It’s amazing to hear someone else talk out loud about what I feel everyday, and I still don’t understand what’s going on in my head.

I've struggled with PMDD so much!! I really do feel sometimes that i'm alone, but seeing this is like seriously helpful. Every word you said, i felt like i was watching myself!!! I HATE PMDD so much!!!! Like my depression is so strong right now, and I just checked my app, and yup my period is in 3 days. I wish more people could understand. Going to work like this is just hell. Thank u for your video

@kimberlymej8584

2 жыл бұрын

I hate it too 😞. You are not alone but I feel alone as well. People underestimate what we go through because of the similarity of the word with PMS. I wish it had a different name and I wish it didn’t exist but we should help each other 🌸 Sending you love!

Giirrrllll! Hearing your story is so helpful. I always compare myself to my friends who always appear to have it together and I feel like I'm always such a mess because I only get about 1 to 2 weeks of "normality". I feel like everyone expects me to just suck it up and get on with it and that I'm letting everyone down. No one understands what living like this is like. I'm isolating myself more and more away from the world because I'm sick of being made to feel like I'm weak or that I'm a dud. I'm trying to learn how to live with it and live the life I want to live but I can't do it all sometimes and it makes me so depressed. Thank you for sharing your experiences .. it has helped!

Despite me being in the midst of dealing with PMDD, your sense of humor makes me laugh... Thanks so much for sharing your story. You are a beautiful soul...

i understand you and i hear you in every way Anna. I go through this anxiety and depression myself so I just wanna say you’re not alone and it’s already such a big step that you are getting the help you need and you are doing your best to get through it even though it can be unmanageable at times. and that’s really the best thing you can do for yourself. just keep pushing through, i believe in you. i love your videos and your presence as an inspiring human being. if you ever need anyone to talk to or just to listen and to understand, i’m here for you! ❤️

hate that this struggle is real for so many of us, but I truly appreciate your open honesty, which gives us visibility, and your courage to do so. don't wanna get into how much I needed this, but just know you're helping me and countless others out. appreciate it endlessly.

around the 4:40 mark I really felt every word you said about not wanting to feel like that every day. you're so strong for making a video about this. thank you for your words and always inspiring me.

Watching this now describes how i currently feel SO accurately! 💗 I've also thought in more recent years that i probably have PMDD as well. I notice things that can't possibly be regular PMS related but of course, it can be hard to tease it all out when we already have anxiety & depression going on to begin with, as you mentioned. ✨ Thank you SO much for always being so open about your mental health Anna. ❤ It really helps to not feel alone on this forever changing journey. 💞

Hey Anna, thank you so much for sharing, this video really resonated with me - especially the part about having lots of ideas but no ambition to carry them through. It’s absolutely horrible when you have such vivid dreams for yourself but you simply cannot summon the willpower to make them happen. It feels like you’re barely breathing, and as a creative, it’s extremely crippling. I struggled with this for the past two years and I feel like I’m just now starting to get back on my feet. I still have days where I stumble, but I feel like I’m starting to grasp a bit of the optimism I had before. I think the key is to continually allow yourself to be vulnerable, remove comparison from your life, and forgive yourself for your shortcomings. This is a daily battle, but it will get better in time. Much love. ❤️

I was just recently thinking about how much I've missed your videos, and then I saw that you posted this. I'm so glad that you brought up PMDD because it has been something I've had to deal with over the past few years as well, and I had never heard anybody talk about it. Thank you so much for posting this and being real with us, definitely keep us updated, I hope the medication helps you feel better and that you feel better in general! Sending love from one PMDD depressed and anxious gal to another

I’m just now finding your channel and I’m in awe with how you use your vulnerability and turn that into strength. It’s amazing to see that your break this stigma of looking to weak or weird /incapable to work because the reality of it is nobody acts professional 24/7 . WE ARE HUMAN , everyday I always wonder if I was the only human feeling these things but I’m glad I found your channel stay amazing babe !!💜💜💜

your vulnerability is inspiring and really shows your strength. yes, I'd love for you discuss high functioning anxiety and depression a little more. i relate a lot to what you said here. i started zoloft at the beginning of this year, and it was definitely the right move for me. also i loved the editing when you included the un-posted videos. take care of yourself!

Thank you for making this video. I knew something was off, but I was told I'm just lazy, moody and need to get myself together and I have struggled for so long. I too am high functioning and no one would believe what I'm going through.

I'm only just taking the time to watch this now but I can totally relate. I've been diagnosed wit PTSD and because of that I would get the anxiety attacks that you described. I felt like I needed to do so much with my life but every time I tried I'd get a panic attack and not be able to function. It's so hard to talk about it, I can't even imagine how hard it must be if you fear people might see you differently or might not want to work with you because of how your mental health is doing. I've learned that when one door closes, another one always opens even though it might not be as obvious. I think that making ,editing and posting this video is so brave and takes so much courage, nobody can take that away from you. A lot of people will watch this in their search to find other stories they can relate to and I think yours will show them that it's okay to show your vulnerability and even though people might think of them in a certain way, it doesn't mean that they have to keep that up if it is not how they are feeling inside. I guess what I just wanted to say is thank you for sharing, you're definitely not alone and I think you will be helping so many others by sharing this. I would like to learn more about your journey but that's always up to you!

I relate to this whole video so much! Especially having so many things you want to do but not having the energy, willpower and motivation to do it because of depression!

I listened to your story and it speaks to my soul. I had no idea I was dealing with PMDD, anxiety, and depression. I am so high functioning that I can just put things on the back burner until I have time to deal with that. It is just so weird. I had this idea in my head that said I could just figure things out. As i get old I feel more immobilized by certain things and unsure how to navigate it. I appreciate your story and your strength in sharing this. Thank you!

Hi! Thank you so much for sharing this, its incredibly brave to be this vulnerable and so important. I'm also proud that you took action and that you're asking for help. It's good to know that you don't always have to be strong and handle everything. Everybody is a little weak on the inside ❤ also , I recognized a lot in your story, I'm a starting artist but also struggle with mental health issues which means that there is never enough time and mostly energy to work on all my goals and ideas and different parts of my business, this is , like you said, so frustrating! Ive tried to find a good therapist, but every time I'm at the top of waiting lists, things are 'okay-ish' and I don't push through.. maybe my depression has also a greater connection to my cycle, since it has these periods, just like you said. Thanks for sharing, maybe it will help me figure out things as well❤

You are not alone! This video was soothing in a way, thank you!

I thought I was the only one who is suffering like this way!! Thanks for addressing loudly..

Thank you for sharing your journey. As of recent I realized my anxiety was so bad that it felt like a ball bouncing around in my head and it would be calm or super off the walls depending on how anxious I was. I went to my psychiatrist that has been with me since I was a teen and upped my medicine. It always makes me sad to increase dosage but mental health comes first. But it’s important to realize “hey I feel different this isn’t right I need help” and sometimes that takes a lot of courage to admit to yourself. Taking care of ur mental health in itself is exhausting and emotionally draining but it’s essential. I stopped being so hard on myself for needing help bc it’s something I physically CANNOT help it-my brain physically cannot function normally without the help of medication and monthly monitoring. My bipolar disorder is just something I have to live with and at first I was scared that it would turn people off from me and think I’m unstable or “crazy” (which mean kids in high school did call me) but I now as an adult have friends who understand me and accept me and don’t see me any different and they know I have good days, ok days, bad days, really bad days, and days where they need to make sure I’m okay and not going to do something dangerous. I also recently stopped drinking as last time I did it set off this insane panic attack turned wailing screaming crying episode that lasted hours when I was home alone. It really scared me. I was mad at first that now I can’t enjoy something as simple as wine or a beer but it wasn’t worth jepordizing my mental health. And sometimes my mental health does effect my work which fucking sucks, ive accepted that things that like are gonna happen and are out of my control (which drives me insane as I am control freak type a).This is by no means me telling u what to do, I was just inspired to share my journey. I take it a day at a time, sometimes an hour at a time and even minute by minute and through the years I’ve built a support system through my family, friends, my psychiatrist, therapy, mindfulness, coping skills, recognizing when I need to ask for help even if it’s something as small as texting a friend to vent about a bad day. Anyways, long story short I’m proud of u for sharing ur journey and contributing to the narrative of mental health. I’m also in the Chicago area if u ever need a friend ❤️

Just found this video and this is me! I'm a very happy person and high functioning who has battled anxiety all my life. I'm 26 and this year I realized I couldn't handle my anxiety alone anymore. I also take Lexapro. I'm currently off my medicine due to my doctor listing his practice, so anxiety and PMDD have been killing me! My PMDD symptoms show up 2 weeks before my period, so I get like 1 normal week per month. Stay strong and thank you for being so open about mental health ❤️

I have no idea how I found this video but I relate so hard to you. The past year and a half for me has been the struggle with my mental health and it’s so flipping exhausting.

I understand exactly how you feel! Thank you for sharing!

Ive had a history with PMDD myself. I took years before I realized it was a problem. One of the reasons that it took so long was that my mother would say that my feelings were normal because that’s what she went through. After looking into it, we think that she may have had PMDD and passed it onto me. Over the last fews years it has been so bad that I would become suicidal before my period. Thankfully now I have a therapist and he has given me methods of dealing with it, such as Motherwort. Thank you for sharing your experience. I don’t hear much conversation on the condition, and it always makes me feel stronger knowing that I am not alone 💛

I’d love to hear more about this I’m 15 years old and I experience so much anxiety with school and people. it’s really physically and mentally tiring it makes it easier for me to understand my feelings when someone else talks about it thank you for sharing your experience I love you so much and it would mean the world if you share this with us

Yess we all have been there, stay strong Anna ♡

I'm bipolar, feeling the depressed during your period is very normal. What I figured out since my diagnosis at the age of twelve (I'm 28 now) is keep a healthy diet, don't drink alcohol and coffee. But the main thing is working out. If you do an hour cardio a day helps against depression. I know that is the last thing you want to do when you feel low but even taking a walk is good, I hope you feel less low. I know how hard it is. Stay strong and positive.

I’ve struggled with PMDD for many years (just got diagnosed) and it is HORRIBLE!!!!! I get suicidal thoughts and it is scary. I am getting therapy and want to try medication but I am a little scared of that. Please keep sharing your experience! It helps the world and our community PMDDers too 🙏 I hope you feel better soon 🌸

I feel you totally too! Work hits me even harder because of mental health problems...often feel lonely because other people don;t seem to me that theyre also struggling. But thanks for speaking out loud, woman just have to deal with these hormone changes and men dont.

Thank you for sharing all this! At 26 you have a really special opportunity to have the most fun you’ve ever had in your life so far. I know things are complicated, but follow those impulses to be wild and free. This was an amazing video on self care and making the tough choices to be healthy. 😃

This is exactly how I feel and you have put words to what I go through.

Sending you love & strength❤️ also, you can be an extremely successful person in your work life while still figuring things out personally and mentally! Its all a journey

Thank you for being so candid and open. I've been having symptoms of PMDD for a few months now and been tracking it closely for the past month or so, but I'm also unable to know when it started because I've also been diagnosed with severe depression and mild anxiety for 4 years now. I'm also high functioning, I am in my 3rd year at SAIC and a close friend who was a previous professor of mine was pretty surprised when I told her that I have depression and anxiety and at that time she had been my professor for a year and a half-ish. I also can put things on hold if I need to get shit done, but then everything just crashes down harder and stays that way for a longer time. For example, finals fucking suck when you have no motivation and programs are crashing non-stop the day before the assignments due but I was able to shut down depression by utilizing my anxiety and it worked out but after the semester ended I went home for a month and I hadn't felt that depressed since high school, and I didn't want to come back to Chicago because I knew that I would have to experience that again and there could possibly be moments where it was worse. But yeah, it fucking sucks when you still feel a passion for what you're doing but you have to push through these clogged, crowded avenues within yourself to produce ideas that you're genuinely excited about. (this is very long, lol sry)

@jackiem9460

3 жыл бұрын

I have also found people are surprised when I tell them I struggle with depression. I can be perky when I need to be aka work.

Thank you for sharing! I have dealt with severe depression & been on many different medications. One time my therapist mentioned someone named Wim Hof and his methods can really help benefit people who deal with mental illness. There’s a really good vice documentary on him. I know things seem hard but you will get better!!!!! It takes a long time but you’ll be happy you have stuck through so much.

I met you last year and ugh watching this makes me hurt but feel warm to know Im not alone I wish I wouldve hugged you 😩❤️

Thank you! You are so sweet!

thank god for you honestly.

I 100% know what you mean when you were saying you really want to do KZread but you just can’t. I have the same issue with KZread and most things. I suffer from major depression, minor anxiety, and bpd. You’re at the start of an uphill now that you’ve recognized you need to reach out for help. You’ll learn how to take care of your self and your illnesses. Keep pushing through!

Last summer my anxiety was through the roof. I was so nervous about going back to university, and also had it looming over me that I had to do volunteer work and take driving lessons in order it progress. I put these two things off for YEARS. I knew I needed to do them but I just couldn’t, it was like they were so important that I was terrified of trying and failing, so I just didn’t try. My MH declined and I did get help from my doctor and am now in therapy. However, one day I’d had enough and contacting a volunteering organisation and arranged my driving lessons. Immediately, I felt a sense of relief and achievement. My anxiety lifted slightly. I completed some volunteering and am now almost finished driving lessons and my anxiety has greatly improved. By tackling the things I was afraid to do (easier said than done, I know) my anxiety declined because I was proving to myself that I could do these things, I wasn’t a failure and that there was nothing to be afraid of. I hope you continue to improve and grow Anna, this is a point in your life you’ll look back on one day and see that it was something you had to go through in order for your overall mental health and awareness to improve, you WILL come out of this stronger💗.

I have pmdd too, and it sucks ass. I've been using KZread as a creative outlet to help me cope with shitty things In my life. It helps and I cannot describe how much I can relate to this video. Sending good vibes

Literally me right now!! I’m bout to try therapy again, hopefully I find a good one. & you & I have pme not PMDD because pme is when we have depression & anxiety everyday including PMDD/pme. It’s really the same. I hope everything is good for you now In your life ! ❤️

thanks for sharing your story. I'm s o new to this and glad I found your video!

I love you Anna!

as the 400th like i’d like to say, it feels so fucking good hearing someone who is going through the same situation as me. It’s unfortunate and i’m sorry for what you go through but thank you for posting this video i know it must’ve been difficult.

Hi Anna, thank you so much for making this video, this is the first time I have heard any other story that even closely resembles mine. I'm 40 this year so older than you, but I have been desperately unwell for 9 years now. I have the most insane anxiety and depression around my entire menstrual cycle, I only have about 8 days a month where I'm able to function normally. I have had SO many blood tests and everything comes back normal. I keep trying to explain to my doctor that it's all to do with my hormones and menstrual cycle but she has never once suggested PMDD. At the moment I can't lead a normal life and I have lost the majority of a whole decade to whatever I am suffering with, I have not been able to get any answers in such a long time. I am desperately seeking any sort of identification, acknowledgement or answers. I wouldn't normally ask something like this on you tube, but just because you are the first person in 9 years that has described the levels of anxiety I experience with my menstrual cycle, I'm wondering if you would be willing to have a conversation with me? Either just over you tube comments or another social media platform. Just to see if what we have been experiencing is similar enough for me to begin to understand what I'm going through. I understand if you're unable to though, no hard feelings! And I wish you healing and happiness on you're journey ❤

You are really pretty!! I definitely know how you feel. I’m 37 and I’ve struggled without medication since I was 21. My darn anxiety won’t let me get on medication. It’s been really hard lately. I have not found the right therapist and my PMDD is getting worse..

Thank you for this.

Dude...this literally had me sobbing. My boyfriend and therapist suggested to me only moments ago that I may have been misdiagnosed and really struggle with PMDD. Everything you just said made me have an apifanny and startlingly resonated with me.

Day before my period and I feel you 100% I’m 34 and I’m in a state of transition too I actually just had some great wind this month but PMDD is stealing it today and yes being aware almost seems to “make it worse “

Weird to stumble upon something this real and relatable while trying to learn to style my new short hair. I know this video is a few months old, but I'm wondering if 2018 was just a shitshow for everyone dealing with mental health issues, whether suspected or realized. I hope your start to 2019 feels more optimistic and wholesome, and that things get back on track for you soon!

❤️❤️❤️❤️ sending u a big hug.

Before I say I’m going through the same for many years. But I want to start sayin you look like Mary Kay and Ashley Olsen, you can play fuller house lol you so pretty. Back to my same situation I’m going through hell like hell hell I swear! Anxiety depression And more

Hey Anna I got diagnosed with mental health last year and my period is due in a few days but iv been very emotional and anxious and alot of adrenaline I'm getting it checked tmorr by the doctor to see if it's pms or pmdd but it's nice to see I'm not the only one going threw this!! X

Thank you for this really

i am going through the exact same thing . I feel like i cant get out . I was put on medicine a month ago and i still feel so empty and lonely and it is so frustrating . I guess we just have to try totry to change perspective, I am trying to but it is taking time . Hang in there :)

You rock Anna😎👍🤘🙏

Thank you

I struggle with GAD, PMDD, and panic disorder and I relate. I’ve founded that there are peaks and valleys and to try not to fight the lows so much. Also-medication.

@Ohkeh640

3 жыл бұрын

What meds are you taking

hi Anna, i can’t tell you how much i relate. i literally just uploaded the same video on my channel too. it gets BETTER as dumb and cliche as that sounds. the best of luck girl

I feel the exact same way! Thank you for posting this for women! By the way, you are so pretty!

@AnnaRussett

3 жыл бұрын

You are so welcome! And thank you

I can definitely relate! I’m in a similar boat. 26 is weird man.

Some people dont get better the medical system has failed me. I used to think that people who give up and take the easy way out are selfish but they are suffering and sometimes that the only way to relieve the pain. I completely get it now. I cant continue to live like this I'm miserable and alone.

PMDD is real! I totally can feel your anger and anxiety because I also have the same issue. It’s so much emotionally traumatizing 14 days before my period every single month for the past 5 years! I am desperately searching for a cure since it is effecting my personal and professional life 😢

i’ve never related to a video more in my life wow

I can relate to this so much. Btw You have such gorgeous eyes

On another note your hair looks incredible!

💕💕💕

I have EVERYHTING you are explaining in this video. How are you feeling now ? I took lexapro for a couple years and went off a year ago. Wondering if I should go back on it again cause it’s getting out of hand. So how are you doing now?

Has your medication helped your PMDD? I'm in the hopeless/despair/rage time of my PMDD right now and it's brutal, my doctor said the bc pill or SSRI's are an option but I'm trying some natural alternatives right now (that aren't working). I tried SSRI's in the past for anxiety but they never helped and I didn't like the side effects but I can't function with this level of deep depression so I'm considering taking them again, maybe one I haven't tried before. Hope you're doing well.

The whole time I said “me me me”

Try evening primrose oil capsules They help heaps with pmdd pains mood and breast tenderness

❤️❤️❤️

You remind me of the Olsen twins when they were younger 💕 I know all about anxiety, panic attacks, depression and pmdd on top of all that. It sucks :/ I hear that certain vitamins can help ease the symptoms of pmdd

hello. I have heard some stuff about the dysphoria of pmdd that is makes many relationships very unstable mainly because the dysphoria is coming from inside but it feels like (?) it is being caused by the closest people to you so you take it out on them? Does that sound familiar at all on the pmdd?

With your anxiety has you thoughts raced obsessively ? I have had my thoughts racing and been hearing all my thoughts literally everything I’m thinking also my body has been shaking and I been crying a lot I feel like I’m losing my mind I also cant sleep this is all new to me so I was wondering is this apart of severe anxiety , just want to know from your experience.

I personally am on Lexapro as well but I'm struggling to tell my doctor how I truly feel. I stopped going to therapy but recently learned that my therapist thinks I have BPD which is borderline personality disorder but also depression. I understand feeling like having all of these things wrong and I'm terrified of everything wrong with me. I'm a control freak as well and want everything to be ok but in previous years I had really bad depression to the point that I was suicidal but shortly after feeling that way I got prescribed Lexapro. But I was proscribed by a family doctor who just spoke to me. No chemical test no anything but having a conversation. I personally would like to reach out because I'm noticing myself losing hope in things like my grades and my passions but I don't know what to do. Anna do you have any advice?

Have you any pmdd updates I’m sure I have it too and I am also on lexapro

Me too ❤️😢😙😞

I suffer from anxiety and depression as well. Anxiety basically controls my life

I'm dealing with such things but I'm too embarrassed to share them with people, I pushed so many people away because of my depression, anxiety, stress, and mood swings. I take meds because of them it's physically affecting me badly :(

ive been dealing with this for the last two years something i never encountered with until i turned 29. i cant really deal w being by myself at home alot anymore i think about anything and everything thats bad..... ive never taken medication before but im really considering it or get counseling. any suggestions??

@andygreer8645

5 жыл бұрын

I read your comment Star and was touched. Constant negative thoughts and severe anxiety can be crippling. Been there, my friend. I had 3 full blown panic attacks at 2 different jobs. I would encourage you to see a doctor and be honest about how you feel. I've found honesty is the best policy. Very important... I've made it this far because of my strong Christian faith. If you haven't given your life to Christ, please do so today. You won't regret it. He will never leave you, nor forsake you. I'm living proof. May God bless you richly friend.

@queenj577

5 жыл бұрын

@@andygreer8645 thank you for the advice I will do all.

I experienced exactly the same shit

HOLY SHIT. HIGH FUNCTIONING is not calling out of work, staying in my office, weeping with tears rolling down my face 2 hours straight WHILE completing my work!

@FrankieeNCharliee

3 жыл бұрын

Literally what I’ve been doing since 10am today.

@mcol3657

3 жыл бұрын

@@FrankieeNCharliee you should be so proud of yourself and realize you're accomplishing so much being productive. Please pat yourself on the back and feel super great when your PMDD boils over 💓 get yourself a back or foot rubs, do a face mask. You'll feel so much better when you get your period

I had no body to talk to now. I m super depressed. Feeling like lost world in me, craving sugar all the time n food, basically carbs. And I go super angry!! I can't do my normal activities. I m a student and it's so fucking important time for me to study but I just feel like I cannot, I lack so much behind of me like, I ask myself is this forever?? All negativity captures my mind n heart feels like it gonna just explode n thankfully I will be dead and happy! Fuck these feelings man I am feeling more restless after typing this!! Whoofff

I don’t wanna die I just wish sometimes I was never born.

@TKthug

3 жыл бұрын

:( I'm hoping things get better for you and sending lots of strength and love!

Are you on any medication

I feel like my doctor doesn’t believe me, I feel like you I can push myself to do the things I have to do but once I get home I crash

You might have ADHD, I've been learning about it and you've said a couple of things that might suggest you have ADHD

Anna! Go to Jesus babe, he’s the only thing that helps. I almost took my life. God bless you thanks for sharing btw.