"They have grown up feeling that they were unfairly treated and that they did not get the attention or care they needed. They are angry about that, and as young adults, they set out in search of someone who can make up to them for what they feel is missing." Oh my god.. this paragraph sums up my absolute core problem since childhood. I even had these thoughts in slighty different phrasing in my own mind the other day. It is scary how accurate he summed up the core cause of BPD. And I think this is the 'chronic feeling of emptiness' symptom's root.

@smileyface5908

Жыл бұрын

Agreed. Such a powerful statement of a feeling we internalise but I couldn’t articulate.

@thefiftyplusinfluencer499

Жыл бұрын

I agree wholeheartedly

@LifelivedbyEve

3 ай бұрын

Yes me too 😢

@NopeNotToday26

7 күн бұрын

Okay but what about us who had witnessed abuse and went through some of it. I don’t believe this paragraph in full. Some of us had this genetic disposition on top of actual abuse.

Ok, Im crying so hard. The part about: When we treat the pain they grow to be the most amazing people etc 😢 I the few days in my life that bpd didnt take over me, I was able to bring out all my gifts and talents, I did amazing things and also gave so much to others. It hurts so much when you know the potential you have, but you live so far away from it. I have ordered your book and going to do all in my power to over come this. I never been told it was possible, and although I'm already 53, Its better late than never. Thank you. I know I leave a lot of comments but Im so overwhelmed and grateful for the opertunity I've been given❤

@himmelblau23

2 ай бұрын

I'm about your age, and I wish you all the best with your healing.

I have been a relationship for over a year with a man with severe BPD. He was medicated to slow down extreme emotional impulsivity that allows him to put DBT into practice. He struggled with employment and is now stable, but working 7 days a week to keep a float due to poverty wages…Poverty is destroying his health. I am so furious that the USA doesn’t fully cover medical care…He needs more than one 30 min chat with a counselor monthly (all that is covered) and to not work two jobs…He absolutely can reach remission status, but he boomerangs due to lack of sleep that makes normal emotional stress untenable…

Hearing your thoughts so passionately stated about how those of us with BPD are of significant value while recognizing with such compassion that the pain is so very real … I could not be more grateful for you and all you do. Thank you Dr. 🦊

@2okaycola

2 жыл бұрын

Doesn’t change anything anyway but it makes you feel slightly less angry at everyone for short periods kzread.info/dash/bejne/lItlp7SmaZS5fJM.html

@kareninman2865

2 жыл бұрын

As a wife who lives with a spouse with bpd, it is extremely exhausting. to watch how much torture that their mind puts on. It comes in Olympic waves! The chaos that goes on. Very little times of peace and as a spouse it is draining and sad to observe and so toxic to my mind. It makes u angry at times u want to just blast their parents,their family of origin was very toxic growing up. I have learned, how to speak to him and help him deal with reality. Most people with bpd have over the top rage.

@wovenriddles5642

2 жыл бұрын

Trust me, I cry all the time about my parents giving me this disorder too. It makes me incredibly angry that my parents didn’t protect me, and it makes me angry that even up until a year ago my mother would tell me I needed to get over it. I got my diagnosis this past March, and I asked her how she felt knowing all these years she simply told me to just get over an entire personality disorder.

@kareninman2865

2 жыл бұрын

@@wovenriddles5642 that's sad but still u sound like you have acknowledge this deep wound and are moving forward to live ur best life. I could only pray that my husband would get to the acknowledgement and express in healthy communication and not continue to live in such a destructive state of mind and the anger and rage is over the top!!! So,self destructive and believe me it has almost destroyed me! I do have empathy for him! But,always dealing with his family of origins that have left a path of destruction. His older sister,committed suicide from eating disorder, the middle sister was the go between both parents that fought,and alcoholism,drugs, and denial. She is completely narcisstic and has never lived on her own is 62 and still depends on the mother to pay for her every need and then some. Several divorces,by the mother,several different fathers and my husband was the youngest and only boy, he suffered abuse,very conflicting parenting styles and ran away at 14,suffered with addiction to alcohol,drugs, and 4 marriages. Habitually deflects,lies,and difficult to get the truth from him his emotions are all over the map. I have learned to ask non threatening questions and peel layers of masked perception away. His thinking is very askewed. He has many talents and is artistic. I try to help promote that. He is very much a child still. It leaves me sad,lonely and heartbroken. But,I'm am almost 70 and have no where to go. I have a very strong faith and believe that my best life is yet to come.

@sarita8245

2 жыл бұрын

@@kareninman2865 you're speaking of your own personal situation. That doesn't speak for everyone with BPD. I feel that to say every or most person has extreme anger is a generalization. It's also terrible you wrote it here with other people to read. Could be triggering, friend. Just saying.

That first quote makes me realize how I've been treating my husband. It does make me feel guilty, but now I realize what he's been trying to tell me about how I make him feel is true.

@estelao.b.1473

11 ай бұрын

He married you. He is still with you. Take care of him. I hope he is good to you. I am a woman who hasnt managed to find the right one. And if I did, I did not make them stay. I always seek partners who leave the country and end up in a different country.

i haven't been to therapy in a really long time and while these videos aren't substitutes for sessions; they do give me a sense of understanding and reassurance that no doctor has given me before. i don't usually comment on youtube videos but it felt like i needed to on this. thank you for your channel and thank you for all the work you put into it. it's very much appreciated

@lisadurbin6383

Жыл бұрын

I find Dr Fox's videos very therapeutic. Thank you!

@joanlynch5271

Жыл бұрын

I feel the same way. Dr Fox is so calm, it makes me feel calm too. He really wants us to understand what we are going through so that we can become better.

@wavyybabyy

3 ай бұрын

Agreed. 🖤

My bpd is the direct result of being abused by narcissistic parents. How can you have successful relationships when you never had one? I was completely isolated with 2 people that hated me. It couldn't have gone any other way.

I understand, and It makes me sad, but keep them away from me. I can’t help them and I don’t need the constant drama and upheaval in my life. I’m done with it. We all have problems.

I've never heard anything that sums up what BPD is like. It describes perfectly my past relationship with my ex and the unrealistic expectations. That ultimately led me to do a self destructive act when it ended because of my behavior. 😣

@megandietz4143

2 жыл бұрын

I’m trying to keep my relationship together but I think it’s already to broken

@thelordsportion1273

Жыл бұрын

Please know that You Matter, and no one has to prove, sacrifice, die, for anyone else. Jesus did that already. EVERYONE Matters to God. It's a perverted perception the fallen one has projected on some of us. It's evil, and I pray you heal and move on. God Bless!!

@OldSchoolBaller

Жыл бұрын

I feel you. My ex was a perfectionist with BPD and OCD. I felt like I was always being tested and one false move and she'd breakup with me. We broke up and got back together 6 times. And she would always blame me for all the pain I caused her. Sigh...

It still feels very hopeless like all dreams and hopes are just long dead ideas that are unreachable

Literally in tears right now. I've been struggling with mental illness for 21 years and I'm 36 now. Thank you. For the first time in my life I feel as if I really can grow as a person. And, for the first time, I can say with confidence that "I am NOT crazy". You have no idea the affect your videos are having on so many lives. I know it's going to be a long, hard road. But, thanks to your insights, I have an idea of what direction I need steer my vehicle

@halloweendancing

2 жыл бұрын

I feel the same way! I never knew what was wrong with me because I was diagnosed with the wrong thing again and again.

@magalie3277

Жыл бұрын

That is beautiful to hear! Bpd turnup ❤️

@Julian2Sounds

Жыл бұрын

THE MENTAL HEALTH SYSTEM 🤣🤣 kzread.info/dash/bejne/X4KYlpKOqZnakrQ.html kzread.info/dash/bejne/c5ucsbZsn6bHfZc.html

@Araphex

Жыл бұрын

I just turned 36 and was just diagnosed with BPD a month ago. I wish you the best on your journey. I know it's been a year since you've been here but I also hope you found what you needed to move in the right direction.

@aryansigrid

Жыл бұрын

I'm 48 and have had this all my life but feel like the Broken person because I don't fit in anywhere, I might as well be invisible 'cos I'm treated that way. My parents fundamentally let me down over and over again when I was a child and they never even knew they were causing me Pain & Agony. To this day I don't know Who I am, what I'm here for, why my life sucks, why know one wants to know me nor why I have no friends, job or house but to find out it's a Disorder I'm suffering from and it might not be because I'm the most terrible person in the world?!? Personally, I don't remember what i did to get treated like shit all my youth, then I was and still get used in my Adult life. And, I also seem to learn things the hardest way possible, always the worst! I try to think before I act but I don't reckon I deserve all the suffering i feel inside, I mean, I just want to finish myself off sometimes because I can't handle another second in this world, then I think about my Mother and 30 year old daughter, I couldn't do that to them, not my daughter anyway, she already has a mother who's as mad as f**k so I'd probably turn her bonkers if I follow through with my thoughts. TY for sharing your comment, I realise it's been a year since you wrote this but I always miss the bus in life! Cheers, Happy 2023!!

Best thing I ever did was accept that I had BPD once diagnosed. I manage it with physical exercise, nutrient dense foods, spirituality and not drinking. I'm not perfect but by doing those my life has turned around and I actually have been able to catch myself when I get into my "moods". It's hard work but absolutely worth it. Thank you doc for having such realistic and informative videos

@gobnaitaine5103

2 жыл бұрын

Yes, me too. Its true that us with bpd, we can manage it and live a productive life. Keep up the hard work. ❤

@BeingBetter

2 жыл бұрын

Lex G I do the exact same thing. I am comorbid with lots of different mental health problems very severe rapid cycling bipolar one anxiety disorder skin picking too many to mention. I've discovered a supplement program that keeps a lot of my symptoms in check and I eat a healthy diet with real nutritious food such as raw milk, local pastured meat, local organic vegetables and fruits, nuts, limited grains and limited sugar. I don't drink alcohol anymore either. While I still still get into the borderline moods, I can catch myself and be aware of it and catch it before it gets really bad.

@zaye400

2 жыл бұрын

💙

I don’t watch your videos often as I don’t want bad to become my life and identity, as weird as that sounds, but every now and then I check in because I know whatever you are posting is truthful and compassionate and this video reaffirmed that, thanks again, if only I was rich and lived in Texas.

honestly the last few minutes of that video stopped me in my tracks while i was cleaning and made me break down into tears. i haven’t been able to cry in weeks, i’ve been through so many painful experiences lately. i’ve had to be so relied on and my boyfriend has shown me no respect for the strong woman that i am, always tidying up after him even through the loss of my eldest rat who i loved so much i know we aren’t personal friends but your reassurance and understanding nature makes me feel so much more comfortable in my skin and i’m so grateful

@xxyy1318

2 жыл бұрын

Sorry for your loss! Rats are the sweetest ♥️🐾♥️🐾

This was so nice ❤️ I was recently diagnosed with BPD. And I have been doing work my entire life unbeknownst to me without knowing the label. I'm what you would consider a high conscientious quiet bordeline. I act in, so it's not noticeable to anyone other than me and sometimes not even me. It is hard to explain to anyone how intense we can feel and how painful it is. The hours spent crying or trying to push down emotions that feel like a tornado, all while wearing a smile. I want to give hope to others with BPD...it is highly treatable with the proper tools. I think we will always have triggers and struggles, but we can recognize what is happening and learn how to cope in better ways. I have read horror stories of what people think this is and I can't imagine people thinking this about me 😭 I am terrified of rejection and abandonment, but not with everyone. They are internal feelings I feel that create confusion within intimate relationships. I can't read texts right, or interpret messages back to me when triggered. I'm on a blind emotional, word vomit mission, with plenty of crying. It feels like I'm losing control of my thoughts and emotions. I have said over and over to my partner that I am sorry and I do not mean it. I don't know that people can truly understand how we lose control and it's like a motor that takes over on high speed and we can't catch up with the emotional reactions to stop them. I have said a million times I would never cry or react that way again and bam...trigger...right back in it. Mind you though, I am reacting to what I believe is still something to be triggered by, maybe just more of a reckless reaction than cause for. It's a feeling that we don't even know where it coming from or where it is going. None of us look the same in how we cope or show symptoms, if we even do show any outwardly. Thank you for having compassion. I am not a manipulative person and am so loving. I avoid relationships at all costs. When I do get in an intimate relationship...it happens on accident and then I'm stuck for what feels like forever, even if it feels toxic. I want them to leave, but I don't want them to go. I want to trust them, but I can't. It's so complicated and hard, ugh. I love these videos they speak so much truth. So many make us look crazy and it makes me sad for anyone with BPD.

@veronicaabosi4461

2 жыл бұрын

Jennifer, thanks for sharing and your honesty. My heart goes out to you.

@BetteBlaze13

2 жыл бұрын

This post is a self-portrait of my mind. It's nice to know I'm not alone. Thanks for sharing.

@jenniferparks5901

2 жыл бұрын

@@BetteBlaze13 you're welcome ❤️ it feels so heavy so often, but ya know what gets me through it? I always remind myself nothing is constant...good or bad...so when it's bad...I know the good is right around the corner. Much love to you and lots of healing. It ain't easy, but it is more than possible to survive this thing we call BPD and to recover to the best of our ability. One day, one moment, and one second at a time ❤️ you're unique and wonderful, we all are and that's seriously a blessing.

@jenniferparks5901

2 жыл бұрын

@@veronicaabosi4461 thank you ❤️

@tanbooh

2 жыл бұрын

"...I want them to leave, but I don't want them to go." Hard to explain the complexity of that situation to any normal person 😞 Thanks for sharing @Jennifer Parks.

While I have the deepest sympathy for those with BPD who genuinely want help and manage their life… I have been in a relationship with a person with BPD and cluster b disorder for 14 years and given all of myself both physically and mentally, it’s never enough, it’s like pouring into a black hole. I have been left feeling absolutely broken and depleted and have nothing left to give. This person has now gone on to find someone else to support them and try to fill the empty void. I feel so much for the people who try to help, but have been left once they have been emptied of all sympathy and resources.

@DrDanielFox

Жыл бұрын

I certainly hear your empathy and what you’re reporting are certainly one of the challenging aspects of being in a relationship with someone with this disorder. I think that is why it is so critical for the individual with BPD to recognize their own needs and that external validation is not going to fill that emptiness. Thanks again and be well.

@holgerbehrens186

Жыл бұрын

Hi Sue. I also suffer from bpd and I can just say your partner did not target you or deliberately set out to cause you harm. I have such "voilent" uncontrollable emotions when in relationships. The more we love the more we doubt and the more hurt we feel. So eventually it just becomes too much as we are constantly bombarded with expectations of rejection and inferiority. It is an impossible downward spiral. And I am always utterly destroyed when I relationship ends. Doomed if you do and doomed if you don't. So wish you healing and joy with hope that my comments helped just a tiny teeny bit.

@vlst8715

Жыл бұрын

Sorry to hear that. I come from a household full of abusive borderlines, I also have quite a history of dating people with the disorder, and recently I had to come to terms with the fact that I myself also suffer from it. And I want to say - *I feel you*. I know from my own experience how destructive borderline abuse can be, this is why I have BPD in the first place. It really depends though. Some of the borderlines I know are the sweetest, kindest people I've ever met, and the only ones who were able to deeply empathize and connect with me so far. Those are the people who have literally saved me during the toughest times. This was a tough pill to swallow, given my personal history of trauma and internalised stigma, but what I've learned is that despite having a lot in common, we all as individuals are too different to be compared. It depends on how much insight a person has and which coping strategies they use. The comorbidities are a big factor, too. This is why I firmly believe stigma has no place in the conversation, it leaves us no room for growth. Again, sorry about your experience. And good luck, I hope you will find someone who's right for you.

@holgerbehrens186

Жыл бұрын

@@vlst8715 Thank you for making the effort to send a reply. And thank you for sharing your views and experience. I also feel your hurt and want to extent my deepest empathy. I wish you well and may you find a truer you in the shortest possible time. And good luck to you too. Stigma is indeed a blocker for healing and improvement. I suspect trauma has the same or similar effect on most people. The reason for this is: I spent a couple of years with a program Adult Children of Alcoholics (sister organization of the AA - 12 step program) and felt quite at home there. When I started the program I wanted to tell my fellow members "you are so normal" - little did I know that I was just as dysfunctional as they were. Throughout my adult life I had severe depression and social phobias. I kept going but is steadily got harder and harder, because I kept on messing up and spoiling things. About 8 years ago I suffered a total breakdown - and only then I became aware that I may have some other issues - of which depression is only a symptom. Since then I have been looking for answers and I think that I have only found the true answer after viewing Dr. Fox's videos. At age 56. I have in essence missed my life - despite making much effort for success. (Managed to self sabotage all and every possibility of success.) For any BPD sufferers: I hope you get help early on in your life. This is a truly destructive "disease".

@vlst8715

Жыл бұрын

@@holgerbehrens186 Thank you so much! It's very nice of you and I can relate to every word you've said. I’m sorry, it’s such a terrible situation to be in. I know exactly what you mean. I feel negative emotions at a crippling intensity. I don't take difficult social situations well, which pretty much means I can't fit in. All I ever wanted is to be left alone in peace. So I dropped college and became a recluse to avoid further mental breakdowns. That’s how I’ve wasted first 25 years of my life. Granted, I tried all I could think of to "fix" myself, but those frantic efforts have only retraumatized me more. Because like you I had no idea what the root cause was and the healthcare system has failed me miserably. And here I am, missed many opportunities for adapting to society and gaining vital skillsets in time, completely unprepared for independent life. Struggling with mundane activities, feeling like a failure. I was lucky enough to be born shortly before what I would call a legitimate era of psychological enlightenment. Although I remember that even ten years ago there was practically no useful, comprehensible information on the topic, especially in my first language. At least we have these resources now. It's never too late to heal and hope for the better. I agree with your thoughts on trauma, I’ve come to view it as a root of most mental health problems, if not all of them. Take a look at these channels if you get a chance, I find them extremely helpful: Healthy Gamer GG, “Here's Why Trauma Is So Common” - just what you’ve mentioned, different ways trauma manifests itself and solutions. Otherwise Dr. K is a phenomenal specialist in many areas, as well as a teacher. kzread.info/dash/bejne/aoifxLJtiMnNl7A.html On the Line - great resource from a fellow BPD survivor. www.youtube.com/@onthelinecommunity The Personal Development School - attachment styles and how they affect relationships. www.youtube.com/@ThePersonalDevelopmentSchool Crappy Childhood Fairy - enough said, childhood trauma and coping skills. www.youtube.com/@CrappyChildhoodFairy

I realised on thursday that I had unattainable and unrealistic attachment to the mother I need in a mother who is incapable of being that mother. Then I watch this and it reinforces that insight. Even though it is hard just reviewing this diagnoise 2 months ago I feel proud and intrigued by the journey and personal growth involved. Thank you.

@lifeontheedge2444

2 жыл бұрын

@A. W. M. yes compassion starts with self compassion...a massive part of my journey, thank you

@lifeontheedge2444

2 жыл бұрын

@Elliot i agree. It's not about blame or failure. It's about me being able to have the quality of life that I deserve after 49 years of living with BPD with no diagnoise or support. Everyone faces difficult choices in their lives and this is one of mine.

@lifeontheedge2444

2 жыл бұрын

@Elliot I agree. With must know and fully understand our back stories. Giving us valuable insight and purpose and meaning.

@getshorty7549

2 жыл бұрын

I don’t know why these women just don’t go get a gold fish or sea monkeys or pet rocks rather than taking on the task of tearing live human children

*EDIT two years later, turns out I'm autistic with c-ptsd lol* This was so refreshing and validating. Doctors have described my BPD as "quiet" so explaining DSM-5 symptoms to people has always made me feel like a phony as I don't act out like a typical boderline. Your description actually fits, so thank you!

@luishizaru

2 жыл бұрын

I also have “quiet” BPD. Doctor Fox’s explanation fits my experience just perfectly too

@kareninman2865

2 жыл бұрын

My husband has 8 of the nine spectrums and his emotions he cannot control! His go to is rage,violence,hollering,yelling and has black out verbal destructive behavior that has cost him a lot of arrest and then overcompensates by inordinate calmness, and claims to not remember.

@sarita8245

2 жыл бұрын

@@kareninman2865 BPD Is a spectrum. So he seems pretty high on the scale. Encourage him to get help or make a choice for yourself. While yes it's sad people who have BPD you ultimately decide what you put up with.

@finnie

2 жыл бұрын

The DSM is a such a double edged sword, can be helpful but I feel in a lot of cases not always!

@trussell7488

2 жыл бұрын

@@kareninman2865 but you’re on KZread comments shit talking your partner, what do you to to their face if this is what you do behind their back

I would love to see a video on people who have BPD who carry the trauma the many of us face with our home life at a young age but also endured severe bullying in school. I know this is a very specific topic but as an adult that has been working to manage BPD for some time those childhood memories of bullying creep into my head when alone and the shame and pain feels like it's happening in the present. I have to wonder if there are others who expirence this and how to cope. Maybe it's a form of disassocation? It's painful. Even in your 30's!

@DrDanielFox

2 жыл бұрын

Reconciling old scars is not easy. Stay strong and stay the course. Be well.

I grew up thinking my family was perfect, after waking up to reality..father abandoned me at 6 months, mother abandoned me atv6byrs old..moved w mom after grandma died at 13. I believe mom was Bpd, step dad narcissistic alcoholic, married at 17 to a drug addict covert, sister slep w my husband and alienated my daughter when i became reactive to his abuse, other sister stepped over boundaries and pretend to be my daughter savior...than she tells me no one likes me...the ultimate discard. Yes. I almost died but ive been recovering ever since..im now 54 and strong and striving!!!thanks for your videos..they have confirmed and explained so much!!!

"... People grow up feeling like they were treated unfairly..." Excuse me if I don't quote that exactly right but I get the idea. Thank you so much for your videos. I was diagnosed with BPD in 2001 and again with BPD vs. Complex PTSD in 2015. Not all people with BPD were abused or traumatized or treated unfairly. I think that's one of the ways BPD differs from complex PTSD. Many (not all!) borderlines (including myself) *may really have been treated unfairly* . However I believe that even if I was treated unfairly, that's life, sometimes, and we don't always have control over that. Life does involve very unfair treatment lots of times. This can be difficult for non-borderlines to deal with too. Much of the experience I've had with symptoms *has been my struggle with wondering if people have malicious intentions towards me or not* . I have to live in a society everyday where I feel that people don't care. The thing is I have to own that feeling, whether it's true or not. Much of a the time they really don't care, but it's the way I respond to it that counts. I don't want to run around feeling entitled all the time either. That is exhausting and I give off worse vibes when I do that and cause more problems around me. I'm struggling right now with integrating my own humanity in the world of other humanity. Regardless whether my experiences are real or imagined, I'm still responsible for how I behave and for my attitude. Thanks again! I will continue to watch. 😀💜

@DavidAKZ

3 ай бұрын

Where do you think the rage comes from?

You have no idea how many lives you have impacted. It's been such a dark lonely road with BPD but your videos have helped me understand my bpd. I finally feel seen. Thank you

I am so sick and tired of being told I'm not "normal" ... thank you, for making me feel accepted even for a short amount of time

@DrDanielFox

2 жыл бұрын

I’m glad this video helped. Stay strong and I wish you well.

I love you Dr Fox, you saying we, bpd's, are hurting inside brought me to tears.. you are an amazing man and I love you for raising attention to this debilitating disorder. To you Dr Fox, I commend you, for you have given me hope and eased the preconceived notion that I'm not normal. I am normal, worthy and lovable, although I'm so misunderstood by every loved one in my life as I see it, you have given me the strength and knowledge to start accepting and loving who I am, for that I thankyou immensely! My wish is to meet you in this lifetime, for your posts have given me hope, courage and acceptance of who I am. With gratitude, Trina from Tasmania Australia xoxo

This is the best explanation of BPD i’ve ever heard. I wish my therapists and doctor would have told me this many years ago. Thank you for this, it will help me in my recovery.

@DrDanielFox

9 ай бұрын

Thanks. Glad you found it helpful.

Hi my BPD friends, I love you all ❤

@dM_gH

2 жыл бұрын

❤

It’s really touching how much you care ♥️

I recently found out I prolly have bpd, been in a cycle of hurting my exs and it has become a patter recently lost the best thing ever last year. All you content is very good for helping curb it as I can't afford therapy.

You are an integral part of my wellness journey. I can't believe how I can see clearly, now, everything I'd been thinking/doing. I love CBT and DBT. At 63, I'm finally living my life and loving every single minute of every single day. 🥰🥰

@rjrnj1

2 жыл бұрын

@@maxwellmark8415 you left out the "1".

@rjrnj1

2 жыл бұрын

@@maxwellmark8415 Doing great. And yes, thank you. Same to you.

@rjrnj1

2 жыл бұрын

@@maxwellmark8415 What exactly is it that "Sounds great to hear"?

@rjrnj1

2 жыл бұрын

@@maxwellmark8415 In response to my telling you that I'm doing well and so is my family, your response is a bit over the top, don't you think? 😉 And P.S. We're not friends, yet. 😁

@pixieheart9303

2 жыл бұрын

I'm 61 and have lost hope. I don't want to live like this anymore

I recently found your channel. I'm in therapy for my diagnosis of BPD. I was diagnosed at 56 and find as an older woman, my journey in treatment is going really rough 😢. I definitely agree with the genetic and environmental aspects of this disorder. And there are too many days I grieve the amazing child I was before trama/abuse.

@meowmom3296

Жыл бұрын

I'm 59, got my diagnosis 10 years ago. For the last 8 years I've been celibate. I avoid relationships because in the beginning I stop at the 1st red flag 🚩 now. I'm happy being single. I just don't feel I have time to deal with someone in my age group that can't treat me respectful.

This disorder is very misunderstood even by clinicians. I was fortunate to have been treated by the most understanding, patient and resilient physician and over time, I got better. I no longer fear rejection. I value myself enough today and feel competent enough to care for myself. I’m no longer angry and bitter at life and people from my past who could not love me because they too were unloved. I’m not as sensitive as I once was. I try and be more sensitive to others feelings and needs. I’m finally in a good place of acceptance that this is what it is and other than the hurt I caused to others, I wouldn’t change the lessons this life has taught me. I am love. I need not seek it out in others. The work you do is invaluable to our community Dr. Fox. God protect you and bless you in every way. ❣️

@pokeround

2 жыл бұрын

Very encouraging. "...people from my past who could not love me because they too were unloved". Yes, tragically true.

People suffering with Bpd have never had reciprocation from loved ones...real feedback that is not judgemental...but compassionate...we are looking for that...everyone needs feedback from a real friend, or therapist...you do that so well...with empathy & compassion, understanding...thank you so much...

@jennifermaxine2453

2 жыл бұрын

@@enaquasanitas7017 What are you talking about? Are you a troll?

@jennifermaxine2453

2 жыл бұрын

@@enaquasanitas7017 Sounds like you are confused....theres no problem with that...only your own

Your compasssion and understanding touched me deeply I'm sobbing from gratitude. Thank you for understanding, thank you for not having stigmatized, thank you for not having rejected... Thank you so much.

@DrDanielFox

Жыл бұрын

You are so welcome

I have BPD with Narcissist learned traits. I am a survivalist of Narcissist abuse. I am now free of Narcissist and getting therapy. I can breathe again. Good info here, thank you.

I found this not only helpful Dr. Fox but so hopeful and compassionate. Thank you for your sharing your gift

So... I want to write a book when I overcome this. If I can't write it myself, I want someone to write it for me. I can't concentrate long enough. Between the physiological issues and my psychiatric issues, my knowledge on the subjects, and my navigation of the medical, juducual, and recovery based living systems, I am well spoken and offer my experience as a single mom that somehow made it to this journey of self exploration. I am grateful.

@Coldnfallen

Жыл бұрын

After all... I am Mr. Garrisons legitimate daughter. My dad was a third grade teacher with the last name Garrison. My life mimicked a cartoon for decades. Mom even left for Canada in 1999. Blame Canada, he sang...

Unstable destructive behaviour my whole life I’ve just recently realised my emotions are extremely unstable. (20 years old) then came across this term called BPD and I got shocked. I felt this way my entire life (the rapid change in emotions and mood) so I didn’t know something was wrong with me, I thought everyone else feel that way. I can relate to so many things regarding this illness I need to get my self diagnosed!!!!!! (English not 100%) .

BPD is a curse. I've lived with it for 65 years. My mother reinforces it by blocking me and applying the silent treatment when she thinks I'm 'naughty' and at 91 years of age, she is doing this as we speak. It's a tough one xx

@wilson8979

2 жыл бұрын

Can you leave your mom alone? She sounds abusive. I deal with it from my mom. I’m not talking to her.

@devonrexcatz

2 жыл бұрын

@@wilson8979I have no choice but to leave her alone. She hasn't spoken to me for a month. She's not well either so I'm supposed to now be worried and concerned from a distance. It's a ploy that's played out all my life. You probably know it well by the sound of it xx

@pcavesnana

2 жыл бұрын

If you feel guilty, you can send your mom a card. In the meantime, embrace your 65 year old "naughty" self. One of the perks of getting old. I'm 68 and sometimes i say the eff word. And i wish my cane could shoot poison darts. Lol In other words, cut yourself some slack. We are great at beating ourselves up. Wishing you good things. Take care of yourself.

@devonrexcatz

2 жыл бұрын

@@pcavesnana Thanks for that! I had a bit of a laugh...the cane with poison darts. I'm an artist and was actually thinking of doing a portrait of her dog for her and mailing it. But am I doing this because she's old and not well, because I feel guilty because I don't drive 100km every week to stay with her or because I'm subconsciously continuing a cycle of dependency. I don't need her bs. My 60 year old brother said, stay away...she's toxic. All the best to you also. Much love. Belinda xx

@pcavesnana

2 жыл бұрын

@@devonrexcatz I'll be thinking of you. 🤞 Pam

Thank you so much, life is hard every day and every little positive constructive comments and information are gratefully received

the level of compassion that you bring to this conversation moved me to tears and i don’t even have bpd. i do however struggle with adhd, anxiety & depression so i can definitely align with feeling like i’m literally living life on hard mode for no reason. thank you for taking the time to educate with love.

@DrDanielFox

2 ай бұрын

Your kind words mean a lot to me. I'm glad I could resonate with you on a personal level.

Thank you for this video. This exactly describes every single night I've experienced in my life. The amount of pain is overwhelming indeed, especially as you realize how disproportionate things can be yet your instinct and nature is always to take you there.

@DrDanielFox

Жыл бұрын

Glad it was helpful!

Awww Dr. Fox, you made me cry. Thank you for this very special video. Pleaase know you have such a positive effect on your listeners. You are wise and compassionate. I have been healing myself for 7 years now, and I am truly amazed that has been possible. And working! A daily awareness has been ny guiding light. Thank you for your dedication. I listen to you often.

I suffer from BPD and your videos help me to increase my insight on my condition. It is so true, this condition causes a lot of pain and so much of that pain comes from people who don't understand.

Bpd is being homesick when you are at home

I've watched many of your (and others) BPD videos, this is the first time I've noticed a mention of being born with it instead of focusing on the lack of nurturing or other applied trauma.

My ex had been diagnosed w/ BP type 2 and BPD as a child, which she admitted to me, shortly after we started dating. I didn't know enough about it, and shrugged it off, which i eventually regretted doing. She put me through hell and as a result of the emotionally abusive relationship that i was in, i also ended up developing severe depression and anxiety. After i ended the relationship, i learned a lot about these disorders, in an attempt to to understand/humanize the condition, to try to cope with what i had endured from this person, but to this day, i still cannot fathom how someone, that appeared to be so loving, caring and affectionate, turned into a complete psychopathic monster, who tried to ruin my life....i'm talking about my family, my career, everything and anything that meant something to me, she tried to destroy. Such people are not fit to be in society. They should have a special place to remain, where they CANNOT harm other people.

@cherylsapcote7327

2 жыл бұрын

I am so sorry. I have watched a BPD friend do this to others and always hoped they could find and maintain a good relationship at the end of the day. I feel terrible for those who were cast aside and blamed as they were almost without exception kind decent people. It is a miserable condition for all involved 🤕😥🥺

Watching your videos helps me feel less "crazy" and way more understood- thank you ❤

I've been diagnosed with BPD when I was 19. I'm 32 now. First things first, we're not all "confused" and "illogical". The way that BPD manifests itself in different individuals is highly variable, and people are all different. I happen to be highly self-aware of my own cognition, affect, and behavior. It wasn't always that way, especially not in the beginning, when I was first diagnosed. But at this point, I've had plenty of personal experiences, as well as plenty of formal education (and research I've done on my own time), which eventually lead to a much greater understanding of my condition over the years. So yeah, firstly, with the whole "How can I destroy your life today" thing, that definitely applies more to ASPD than BPD. We don't typically TRY to destroy anyone's life, not on purpose, at least. True - sometimes, if someone really pisses us off, we might want to get revenge on that person. Such a thing is possible, but also rare. When it does happen, though, we don't sit there and think and plot about it; we act on impulse due to our extreme anger at the time (which, by the way, doesn't last very long). And we also often regret what we've done if it's already happened or change our minds about doing it altogether. But the point is, we don't actually intend to hurt people as much as we just want OUR OWN negative emotions to go away. That's the reality of it, and that's what most people don't seem to understand about us. They think that we purposely mean to hurt or manipulate them, but we don't. But there's very little actual "thinking" involved in that - we act on pure, raw emotion. Also, I'm glad you clarified that there is no actual known cause for BPD because as soon as I clicked this video that was my first thought, looking at the title of it. There is NO KNOWN CAUSE at this point and time for this disorder. Researchers speculate many different things, but nothing has been proven as of yet. We don't know whether there is an actual genetic predisposition to this or not. We theorize that there is, but we don't "know". Also, if true, a genetic predisposition doesn't necessarily mean that you WILL have BPD when you get older. Most likely, it's a combination of both genetic and environmental factors (trauma, social risk factors, and other perceived negative life experiences). But again, point is, all there is is theory, not fact. And again, none of us are exactly alike nor do we act exactly alike. The main thing MOST of us have in common is that we certainly are scared as hell of being abandoned, but our specific behaviors and thinking processes are all different.

@padraigfarrell2413

2 жыл бұрын

yes all very true from my experiences too!

@marizona8334

Жыл бұрын

I haven’t been diagnosed yet. But the points made in the video as well as your comment , describe my situation perfectly. Unbelievable

@Sonna-pq2zx

8 ай бұрын

I appreciate this. I actually found the quotes by Dr Gunderson in this video to be highly invalidating. No, I didnt “feel” I was treated unfairly-I WAS treated unfairly. And no, I was not genetically predisposed to being highly emotional and sensitive to rejection. My life experience did that to me. I swear, some of these psychiatrists are bullies. Lots of victim blaming going on here. I looked up Dr Gunderson’s Wikipedia biography and apparently he could be quite an a-hole to his patients.

@miss_8thwonder

6 ай бұрын

I would like to ask you or say you something

@DavidAKZ

3 ай бұрын

Where do you think the rage comes from?

What a beautiful thing to say! That we can be amazing and productive people in society when we reach certain stability. Through art (drawing) I want to express all this emotions we often feel and show the world how it is. When someone asked me how I felt, mostly at the beginning of this illness, I just showed them one of my drawings and I think they understood it better that way, they looked a little bit shocked by some details in the image but at the same time showed empathy and compassion.

This video is so direct in confronting this issue, I don't think I have ever seen it explained so succinctly. This is wonderful I really needed to hear this and I would definitely use it to reach out to those who don't understand.

@2okaycola

2 жыл бұрын

Succinctly**

@manhathaway

2 жыл бұрын

@@2okaycola aaaaaa thank you I couldn't figure that out for the life of me!

That paragraph was the reason GFE Ladies were my goto. Everything was understood up front. May not have been real, but perfectly matched my needs.

i literally cried watching this.

Thank you, doctor Fox. One of the most expert about this illness that the majority of people do not understand and invalidate constantly. Facts!

Dr. Fox, thank you so much for these videos. I appreciate the work that you do and your compassion for the personality disorder community and your focus on BPD. Your videos are never demoralizing, neither is your work book.

Thank you so much I think ur helping me Change my life for the better I’ve been watching ur videos for a couple weeks now and I feel like I understand myself a bit more. Every little thing makes me feel like my world is crashing down. I don’t want people to leave me but my self destructive behavior and attitude makes it draining for people to be around me or stay with me. I feel my relationship is failing as I’m typing this I’m trying to get better so that I can make it last this time. I feel so miserable and unlovable and undeserving of anything good. Something as simple as my boyfriend not texting me back sends me into a spiral I feel insane but ur videos help me calm down a lot and I thank you for that.

Hi I just want to say thank you for making videos for BPD. Currently I'm crying since my mom doesn't want to hear about my illness and I lost all my friends. I feel so lonely right now and unloved. I feel so hopeless. But you give me hope. I'm going to therapy soon. I hope I'll survive. Its really hard, I feel like a demon. Not worth living anymore.

Dr Fox, I recently heard a mental health professional state that people with bpd that this is them, their personality. It's not a mental disorder as bp. This is disturbing to me. So, I am that person that can (rare now) lash out, that is tender hearted, that is me that causes the inability to make friends , and keep family around. This is my choice? I read where it says we know what we're doing. I don't. I didn't know I was being selfish to my very sick friend, that I was hard to deal with bc of my drastic emotions, or that I can say one thing for it to be taken another way. When I am around people out reinforces that I don't want nor need to be. There are so FEW who know or understand bpd. I suffer the paranoia with a lot of stress. Therapist don't get that or the how you just kind of leave your mind but you're there but not. Again the main question... This is me? Like I'm choosing to hurt people when I long and try to help others?

Thank you for your compassionate explanation of a disorder which is even portrayed as an evil manipulative disorder. I never resonated with DSM description of the symptoms either. It's too broad and basically describes extreme behaviours which isn't the common in majority of BPDs

Thank you for being an advocate for those of us who suffer with BPD!

That paragraph hit home cleanly. Sometimes I experience moments of constant “internal swinging”, as I know it. It always changes and sometimes is most definitely involuntary. I’m not saying I have BPD, but it does encourage me to seek a form on negation or confirmation. It would be assuring to have an answer, otherwise often times I wind up thinking “maybe it’s just me”. Thank you for this video

Thank you for your seriousness in this video. BPD, PPD here and I finally have help at 55. This video is super validating and helpful.

@DrDanielFox

Жыл бұрын

Glad it helped!

The first quote made me realized why I misbehaved sometimes when I was a kid....

7:35 made me cry. thank you for reminding that recovery is possible

please do remember. BPD is just a flavoring. It doesn't define the life. for lofe is hard for everyone and no one survives

Where did you get your “Happy Everything” plate? It’s fabulous and I’d love something so positive on my desk.

You do so much for people with BPD, Dr. Fox. Thank you for your insightful and compassionate videos. Watching your channel and becoming more self aware of my patterns of behavior has inspired me to start DBT. I'm a few months in now and my main goal right now is to be able to bring myself down from high intensity emotional states. Still struggling but I have that pesky thing that keeps me going...hope :) Thanks again!

I always love your videos, but how you closed this one with so much compassion and a positive outlook on what people with BPD can be like was beyond heartwarming. Thank you.

I dated a covert Narcissist...he used me to become an agent...he gaslit me, accused me of what he was doing...he used reverse victim blame...to win over me ..he used me as a punching bag, & when I went off, he accused me of being the abuser....all borderlines need to seek domestic violence classes...so your abuser doesn't get the upper hand...I am a survivor...I have had my head bashed into the concrete, by my narcissistic boyfriend....he punched me, kicked me bashed my head into my own car....then he had a gun pulled on him...he ran away....he always played victim...& he was a drug addict ...he was abusive when I was sober ...I almost lost my life from staying with a Narcissist...he almost killed me. Then made me feel guilty. No more guilt here. I am free...& If he made me miserable enough to be suicidal...they would enjoy it. Sadists

I used to have bpd. I do not anymore. My destructive patterns landed me in the hospital away from my family. I told myself STOP, I will not continue these patterns anymore! It was a conscious decision, and now I have much more control over my emotions. It’s all about deliberate self control and resisting the urge to rage. To the people saying they are “sufferers” of bpd, I beg to differ. I too, thought I was a “sufferer” until I made the conscious, deliberate effort to control my anger and emotions when my needs were not being met. I decided to practise gratitude instead. I decided to look at the glass half full instead of half empty. I am much happier now!

@DrDanielFox

Жыл бұрын

That is wonderful! I’m glad to hear that you are doing well and I wish you all the best. Thank you for sharing your experience.

@aliya2260

Жыл бұрын

@@DrDanielFox Thank you doctor

Thank-you for caring Doctor Daniel Fox! & for giving us a voice. & all the work you do for people living with BPD! You will never know what you do for our Community & how much it means to us! 😊

It's taken months of learning about BPD to finally realize that the thing that may have produced this in my daughter was her growing up in hiding because we made the permanent break from my psychopathic momwhen she was 6. We had to stop contact with everyone we knew to protect ourselves from her.

@DrDanielFox

Жыл бұрын

I’m sorry to hear of your experience but I’m glad the videos are helpful.

100% bang on, brilliant description

It'll be interesting to see how our knowledge advances in the coming years and how much more we will understand the genetics and physiology. The symptoms sound at times like the way some who have ADHD have described their emotions. I understand ADHD and BPD are often comorbid.

Thank you for everything you do here online. Having these videos to supplement my therapy is invaluable. Gaining more perspective and in depth information whenever I need it is truly a life saver. I cannot say thank you enough.

I am crying right now. Thank you for making this

Wow! That explains me in a way that is eye opening. Now I can be more aware of my BPD reactions and hopefully stop them in their tracks. Thank you so much!

3:22 . It’s really wild to think about. It’s my experience, even down to the past relationships upon reflecting

Dr. Fox, I appreciate the fact that you understand us so well, if only so many others did it would be so difficult. I find I have to hide most of the time now, not to many people understand me or try. I do appreciate your videos, and the time you spend with us, thank you.

Thank you, Dr. Fox. That gave a lot of clarity

Thank you for your compassionate nature towards people with BPD. You are the most postivity-focused mental health professional I've come across in regards to this disorder. Your thoughts at the end about what we are capable of really spoke to me!

I have watched this more than 20 times or more. Usually when I'm so unsure why I have been the way I've been all this time because I never understood why! This video gives me hope in a way, it's so validating, and I just can't help but tear up everytime. Thank you.

Your channel a treasure trove of info, I have been watching your videos for the past 1yr or so since I received my diagnosis. One of the great Doctors of Texas right here.

That's the thing, it's very hard to even think I can. I don't see the "progress" people talk about with me and it frustrates me more

listening to this video brings me to tears every time. I replay it to remind myself i'm not hopeless, & to explain myself to others.

i was crying during this video. 😢💔 my heart felt heavy to watch ur explanations. it all makes sense why i don't know who i am 😢 i always feel empty and looking for something idk.

Dr. Fox thanks so much ❤for your dedication, time, effort, heart and love for your career and your patients, and for us who are not your patients but are listening always to you. GOD bless you 🙏always

Thank you for this thoughtful and hopeful message.

Absolutely fantastic video- thank you for helping me understand my diagnosis better and also being compassionate 💚

Thank you for all the videos and work you do. My daughter has just got your book and she's been doing better. 💕

You have no idea how helpful this is!!! Wish I knew about this 40 something years ago..Thank you so much!

Great video, I love the way you are able to express optimism for people with BPD. Thanks!

Your videos are so amazing. I will be showing this to my support persons. Thank you so much.

thank you so much for your videos. They have been instramental in helping me not only understand my BPD but also how to work through and heal.

Dr. Fox, thank you for sharing your insights and for your obvious God-given compassion for those who struggle so much with this disorder. Each video you share ends on a hopeful note! This video is definitely worth listening to over again because knowledge empowers and understanding brings light into an otherwise dark existence. Thank you again!

Thank you Dr, this open a whole world of compassion and understanding.

I have been watching a lot of these borderline personality disorder videos I was diagnosed with bipolar but watching these videos I feel it's deeper, I have borderline personality disorder which one I don't know it could be all. This content really helps me and my wife sit in bed and watch and get a better understanding of what's wrong with me. My wife just said she loves you and thank you for helping us understand me a little better.

Thank you for another great video! As someone who is 39 years old diagnosed with ADHD/Depression/Anxiety I am just now learning what BPD is and while I don't think I have full on BPD I know for sure I have many of the traits and coping mechanisms. It's nice to have hope that maybe with help I can finally form some lasting relationships this time around. Thanks again!

Great explanation of a very complicated and very often misunderstood mental illness that’s often looked at in a negative light and viewed as taboo.

Thank you for the comprehensive compassionate explanation. It was highly emotional for me. My inner child sobbed. To this day the genetic disposition is such a big question mark for me. Three of us and yet I am the one with these markers. Also, thank you for stressing that we don’t set about ‘destroying’ people’s lives.

@rosaliagallo931

2 жыл бұрын

@@maxwellmark8415 greetings Maxwell

@rosaliagallo931

2 жыл бұрын

@@maxwellmark8415 thank you. Glad to hear. We are well also.

Thank you for your videos. This is by far the most accurate explanation of BPD I’ve come across