What people dont inderstand is telling people makes it worse. They wanna lock you down. They wanna force you to talk to an apathetic therapist. Law enforcement gets involved. You tell people that matter to you, and because they feel powerless, they pass it off to people who you dont mattet to.

I saw citizen soldier play a live concert. It was awesome. Now they are playing in their very first festival in Florida in may 2024. It’s so cool to see how far they have come from a small band to playing on festival stages. The lead singer jake was amazing as well.

7:52 - you didn't focus carefully enough because you just paused right as it began, and continued in the middle of it right after you finished speaking your mind. In the background, Jake vocal-roleplayed as a doctor and asking a person on the ICU bed "Hey kid, are you okay?". Thst's very powerful stuff, simple and yet effective

@zedsdead6969

8 ай бұрын

It irritates me when reactors do things like this.

As you can see in my picture. This song hit to deep. January 18th of this year I was at the end, and took a scalpel to my own throat ear to ear. I died twice in my car. God woke me up, I was able to dig in and pinch off my carotid and make the call to 911. God saved me that day. And anyone who needs to reach out, I’m here, we are all here

@XlissueslXgaming

2 ай бұрын

Glad your still here with us brotha!!!

I thought that this part - "A million prayers, not even one reply" had to do something with "So you took it out of God's hands and into yours"

I said this on their Instagram post when they posted about this song, but I truly believe this song is one of if not my favorite song they've ever made because it hits so close to home. I hope they never stop making making music like this to help people like me and countless others

It was this band citizen soldier who had brought out all my feelings into music because before I heard this band I’ve been nothing I was no one I lived as a no one I wasn’t loved I wasn’t cared for every times I thought I met someone I was thrown to the ground and pulled by my hair and told I’m shit it was years like this I wasn’t found as a person but if I died how could anyone ever miss me how could anyone love this piece of trash I’m nothing but dumpster fire I’m nothing I am nothing I have more cuts that are self inflicted because through all the years of school I was judged I was laughed at I was spat on I was getting rocks thrown at me people would trip me down stairs and they would try to hurt me I had kids in my class spray paint my locker it said I’m nothing but trash and I should die I’m not worth living I was told that everyday I don’t even think God is willing to help I used to think God heard my yells I thought Jesus heard the blood drop out of my wrists but I guess I’m wrong I’ve been to a hospital so many times I have been in and out of RCFs for years and it still never helped am I blind or is my life a burden for all those around me

This song hits really really hard… ❤

“ we’re gonna have some fun today!” Me:….. yeah no, you’re gonna be crying at the end of this But all jokes aside, CS has been I listened to weight of the world all those years ago. They put every feeling I have into words and make me feel not alone Now I wear my SH scars like tattoos

This is one of my favorites, if not my favorite of your reactions I’ve ever seen my friend. 💕 you and Citizen Soldier never disappoint. So thankful you introduced me to them.

Please listen to this man. Dont ever give up your fight. I hate seeing people down in this dark abyss with me... maybe its late for me. But i want others to know, that you are worth more than you may ever think. Your life is endlessly important. Please dont fall as far as me.. no body deserves that. Keep your head up, you are amazing and you are loved. Dont let me see you down here with me, i will hold your hand and lead you out. Its not too late for you. Take care everyone. There is always someone there for you. 💜

@BirdmansPlace

3 ай бұрын

It is not too late for you....just like it's not too late for any of us. God has a plan for each and every one of us, and a purpose. Your purpose is not completed yet. You have more to do here, my friend.

@BrutalBrandan

3 ай бұрын

@@BirdmansPlace Thank you. It truly means a lot that you took the time to answer. Sometimes, that's all someone needs when nobody else will listen. That leads them shutting down, giving up, and stop trying. I've been in that spot for a very long time. I did see your reply when you first sent it. That night was crashing fast. The weight almost crumbled me. You have no idea what you did that night just taking the time. I really needed it... At times, that's all it takes to save someone. Truly, thank you...

My best friend since 1st grade saved my life

My current reality, but got no one. This song is where I am😢

Much love to ya from Michigan, man. Their songs really make me want to cry due to losing my father to his own hands June 7th, 2007. I advocate for those who are suffering with mental illnesses, and I pray that people can see that they are worth it. CS is such an amazing band.

This is my first time watching one of your reactions… you do a great job you have a follower in me now. Keep up the great work

I died and God brought me back. This song hit hard. Please let others know they are loved.❤❤❤

@Bestgamer_45

8 ай бұрын

Wow I’m glad the lord saved you.

@bobbitrivette5873

8 ай бұрын

@@Bestgamer_45 Thank you. I truly am blessed.

@Bozo1992

3 ай бұрын

So fuck the doctors right?

@bobbitrivette5873

3 ай бұрын

@@Bozo1992 I see a therapist on a regular now and I have a really good support system. Just find what works for you. Nobody ever needs to feel unwanted or unworthy of life.

@Bozo1992

3 ай бұрын

@@bobbitrivette5873 I agree ..but didn't the doctors bring you backi know when I almost died 2 times a year for 5 years because of kidney failure it was the doctors that did it

I would like to say that as someone who feels this way constantly, it’s hard to reach out even though you know that someone does care because it becomes a cycle. I’ve tried to reach out to people especially the ones that have been there I get told that like I can’t do that. It’s mainly my teachers I talk to. But I have absolutely no family I feel safe with. And so I’ll hold it in and it crushes me so I just don’t see how I’m supposed to reach out.

This brought tears to my eyes. You still gotta upload my citizen soldier song Therapy you recorded

Amen brother amen

I'm proud to be at the birdmansplace

Even if we tell people what's going on in our heads, we get a lecture, told just pray, or Bi-polar isn't real, or my absolute favorite that has been said to me "you have Bi-polar because you're a Heathen and turned your back on God, if you just repent it will go away"

@codiebranch5501

8 ай бұрын

Dang, you just perfectly described it... There's nobody to talk to because we end up getting shamed when it's all said and done.

@WizardPandora

8 ай бұрын

@@codiebranch5501 this was my request for Nov

@ShaynePlayzGamez

8 ай бұрын

I don't agree with what birdman said when No is an answer if you're hurting to the point of ending your life and you're praying asking and even begging God for help and guidance to just be told No by him just tells people asking for the help that they aren't worth it

@ShaynePlayzGamez

8 ай бұрын

No one understands what you're going through other than you it's sad but no one can help you because no one truly understands what's wrong with you that's the problem with people telling you to call someone or talk to someone that doesn't help in reality it just makes it worse

@billnyethescienceguy7938

6 ай бұрын

I had a similar experience I've been depressed my whole life to the point it turned to rage in my school years and I fought often and they only ever focused on the behavior and how to punish it not why I'm acting that way even counselors thought the same even though they're meant to be there to help me understand my emotions but they didn't all they'd is say stuff like "you won't get anywhere being like this you better grow up you're a smart kid don't waste your talents" and other such similar things. When I was in my freshman year of high school I suddenly stopped being able to feel the rage I constantly had and then I finally understood where the rage came from I first tried a therapist through a school program but all the therapist did was talk about themselves so I kinda gave up for a bit and thankfully my mother saw me declining mentally rapidly to almost a point of no return so she tried to set me up with a full therapist, but the wait list was 2 years so we just canceled it after I convinced my mom I was fine and its just a little depressive funk and ill bounce back which was a lie. I then a good bit later attempted suicide by overdose and succeeded I was dead for 3 hours and in a coma for a day my mother then had the choice to either put me in a psych ward er or just the regular ER and thankfully she put me in the regular because honestly, I think a psych ward would ruin me mentally worse. When I woke up all I could do was sit silently and stare at the walls and roof and just let all my thoughts spiral in my head.. I spent a week in the ICU and a bit more in the lower level of hospital care, I forgot my bad(I got rhabdomyolysis, as well as I, was on the verge of total organ failure for a bit doctors say it was a miracle I'm alive idk if it was something divine or whatever but all I know is saw the people hurt by my death and I know I cant never do that again also my body somehow ended up being perfectly fine if you care btw). During that time two psychology teams came in one was for adults and the other was for minors(I was 17 at the time) came in I believe the adult team said I have BPD (I can't even have that as a minor but ok) then the pediatric team said I have psychotic depression. obviously, none of them listened to me because what I was describing was I was seeing things that weren't really there hearing voices seeing static images move as well as delusions that I was actually dead and that god sent me to hell and my hell was just continuing to live and a few other symptoms. When a new therapy and psychology place opened up near me they luckily accepted my mother's insurance and since it had just opened no waiting list. within the first session with my psychologist after a few tests and a bit of talk of general life as well as symptoms she instantly told me "You're probably on the schizophrenia spectrum something like schizo-affective depressive type or bipolar type" right after she explained to me it all makes sense considering what's been happening. The odd thing about schizophrenia is it has a very different I guess id say the public perception of it is that we're someone to avoid someone so insane they could hurt you at any moment and I don't blame them honestly every news article including schizophrenia in it goes along the lines of "schizophrenic person murders blank" so there's nothing but media about schizophrenia that just make us look like monsters unless you actually search and research but most people don't care. There are also the people who glorify having schizophrenia like people on the internet who call themselves "schizos" and pretend to act like what the stereotype of a schizophrenic is, this particular thing is just so jarring to me not only do most of them do like actually bad things and use the excuse I'm a schizo despite not being one and just make everyone worse, why would you want this schizophrenia is suffering its literally like your minds releasing its own hell. I wish I could look at something and my first thought is not "Am I hallucinating this?" I wish I could go to big crowds without getting so paranoid that all my symptoms increase drastically in intensity I wish I could go to sleep without voices berating me all night I wish I could talk to my mom without paranoia or without wondering if she's a hallucination I wish I could work a job and actually be a member of society schizophrenia has taken so much away from me I just don't get why someone would even pretend or imitate this hell I only deal with it because I have no choice. It hurts too because due to all these people faking schizophrenia when I tell people I'm schizophrenic(technically I'm schizoaffective bipolar type which is pretty much schizophrenia and I can't remember the specific type it was it is either type 1 or 2 bipolar DOUBLE WHAMMY) they either think I'm some monster to avoid or they think I'm lying I've even had to show paperwork. And listen I'm schizophrenic and I find schizophrenia jokes funny sometimes but please genuinely quit making it your whole identity(saying this in general, not the person I'm replying to you seem like an amazing person). To you, it might just be a joke but since there are so few schizophrenics in the world your actions now represent us all and, to be honest, a lot of y'all ain't representing us well plus making a mental illness your whole personality is weird and no one thinks your cool because of it people probably actually think your kinda weird. it's been 2 years since my od almost 3 soon and honestly, things haven't gotten much better but at least now I have a support system. All my life people never listened or tried to help but always keep trying to find someone who will it's worth it, I care about you and I bet others do too when I od'd I thought no one would care but when I woke up I saw my friends in pain one disassociating due to the news some crying and even some in denial my mother was hurt even worse she didn't wanna cry infront of me in the hospital bed but I could tell in her eyes she was terrified happy and probably wondering what she could have done to prevent this as with anyone whos around after you commit suicide even if you survive and too my biggest surprise people I rarely talked and even people I only talked to once where posting about rip me they'll miss me some of them were even crying and the one that hit the hardest was something along the lines Rip ill miss him I wish I spoke to him more so maybe i coulda helped prevent this. I also understand if you're tired of life honestly I am too but I can't give up not for some cliche reason like tomorrow will be better or whatever no it's because even though I survived the pain and the scars I caused to those who care about still stick around and I can't imagine what they'd feel if I really did die I may be tired and I may be weary from the journey of life but for those I care about and also care about me I must march forward no matter what. sorry for the rant just felt like a proper place to put a rant like this. Also random side note the quiet voice of the doctor saying "Hey kid, are you okay?" every time I hear it I shudder because that's one of the first thing i think a doctor or a nurse asked my memories a bit fuzzy they also asked me what did I take and how much and told me everything going to be alright now. Also couldn't have made this far without my friends and family thank you so much

Hey bird man this is the only band that actually knows how and what I’m feeling every waking moment to every end of every day

This song helped me my friends take advantage of me and my friend constantly reminds me that my brother is dead I used to self harm have not for like a year and half and sometimes I’m ok and sometimes I’m on the edge and scared to ask how close I am to falling

It's not as easy as you think to reach out for help. It's not easy at all. It's never easy

That is ptsd in a nut shell people just don’t understand and especially when you were severely abused and special needs but when u do go for help u are told u are just behaving like that for attention

You should hear Chasing your ghost by Citizen Soldier

I've been trying for as long as I can remember to end it. I've tried more times than I care to admit, in just about every manner I could think of. My wife has to keep a close eye on me because she knows I want out of this world. Once I'm finally nothing more than a rotting corpse I'll have the peace I have always wanted.

@user-hb4yc5tr6m

8 ай бұрын

UwU

And for ever death there is always two victims the decadent and the people left in the wake

See i tried talking to my wife about my problems i was shrugged off and told that im a baby and that my kids were emotionally stronger then me, and i need to suck it up cause im a guy, then days later hit with divorce papers because my wife needs q grown man, not an emotionally depressed child

I am atheist. I love the songs but I hate when people talk about how "god saved them" or worse that "god will save me" or whatever cuz I don't want to criticize them for bringing their religion into that, it's there for them after all, but at the same time... it just feels like people are using my problems as an excuse to try and convert me or put the blame on me. Like helping me is secondary to making me a believer. Like believing would somehow fix me. So please. These songs aren't written for a cristian audience only. Please don't make everything a debate about belief. Or if you do, then mention it (in the title idk) It's ever so slightly triggering. If your religion is about love, I think respect is necessary, which also means to respect it when people don't want you to associate their struggles with a higher being. Do not tell us that "even if you don't believe in him he believes in you" or that we should ask god for help. All that does is belittle us. That is not respect or love, it's condescension. Leave it at "not everyone believes in god" feel free to say that you found that in god and in your faith. But DO NOT try to bring your god into everyone else's lives. I hope you read this and it helps you see another viewpoint. I do believe you have no ill intentions. But you are under the misconception that "he believes in you even if you don't believe in him" is ok to say which it isn't. It is overbearing.

The thing is, you can pray all you want, but if you are not listening to God, it won't help. Plus, your prayers aren't always answered right away. It's in God's time, not yours. Ever since I came back to Jesus and really listened to Him, my life has changed by heaps and bounds. Without Him directing me towards Citizen Soldier, I would not be alive today.

I'm an ex -christian and while i know they might seem like christian songs, these songs are written as a recovery from religious abuse 'a million prayers not even one reply' and 'take it out of gods hands and into yours' are talking about instead of sitting by waiting for someone to stop the abuse, standing up for yourself in the stead of a third party. It's kind of being used as symbolism.

@Someone-dv7hw

4 ай бұрын

I am atheist from the start. Have been raised as such. I love the songs but I hate when people talk about how "god saved them" or whatever cuz I don't want to criticize them for bringing their religion into that, it's there for them after all, but at the same time... it just feels like people are using my problems as an excuse to try and convert me or put the blame on me. Like helping me is secondary to making me a believer. Like believing would somehow fix me.

I got here to se reactions to this brilliant song. Not to get lectured about a god that (imo) doesnt exist. 🤷‍♀️ I get it, you are a strong believer and its nothing wrong with it. But the ones who are not doesnt need to hear about god loving us and shit like that. Sorry. It only works for some of you who believe in god.

@ShaynePlayzGamez

8 ай бұрын

Not only that but finding someone to help you with your struggles is nearly impossible because no one understands what's going on

@silversuperfan1412

8 ай бұрын

Yeah, it’s the one thing I don’t like about watching his reaction to CS. Maybe, someone should recommend CS’s good enough for god song.

@makaylabby017

8 ай бұрын

God is very much real and he loves u!

@silversuperfan1412

8 ай бұрын

@@makaylabby017 First of all, how do you know that? And please don't say a physical item that humans created/wrote themselves. Second, I'd like to share with you some questions of mine that I can't wrap my head around that I would like definitive answers on: Why do people succeed in suicide after a life of struggles and/or emptiness? Their purpose in life was to live with horrible memories and/or little to no support system? Then end their lives when all they wanted was to be happy and all they received was pain? Why do some people die unhappy with what they have accomplished despite there is apparently a path set for them that is is supposed to make you happy or feel fulfilled (if you love someone, you want them happy, I would assume)? The laid out pathway for them was to live an empty life and die? Why do people end up in horrible living situations since birth and die of things like diseases and infections before they are even an adult? Why do babies die before they even had the chance to LIVE life? Is their path to die and only be an obstacle that the parents need to face? Or if they died because of abusive parents, what were they supposed to accomplish for themselves by then? ---------- It's great that you believe in god and it brings you joy and purpose but it's kind of annoying hearing the same thing being preached. Once I hear/read those words, I think: great, this (video/person/etc) is going to have the word god brought up every 30 seconds and no room for those of us who don't believe in god. God isn't enough for some of us. God doesn't have much meaning to some of us. Please, give us the chance to exist, feel acknowledged, and reassured as well. (By the way, your comment wasn't the one that really set me off. It was just the frustrations of all videos I've seen like this combined and I just dumped it all for the first time in response to your comment. Sorry.)

@makaylabby017

8 ай бұрын

@@silversuperfan1412 it's okie!! I understand where ur coming from I've had doubt too everyone does but think of it like this sometimes things happen but it just life it doesn't have anything to do with God but killing and all that bad stuff evil stuff is of the devil. Honestly I've dealt with suicide thoughts still do. But I remind myself God is there for me which God has protected my family and helped me he loves everyone. Also u don't gotta apologize we all have different opinions and stuff but this guy just wanted to share God with people and that they aren't alone cause God is there even if u can't feel him or hear him.

I don't get the feels from this song and definitely not from this reaction.

if you havent you should react to the song citizen soldier did with le spirit