Chapter 2

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  • @stugolightly1983
    @stugolightly19832 ай бұрын

    There is an old Chinese saying that the best time to plant a tree is 10 years ago, the second best time is today. I don’t think the soil would have been rich enough 10 years ago. There certainly wasn’t KZread. You are reaching the people you were born to reach. You are an inspiration, and possibly the greatest fucking musician I have ever heard.

  • @annasaunders2167

    @annasaunders2167

    2 ай бұрын

    Ren has brought so many incredible people together , and you fellow Renegade are one of them. Loved your message 😋!!

  • @stugolightly1983

    @stugolightly1983

    2 ай бұрын

    @@annasaunders2167 thank you. It’s a wonderful community that want to build each other up and support each other. That’s what I take from it that is.

  • @megaemz5901

    @megaemz5901

    2 ай бұрын

    🙂

  • @ashbii7632
    @ashbii76322 ай бұрын

    The amount of bravery it takes to do something like this is astronomical. You sir, are a brave soul. Sending love and light.

  • @mariaweaver5650
    @mariaweaver56502 ай бұрын

    As much as I (we) adore you, Ren, please know you owe me (us) nothing. In fact, those of us in your orbit would be hard pressed to pay you back for all the good things you've done for us by merely existing. You are a balm to my soul. To our souls. Wish we could pour back into you so that you're never depleted again.

  • @JoniMarie85

    @JoniMarie85

    2 ай бұрын

    I love this whole comment ❤️❤️

  • @TijdelijkKanaalA2
    @TijdelijkKanaalA22 ай бұрын

    If you think you cant do anything, think about this man. He is a real, real MAN! Respect for this young fellow here!

  • @jacqui114

    @jacqui114

    2 ай бұрын

    Hes One strong Dude man ❤

  • @TijdelijkKanaalA2

    @TijdelijkKanaalA2

    2 ай бұрын

    @@jacqui114facts❤

  • @kellyt5341

    @kellyt5341

    2 ай бұрын

    This is 💯

  • @lisayoung4987

    @lisayoung4987

    2 ай бұрын

    Ren thank you for Sharing all thT you have. You are a Strong Man that was Formed by so much Pain in Every Aspect and Now I know I am Not Alone. ❤

  • @debbiesaunders1815

    @debbiesaunders1815

    2 ай бұрын

    I completely agree REN is every bit a man, a real man!!! I love him and what he represents xx

  • @AprilJMoon
    @AprilJMoon2 ай бұрын

    The story of Ren is getting more complex and wonderful. Ren the musician is so diverse and multitalented that he is all genres. Ren the lyricist is truly exceptional. Ren the storyteller is a cut above. Ren the therapist many of us didn't know we needed. And Ren the man.. .. .. .. ..

  • @lowertheshield

    @lowertheshield

    2 ай бұрын

    What if this story has always been complex? Ren is metering the telling of the story and many of its complexities. Are any of our lives any less complex and interesting and at times painful

  • @user-sr2nc9ge1d
    @user-sr2nc9ge1d2 ай бұрын

    I'm nearly 50. I've dealt with invisible illness since college... was told I was lazy, depressed, just needed to drink more water, eat more salt... anywho, I'm not here to share a story so many commenters probably know too well. I just want to say thank you, Ren. Thank you for giving a voice to this... to all of us who have been labeled lazy, or depressed, or... and if anyone has a voice that can capture people's attention, it's yours, Ren... thank you. I no longer feel alone & I hope anyone else who has felt unseen, unheard because of some unidentifiable underlying illness, I hope you know that you're seen & you're heard by me, by Ren, by the others in this community. Much love to all of you. May we all thrive in the not so distant future. I love you all💚

  • @rachelcarter5282

    @rachelcarter5282

    2 ай бұрын

    I’m 51 and was going to write this exact thing! I love you and I love Ren too💕✨💕 we finally have a voice💕✨💕

  • @Absolutelyfabulous1

    @Absolutelyfabulous1

    2 ай бұрын

    Hi Cousin:) Uncle Harry was my favorite uncle:)

  • @Parula06
    @Parula062 ай бұрын

    I was hanging in there until the part about your grandmother saying, "Happy", which moved me to serious tears. Ren, thank you for sharing your life with us. You mean so much to so many, including me. Love from my heart to yours.

  • @sharronferreira6420

    @sharronferreira6420

    2 ай бұрын

    Me as well! I messed the live as it was early hours Perth time here in Aus. So glad I’m watching this in the early hours while the household still sleeps.

  • @raymondmanning5555

    @raymondmanning5555

    2 ай бұрын

    That part got to me as well. I said good bye to my father yesterday and it was very sad yet peaceful at the same time. I was stroking his forehead and telling him how much I loved him as he passed.

  • @brigittebisier495

    @brigittebisier495

    2 ай бұрын

    @raymondmanning5555 What a wonderful way to say goodbye. May he rest in peace

  • @raymondmanning5555

    @raymondmanning5555

    2 ай бұрын

    @@brigittebisier495 .. thank you

  • @BONES-xh3kz

    @BONES-xh3kz

    Ай бұрын

    The part where he said he finally got to say goodbye for the first time got to me as I have several loved ones I never got to say goodbye to

  • @RK-ei6ym
    @RK-ei6ym2 ай бұрын

    I am someone who is not easily swayed, bit blasé about things but there is something about Ren that is so special, endearing, believable, real that you just get wrapped up in everything that he says and does and just crave his next offering. There is something so special about him, he deserves every success but more importantly he deserves to be well and happy and I hope that all the amazing gifts he keeps giving to us, helps him to achieve this. Top bloke Ren, thank you for being you

  • @divastatus863

    @divastatus863

    2 ай бұрын

    Couldn't agree more fam he's the best artist man he has drawn me in so deep & I can't get out every day I have to listen to him every day I get chills all of the time 😤🙏❗

  • @Myself_Official
    @Myself_Official2 ай бұрын

    Autoimmune disease, six years without treatment, several doctors, misdiagnosed with mental illness, one simple blood test. It is so unbelievable to me how much I can relate to your story. Thanks so much. Edit: I had undiagnosed Rheumatoid Arthritis from ages 9-15.

  • @thegingermenace8593

    @thegingermenace8593

    2 ай бұрын

    I think it's even more crazy how many of us are out here! He is telling his story. But we still have ours. Which is why he's telling it because he knows there are a lot of people who can relate. ❤ hugs!

  • @Laurasings87

    @Laurasings87

    2 ай бұрын

    me too, Lyme disease undiagnosed for several years , ren Is my musical hero and Lyme hero

  • @bobbycollins6783

    @bobbycollins6783

    2 ай бұрын

    There's a good documentary on KZread on the D W Documentary channel called Lyme disease and the fight for recognition. Worth watching for anyone who wants to know more what it's like for someone who has it. They talk to people who are suffering from it and their struggles with it.

  • @carynmartin6053

    @carynmartin6053

    2 ай бұрын

    Justin Rhodes has a yt channel about homesteading and both he and his wife have been battling Lyme disease for years!

  • @alisharhc

    @alisharhc

    2 ай бұрын

    ​@@Laurasings87 my Lyme disease was caught right away but it was back when they were convinced 10 days of doxycycline would cure it and all of my symptoms were just in my head. I've lived with it for so long I don't remember life before it.

  • @SofaSpud_
    @SofaSpud_2 ай бұрын

    Take note people. An artist like Ren only comes about once in a generation. EVERY SINGLE genre he decides to choose on any given day, he bosses that sh!t. I'm so glad the eyes of the industry and the right influential people are starting to take notice. But I know without a shadow of doubt he'll never forget his fans. This guy IS THE man.

  • @nadianoelcontreras1529

    @nadianoelcontreras1529

    2 ай бұрын

    No it offends sincerely I'm just saying that you know this is something that causes the rejection of self the rejection of others to continue. Of course this is my own expression of this which doesn't have to be wrong or right or in any competition of any sort. Not even at all however this in itself is that connection the same thing that Serendipity or synchronicity or resonance comfort inn being able to breathe and not feel like there's no way but into the madness. And feeling forced to be stuck inside of a name a diagnosis or any other compartmentalization whether it be any of what's previously mentioned but throughout a limitless abyss of epic poetry and limiting myself is in fact more easy to remain but only by the long-term education of inability to simply be me and for others to be them without need to reject or dismiss or any of those other types of statements or descriptions for diagnosis so on and so forth. These things cause bullying and neglect and abuse physical non-physical if there is a separation of any of that truly I don't feel good about there being need for that but yet then there's the feeling like where is it that I fit in?? And then again finding accidentally on purpose these moments of relief moments that help that inner ignition continue. Whether or not it's pudding song poetry if it's through just existence as is all that is in the brilliance of which says we exist and without Speck and that's a measurement in which where I might have limited verbiage at this particular moment but eventually this may seem like rambling or manic or madness and then again quite frankly it becomes a opportunity for that vulnerable and the magnetic pole to trigger someone to say something rejectable but yet even that I get, I get it end beginning belonging being under pressure not enough pressure being measured language and and then having to discover there is that scream like for my life metaphorically maybe but even that would imply that there was not actual reality to it but then reality that it exists and nothing in a metaphorical form who says its existence take snow second no first no number of measurement that causes that desperationthat brings us together because it's the language you're speaking and if we can say it like it's something that other people are recognizing and in fact being unable to say it another way but still it is acknowledgment of the recognition just by simply knowing and not taking and seeing where that is and what that is comes with all these things and learning what blessings in disguise actually really mean that there is something beyond the the shallow Halo definition or getting a word spelled correctly ET cetera. Just like the word gratitude, it's an experience really and I obviously wasn't assuming really in the full weight is there a full that would be like all that is and then having a limit to. This could be considered symptoms of which we all share symptoms of something called sick does sic mean more can it will it won't it know it find that Oneness that voice that expression it's it says all partaking in it. And therefore the joy in that is so beyond words we're convincing what one says to be of something separate or not the same or not relatable or resonant or bridging the Gap of which language that we speak and being limited is with purpose it has even more purposes I understand more of now. There's there's a desperate scream someone to hear me side of myself and Ignoring myself and not limiting it to said mentioned here but just to share with you where neither any of us need to be forced to disappear because of what happens to be a language connection that we all speak in synchronicity

  • @nadianoelcontreras1529

    @nadianoelcontreras1529

    2 ай бұрын

    I apologize for the text mishap it looks like I said no and whatever I talk into my phone because the other is way too frustrating. End quite honestly the the way in which I put it into this apparatus doesn't change from whether or not it's face-to-face or through outer space. But when I just had clicked to post this in response to you and your comment and inevitably to myself, I immediately had to come right back here and apologize for the misprint so to speak of the first couple of words which can cause things to be lost in translation. And that's an understatement for sure absolutely not an absolution of which cannot be also the solution and part of the problem part of the solution and no rejection comes without purgatory in the Trainwreck of brilliance insoles retribution, soul, instead of deleting and retyping which may happen anyways perhaps I'm just writing it through and talking it out in hopes to absorb it back in and the multi-dimensional contribution. It's always been a thing to feel others and yet I never really realized how that has caused a despair yet a accidentally on purpose finding moments like this where it's synchronous, it's serendipitous it's Magic it's a Time clock so to speak it's grounding it's like a hug yet then again is it it's all of it inevitably being rejected and then having this trigger where people have felt the need to respond telling me that I make no sense whatsoever end in a form of bullying whatever the compartment needs to be it's not at all separate from yourself. Although I get it quite sincerely when sometimes that can cause someone to reject that connection and there once again I find I should be used to this and I believe that's where it's been that's kept me hanging on until I'm 47 the blink or two multi-dimensional having an episode or so how much like I'm part of that pinball machine freak show sensitivity the gifts of vulnerability. The compelling response to comfort to help assist someone who I feel even more than of themselves than they do and where does that bring it, there's always this Continuum of reject accountability humility dramatic poetic Justice and a teacher and the student and the child and the adult and the parent and the dream and nightmare and equilibrium what is in the mirror smiling back or rejecting again bullying self and therefore the same towards those that I believe somehow there is a difference or separation but yet it's not the case. It's not just that not knowing and feeling where I fit but also I know how many more places that I do resonate and therefore have that camaraderie and that family of which the cosmic badassarry! It's the you that is me and the me that is you. Which there is no words I know to come and express the experience of you and them and they and us and me and we, since it seems like I'm sort of rhyming I should probably go ahead and use the restroom before I f*** around and find out and forget where to pee. LMFAO. Don't mistake the laughter for a complete joke and fantasy it's still true and if you know what it means to get a nervous laugh, and if not yet that's only because of the moment the glimpse the recognition that is not just through the windows of the eyes to see there's a language multi-dimensional and Magic glittery

  • @dimitrasotirakoglou2553
    @dimitrasotirakoglou25532 ай бұрын

    That takes serious balls to say these things out loud You're a brave soul Thank you ❤

  • @BrunoBarata78

    @BrunoBarata78

    2 ай бұрын

    My thoughts exactly when I heard Hi Ren for the first time.

  • @TalaAtTanagra
    @TalaAtTanagra2 ай бұрын

    Ren. I have severe MEcfs. I wasn't sure I could watch this one - thought it'd be too traumatic, so I'm a little late in getting here. But thank you for being a voice for the ME community. I have severe brain fog right now, so I can't articulate what I want to say. I'll leave it with: Thank you.

  • @martinschulz-bruckner4155
    @martinschulz-bruckner41552 ай бұрын

    Thank you for not running away but telling your story instead, Ren! ❤❤❤

  • @WAITINGFORTHEWORLDTOCATCHUP
    @WAITINGFORTHEWORLDTOCATCHUP2 ай бұрын

    The courage, determination, persistence, hope, love, insecurities, all of the things that make up a true human being that desires nothing but fairness, happiness & love for every other human with zero validation needed…this is why we connect to him so much. Why has it been look upon as a weakness by society? I don’t get it…we all feel this way but some can’t seem to be brave enough to let it shine when it counts. When is being true to yourself gonna be appreciated and respected globally?

  • @libbywiskowski9618

    @libbywiskowski9618

    2 ай бұрын

    This is the question I have yet to find an answer. It doesn't have to be this way, ppl missing out on tools that help you live a good quality of life. This is the impact of what a very long and harsh journey to be on esp when you don't have answers to the other things also such as health issues, financial barriers, socioeconomic environments/barriers. Qualifications of insert disability comorbidity of choice here to obtain such assistance or mobility ect device/service or program. can't we just say we need help w said issue- and if that issue is something that entity doesn't know the answer perhaps it would be more helpful to not double down, admit you don't know but say if possible we will find the answers together. This is not my healthcare system experience and I also worked in it to only be excluded from the care I also have learned from. Befuddles me to no end.

  • @kittyyaya1
    @kittyyaya1Ай бұрын

    Sir, I cannot tell how completely the American Healthcare system completely broke my mother's body AND sprit. I hope things are getting better for you.

  • @Tinkerbell9332
    @Tinkerbell93322 ай бұрын

    Ren you are an incredibly brave person for putting yourself out there like this. A simple thank you doesn't seem like enough. I see where you are now and it makes me so happy for you! So many people here to support you! We love you Ren and never forget that! And she definitely seemed like your angel to have met her like that. That is so sweet and a sweet thing to be called! I'm glad she was there! Ren, do you feel like you're reading your own diary?

  • @kellyt5341

    @kellyt5341

    2 ай бұрын

    Love this. 🤗

  • @Tinkerbell9332

    @Tinkerbell9332

    2 ай бұрын

    @@kellyt5341 May have added and edited a bit😅

  • @kellyt5341

    @kellyt5341

    2 ай бұрын

    @@Tinkerbell9332 👌

  • @karenlackner192
    @karenlackner1922 ай бұрын

    I understand Ren’s numbness as an after affect from the death. I, too, have lost very close friends, extended family, and both my brothers in a short period of time. One was suicide, another was addiction, one brother died of alcoholism at the age of 51. My step dad died in hospice, my father-in-law from cancer. My older brother died from a blood clot at the age of 59. I was the one who found him on his couch in his home. During all this I was dealing with an illness that is a constant in my life. Dissolution of my marriage…. I’m still standing and I carry on. Ren is a bright light of hope.

  • @xystify7973
    @xystify79732 ай бұрын

    Glad to be alive at the same time as Ren. There are very few people that truly make me enjoy music - I have aphantasia and struggle being able to enjoy things I can't physically see, but Ren is able to tell a story so well that I'm able to see it in his words. It's a beautiful thing.

  • @dianesnowflake
    @dianesnowflake2 ай бұрын

    Like crabs in a barrel, that landed hard. You must take credit for your journey into health, your tenacity to find help has kept you here. That in turn has given you this platform, which you are single handedly raising awareness. Rest easier tonight, knowing you are making a difference. Thank you for sharing your pain and struggles.

  • @samnowak4843
    @samnowak4843Ай бұрын

    Your story resonates so much with me. I have spent 10 years in and out of hospital. Missed diagnosis, cancer and an autoimmune disease that could kill me, there is no cure. I’m a ticking time bomb, injecting myself twice a day in the hope my blood doesn’t decide to kill me. Hooked up to tubes every night. My friend introduced me to your music while I was having cancer treatment. 13 days after major surgery, off my head on oxycodone they piled me in a car to The Big Push, Manchester gig. The week before the Chalk gig I found out I was cancer free. I spent the weekend road tripping across the country with my best mate and daughter. Something I didn’t think I would still be alive to do, just a few months before. You signed my arm and I had it tattooed the next morning. A symbol of being alive. 2 years later in a hospital waiting room, a drip in each arm, a random girl asked is that a Ren tattoo. She has an autoimmune disease too and has been let down by the system, like we all have. You inspire so many of us without even knowing it. 213 miles away from Brighton in a random hospital room you connected 2 strangers. That is the power of your music, your story.

  • @Bidulola
    @Bidulola2 ай бұрын

    Ren, you are an Angel to a lot of People now, and thank you for that 💜

  • @timteel9733
    @timteel97332 ай бұрын

    Oh buddy, you have been through what I like to call, "life piling it on," where one person gets an entirely disproportionate amount of tragedy thrown their way. And yet, here you are, taking the time to share deeply personal memories in the hope of helping others. Here you are, making incredibly beautiful and meaningful music. I appreciate you and consider myself blessed to have found your music and your voice. In turn, I wish nothing but blessings, love, and improved health for you.

  • @lunadyana3330

    @lunadyana3330

    2 ай бұрын

    Medical neglect is a huge problem in this world, but we rarely see the face of it.

  • @yilomina2047
    @yilomina20472 ай бұрын

    Ren, I said this in the chat, but it's worth repeating - this much vulnerability is hard, but vulnerability is also the birthplace of connection. Thank you for sharing, it helps us all to feel more connected. I hope that it also helps you, you wonderful human!

  • @Jacorat
    @Jacorat2 ай бұрын

    Ren, I love that you still have a wicked sense of humour “SAD, bought myself a light. The only thing that lamp illuminated for me was that I was desperate enough to buy a glorified table lamp”. 🤣🤣🤣🤣I love you 💜 PS I was having a lesson from a car salesman today on how to use the info centre in my car. I was listening to your playlist and he said, I didn’t think you’d be into this sort of music. I’m a 70 yo female who struggles a bit with technology (I can just about cope with Facebook and KZread) hence needing his help with the sat nav and tech in my new car! I was telling him about how versatile and intuitive you are and he went away listening to Hi Ren.

  • @Neo333rising
    @Neo333risingАй бұрын

    Your description of serendipity and as if you're just walking a path that's been laid in front of you essentially is exactly the way my life has been for the last few months. It's it's always good to hear someone else say that so that I feel as if I'm still saying I'm not slowly slipping away into some delusion

  • @SpideyCat1
    @SpideyCat12 ай бұрын

    Thank you Ren....this matters I promise. Please look after yourself tho, you can't fix us all 💙💙💙

  • @MattAngiono
    @MattAngiono2 ай бұрын

    I'm sitting inside listening to Ren sing this song, and briefly walked outside to look at the sky, and a little wren was sitting on a nearby branch singing its song. Serendipity! (W)Rens make the most beautiful music!

  • @Monica-sw9ld

    @Monica-sw9ld

    2 ай бұрын

    I saw one today, too. I talked to him, of course. The animals don't seem to mind. 😊

  • @nancydenis8059
    @nancydenis80592 ай бұрын

    Peace to your heart, relief to your mind. 💙

  • @pattiburris6936
    @pattiburris69362 ай бұрын

    If I had to describe Ren in only one word (and there are so many descriptors to choose from), it would have to be... brave - bravery to endure life changing loss of soulmates, mental and physical health, a record deal of which dreams were made, a life's purpose, the ability to experience formative years in normalcy due to a mysterious malfunction left undiscovered for years. Bravery comes from guarding the seed of hope and never allowing it to shrivel and die. A seed of hope intangible, yet as real as driftwood to a drowning man in a last ditch effort to cling to a future that may nurture him to the shore. Ren is the epitome of hope borne of bravery in the cruel face of it all. It is refreshing as well as restorative to so many facing uphill battles in life. Gotta love 'im. ❤

  • @beverleyweaver587
    @beverleyweaver5872 ай бұрын

    Auto immune diseases are awful, I have a few do I know. REN is one unique guy, in his story telling, health and an all round talented artist. His music relates to everyone. Your NAN was a special person saying Happy, this put you at ease. Your Nan is right, we your fans are all happy you’ve given a voice to auto immune diseases (invisible illness) and we are not crazy, but your music is awesome

  • @kateawake
    @kateawake2 ай бұрын

    Who else would like to be in Ren`s head for 5 minutes . I imagine it like a huge library with all kinds of topics and stories you can think of. And you`ll get dizzy seeing everything. It will be a creativity overload. Better I just watch Rens videos, so I can take it.

  • @lunadyana3330

    @lunadyana3330

    2 ай бұрын

    I can easily be in his head. He and I have a lot of similarities. I doubt it's because our birthdays are a few days apart, but I get the free spirited, finding beauty hanging out in the dregs of society, thirst for knowledge parts of him because I've lived it. I don't have a musician's mind, but I have a writers mind. When I listen to him so often I'm listening to my younger self. It's really weird. Synchronicity. I know it means something good, I just don't know what yet Funny, I, too have broken chapters within my life up by the "angels" I've encountered. Each angel there when needed, each with a very different lesson. My personal narrative is punctuated by angels

  • @rebeccafountain3956

    @rebeccafountain3956

    2 ай бұрын

    I feel that this is one of those "grass ain't always greener" type scenarios! Ren has been through stuff that would break others

  • @beccasalt8960

    @beccasalt8960

    2 ай бұрын

    ​@@rebeccafountain3956 agreed, if you want to be in someone else's head you have to be willing to take it all and not just cherry pick

  • @Steph_Mystique
    @Steph_Mystique2 ай бұрын

    AUTOIMMUNE Conditions suck- You my friend do not- Thankyou for sharing awareness on these life altering conditions/diseases. You are a legend xx (TROUBLES) I have been going through medical GASLIGHTING for 15 years- I have some diagnoses but not all- waiting for thie final specialist for over 4 years now- MEDICARE_ FREE_ BUT YOU DIE MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY WHILE WAITING.... can't complain though (right?!) Love your message- you are my favourite-- CARNIVOROUS Humanitarian xx Hope is a beautiful thing and you give me at least that 😘

  • @sallybethstories.voiceartist
    @sallybethstories.voiceartist2 ай бұрын

    Love the TRICK THE FOX track. A treat to see the younger YOU. Tight band! We are privileged to hear your story like this. Brilliant idea to do this. Diolch yn fawr

  • @Hexenkind1
    @Hexenkind12 ай бұрын

    I hope you have at least some inkling how much you mean to so many people out there. Male, female and everything inbetween. And you are beautiful just by being unapologetically you. The definition of staying true to yourself. Something most people are afraid to be. I hope by your example many will come out of their shells and see that being "you" is okay. And being open and vulnerable is a healthy thing instead of bottling up every single feeling. Especially for males a very touchy subject. I am not telling you my health story right now, you get enough baggage as it is. Just know: I can idenitify myself with many things I see in you as well. Thank you again.

  • @sylv772
    @sylv7722 ай бұрын

    Many years ago, I lost someone important who died by their own hand. Three months later, there was another death, although this one was not a suicide. I went to the funeral and as I was walking to the chapel, I encountered his wife. I asked how she was feeling. She replied with anger - "How do you think I'm feeling" (fair enough). Then she recognized me and dropped her head on my shoulder and cried. (For my part, I was too numb to cry with her). For some reason, Ren's video brought back this memory. And I wondered whether this is what happens for many people when they listen to Ren and certain of his music. It is like looking at someone who knows what you're going through or have been through. These are my thoughts at least. It also helps that he is a superb musician.

  • @suzannezdrowski6520
    @suzannezdrowski65202 ай бұрын

    After 10 + years of being a victim of medical gaslighting (and I’m a nurse); I received my Lymes diagnosis by virtue of a Lyme literate physician and the Herxheimer effects. I feel like my calling and duty are to listen to those humans that enter my life - hear their pain, suffering, vague symptomatology and tell them it’s real. I believe them, share my story so that they too can get the appropriate treatment. At my worst I was wheelchair bound and writing my will, I’m mostly healthy now after 4 years of treatment with some neurological left overs. I wish you all the best. ❤

  • @lisadavenport2390
    @lisadavenport23902 ай бұрын

    Hugs to you Ren from Lisa a lyme and autoimmune warrior who is so thankful you are my voice where I had no voice 🦠💚🦠🙏🙏🙏🙏 Watching from my bed rn - I pray you keep getting better and better Know I pray for you daily

  • @jacqui114

    @jacqui114

    2 ай бұрын

    I hear your voice ❤🫂

  • @Veeliscious

    @Veeliscious

    2 ай бұрын

    Praying for You to get better too Lisa 🙏 🙌

  • @lisadavenport2390

    @lisadavenport2390

    2 ай бұрын

    @@Veeliscious Thank you so much friend.

  • @lisadavenport2390

    @lisadavenport2390

    2 ай бұрын

    @@jacqui114 Thank you 🙏

  • @lisadavenport2390

    @lisadavenport2390

    2 ай бұрын

    @@Veeliscious thank you 🙏

  • @francesdoll4039
    @francesdoll40392 ай бұрын

    Staying on point. Talking the truth that your illness brought to you. Truth does have a life of its own. And it shares life with others. This is just documentary enough to protect privacy, while sharing every brutal reality of chronic illness. I hope these chapters will be shown in medical schools in the future.

  • @Shiroar
    @Shiroar2 ай бұрын

    Thank you again. I really hope you sharing your story will cause ripples in the medical field so less people will have to deal with what you and others have gone through . It’s just horrible. On a different note… I am getting oddly curious to see which songs you will couple with the next chapters. So far they have been perfect picks. I think this is the first time I have heard you talk about Trick the Fox and your friendship with Charlie. It made the music video extra special ❤

  • @paulbuchmayer2492
    @paulbuchmayer24922 ай бұрын

    At 21 yrs, 12 of them with a severe case of Crohn's disease, which hadnt been diagnosed until I was 11, I'm really starting to lose hope. I've been throught most of the available medication, and nothing seems to work, or the side effects are too strong. I just feel left alone, no one seems to care or is even capable of understanding the daily suffering I have to bear. It's always: "Uhh you're just too sensitive", "snap out of it" etc. But this music, and the heartbreaking stories behind it, is always giving me some hope, which I desperately need at the moment. Thank you.

  • @lunadyana3330
    @lunadyana33302 ай бұрын

    What you call serendipity, I call synchronicity, but I can totally relate. I also call it "being on time," which means ending up exactly where I needed to be exactly when I needed to be there.

  • @jessbordeaux9845
    @jessbordeaux98452 ай бұрын

    How does young Ren have such a strong a voice at that age? That boi gifted...to the world. Ren, please tell me you have some bosom friends on the payroll!!!!!! Be safe you dearest boi

  • @allisonal
    @allisonal2 ай бұрын

    Not on the same scale, but I relate so much to the medical industry not taking one’s constellation of symptoms seriously and not being able to provide root-cause healing, and therefore trying to take matters into one’s own hands, with some protocols that help but probably also lots that are counterproductive. If there’s a hope of improving medicine it’s by influencing the hearts and minds of upcoming generations of medical professionals before they get set in the current ways, so thank you Ren for sharing your story.

  • @primitivedogs4638
    @primitivedogs46382 ай бұрын

    Cried. Im so happy you mentioned lyme and ME in The same sentence. ME advokate. I hoped Corona would open up for more researc. My first job was marketing Big farma. Ironic. There where mold and I got worse.

  • @kellja5012
    @kellja50122 ай бұрын

    You are an angel to a lot of people, Ren. You’re so brave to bear your soul like this. All respect and love to you

  • @LiaLynn777
    @LiaLynn7772 ай бұрын

    I have never felt more understood than in the moments watching these videos, thank you Ren. Genuinely you are doing so much good for people, i hope you know that.❤

  • @alanearle2353
    @alanearle2353Ай бұрын

    Thank you for your music & an insight into your health issues. I've spent the last. 6 months learning to walk & talk again after a brain injury. I still suffer from it today. I'm your typical 50yr old man and I normally listen to Heavy Metal music but a friend suggested you. You've helped me on my journey. Thankyou Ren

  • @daratheresa
    @daratheresa2 ай бұрын

    From the bottom of my heart, thank you for existing. I see you. ❤

  • @k1k2voyer
    @k1k2voyer2 ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your story. I honestly dont know how you do it, being so stripped bare honest and still so eloquent.

  • @eiram64btz
    @eiram64btz2 ай бұрын

    Thank you for existing

  • @elisabethforsberg9027
    @elisabethforsberg90272 ай бұрын

    I feel like a mother to you Ren,i am 68 from sweden and have seen and heard the must,that is on youtube,i have lost two girls ,one 19 years old and one inSID at home,i have a son that was born 92 he lives far from me,so often i only se him once a year,so you Are My imaginaryboy,love your talangs and mineset ,Love Elisabeth 😊

  • @JulesValente
    @JulesValente2 ай бұрын

    What is he telling his story to hit the States & get on US charts, God Bless him he's a very talented guy, his music should be on the charts in US but he should stay independent cause it will change him for the worse... We all have stories the most talented seem to hve the worst, a rough past in his case his health, Good for u Ren u survived hanging on to hope & look at the outcome,keep Shining ur music is great , ur a guy who can K*ll any genre , go K*ck Azz!! 💯 🙏 🎶

  • @nina_kai
    @nina_kai2 ай бұрын

    Your vulnerability and bravery are such a gift to us 🙏🏻 ❤ “As we let our light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence actually liberates others.” ~ Marianne Williamson

  • @RobinJusticeWoods
    @RobinJusticeWoods2 ай бұрын

    Honestly I don't think I can finish these right now. Between personal issues and having my heart broken multiple times a day watching children being burned and bombed and starved to death in Gaza while I sit helpless, WHILE THE WORLD DOES NOTHING, my heart just can't handle this right now. I love you Ren and I will finish your story one day. Just can't do it right now. I got through part 1 and 2... barely got through this one though I was crying pretty hard. I don't know how many more you have planned but I'm going to put them on hold for now. ❤️❤️❤️

  • @carlahelin5203

    @carlahelin5203

    2 ай бұрын

    (((Hugs)))

  • @Deeb390
    @Deeb3902 ай бұрын

    It feels strange to look forward to seeing the next chapter of a person’s story with so much suffering. Almost sadistic or being a voyeur. But it’s a compelling and cathartic experience that offers comfort, inspiration and understanding. It’s a brave and confronting thing to do, putting all this on paper and speaking it out loud. I’ve said it before and I will say it to my last breath. Thank you, Ren. Thank you for who you are, what you do and the enormous amount of yourself that you have shared with us. Never doubt how much you are loved, how much difference you have made to so many. I am so much in awe of you , as a person, a writer and your music and your humanity. Love you Ren. 💕

  • @CS-zb8mk
    @CS-zb8mk2 ай бұрын

    Tired of feeling sick n sick of feeling tired...keep on rocking in the "free" world.xx

  • @Suzeny1
    @Suzeny12 ай бұрын

    I suffered from the same thing. Your leg and feet jerking , it was Herxing. Its so uncomfortable and exhausting. I also would feel the symptoms of Belpasly. I went thru the same medical bullshit you did. I was bitten by an angry red ant who's home was being sprayed by roundup by my neighbor . Next day I had a very painful, swollen arm with the circular red ring. I experienced and understand what you went thru. I tried to take my life for the exact same reason you felt. My daughter found me. I was in a coma for 3 days. I am so thankful to be alive now. Lymes should be more recognized. Thankyou for your beautiful, gut wrenching story. Never stop talking and never stop singing. You do have a purpose and you are making a difference ❤

  • @kellyt5341

    @kellyt5341

    2 ай бұрын

    Wow...an ant. Also they are probably released info the wild like the ticks by "the powers that be" labs. Just look what is being done to our food and water.

  • @tapanim6576
    @tapanim65762 ай бұрын

    Lets get Troubles to number 1. Pre-order Troubles and stream it on every platform when released.

  • @Chicahcah
    @Chicahcah2 ай бұрын

    I have endometriosis which has led me to 3 surgeries, including losing my gallbladder. I also had a terrible reaction to the J&J Covid vaccine where I missed work for 2 weeks and was sick for about 3 months. The brain fog, all over weakness, headaches, and fuzzy vision was killer with no relief. I had to suffer through that experience with ridicule and hate from those around me. It’s hard having an incurable disease, even harder when you’re forced to have a medical treatment just to keep your job. The heartbreak doesn’t get better, you just get used to it. Health is the one thing you just can’t buy. My understanding of the neurological issues I suffered through was some sort of brain swelling causing pressure to my eyes. I’ve taken NAC and time to try to flush the poison out of my already compromised body. I can definitely relate to this so much! So happy that you got to say goodbye to your grandma. Mine also passed in 2018 and she had dementia so I didn’t get to say goodbye. At least I have happy memories of her. ❤ grandmas are the best!

  • @serenamizuki3960
    @serenamizuki39602 ай бұрын

    Wow I've never heard the song at the end of this video. I must have missed it somehow during all my late nights spent down the Ren rabbit hole lol. Love it. And love this man for everything he is doing for those of us who personally suffer with chronic illnesses 💜

  • @nickilee1587
    @nickilee15872 ай бұрын

    You are a bringer of hope Ren. You show us all 'How' to live better.. just by leading by example. Just by doing YOU. It gives others permission to do the same. Thankyou 🙏

  • @MykaGhostt
    @MykaGhostt2 ай бұрын

    I had a feeling I'd get hit in the heart with your life story. I knew the story of Joe would touch a sore spot, and it did; but fuck... Grandma was where I lost my composure. Mine passed earlier this year at the end of January. May we all die happy when it's our time to go ❤

  • @dancerbird76
    @dancerbird762 ай бұрын

    ‘Put my soul on show for everyone to see…… Cause even though it’s bruised, it holds such beauty….’ My favourite line of Runaway…..and you are bearing your beautiful soul to everyone. Thank you for your vulnerability, your bravery and for creating the beautiful art you do…..💜🫶

  • @bohangar-city-practice
    @bohangar-city-practice2 ай бұрын

    Gaslighting by the medics, powerful stuff, power to your search for the truth.

  • @joshdhankins
    @joshdhankins2 ай бұрын

    There really are so many people who follow your story who will look back on their hard times and think “hearing and seeing and understanding and loving Ren’s music and story was my turning point to getting to a better place”

  • @williambell6611
    @williambell66112 ай бұрын

    Ugh, yup again with the fucking crying, my partner catches me balling often while listening to Ren’s music and now even worse with these stories. He doesn’t get it, yet the trauma and mental health issues I’ve been by his side for over the last 24hrs are most definitely more in line with what Ren has gone through, I guess it my emotional response is an empathic outpouring brought on by what I’ve had to help my partner through, I’ve got my own shit, but nothing like what Ren has experienced. I keep trying to get him into Ren, I’m determined. He’s stubborn and 10yrs older than I am. Hard to get him into this type of music. BUT I REMAIN DETERMINED AND WILL PREVAIL! As always, thank you for everything you’ve brought to the world Ren.

  • @gwynethzen77
    @gwynethzen772 ай бұрын

    Ren! Emotionally devastating me again! In a cathartic way! I, too, do not fear death but fear living always as a sick person and the reality of it is so depressing. Thank you for your words. ❤

  • @jhayley72
    @jhayley722 ай бұрын

    Thank you Ren for your courage, for being willing to share your life with strangers that you don't know is a very brave thing to do. It must be very surreal having your fans wanting to know so much about you and your life especially with you being such a humble and "normal" human but so grateful that you are able to share it with us all. Thank you for that and for giving us the best music of our time ❤

  • @angelb-oo7ob
    @angelb-oo7ob2 ай бұрын

    Being told you’re ‘misremembering’ when you challenge ‘them’ still haunts me. I’m imagining your next chapter and getting to explore the adventures you never thought you’d experience. Safe travels and much love 🫂🫧🤍🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿

  • @jacqui114

    @jacqui114

    2 ай бұрын

    Much love to you 💫

  • @angelb-oo7ob

    @angelb-oo7ob

    2 ай бұрын

    @@jacqui114 🫂

  • @angelb-oo7ob

    @angelb-oo7ob

    2 ай бұрын

    @@jacqui114🤍

  • @looneybleu3688
    @looneybleu36882 ай бұрын

    That is my notification music on my phone giving me the chance to ignore. Dignity is my ringtone. You never are far away. I love you lad. That is hard for me to even type. Trust is hard. Numb is my go to with death, too. Too much of it. Nothing touches me. Oddly your music does. This is brave, what you are doing. Thank you. I am not the only odd person in the world.

  • @SudoJay
    @SudoJay2 ай бұрын

    We are like the same age and very similar life. I am one of the crabs in the bucket. But I call us suffer buddies. Healthy, fit, and suffering from "something" Me? I got too much inflammation in my body caused by my immune system attacking itself. They call it rheumtoid arthritis. Doctors got me on Methotrexate now. I even do the whole supplement thing too lol.. I think we all are suffering from poison in our food. I hope your good days stay long Ren and thank you for sharing. Be Bless 🙏

  • @rah5512
    @rah55122 ай бұрын

    My experiences though different hold such similarities. Hearing this helps me on a huge level. I thank you. I feel I am going to spontaneously combust if I don't start telling, writing speaking on my life experiences.🙏🙏🙏

  • @jenniferanderson635
    @jenniferanderson6352 ай бұрын

    What a blessing you are, Ren. ❤ I see the bravery required to tell this story and I thank you.

  • @judahoudshoorn2629
    @judahoudshoorn26292 ай бұрын

    I've observed - and I've felt - that one way trauma steals joy is by making us more aware of the suffering of the world and that we don't deserve to feel joy while others are suffering. I find your storytelling liberating. That joy, of which happiness seems to be a part, is not only possible but worthwhile and the birthright of every person. Lots of love to you!

  • @travisschaefer5286
    @travisschaefer5286Ай бұрын

    We live in a world where no one seems real. All “KZreadrs” are just characters. I hope that everyone can wrap their heads around the fact that Ren is a real man, with a real story. What a treat it is to have access to a true artist. Nothing but hope for you brother ❤ Your success is our success

  • @stevebrown9955
    @stevebrown99552 ай бұрын

    young man you tell a story like no one I know it is sad and beautiful all at the same time you bring tears to this old mans eyes i to have lost friends when it was not there time you are awesome

  • @seagull01-cp8pb
    @seagull01-cp8pb2 ай бұрын

    Thank you. Ending this with this song was wonderful.💕👍🦇

  • @ezmoneyboi
    @ezmoneyboi29 күн бұрын

    ren PLEASE, and I mean this, PLEASE. don't stop what you do. you fucking help. I know what it's like to feel so deep and so out of tune with your own self. this is purely venting. you are the shit. you are so fucking pure.

  • @Carrie_LeStrange
    @Carrie_LeStrange2 ай бұрын

    I'm a victim, sorry, survivor of medical gaslighting too, and a misdiagnosis that I felt was purely out of spite and to give me a label to make it easier to control me. I went through everything you did after that. Thankfully I've been properly diagnosed after fighting hard for over three years to challenge the misdiagnosis that made me question my entire identity and don't struggle with all of that anymore. But the trauma and resentment will be there forever. People deserve better ❤️ we need more advocacy.

  • @michellefarrell7950
    @michellefarrell795012 күн бұрын

    My FRIEND caught HIV IN 1979 SHE IS STILL ALIVE AND ONLY TAKES 1 TABLET A DAY WHEN IN THE 1979 32 TABLETS A DAY SOMETIMES MORE...YOUR MUSIC IS AMAZING WORK LOVE MICHELLE IN GLASGOW SCOTLAND

  • @shayler.kramer
    @shayler.kramer2 ай бұрын

    Respect Ren. ✊ From a small town in the heart of America. I feel you brother. And relate. Keep fighting the forces of evil. You are not the only one who made that commitment.

  • @user-pt8ux5tg6v
    @user-pt8ux5tg6v2 ай бұрын

    i have extremely bad headaches that are just always there and if i sleep more than 4 -5 hours i go into what i call a "never ending sleep cycle" I just live with it and know what to avoid. like repetitive sound and i make sure only to sleep 4 hours up to 5 a day. Nothing is bad as yours but I do understand personal hell, but i always think there are people suffering worse. Thanks for everything you do Ren and crew.

  • @jennasharp8536
    @jennasharp85362 ай бұрын

    Ever since I first watched Hi Ren the lyrics for Killing me Softly, (I prefer the Roberta Flack version, I'm old) go through my head with whatever you happen to be sharing at the moment! Strumming my pain with his fingers Singing my life with his words Killing me softly with his song Killing me softly with his song Telling my whole life with his words Killing me softly with his song... You're a mouthpiece for every single one of us that have this nightmare affliction! Thank you! Thank you, thank you, thank you! I'm 60 and can't afford any treatments or supplements, or even ibuprofen, but YOUR campaign eases my mind some that hopefully my grand children, great grandchildren, etc., will never have to know what Nana Janet went through. I don't want to die...but I don't want to be alive anymore. So many things I did, so many happy places, just make me sad now. Thank you!!!! God bless you Ren!

  • @winnythephoo
    @winnythephoo2 ай бұрын

    I have the static vision an muscles twitching I just thought those were normal Ren I absolutely love your music I have never listened to an artist so much ever

  • @Blablabla344
    @Blablabla3442 ай бұрын

    I started to cry when you talked about your grandmother. My mum died 3 years ago from cancer, but i wasnt able to say goodbye because of covid. I feel guilt to this day that i only got a chance to say goodbye to her dead body

  • @GarnetJ
    @GarnetJ2 ай бұрын

    You are a master storyteller and your story deserves to be told. You are a ray of light and hope to so many, I’m so glad angels joined you on your journey. I’ve always said I never believe in coincidences. Serendipity is a beautiful thing 💕 It could be a good idea for a song 😼 Thank you for sharing your story. I hope it brings you peace.

  • @doccops
    @doccops2 ай бұрын

    I wish I had Ren's ability to express my thoughts and describe back eloquently what an incredible human being and artist this young man in front of us is. Yes, I have a few years behind me and am not easily impressed ;)

  • @DonaldDucksRevenge
    @DonaldDucksRevenge22 күн бұрын

    I hear you and I understand. I instantly care about you. Letting us hear your story is powerful, so thanks

  • @TombHermance
    @TombHermance2 ай бұрын

    Thank you, REN for taking us through your journey. It can’t be an easy thing to do - re-living some of your life’s most painful moments. It does give us clearer context for your songs & a better understanding of you as an artist. I hope when this concludes, you’re able to close this chapter & leave a lot of this pain behind. Please know that you’ve got a mountain of love & support. You’ve made the world a better place & this is just the beginning..

  • @aimlesscruz
    @aimlesscruz2 ай бұрын

    This is already turning into the most cathartic thing Ive experienced.

  • @joanm2232
    @joanm22322 ай бұрын

    And with that Ren is off to cook up some more stuff!!! You got it my man!

  • @AaronBarnard-r5o
    @AaronBarnard-r5o8 күн бұрын

    I wish I had the words to say like you Ren. I know you humble enough and not trying to be one... But your a god damn hero! An inspiration. Nothing you do fails to amaze me and I speak for everyone when I say. Thank you! You knowledge and wisdom fills people with hope and joy. Never give up doing what you do. you right you do have a purpose and doing it amazingly with the power of kindness, words and the best out of them all music.

  • @Sofluffybunny
    @Sofluffybunny2 ай бұрын

    Last four years I have been giving up people. I'm so tired all of the angry, greedy and selfish people. Today was in my dark thoughts and I almost didnt watch this video. But I'm glad I did because after this video I cry. It was cry for happiness for the humanity that you have in yourself. The way that you speak of your loveones. It's the hope in your sad sentences. Thank you for being and sharing your humanity ❤

  • @NYandAZ
    @NYandAZ2 ай бұрын

    Trick the Fox was so AMAZING!! That’s no ordinary group of people. Each person contributed a beautifully crafted piece in the band. The things you did to just bring small glimpses of happiness or busking for treatment money. I have so much respect and love for you. I do hope that your treatments will help rid you of the twitches for good. You’re meant to be doing exactly what you are. Stay the course because it looks like you’re starting to get more glimpses of hope than you did before. Godspeed that cure. Stay strong. You have an army of true fans. 🥰

  • @johnruplinger3133
    @johnruplinger3133Ай бұрын

    calamitous times we live in, more than before. I've been through unimaginable trials; many I know too. You were meant for these days.....there is a reason behind your suffering though you may not come to see until the end. keep hope. You're not alone. (We're not alone either). You're a great story teller too -- straight telling is good telling.

  • @APawky
    @APawky2 ай бұрын

    I'm not one to tear up much like i am listening to this, but damn your ability to tell your story is amazing. I've always loved your music but this series of chapters... so touching

  • @melodyjones9532
    @melodyjones95322 ай бұрын

    REN you truly are an inspiration for us all your brave and beautiful

  • @ambroos2529
    @ambroos252921 күн бұрын

    Chapter2 respect 4 u& music.... !

  • @garyluciani1082
    @garyluciani10822 ай бұрын

    First time I've heard trick the fox. Pretty good young band. Thanks for this

  • @Viszondernaam
    @Viszondernaam8 күн бұрын

    u give hope to people to be themselves, as vulnerable and sensitive we may be. and to own that. I like it :)