Thank you so much for this update, Smerk. It’s great to hear that this journey is one that has been fruitful in that you understand yourself better and I imagine it opens up more doors for you to work with yourself - rather than against yourself. Ofc I look forward to anything you choose to do/make/release in the future, but most importantly I just wish you to be happy and healthy. It’s the only thing that matters! Also thanks for including an update on Randy! ❤

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thanks for the kind words, really appreciate them. Randy video coming soon 👍🏽

Very proud of you for bringing this out to your KZread community. My wife says she thinks I’m on the spectrum somewhere but never been tested. I’ve read some things and watched some videos and agree somewhere on there but not to the point of getting diagnosed. It definitely opens your eyes to why you do some things the way you do them.

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thank you for the kid words. I don’t think official diagnosis is important, it’s just knowing why you do certain things really helps you understand yourself.

Thank you for sharing this, It does fill in many gaps and explains a lot. Safe Journeys.

I was also diagnosed very late in life. You touched on many themes that I've been going through. It is definitely helpful to finally have some answers to many long outstanding questions. Being on the spectrum isn't a curse, in many ways it's a gift with some caveats. I think it's great and courageous to talk publicly about ASD, I think there are many more of us who simply haven't had their awakening moment (yet).

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing your experience here, it’s comforting to hear from others who have a common story.

Hey Smerkin, came across this video while looking around at Satisfactory videos. Your path is very familiar to me. IT/Autism/streaming/depression/etc.. I am happy to see that you are being honest with yourself, as I can understand how masking and headspace can prevent those that from happening.

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thanks for saying hi and sharing

Good story, thanks for sharing! Good luck with your new chapter in life.

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thanks

Hey, so good to see you looking so relaxed. Really pleased you are coming to terms with yourself and your diagnosis. Sometimes knowing your 'triggers' can help so much in how you deal with certain situations and people. I'll be honest I do miss your streams, especially seeing Randy (I used to have a GS called Molly - I still miss her after eight years) but at the end of the day you have to do what is right for you. Post when you can, its great to see these updates from you - all the best; Farrelly

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thanks for the kind words and sharing with me. Knowing my triggers has helped me so much, it’s been a life changer. Stay tuned for future updates and a video or two of Randy 😊

So good to hear from you Smerky. Glad you and Randy are doing well “pioneering” your new adventure! Wishing you the very best!

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thanks very much Nick.

Dr Richard Eisenmajer at the ASD Clinic diagnosed me about 2 years ago. Good to hear from you again mate

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Good to her from you too 😊

I wish I had seen this sooner. I have some catch up to do! Thank you for the share, Smerkin. It's a great thing when we can find explanations, and know ourselves a little better. All the best to Randy, you, and your partner!

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thanks Zinlu, it’s great to hear from you 😊

Well man as long as your happy thats all that matters. If ever come back to twitch would love to watch especially satisfactory cuz your make interesting builds. But you your self comes first before anything! Glad your taking care of self.

Welcome to the family, reunions are never because socializing is hard. Glad to hear getting diagnosed has helped you understand yourself better, it was quite the life change for me, also diagnosed far too late in life, but like a wise Snutt once told me, it be like it do.

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thanks for the family welcoming :) The biggest thing for me is understand why I do certain things, it was a big eye opening moment and I feel so much better about where I fit in in the world.

Good to see you, Smerkin. I'm glad to hear that you and Randy are doing well and enjoying life. Thank you for sharing your amazing story and I look forward to seeing some more videos in the future when you're able to. Take good care of yourself and Randy too, of course. 🙂

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thanks for the kind words, stay tuned for a Randy video soon.

Very happy you are doing well. Thank you for sharing your journey. Years later, I still employ what I learned from you in Satisfactory.

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Great to hear from you Scot and glad you got to check out my story.

Long time twitch viewer here: Thank you for sharing !!! It think this was not an easy video to make! Greetings from Germany!

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thank you 😊

Mate, so glad you're doing you. Looking ot for onesself is more important than anything else and it sounds like your trending in the right direction, I am so freaking happy for ya!! I can't lie and say I am slightly disappointed without the streams incoming but stoked your finding your way of doing things... Looking forward to any content you bring my friend as you're a pretty top class guy! Give some pats to randy for me and continue taking care of yourself GURU!!!

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thanks so much for the special words Gazz. Stay tuned for some more content coming your way soon.

Hey Smerkin, Thank you for venting your thoughts. A very packed video of information. You’ve done a good thing and opened up to us. You didn’t have too. I also want to congratulate you on your move with your partner. I hope this doesn’t effect further streams in the future. Nevertheless, I respect you and always have my friend. Your a great guy. All the very best , Englishman

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thanks for the kind words and thoughts.

Thanks for the video Smerkin, it's good to hear from you, your journey these past few weeks and months, and some of your thinking for the future. Look forward to either hearing/seeing some more stuff in the future, or knowing that you're just cracking on with the stuff you had put off. Randy pat.

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thank you, it’s good to hear from you ☺️

a little late with watching this vid, but i still wanna say thanks for the update smerkin. i am happy that you managed to find out about your condition and wish you all the best for dealing with it and the future! you go and take care of yourself first and foremost, personal wellbeing is the most important thing as far as i am concerned. also, i want to say a really big thank you for your streams! you provided me with a nice environment, in which i always felt confortable in, and you also enabled me to expand my horizon and find a lot of different streamers/people, which i am still in contact with. all the best to you and, once again, a verry big thank you! cya around!

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thanks very much for your kind words, much appreciated

I recognize many things in your video. Haven't been tested, but looking into it more lately. Glad you got a diagnosis and you can fit the pieces together. Hope things fall into place for you and when it does, you will find your way in life once again. With or without streaming, it's your life, your health and your wellbeing that counts. Would love to see a video from time to time, just to see how you are doing and wish you the very best with whatever the future might hold for you.

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Appreciate the kind words. I’m glad to hear you’re looking at getting tested, but regardless is good understanding why we are like we are ❤️

I'm glad you're doing well my guy! Finding happiness and understanding and focusing on you. All the best for the future, for you and your partner. Whatever you do, I'm certain you will put 100% commitment into anything you do.

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Appreciate the kind words ❤️

Glad that you managed to find the truth and correct your path. Have a good time with your partner and be happy in what you will be doing.

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thank you very much

I'm only seeing this now, 8 months later, but I'm happy to see that you've made the right choices for you and you're looking after yourself. Thank you for the time you did spend with the community, you served as great company through some very lonely times. I hope you're doing well! -Kyuubi

@smerkin5000

11 ай бұрын

Great to hear from you and thanks for the kind words. It's very humbling to know I provided you with company when you needed it :)

Welcome to the spectrum mate. I was saddened about my being absent on the lead up to your departure from streaming, kinda funny how that was largely due to my autism mixing with my bipolar. I only realized you were leaving the day after you finished streaming. Good to see this and hope the future treats you well.

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thanks. Sorry I wasn't able to say bye in those last weeks but I'll keep putting stuff here on KZread and we'll be able to stay in touch.

he smerk, i know what you talk about. but dont worry about it, you still a human being

@smerkin5000

Жыл бұрын

Thanks for your kind words Scan ❤️