"You've got your own wings now. I'm just watching from the ground." I'm about to cry, those are such beautiful words.

@crentist_the_dentist6167

3 жыл бұрын

as someone who has daddy issues, can't relate to that shit ;-;

@knox273

3 жыл бұрын

@@crentist_the_dentist6167 atleast i can relate to you ;-;

@havkost5861

3 жыл бұрын

Am literally crying ffs mr. turtle

@CarlosBenjamin

3 жыл бұрын

Even in saying he was proud, his dad demonstrated his creativity. This is certainly from where our guide drew his love of words strung together well...

@Soundy777

3 жыл бұрын

100% Onboard w/ that. Never thought I'd be take a hit to my heart by a creature whos home is also where it houses its excrement. GG mon ami.

Rip to the exurb1a fans who don't know exurb2a exists

@pyroduck

3 жыл бұрын

i just found this today and im already elated i have more im way too fucking high to be watching this but fuck it content

@dededown

3 жыл бұрын

i searched till exurb23a, pls tell if you find another channel

@blank-vw2sb

3 жыл бұрын

KZread algorithm recommends stuff bruh. Everyone knows this.

@blank-vw2sb

3 жыл бұрын

@@dededown 😂😂😂😂

@Vibranium603

Жыл бұрын

i found this today! And I'm blown.

Mom, no, I can't go outside, I have 30 minutes of existential turtle giving me a purpose in life

@sangamharsolia5069

3 жыл бұрын

You also can't go outside because of corona (until your country has been unlocked)

@darkfragtv

3 жыл бұрын

@@sangamharsolia5069 or you know.. a garden ??

@DokiPipo_

3 жыл бұрын

Also it acctualy 9 minute acctualy

@darkfragtv

3 жыл бұрын

@@DokiPipo_ yeah but 3 episodes of it so 9×3

@DokiPipo_

3 жыл бұрын

@@darkfragtv 27 minute?

_Meanwhile in the recommended section_ *You Will Never Do Anything Remarkable*

@mrprecious2228

3 жыл бұрын

xD

@mushroomcrepes4780

3 жыл бұрын

I got *World's Largest Camera Lens* :O

@theknownanonymous7856

3 жыл бұрын

*eXaCtLy*

@illusionlife9962

3 жыл бұрын

Oh, go watch it. The title is just provocative, the video basically carries the same message as this one.

@souvikmitra6161

3 жыл бұрын

@@illusionlife9962 yes exactly.

This gave me a happy, soul filling cry. I feel like this is the first proper breath I've taken in a while. Thank you.

@TehGabosh

3 жыл бұрын

I just experienced something very similar. It also involved tears of joy, but a bit different to yours I think. Actually I've had them on everyone of those three episodes. Feels so good. Thank you again, Turtle Man.

@JediCoati

3 жыл бұрын

@@TehGabosh I've no doubt that our moments were both very similar, yet cast in different light. My phone was wild/I wasn't paying attention and watched this one first. It was basically the first thing I saw after waking up which was a lovely and perfect kind of "a lot". Now I'm saving the others for an as of yet undetermined occasion of need. Thanks for sharing in The Feels with me.

@TehGabosh

3 жыл бұрын

@@JediCoati It's kinda funny, my circumstances were the exact opposite. Laying in bed late at night. Gobbled the whole thing up chronologically while focusing my ass off. There's something beautiful in the fact that we felt the same in such different situations. Thank you for your comment, kind stranger

@Lefinno

3 жыл бұрын

It happens when watching his videos. It's magical. It's wonderful. It's relieving. It feels like a warm sip of tea in the middle of a winter night. It feels like a refreshing shower after a hard workout. It feels like a resting place in a world full of chaos. It feels like a bonfire.

@JediCoati

3 жыл бұрын

@@Lefinno God that's so evocative...

I know the story about his dad is his personal one. But when he said that, it felt like his dad was speaking to me too. There are creative projects that I've started pursuing and though my parents know of it, they aren't too enthusiastic about it. Just hearing those words being uttered by his dad made me realize that my own parents might not feel like it now, but one day they surely will. Thank you, Exurb1a. Thank you for this series.

@jamessawyer9816

3 жыл бұрын

Parents suck when it comes to living your own life, I think. I don’t know I’m not wise at all.

@gemwest

3 жыл бұрын

I'm going to add my own personal story to his. My father never really understood where I was coming from when I was writing, and he was the single most important person in the world to me, so, it stuck with me a lot harder than I really wanted to believe it could. The first time I ever spoke with a publisher, he was already sick and dying, but, finally, he started doing research so that he COULD understand my work. I never finished that book, and he's gone now. It's...an emptiness I can't describe, but, hearing these stories really brings me a different kind of hope.

@lelloilfratello

3 жыл бұрын

I got the same exact feeling. His dad was so proud of him that almost made a complete stranger cry on the bus at the other side of the world

@tymoteuszkosinski5352

3 жыл бұрын

@@gemwest I'm sure Your Dad is hella proud of You and, well, now I am too

@kane-111

3 жыл бұрын

Perfect take from this video, goodluck with everything!

"If someone tells you THAT you need to fix something in your story, they're almost always right. If someone tells you HOW to fix something in your story, they're almost always wrong." -some dude way smarter than me.

@sageoftruth

3 жыл бұрын

That's a good one to remember. I like it. Often I feel like I have to suggest a solution if I'm to criticize something, but sometimes I guess it really is enough just to point out the problem and let the artist fix it themselves.

@bakuhakudraws5603

3 жыл бұрын

@@sageoftruth it's often good to brainstorm with fellow artists about how something might be improved and what options are available, but nobody's 'fix' for a story should be taken as gospel, and should always be accompanied by a grain of salt.

@MarcosElMalo2

Жыл бұрын

@@bakuhakudraws5603 A mentor once suggest I fix a momentum problem by going back to an earlier point and “press harder on the gas pedal”. (She was great with car analogies.) I didn’t even understand that the problem was one of momentum (or I wasn’t thinking in those terms). I just knew that I was stuck with something that wasn’t working. She explained rhythms in terms of changing gears, accelerating and decelerating. She was quite specific as to where I had lost momentum and had specific suggestions as to what I could do (could do, not needed to do). I used one of them, but the biggest help was receiving this framework of pacing or rhythm or whatever you want to call it. She was a really good teacher. So (and I’m just having this thought now), maybe there’s a way to benefit when someone from someone telling you HOW to fix something. Start asking them WHY and try to figure out the unspoken framework. Maybe they aren’t quite aware of it or have a hard time putting it into words, so they’ve leapt ahead to how they would fix it. I think going forward I’m going to start asking why. I’ll ask it not in a challenging or hostile way, but in a curious way.

@bakuhakudraws5603

Жыл бұрын

@@MarcosElMalo2 that 'almost' is in there for a reason, and especially when it comes to a teacher/student relationship it's a lot more likely the teacher will have specifics on what can be done to actually fix a given problem. The quote is mostly just a reminder to artists (who commonly want to bend over backwards to please their audience) that filtering noise from signal is important.

exurb1a I think I need to tell you something. For me you are what your father was to you. You think about so many things, you write music, books, videos, you can play at least a few instruments and are an overall pretty decent guy (as far as I can tell anyway). I have a few people I look up to and you are one of them. I wanted to thank you for all the amazing ideas you have created in my head and for all the amazing encouraging videos you make. Partly thanks to you I started picking up my life, trying to get better at whatever I am doing right now and I just wanted to say thank you! (sry for any mistakes I'm not an english native speaker)

@tabberer

3 жыл бұрын

Agreed!

@radinshaheb2525

3 жыл бұрын

you spoke every word in my mind.

@olofnielsen8844

3 жыл бұрын

I 100% agree with you. With every atom in my body this relates to me aswell (even the non native English part)

@lunarsoul6560

3 жыл бұрын

I agree! Continue pursuing your dream and getting your life together and doing what you love friend (: And exurb1a we love you!

@c.5879

3 жыл бұрын

Fühl ich

My best point in life was when my best friend/roommate/idol said that my shitty thrown around meaningless life was something that inspired him. He said that I always made it through and had the commitment he didn't think could be humanly possible. He said that I was his idol. He commented on my random shitty music that I play for fun and said that he thinks its amazing. I randomly play ukulele and just play what's in my head. That broke me. That made me see something that was always there but I always missed. Myself. Thanks Roommate.

@alessandro5770

3 жыл бұрын

Most of the time I'm the one that does that. I love it, I love making stories of people's lives, where their potential is realized and I cry silently on my own for this. I'll be forgotten and I hope my grand grand children will read this. Make it for me boy

I know my comment will be lost in the sea of ​​comments section, but I have started writing in this quarantine. Your videos were for me what Twenty Thousend Leagues Under the Sea were for you. Thanks, depression turtle

@wesmoto2550

3 жыл бұрын

youre gonna do great, i know it

@SmartStr33t

3 жыл бұрын

I feel like exurb1a could facilitate a little community of creators. I don't know where, on one of the online platforms. We could share our music, stories, poetry and paintings.

@oidaz8402

3 жыл бұрын

@@SmartStr33t a forum perhaps

@mk3ferret

3 жыл бұрын

That which is lost, can be found m8

@captntrps

3 жыл бұрын

Your comment hasn't been lost yet! I hope things go well for you sir.

Your advice hits too close to home for me. I've always been a very curious person intrigued by each and everything I saw as a kid. Problem was, because of that I always remained that little dreaming kid who wanted to be in the military one day, and a scientist on the other. I was so fascinated by theatrics that I wanted my life to be one. I got pretty bad grades in high school so my father set me down, told me he was very upset with me, but he then explained why he was so. He told me that when he was a kid, it was his dream to become a singer (he actually sings really well, enough to become a professional) but he had to give up because of financial troubles in the household. He was way more upset with himself that he began writing stuff. Stuff that any depressed teenager would write which eventually led to writing poems. Little did he know, he would later go on and become well known in the community. But he had to give that up as well so as to perform in his studies better. I then realized that I may not be as talented as him, but I want to see how much my hard work will weigh against his. I've never been so outspoken in my life up until this year. I have now come to the conclusion that whatever field I may work in, whether I excel or not I'm gonna keep his advice and experiences to my heart and try my best for him!

@azamakhtar7556

3 жыл бұрын

Best of luck for your future mate.

i've started making music about 2 months ago and this is seriously giving me a lot of motivation. I've never really cared about actual critics that say something constructive about my work because i know its not perfect and i know i won't be able to see all the flaws with it while others could so i just try to build from it. I've been watching you for a long time and you have changed my mental attitude about a lot of stuff and made my day better with every upload and i thank you for it.

@tabberer

3 жыл бұрын

carry on. push past it but wheres this link to some of ya work ?

@Y-0

3 жыл бұрын

oi mate, nice playlist u got there in ur channel for trips! saving it, thanks internet person!

@CallMeSpinpie

3 жыл бұрын

@@tabberer I put out music under the name darkxiety on Spotify and most streaming platforms :D. Thanks everyone for the likes!

@CallMeSpinpie

3 жыл бұрын

@@Y-0 thanks a lot i hope you enjoy it

@SystemOfATool

3 жыл бұрын

don't give up when someone says they don't like your work. It is only important that you like it. Oh and by the way, if you really like it, i bet you're not the only one :)

It's been a while clone of existential crisis turtle. Or his artsy bro or something. U have tea?

@amanakeet

3 жыл бұрын

@@MiekOff-jx7wc r/whoosh

@FriendlyKitten

3 жыл бұрын

*sits down with tea n 'bickies', and awaits to be perpetually surprised*

@archoni

3 жыл бұрын

@@MiekOff-jx7wc always has been

I used to write short stories of things I had in my head when I was a kid, maybe 12 or 13, and post them on wattpad. I still remember the first comment I ever got that was a genuine praise of something original I wrote that wasn't a generic statement from a teacher. I remember them saying that I really hit the nail on the head with the atmosphere of the story, and I was so incredibly flattered. I write poetry, now, instead of short stories (I realized I was bad at plot, and stuff, but really liked describing things) and have a lot of poems I'm pretty proud of, but I still remember that comment. and hey, if you like an artist's thing, let them know! especially if they're young or don't get many comments/likes!

That’s a lot of uploads

@artfulphoenix2184

3 жыл бұрын

Im not complaining.

@belkadd403

3 жыл бұрын

We've been blessed

@skylarova2131

3 жыл бұрын

It’s the second coming of Christ if Christ was a turtle

@ffbhjfufjf386

3 жыл бұрын

Is that a criticism?

@skylarova2131

3 жыл бұрын

Ffb Hjfufjf *click* nice

30 minutes of... CONTENT

@penguinatee210

3 жыл бұрын

With no ads!! He’s making content to help others, props to him

@CarlosBenjamin

3 жыл бұрын

Not a bit of fluff.

@xaifer2485

3 жыл бұрын

@@penguinatee210 0rolly gpt demomonitized

This is the best birthday present I could've asked for

@kit_dragons550

3 жыл бұрын

Happy birthday🥳

@monteraggo2920

3 жыл бұрын

Happy birthday my dude!

@chigga5years173

3 жыл бұрын

Happy birthday fellow turtle fam

@otaku-chan4888

3 жыл бұрын

Have a good birthday, fellow internet stranger!

Ok, I've been trying to resume my writing for a while now. But now you've given me the motivation to start again. Thanks for that! I'm off to write again now. Au revoir good sir!

@spookmineer

3 жыл бұрын

That's great! Good luck :)

@darth_home_invader3748

3 жыл бұрын

Can't wait to read it!

God, the dad story just genuinely made me break down 💓

Man I really needed that, thank you. Its so hard to believe that you, who does such great work gets any critisim. Its crazy for me that after helping so many people, you have any doubt in what you are doing. You are one of the 0,01% who really changed lives for the better, in relation to human history there are close to none people who reached as many hearts as you and our generations did! Friends that I knew for decades couldnt motivate me as much as you did, the only reason your channel didnt explode yet is because the algorithm is being pay n played with. Thank you brother.

He's back!!!!

In hopes that he reads the comments By far my favorite creator online anywhere. Your videos have gotten me to self-reflect and ponder about life. Thank you for everything you've done for me and for thousands of other I'm sure! Sincerely Riku from Finland

if it was about the fifth scienece imma need their address

@darth_home_invader3748

3 жыл бұрын

Just wanna chat

@MIllerTheKillr

3 жыл бұрын

I lived 5th science

Hot damn, I really really needed these 3 videos. I've been staring at them for over a week since they posted but I couldn't seem to get to them till today. Oh man...thank you so much. Doesn't matter which channel its on, your content is my absolute favorite - hits me straight to my soul. Always perfection. Thank you.

@sigotkot4180

3 жыл бұрын

My sentiments precisely

return or the king

I don’t know if you understand how much you help people. I’ve been watching your videos for a few years now, and I’m sure it’s the only reason I keep trying to create things. I didn’t know that other artists felt the way I do, especially with the burnout video you did. Your “thoughts about writing”, “Making stuff”, “you will never do anything remarkable“, “and then we’ll be okay”, and so many more of your videos have pushed me through creative blocks and forced me to keep creating. I am unhappy not making things, and I think I’m glad to feel that way because I probably wouldn’t create things otherwise. Your stories inspire me, and I rewatch your videos to remember how to move on and create. You give great advice on art, as well as life n things. You know a lot more than I do, and I’m glad that I found your channels. Please keep creating. Don’t listen to the rubbish that people say, but I’m sure you know not to. You’ve led me to understand much about myself. As a person and an artist. Also, your music is wonderful. I haven’t read your books yet, but I plan to. Sorry for the rant, but I just wanted to say thank you so much for helping me. For helping others, too. I hope you know how great you are. Have a good day, and best of luck to you

Thank you so much for making this. It's something a lot of us need to be reminded of regularly and resonates so deeply with anyone going down some obscure (often seen as nonsensical) rabbit hole of a creative journey. I can't wait to see how this new project (your podcasts/monologues fuck idk what to call them but they're great)continue to evolve and grow. Thanks again and keep up the incredible work! Sidenote: If you're ever in Plovdiv I'd love to share a cheeky rakia or two with you.

A guy that can make music, is healthy, likes running, is smart in the aspect of philosophy, can edit youtube video’s unlike me, can tell good stories, is funny, has a partial understanding of physics. ... i’ve got a long way to go.

@Exurb1a

3 жыл бұрын

Hello there. I've just finished eating some supermarket profiteroles from a packet, and am starting on the third whisky for the evening, and am considering buying some cigarettes. I really hope these videos helped, but I am none of the things described above - promise. (All the very, very best of luck with your stuff by the way, Gratis.)

@lolicafighter8124

3 жыл бұрын

@@Exurb1a Exurb1a, in this part of the world! Wow!

that short little anecdote about your dad made me cry and its actually helped me realize something thats been bugging me. Ive always done everything i could to make my parents proud, so much so that id do things that were completely unnecessary, things that I THOUGHT would make them proud. turns out theyre already proud of me because im able to do something I love, a priveledge they gave to me. Thanks for helping me realize this exurb1a!

You're the only KZreadr that makes me cry watching their videos. Love you man. Love what you're doing. Thank you.

I come back to this series again and again to cry myself out. Especially with the ending on this one. I suffer from OCD and franky never had any moment when my parents were proud of me, no matter how much I tries. I'm 27 now and I realized I am sure to never ever make them proud. My inner guts says I want it, but I deep down know it's impossible. But hearing the story of your father subtlety saying the he is proud of you made me realize how that feels. It feels wholesome and fulfilling. It made me feel that, in the end, for people like him and for moments like this, life is worth living. I greatly appreciate you sharing these stories. I'll be back here soon :-)

This series is art in itself. I can't count the amount of times I've gone through the playlist.

I had just got into a small fight with one of my closest friend and my childhood friend and somehow at the same time it reminded me of what my cousin said about me changing into this disaster. I almost crept into depression today , after listening to 4-5 videos i felt like better, it wasn't a "suppressing feel good" it was a genuine acceptance. Thank you so much for this or else i would have gone back to my old forest. I might even start writing or making some film ideas which was my dream ever since i was 14.

Dude always end up crying when consuming your content. It’s like therapy to me and I am forever grateful for me feel good about myself. Thanks Exurb1a.

please talk about plagiarism & the anxiety that comes from having too many ideas. also this video series is blessed. thanks.

@raulflores8964

3 жыл бұрын

Plagerism = insperation

@sageoftruth

3 жыл бұрын

Often the difference between plagiarism and inspiration, or at least the perception of the two, comes down to the number of sources you use. If I made a movie and modeled 100% of it around Star Wars, it'd be a rip-off. However, if I took the plot of Star Wars, the setting of Mulan, the social dynamics of Sense and Sensibility, and a bunch of themes from various other films, and somehow made it all into one movie, that would be original, even though all of its sources aren't. It's okay to be inspired by other works, but the more sources of inspiration you have, the less likely it is that someone will call it a rip-off of something else.

@Jtronique

2 жыл бұрын

I personally deal with too many ideas by writing each down on a slip of paper and putting them up on a storyboard. They need not be in any order, only "sandboxed" on a particular branch. The artist who helped me with this technique was David Lynch. See also : David Lynch "Fishing for ideas." His theory is if you let the ideas come, and give them a small space, as you keep going "fishing." you will get more ideas to tie the right ones together.

Absolutely fantastic, loving this mini series already. I paint as a little hobby, following in the footsteps of bob ross, my grandfather and my father too. I think I have a similar moment of a creative high point: I had recently begun painting, and I was getting to grips with oil paints. I had recently spent a day alone with my grandfather, talking about art in general and how sadly he cannot paint anymore. With that, he gifted me his art materials, from pallets to books to hidden gems of his drawings within them. And so I returned the favour, with my first oil painting I was proud of as a birthday present to him. The fact he has it hooked in his living room, right beside TV, perhaps to see it every day, no doubt brings a tear to me eye or tightens my throat. Despite looking back on the painting, with my less than great skills at the time, to see it still hung upon the wall told me that art is more than galleries and money. It means a great deal to people, and the same goes for me, with a painting of his resting above my bed at university. I sincerely hope most can share moments like these with their loved ones. And to you Exurbia, we say thank you, and that we are hungry for more

That line from your father is one of the most brilliant, lovely, kind and poetic that I’ve heard in a long time. Thank you for sharing.

I was lowkey highkey about to cry at the last story 😭 you deserve all the best exurb1a. This is amazing

Thank you space depresion turtle for this mini-series, I loved it

I miss my dad. It made me cry at the very end of this vid. It is so uplifting. It is truly great that I have found your channel/s brother. Keep it up!

That was such a genuine moment between a father and son. A few words casually spoken and given can hold such vast meaningful positive weight, and I am so glad the opportunity for you both was there.

I love your simplistic view on all these things. helps me conceptualize the process i’ve been going through for months

I found your channel recently man and I really like it. This is the video that got to me emotionally the most so far, especiall the ending! Thank you for the good content, you inspire me and many others. Keep doing what you do best! much love

I'm so lucky to have found your channels. This is a beautiful series; you brought a tear to my eye with your story about your Dad. Thank you. ❤

I feel like being called an idiot in my childhood stuck with me the most because it pushed me to learn more. It's not for everyone, but sometimes dishonest and cruel criticism can push you to become greater than you are. Not that I'm some genius or anything

@spookmineer

3 жыл бұрын

What are you talking about? In 12 years you will invent a stable, safe and reliable way for nuclear fusion.

It's a beautiful feeling to finally realize people are going through same experiences you do, took me many years. I was so quick to reject this feeling, to get stuck inside my own world of miscommunication with everything outside me. Support and love are essential. Please seek knowledge, seek communities, share your mind even when it hurts to open up. Thank you for posting this, this is so human it hurts in the best way possible.

I wish you could feel what I feel when watching your videos. It's like the same feeling that kurzgesagt can induce, but 10 times stronger and emotional instead of being technical. I truly love your work.

This podcast series couldn't have started at a better moment. Thank you. From the depths of my heart... THANK YOU!

Just a confused 17 year old here, and I just cried. This is now my favorite video on the entire platform. Thank you for these genuine words man. I will do my best to live by and honor them.

Thank you for these beautiful massages exurb2a this really help me a lot during time's like this thank you very much for reviving my passion thank you for coming back we really appreciate you again thank you and i hope for more content to come

Honestly this video is so heartwarming and helpful and I really appreciate the effort that is going into this channel. When you talked about your dad it really hit my heart, and I just wanna say thank you for creating content, because goddamn it is good.

I believe the day my father tells me the same thing your father told you is the day i will break through and have infinite creative energy from this immense support. Thank you for this series man it is inspiring all of us creatives out there who are having a bad time. God bless you and keep us the good work . Thank you for showing us the way , for taking the time and effort to help people in need

Lol I was like wtf when I got 3 notifications from the same channel

There’s something so amazing and fulfilling listening to someone with this godly of a voice encouraging you and giving you advice everyone needs this in their life

“The KEY is to keep COMPANY only with people who UPLIFT you. whose PRESENCE calls forth your BEST” - Epictetus

Your videos have brought me out of the depth of despair countless times. You are an insperation to me, in fact inspiration is an understatement. I have become so emotionally attached to your videos I would call them a friend. I may not know you and you will likley never read this but If by some chance in the universe our time on this planet meet an intersection. I would like to thank you. I would like to thank you for all that you have done for me and others alike. You are truley a wonderful person.

each one of the 3 episodes so far have brought me on the verge of tears in a good way, this person is something special, and I hope they know that

Before watching this I didn't have any interest in becoming an artist or a creator but after this there's a little part of me that said "what if". I wanted to say thank you. Your videos are some of my favirotute things to watch on KZread especially your stories, I've watched them all a hundred times over. This video is more than just being able to take criticism its a fuck you to giving up and as a fellow runner I really appreciated this, I will remember this series every time I feel like giving up or quiting and I wanted to say a huge thank you for it. I wouldn't normally write comments like this but one of your other videos, the ode to Nashville, made me realize that you probably don't here it enough but you are an amazing and talented creator and I love your work.

I also want to give you my thanks. We all know this world is quite crazy, and who asked us if we wanted to be a part of it all in the first place? However, we are here. And there are good and bad things here. But if there's anything that makes me feel at peace, is to know that there is someone with your kind of mind living in the same world as I am. Whenever I feel like I can't keep up with life, I remember that Exurb1a is somewhere out there, standing on the same planet as I am, and that makes me feel relieved somehow. So thank you for existing, and thank you for your art. You're doing wonders!

My father was an amazing painter; he passed away years ago and I always admired his work tremendously. I'm studying to become a fashion designer, and although our art forms are very different, I'm always afraid I am in some way copying him. I can never get that moment you so beautifully described, when your dad told you how you are an artist in your own right etc. Living that moment vicariously through you helped me a little, but I know I can never truly experience that for myself, and it hurts. Thank you for creating this series

You got me teared up after quoting your dad. It wasn't saccharine at all, yet it's the sweetest thing i've ever heard said from parent to their child. Love what you're doing mate, keep it up

well you've succesfully brought me to tears in every episode of this series. You're an inspiration and a lifeline and a teacher to us all

i’ve just recently started drawing again and it’s truly the most amazing and terrifying thing in the world to me. the first three drawings i did after my year and a half long break were arguably the best drawings i’ve ever done. i decided that since these drawings were so amazing compared to my previous works that i would forever be a superior artist, sadly that isn’t true. when it came time for the fourth magnificent drawing to be made i was to scared to continue and stopped for two weeks. i’ve started drawing again while listening to these videos and even the big mistakes and the starting over again i’ve done in the past thirty-ish minutes feel good. yeah fucking up sucks but doing what you love, even if it’s done poorly, is still one of the most joyous things you can do. thank you for helping me to remember how horribly amazing creating art is.

These Catastrotivity videos are some of the most inspiring content I've ever come across since I started my KZread journey, some 12 Years ago! It's amazing! You really hit a switch in my brain, and I'll keep making Music and never stop, and make exactly whatever the f.... I want! What makes sense to me, what I like, what inspires me, and makes me feel good! And give jackshit about what's trendy or what other people think about it! The most important thing is to have fun and enjoy what you do. And I totally forgot that along the way... So again, thank You so much mr 🙏 Made my day 😊 Keep It up! You have some of the most unique and genious content I know of! Video AND written format! I love sci-fi, and your art/stories are truly original. I hope You keep on doing it for as long as You feel inspired to do it. And i hope that's "forever" 👏😊 Have a good one friend! (sorry for any bad English.. 2nd language) 😅

Yknow this is probably the most long term motivating video that I have ever watched, thank you very very much mate, I’m going to continue my passion and work harder than I ever have before

U can’t believe how much this helps. Thank you The end made me cry and I haven’t painted for a month or so. But there is so much support around me lately and I feel better than ever I had heavy pressure to create „something good“

I just cried to this audio series at 2am in the morning Thanks for this mate . Really needed this . Hope my dad will be proud of me someday too .

You are one of the most inspiring people i've crossed in life. Ill listen to these podcasts everyday as a ritual. It means very much to me. Thank you so much.

I, as a starting writer, with little knowledge and/or much hope in my mind want you to keep making these. They have already spun me into more action than most of my motivational songs do. Greetings and thanks from the German Lands

i was working while playing this in the background tab and the moment i heard his father's reply, tears started streaming down. maybe subconsciously i wanted someone to tell me the same :) i'm happy for you that you have him as your father ❤

Thank you for doing this into a series, it is not the more popular thing but you are pleasing so much people like me. Keep it up.

this hit me so hard i cried so much. the same scene I always wanted. very inspiring work

these three uploads will keep my sanity together until we come back out of quarantine

Okay just watched all of them and i have to say, you are just a great motivator and give excellent advices. Glad i found your channel, without it i would most likely never embark on this journey of art and be sad and not creating anything. Thank you and am looking foward to another one of your videos. And also for that beer in Prague.

You are reminding me of the luck that i have to be young and having a mother that is a suportive artist

I'm glad I discovered your channel. Your words are soothing and inspirational. Keep up the good work.

I've been quite busy pursuing to publish a book online. And I thank you for releasing this series. It really helped me a lot to boost my confidence. Cheers to more rice puddings!

8:20 im crying right now And the little tear that pops out of the corner of your eye when u ecxedetely bit yourself on your toung I mean the ugly crying u do when dogs die in movies This really moved me So thank you

So because of this little series, I read through my old work from way back when I was still creative. And though it is not much, after about 5 years of Depression silence and traumatic experiences screaming in my head all at once, just having a spark of an idea, means incredibly much to me. I hope I will be able to enflame the dry wasteland that one was my phantasy and come live to see what stands after the ash stops falling.

From the bottom of my catastrophically lost, scattered and broken heart I love you and all of your brilliant work. You are such a purely inspirational diamond in the rough.

Thank you man, you have uplifted my spirits and reinvigorated my plans

It feels so relieving to know I'm not alone with those thoughts. No joke ,at points it feels as if you're reading my mind. I love you man

This was put on our Discord VC and after hearing this it made us all cried Thank you for Motivating me and alot of people Even more

Thank you for these videos, I'm putting them into a Playlist so I can hear them every time I'll find myself doubting my purpose.

Thank you for sharing a tender piece of yourself with us. You've let the wind take up those hope seeds like a dandelion. I can't say how grateful I am the currents of the algorithm have danced one into my life.

Hey, thanks. Your stuff has resonated with me for a long time, put me on the right tracks philosophically. It's cool being able to nore fully experience and express... well, me, and also start to help others see their version of the path finally.

You have no idea how much inspiration you are providing me.... Thank you...

I know that my story is quite similar to some people who watched these videos, but I still feel like sharing it is personally important. I'm currently 17 and quite confused as you would imagine. These videos resonated deeply with me since I was/am both an athletic and a creative person, however, my parents discouraged me from pursuing either of those paths in life. They usually did so indirectly (not always though) and I understand that it must have come from a place of love. Nowadays, most of the time when I try something new I feel like there is no point in it if I can't be the best or at least one of the best at that thing, which is very mentally damaging. I used to play football, but stopped since I never felt good enough at it. I used to constantly draw, but I mostly stopped doing that too. A lot of the time I still feel deeply hurt, when I do something I'm proud of and the best reaction is "Oh, that's nice". This constant feeling of never being good enough stopped me from pursuing countless interests and I already have tons of regrets in life. These videos actually made me pretty much sob, especially your personal stories since I never really had anyone who could tell me they like what I create and would encourage me to be creative. Anyways, I pretty much wrote all this out and almost deleted it just to let it out and tell you that what you do actually makes a difference and you really inspired me to take up creating something once again without worrying what my family thinks. Thank you very much for being A someone who could make me believe in my abilities and persistence without even knowing about my existence. You are truly one of the most inspiring people on the internet.

@Rewruio

3 жыл бұрын

Hey bro, i just wanted to say even though we dont know eachother i was a ble to relate to your experience. Your experience with football and feeling hurt when someone says nothing more than "oh nice" and how you already have regrets are all things that struck me as similar to experiences ive been through. Im only a few years ahead of you on this journey (turning 22 next month) and I must say that I havent quite found the answers yet, to most of my problems. Its very hard, like you mentioned, to do something if i dont feel like im gonna be the best at it or that its gonna make me money or contribute to my "career". I havent been feeling very good these past few months, because lately ive been feeling like a list of things rather than a person. I feel like there are things i like doing but since they dont fit in with what ive been taught that i should be like, i end up convincing myself to stop doing those things or to stop liking them. Its almost like im trying to make myself not like the things that I like in a weird way to do what ive been taught that i should want to do. I dont know, there wasnt any real point to this haha, I guess im just trying to say youre not alone. When i read your comment i felt like i wasnt alone and that i should respond. I hope you figure things out, I'm trying to as well.

@deinavenckunaite6788

3 жыл бұрын

@@Rewruio It's sad to know that someone has similar problems, but it is also nice to feel less alone :) Thank you for sharing your experience and I really hope that things clear up and get better soon

I just found your videos after hearing your video about going to Nashville to explore what David Berman was talking about. And honestly??? I needed this video about how to handle criticism. Thank you so much for your well thought out and sincere content.

Damn these are good. Please make more. They really motivated me after these hard times. I've been thinking about writing for a while now, but now i'm sure i'll do it. Thank you.

Please make more of this , I listen to it while I draw and it helps me a lot especially that I don’t really like any art piece I make , it. Keeps me motivated

I have this thing of playing solitaire while listening to podcasts. It's a thing I do mindlessly because I don't like feeling stationary, I guess. I was about to win when I realized I was crying my eyes off at the story of his dad. I felt it in me. I hope I can make my dad proud too. I love you, cosmic turtle. Thank you for everything

Oh my fucking goodness this podcast thing series was amazing, I listened to them all at once while I was drawing and it just helped me concentrate and truly think about what I want to do and how I want to do it, thank you exurb1a this was a great listen.

I really love your way of storytelling! If you'd do hundreds of videos like these, I'd watch them all

Oh no! It went too fast! I thought there'd be more! But thank you so much for sharing. I'm such a huge fan of your work and it was fascinating to get a glimpse inside of your process and past.

"Win though work" has been my personal mantra for several years now. The thing is, as an artist, but also just in learning any new skill, you won't see returns on your time investment until very much further on. Years in fact. You have to be patient, and keep faith that it will eventually pay off.

please dont let this be a 3 episode thing I need more

I'm in love with photography, have been for a long time, and want to pursue drawing and well... writing as well, as my hobbies, for now, but I'm scared about my parents and their criticism. Mind you, I'm not an adult, yet. It's what stopped me from starting my journey, their criticism, for what seems like 2 years now. Alas, I know everyone has their issues, myself included, but I must say, I aspire to one day get the compliment you got, from my own parents. Thank you for this series. With all of my heart, from one small person, in a horizon of people.

@Ixarus6713

3 жыл бұрын

I have the exact same ambitions and am also too young to carry them out yet (16). Don't worry about criticism for the first 2 years like Exurb1a says to establish a strong understanding of your writing and other talents to make sure that tips you are given aren't destructive to your art and carry on no matter what they say, they love you and you will get through these times! These are weird times and they are the best opportunity to aim for some ambitions you have: Draw things, take pictures of nice scenery, and write a story. I have written a story (My first real short one) and I found it good to finally get something out there on paper as it helps to clear the mind. I wish you the greatest of luck from another in a similar position and remember always, you can do it! - RH "It's okay to be a glowstick: Sometimes we have to break before we shine" - Jadah Sellner

@Niekoue

3 жыл бұрын

Look at it this way: If you let your fear of your parents surpress your creativity, then you will grow into a lesser version of yourself, despite knowing that you could acomplish more. You will become unsatisfied and bitter, and you will blame your parents and therefore hate them. Thus you will destroy your relationship with your parents and you will hurt them very badly, just like you will hurt yourself. What can we conclude from this? That you need to overcome your fear of your parents' judgement (/lack of approval) not only for your own sake, but for your parents' sake as well. You have to take the risk of being who you are.

I'll download these episodes on my phone and listen to them until I know them by heart. Thank you for doing what you are doing.

I did not expect to get emotional listening to this but when the dad bit came I just kinda lost it. Thank you.