Omg now I understand why I never did anything and even cleaning the kitchen was too much for me 😱 (nobody understands why, they think I'm lazy or mental not okay) thanks for this!!! Now I know what to do. I have cptsd and I gonna do action now! It is time to live the life I finally deserve and want! I promised myself when I was 6, I gonna be happy and I will be!!!

@JustHereToHear

3 жыл бұрын

Wow.. Same here. We will overcome.

@jackieann5494

2 жыл бұрын

It's amazing , right ? Once you get some insight , it's liberating ! HOW does that work ? Nevermind 😊 I'm just grateful that it does .

@gabby7882

2 жыл бұрын

I understand. You are not alone

@lauramonteiro702

2 жыл бұрын

Lol!! “Cleaning my sandals”! Seriously!!! I resonate with this so very much!! Don’t make a big accommodation for yourself! Don’t mistake paralysis for self care! “Doing” and “being” are BOTH important!! I really like “small consistent actions”. Super vitamins!!! 🙏🏻✨✨✨✨

@noneofyourbuizness

2 жыл бұрын

Aww I hope you are doing well !

Don’t mistake paralysis for self-care. Great message. Thank you.

@MSOetjen

Жыл бұрын

Yes, I just put that on a card to post. Thank you, indeed, Anna.

I’ve been excusing my paralysis for so many years. I couldn’t understand why everything felt so monumental for me when I could see others around me doing things like it was no big deal. The less I do, the more ashamed I feel; the more ashamed I feel, the harder it is to do things. Thank you, Anna, for telling the truth without condemnation. Watching videos like this one encourages me to keep trying and not be ashamed of small beginnings and slow progress.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you for this kind comment. I wish you well!

@meganshea8442

3 жыл бұрын

you summed this up so well i screenshotted your comment as a reminder for myself

@KishBish

3 жыл бұрын

THIS!!!

@ulaland

Жыл бұрын

I have exactly the same 😢

@BlondeBearAndHunnyBunny

10 ай бұрын

ME TOO! I understand, I REALLY understand, you're not alone! I wish I could hug you, because I know the self loathing and shame is so painful... I'm sending you strength, support, and a reminder that you're loved- no matter what. ❤

Wow, she said my thoughts, "people without CPTSD don't know how hard we work at just being normal." I've often felt as though I work harder than most just functioning. It's a relief to hear it's not a mental illness, but sad too

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Meant to be a relief :) -Cara@TeamFairy

@tylerpurrden

Жыл бұрын

It's liberating af but also makes me wanna burst into tears. You are not alone 💝

@ragga7862

Жыл бұрын

@@tylerpurrden I agree. When I discovered CCFairy and found out what was (is) wrong with me, I binge watched all of her videos. I cried for a week or two while realizing how much work I have ahead. I am slowly minimalizing my belongings and imagining how peaceful it must be to have less clutter and being ready in time, while procrastinating a lot. It feels stupid, but self care is hard to do on a regular basis.

It's ironic that when we shrink our world to a safe, predictable, small size in order to protect ourselves from overwhelm, our tolerance for stress shrinks with it - the opposite of what we are hoping for. I have to remind myself of this and keep trying things that are even just a tiny bit outside my comfort zone. I have to remember that the growth zone is right outside the comfort zone, but before the overwhelm zone- a tricky place to find sometimes!

@aybee69

8 ай бұрын

Yes yes yes!

@kristinab.8236

Ай бұрын

This comment just healed something for me. Thank you for wording it this way.

I needed this cause I couldn’t do a simple thing like returning an item to the store. I saw this video and returned and I feel accomplished even though it’s the simplest thing.

@abravebirdsaved5363

4 жыл бұрын

Sahara AP I still have library books from last yr ! 😑

@Feirin332

4 жыл бұрын

I have lost money on several occasions because I just couldn't bring myself to do the thing I needed to do, like returning a faulty item. Totally get you but well done - it might be an insignificant little thing to others but we get you!

@mandyg5747

4 жыл бұрын

@@Feirin332 True, me too! And many of us have physical illnesses like ME/Chronic Fatigue/Fibro-myalgia which affect our bodies ability to actually make energy or the cortisol we are supposed to get in the morning to help us get out of bed only kicks in during the evening so we end up tired but wired and hyper. But not doing things because we can't ends up with us being able to do less and its a vicious cycle made worse by CPTSD. New science is showing that these illnesses are in our ANS (autonomic nervous system) which is located - you guessed it! in the brain... funny that. Am finding that many things I do that I thought was ME are actually due to CPTSD but I know that I was unable to get well from a simple teenage illness all those decades ago because of my awful home life. Its good to know that its not just me. Both conditions are healed by daily meditation and rewiring/resetting our thoughts when ever it goes back to the well worn paths of negative thinking. All the best everyone on your healing journeys.

@mandyg5747

4 жыл бұрын

@@abravebirdsaved5363 I once had to pay a £20 fine for an overdue library book. That was 15 years ago... wonder what it would cost now? Take them back and tell them that you have been struggling with illnesses/depression and they may let you off the fine. After all if you have CPTSD its kind of true but they may not understand that. Or you could get someone else to take them back for you.

@HalienNation1

4 жыл бұрын

Mandy G - Thank you for your insight and sharing; I am new to this so have much to learn. All the best to you.

"Your strength is taking action." So true! When there's something I want to do, but I feel too scared to do it, I pretend I have a loving, wise mother who wraps her arms around me and encourages me. She tells me that I am safe, I am good, I can do anything one small step at a time. It really helps. Let's face it, the reason most of us procrastinate is b/c we have a voice in our head telling us that we're bad, we're f-ups, we can't do anything right. Confession: my loving, pretend wise mother looks a lot like Anna Runkle. Thank you, Anna, for all your videos. You have helped me tremendously.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

3 жыл бұрын

Aw, I'm honored, @Kiki_Lynn. I like your technique too!

I have recently come to realize that not taking the actions towards things that will ultimately make me happier, for example exercise, is actually a form of self neglect. Knowing this makes me feel more motivated to take care of that part of me that was neglected all those years. Hope it helps someone else out there too. All the best on your healing journey!

@writersloane

3 жыл бұрын

Wow, you are so right. I never realized that. Thanks so much!

l have been thinking about this a lot recently. It's a major issue and l feel sick to my stomach before starting most projects. Wasting time and then feeling more stressed. Great to talk about it.

@anns1921

3 жыл бұрын

Same here. I get to the point I want to throw up at even the thought of doing so many simple things.

@travelbug4536

3 жыл бұрын

@@anns1921 And here I am one year on. Feeling less sick to stomach these days and the procrastination is not as bad but every project is now guaranteed to be late which is also stress inducing! :)

@anns1921

3 жыл бұрын

@@travelbug4536 God bless you TravelBug! I'm glad things are a little better for you but I am still hoping and praying that you and the rest of us find the healing and the peace that we so desperately need and deserve. No one should have to live this way. 🙏💖🙏💖🙏

@travelbug4536

2 жыл бұрын

@@anns1921 God bless you too my friend! Here I am with an job interview tomorrow morning. It's late and I have done nothing owing to my friend procrastination. Yes, I've had enough of living like this! Watching this video again :)

@anns1921

2 жыл бұрын

@@travelbug4536 I am praying for you and I bet you are a pretty amazing person whether you procrastinate or not. I hope and pray the job interview went well but no matter what remember to be kind to yourself and forgive yourself for the things you just can't do. 🤗🤗🤗

I want to acknowledge that I hear your message - about not identifying with the procrastination as self care and about taking action within your capacity. I understand more clearly because of you that my power lines in my ability to take action. I also want to acknowledge how deeply scary this is for me. To move through discomfort. To risk being seen - for better or worse. To feel present with the discomfort and pain and not to nurse it with inaction. To accept humility and to be honest with myself and the world with where I am. I wish I had more support around my CPTSD recovery within my life.

@timeittakestoletgo1687

3 жыл бұрын

This is the only comment I’ve found that I can identify with.

Currently procrastinating while watching this video 😢 The positive is this was my first video and I’m now redirecting my energy back to soap making in order to growing my business! This was extremely beneficial. Thank you!

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

3 жыл бұрын

Ha ha! Growing your business is an excellent thing to do. And it will go better with healed trauma, so I still say you spent your time well!

What works for me is to think , "What is the smallest thing I can do towards whatever it is that I want to achieve" For example if I have planned on a previous day to go out for a walk for exercise, but don't want to do it on the day, I think, what is the smallest thing I could do and it might be to get out of bed, so I do that. Then what is the next smallest next thing I could decide to do and it might be have a shower, I keep making these small decisions and before I know it, getting it done takes over and I suddenly find myself half way through my walk. I sometimes think to myself "How did I gat here" and before I know it I've finished my 4 mile walk and I'm back home. Give it a go, it might work for you.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

3 жыл бұрын

Beautiful, simple advice that works. Thanks!

@KishBish

3 жыл бұрын

this is great, thanks!💖

@lightbulb888

2 жыл бұрын

Fantastic practical advice thanks

@ulaland

Жыл бұрын

What an incredible advice! Thank you ! ❤😊

@justgoodness333littlehomes5

8 ай бұрын

Absolutely. This helps me too.

Wonderful. I could never explain this crippling paralysis but knew it was not normal. Makes perfect sense with the CPTSD.

I literally thought I was the only one "unable" to do something or anything. Wow, thank you for this video!

@anns1921

3 жыл бұрын

Same here. It's so nice to know we're not alone in this fight. God bless!!

You really are a fairy godmother, Anna. You seem to say the things I need to hear just when I really need to hear them. Thank you for having taken action despite how difficult it is.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you! Thanks for this sweet comment!

Thank you. Thank you .THANK YOU!!!! Just what I needed to hear today. After 10 years with a sash window that won't open and a landlord that wants to use non qualified odd job men.....Today I rang an expert and it won't cost that much to fix!!! Getting sorted with new storage heaters and insulation too. Am getting better but all the phone calls take hours and a lot of energy. But I will keep at it until improvements are made! Thank you for all your hard work making videos! It's really appreciated especially the one on healing CPTSD! So many helpful comments too!

@kathymyers7279

4 жыл бұрын

Mandy G omg sooooo me! It’s those little things! So many times I’m like... why?! the dread. The invisible mountains.

Growing up I was always being called „lazy“. But what I was actually feeling was this „paralysis“ you‘re talking about. Even as an adult, I struggle to get out of it, and I do it one little step at a time. And, boy, are you right! Binging series on Netflix Does feel so good, hehe.

Aren't you amazing. We need you. Don't identify with the trauma.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 жыл бұрын

What a kind comment. Thank you @Beryl.

Totally relate to this, Anna. When I was an undergrad and had to write a big paper, suddenly cleaning the bathroom became really urgent, and I hate cleaning the bathroom. Funny thing was, when I would actually submit the paper after weeks of suffering and procrastination, my professors would always tell me what a good writer I was.

@wandavillaverde6671

Жыл бұрын

Same thing happened to me. Lol My professors would say mine was the best paper meanwhile I stayed up all night to write it last minute 🤦‍♀️

@coldfact.

9 ай бұрын

Same exact story here, but I'd be having nervous break downs every time, it was so unhealthy. Now I have anxiety about finishing since it's been years & now there's all this fear I've racked up idk if I can at this age mentally.

This was really helpful. I've noticed I procrastinate a lot when stressed. Eg. Whenever assignments come up at uni, I am suddenly glued to the TV, online shopping, cleaning and binge eating. The whole time, feeling horrible and ashamed, but just not being able to. I think I just build up what I want to do in a perfectionist way and then cripple from the pressure. Exercise? I'm so scared of failing to lose weight, so let's binge eat. Study? I don't feel strong enough to be the motivated and successful person I want to be, so let's just watch TV. I seem to just be unable to "just do it" like this advice suggests though

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Small steps :) -Cara@TeamFairy

My list for today😁 Make bread Make lemon cake Prepare a room for painting Clean bathroom Listen to music while working

@simonanardi4312

3 жыл бұрын

too much maybe...? Be blessed!

@kathyingram3061

3 жыл бұрын

.....wow....?!?.....if i got all of that done in a week, id be thrilled?!!!~☆~

This is my life 😭😭😭😭😭😭

I’ve felt this for sure, more so in the past; at tines, it felt like I was climbing a mountain simply to ‘catch up’. Feeling more integrated than ever, now, it can hard to be patient. I don’t want to wait. It feels like I have waited LONG enough.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 жыл бұрын

Nice problem to have!

@pdelaprimm

4 жыл бұрын

Crappy Childhood Fairy: Thanks, Anna, provided I don’t allow myself to become dysregulated❤️ Ooof.

Truth. Procrastinating now. Bullied as a young person seems to have messed up a lot of areas of my life.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 жыл бұрын

Messed up, but it can be healed!

“Action take in right proportion to you capacity”❤️

This is me and my struggle to get ready for bed..sounds silly, but I’ve always had trouble, which then affects my sleep, the next morning, etc etc..

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 жыл бұрын

Me toooooo!

@hell-shocked

4 жыл бұрын

Ah me too, I have so much anxiety about insomnia now that I will keep putting off going to bed, which obviously perpetuates the problem.

Thanks for mentioning that it took you 20 years to start crappy Fairy !! This helped me to get out of a rut and start something I put off for many years. Keep up this great work !!

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you!

This is my life. Don't know how I'll survive in this world. Life is tough. But I hope to get through and see myself fulfilling my goals

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 жыл бұрын

Good. One action at a time is what it takes. Not everything at once.

So glad you chose this over Netflix! You’re making a huge difference and helping people. You just can’t put a price tag on that! 💖

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

3 жыл бұрын

Well, sometimes when all the work is done, Netflix is pretty nice!

Thank you. I also want to say that I feel better when I do the thing that I have been procrastinating about.

Paralysis - I have used that term to describe myself. This hit me like a ton of bricks. Hope you can keep this conversation going... Thank you for these videos

Thank you for giving up your nights and weekends to make these videos, they make a HUGE difference for people like myself, thank you 🙏

I don’t have them often but, for a few moments there I didn’t feel so alone. Thank you 🙏🏼

Far and away my worst problem; okay - my only problem perhaps - is procrastination. There are days I can barely get dressed or brush my teeth, let alone clean or do anything productive. I want to live creatively and this isn't it. I will say, this work is helping tremendously in a short time. I'm hopeful. Jack Boland said "Action is the antidote to fear." Thank you. I can't thank you enough for your work.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 жыл бұрын

You're comments are always a joy for me. Thanks.

It made me cry. It is all about me. Thank you, I needed this encouraging words ❤

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 жыл бұрын

You're going to make ME cry. I'm really glad you're here!

@gobears6487

3 жыл бұрын

Me too Svetlyachok... me too.

I'm glad you created this channel. Thank you!

I struggle to pick up a glass of water that is right next to me when I am dehydrated. It feels like an insurmountable task.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

3 жыл бұрын

I get it!

I found you a couple of weeks ago and this has changed my life. I'm not going to lie, I did wonder about how you pull this off. What miraculous breakthrough it was to be able to do this and this video today showed me just how honest you are about your own struggles. Thank you for not pretending to be"fixed". Thank you for teaching me that I can't talk the trauma away. I also found therapy to be reliving my trauma instead of relieving. I had a doctor once who told me he had a patient that "walked her fibromyalgia away" to which I said "she obviously didn't have fibromyalgia" I know my pain won't vanish if I walk more. If I over do it on a good day then I'm down two days trying to recover. So I have learned coping mechanisms like yoga, and water therapy that do help with mobility. My trauma is the same. If I get on a tangent whether in therapy or in social situation talking (diarrhea of the mouth) about my past traumas I find I need a few days to mentally recover. Not only from the dismembered past I dug up and laid out piece by piece but also the new trauma I just caused by horrifying the listener and embarrassing myself. Thank you for teaching me coping skills. Thank you for your honesty about how others see my symptoms and how they may react to me by pushing away or taking advantage. I'm 41 and for the first time in my life I feel like I know ME. Since being introduced to myself I now can help that hurt child I was and in doing so I see what I did as a young adult to drag that child with me. My whole life has been defined by CONTINUOUS traumas one after another feeling completely out of control. Now I know that only I can control me. I define myself today. I know I can't control when bad things happen in life but I can now control my choices and reactions without dragging my past into the present and continuing to neglect and abuse that precious child I once was.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you for your honesty!!! You might some resources on the website that you connect with crappychildhoodfairy.com/, in particular, the free 'Daily Practice' course :) Welcome!

Ive watched countless videos on this topic. Ive lived so long in the freeze response and paralysis. I know the feeling of life passing you by. Marathon sessions to get things done is how my family of origin did things, with lots of stimulants to get it all done. It was revelatory to realize that it can be disregulating! As an adult, I watched my mother in a total panic trying to clean the house on day. Its a painful memory, hard to see her that way. Its relieving to give it a name in regards to that memory, and my own struggles with serious debilitating procrastination. I used to always roll my eyes at the suggestion to do small bits at a time. Oh okay. It just seemed so out of reach to be that consistent with anything. Im trying to do the meditation again, and the concept of making that mental space for myself is just changing me some how. After being awake for over 24 hours, with a stressful situation at the end of that, feeling a bit off physically, I woke up this morning still on little sleep, and got up, and stayed up, and began my day like a normal person instead of obeying the urge to go back to sleep and hybernate and avoid. Like Im awake, and feel like being awake. All signs point to hybernation! But I'm awake! And Ive been doing small bursts of things over the last couple days. I just needed to have it framed in terms of regulation and also get some, and then miracles happen. The mountain is still very large but now I know how to climb. The shortest and most helpful video of its kind.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

3 жыл бұрын

Aw, this is such a pure good story. Thanks for sharing some of the details of what it's like to climb out. Very glad you found me.

I just got up and brushed my teeth... you are an inspiration ! Thank you !

A technique I use, along the lines of EMDR, - super simple and surprisingly helpful: to gain respite from the cauldron of thoughts and feelings and emotions, I just hold my gaze above the 'horizon line' (eyes open OR closed) - the 'stuff' stays BELOW the line...nice and quiet above the line - the hard part is resisting the urge to dive back into the juicy, tempting broth...! - handy during meditation -

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 жыл бұрын

I love this. Thank you.

Thank you for choosing to be the crappy childhood fairy. No words right now to express how much you have helped me and everyday I see how I am growing and healing. Eternal gratitude you came to assist my healing xxx

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Beautiful comments, thank you! -Cara@TeamFairy

Subscribing me to a T....but I am working on reducing procrastination everyday, and it is getting better!

@karent3004

4 жыл бұрын

Me, too....😊

@HalienNation1

4 жыл бұрын

Dan Hernanadez - what is helping you make progress?

My CPTSD has had me procrastinate pretty deeply. I’ve always gotten things done, however since ending my relationship and going no-contact with an abuser last year I have been feeling so stuck. This past year I made the decision to avoid meeting another man man because In my past my pattern was to always meet another man and jump in right away. I knew that in order to heal I had to learn to be single. I’m happy that I’ve learned to be comfortable with myself however my in-headed trauma has caused deep procrastination. I can heal from this, I am worthy to heal and so are you 🤗

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

3 жыл бұрын

Great self-awareness! So glad you were able to try something new :)

Good point about making small, consistent progress. A lot of us struggle with all-or-nothing thinking, so if we can't do everything on our to-do list, we feel discouraged from doing anything at all. What helps me is to break my goals into teeny tiny tasks. No task is too small! For example, to make a Dr's appt: Day 1, open a drawer. Day 2, find the paper in the drawer with the Dr's phone # on it. Day 3, call to make an appt. Seems ridiculous, but this is a real situation I had. And once I get started, I can usually get more done than I planned. Another thing that helps me is to set myself up for success. If I'm having a bad day where I know I'm not going to get the stuff done that I wanted to, instead of giving in to despair I will at least set myself up for success the next day. For example, I will put my gym clothes right by my bed, or pack tomorrow's lunch, clean the kitchen, call that friend I've been meaning to call, or even watch comedy (not productive at all but it's better than despairing!) -- whatever easy, beneficial thing I can do that will free me up to focus on more important things the next day.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 жыл бұрын

This is a genius comment. Thanks so much for sharing. Everyone read this -- good wisdom!

@hell-shocked

4 жыл бұрын

@@CrappyChildhoodFairy Thank you! I really appreciate your channel.

MAN OH MAN ! THANK YOU for being the Crappy Childhood Fairy instead of glut watching net flicks all the time . You're saving lives !

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for awesome comment 💪💜t -Cara@TeamFairy

Keep in mind all of the people you have helped. Thank you!!!

Sadly I struggle with this all the time. I hate being this way and I wouldn't wish it on anyone but it gives me such comfort to know that I'm not the only one who is dealing with this issue. I truly hope and pray we all find our way to a better and happier life. God bless!!!

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

3 жыл бұрын

Glad you're here, thanks for watching!

You to me are a blessing, a hero, a lifesaver, proof of synchronicity. You make me cry for feeling understood. You make me laugh describing those things I recognize in myself. "Thank you" cannot describe the gratitude I am feeling, but Thank You! Imma keep on - not giving up. XO from Amsterdam

@HalienNation1

4 жыл бұрын

Beautifully stated, and I agree!! I am so glad I stumbled upon this channel by accident. Thank you, God, & Anna!

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 жыл бұрын

@khle82 and @HealienNation1 Thank you for filling my heart with what you just said. So glad you are here, and so glad I found a way to do something helpful!

@theresakotlar430

2 жыл бұрын

And from Ohio

I really needed to hear your message. I've been in a paralyzed state for almost four years. I'm wondering if you know much about adult c-PTSD as a result of years in an abusive relationship. While I did have some minor trauma as a child, I was able to function and ran a nonprofit as my last job. I reconciled with my ex-husband in 2011 after missing him and being in touch on and off for several years. He was not abusive during our courtship or marriage,, but did have substance abuse problems which resulted in our divorce (it was the lies that I couldn't handle). He had been sober for three years when we got back together. Within a month he choked me unconscious. I stayed for four years because he blamed his behaviour on untreated mental illness. He went impatient and got on medication and made promises. I was also afraid of him and he broke into my place several times when I asked him to leave. The police wouldn't do anything because he technically lived there (he still got mail there). He relapsed with drugs and refused to take care of his diabetes and manipulated me with that as well. The worst was when I kicked him out and he took one of my dogs. That was always the threat after that. Anyway, I got out when he was arrested and sent to prison for kidnapping me. I have been in a near constant freeze state since. I procrastinate everything and spend all of my waking hours dissociating on the internet. I know I should take steps to do things and some days I do, but most I stress about it and procrastinate everything I want and need to do. I often don't feel like I can move from my bed. I also have agoraphobia and no longer am able to work. I'm wondering if you have any suggestions besides getting back in counselling which I will be doing at the first of the year. Thanks for sharing this information. It helps to know I'm not alone, though it saddens me to know so many others are suffering.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 жыл бұрын

Thanks for writing @Amanda. Many are suffering, but many are HEALING. In my line of work I get to connect with thousands of such people. My suggestion to you is to try my Daily Practice. It's like WD-40 for stickiness and is very comforting. It's free: bit.ly/2pUeGYz

@amandathompson4692

4 жыл бұрын

@@CrappyChildhoodFairy Thank you for the reply. I apologize for the late response. I often spend hours on KZread and then don't get on for some time. I will definitely check out your Daily Practice. Thanks for sharing the link and for the great content. I am very happy to hear that people are healing. I need to catch up on some of your new videos too.They are very helpful.

So answer to not being able to do stuff is to do it. Brilliant

Thank you so much. I believe finding your channel is an answer to much prayer. I have been trying to overcome my issues of fear, procrastination and isolation for so long. I have spent so many years hiding these issues from others and it have brought me to the point of near suicide because I believed I was just defective and would never be able to overcome it and should just give up. Your KZread videos are giving me true hope and real solutions to deal with what is going on with me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for hope. 💜

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 жыл бұрын

This is a beautiful message -- thanks so much for sharing this and I'm SO glad you're here.

Anna-over and over again you continually surprise and comfort me with how accurately you can articulate my dysfunctional living! I really needed to hear this today and I have a couple of friends I could send this to as well, but this is the kick in the pants I really needed. Thank you as always.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

3 жыл бұрын

I'm so glad!

Just what ı am feeling right this moment!!

Very important subject. Because of paralys we're getting poor, bored and it's Perfect ground for uhnhealthy relationships

Thank you for creating these videos and sharing your story. I am so grateful I got to hear this truth!

Listen , Unless the hurry-up-wolves are chasing me into action , I lie around feeling utterly overwhelmed on every level . I wallow in muddy puddles of sloth . Uuuuggghhh. Thanks for the much much MUCH needed insight and guidance .

@michelleclarke646

2 жыл бұрын

I know exactly how you feel. I could get weeks to do an assignment, I dont start till the day or two before. Its so stressful but I never seem to get the drive or willpower to do thimgs until disaster is about to strike

@jackieann5494

2 жыл бұрын

@@michelleclarke646 Exactly !!!

“Your strength is action”! Love that.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

3 жыл бұрын

Glad that felt good to hear!

I'm crying. You help me so much. Thank you 🇬🇧

Thank you so much for all the hard work you put into these videos. I enjoy them so much!

Thank you so much for this video, it’s really eye opening and helps me not get stuck in guilt and shame when my energy is slow.

I REALLY needed this

All the time !!! So hard , good days in my mind are rare 😑

This is so inspiring and so needed! Thank you for making these invaluable videos!!

Perfect, I'll watch it tomorrow... Seriously, very helpful, thank you!

Thank you so much Anna I was always told that it was ADHD that kept me from doing the things I should do particularly in the self-care department but now I know. this video fits so well with how I act. Awareness is the first step in healing♥️👍

I have tons of things I want to do and I just CANT or won’t. Thanks for letting me know I’m not alone.

Thank you for this 💗✨😊, I definitely needed to hear it ( also ashamed to say), and will replay it every day this week as a launch pad. Thank you for the very kind support. Have a MIGHTY 2021💛

This was a blessing. So glad you took action.

Thank you so much! I feel understood now.

Thank you for your commitment and vision.

I'm so grateful that you created your channel. I have yet to come upon such an open & honest presenter. You are very courageous to share ALL of your painful stories & memories. Due to my dysfunctional family life, l am left with very very poor social skills, l may even have Asperger's but I have yet to be tested. Thank you!

I can understand your paralysis before a video Anna, words are SO important, they honestly have the power to motivate and to heal, so organizing your thoughts and strategies is hugely important to reaching others with these truths. Your preparation shows by how we are all affected by what you share (shown in comments), coupled with the fact you have learned it by experience, not from a book, gives US courage to move forward and know someone understands us, doesn't judge, and even CARES and wants to help us move forward with you. We all know its not easy to get through this. Your honesty about your own journey really makes your work so much more relatable and effective. Thank you for choosing helping others heal instead of Netflix, haha, you are helping SO many of us! God bless you!

Finally someone who gets it!!! Thank you. I could never name my experience until now!!!

Video is EXACTLY what I needed

I dont want to let life pass me by. Thank you 💜

Im proud of you for overcoming these emotions and making this video.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

3 жыл бұрын

Why thank you.

thank you so much for all you do. I can so relate to this. often the simplest tasks, even the most fulfilling tasks seem to require so SOOO much effort, planning, strategy ...and usually that is not at all true. you make these videos look effortless. knowing that you are wringing your hands for weeks prior makes me feel not so alone.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for this very kind message. I wondered if anyone would hear that...

I do this too. Oh man. It's both heartbreaking and hopeful to know why I am the way I am and how to help it. Thank you. Edit: I really needed this today. Thank you so much.

You serendipitously showed up on my recommendations page, as if by grace. Thank you so much for this platform. I am excited to become who I have always envisioned myself to be. Taking action is my theme for 2022. I am curious to see what changes, unexpected connections, and possibilities I encounter just by adopting the daily practice of showing up for myself. Thank you, Anna. Bless you.

I just came across your channel and i'm blown away by how spot-on all of your videos are. This is the content i've spent a full year diligently searching for. Thank you so much Anna

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

3 жыл бұрын

Great to hear!

This is a great channel! Only one that explains my procrastination and brain fog.

ever since you mentioned the path of least resistance, ive been wanting to hop on that path asap :') thank you for this beautiful perspective

You are saving lives!!!!!!!

just what I needed to hear! I am so grateful to have found you and I thank you from the bottom of my heart all the wisdom and positivity and love you share here. You are so open and honest and we all deeply appreciate your effort to relate and spread awareness and truth. You are truly a beacon of light. Thank you Anna. Love x.

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

Жыл бұрын

we appreciate you watching. Jack@teamfairy

It may be hard work. It may be many hours. However, you're really good at breaking it down into simple, easy to understand, and implement tools. That is a gift!💜

I think i have discovered an other cause of avoidance and it might be useful for some others here. My childhood PTSD was caused by living with mentally instable parent (father who might well have an untreated C-PTSD himself). Today, I discovered that i ‘ve made a link between his erratic and unfair authority and all other authorities, be it the taxation office or my adult-self. The amature and neglected child part within me reacts to all sources of authority with avoidance and defiance... My goal now is to try to bring this emotional little resistance soldier within me see, that there are not only bad authority figures. That sometimes obligations can be “friendly”... Let’s see how it goes!

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

4 жыл бұрын

This makes total sense! I like your courage.

Wow, this video was also perfect! It is so very familiar, the need to hide away, isolating, passiveness, trouble with decision making. Highly sensitive people have it as well but another part of me is just avoiding, self-sabotaging. Don't want to take care of me or take care of anything just like the way I was treated as a kid, neglected and abandoned. As if I'm tired of everything. I remember being still quite young when I envied old people because they know it all and have done it all and they are " ready", and what a peace is that! How sad not to look forward to your life but wishing to be close to the end of it, out of exhaustion and avoidance. And as you say it is a struggle to take action and just do it, and although it goes better, there are setbacks in difficult times and it stays a struggle. And that's stressful and costs a lot of energy, lot of ups and downs. Just only hearing how much energy it costs you to make these videos and how you also struggle with yourself gives me hope to start something bigger which I always wanted but thought it'd make me even more exhausted. I walk around with an idea in my head for at least 20 years too. I guess we are all little heroes... stumbling down and standing up every day a couple of times. I guess it was a Big think- video about childhood traumas ( a very shocking one) in which It was told that the life of such people is mostly much shorter due to early body changes, nerve system changes and therefore illnesses. In any case most of them are physically and/ or mentally not very healthy. But you are so on point, the conclusion mustn't be not trying - there are plenty of things we CAN do, even in small steps. And give ourselves a compliment if we succeed.

Your a blessing to so many people myself included. You have made such a difference in so many peoples lives. We all thank you for your work that you do for us. 🥰🙏🌻

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

3 жыл бұрын

Wow, thank you

You're making a difference in my life, Anna. How can I ever thank you?

I forced myself in many things, but always exausted, brain fog, and not noticing that I wasn't taking care of my health. And then BUM! It's so scary not even noticing...After seeing your videos it was a relief and narrative of trauma voice made BUM! too.

You’re an angel 👼

So glad and grateful that you did create the Crappy Fairy. You are a God send

Oh thank you dear Ana! I haven't been procrasting for years and suddenly it happens. Litle by litle I found out that social mediay netflix, movies, series, music, talking for hours with friend is making me stuck I don't do the work. I have like so much things that I want to do and don't do it or I do it but not fully (if you know what I mean). So I am getting back to my to do list qnd stick to plan, bringing my energy inside. Thank you so much for this video, it was reaaaly helpful. God bless you ❤❤

Simple small steps and not shaming, thank you for sharing and providing an example of letting your light shine!

You are such a great communicator! They way you brake things down into understandable pieces.

I have this. Never related it to .. Nice thanks! 😊

Listening to this on repeat and working on a massive report for work I’ve been procrastinating on and feeling paralysed over. Thank you!!!

Thank you! I didn't even know what words to use to google search what has been happening to me. I'm so grateful for this video-the work you do and I'm so thankful I stumbled upon this insight!

@CrappyChildhoodFairy

3 жыл бұрын

You're very welcome!

I'm finding that having a hobby that I enjoy helps me when I feel like I'm on the downward spiral into mental paralysis. For instance, I have turned a bookshelf into a doll house. The past 3 days, I was an unstoppable force, totally motivated and I accomplished so much. Today, I feel the weight of wanting to couch surf. So I worked on a tiny project on the dollhouse, which brings me joy. I'm also learning to break bigger tasks into smaller segments of the same task when I'm feeling stuck. For example, if I need to clean the bathroom, I'll just clean the toilet and tell myself " good job, we will clean the sink in a while." That allows me to feel accomplished, and by days end, the bathroom is clean.