Happy Autistic Pride Day! 💛 Today we’re talking dyspraxia, sometimes called developmental co-ordination disorder. I hope this video makes a few people feel a bit better about the awful PE performances burned into their brains forever. If you find this video helpful, you might enjoy this one on sensory traits of autism: kzread.info/dash/bejne/ZWqczrSsldqwd5c.html What Does Masking Neurodivergence Feel Like From the Inside?: kzread.info/dash/bejne/emiqxa-QcprMpbQ.html And if you haven’t chosen your fork yet… kzread.info/dash/bejne/lIqj2qWnkci0gqw.html As always, thank you so much for being here & sharing your stories and experiences 💛💛💛

@eevilauntie

Жыл бұрын

Thank you for giving us this space to share our experiences! I find it helps a lot to know I'm not alone in my dyspraxic struggles and PE trauma.

@strictnonconformist7369

Жыл бұрын

I'm darkly amused in how uneven it is: as much as in many cases, your dyspraxia seems notably worse than mine ever was, your handwriting is notably better than mine has ever been if I write at a speed worth bothering with. Between dyslexia, fine and gross motor planning skills and also speech problems for the mechanical aspects, that was the core of the reason I was in special education throughout almost all of my K-12 education in the US in the 70s and 80s, with I lost track of how many years of speech therapy while in school. By contrast, my autistic older sister (she's I think about 6 years older) has naturally neat handwriting I would have loved to have available for my drafting class, especially, where it wasn't using a computer at that time. The school system clearly knew better what I needed for classes, in that all through junior high d high school, every time I could try, I chose to take a typing class, and I never got one, but something else instead was my reward for persistence. At my best fastest scribble, I could write 20 wpm, often with a lot of letter transpositions in the process that I noticed after I wrote the second letter of a pair and then quickly corrected by squeezing the first letter in between where it should be (this is bad in printing, in cursive it's even worse) so it'd not win any awards. I remember as an adult having someone at church comparing my writing to chickens with two broken legs walking through mud. As a result, I've never had a typing class, and it wasn't until the age of 25 I got to where I could type without looking at the keyboard. Considering I started at age 10 with a deep interest in computers (I'd had in mind to create a Space Invaders clone for the TRS-80 Model 1 at the time) and later the vocational robotics/automation program in 11th and 12th grade (I grew up in the Detroit, Michigan area, known as "Automation Alley") and then did post high-school Electronics Engineering Technology specializing in Automated Manufacturing Technology of course I was going to need to type. As it turns out, I got a decent enough start in a place where my formal education was of value in a compact disc manufacturing plant and I knew what I was doing, and previously I'd worked a part-time job fixing pagers, the latter I got fired from due to being too slow, the former I couldn't perform fast enough, combined with blood sugar regulation issues in the clean room (reactive hypoglycemic) but fortunately, my deep interest in computers had me able to write code, and they had an odd job involving that to create custom CD ROM Premastering utilities as well as other system configuration tasks that needed to be done. So, turning 52 next month, it's immensely frustrating that I couldn't have forced being able to type and get typing classes back then, as I've found myself typing more than anyone in the school system for a living since then, for both making a living and personal use. When I know what I wish to say, I can (on the right keyboard) type at least 90 wpm correctly (I do still make transpositions but I catch almost all of them before I get to the next word) , but it took me decades to get to that point. I got diagnosed with Asperger's in 2002, after I recognized I had a weird long-term pattern of inertia where there was no emotional component as to why I had a problem starting and stopping behavior. I wasn't expecting that, as much as anything, because the DSM is written in psychobabble technospeak by people not on the spectrum believing they can read the minds and intentions of someone wired differently.

@m.otransformers4855

Жыл бұрын

I'm Austistic and adhd, I excelled with sports, I was able to fit in because of that, outside of sports I'm pretty clumsy

@gnarpyroblox903

Жыл бұрын

I'm a high functioning autistic! So happy late Autistic Pride Day!

@melissamurray8307

Жыл бұрын

Thanks for the information. As someone who was formally diagnosed as autistic 31 years ago, I think that I may also suffer from dyspepsia. It’s so nice to have a name for it now.

I spent most of my life walking into door frames and furniture and getting teased for it.

@faeriesmak

Жыл бұрын

Same. My late Father used to poke fun and me and my Mom because we were constantly walking into doorframes.

@grandios_sensibel_music

Жыл бұрын

😂 Yes same

@turtleanton6539

Жыл бұрын

I still do

@lizstokes9091

Жыл бұрын

Door frames and furniture step out in front of me all the time!! 🤣

@taoist32

Жыл бұрын

Same, and elbowing the refrigerator door almost daily, stubbing toes on every corner as well.

Years, over a decade, before I got officially diagnosed autism, ADHD and dyspraxia at 25, I guess dyspraxia was one of the things mentioned when I was going to doctors to look at my feet, knees, ect in middle school. When I discovered dyspraxia online later in life, before finally getting a diagnosis, I mentioned it to my mom and she casually said “Yeah, that’s what the doctors said when you were a kid.” Like??? How come I didn’t know? Why was it “diagnosed” but never actually written down? Why didn’t you do anything about it?

@XTCYDVL

Жыл бұрын

this happened to me too wtf...several parents and teachers had made suggestions to my mother about me possibly having autism, of which she took offense to back then. i wish she had just taken me to get a proper diagnosis and taken me out of public school, it would have prevented all the trauma i endured in school due to my neurodiversity.

@taoist32

Жыл бұрын

@@XTCYDVL I have never been officially diagnosed as autistic, but self diagnosed in the last couple years. I always thought I was different from everyone else. I didn’t even know autism existed. My mother took me to the pediatrician frequently as a kid, as I never talked and rarely interacted with other kids. At that time, my hearing was tested and found to be normal, then I turned 16 I was diagnosed with hearing impairment then deafness in the last few years. As a kid I could hear and talk, but rarely talked. I just learned my mother brought me to a speech therapist as I had delayed speech at 4. The therapist was amazed, as my reading comprehension was advanced at least a few grades higher than my age related group, but my speech was basically primitive. Used one verb and one noun, like “go home” when I wanted to go home.

@kathrinkaefer

Жыл бұрын

When I got diagnosed with autism, my mum said "oh yes, we did think about getting you assessed but it just never seemed bad enough". Yeah, it was only so bad that I was selectively mute, didn't want to go to school anymore and had mental health problems from a young age! It's upsetting to think how different things could have been if I had known earlier.

@joannedj1

Жыл бұрын

I had an absolute NIGHTMARE doing PE when I was at school, big problems with balance, coordination and stamina. It has left me needing a lot of counselling, especially when people implied that I wasn’t trying. I couldn’t have tried any harder than I did, so it is really hurtful to have those accusations thrown at me. Even now, I just don’t want to do anything with other people that would be too physically complicated for me. I will stick to what I’m good at, so no sports or dance!

@XTCYDVL

Жыл бұрын

@@kathrinkaefer i felt this deeply. if my parents had taken what parents+teachers said about me seriously and not brushed it off, i wouldn't have as bad of c-ptsd and anxiety as i have now. i would be a functional human being and probably going to college by now with good mental health.

I grew up with a resentment of team sports because kids would berate me and get frustrated with me for essentially handicapping their team- even though I was trying my best. I remember the rotten, embarrassed feeling so well. I wish we were allowed to do individual excersize during PE, I could have avoided all those times, which made me feel extra alienated from my peers.

@That_Awkward_Mum

11 ай бұрын

Totally empathise! Been there. ❤

@annataymond9529

10 ай бұрын

My mom actually complained about this issue to a teacher, and was literally told “it will teach her to do better”

@emm1756

10 ай бұрын

Ouch! That is so relatable for me! As if the other kids didn’t dislike me enough already! 😩

@maplelatte3366

10 ай бұрын

55, and I still have nightmares about PE.

@julesrainey

9 ай бұрын

​@@maplelatte3366Me too xx

I don't have a formal diagnosis but I definitely relate to your P.E. experiences. I tried to adapt. When we were playing Soccer (football) I usually ran around playing defence. When 20 people were all running at the ball the ability to aim didn't matter, but that didn't satisfy the teacher. He made me spend multiple weeks standing next to the goal waiting for someone to kick the ball to me so I could kick the ball in. And yes this was counter productive. Instead of enjoying physical activity I was basically standing around and the experience was humiliating and it definitely turned me off the idea of a lot of athletics.

@alpachinko9154

Жыл бұрын

Same. I just turned football into mortal Kombat or something, to keep myself entertained/so I didn't focus so much on not being able to accurately manipulate objects outside of my body.

@wiegraf9009

Жыл бұрын

Yep. The only activity I could enjoy in PE was badminton because we didn't have to move and track the birdy at the same time very much. Unfortunately we only did it one week of the school year 😢

@Demonmixer

Жыл бұрын

I played defence too. I used to like football. I was absolutely shit at it though...

@TheoRae8289

Жыл бұрын

I spent so much time trying to balance a quarter on the side of a tennis racket that I gave up on the sport completely. 😮‍💨

@Evija3000

9 ай бұрын

Your teacher sounds pure evil. I was exactly like you and the few times I managed to "defend" actually made me pretty happy and useful. Definitely better than not kicking it in at close proximity would, which I'm sure is what would happen more often than not.

Being the last picked kid for PE teams did major damage to my confidence… Now I know why. But when I tried gymnastics when I was a teenager, I excelled beyond everyone else sooo 🤷🏻‍♀️ I need to be solo 🙃

@prettyevil6662000

Жыл бұрын

Am also really good at manipulating my own body. I excelled in dance and gymnastics when I was finally able to do them (in college). Turns out it's just things outside of my body that I have trouble controlling/understanding the spacing of.

@avengedprophet1559

11 ай бұрын

Same, though I did struggle with controlling my body as well. The solution to that problem was to make individual sports my special interest :b

@Moonless87

11 ай бұрын

Same, the only sport I liked and was good at was running. but I think I got picked the last was actually because the kids just hated me 🤷🏻‍♀️ They called me all sorts of names because of my severe stuttering and OCD. I learned early on that I was so much less important than other people, completely weird, a broken human being. Sadly I still think that way.

@avengedprophet1559

11 ай бұрын

@@Moonless87 That‘s a terrible feeling, hopefully you‘ll get beyond that. Bullying in school for any deviations like being bad at sport is shockingly common, so you‘re definitely not alone with this. The strange thing is that, at least in my case, it‘s pretty clear that rationally, that thought is clearly wrong. But the constant reinforcement of that thought by other people is powerful unfortunately. So you are definitely not worth less for stuttering, OCD, or whatever. You‘re not like other people, but that doesn‘t make you worse. But who am I to say that. I feel similar. It‘s tough to beat those negative thoughts 🤔

@joycebrewer4150

2 ай бұрын

At least you had that. I struggled even to learn to "stand on my head". Basically a three point base, then get knees on top elbows, and finally push up from there.

My son has dyspraxia with severe ADHD. He learned gross motor skills easily, but fine motor is another beast. Trimming his toenails is torture for him and I still do it, and it’s still tough. He mastered putting on socks at 11years, pulling up blankets on himself at 12 years and I am so proud of him for trying so hard! Thanks for your wonderful channel!

@tarynriver

Жыл бұрын

My son won’t let me trim his nails I’m pretty sure I have dyspraxia and he says I’m no good at it and I’ve started taking him to the nail place to get it done because I think I traumatized him with how badly I cut them😅😂😂

@angelinarussell5494

11 ай бұрын

I was diagnosed young with MR yes they still use it today...it was horrible and I believe it was definitely a misdiagnoses since I have signs and symptoms of other undiagnosed medical conditions that I learned and knew about since I was 13 now I'm in my 40s.

@dyslexicimprovement2239

10 ай бұрын

I have looked into gross and fine and i think i manage just well with both but dropping things is still consistent. 🤗

@thelanktheist2626

9 ай бұрын

@@dyslexicimprovement2239he’s just like me lol trimming my toes is a sensory nightmare and I just can’t find the coordination to do it

@atriyakoller136

5 ай бұрын

I am terrible with gross motor skills but average with fine motor skills - learning the violin with a great teacher and having an interest in it was really nice practice. However, I relearn to ride a bike every time I do it, and have almost no muscle memory when it comes to sports. As a kid I used to consciously think about making each step pretty often Never been diagnosed with dyspraxia, but have been suspecting it for a while, considering I also mildly failed the coordination exercises at the neurologist and have had terrible handwriting

I'm autistic and always suspected I also have dyspraxia. Literally everything in this video applies to me. I have zero special awareness, zero coordination, very clumsy and constantly drop things, walk into things, can't throw or catch a ball,could never learn to ride a bike or swim despite having multiple lessons, terrible handwriting, take ages to learn new things and easily forget new things I've learned etc. P.E was absolute hell at school because I just could not do any of the activities.

@turtleanton6539

Жыл бұрын

Yes😊

@cazridley5822

Жыл бұрын

Me too, I’m 52 autistic and still can’t ride a bike , swim or do anything that requires coordination of body or thought it just doesn’t compute !

@reesetube

Жыл бұрын

>zero special awareness, zero coordination, very clumsy and constantly drop things, walk into things, can't throw or catch a ball,could never learn to ride a bike or swim despite having multiple lessons FUCK! this applies to me too

@yeveriadeleonfernandez2008

11 ай бұрын

This is me lol. Though I can't properly swim I do manage well in water.

@goosethemagpie

10 ай бұрын

All of this applies to me as well except for swimming. For some reason, I've excelled at swimming since I started lol

I have Dyspraxia, diagnosed when I was about 9 in 1979 (I guess I'm about 25-30 years older than you) with Lack of Coordination, the non-coordination aspects weren't really known back then (a lot of people still called it Clumsy Child Syndrome). The treatment I got for it was the traditional treatment of regular beatings (official ones with rulers and canes from the teachers plus unofficial ones with fists and boots from fellow pupils), being made to spend hours 'practicing' handwriting and bouncing balls off walls and catching them and geneerally being told I was lazy and not trying hard enough. My school teachers did try to tell me i was stupid until the educational psychology team at the council gave me an IQ test and I scored 165, then they gave me a different one and I scored 166. I've subsequently read a book called "That's the way I think" by David Grant that digs into the standard tests that go into an IQ score and he talks a lot about how neurodiverse people tend to have 'spiky' profiles, we can perform really well in certain types of reasoning but very poorly in others. I struggle with ceratain aspects of numerical and verbal reasoning. My spacial reasoning is weird in that it's good unless it involves my own body, throw a ball and I can predict it's path but not catch it, show me a load of parts laid out and I can see how they fit together, comes in really handy with flatpack furiniture but not much else, but I frequently walk into people and things, and I don't eat soup in public. I was 28 going on 29 before I heard the word Dyspraxia and that was just due to a coincidence. I'd recently changed GP and my new GP was married to an educational psychologist who had told him about a course she'd been on about different neurodiversities, when he was looking over my notes before my first appointment with him he realised that what he was reading was what his wife had been talking about. He asked me if I'd meet with her so we could kinda compare notes, at the time there was very little about adults with Dyspraxia. We met, we talked, she gave me the tests and confirmed that what I'd been calling lack of coordination all those years was actually Dyspraxia. I'd say that the non-coordination aspects have probably affected me more as an adult, I can type or use something like Visio rather than write or draw (my handwriting is abysmal and I can't draw at all) but my working memory is still very poor, my executive function is barely hanging on and I'm generally weird. If I'm with other people I'm masking (I call it my 'human act') but that just gets so tiring so it can slip and that scares people. When I feel it starting the slip my automatic reaction is to try to remove myself from the situation so I can process and recentre.

@AliciaGuitar

Жыл бұрын

when i was just 6 years old i decided that God gives everyone the same number of points, but distributes them differently. i got no points in athletics, health, and maths... and all my points went to intelligence and logic. I am extremely sickly, allergic to everything, clumsy, socially awkward, and have selective mutism so teachers flagged me and had me tested. My IQ is high too, so I was labeled "twice exceptional" and put into special ed. It felt weird being in special ed and being highly intelligent... and of course i got teased... even by teachers. Some teachers downright bullied me. Others thought I was amazing and praised me which only made the kids bully me. Now at 43 years old I have learned about and accepted myself. When around others I inform them I have neurological disabilities to explain my weirdness, but I often refuse to divulge details. I tell them i don't like talking about it. That is usually good enough for most to give me a little grace without tossing around labels that carry stigmas and misinformation and being told my mom shouldn't have vaccinate me as a child or that autism isn't real and can be cured with herbs and diet. I messed up last week and told my dx to the wrong person and now she thinks i have worms and just need a deworming to cure myself... ppl are wildly misinformed!

@idiotsimulator8055

Жыл бұрын

You're exactly the same age as me. I've only just got a diagnosis of autism and I'm probably dyspraxic too. I'd never heard of autism or anything else growing up. I'm sorry you had it so tough as a child. Do you think you may be autistic too?

@markjackson6026

Жыл бұрын

@@idiotsimulator8055 You aren't alone it seems. It is my 3 year old daughter's Autism diagnosis and my realizing something wasn't quite right with her to help me learn that I am no different. I also now know how to label my horrible handwriting, my mother put it down to them skipping me over the 2nd grade because my 'abstract logic' levels were far above 'normal' It has nothing to do with the neurological shakiness issues where my hand gets so cramped from trying to correct it, that she passes off as just being wired that way

@StephenBoothUK

10 ай бұрын

@@idiotsimulator8055 depending on which professional you talk to/read Dyspraxia is either on the autism spectrum or commonly cohabits with autism. I think that it’s on the spectrum on the basis that every Dyspraxic I’ve ever met has had some degree of autism traits. I also think most professionals in the field don’t really know what they’re talking about, at least not to the degree they think they do.

@markigirl2757

6 ай бұрын

@@AliciaGuitaroof at the last person I would of straight up told them they need to go back to school and reeducate themselves bc clearly they didn’t listen enough but I’m an asshole and it seems ur not but that would of been my response to their lunacy lol

I'm autistic, and one of the things I find endearing is dyspraxia. When I met my girlfreind there was something about her that immediately drew me in. Watching you trying to jump rope and wack that ball as child brought a tear to my eye. I can't tell you what exactly I'm feeling (I'm alexithymic) but it reminds me of her - the love of my life for over a decade - and counting... =)

@turtleanton6539

Жыл бұрын

Great 😊

@atseptic

Жыл бұрын

Aww that's sweet, I wish you the best When's the wedding btw

@DivingDeveloper

Жыл бұрын

So sweet! :)

@TheWilliamHoganExperience

Жыл бұрын

​@@atseptic Hahaha....she's too smart for that. Me too. We're autistic, remember? We do things a little different. Seems to work for us =)

@babybirdhome

Жыл бұрын

OMG, I feel the exact same way when I watch all the video clips of her being dyspraxic as a kid! Unfortunately, also autistic and alexithymic so I also have no idea what it is that it makes me feel, but it definitely makes me feel it! It is very endearing.

I’m 53 and still don’t know how to ride a bike. And I definitely relate to what you described with PE and figure skating. And drawing and geometry. And braiding or curling my own hair. And doing things requiring fine motor coordination in front of other people. And dropping things and tripping over things and using stairs or step stools. And bumping into people and objects. And executive functioning issues. I wish I had videos from when I was a kid. I have no idea what my movements were like, just that I was bad at absolutely everything physical and was always being told to “loosen up” or “ just let your movements be natural” in exercise or dance. I mean, WTAF does that even mean? 😂🤦🏻‍♀️

@AliciaGuitar

Жыл бұрын

if i let my movements be "natural" i would look like a contortionist stimming constantly in weird positions

@RoseQuartzGemini

Жыл бұрын

Yes, I was just like this, still terrible at anything physical. PE was my worst class! I hated PE

@tarynriver

Жыл бұрын

I still can’t ride a bike use chopsticks all my coworkers I’m a server are like how are you carrying those plates I’ve learned ways to lean them on my body where they won’t fall but I’ve dropped mutiple trays of drinks I’ve walked into doors and dropped drinks in myself walked into a pole and spilled a drink on a lady I swear I’m not a bad server these are singled out incidents that I’ve worked hard to make sure don’t happen😂😂 but even as a kid I did things like this and I’ve thought for years I was dyspraxic when I saw an article online these comments and vids make me really think that’s definitely what it is I’m 32 and I’d love to just know but in the US I’m not sure they diagnose adults with it tbh idk if they diagnose kids here with it

A few minutes ago, I didn't even know what dyspraxia was... I cannot describe how RELATABLE this experience has been. This is the most perfect description of me I've ever heard and you have no idea how much this has helped. Thank you so much :)

I got my diagnosis much later in life. I struggled so much writing i was always behind with it, and on top of that at home i was forced to write multiple a4 pages every evening as if it was going to change anything, yet obviously it amounted to nothing but torture for an undiagnosed autistic child

@turtleanton6539

Жыл бұрын

Yes😊😊😊

@Seabeastie20000

Жыл бұрын

My dad still suggests i do the little writing pages... Im 26...

@1337murk

Жыл бұрын

@@Seabeastie20000 Damn, I think I'd chop off my hands in protest

@TheoRae8289

Жыл бұрын

Stuff like what you just described resulted in what my mother thought were "growing pains" in my legs. I'd skip dinner because being forced to sit there and do all this writing would make me hurt so bad, mama would give me ibuprofen and just send me to bed. I got around it after a while by simply not taking my books home and shrugging off the horrific grade.

@AlissaSss23

5 ай бұрын

Your comment reminded me of the endless evenings when my mum kept ripping the page off and make me start over yet again. By the time I was done, it would had been dark outside, the children would have been done playing, and alraady eat dinner and get ready for bed in their homes. I almost never git to play outside during the week.

On the topic of proprioception, does anyone else sometimes feel like your body is entirely out of proportion when you're laying down with your eyes closed trying to fall asleep? It doesn't happen to me as much now as it did when I was a child, but it's kinda fun when it does. I've noticed that it tends to make me feel like the sensory homunculus, too, though not always and I can sort of influence the sensation if I try. Brains are neat!

@sprinkles06

Жыл бұрын

That sound a bit like Alice and wonderland syndrome? You should check it out!! A lot of people do grow out of it when they are children so most people aren't diagnosed. But a lot of the population have experienced it.

@Avendesora

Жыл бұрын

@@sprinkles06 Oh, interesting! I take an anticonvulsant for my bipolar disorder, and thinking back on it, the last time I remember this happening was when I was manic and unmedicated. I wonder if that kind of thing lends any more credence to the hypothesis that BP could be a seizure disorder, since AIWS seems to be related to both seizures and mental health conditions.

@francinebacone1455

Жыл бұрын

OMG! Yes! I've had this before on multiple occasions, but its been a while, outside of meditating intentionally looking for those experiences (I used to feel my "hands" and "feet" turned the opposite direction after meditating, and lately my "hands" will feel quite big in comparison to my "flesh hands" and I will know that I am in a meditative state.) Its so interesting that someone else would experience something like this as you were falling asleep- same for me. It felt like I was the size of a house, surrounding my body and then suddenly I would be very small, stuck inside the body like a doll in a doll's house. My eyes would sometimes remain the same or similar size, even though they remained closed, of course &/or the sensations would start and finish expansion/contraction around my closed eyes. I don't usually talk about it because I have enough weird sensations that people have invalidated or used against me to label me "crazy". I'm realizing I do mask a lot of things. I'm not crazy and I don't need help with this but DAMN, -if it isn't cool to have some complete stranger on the internet describe almost exactly what I experience on occasion but never talk about!!! Brains ARE fricking neat!!

@Avendesora

Жыл бұрын

@@francinebacone1455 I recently found someone who described the exact same weird utterly debilitating foot pain I've been having trouble with for years and years. Currently wearing shoes that cured the issue for them, and I'm feeling awesome thus far. It's so cool to finally find someone who makes you feel less alone and sometimes less... idk, weird? I don't like using that word with a negative connotation but I can't really think of a better one, either.

@sixbirdsinatrenchcoat

Жыл бұрын

YES!

Relay races in school were sooo embarrassing for me! I just could not do them. I have very vivid memories of one during high school PE where we had to jump rope across the field, and I cannot jump rope, so I just swung the rope over my head, stepped over it, tripped, and did it again, until I finally came in last for my team. Also, stairs are the bane of my existence! I always have scrapes and bruises because I step really far back on the stair when going down because I feel like I'm going to fall. And I have to go up on my toes or else I feel like I'm falling backwards. But I've always been a toe-walker anyway. I didn't know about dyspraxia until now, and it definitely makes sense.

@fightingfaerie

Жыл бұрын

Wait, not everyone uses the front of their feet to go up stairs? Or down too for that matter. How do they keep their momentum. After my foot surgery stairs were really hard and I had to go one step at a time. I got into the habit of it and felt self conscious being so slow (at amusement park ride lines with stairs). I was so proud when I figured out how to do one foot a step. Except I have to do the whole thing at once, can’t stop partway, especially going down, because I’d lose all momentum. Actually going down is more like keeping myself from falling, I literally can’t stop until I reach flat ground and no longer basically in the process of falling.

@jimwilliams3816

Жыл бұрын

I JUST remembered that I could not skip rope. I don’t think my feet cleared it once. I couldn’t keep a hula up either. ETA: after thinking about it, I checked my stair climbing technique. I never went fast (too dangerous!), but...I concur with fightingfaerie: does anyone actually put their feet flat on the steps? Maybe a really wide tread on a public walk. But normal stairs, aren't the treads kind of shallow for that to be stable? Of course I'm on the balls of my feet. If going up or especially down stairs flat footed is the norm, then...well, chalk up another on my list, LOL.

@Flutterbyby

Жыл бұрын

Oh stairs, I fell down the stairs on my first day of work back in the day! And nowadays escalators gives me huge anxiety.

@angienuelle

Жыл бұрын

@@Flutterbyby An escalator ate my sandal on my way to my Air BnB in May!

Very interesting! I was diagnosed with autism recently, I mentioned my poor handwriting at the evaluation and the lady told me about dispraxia. Last fall I had a professor humiliate me in class because of my handwriting. He looked at my quiz first, voiced his displeasure and then proceeded to go around the room and collect everyone else’s quiz before mine. I was dealing with severe burnout at the time, and I stopped going to his class after that.

@AliciaGuitar

Жыл бұрын

you should reach out to the disabled student services office. you can get accommodations. you might even be able to get your grade removed from your record if it was bad and retake the class with a different prof

@wiegraf9009

Жыл бұрын

So many experiences like this. I dropped out of elementary school and did homeschooling for two years because I was bullied by my teacher so much for my bad handwriting and ADHD traits.

@h4ildestroyer

Жыл бұрын

I'd always get picked on because of my handwriting, a lot of teachers made horrible comments about it, even though I'm sure it was written down in my school report given I was literally diagnosed and they knew that. I've had a teaching assistant say 'my nephew's 5 and can cut out perfectly' because I was about 8 I think and couldn't use scissors as well. A teacher in high school made me redo an entire paper just because of my handwriting, again having access to all my information, the kids bullying me for not being neurotypical didn't help either. School was hell, it just got more frustrating because I was still getting funny comments from teachers in college and at one point in a job I had, my boss screamed at me because I dropped a folder and had to spend my whole shift reorganizing it, I didn't put dyspraxia down in my application purely because I was scared that I would get talked down to and treated differently just because of my disabilities, no wonder that job put me down so much.

@ItsAsparageese

Жыл бұрын

Wow, that professor was an ableist unprofessional jerk. I totally understand if you're not up to doing so, but if you feel up to it and especially if you feel like it might help you get a sense of closure (or if it could help with correcting any negative consequences for your academic record), you would be absolutely justified in filing a complaint with your school about that ableist and cruel treatment he gave you.

For me, the issues are very subtle. I was never obviously bad at PE, I just didn't really stand out at anything. My assessor noted that I have an odd penhold. I also notice in photos or videos of myself, that my body is not where I thought it was in space. I have difficulty keeping up with exercise classes and can't stand on one leg. I did martial arts and the only way for me to pass the exam was for my instructor to guide me through the movements and not tell me it was an exam until afterwards. I have trouble with balance and riding a bike as well.

@BrickNewton

5 ай бұрын

When I was at primary school we had 'folk' dancing classes, and always was near the last to be chosen and I always struggled to keep up with the rest of the class and couldn't figure out how everyone just seemed to be able to just be able to do it.

I am most likely neurodivergent (cannot get diagnosis at this time) and it is uncanny how much the things mentioned in this video resonate with me and things ive experienced. sucking at riding a bike hits so personally...

I haven’t even watched the video yet but THANK YOU for making this! Dyspraxia is hardly talked about in the neurodiverse conversation and as a autistic dyspraxic I wish it was talked about more! Now I’ll go watch the video 😂 your videos are always super helpful and I am so pleased I found your channel ❤

@AliciaGuitar

Жыл бұрын

yes, the dyspraxia label helps me let go of the shame i feel from being so clumsy and awkward. i also have JME(epilepsy) and I was double clumsy due to that. getting properly diagnosed and understanding my condition was life changing. now i have set up my house to be safer since it's clear that at age 43 nothing is going to change.. i accept my weakness and adapt.

@angelinarussell5494

11 ай бұрын

True

I always relate to so many motor issues, autism, learning disabilities videos and i used to beat myself up over it because i gave myself high expectations and barely be able to do the bare minimum and videos like these make me realize that its ok to struggle at things and its also ok to do things or ask for things that makes it easier instead of me obsessing over it and getting upset

@AliciaGuitar

Жыл бұрын

autism is one of those diagnosis that people tend to have very little empathy for and expect YOU to conform to THEM and accommodate THEM instead of them accommodating you and your disability. if you don't you are shamed... usually for something as minor and harmless as stimming in public or going nonverbal while stressed. These videos have helped me see that anyone who shames me, including myself, is wrong. At 43 years old if I could change i would have done it by now. Time to accept myself as i am instead of trying to shame myself into conformity. It doesn't work.

Also, man! No wonder I have so much trouble getting my butt up and moving. It’s like everything is attacking my executive function. Autism- bam ADHD- bam! Dyspraxia- Bam Depression- Bam! Anxiety- BAM! By the end my executive function is in the ground.

This diagnosis sounds so much like me. My biggest win in gym class was in elementary school. I managed to score a goal playing "floor hockey " against a boy who was arrogant enough to believe I could never score against him. I did (he was so upset 😂). He didn't try very hard to defend the goal and did a lot of protesting afterwards. I believe it was on my birthday, too. I don't remember every detail about it, as that was in the early 80's.

I was diagnosed at the age of 3 yet with my family and the proximal knowledge of autism at the time along with my ability to mask and my families attempts to mask my autism I had major imposter syndrome. This video, along with many of yours, have helped unveil who I am and all the problems I have in life. This video was a huge crack in my imposter syndrome, I had always been athletic and had practiced to be exceptional in sports yet the crack getting bigger during every section of this video. I'm glad to see I have dyspraxia as well!

@AliciaGuitar

Жыл бұрын

imposter syndrome sucks. i have blood tests proving i have a certain autoimmune disease and I STILL feel like a fake. doesn't help that in my 20s doctors falsely diagnosed me with conversion syndrome.. basically saying i was a hypochondriac and it was all in my head. after realizing this, i was able to accept my autism better too, and just know that i cannot trust my doubting mind telling me i'm fake

Your handwriting is (A) perfectly legible -- the most important qualifier for whether handwriting is "good" or "terrible", really -- and (B) super expressive! All of your words look like they're having fun, bouncing around in a little college-ruled notebook meadow! I want to hug your handwriting! (Also loving the back-sass on the school paper that the teacher won't ever actually lay eyes on. Feeling seen . . .)

I had a bike accident at 9 and broke my jaw and two teeth because I feel down my bike. 😂 I also have a great talent for running into doors.

@User-qn1gs1ig4q62

Жыл бұрын

I walk into doors n my elbows nearly always hit the door handles

@User-qn1gs1ig4q62

Жыл бұрын

I've never lost any teeth due to an accident but I have chipped them but some of that was from grinding my teeth due to anxiety even when I'm asleep I grind my teeth

I'm not diagnosed with dyspraxia, but watching your old home videos of you failing at sports was like watching my own. My parents put me in dance class to improve my coordination. I ended up quitting dance class cuz I was going to be held back a year because I left coordination. Funnily enough the sport that works best for me is Brazilian jujitsu. I don't have to worry about falling down most of the time because the grappling is done on the ground, It has taught me to coordinate different unusual movements, and everybody else struggles with it at first too so I'm not the only one struggling. Will I ever be a top level competitor? Not likely. But I got complimented on my sense of balance for the first time in my life last week and I'm still super happy about it

I'm 59 now and only found out that I'm on spectrum 2 years ago. Suddenly things started to make sense. Your story is so recognizable to me. The hand-eye coordination (or rather the lack of), the non-existing balance, being the last one to be chosen when teams had to be formed for sports... I can't say that I can "write" as I rather draw every separate letter and dictation was a nightmare at school (hurray for keyboards!). And don't get me started on going down the aisle of a train or plane. My sport of choice is scuba diving: nobody to bump into, I know exactly where I am in the water, and I'm in control.

@DivingDeveloper

Жыл бұрын

OH, MY, GOODNESS. We have to chat. Please tell me more about your Scuba Diving experiences, especially concerning control of your body/buoyancy... Can you put fins on standing in a figure 4 shape with your legs? I really struggle with this and need to hold onto my buddy. Sometimes, I've fallen (thankfully onto something soft). It could be better. I've got pictures - my handwriting is terrible and I'm clumsy and break things. But... I can also scuba dive well (vids on my channel - hence my YT account name). How did you find out later in life that you were Autistic? I'm 41... and have been trying to figure this out for the past month or so... Megs videos have been an outstanding help in this regard.

@duikmans

Жыл бұрын

@@DivingDeveloper I put my fins on while sitting. I only do it standing when I have something to lean against. I wanted to scuba dive already at a very young age, but that - of course - wasn't possible. As soon as I went to uni I joined the diving club, and I'm still a member 40 years later (I became an instructor and dive officer). What I like about diving, next to being in control (of your buoyancy) is the way that I can "glide" through the water, go up and down just as I want. At the same time, there's nobody there but your buddy and there's a strict protocol. Communication is clear with no body language involved. And then there's the pressure of the water, which allows me to know exactly where I am (it's a different story on the surface). I found out that I'm on the spectrum due to some remarks about me having autistic traits. I started reading about it and following vlogs with the same hyperfocus as usual (only to find out that this also is an autistic trait...). My intention was to prove them wrong, but the result was quite the opposite. The more I got to know on the subject, the more it rang a bell. Don't get me wrong: I've already known my whole life that I was different. I was acting as myself instead of just being myself. I was considered clumsy, rude/outspoken, a loner, had problems with processing (too much) sound and certain kinds of light hurt my eyes + and still some other things. I had, however, never suspected that I was on the spectrum as I had a stereotypical view on ASS (thanks, Rain Man), but needless to say that has changed.

@DivingDeveloper

Жыл бұрын

Thanks, @duikmans. I really appreciate your reply. Putting fins on while sitting isn't always possible where we dive (on the Isle of Man), but if it's looking sketchy, I'll put my fins on when I'm in the water (safer, in case of falling). Sometimes, club members find this amusing (there are quite a few photos of me in odd positions while kitting or dekitting if in the water). I return the favour snapping opportune photos of them where I can ;) I can totally agree re; diving - being established rules and procedures. It feels like it was made for people on the spectrum. You get to move, you feel the pressure of the water on your suit - a gentle squeeze at times, and ... hyperfocus. It sounds like you're already extremely experienced as the DO of your club (am I detecting BSAC here...? ;))... and if you're a BSAC diver, think about joining SeaSearch if you haven't already. I have found SeaSearch to be utterly fascinating - there's literally nothing better than focusing on small areas for species. Taking a transect and a quadrant and counting species is literally calming for me. I love it. That can make me a nightmare buddy for the diver who wants to swim around constantly, but I have loads of great friends and buddies on the island to dive with that appreciate slow and methodical in the water... 1/2 ;)

@DivingDeveloper

Жыл бұрын

@@duikmans 2/2 ;) - Those remarks about your autistic traits must have been present throughout your life too - although being 'older' like me, there's no chance of your neurodivergence being picked up on correctly during school or early life. I also had a stereotypical view on autism; that's something that really needs to change. I appreciate videos on KZread, by Autistics, explaining and sharing their experiences. It's really helpful...

@duikmans

Жыл бұрын

@@DivingDeveloper Yes, I always got remarks about being clumsy and too outspoken (amongst others), but even later in life nobody made references to being autistic. At elementary, my teachers realized that I was an out-of-the-ordinary, very intelligent boy. They proposed to my parents to let me skip 2 years... who refused as it "wouldn't be good for my social development"... they had by then also realized that socializing and making friends wasn't my thing. Thank (fill in your preferred supreme being) that some teachers took me under their wings, which, in combination with the constant daydreaming/disconnecting, helped me through those school years.

I got my diagnosis later in life. I've always struggled with sports, dancing, posture, bike, even running feels awkward. My hands are the only part of my body that I can control with some degree of confidence. I can't drive cars with manual transmission, even with automatic ones sometimes I get confused with hitting the brakes and accelerating. I'm always super aware of my body while driving.

The trick with pulling crackers is to just hold it and let the other person do all the work, most of the time their movement weakens their side.

i dont really have problems with fine motor skills(in fact i love drawing), but i have NEVER been good at sports and PE was traumatizing for me. watching your home videos of you doing sports as a child actually brought me to tears because i remembered just how physically mentally and emotionally difficult and painful PE was for me. I never understood why other kids loved it so much because i dreaded every second of it. i just wanted to curl up into a ball and cry, but the teachers always pushed me and i was so scared of not doing what i was told that i really pushed myself way too hard during PE, and yet i was still bad at it no matter how hard i pushed myself and i dont really think any of my teachers understood. in fact, ive had multiple teachers make fun of or scold me because of how i acted during PE, even though i was trying really really hard. school in general was traumatizing for me, but none of the classes were as awful as PE was. i resent sports now because of it, especially volleyball and basket ball. watching people play them just makes all those horrible feelings come back, and i wonder if maybe things wouldve been easier for me as a kid if i had a diagnosis like this..

Oh my gosh walking through a train carriage or airplane is literally THE WORST WORST WORST! It’s shakey, narrow, everybody watches you, you want to hold on to something but also not accidentally touch anyone… it’s so horrible

@eekeggy

Ай бұрын

whenever I used to ride the school bus, there was a 82% chance I'd either accidentally grab someone's shoulder, or I'd sit down in the wrong seat (sometimes not even the seat at all)....

@eekeggy

Ай бұрын

I hope those kids who pranked me in elementary school by pulling the chair away before I sat down are punished..

I definitely have dyspraxia. I was the worst guy in PE by far and people thought as well that I didn't even try. They laughed at my movements regularly. At some point I adopted that and really didn't try anymore, which had me struggling to even pass the class. The few occasions where I was genuinely good (a normal person would say average lol) at a sport felt really good to me, but I think it was only two times in my entire school time - Skiing and spear throwing. I don't know why it's these specifically. I also bump into stuff regularly, lose my balance from time to time, do a similar stair-thing, am really bad at riding a bicycle (motorcycles are fine though, because they're more stable) and generally don't know how to position my body properly. I also have this weird thing where my muscles are shaking under partial load, which goes away when the load gets bigger. Again, something I was laughed at, even by my dad. I guess this has to do with not being able to regulate how much you engage a muscle? And if someone looks, or even judges my movements, it gets way worse. My practical driving exam was sheer horror, and one time I couldn't even crack eggs when a friend watched me do it! It's really nice to see clips of you being as clumsy as me. Especially the skip rope thing is so relatable. Like who thought of this, and why did they think this is fun?

@AliciaGuitar

Жыл бұрын

Sounds like a bit of pathological demand avoidance too. i also struggle doing things when ppl are watching. when my ex husband was out of work i couldn't do anything because he was always there... watching and criticizing. he called me lazy for it, but that was better than doing anything while he watched! I waited for him to go to bed just so i could do housework without being watched. After our divorce and living alone I had zero issues doing things. But i still cannot exercise in public or do housework while visitors are staying at my home. I can't even play video games while someone watches... not that i'm very good at them if they require hand-eye coordination... but even turn based strategy games i cannot play in front of others.

@xXxLolerTypxXx

Жыл бұрын

@@AliciaGuitar Yes, I'm pretty sure I'm PDA as well. I'm struggling to write an answer right now because it feels like I should, even though I want to. I have this with comments and messages a lot, which really is a hindrance. I sometimes don't write friends back for weeks because I feel a pressure to do so. Thankfully they're understanding. I can relate to you not being able to get stuff done when people are there. They don't even need to be watching, it's enough for them to be there so you have to work around them. Especially if they tell you "Oh, you should do this and that, have you done this already?". The more often they say this, the more pressure builds up and the more I avoid the task until it's literally unavoidable, at which point I will do it very reluctantly and beforehand look for any ways around it. Even if I want to do it! This can be something as simple as texting a family member if they have time next week. Or vacuuming, doing dishes, doing laundry, changing car tires, going for a walk. Reading a book I wanted to read. I have to do weird mental gymnastics to make something seem not mandatory to stop avoiding it, or it will sit there for weeks until the pressure dissipated and I can start looking into it again. And I'm like this since early childhood. My mom could not for the life of her get me to do things if she didn't physically force me. I remember her putting me in tights because I would always take off my socks, and I hated these tights with a passion.

@Nepeta-Leijon

Жыл бұрын

im gonna take my driving test on monday, do you have any advice? no worries if not. im great with the parallel parking so i figure even if i screw up some things in the first part i can make up the points parallel parking

@xXxLolerTypxXx

Жыл бұрын

@@Nepeta-Leijon I really don't know if I'm the right one to ask for that lol But generally, keep in mind that the examiner has no ill intent. You can perform all tasks you need to, otherwise your instructor wouldn't let you take the test. If you screw something up, it's okay, you can still pass. I forgot to turn on the windshield wipers when driving off in the rain and it was okay. If you're nervous, it's okay. They know that and take it into account. I still thoroughly wet the steering wheel with sweat during my exam, it happens. And keep in mind, the worst thing that can happen is that you need to take the test again. It happened to me the first time, it sucks, but other than needing to pay again it's really not a problem. My driving instructor told me before my exam, everyone you see on the road got through these 45 minutes. You can do that too. You can do that too, my friend. Good luck!

@marthamurphy3913

9 ай бұрын

I used to do yoga in the mornings until my husband became a high school teacher and started getting up earlier -- during my yoga time.

Thanks for this. I was just talking to my husband yesterday about how much I hated gym class (PE) as a child and how now whenever I have to go to gym class with the students (I work in a school) it brings back all the memories of not being able to play sports and always being yelled at and picked last for teams. I was also talking about how awkward I look seeing how I walk in videos.

As a kid I was diagnosed with dyspraxia but I always thought it was just a learning disability like my dyslexia or adhd I just learned from this video that all my coordination issues and the fact I had to work so much harder than my friends to do anything physical was because of this…. I never knew that wtf I’ve known about this for like 20 years and didn’t know anything about it but it explains so much

i definetly kinda relate to this. i also did ballet and have been told that i move weird after i performed on stage and i also look the most unnatural in videos / photos

I related wayyyyy to hard to a lot of the things mentioned here. Every time I would ride a bike I’d crash into things, my handwriting has always been garbage, I constantly bump into people, couldn’t walk upstairs, and had a ton of awful experiences in PE that made me despise sports. Thank you for giving me an answer to all those years of humiliation ❤️

Reading the experiences here brings me so much anxiety I’m having trouble breathing. I know I struggled and got made fun of a lot as a child but I suppressed a lot of that trauma. I’m just now revisiting it as an adult 😢

This is me! I've been this way my entire life. And the verbal dyspraxia -I have that too. My speech issues were categorized as "other" or "not specified" when I was a kid. They probably didn't have the knowledge of verbal dyspraxia back then. I'm 40 years old and learning so many new things about myself. It's incredible.

@AliciaGuitar

Жыл бұрын

my speech teacher thought i was embarrassed to pronounce things correctly and told me to practice sticking my tongue out saying "th-the-th-the" in front of people. NO! All that would have done is invite bullying and make me NEVER want to speak! I wasn't embarrassed of talking anyway... i was terrified of NOT talking because it made adults yell at me when i had selective mutism. I really couldn't understand why ppl thought i had a speech problem. My speech sounded fine to me except when i would get tongue tied and stumble words. I thought i just had an accent lol. verbal dyspraxia makes much more sense than "you are just embarrassed"

@rebeccabrownandhoneyberry

Жыл бұрын

@@AliciaGuitar it certainly does! I *still* have issues pronouncing certain words!

So few people know what Dyspraxia is compared to others. I'm glad there are others bringing attention to it and the experiences I've lived with!

FINALLY! I understand why my late husband could not ride a bike or back up a car! Amazing! It took me this long to learn this! I am 73!

I’d bet all my money that my kid has this. Will have to figure it out! Regarding “even with diagnosis people still may not understand”: yes. I’ve tKen to telling those people “you don’t have to understand it you just have to accept it” 😢

@jimwilliams3816

Жыл бұрын

In fact, what they need to do most is recognize that they do NOT understand it. People thinking they understand other people’s situations makes all kinds of trouble, unless they really truly do. Some of that is me projecting autistically, but I think it’s true for everyone.

Hello my twin! I decided a couple of years ago that I want to learn to ride a bike. I’m now on my third bicycle after blaming the first two for my failure. I’m doing better with this one, but I have to practice frequently and it’s still nerve wracking. I still think I can succeed. Maybe. 60 years old and diagnosed with autism and ADHD about 3 years ago. I’ve never had good balance and walking down stairs without a hand railing is terrifying. Even with a hand railing the balance required for stairs makes it challenging.

So, watching this video made me think of a former coworker. Back then, I didn’t know what Dyspraxia was, but thinking back, she demonstrated similar traits to those mentioned in the video. I feel awful now, as I struggled to be patient with her and at times even questioned how reliable she was at doing her job. We were both summer custodians at the time, and a lot of custodial work relies on fine motor skills, with things like locking and unlocking doors, sweeping, wiping down surfaces, etc. Now, I wish I could go back and apologize to her for misunderstanding that it wasn’t her fault for struggling to move properly.

I didn’t even know about Dyspraxia, but after watching this video. I think I might have it. I was late altogether learning how to tie my shoes. My dad ended up teaching me in second grade. I kept the ability the entire year, and then just lost it over the following summer.. it likely had to do with the fact that once summer came I was only wearing sandals and flip-flops, and stopped tying my shoes every day like I was for school. I will also just… push people to the side if I’m walking beside them. I’ve made so many people upset with me because they think I’m doing it on purpose, and I never mean to do it. I also had to attend a speech class in elementary school- in which the speech teacher proceeded to get upset with me because I couldn’t pronounce certain sounds after the expected time in class. I also have several other symptoms as well.. and this video has been an immense eye-opener! Thank you so much for creating this video. ❤️

“This is me trying “ amen to that sister

All of these fit me: Speech therapy, bad hand writing, no coordination or balance, Awful spatial awareness, etc. Never learned to ride a bike. When I was 14 my step sister tried to teach me and I went flying over the handle bars. I'm scarred from gym class to the point I just can't do anything physical in front of others. I really hate the "you need to try" or just "move your body like this" because I am trying and it's not working and I don't know what else to do. Now for group activities around sports like bowling I just go the comedic role and make myself an intentional joke so I won't be made fun of.

I grew up in the countryside so I had to ride a bike, otherwise it would have taken ages to get anywhere. I had so many accidents while biking though, it's kind of amazing nothing serious happened. I remember one time I barreled down a steep hill straight into thorny rosebushes, and a couple of times I just suddenly pitched sideways into a roadside ditch without feeling dizzy or anything, like my brain just forgot how balance works 😅

@BeeWhistler

Жыл бұрын

Taht’s a mood. I did learn to ride a bike and used one to get around as an adult but I had a nasty crash one day when I was rolling down a hill and these dumb girls decided to cross the street. They weren’t walking steadily but kinda shuffling along shoving each other and giggling because they were in a crosswalk and didn’t see any cars coming. I couldn’t decide which side to pass on because they weren’t moving at a measurable pace and I guess I was too busy with that to think to brake. I ended up catching one handlebar on the last girl’s arm and rolled into the street. Good thing I was maybe the only adult in the area wearing a helmet to bicycle. I still got a nasty road rash on my shoulder and a flat tire.

I am currently at work but this video says so much to me. My parents especially my mother wanted me to teach to ride a bike. But I couldn't! One day on a summer day she put me on an adult bike yelled at me and bullied me how I rode it and she even yelled at me when I fell of and hurt my knees... It's so traumatic for me I could never forget that. This channel helps me so much showing me which issues I have ... I am so glad to see that I am not alone

Thank you so much for making videos, I've learned a ton from these and it's helped me observe my own "odd" behaviors that I keep to myself in a different light. Must be a part of why I find society, other people and outdoors so draining. Generally I've good spatial recognition, but I have such huge trouble walking side by side with someone while talking without bumping into them ahaha

@marthamurphy3913

9 ай бұрын

I have exactly that same problem with walking!

Sorry for your experience, I have dyspraxia too. It’s not talked about enough. I didn’t realise I had dyspraxia until my son was diagnosed. Then my clumsiness and inability to control my body made sense. I also had a problem processing speech. There was always a lag between listening and talking as I had to interpret the noises I heard people making. This was in the 70s and nobody had a clue! Luckily by the time my so. Was diagnosed in early childhood he had a speech unit to attend and physical/exercise therapy . They were amazing with him. He attended a mainstream skill and he’s a drummer! Amazing coordination! Thank you ❤

Oh, hey, I have Dyspraxia too ! I was diagnosed when I was around 6 (or 7, I don't remember very well), and I didn't find a lot of youtube videos about it, so thank you for talking about it. It's funny because I'm not bad at drawing things but I can't draw straight lines even with a ruler. And I can ride a bike but I bump into walls and tables when I walk. I fall in the stairs and sometimes I trip on my own feet when I walk. Like, I can do something like riding a bike, but when I want to walk my body is like "nope, that's where I draw the line" ? What ? Why ? Walking is supposed to be easier than riding a bike.

Thank you for making this video. I'm autistic and so is my daughter. I didn't get diagnosed until my 20s, so I'm still learning a lot. Your video has answered a lot of questions for us both, and now I have a new direction to explore in order to help my daughter. I want her to have all the support I couldn't get.

I've been binge-watching your videos on KZread for the past week and I'm just so delighted. I feel sooooo much less alone, as I relate to everything. I'm in the middle of the ASD diagnosis process. From the ballet, to the awkwardness, to the masking and issues with proprioception.. Idk it's just so refreshing to hear someone speak and relate so much. So thank you for the content you're creating! Please keep it coming

Thank you! This video makes me wonder, I knew a lot about autism over the years but hadn't heard much about dyspraxia and personally wrote it off as not really having it. I've had multiple injuries/abuse to my head growing up and I figured my clumsiness and dropping things/bad coordination was a result of possible brain damage... I suspected I was autistic as a teen but I wasn't diagnosed until I was 19. 24 now and things like my movement skills haven't really improved, I tend to forget how to perform physical skills faster than others. I bump into doorways, drop my food, accidentally throw things and constantly drop things as it's hard to regulate my grip strength/or strength just in general, even when my brain is telling my body exactly what to do, it's like it tries it's best but it doesn't quite get it right. I do things in a way that's just very unique to me and it works for me, and other people will see it and say "why are you doing it like this this way is better" and it's really hard for me to adapt to that advice even if I want to take it whole heartedly. I had a lisp as a kid I got speech therapy for about 1 year, but not really speech delays growing up, my handwriting is very similar to yours (it's trash) and I always hated it, it was super small, messy and inconsistent and people could never make it out. Makes me embarrassed to write journals or diaries, but i'm currently trying to overcome this. I also have sensory processing disorder but my auditory processing is especially embarrassing, I can hear what someone is saying but sometimes I'll have to ask what they said over and over because my brain just isn't telling me what they said properly.. it pisses people off. So to mask I'll just nod and shake my head as a response to whatever tone of voice the person I'm talking to is speaking with and just hope I come across as understanding/normal even when my processing is jacked up. A lot of the time I slur my speech and I have to focus really hard on talking properly, although I feel I'm very eloquent at speaking now because I focused so much energy into perfecting it and having lots of conversations. Oddly enough, doing art was something I was always naturally gifted at, doing realism as a toddler and astonishing adults. I created art in my own way that a lot of my art teachers didn't like. Against my teachers opinions, I started mastering my own way of art that made me create very a unique style. Today creating art is my passion and life purpose although I much prefer digital art to traditional pen/pencil and paper. I'm very detail oriented when it comes to art and I create hyperdetailed works and mix pixel art and my skill with realism. I just always assumed I was a huge klutz! Thank you again for the video and all love

Thinking about the story of your driving teacher waiting after dropping you off - it sounds like a duty-of-care thing, making sure you actually get in the house before he left, especially if you were younger at the time. It was a lovely thing for him to have done, even if you didn't get on.

Thank you so much for making a video about dyspraxia! The lack of discussion outside of medical websites, mom forums and the rare spots such as forums for dyspraxics themselves is disheartening. It's so much nicer when a sizable KZreadr talks about their experiences as a dyspraxic, it will hopefully have more reach and feels just nice, I suppose. I was diagnosed as a very small child and my dyspraxia is severe; I cannot tie my own hair, tie shoelaces, put on certain pieces of clothes or honestly, tie things in general. I also have an awful time with undoing and adjusting tiny objects. I'm also prone to putting on clothes incorrectly initially, such as putting it on the wrong way or getting the buttons wrong. Bumping into things is very normal (I am practically a human Plinko ball). This isn't everything, but it's a few things. Largely because of my dyspraxia, I need support, just to help me with certain day-to-day tasks. Although, it seems as though I am gradually, slowly gaining more independence over time in adulthood, though things are certainly still awkward for me and as far as I'm concerned, if things take me longer and/or are more awkward, but doable that's great!

I am convinced I have dyspraxia already at not far past the halfway point in this video. It is refreshing and even healing to know that there is an explanation for all the years and years of struggle and humiliation. THANK YOU for this knowledge and relief that I truly am as unable as I have always thought and others wondered.

I cried watching this, I have adhd and dispraxia and I related sooo hard. I had a lot of trouble cutting my food, cleaning, washing the dishes, folding clothes etc and it took years for me to be able to do some stuff at a decent level, I'm 20 now and I still strugoe with some stuff.

I was diagnosed as being on the autism spectrum as an adult at age 35, about eight years ago. I never even heard of dyspraxia until very recently, when I started studying autism and neurodivergency. Much to my amazement, EVERY single thing you listed as a sign of dyspraxia is something I've experienced! I don't know if I'll seek a formal diagnosis, but this is fascinating. I'm almost in tears listening to you recall your experiences, especially as a child because I had the exact same negative experiences in PE class. Thank you for sharing your story and shedding light on dyspraxia.

I remember doing gymnastics as a kid and I had so much trouble with the "basic" skills. Like how to mount a bar. I think I was the only one left from my original group by the time I moved up And I remember just being unable to play volleyball. Like people didn't beleive me when I told them it hurt to bump the ball. That might be in part to my EDS where I dont have enought padding on my joints and just, in general. Plus I didn't have the coordination to hit the ball most of the time anyway. For soccor, I was just always put on goalie, since we had these super small goals, and I had shins of steel to block shots. So, i think that was the only thing that saved me from ambarrasment soccor-wise. Was awful at anything that wasn't pain-endurance based. I have autism, dunno if I've got dyspraxia

@zixea3318

9 ай бұрын

another EDS dyspraxia combo meal??? Same….

This was such a clear video! As a teacher, I need to educate myself to better help my students and this is very helpful. Thank you so much. The video flashbacks give me an "example" of presentation. The more I learn, the more I realize how essential kindness and information is to be a teacher. And just pure acceptance that humans are varied and I should probably presume the best intentions from my students by default. At least to avoid acting out like your instructor out of frustration. Which I get. But still.

When someone is watching me perform a task, I get anxious and more clumsy than normal.

Thank you for sharing these stories about your experience. Some of these experiences must have been really painful to go through, but it's really helpful to have it spoken about from a human who experiences it to demonstrate what it's actually like instead of the standard list of signs/symptoms. I love how you talk about the brain. My friends often struggle with later diagnosis and something I try to say is 'you're still you, you have words that are useful for the thing your experiencing and a better understanding of your own patterns, but it's just tools to describe an experience. I'm so glad you've learned some more about yourself." we need to really focus on letting people feel their humanity because we all have little differences in how our self machines function.

I love the use of “messy” hand writing in the transition screens. So appropriate for the vid. I certainly identify with this one as well being terrible at all things physical. Also might partially explain why my temporary special interest in guitars (I bought 9) and I can’t for the life of me make consecutive bar chords😂

@AliciaGuitar

Жыл бұрын

i am extremely dyspraxic and play guitar. it was years to build up to making bar chords and fast chord changes. muscle memory still exists for us, just be sure you aren't practicing your mistakes... if you make mistakes slow down until you get it right consistently. Also, there is an autistic youtuber who plays guitar and watching him has inspired me. he is also dyspraxic and doesn't even try to hide it... he embraces the awkwardness and the results are surprisingly beautiful. he def inspired me to consider playing in front of ppl again. we don't have to be perfect to make good art... our "flaws" can add to the artistry!

@Warspite03

Жыл бұрын

@@AliciaGuitar thanks for the encouragement, but truth be told I think I liked buying the guitars more than playing them 😂 Oh look a shiny new thing….

What an enlightening discussion of Dyspraxia. I'm not sure if I have it, or if it is mild, due to receiving a lot of occupational therapy as a very young child. I have always struggled with gross motor skills and have felt so shameful especially in PE. I can't do anything that requires moving and balancing such as skateboarding, skiing, and surfing. it is frustrating to feel so limited physically. However, I do not struggle as much with fine motor skills and am very artistic, so not sure if it is dyspraxia. Unlocking things has always been difficult for me though, and I felt like I was late developing simple motor skills like tying my shoes and even opening the doors on minivans.

Finally I know why I stuggled so much my whole live. I cant even put it in words how much this means to me , how much you helped me with this video... all I can say is,thank you.

This is really interesting, I have dyspraxia, I was diagnosed when I was 9, I’m 25 now, but I don’t have autism or ADHD, the only other thing I have is mild dyslexia but it doesn’t really effect me, dyspraxia definitely does, although I was in denial about it until I studied it in my psychology degree and I found a lot of things I do can relate to that

I've always been super anti-athletic. I dont think it bothered me much tho - probably in part because my dad was also very unathletic. My parents always told a story about when she was pregnant with their first and his small car broke down and my mom was pushing the car up a hill and some guy saw this and yelled at them but he said that, even 8 mo pregnant, she was stronger than he was. She still tries to carry my bags for me even with me in my 50s and her in her 80s! I oddly had good balance - was always good at water skiiing? and some of my coordination got better in young adulthood - being able to do some casual dance, learning martial arts in my 40s. I still cant run. Anyways, my kids arent athletic either and i just never worried about it. I also have awful handwriting but it didnt get in the way of geometry for me? oh and when i was homeschooling i did let my kids do all their work on the computer instead of by hand.

@faeriesmak

Жыл бұрын

My 72 year old mother still has to open jars for me and tie apron strings behind my back. It's sort of embarrassing at age 48 but I have come to accept that I just can't really manage these things very well. *sigh*

We also have very similar handwriting!! Interesting. Thank you for making this video, I really really enjoyed it and found most it incredibly relatable. I'm going to send this to my mum now, I think it'll help her to understand my dyspraxia so much better. I really love your channel 🩷

Omg I can relate to the PE thing so well! I SUCKED at it. The only luck I had was that my neither my peers nor my teachers made me feel self-conscious about it. My first PE teacher in secondary school said she would only grade us by our efforts, and that gave me so much confidence! PE was actually one of my favourite subjects because of that, despite me being bad at it. I also had dance classes after school, and was never made to feel bad for my less than perfectly carried out movements. I wish everyone would just be encouraged to keep trying, instead of being judged.

This was a great video! It’s so cool that you have so many childhood video clips. And I adore your little “P.S.” annotations throughout the video, I feel those in my soul ❤

Thanks for this video. I’m 51, I don’t have a dyspraxia dx but I suspect I do have dyspraxia. I tick so many boxes like the standard ones on learning to tie my shoe laces and riding a bike. It definitely affects my speech. When over tired I really struggle to hold a coherent conversation and have resorted to texting whoever I’m with as it’s less challenging when I’m super tired. I’ve learnt that talking to yourself is a dyspraxic sign and I do this a lot. This is something I mask a lot though as you’re generally seen as mad if you’re holding conversations with yourself. 😂 It’s like whatever is going on in my head has to come out of my mouth. I have EDS and it’s seems a lot of us EDSers also have neurodivergence.

I was diagnosed with autism when I was 8 or 9, but the dyspraxia aspect was never considered for me because I have really good control of my fine motor skills, despite suffering with everything else listed here (including the speech to an extent). It always baffled my teachers that I was able to draw really well but would miss every single time I tried to hit a baseball, since both involve moving the arms.

@annedymock2850

Жыл бұрын

Mr too. Terrible gross motor skill, slowest runner, beer learnedvto skip, terrible catching and throwing... but good handwriting, painting, drawing.

I'm very glad I found this channel. Your videos are super informative (I've learned so much) and have good pacing.

Just want to say with all the stories about your mum, she sounds so absolutely lovely! Like obviously not perfect as no human is, but it warms my heart hearing how accommodating she was, even if she didn't take you to get answers as a kid. Big hearts to good mums! ❤

Question (at the top, so it'll be seen easier): Is there an age limit to getting a Dyspraxia diagnosis? If so, what age? This video is an eye opener. The videos of you when you were doing sports was an exact one to one mimic of how I often did(/do) sports. I’ve never actually seen anyone as bad as me! Thank you for that! I’ve always known I had bad motor skills, but I wasn’t diagnosed. It was just: “Moeite met mijn motoriek.” It means literally: “Trouble with my motor-skills.” So I did know I had something, but the older I got, the more I learned to cope, and the worse I could explain it. Because I always explained by example. I can still explain it somewhat. I mean there are still things I can’t do: Tie shoelaces, not write with ugly cursive, blind typing (I’m currently looking at the key’s while using my index fingers to type), and ice skating etc. (Oh, how I hate Ice skating. I just want stappers like I used to have. But NOOOO, ThEy ArE fOr SmAlL cHiLdReN. And I also can’t get a support thing, because they are for kids. Even though when I fall I’m tall enough to kill several small children. Not that I’m mad or anything that I can’t skate. Not at all….). But it’s tough to show people you aren’t good at something on purpose. And it’s conflicted with the things I can do, like ride a bike while indicating (I’m Dutch, I need to ride a bike. That’s just necessary to move around. Sometimes it’s even more important than driving a car. Because public infrastructure can replace cars, but not bikes. And signalling is where you stick out your hand to indicate you want to turn in a direction. It’s like that blinking light on a car. [Edit: So while I can cycle with one hand. Because otherwise I'd be breaking traffic laws. I can't cycle without any hands on the steering wheel. Which in the Netherlands is seen as something every teenager should be capable of. Can you tell how much we(/I) love bikes? Honestly best short/mid-range mode transportation.]). So I think I’ll try to get a diagnosis, because then I can just say: “Go duckduckgo it.” If people want more information. Thanks for making this video. I would not have known this existed otherwise. PS.: F*CK STAIRS! ALL THE TRUE HOMIES HATE STAIRS!

I’m so glad you have home video to share & thank you so much for sharing it! It’s so helpful for me to see the similarities in my journey 💕 happy autistic pride day!!

Finally a word for it! You're right, young me would have found knowing this so helpful during PE/recess.

Oh my god the footage of you as a little girl is so precious i want to give you a hug for doing your best :')

I don't think I have dyspraxia. My handwriting is terrible, and a lot of what you refer to I relate to to one degree or another. I think I relate to a lot of what you listed because I didn't develop depth-perception until after extensive vision therapy in my late 20's. Also, I have a neuro-muscilar disorder that is most likely related to the autism that wasn't diagnosed till I was 40. Writing by hand is not only exhausting, but the muscles on my hands and forearms spasm, making it excruciatingly painful... when I can properly perceive pain, which I don't so well. After 5-6 years of piano lessons, I realized that I was not going to continue improving because after playing for a while, I had trouble moving my fingers and feeling the keyboard. The plus side of all of this was that I was put on muscle relaxants when I was 15, and my general suffering was reduced markedly. It became very clear to me that my ability to function was dependent on my taking this medication diligently - this meant that when it came to psych meds later, I already had the discipline. I was definitely a toe-walker, yet I don't seem to lose physical skills after not practicing for a while. - This is very interesting, and I'm glad you made this video.

😂 I relate so much to your experience!! Just been diagnosed AuDHD and your video confirm what I suspected and I do think I have dyspraxia & I have similar experiences than you since childhood 😅 thanks for the video ❤

I kept remembering things as you talked about them, my whole life I've been called slow, clumsy and worse, I could never ride a bike (I took a bad fall on a tricycle, my motor "skills" were already that terrible), I still easily fall down the stairs, I hit things, drop things, break things despite my efforts, I bump into people, step on the back of their shoes while walking, everyone says that my walk is weird, I lean to the side while walking and then I'm involuntarily too close to a person (the side eyes...), I was always terrible at sports (and got bullied for it), etc. Thank you so much for this video, I'm also autistic and now I understand why I'm like that. 💝

Thank you so much for making this. I don't feel alone now on having signs and symptoms of dyspraxia DCD as an adult.

I'm 59 and your video came up on my feed today. This is my lightbulb moment - I had no idea that dyspraxia existed! Listening to your difficulties brought back so many memories. When I was a child I was terrible at group sports and was always last to be picked for teams. I found learning to ride a bike really difficult and my dad spent many hours pushing me round the back garden holding the back of the bike seat to steady me and then letting go in the hope that I would balance on my own. Eventually after years I was able to ride a bike and even got my cycling proficiency badge. However, I stopped riding as an adult, then tried taking it up years later and was unable to balance, so I can't ride anymore. Also, my writing and drawing was terrible, despite being made to copy things out over and over again. It's still terrible (way worse than yours), but fortunately I've worked in IT since the 1980s so I've never needed to handwrite anything much, particularly since the advent of smartphones so I don't even have to handwrite my shopping list anymore. Learning to drive was difficult and it took me 3 attempts to pass my driving test! I'm not particularly clumsy, but people do make fun of my walk . Thank you for explaining this condition😊

P.E. is literally hell to me because of it, but everybody else in my class loves it and yells at me for not doing anything right

This does not only explain my overall clumsiness but also the pain in my hands during writing and consciously thinking about to how to move my body when I walk and why I hate exercise

I stumbled across this video a few days ago and, after doing a lot of reading and self-reflection, I'm going to try to get an official diagnosis for this. Thank you SO much, my world's been flipped upside down by how much my life *makes sense* now. Thank you!!

Things get real confusing when neurodivergencies overlap 😅 I've been wondering for a while if i'm dyslexic or if its just the ADHD, and i still don't really know for sure on that one. And the same with dyspraxia and autism. I know for sure i'm autistic, but am i dyspraxic too? I'm not sure. I've always been clumsy, was never good at sport as a kid (still aren't really. I've found my place in rollerskating but otherwise i'm not good at sports), I would say i'm clumsy, have little to no spatial awareness. That part about struggling to walk down train aisles is so relatable! especially if i'm carrying a bag on my shoulder i'm always afraid of accidently hitting people with it as i have to sort of walk down the aisle sideways (theres an added struggle in being plus size here, too). And of course I have always had pretty naff handwriting. It seems to run in my family, cause my brother also has terrible handwriting, so bad he was given accomodations to use a laptop for his exams, which i was very jealous of because one of the key issues with my handwriting is that i always press down too hard on the paper and use too much pressure, which means when having to do exams and write long essays, i got some major cramps in my hands. But honestly at this point i'm out of school, so having set diagnoses isn't as important anymore. At the end of the day my brain is funky, thats the most important part. 😅😅

@jimwilliams3816

Жыл бұрын

Your last sentence sums it up so well! I have so many traits, and they often don't align cleanly with diagnostic criteria lists...nor do they all rise to the level of obviously damaging my life, at least individually. They have, however, influenced my life throughout my 62 years. I may not be clinically dyspraxic, but I have a variety of traits that put me firmly in the "hated gym" category, among other things. I sensed I was weird my whole life, but I am now realizing that one of the reasons to be aware of the details of my traits, and have an idea of where they came from, is that their effects on my life, even when not all seemingly dramatic, have aggregrated and magnified over the course of decades, and eventually added up to "issues" that have now become debilitating. I've come to realize that my single biggest trigger -- the thing that invalidates me most -- is the message, real or perceived, that my performance in any area is entirely related to whether I'm "trying" or not. Partly because, after decades of meltdowns and emotional dysregulation, I've gotten used to feeling like that must be the case. I wish I had understood much sooner how much my individual neurology shaped who I am and what I can do, and how. I could have understood my limits, and learned to live within them, and so not "failed" as much. I could have learned how to do better in the ways I am able, while understanding that my personal best will not necessarily look like everyone else's.

I swear, I love watching your videos because you always say these little things that I thought just made me weird. I'm so glad to know that I'm not the only one who thinks it's downright exhausting to write something out by hand. Does anybody else's hands start to hurt after grasping something for just a few moments?? Is that a dyspraxia thing? I've just learned what that is during this video, but I definitely have it

I checked everyone one of these. Thank you for making this! I think this will help some of my friend understand this dx that I have too. One of the reasons I was diagnosed was getting lost driving in the town I had lived in for 20+ years. :)

I've noticed it most in my speech. I said one time, "I want cop porn" but what I was trying to say was, "I want pop corn". For context I was in class and the teacher was offering us pop corn and that is what came out of my mouth. -I've never recovered from this experience- 😂

It seems like a lot of these would apply for proprioception problems. I wondered for a bit if I had dyspraxia, but after learning more it seems I just have something off in my proprio; I still identify with so much in this video.

Thank you, Meg. I've just shared this video with my therapist to discuss this topic with her. A lot of things you said I reasonate very much. I feel I also must have dyspraxia.

SO MUCH MAKES SENSE NOW!! I always knew my dyslexia was related to how I move and how I see things other than words, but no one ever listens, BUT now I know the term:)

I have a lot of these symptoms. One thing I do that I wonder if it’s related is that I choke a lot. I end up taking a breath while chewing something with crumbs and pieces go into my airway.

Although I don't have a formal diagnosis of either ADHD or autism, my son has and I'm pretty certain my genetics are part of that. My gross motor skills are pretty rudimentary - especially combined with proprioception. Riding a bike and swimming took me a long, long time. I still hate ridig a new bike because it feels like I have to learn all over again. I'm collecting new bruises daily, from bumping into stuff I dont even remember. Thankfully my fine motor skills are pretty good, because I love drwawing and painting. But I do realize I use my fingers a lot, instead of a paintbrush. I love to move, even if I'm not good at any sports. Ever since I started with Qigong my body awareness and balance have improved tremendously. Its just the physical interaction with the outside world that's proven to be difficult.

@jumperontheline

10 ай бұрын

Having to learn again on a new bike is dyspraxia 💞

@jumperontheline

10 ай бұрын

I always find bruises and can't remember getting them as well, especially on my legs 😂

Oh my goodness, your video of sports day brought back some terrible memories!! The annual horrendous humiliation of being forced to take part in that! Not just coming last in every race but like 5 mins behind everyone...terrible. And PE and those looks you mentioned from girls during netball when you couldn't catch (or throw!) the ball..happy days! Have known I am dyspraxic for a while and still working out what it means for me. Explains sooo much.

I literally got my autism diagnosis yesterday; I'm nearly 35. So much of the stuff in this video resonates with me.

my archnemesis are doors. when i try to push them closed with my hand either i do it too hard and bump my nails and fingers, or i do it too lightly and just completely miss. i also regularly forget to move my foot while opening the door and bumping my toes (once completely breaking off my big toenail) and for some mysterious reason i have this thing where the door bounces back on my feet and then hits me in the face and even i dont know how it happens

@turtleanton6539

Жыл бұрын

I walk into them all the times

I have Cerebral Palsy (the main type of which is Spastic Dyslexia)... and half my symptoms match those of Dyspraxia. I remember being frustrated with not being able to do things the first time and my mother always telling me that practice makes perfect... my family and teachers who knew what I had always gave me the extra time to do anything that involved physical movement and one PE teacher gave me alternate exercises to do Jumping Jacks was very hard for me, but my peers in school were cruel. Ballet was fun but I never could do the stag leap. I have a knack for art and pattern matching but to this day I move at half the normal speed of those around me unless there is an emergency then my primal brain goes to work and I move super fast with no ballance problems.. I have been hand sewing since I was 8 and at almost 62 I prefer hand sewing to machine sewing... working with machines except for computers is like pulling hens teeth. Kudos to you for teaching others about how hard daily life can be!