this one makes me sad lol. whenever i listen to it i wanna hug me, even if me hugging me looks like me wiggling around in an invisible straight jacket. this is kinda like a sister song to "i love to hate that i want you". even lyrically there's a call back or two in there. on a side note, i am yet again unsure if there will be a produced cover this month. i was busy doing some other things so i haven't had time to work on this months, so i will either “lock the fuck in” as they say and get it done in the next week, or at the very least i'll try to film a breakdown of firearm cause i've also been wanting to do that. idk we'll see. also thank you so much again for all the love on "all that i am". as of writing this it just hit 3k views and even has almost 70 plays on soundcloud which is dope. also my sub goal for the year was 50, so almost being at 70 already is absolutely mind blowing. feeling very grateful for you all 🩷
hope you enjoy :)
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lyrics:
been holdin
on too long
i'm already writin my third song
while there's another one in your life
i know we never really had the time
you never got to know me all that well
i only hope it wasn't obvious as hell
that i was catchin feelings never thrown my way
it would have been too easy if the next one stayed
i'm sorry
been tryin to move on
don't wanna make it weird i wanna get along
but when my heads underneath my heels
it's kinda hard to tell myself it's no big deal
it's not often
that i feel like this
it's been over a decade since the last one hit
who knows when it'll happen again
i guess we'll really always only ever just be friends
been dreamin
about you
we're doin things we never used to do
i swear you almost always give me a hug
you hold me pretty long by not long enough
i don't wanna wake up can i stay?
i try to stay asleep and lost most of the day
if only i had someone other than myself
i could be distracted and escape this hell
but i'm in too deep so why even try
to get over you when it's nice to keep you in mind?
i think of your face
and it makes me smile
i only hope you're thinkin of me once in a while
i'm sorry
been tryin to move on
don't wanna make it weird i wanna get along
but when my heads underneath my heels
it's kinda hard to tell myself it's no big deal
it's not often
that i feel like this
it's been over a decade since the last one hit
who knows when it'll happen again
i guess we'll really always only ever just be friends
[best solo you've ever heard i swear]
i'm sorry
been tryin to move on
don't wanna make it weird i wanna get along
but when my heads underneath my heels
it's kinda hard to tell myself it's no big deal
it's not often
that i feel like this
it's been over a decade since the last one hit
who knows when it'll happen again
i guess we'll really always only ever just be friends