel it physically. 💔

  • @sackeeniarobinson1594
    @sackeeniarobinson159411 ай бұрын

    Been there, this is when your soul is broken, God please restore his soul

  • @bxdeadpool
    @bxdeadpool11 ай бұрын

    I feel you man. Can we get together and chip in to get him a new bike?

  • @meatsackulationscongratula3154

    @meatsackulationscongratula3154

    11 ай бұрын

    @softwhiteunderbelly this!

  • @PrimateProductions

    @PrimateProductions

    11 ай бұрын

    I had just commented the same thing, asking if I could somehow send Mark the money to get him a new bike and a good lock...even better if some others wanted to chip in on it!

  • @karenfryberger4260

    @karenfryberger4260

    11 ай бұрын

    With gratitude to @clairelumiere, who posted this: "If you’re not aware, Mark has set up a general gofundme that serves as a way to donate to any of his interviewees. If you wish your donation to go specifically to Tyrone, you can make a note when you donate (using the “Share the Page” button) and Mark will make sure Tyrone gets it. The link is in this video’s description. Thank you for having a kind heart!"

  • @bxdeadpool

    @bxdeadpool

    11 ай бұрын

    ​@@karenfryberger4260thanks!

  • @candygirl9504
    @candygirl950411 ай бұрын

    I felt this. So many are feeling this way. You spoke for a lot of people. I pray that you get the help that you need.

  • @unknowntosociety01
    @unknowntosociety0111 ай бұрын

    I felt this kind of defeated before. i feel for everyone that been to that dark place and stayed there.

  • @catherinebeach1062
    @catherinebeach106211 ай бұрын

    I relate 100% w this one. Medicine helps but can't fix it or stop it. Just makes it not as bad when it happens. Thank you for this video. It's hard to explain what's happening to others.

  • @fatimamelo3858
    @fatimamelo385811 ай бұрын

    So much feeling in his words! So contrary to this culture! May you find peace ✌ 🙏

  • @anonymousanonymous9797
    @anonymousanonymous979711 ай бұрын

    I feel this so deeply.i deal with depression daily.sending love to all.we are in this together xx

  • @Coooooz
    @Coooooz11 ай бұрын

    Men do have feelings, Tyrone. Self care man, you got this.

  • @honestone4306
    @honestone430611 ай бұрын

    Man oh man this is the real deal right here. When he started rocking back and forth I felt that personally. Depression is so talked about yet so overlooked in my opinion. People can say they care all they want but when you feel all alone in the world, you just want to give in. The negativity is so prevalent in your life that it’s the only real emotion you feel so you almost hold onto it after a while. I hope he finds some peace.

  • @koyoteman58
    @koyoteman5811 ай бұрын

    I wish I could be in touch with my feelings as much as Tyrone is. So expressive, and articulates his feelings better than anyone I've known in my life.. Keep on keeping on, Tyrone!

  • @heathertucker4360
    @heathertucker436011 ай бұрын

    Tyrone, thank you for sharing your story . So many (including myself) struggle w/ depression; it’s a hard battle. Always in my thoughts 🙏

  • @donacatanguma
    @donacatanguma11 ай бұрын

    Tyrone, your life has meaning, you are special and important to our world, and I love you very much 🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏

  • @seresagunst6889
    @seresagunst688911 ай бұрын

    I have been exactly where you are Tyrone, you are not alone. You don’t deserve to have to live like this, there’s help. Please let someone help you.❤

  • @cheyloo
    @cheyloo11 ай бұрын

    Depression is a quiet monster that sneaks up on you and takes over. It's great that you did call your mom and you talked to your brother and his kids. It's when you isolate and listen to the depression that it becomes a short trip to the bottom. Fight it! Don't let it control you! Reach out and let others know! Don't give up!

  • @awesome_comment
    @awesome_comment11 ай бұрын

    I love listening to Tyrone. God bless you Tyrone ❤

  • @oneeyedlair

    @oneeyedlair

    11 ай бұрын

    💯

  • @davecaldwell445
    @davecaldwell44511 ай бұрын

    Tyrone has figured it out, that's the thing. But the pain is even more torturous when it rises, because he knows it's coming, and he can't figure out a way even to turn it down, let alone turn it off. This is absolute depression -- when you feel as if you have no control over yourself even though you want nothing more than to control yourself. Peace be with you, Tyrone.

  • @janetwentz3259
    @janetwentz325911 ай бұрын

    I know exactly what he’s feeling. I can’t knock it and my family does not understand. My heart breaks for him 😢

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

    Depression is nearly impossible to understand unless you’ve suffered it. 💔

  • @evelynpichardo4800
    @evelynpichardo480011 ай бұрын

    My mom had postpartum depression and it was very hard to understand what she was going through and this helped me understand what she was going through. Her depression really affected our family in a negative way and I thought it was something that she was just using as an excuse. Now that I’m older I wish I would’ve been more understanding and helpful. Sometimes the best thing to do is just listen and comfort.

  • @williamfoley5687
    @williamfoley568710 ай бұрын

    Thanks,so many good interviews!

  • @carolseven3802
    @carolseven380211 ай бұрын

    Every time we hurt someone….. that impact cuts deep. Every single one of us can do better and make a positive impact on someone else. Mark I pray that you are making a good impact a great desire in all of us to help and not carelessly hurt others. Today all we hear preached is self love personal truth. When we get out of ourselves and go help someone, be in service to someone, that self worth is taken care of. Tyrone I pray that someone here can get you another bike. I’m so sorry this loss sent you spiraling. That’s how grief is. It sneaks up and knocks us down. Please keep getting back up. We see you, hear you and cry with you.

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

    Mark is a friend to many. It shows in that they trust him to be kind beyond what most are. Tyrone is evidence of that by his calling on Mark in his time of despair.

  • @monkeypot7641
    @monkeypot764111 ай бұрын

    ....."I am never alright"......" I got two sides to me......I dance with the devil a whole lot when I don't want to.....the devil is so insidious....." His PAIN IS SO PALPABLE......this is the deepest and most raw translation of HURT that I have ever heard.....Dear God I pray for Tyrone!!!!!!!!!!

  • @rachelrae860
    @rachelrae86011 ай бұрын

    Tyrone stay strong I'm praying .🙏 for you. I can relate to everything he said. Bless his heart ❤️. I feel so bad for him.Mark another great video I can relate so much and feel his pain 😢. Please try to get help somewhere. He's so raw and real

  • @crazycatladyjo2688
    @crazycatladyjo268811 ай бұрын

    Tyrone I hope you are blessed with all the happiness and relief possible. ❤

  • @gracemccalla2609
    @gracemccalla260911 ай бұрын

    I love this man, I just want to hug him. he's so strong and so self aware :(

  • @nicolefugere7932
    @nicolefugere793211 ай бұрын

    Tyrone I know how you feel, I'm someone who has those type of episodes, It is hard to let people know how bad it gets. Much love Tyrone I want to let you know your not alone❤

  • @marylougeorge9890

    @marylougeorge9890

    11 ай бұрын

  • @kelamram
    @kelamram11 ай бұрын

    His pain is poetry. 💔

  • @missbee9140
    @missbee914011 ай бұрын

    I hope Tyrone is getting help. Poor man.

  • @sydneybeck126
    @sydneybeck12611 ай бұрын

    I feel him in my soul 😭

  • @marylougeorge9890
    @marylougeorge989011 ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your truth. I have a tendency to get depressed. I know what being at the bottom is like. I know that pain. Big love and hugs to you from Michigan. You’re one of my favorite people. ❤🙏

  • @shineyourlight111
    @shineyourlight11111 ай бұрын

    My heart breaks hearing the pain in Tyrone's voice. I can relate. Thought I was doing better... Making progress.. then depression creeps up on you and hits you hard. Being a sibling sexual abuse survivor, it's life destroying and you don't know how or when things will get better. My cats are what I'm living for or trying to at least. When the past keeps haunting you, the pain feels like fire and it's unbearable at times. CSA is murder to the soul. I don't even know myself and I struggle every day trying to find me again. I hope Tyrone finds his peace and love for life again. We all deserve that 💙

  • @Monique670
    @Monique67011 ай бұрын

    Sheesh ! Such a raw emotion of what depression feels like. Thank you for your transparency King ❤️

  • @lindsaymarie700
    @lindsaymarie70011 ай бұрын

    Tyrone❤ I want to thank you. Your first video made me feel I wasnt alone. You were the first person I ever heard talk about being the abuser as a child from being sexually abused and cognitively understanding it was wrong and stopping. You are an amazing person and I relate to your story. It is hard out there in this world with the thoughts we have. But we are good people Tyrone, our voices lie to us. I love you and I don't know you. I feel for you because I think I understand your pain. I'm so sorry that you were doing good and then back tracked. Unfortunately I do think it is a part of our journey. 3 steps forward 2 steps back. Or maybe 3 steps forward 4 steps back. But I really hope that you forgive yourself because I understand your anger. You are good people Tyrone❤ Thank you Thank you Thank you. I have so much love for you in my heart❤

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