That was your best episode yet! You've got your act together far more than you even realize. It took me until in my 60's to accomplish all that! It doesn't matter so much what others think, it matters what you think. Pay attention to those who genuinely love you and help you along your journey. Make the others earn your trust & respect as you're a beautiful woman straight to your heart and sensitivities. Don't change you. Be strong. Be happy. Give Charlie a kiss from me. I know what a big help he is to you. I have one special little dog too.

Can relate to a lot here. I was also relentlessly bullied at school and made to feel like i was not good enough. I've also spent most of my adult life single and can't see myself entering into another and I am 45 this year. I have luckily managed to dodge the narcissists but those people are very good at recognising and abusing emotionally vulnerable people and this could be why you ended up with 2. One thing i can say is that I did learn to give fewer shits when i was in my 30s and i am a very different person now compared to your age. Still, that wall I built around me will always be there. I have also been in therapy quite a bit during my later 20s.... I managed to conquer the social anxiety myself working so long in retail but i still have general anxiety disorder that affects me in many other ways. I think us creatives are meant to suffer...it is partly what causes us to create and contributes to the manifestation of it.

I am completely with you on the loneliness. I was bullied throughout primary and secondary school, I switched schools in yr 9 because of it. I made a group of 'friends' in the new school, but when I was in my 20's I realised they weren't real friends and were just using me/ bullying me (long story involving them graffiting and trying to ruin my brand new car many nights in a row and passing it off 'just a joke/ just a bit of fun') so I cut them out and I have struggled to make any real friends since. I have had colleagues I chat to, but never really managed to move those into friendships outside of work. So I stick to my hobbies I do at home alone, I have tried to make friends within those spaces but have never managed to. After a life time of it it is hard to not think what am I doing wrong, why don't people like me. I do have a great husband who supports me, so I am learning to be happy on my own with my husband.

@BethanyVere

3 ай бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing this Nicola, I really admire your openness and completely relate to what you say. I am so sorry to hear what you experienced - people can be so so cruel and it's so unfair and unnecessary. Well In time I hope you can view these videos as a space to build trust and faith in this creative community. Sending love

Your honesty and your willingness to talk about difficult topics is inspiring. Please continue with these videos. Thank you for having the courage this must take. We are listening and you are helping people.

@BethanyVere

3 ай бұрын

Thank you so much Angela, I can't tell you how much I appreciate your kindness and support!

I wish I can just give you a hug now and tell you that everything will be ok... I can relate alot to you. I also draw like crazy sometimes because that's what gives me comfort and disconects me from this world. I also lost my trust in people and relatioships long time ago and I'm alone for quite a few years. Even if I'm fine being by myself most of the time, there is that period of time when you just need someone to encourage you and to give you a hug... It's hard and I think that the only way for us artists, is to find someone that share the same interests and hobbies.(still looking for her) That in my opinion is the perfect match and the most durable relationship, when you do the things that you love, together with the person that loves you... I wish you all the best 🤗🤗

Thank you Bethnay for sharing again. It was very interesting what you had said about the two voices, the two different thoughts, one that says you can do it and the other that says do not be silly you cannot because of all the negative things that could happen. That is just how I feel, but I am finding it difficult not to listen to those negative voice/thoughts as it seems the easiest way out. I also have had bad experiences in my life that have left me with social anxiety, and I now find my art is my safe space, though I am always doubting my ability to draw when I compare my art to yours and others etc, even though my wife keeps telling me that my drawings are good, that voice/thought in my head says do not be silly. I feel we are all your unknown friends on your community platform, and it seems many of us have had similar experiences. Thank you, Bethany, keep going we are all with you.

@BethanyVere

3 ай бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing this and I completely understand. The negative voices tend to try and keep us safe but you really have to try and keep yourself so distracted from them. Tomorrow I will be recording the next episode ready for monday and I do touch again on comparison and how it is such a thief of joy and also talk a lot about being kind and patient with yourself. Falliing in love with the process of creating and doing it for yourself and for your own joy. It isn't an easy path to take but just try and quieten the external noise as best as you can and things might be a little easier. I love what you said about us all being friends on this platform and finding comfort in our shared experiences - thank you for being here with me.

I couldn't relate to this more Bethany. Thank you for your vulnerability, it's made me feel much less alone today ❤

@BethanyVere

3 ай бұрын

Aw bless you darling! Always here xxx

Thank for sharing your story with us Bethany. I can relate to many of your life experiences as my own. I'm also a rather lonely artist who probably think way too much about himself, the world around him and the unpredictable future that's coming. I could probably talk for hours about the "inner critic" inside me, who's regularly trying to keep my head down. I guess that's the biggest lesson of my life is to learn how to properly talk to myself and deal with all things around. I also never met any girl/woman whom I could call my "other half", so in fact I have no-one who could truly listen/talk to me, help or simply share life with me. So, I'm not gonna give you any "how to live" advices since I have no all the answers, but I hope that we will eventually find our truly safe and peaceful place on this planet surrounded by people/animals/things we care and love, and we will never surrender to our fears and give up on life.

Your authenticity is refreshing, thanks for another great video.

@BethanyVere

3 ай бұрын

Thank you so much Mark!

You are beautiful inside and out. Well done for having the bravery to speak about everything you’ve faced x

@BethanyVere

3 ай бұрын

Says you my darling!! Thank you for always being so supportive xxx

Beth you have been called into your unique expression to empower many people. This is such a gift.

@BethanyVere

3 ай бұрын

Thank you so so much Jen, can not tell you how much I appreciate this!!

Ps, i am also a dog mom, dogs are the best partners in life ❤️

@BethanyVere

3 ай бұрын

They so so are!!

Brave and beautiful. I can relate to the toxic relationship thing, I had a horrible one in my 30’s, yes it left scars but it also taught me so much. I love the idea of Charlie wearing a dressing gown…how cute!

@BethanyVere

3 ай бұрын

Thank you so much Wendy, I do believe these challenges make us so much stronger but they are horrendous and so painful to experience. But they do mould us and make us into better people for the most part, or at least teach us a lot!

Well done Bethany x

@BethanyVere

3 ай бұрын

Thank you lovely xx

Volume is a lot better, Bethany! And you're young at 30 so it's not abnormal to feel the word "woman" sounds weird when you describe yourself. I'm 58 and sometimes it still feels weird because I think we all think of ourselves as young. I certainly don't feel like I'm 58. And Bethany, don't let anyone make you feel as if you're not beautiful (inside or outside.) You are. People who make you feel that way are insecure and they feel more powerful when they make you doubt yourself and feel weak. I have been in your position so I understand. Just go on social media to post your art and get off of it. That's what I do. Social media is toxic. And I say let your hair go back to curly! Your curly hair was gorgeous! Of course, I'm partial to curly hair... 🙂

@BethanyVere

3 ай бұрын

Aw thank you so much Maria, that's so incredibly kind and lovely of you to say. Social media can be so toxic can't it but unfortunately it's so necessary for a business in todays society! But tomorrow I plan on recording an episode to help with those who find it a toxic place and hopefully we can build a really lovely safe community within these videos :)

I think you are wonderfull and a beautyfull lady and you can by proud off yourself. Excuses for my english.

bit of a miracle and gift this episode is.

@BethanyVere

3 ай бұрын

Sending you so much strength Jeff!