Your videos have helped me more than anything. ANYTHING. I am 13 months off Klonopin and just beginning to see light. Thank you for your courage and willingness to help. God bless you.

@sangeetalambh6389

3 жыл бұрын

Kathy did u feel fatigue like no spirit in body stomach cramps feet sweating in ur withdrawal please answer I m 88 days sober

For those reading the comments ..I'm 3 years off Benzo's ... it does heal! It's not permanent , but it won't be on your timeline.. eat healthy, exercise, and learn to meditate... you CAN do this ! And you'll be better for it ❤❤❤ thank you for keeping your journey documented ant!

@Link-ny9xz

7 жыл бұрын

benzo awareness - have you learned to meditate.. I can remember transforming my mind from being terribly anxious to finding peace through you tube meditations.. I truly believed it helped me recover ..

@kvakma

7 жыл бұрын

Levi - Always nice to hear encouraging words from one who's been there. Glad you are feeling / doing so much better ~ always appreciate the suggestions.

@jasonjason3776

7 жыл бұрын

Hey Levi.. long time.. how u doing? When exactly did u feel completely healed? After the 2 year mark did u get severe waves?

@Link-ny9xz

7 жыл бұрын

Jason Jason what's up man?! ant is right.. you kind of forget how bad things really were.. no waves anymore (that I can tell) hope you are well bro!

@jasonjason3776

7 жыл бұрын

Levi Doing ok bro having a kind of a wave now.. 27 months off.. u completely healed?

I'm 50years old I've been prescribed benzos for 25years ,it's only been a month that I've been off of the benzos . Thanks for the video. It is a huge epidemic and it's really the nastiest withdraw in my opinion. You hitted right on the nail man.

I'm going through this loss right now. Please make that other video as soon as you're able to. Your videos have helped me so much! Thank you endlessly for making them.

Boy, you have a gift to give hope. Bless ya

@sangeetalambh6389

3 жыл бұрын

Traccey H did u feel fatigue like no spirit in body stomach cramps and feet sweating in ur withdrawal please answer I m 88 days sober

@Suzannes2

Жыл бұрын

❤

Thanks again for these videos man, I've probably watched each of them at least 10 times as needed.

I got to say on six months in with thyroid issues added,having been through it before now kindling,great video you covered it completely,I listen to your video just lying with my eyes closed as I do so many,and you brought me back to last yer when I was still taking klonopin,I would cry couldn't handle my hell existance , that part you said hit a bump while riding in the car and you had to go back home,man that's so true,everything was such a problem,you were at your last straw,every minute every

You should be an actor! U have a VERY soothing and Convincing voice and captivating speaker & Cool Manerisms👍

Great video your videos truly give me hope that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you so much for your videos💜❤️

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

bubbalove keep fighting,your time of healing is comeing.

@bubbalove6651

7 жыл бұрын

Thank you!!❤️

This is the first time I’ve came across your channel and I listen to KZread every day to keep me going I am very grateful I am now 20 months out from pollydrugged and over a decade Benzodiazepine use. Do you remember how you were at 20 months or close to two years I will be two years on my birthday September 11 I am really wanting to get a place of my own I’ve been staying in my car I try to work but I have no dopamine it keeps making me binge eat sugar and I’ve got insulin resistance the sugar has been harder for me to stop then a benzo I pray to God I can work and maintain an apartment because I’m supposed to get an apartment mornings are the worst for me I get extreme anxiety and inner shaking it is horrendous. I used to work in a library before this shit. I lost my family and my pets. Now I’m fighting a narcissistic spouse in divorce it’s sucks so bad. I hate stress. Hugs my friend love ya for these. I can’t wait to be able to sit still and paint again and sew. I’m an artist and can’t do it anymore. I wish I would’ve stuck to street drugs like pot for insomnia but my spouse insisted I take something legal not pot. He’s the reason I got put on fucking benzodiazepine K. I pray someday he gets to experience AKATHISIA

@VladOnisor

6 күн бұрын

❤❤

very encouraging! been in protracted effexor withdraw for 2 years now. love your perspective and outlook.

@hollydavidson501

4 жыл бұрын

Danielle....did you cold turkey Effexor? How long were you on it? I was on Paxil for 20 uears and Ativan for 16 and was cold turkeyed off of both May 2018 but landed on Effexor....I tapered off of it over 5 months w a program called Point of Return and Im 2 months off of it....

Ant, giving hope to others is a wonderful quality and much needed!

God bless u man,i am going through this and waking up and walking around with that creepy paranoid feeling and scared of everything is overwhelming but I'm pushing through knowing it's all in my brain and not paranormal (I'm scared) even wind or lighting freaks me out..i can't wait to be normal..im happy you feel good again and pray for all of us to heal and hold on ..this has got to be the scariest thing that could happen to anybody..this shit could bring down the devil

I'm going through Rx valium withdrawal after taking it as prescribed for 10+ years. It's SEVERE. Haven't slept in 3 days, lost 10lbs already & have to force food & drink. Derealization; nothing makes sense. I see the white snow too-that just started. As you know, that's just the *tip* of the iceberg. Your videos are helping me *so* much. Please keep making them. You're helping me through. You're doing a wonderful thing. Thank you

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

Captain Howdy I'm definitely trying to get back into makeing more videos. Now that I know how to.

@nitzaperez7349

7 жыл бұрын

ANT1714! Thank you 👌😊 and God Bless you.

@scottk6383

7 жыл бұрын

Captain Howdy one day at the time, praying for you! You will get there!!

@captainhowdy4285

7 жыл бұрын

Scott Kee thanks Scott. Depression & extreme fatigue have set in. I can't even lift my hand to pet my cat. I'm constantly pouring sweat & my heart is always pounding. I live by myself & have no support whatsoever & I almost can't care for myself anymore but I refuse to go to a mental hospital. I'm just worried about having a psychotic break. Forced into a WAY too rapid taper: 30mgs to 20-14 day hold, 15mgs-14 day hold, 10mgs-14 day hold, 7.5mgs-14 day hold, now at 5. From here I have to make a 50% cut to 2.5mgs, then another 50% cut, then another. Thinking of just going cold turkey from here bcuz symptoms are already unbearable & I'm starting to have a paradoxical reaction to the valium. Thank you for the prayers~I need them as I'm all alone here 😳 Just suffering... I've never suffered like this before. I need to reinstate but the Dr's won't do it. Sometimes I hope I just have a seizure & die 😩 I know that's morbid but this is just about unbearable! Thanks again mate

@scottk6383

7 жыл бұрын

Captain Howdy how's things going man? I just figured out how to access comments. Hope things are looking up! One day at the time!🕉

heroin withdrawals is a baby's came compared to benzos....benzo suffers deserve a million in cash

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

5150 brah I agree,when I was going thru this I would literally be in tears crying cause I didn't choose to do heroin lol. Like seriously in tears...but there both bad. Just Benzo's tops the charts in the world of drugs.

@pinkgal206

7 жыл бұрын

5150 brah lol

@662dodz

6 жыл бұрын

Heroin withdrawal is like a case of the sniffles compared to benzodiazepine withdrawal

@anadaanurak9129

5 жыл бұрын

Hello, I’m on month 44 in the recovery from a protracted benzo, did a cold turkey, due to unavailable to get supply father Was on valium 10 mg for 25 years, got all of known and less known withdraw symptoms you cannot dream of The worst was ass-pain, CNS center pain, exploding brain, got fried alive, unable to speak clearly, arms and head severe twisting and flu symptom Anyhow all have passed now, was 98 percent healed 4 months ago, but the recurrence occurred and took me down to 90 percent, and back to 98 again in GABA receptors function without help

@Tracey..H

5 жыл бұрын

@@662dodz no joke

I love your videos dude; you're awesome!

So glad you are safe and sound again, Ant. Being addicted to benzos is not safe and sound, but like a horror story come to life. Glad you found and rescued yourself, and are enjoying freedom again. Your happiness makes me happy! 💗

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

zuditaka thank you,you were a big help to me.

@zuditaka

7 жыл бұрын

❤️ ❤️

Hi Ant, I'm so glad you made an updated video. I find your videos VERY helpful and thourough and you really keep it real while explaining your journey. I was wondering how'd you find a "Benzo-wise" doctor to let you taper this long and how did you see your doctor for refills when you couldnt even leave the house?

Another amazing inspiring video...great job !!!!!!

Thanks man, I really needed this video. I'm so alone in this from my gradual withdrawal from life. It doesn't feel like it's possible to get myself back most of the time. Occasionally I get some clarity and know it's not permanent.

@this-is-slammin-549

7 жыл бұрын

I'm 47 years old, I'm going to end up losing my job, my home everything I've worked for. How can I do this? I feel like my IQ has been cut in half. I'm looking at my body that's 30 lbs lighter than 2 months ago and I feel like I'm slowly separating from it. It's indescribable. I'm fucking scared.

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

i remember this feeling of terror,but keep in mind thats this terror is 100% chemical,I've been there myself,its very very scary. do you work a stressful job?and do you have any family that can help you thru this? a wife or girlfriend or kids? or siblings? this is going to get better.

@BMill88

4 жыл бұрын

This Is Slammin How are you now?

@francinemartinez-cruz3335

4 жыл бұрын

This Is Slammin did you heal

Thank you for continuing to make videos Ant.... you are so strong

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

YepItsHarderThanItLooks thank you. Your time is comeing Kristina,all these wasted years will be worth it.

@yepitsharderthanitlooks5344

7 жыл бұрын

benzo awareness blood tests dont lie. Google antiNMDA receptor encephalitis its like a CT to the brain daily. Dont judge me until you last a day in my body seizuring while on antiepileptics. Also funny ppl still remember me years after I left the fucking cult groups that threatend my life, slandered me. Dont take away from his post...he has helped keep me alive since 2014 as a friend. Grateful for him.

@yepitsharderthanitlooks5344

7 жыл бұрын

i was having seizures before the effing drug...explain that? i have positive Lyme I have positive antiNMDA...look up what antiNMDA does..... it attacks glutamate smh. you have no effing idea how much I suffer daily it is horrific hell nobody should endure. i can updose allll to hell and it doesnt help. Guess what that means? Not the drug. I dont umderstand how I cant comment on my friend who has got me through so much video without getting slammed by you cult idiots. its not always the effing drug....Ive spent enough money on blood tests, spinal taps, Neurologists to prove its not. Can you guys finally leave me the hell alone? Biggest mistake ever making videos on KZread because of the harassment I have endured.A lot of people wouldve killed themselves by now...and trust me its not like I havent tried. Im going to pray for you now that God may put his hand upon you and soften your heart, open your eyes and have compassion for those suffering with other issues.

@yepitsharderthanitlooks5344

7 жыл бұрын

and maybe you shouldnt hide behind a screenname and address me properly. You seem to know alllll about me somehow which is disgusting.

@Snide01

7 жыл бұрын

Wow

Dude, that was the most frank and to the point video i have seen on this subject. Everything you said made sense and especially for me. I know exactly what you went through and damn i wish i could transport myself to the end stage. Sadly my battle is only beginning, but i guess im lucky to have found a pretty good doctor that actually knows about benzo addiction/withdrawal and has studied in this field. So many doctors simply have no idea about the levels of danger, and the long term effects people will suffer when it comes to prescribing this medication. Although in the UK doctors are very strict on prescribing any kind of benzo. I started self medicating (buying diazepam on the street) but not literally. I just knew a friend that was bi-polar and she was being prescribed high doses of diazepam. But not just because of being bi-polar, she had a number of conditions. She was also a heroin addict, so would not take the diazepam and sell it to make money for other illegal drugs. I should mention, here in Britain (Or at least where i live) diazepam is not easy to get hold of. There is a high demand among people using or needing real pharmaceutical strength diazepam and not fake or rip off crap dealers try to sell. I mention this because its relevant to the position im now in. For about 2 years i was buying and taking roughly 60 to 70mg of diazepam a day for over two years. It just became normal to not have to worry about not sleeping or never wanting to eat. Off benzo's i never felt hungry or when i did eating was more of a chore than a pleasure. But its a double edge sword. Because benzo's can stop stomach pain brought on by hunger for example, it was easy for me to say fuck it and not even bother eating for days. Except for snack binges every now and then. I would just eat a few candy bars and drink nourishment shakes. But that just made me loose so much weight people would start to notice. I went from 180lbs well toned, to a mere 110lbs and im a 6 foot 2 guy. I know the American form of benzo's, like "xanax" is stronger than diazepam but the high doses of diazepam i was taking led me to some serious damage to my body, not to mention my mind. Athough i wasnt aware of that at the time. Xanax is impossible (to my knowledge) to get here by prescription or otherwise) Maybe not impossible, but im not going to trawl the whole country asking every stranger i meet for that or diazepam. Even though drugs like heroin and crack cocaine is available on every street corner here, so go figure! My problems all started about a month ago when the person i was buying the diazepam from simply dropped off the face of the earth. Her cell phone was switched off and her house had been boarded up. Now i had a 70mg a day diazepam addiction with no way of getting any more. Basically i was stranded at shit creek not only without a paddle, but now trapped inside my own very sober and fully conscious mind. To try to put into words exactly how i felt about 18hrs after my last dose of diazepam is well, too hard and too frightening to do. Im a strong person, i have a high pain threshold, im not nervous or had any previous experiences of anxiety. I joined the RAF as a soldier/ground engineer when i was 18. I have served in Bosnia, Northern Ireland and Sierra Leone. So im not what one would call faint of heart. I've seen a lot of bad shit on all sides including my own country. I guess that led to my ptsd and subsequent mis diagnosis and treatment. But thats another story. I fully except abusing benzos was my own fault, nobody pushed me into taking it and while i was ignorant of the effects/dangers, thats hardly an excuse. I was too afraid and ashamed to go to my doctor, and didnt think they would help me anyway. So i tried to go cold turkey. How bad can it be? so i thought..... Well, it was bad, probably the most horrific experience of my life and i have been shot twice. Rattling (withdrawal symptoms) from the diazepam fucked me up so much i couldnt even hold an intelligent conversation with anyone. I couldnt concentrate and anything, my mind would race from one crazy thought to the next. It was like someone had implanted a device in the back of my head just below the skull at the top of my spine, and someone else was controlling my thoughts and actions. The constant tingling sensation drove me nuts. After the first night i didnt even bother going to bed as it was impossible to even lie still nevermind sleep. I just lay on the sofa watching t.v. but not watching t.v. An endless cycle of channel hopping for hours and hours. After about 3-4 days of this i was starting to have intrusive thoughts. And after researching online about the withdrawals and how long it can take my head was gone. I just knew i couldnt stand feeling this way anymore and i remember taking out my service revolver and putting the barrel in my mouth. Having no family or close friends it would have been so easy for me to pull the trigger and not feel guilty about making anyone distressed in any way. After all, there was nobody to care right! Nobody to miss me for one second. My only thought was not wanting to fuck it up, and somehow survive. Then wake up in hospital with a reconstructed face. I know it seems silly now but at the time its weird what kind of shit goes through your mind. As a soldier i'd seen people survive some of the most terrible injuries that should really have killed them. Funny thing is i didnt once think about god or heaven. Maybe because i've never been a religious guy and i wasnt about to start wasting my last thoughts on that rubbish. But having said that, i am quite a spiritual person and i did think about my soul. My soul was the only unique, genuine, and special part of my very being i had left. Would it be a sin in some way to end it deliberately. What if after my mind and body were gone my soul was trapped here on earth. Just an empty shell of sadness destined to spend forever aimlessly roaming.... As im sure you worked out, i didnt pull the trigger. And even though that wasnt by far the worst part of my experience. I must be getting close to making the longest comment ever! lol My doctor started me on a tapering program of reduction without any set deadline. (Some doctors are like, "you got to be off benzos in one month or im stopping your treatment!") Thankfully my gp is as much of a human being as he is a doctor. So why the long story? Well i guess its easier to share ones thoughts with complete strangers. (And its not like i have a choice being hardly spoiled with decent friends) But i've done almost everything in my life alone so im sure i'll survive this 😊 There will be people that judge, people that hate, people that just dont understand. A lot of people dont understand. But maybe, just maybe, there might be someone who reads this that is intelligent enough, and has a little more empathy than most, and who can actually see what this is all about. And what im trying to say. And if not, well, i fear for humanity and besides. What have i got to loose now. I've already lost everything i once knew. But mostly i hope this at least serves as a warning to people thinking of taking any kind of benzo. Even if its once for shits and giggles. Dont! Just say no..... Thank you for taking the time to read this comment. And have a great day 👍 Tigger ©

@alteredbeast67

5 жыл бұрын

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@suzysunshine8377

5 жыл бұрын

Thanks for your story, I hope your doing better, I'll say a 🙏 for you, it's a long hard road, but your not alone in this struggle, we'll all be healed in time. Stay strong...

@alteredbeast67

5 жыл бұрын

@@suzysunshine8377 thank you. being in the UK im kinda breaking new ground so to speak. Plus complicated circumstances etc.... Just knowing or having someone to talk to (not that i feel like writing/talking all the time. But im totally alone, so everything i do im second guessing myself, because if anything happens there is nobody gonna come checking im ok. And while sometimes i wish i could just fade away. Im deperately hanging on in hope of a better life.......

@BMill88

4 жыл бұрын

Altered Beast How are you now?

@sangeetalambh6389

3 жыл бұрын

Altered BEAST did u feel fatigue like no spirit in ur body stomach cramps and feet sweating in ur withdrawal please answer I m 88 days sober

Thank you for this. 4 months off of Klonopin after being prescribed 3mgs per day 30 years ago. This is pure hell. Your video gives me hope. Keep it going.

@tygreen8831

5 жыл бұрын

How are you now?

@BMill88

4 жыл бұрын

V. Keith Jones Media Group How are you now?

Thank you for your video. Everything you said is what I'm going through. I'm 40+ days off xanax. I'm definitely can't do normal things, pretty much feel disabled. I know I have a long ways to go. I had enough of this drug. Time to get my life back.

Anthony you are a saint, your videos keep me goin through this hell. I'm 2 1/2 months off xanax cold turkey cant wait for relief. Hell on earth for real.

@suzysunshine8377

5 жыл бұрын

Going on the 7th mth cold turkey off Xanax+Klonopin,15yrs, hang on coz it gets much easier to deal with,I am finally healing,you will heal too...🙏

@tygreen8831

5 жыл бұрын

@@suzysunshine8377 how are you now?

@whateverfloatsyourboat2181

5 жыл бұрын

@@tygreen8831 I'm on my 11th mth cold turkey off klonipin that i was prescribed for 15yrs, its a long process, this healing thing, but when i look back and remember the beginning, it was June 2018, it was so horrific, but I made it this far and I have healed over time, and still got a ways to go. This too will pass..🙏 praying for us all...we will get thru this...

@tygreen8831

5 жыл бұрын

@@whateverfloatsyourboat2181 thanks for the response. I will be a year off Librium cold Turkey in 8days. I am healing slowly I only took Librium for about 8months this is crazy.

@whateverfloatsyourboat2181

5 жыл бұрын

@@tygreen8831 👍😊🙏it is crazy...i agree..

How long did it take you to fully heal?

families do not understand at all. I wish they did

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

they really don't,but they understand when they see you healthy again in life. cause thats what you'll be again.

@tygreen8831

5 жыл бұрын

No family don't understand so sad:(

@jeffgalaska8269

5 жыл бұрын

I agree

@pyarkaaloo

5 жыл бұрын

No they surely don’t, it feels like the ultimate form of betrayal

@ringerheringa3052

4 жыл бұрын

Not only do they not understand, they don't even want to believe you!

What were some of your symptoms?

I abused these ,by my own hand thinking I would be untouchable...but holy fuck never again will I abused a thing..be good to yourself, guys..my heart is with you

What is the actual percentage of ppl this happens to? Ive read only 10% but others have said it is way more.

Did you take anything to help you sleep? Husband did very rapid titrate and has been off xanax and klonipin for 6 months but has been taking pills to help with sleep. For a while it was lenexa then ambian which we know now is bad news. Now he takes a few others that don't appear to be too bad. Just wondered if you took anything. Thanks!

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

no i didn't,and 6 months off is very early yet. you will see changes in him and he will get better in time. i would suggest benedryl for short-term only.. as his insomnia will go away and sleep comes back.

Amazing video. Thank you

Hi, I don't know it you will see this but want to ask..I took only maximum 7-8 pills of avitan I started to feel bad and stopped..but I had withdrawal..couldn't sleep elevate heart rate .can you say I stopped ct or I stopped in time. I think after month it gets better.what do you think??.

Thank you for this video. When did you start feeling better or were able to leave your house etc.? You are amazing to do these videos thank you. Also did you micro taper?

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

Jennifer R about a year off I felt a bit better,not much,I started working out at a year off to,I forced myself to leave the house at 7 months off,I had to I was loseing my mind cause I was in the house like 4 years straight,like literally 4 years straight only leaveing for appointments. And maybe the grocery store,but that's it.

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

benzo awareness yes exercise when I was withdrawing did flare my anxiety and symptoms,once you're off the drug for a while you will be able to exercise intensely again.

True, brother, very true!

I'm three months into cold Turkey methadone and Valium withdrawal... methadone wds long gone.. Valium well you know... make your video bro I'm interested to see the differences.. I can already feel a lot of improvement from day one... the acid trip is still there but I'm picking up the healing here and there .. especially if I sit back and compare to then and now.. we'll done for kicking and winning bro! Big ups

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

i was just actually talking to someone who cold turkeyed 80 mgs of methadone daily,and ya the valium withdraw can take some time. but wait to you see how much more stronger it makes you. its crazy! how much valium were you on a day?

@tygreen8831

5 жыл бұрын

How are you doing?

@sangeetalambh6389

3 жыл бұрын

@@ANT1714 did u feel fatigue like no spirit in body in ur withdrawal please answer I m 87 days sober

I remember distinctly that it felt like my frontal lobes were missing one night, as if someone removed them. I tried to cry but couldn't. I had a straight face though my soul was crying. Later I learned that the frontal lobes inhibited emotions, makes sense! Among the other things it does. It was the most scary thing I've ever experienced.

@lauriina85

Жыл бұрын

To KR Hi, you supported me earlier. I'm suffering so much. Can't go anymore for walks, can't leave home unless I have to go to store and get food. I get no windows. I'm terrified and next week I will have my last 5 mg drop of diazepam, Ashton manual, to 30 mg. I'm so exhausted and think everyday when I wake up that I have to die. Did you yhden say you had horror mornings too? I fear them all day. I can't do much. Have beem in this battle for 1,5 years. I have at least seven months to taper and am going insane and crying everyday alone, can't be with anybody but mom when she helps me to get food. I was so social and confident person and so grateful to God from many things before benzo. Have heavy sleeping medication 200 mg of quetapine and 20 mg of temazepam and doctor says we are going to lower quetapine when it is possible but first we have to get trough the 5 mg drop. I get no stabilize even I taper every two weeks. It is every minute just hell and I fear I am permanently crazy and my brain is permanently not working. You felt that your brain didn't work and understand a simple thing too? Sorry that I ask you again but need hope and support for those horror waking ups and brain just not functioning that it can go away. I'm so sick and tired. I want these drugs off of me and get my good life back. Thank you if you can answer and give some hope. I have lost my able to function and all that is important and that makes me me. All the best.

I'm tapering off 20mg of valium after 2 years I'm now stabilized at 10mg and I'm on 10mg of lexapro. I'm scared to drive and go to the store. I feel like it's going to be forever. 😦

@alteredbeast67

5 жыл бұрын

Me too. I was on 70mg diazepam self medicating. But couldnt get them amymore. My doc just started me on 20mg a day, with a tapering down of 1mg per month. Read my comment above, (The really long one top of the page) if you have time.....lol Good luck & believe that it will get better 👍

@francinemartinez-cruz3335

4 жыл бұрын

OH SniZZle SnAps it’s been 2 years since this post did you heal

I have a terrible setback I was off Zolpidem 3 Months and I took by misstake another Zolpidem and I experience terrible setback . I want to die . But I can not kill my self . I have severe pressure in my head , jerk in all My body . Terrible vertigo . Everytime I experience this symptoms . I pray to god to take my with him. Please I need help how long time I need for get normal again . I took my last dos for one month ago I was off 3 months from Benzo and I hate my self to take by misstake another Benzo now I need to start everything from Zero . Someone with this experience I need help .

@Tracey..H

5 жыл бұрын

Go to benzobuddies.org

Did you taper or ct

4 1/2 months off paxil.. Severe insomnia. I made 1 mistake.. I took one 1mg of zanax to sleep one night. But i only slept 2 hours. Still have insomnia.. I hope i heal fast. Im afraid of everything and i dont know why.. I cant take a bus . o have no interest in things. Im scared.. I was never like this on paxil or before. I need help... Please

@BMill88

4 жыл бұрын

Kregg Kittelson How are you now?

@1MNUTZ

2 жыл бұрын

Calm forte, magnesium glycinate,melatonin,warm milk and honey, chamomille tea.

great video! i quit ativan in november was on it for only a month and a week 0.5mg then i cut it down into 4s and then one day i said im done and i quit cold turkey and im still going through withdrawal i believe im still very dizzy sometimes feels like im walking on a boat insomnia some days very vivid dreams anxiety heart palpitations these symptoms come and go feels like it will NEVER end :(

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

ya the symptoms can be intense!! those heart palpitations were scary. but there harmless,so i wouldn't worry, 0.5 mgs of lorezpam isn't to bad. i know people that were on 8-16 mgs of ativan daily, and they got better. and the dreams are a really good sign:) means your brain is healing.

@BMill88

4 жыл бұрын

Beata Pietras How are you now?

Thank you for sharing your experiences. I am truly grateful to one of my doctors... I was given benzos by another doctor, and he advised me not to take them, cause it was really really bad. Anyway, I had a withdrawal from a drug like Oxycodon 2 years ago, but take it again now, to be able to work again in spite of my pain. The symptoms you describe are similar, but it didn't take so long. 3 weeks were the pure horror, but it didn't take years! I think you are very brave to do this! Respect! I will have a surgery in a few weeks, which hopefully helps take away some of the pain, and will have to withdraw then again. I was suggested a withdrawal in a clinic. What do you think?

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

Alexandra Schymonski I would not go into a inpatient rehab facility or a detox that is inpatient, they are much too fast, and doesn't give you enough time to build up coping skills in your own environment. The withdraw and taper should be controlled by you and not the doctor. A slow and stable withdraw Will increase the chances of success and getting better much quicker when off the drugs safely.

@allies.8811

7 жыл бұрын

ANT1714 Thank you so much for your advice! I'll try again on my own. I only hope that the hip joint replacement really does take away some of the pain. I don't take the stuff for no reason... it's been years and years with pain, all day, every day. That really made a different person out of me. Sometimes someone who knew me before (I don't have friends anymore ...) asks me where the former me has gone, and say they miss her. So do I. And thanks to you I start believing I can survive this, and maybe someday I'll get my life back. Thank you so much, Anthony.

@nitzaperez7349

7 жыл бұрын

ANT171! Agree I went two time to a detox clinic to get me off from xanax they wean you off to fast and the two time I got out I felt I was worst, for me I will wean off very, very slowly with supervision. and right now iam still taking xanax because I collapsed it was to fast to wean me off. So with my Almighty God in the Heaven iam going to try to wean off very, very slowly and The Name of his Son Jesus Amen.

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

everything comes back,its so amazing. keep fighting this battle,cause when your healed and healthy thats all that matters.

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

slow is the way to go. you'll get better

Please tell me that i will recover. I have been on bromazepam 6 years 3x3mg. Then in march 2017 went cold turkey. After all i used anafranil, remeron, seroquel. Now i am a month med free and there are insomnia, anxiety, depression. Please tell me that this will pass. Please. Feeling like i am loosing my mind is the worst.

@Rotary12A

4 жыл бұрын

It will pass try to sleep and eat even do u have no appetite

Rid Comics your so right I have total respect for you I,m 61 I don,t think I would ever make it so I guess I ,m trapped in hell on earth.

@sangeetalambh6389

3 жыл бұрын

Jessica did u feel. Fatigue like no spirit in body stomach cramps and feet sweating in ur withdrawal please answer I m 87 days sober

Have anyone have setbacks for food sensitivy and how long it was last ?

@roblange1445

5 жыл бұрын

vane ramirez yeah mate. Developed allergies to bread, cows milk etc. slowly coming right. Been about 18 mths tho. Done the doctor/ allergy test/ dieticians thing but no one believes me!!! Hang in there

He is a very good person....love listening to him. Like !any agoraphobia he has become so strong!

Thank you for sharing your story. How are you doing 2.5 years after you made this video? I tapered off of Klonopin a couple of years ago after taking them for 8 years and I'm doing good now.

@warrenbates2949

4 жыл бұрын

Im tapering off 2mgs clonazepam,down to. about alittle over1mg,scared thanks for giving me hope.

@IceLynne

4 жыл бұрын

@@warrenbates2949 slow is best, I was down to just tiny little crumbs before I jumped off completely. One of the things I did to help my body was to take my doses at the same time each day no matter how small. I'm so glad I made the decision to taper and go through the bad times to get to such good times. If you need any advice or moral support let me know. Hugs.

@lauriina85

Жыл бұрын

@@IceLynne Hi, your message is old but did you ever feel your brain doesn't function normally and can't understand a simple thing and become overwhelmed of any normal things? I'm tapering with Ashton manual. Was prescriped a big amount of benzo and no warnings after trauma and had been living a healthy active social life before that. Now I'm isolated a lot because I tell my hell all the time to my loved ones and feel like I'm in a different reality from other people. I'm in constant fight or flight state and panic. Can't do much. Thank you if you can answer if you had any problems with brain function or depersonalization and derealisation. And fear of leaving house. I was so confident and social before. And did you ever have horror waking ups like you feel you die in that second and can't take one day anymore like this? Thank you.

Hey dude, thank you for making these vids. I used my K PRN for month and half this year and it was enough to put me into W/D. I ended up C/T since it was PRN and the thought of the drug being there PRN just freaked me out at that point (found out last minute what the drug was doing to me). I still have apathy at times almost on everything. I force myself to eat, play with toys, read, and workout. I like what you said about getting through the day which is what I try to do now. Insomnia was pretty brutal so after a week with anxiety off the roof, I figured I wouldn't let this control my life. So I exercise at least 30-40 mins for 5 times a day (walk a lot if you feel you can't exercise), spend time with friends and family, do whatever you can to keep busy or distracted, mediation really helps and it actually may put you in a nap, no joke. I believe in God too so I was dissapointed that he didn't cure me at first , but God works in mysterious ways so he is my strength through all this. I know he will pull me out of this and turn me into a stronger person.

Has your personality changed after this WD, like becoming more brave, more relaxed and etc ... i am really into knowing what you gain after this experience.

@SM-yt6pi

7 жыл бұрын

Please man I need an answer

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

S Ms yes!! You become fearless!!! That's the beauty of it,your scared of everything in this and I mean anything. But when you're better and healed your like invincible.

@SM-yt6pi

7 жыл бұрын

Are you seriously speaking? When i am healed I will have better self esteem?

@Snide01

7 жыл бұрын

S Ms Yes you will. I'm only 17 months off but I felt healed until I drank alcohol. When I felt healed I noticed better self esteem but the lack of fear was absolutely incredible. I'm definitely not going to risk drinking again for a very long time after being healed though as that was the dumbest thing that I could have done.

@sangeetalambh6389

3 жыл бұрын

@@Snide01 did u feel fatigue like no spirit in body stomach cramps and feet sweating in ur withdrawals please answer I m 87 days sober

You have hit the hammer right down on this Benzo nail mate. Benzo's are the worse drug to withdrawal from out of any other form of addictive substance be it legal to street drug. I have tried several times to get off this crap which I take for helping me with side effects of Parkinson's disease which is a whole different beast in itself trust me. I have been on Valium for just over 11 years now 15mg a day, and yes it does help with the spasms and muscle stiffness I suffer everyday, but I wanted to try and stop it cold twice at different times in my life and it almost killed me, and I mean really killed me. I stopped breathing on the way to the hospital it was that brutal on my CNS that it caused me to go into Cardiac arrhythmia to which my heart was beating irregular at times and then not beating at all. It was the most terrifying moment of my life I must confess, and at the time I really didn't think it was the drug that was causing this, but more over my illness. But I did find out later once I was stabilized and they knew about the drugs I was on and the one that I had stopped cold. I went from being as normal as one can given my underlying illness, to stopping this drug and within 72 hours after my last dose I went into severe withdrawals and I have to confess it was instant and very brutal. My entire body cramped up and I began to shake then I could not feel parts of my body hot cold sweats with this severe electrical jolt going right throughout my entire body non stop. I felt as if I was being electrocuted from the inside out, and then I noticed my eyes felt like they were pushing out of my head it just got more intense as the hours went by. I really thought I could handle this, because I have gone through many things in my life and nothing compared to this shit. The pain in my legs and arms down to my spine felt like someone ramming a crowbar into my bones and twisting it. The pain was hideous, but it did not stop just there, it got much much worse by day 4. As day 4 came upon me, I truly thought I was going to die, and that is no exaggeration trust me, it was getting hard to move, talk, swallow, breath, you name it I was having it all over my body non stop. I thought I would go through maybe a week or 2 at best and this shit would end, but oh Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! This was just the beginning of my hideous nightmare with this damn drug. By the 7th or 8th day I was no longer able to walk or stop shaking, and my entire body went into a rigid state were all my muscles just locked up all at once. I was laying on my bed screaming in agony for hours hoping it would soon end, but then I began to feel light headed and passed out at least 3 times as I was later told by a family member who was monitoring me while this was happening. Finally they called 911 because I was becoming unresponsive and my breathing was erratic and shallow at times. I do not remember much of what happened on my way to the ER all I know is that I remember hearing someone say were loosing him. Then I woke up in ICU with tubes and crap all hooked up into me, and it was not very pleasant to say the least, but I was alive and that was all I cared about. I tell this story because I want others to understand how dangerous this drug can be if you stop it to soon. It does not happen to everyone like this, but in my case it almost killed me. The doctors had given me a shot of pure Valium in the ER once they understood what I had stopped and within less then 20 minutes of giving me that shot I was still in pain and having some problems with breathing and movement, but I was alive and within a hour I was normal again. I cried when I found out how bad this drug was and what it had put me through. I am a junkie to this damn drug now, and without it I could possibly die again. Now I take into consideration the fact that my illness most likely contributed to the severe attack I had gone through, but still to anyone who is thinking about taking this drug I say please do not.....stay the f---k away from it, because its hell. I have since done my due research on this drug and have listened and watched many other horror videos on You Tube about other people and how this drug has ruined them. All I can say is that I am now a prisoner to this drug, but you do not have to be. I have tried to do slow taper as well but by the 3rd week I was heading down the same path of total collapse, and made the decision that at least in my case, it would be more dangerous to stop the drug then continue it. I speak only about my case, and my life here. Each person will go through similar brutal effects, but it will be based on your overall underlying health issues plus the way your body reacts meaning your chemical make up. I do however continue to leave comments on many other videos giving my best to those who are trying to stop this drug and are suffering terribly right now. I try to console them with words of hope, but most of all I try and let others who read my comments know how dangerous this drug can be. I will speak so hard core against it, because it almost killed me, and now I need it just to stay alive. This is not just about tolerance and dependency, or dealing with the severe withdrawals you get from stopping this drug, it is about how brutal and long term this cycle of damage that has been done by this drug takes to get out of it. I have read about some rare cases that are still having issues even after 7 years and that to me is a serious wake up call to the medical profession to get there act together and either stop handing this drug out like its any other drug, but to also figure out ways to help people get off this shit sooner and with less suffering and torment. In closing I wish you all the best in getting this drug out of your life i really do. and your right when you say that this drug is the worse drug to get off of, and should be labeled as a chronic syndrome that requires more professional detox centers that understand this kind of drug alone. They have places for all the other drugs and booze, but nothing to help stop the long term 1-7 years of suffering this drug does to people. That to me is the real crime here. Keep fighting this battle mate, I wish you all the best of luck, and to anyone reading this please stay away from any form of this drug. BENZO!!!!! or you will pay a very long horrible price I assure you. Cheers

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

RID COMICS agreed!

@masonguritz6758

5 жыл бұрын

RID COMICS that’s a hell or a story. Hopefully your doing better now

@charlesduby4602

5 жыл бұрын

Rid comics you are right,there is something big time wrong here,well one thing for sure they can't ignore us all.now I'm caught too,my wife still takes klonopin ,I watch these videos right by her side,wondering what am I doing am I taunting her.I am scared that benzos are gonna find me again,six months sends last one, I can't go through m.r.I. without medication,last time when I got blood clots in my brain I went through m.r.I. on a strong dose of benzodiazepines it started my withdrawals bad doctor said my thyroid was off, gave me synthroid a medication for thyroid, that really started my nightmare,and like you it's like what's going on I know it's benzo withdrawal having gone through it before,but this time...starting Dec 2017 it was so much worst! They would like to send the blame to all our other illnesses,which I do have my share, but there is too much evidence to shove it under the bed!

I was on paxil 24 years.. Off it now for 4 1/2 months.. Still have mental bluntness . i hope i heal from it.. That worries me.

Are there inpatient facilities to help people get off benzodiazepine?

@Rotary12A

4 жыл бұрын

Yes but they do a rapid detox for 4 5 days then send u to rehab for 30 days but in rehab they dont give u no meds for benzo withdrawl

Is it really going to be YEARS before I start to feel better? because I need to be able to function & I've developed agoraphobia that's gotten so bad I can't even open the door to my apartment. I could deal with this for a couple months, but years? that scares me

@jayebirdjb7143

7 жыл бұрын

Captain Howdy Me too Captain! Good luck and wish me luck also!

@captainhowdy4285

7 жыл бұрын

Daniel Halley Thank you Daniel & good luck to you too! if we're not here for eachother no one else will be. thank you for your kindness :3

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

some peoples withdraws are not as severe as others. some people get out of this with minimal discomfort,you may get off and in 6-12 months be completely healed,i had the agrophobia pretty bad to. it went away,your symptoms will go away in time.

@captainhowdy4285

7 жыл бұрын

ANT1714 thanks ☺

@shelbyreese01

6 жыл бұрын

You are doing God’s work seriously, I’m not even religious but I would love to be able to chat with you

I am going to lose everything that I have worked for for my entire life two mg for over eight year stuck in hot hot mobile home and I’m over seventy I stopped cold turkey and I almost went crazy no one understand what is going on I just went back to taking the meds but I don’t dont have any motivation and I don’t have any chance

@samtayar7039

4 жыл бұрын

Tony George r u ok now

I can’t get the 6 YEARS BACK With my KIDS ?????

@amybrown5782

2 жыл бұрын

we're you in withdrawal for 6 years

Still ly ❤️

How do I send u a message thru messenger?

@sangeetalambh6389

3 жыл бұрын

Sheri Robertson did u feel fatigue like no spirit in body stomach cramps and feet sweating in ur withdrawals please answer I m 88 ddays sober

I started taking benzodiazepines for agoraphobia? So they helped me. I'm not anti Dr. I did withdraw. Was grateful there was med out there to unable me to do normal things. I'm 2 or 3 years is it really withdraw or a relapse of symptoms. I don't know for sure, I agree withdraw sucks!

True,

Can you drink liquor?

@Tracey..H

5 жыл бұрын

No. It messes w gaba receptors

@tygreen8831

5 жыл бұрын

@@Tracey..H right what about when you heal. Are you healed?

I just wanna laugh so much that I cry of happiness...I miss me...4.5 months off 20 mg Valium. I am healing have few nasty sxs left that drives me crazy. It is inner tremor and akatashia. And these keep me inside my home for 3 months

@tygreen8831

5 жыл бұрын

Hey how are you?

@BMill88

4 жыл бұрын

Camilla Silfverling How are you now?

Hey I think you're cool!😎👍🏼

@ANT1714

7 жыл бұрын

Marissa Parker lol 👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼

@tygreen8831

5 жыл бұрын

@@ANT1714 how long it take you to heal?

I went from 8 mg ativan and 4 mg opinion and other psych meds including adderrall. Been in a facility 4 years now. Only on 3 mg ativan. But I lost my.home in this place so working on a lot...

i met a person who cured themselves of their agoraphobia, got rid of their house and bicycled around the entire usa living outside. try it. no dope. sober, got to help when they need but did get a lot of life experiences to tell about. cured.

Hello😊

this guy has seen some shit

The problem is sometimes people actually have a.anxiety disorder. Know it's true that withdraw is hell. But after a period of time the original anxiety disorder is still there. This young man seems like he's doing good without them. But sometimes agoraphobia has nothing to do with drug withdrawal!

@masonguritz6758

4 жыл бұрын

Sharon Almendarez you sound like your in self denial