The way you articulate your pain, your process, the hope, the struggle, is so incredibly powerful. I also have cptsd and read/ watch/ listen to so much trauma-related stuff, but you cut right to the heart of the pain. The false self disintegrating, all that protection, the defense mechanisms, survival strategies just falling away when you see what they are. Yes, I know that place. What are you left with? The real rawness of a self that feels like new skin under a scab, all soft and vulnerable. But it also feels like I know this place, I always have done. It's not new at all, just new to really feel it, feel into it. Not constricted and crushed with all the shit piled on top of it. It's vast, free....but the grief of the loss, of never having, the memories, time gone, and that belief that I was this awful, worthless person for so long. Sometimes unfathomable depths of pain and longing alongside my connection to a more beautiful place inside and out. Thank you so much for sharing yourself so vulnerably, Sam. I absolutely think that healing and even thriving is entirely possible for you, for us, for everyone.

@Call-Me-Sam

Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for your kindness in writing these insightful words . You articulate our struggle so very well. Thank you again.

💕 Dear Bijou, I’m so blessed to have found you. Thank you for sharing.

Always thinking of you Sam. This was a hard hitting video. You are a gem. Sending thoughts and love. Kirsten.

@Call-Me-Sam

Жыл бұрын

Thank you X

You are as the I am, a conscious choice of the golden glued broken body bleeding and being Love. Love hurts, heals and holds the paradox of its Life… Blessed, Layne

@Call-Me-Sam

Жыл бұрын

Thank you Layne.

Beautiful and powerful share Sam, You're so strong! Thank you for sharing!

Hi Sam, I love your thoughtful/thought provoking open and honest videos. I also very much enjoyed your reading of the poem. x

@Call-Me-Sam

Жыл бұрын

Thank you.

Your soul will heal. It may take lifetimes but it will heal at its pace. Whatever was taken from you will find its way back to you.. be it peace of mind, a healed body or good things in life. Just give it time and believe that you deserve good things in life because you are a good person and you deserve it.

@Call-Me-Sam

9 ай бұрын

Thank you so much, yes, I am beginning to believe and change is now happening .

Yes we're not meant to be alone Sam, our brains are wired for attachment but when in our everyday life attachment means danger then our ability to attach which comes natural is broken...we become avoidant or anxious instead of secure. I think understanding our attachment styles can help us get to a place back to connection and secure attachment...

@Call-Me-Sam

3 ай бұрын

Thank you, yes, I agree.

I have been away for a bit... I need to catch up on some of your past videos. It was great to hear you read a poem again. It is true, we are not meant to do this alone. what that means in terms of our relationships with other people is different for each of us, but the Divine is always ready and present.

@Call-Me-Sam

Жыл бұрын

Thank you Phillip. Yes, so true.

you have all our love and all our support. ❤

@Call-Me-Sam

Жыл бұрын

Thank you

Sending you love.

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Germaine Greer in the female eunuch, if memory serves, said we think security comes from material things but in actual fact it generates insecurity and a fear of the loss of those things.

@Call-Me-Sam

Жыл бұрын

Definitely so. Thanks Tish

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Hi Sam. At the most fundamental level of our being, the flesh opposes the spirit, and the spirit opposes the flesh. We construct a God in the image of our wants, of our things, of our desires, of our 'lost innocence', a god of created things, or, a god of lust for the possession of the flesh of other's. As though identity and being were commodities to be attained and restored, and treasured - portals, through which to walk out, a livable life. The Spirit, however, tells us that our greatest fall, our most insidious decrepitation, began not in our own flesh. We are not, a paradise lost. But, in a garden far more ancient, where man and a woman disordered future generations through their pursuit of flesh - all that which can be gained, without God. That is where defilement first toxified our experience, where malformity of the mind, the will, the soul, and body first boarded our collective transport and steered us into these rocks. We all bear an inherited unsoundness, which no loving hand of flesh could soothe at our cradle, no father could rebuild through the succour of his kind strength. Fallen is the seed of Adam, fallen, not to the god of our own being, or to our self-image, or to our potentiality, or to our prideful entitlement as sons of the earth, but fallen from God, from the beginning, when the bud of relational glory was snipped from the vine and the roots of all our trees drank from the soily grime instead of the pure waters of The river of God's love and God's Spirit. As the scripture says, all fall short, all have turned away. Eden is not the inception of our exhistance into this world, awaiting to be spoilt and sullied. We are already bruised, already broken, already malcontent and maddened, shaking our fists in the air, desiring the fulfilment of the flesh, and not the Spirit. And then God himself, Jesus, takes on flesh and bearing an authority greater than Adam, drives it, nailed and blooded into the earth to its death, to bring an end to Adam's scourge, and in its place, raises the body, into new life , raises the soul to live in the relationship, love and acceptance of God. Christ becomes the true and good vine in which we find our life, in which we find the hope of restoration, in which our souls are satisfied. We find ourselves grafted into the eternal one and realise that we believe what God has done and believe in the love he has for us. We discover that we are inheritors, not of slavery and servitude to sinful flesh, but willingly captive to surrender our measly loaves and few fish to the king and shepherd of our soul, and he, multiplies, not to the hankering for fleshly feasting from a crock of self, but from the wellspring of his own being, within us, by his Spirit, and not from the agency of our own fleshly capacity or fluctuating sense of wholeness. We find ourselves grafted into a better vine, from a more enduring seed that was prepared in the soil of the true paradise, which is the life and union within God. Attend to the true vine, my brother. Much love, Guy.

@Call-Me-Sam

Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much.

@melindalemmon2149

10 ай бұрын

Sin is a heart matter, not a material inheritance, tranferred in the sperm as you and Calvin teach. We are not responsible or held accountable for the sin of another man.

@Encourage1another777

10 ай бұрын

@melindalemmon2149 Hi there! It's both a propensity to willingly live according to flesh and to do its deeds. The flesh finds its life in fulfilling the desires and performing the actions that express independence from God. The nature and the deeds are inseparable, even as God's divine nature can not be divided from His righteousness. Have a blessed day.

I've sent you a mail - can you let me know if you've received it? 🙃 Thank you very much, in advance ❤

@Call-Me-Sam

Жыл бұрын

Got it. Thank you.

I needed to hear this today. 🥲 ❤️ Thank you. ☺️