I didn’t have that kind of trauma but when my depression couldn’t be “cured” I caved in to what my husband wanted. I had already been on a plethora of AD’s and I did NOT want to do this but felt like I had no choice. This was a high class hospital with a top notch doctor so I felt a little safer. They had me slated for 12 sessions but after 7 the nurse came around to give me a shot to dry up my mouth and I said nope, I’m done. She looked at me like I was crazy. He said I would have temporary memory issues about 3 months around the treatments but there is a lot I don’t remember. The bottom line is it didn’t help and they kept me on psych drugs anyway. The whole thing was a nightmare.

Thank you for putting out these videos to show people what can happen. Not many people are creating awareness on this. Thank you, honestly.

These doctors are trippin and completely clueless. I always like watching these videos. Keep them coming.

ECT destroyed me!! I lost everything. My family, friends, everyone no can no longer relate to anyone or anything It’s broken late for me, but please help stop this brutal barbaric treatment from happening to others. Please!!!!

A psychiatry hospital is a prison. Is worse than prison. Do not go there. They will not give u the help u need.

I was told that I would not remember the process but I do. They had us lined up against the back wall in our beds. I was always the third one to go. I laid there with my eyes shut trying so hard not to hear what I was about to hear. I could hear the doctors and nurses talking and then I could hear the buzzing from the electric shock and the person groaning I could see them out of corn on my eyes and they were convulsing on the table. I saw the same thing with patient number two and then it was my turn. I felt every bit of pain surging through my body . I desperately wanted my depression to go away. I endured this horrific pain three more times before I quit. My depression had not gotten better . I know have severe nightmare s. I also have memory loss and my doctor told me it would come back but it never did. Huge chunks of the time I was raising my children are gone forever.

I have damage to my memory because of gabapentin, antidepressants and antipsychotics, and the trauma i went through in the psychiatric system. I was forgetting the names of my closest friends, constantly forgetting what i was saying mid-sentence or even mid-word, and forgetting where i was and where i was going every time i drove a car... I had 4 hours of testing about 1.5 yrs ago and they told me i do have memory loss but it's 100% due to "my depression", like I'm the problem and not the doctors and their drugs that actually did this to me, it felt like victim-shaming, it was insulting. I've been struggling with severe memory loss since i was put on these drugs in 2010. A 20 yr old shouldn't feel like they have dementia...

If a psychiatrist recommends shock therapy to you ask them if they would be willing to undergo the procedure first while you watch to help you decide.

This is infuriating that people are being treated this way by the people that are supposed to be helping .

My late father had ECT treatments in the 1950s and was left with "scars" on his brain.

I appreciate and admire this woman so much. It's all so fucking ridiculous what they are doing to people in the name of "help" and "medicine". I hope she gets off those final two drugs successfully and feeling good within a short period of time. We've all suffered enough.

Her story is amazing. Please write a book. The injustice of what the industry put you through needs to be told to warn other patients and their families. Thank you for speaking out.

It took me 5 years to find a taper for high dose long-term prescribed benzo use.

Very relatable. Important testimony. Tough to listen to. Thank you both, so much!!!

Thank you Jill, I have been traumatised by witnessing my uncle and other patients having ECT. I was a child and although I never saw it taking place, I saw the patients terror as they were strapped to a trolley and wheeled into the room and I saw them drooling after coming out. This was enough to cause me trauma among other trauma from witnessing what went on in the psychiatric hospital.

I am sorry for all the people who suffered because of ect. I was told to do ect and I avoided it and my mental health have improved. Thank You for sharing so people will be aware of this.

Thank you for spreading awareness about the irreversible damages that causes electroshock on the brain and how it worsens patients lives. I am french and in France psychiatry is over protected. No one talks about the poor efficiency of psychiatry and psychiatrists to help and support people in distress. And it's " omerta" about electroshock. It's a serious matter. We have only the CCDH or CCHR to help.

No one but the persons who have experienced these treatments truly know.

This is some interview! Jill's resilience in the face of severe complex post traumatic stress AND professional ignorance and arrogance shines through the whole of this compelling engagement. To have had to deal with severe adverse childhood events, then with crassly inappropriate psychiatric interventions including the surely barbaric electro convulsive therapy, with resultant brain damage, is almost impossible to comprehend. It is sadly the case that Jill's experiences are far from unusual, but others have fared far worse in the face of psychiatric 'therapeutic' intervention.

Jill, thank you for courageously sharing your experiences with what happens as a treatment compliant patient who's endured ECT's repetitive traumatic brain injury and repetitive electrical trauma searching for answers to our lengthy list of long-term consequences.