Because he couldn’t understand what was attacking him from within. Great line.

@lfp._1883

4 жыл бұрын

Yeah but keep it to yourself and don't pour your frustrations on your family by beaten them

@lindajamshidi

4 жыл бұрын

Was he a soldier who fought at the front lines? So many ruined by violence only to bring it home to the ones they love.

@Bill-xx2yh

4 жыл бұрын

Linda jamshidi Even if your insane, you can choose NOT to hurt others.

@Bill-xx2yh

4 жыл бұрын

Cyan Blue Don’t WE all?

@Bill-xx2yh

4 жыл бұрын

Cyan Blue Yes, your correct.

"I often wonder, if those that smile the most, are the most saddest people in the world."

@ramjeesaradi

3 жыл бұрын

Unfortunately the real world is lacking of such contrasts. Everything is muddy and grey.

@belindainda6006

3 жыл бұрын

Yes true

@Onlymeonlymeable

3 жыл бұрын

Jip, because once that smile turns to tears, it may never stop.

@avawilliams5827

3 жыл бұрын

A smile is how you survive the sadness. it's a way to stay afloat, otherwise it would drown you.

@mrsprite399

2 жыл бұрын

The smile is the fighter which fight the strongest pains to make us keep going or we will be no more because the pain will take over, if there's nothing to fight it.

"He couldn't understand what was attacking him from within" ...even in pain he was empathetic and could see the one causing the pain was also in a kind of pain of his own

@PatTheRiot

Жыл бұрын

Its not a "kind of pain" its the same pain. Bukowski later in life suffered the same pain and expressed it often in his poetry. The difference, as he said it there, is that his father didn't understand what was attacking him from within so he took it out on the people close to him. Bukowski decided to keep it for himself and channel it to his writtings. A blessing in itself. But still the same suffering continues...

@kevinboyette9029

Жыл бұрын

The son shall not bear the iniquity of the father, neither shall the father bear the iniquity of the son: the righteousness of the righteous shall be upon him, and the wickedness of the wicked shall be upon him.

@anthonymason4999

11 ай бұрын

Very difficult to do

@Dogestronaut2.0

10 ай бұрын

⁠ ““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.” ‭‭Matthew‬ ‭11‬:‭28‬ ‭because of him I’m healed. and he wants to heal you too. he’s the reason why I’m alive today💖 And it’s not the end. There are many times in the Bible where they thought it was the end. Like the the death of Jesus. Or like Moses in the wilderness. And even Me I thought it was the end But God rescued me. Even tho your not a Cristian. Give ur pain to Jesus. He loves u.❤ I’ll be praying for u❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

@Alpha_Sovereign

7 ай бұрын

😊

Anybody who's been around domestic violence as a child ,can feel every word of this.

@leojonkers3181

2 жыл бұрын

That is sad my friend.

@SunnyvaleTrailerParkSupervisor

Жыл бұрын

Is there anybody who hasn't been around it? Mums and dads of the last generations have a lot to answer for

@newaryamen

Жыл бұрын

@@SunnyvaleTrailerParkSupervisor I hate boomers and millenials

@Dogestronaut2.0

10 ай бұрын

⁠ ““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.” ‭‭Matthew‬ ‭11‬:‭28‬ ‭because of him I’m healed. and he wants to heal you too. he’s the reason why I’m alive today💖 And it’s not the end. There are many times in the Bible where they thought it was the end. Like the the death of Jesus. Or like Moses in the wilderness. And even Me I thought it was the end But God rescued me. Even tho your not a Cristian. Give ur pain to Jesus. He loves u.❤ I’ll be praying for u❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

These verses... they rip through your heart... "and it was the saddest smile I ever saw"... just gets to you...

@teo5146

4 жыл бұрын

Radiohead!

@ChEkAlOtIcH3

4 жыл бұрын

@@teo5146 the best ❤

@Dogestronaut2.0

10 ай бұрын

⁠ ““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.” ‭‭Matthew‬ ‭11‬:‭28‬ ‭because of him I’m healed. and he wants to heal you too. he’s the reason why I’m alive today💖 And it’s not the end. There are many times in the Bible where they thought it was the end. Like the the death of Jesus. Or like Moses in the wilderness. And even Me I thought it was the end But God rescued me. Even tho your not a Cristian. Give ur pain to Jesus. He loves u.❤ I’ll be praying for u❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

It is almost impossible not to be moved by this poem. A mother's love. Empathy for a tyrannical father. And the brutal reality that a young boy and his mother were as helpless as those fish in that bowl. The fact that anyone was able triumph over such hardship by turning it into a poem to is incredibly inspiring.

@Dogestronaut2.0

10 ай бұрын

⁠ ““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.” ‭‭Matthew‬ ‭11‬:‭28‬ ‭because of him I’m healed. and he wants to heal you too. he’s the reason why I’m alive today💖 And it’s not the end. There are many times in the Bible where they thought it was the end. Like the the death of Jesus. Or like Moses in the wilderness. And even Me I thought it was the end But God rescued me. Even tho your not a Cristian. Give ur pain to Jesus. He loves u.❤ I’ll be praying for u❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

@agotahorvath

7 ай бұрын

Stunningly put ! Didn't draw the parallels between the mother & goldfish thanks for pointing it out !

@user-cz5lj2vx1f

4 ай бұрын

I love Bukowski! Didn't discover him until my early 30s. As a poet myself, I know how difficult it is to write a poem like this. To use exquisite UNDERSTATEMENT to reveal HORRORS. Burkowsku's words continue to LIVE.

When I watch Joker, I bizzarely remember this poem.

@czernm20

4 жыл бұрын

yes, exactly. Before I clicked it just said to myself: Why So Serious?

@cookingwstanley6656

4 жыл бұрын

Mateusz Czerniawski cringest shit ever

@kidddrrkudi8917

4 жыл бұрын

Michael Edward the joker is a Demon without a single ounce of remorse

@santubanik633

3 жыл бұрын

Yes. You r right, same here..

@1Plebeian

2 жыл бұрын

There is the same disease in both.

You make these videos in a way that the poem makes me insanely sad but I feel comfortable watching

@illneas

5 жыл бұрын

i take it as a compliment ^^

@laialola9449

5 жыл бұрын

@@illneas it sure is

@eddygci8

4 жыл бұрын

I felt something similar. I felt almost grateful or realized to the fact that maybe my home life isn’t as bad as I made it out to be.

@duke2.016

4 жыл бұрын

Its heartbreaking yet comforting in the same way

@pabloescobar-laganjadecoca1064

4 жыл бұрын

Exactly. The feeling is beautiful

I feel sad for those who never got to see this and also for those who watched but didn't feel it.

If one listens at a lowered volume, the music goes so well. And damn, whoever reads the poems, has such a good voice. I'm living for this. *cries*

@user-vr7uc4cg9i

4 жыл бұрын

The narrator' s name is Tom O' Bedlam

@mhhyyggv5445

4 жыл бұрын

I thought the reader was Bukowski himselfs

@lionforlambs9167

4 жыл бұрын

@@mhhyyggv5445 it's him yes

@kemarrobinson1912

4 жыл бұрын

Exactly

@claudiutamas1388

4 жыл бұрын

@@lionforlambs9167 The narrator' s name is Tom O' Bedlam

This touched my heart deeply. Adult survivor of child abuse

@user-cz5lj2vx1f

4 ай бұрын

Me, too. Grew up surrounded by 2 generatons of doemstic violence. Bukowski speaks TRUTH

Well... at least the cat's happy

@illneas

4 жыл бұрын

Yes super happy.

@mantykarhu

4 жыл бұрын

😂...😭

@raagtoska

4 жыл бұрын

Smileee ,almost seems pathological like the JOKER

@AngeleDeux1

4 жыл бұрын

the fish too..cuz they escaped ;)

@timrompel4409

3 жыл бұрын

the cats happiness could be a turning point...we will never know

The video: “and then she smiled, wanting us all to be happy, told me..” Ad: “HEY YOU! LET’S TALK ABOUT TAMPONS!”

I love poetry, there's is something about it (when it is done well) that makes you feel sad and happy at the same time. I love to read fiction books and live in an infinity of worlds because this one is just too hard to deal with most of the time. I would read when I was in high school, especially in year eleven (that was two years ago now) people would say things like 'wow what a nerd,' or 'er you like reading?' I would often reference things and a part of me did enjoy the fact that the only person who really understood some of them was my favourite teacher. I hated being treat like I was "stupid" because I didn't like going out or partying or messing around in class, (because reading makes you stupid apparently,) and that only really hurt so much because it was my friends who were making out that enjoying good literature and the art of it was weird and uncool. My point is that: when I carried on reading in public and blatantly saying I didn't want to go out because I had plans to read, my friends stopped talking to me whenever I sat with them (when I didn't have a book) they didn't get it. Neither did I, it wasn't like I was pinning them down and forcing them to read... That type of society, that attitude and just humans is the reason I'm saving up to by my own land in the middle of nowhere and commission and build my own home, with solar, wind and water power, with wifi for the news and yes (movies and tv shows :D) so I can sit on a window ledge, in the peace and quiet surrounded by trees and wildlife listening and reading amazing works of art like this. ps. too long of a comment I know, sorry xx

@kapilellawadi

4 жыл бұрын

I know that feel

@Y-Soightnie

3 жыл бұрын

I got interested in poetry in 7th grade. Our grade school was outside Chicago, and in class, we read Carl Sandburg, of course, starting with "Chicago"; but it was "Smoke and Steel" and Smoke" that riveted me. My grandfather died in a Chicago steel mill. I never knew him, but in that poem I learned about him, what he did, what he made, and what it cost. Nothing there is that gives insight like poetry. I first read Bukowski's poetry in a free newspaper in Tucson , AZ, back in the early '70s. I came to understand that world, too. Poetry is music for the mind. But for those who cannot hear the music, they think the dancer is mad...to paraphrase Nietzsche.

@griffinreader6207

3 жыл бұрын

@@Y-Soightnie so overall who is your favourite poet, or atleast who's poems do you find you can relate to?

@kingjangobradock7181

3 жыл бұрын

I feel you

@ronaldomaibam5694

3 жыл бұрын

Can relate

You have a good eye, and ears in that’s matter, for aligning the mediums of literature and visual and auditory stimulation - a talent, your videos relax and centre my thoughts thankyou

@illneas

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for saying this, it really motivates me. I'm glad that my work pleases you.

@PatTheRiot

4 жыл бұрын

Seriously bud, its true. You got a few VERY good ones perfectly timed and composed. Go out there.

He who is loved by a writer is praised forever, he who is hated by a writer is always cursed .

and it was the saddest smile I ever saw ... touched my soul

@runforestrun5537

Жыл бұрын

Mine too. It's a very relatable feeling, even outside the context of domestic violence.

Great poem . In general, Bukowski is one of the most well-read writer and i see in this poem some connection with “As i lay dying” by Faulkner. “My mother is fish” is the idea and symbol which leads both of them. Anyway, great poem - sad, very poetic, beutiful, realistic and simply. Love Bukowski.

I believe the voice actor is Tom O Bedlam. Amazing voice to read the amazing works of Bukowski ;-)

@illneas

5 жыл бұрын

Yes he is .. as I have listed him

Oh my god, that took my breath away, and I had to hold something back at the ending because I didn't want my family to hear me cry.

@timrichardson518

3 жыл бұрын

Why not? Let them see, then tell them why...

Never show your true smile for fake photos with fake people.It's too precious

It so reminds me of my father a Korean war vet who was too drunk to remember beating his wife and children. My mom was always smiling too. Guess it's better to pretend.

@jasonknox9596

4 жыл бұрын

Linda jamshidi i feel Sorry for you! You deserve better

@umadey8493

3 жыл бұрын

Hope you and your family is doing well now

@peterubbels2385

3 жыл бұрын

No it's not, and that isn't what the poet who knocked his own father out when he was 16 is trying to tell you. I'm sorry for your father that he became that way and I have nothing but compassion for what you went through but pretending isn't the answer

" and it was the sadest smile i ve ever seen " Hits so hard

This should be played all over the world to prevent child abuse.

Nature is cruel, love is cruel, life is cruel...we don't know where we came from, or why we're here or where we are going to...

@bill8383

4 жыл бұрын

Perhaps the same place where we came from.. Did you have a nice time?

@bill8383

3 жыл бұрын

@Froggy Noddy is that for yourself or others? I wonder what part we will all have played in the grand design at the end of it all.. and if we would see it all differently from outside. For now though we are trapped inside our minds, but I believe it's a 'trapping' we asked for,.. Suppose if I was to sum up what I'm saying in a word it would be "interpretations"

@bill8383

3 жыл бұрын

@Froggy Noddyi like that

*This* is living poetry. Filled with life and unmasked emotions of this awful society.

The narrators voice compliments the the poems Beautifully. I love what you’re doing please keep it up!

Thank you. Youur gift is the epitome of truth that I find no where else and opens my eyes wider than they have ever been. One day I hope they will see as you do my friend. Thank you! ❤⚘💪🙏

You have a gentle voice that can calm raging waters Blessings

Poetry never really reached me until I began to watch your videos. Thank you for that.

I really like Charles Bukowski. He's outlook on life is truly straight.

@jaynetaylor5208

4 жыл бұрын

I like him too. True words, brutal words, sad words, but true

@SWW_Productions

4 жыл бұрын

@@jaynetaylor5208 I agree

I don't know what all the fuss about the music is. Great job. Sadly, I think more of this exists in everyday life than the little pink house with a white picket fence and two car garage.

@illneas

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you Bruce .. I mean Batman , I needed some reassurance about the music and yes sadly this is a next door issue.

@Ladco77

4 жыл бұрын

@@illneas My only complaint about the music is it starts to drown out the narration towards the end. I'm watching this on my home theater so I'm getting the full dynamic range of the video. On a cellphone speaker or headphones, I doubt it would be noticeable.

@illneas

4 жыл бұрын

My videos are not designated to be watched on home theaters, tell me how the experience is ..

@Ladco77

4 жыл бұрын

@@illneas It looks and sounds great. As I said, the only complaint is the music tends to get too loud compared to the narration towards the end. The music actually takes center stage and the narration fades into the background. If that was the intention, it's spot on.

@illneas

4 жыл бұрын

@@Ladco77 thanks for the reply man, I tend to put loud music in my videos but I don't want to disturb the balance of music-narration, thanks for giving me feedback anyways

This is art

This is a great work. I already knew this poem, however, this video almost makes me cry. The poem almost did it too when I read it at first. Pretty nice work.

@illneas

5 жыл бұрын

I guess this is a good reaction, thank you

Art and its many forms. Breathtaking rendering of the poem.

From difficult moments we learn to be better persons. A mother always has a smile no matter what,even if the sky is falling.She teaches her children we must continue in life with her loving smile,and a broken heart.

Hii Illneas..i love poetry and that is how i came through your channel. Your content is really mature and i am loving the uploads you made...the video quality, narration style, music all are helping in connecting the poems to reality. Thank you for your work. And since i love poems by Charles Bukowski i am here to stay for a long time..Good luck!

@illneas

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you for being here.

This made me cry so hard because i’ve touched it with my whole existence. And now i’m so broken and depress as an adult:)

@joeschmo4646

2 ай бұрын

You can find some small solace in knowing you aren’t alone. It helps, not much, but it does.

This is one of my favourites, the perspective, the metaphors and the sheer emotion really moves me every time I read it to myself ❤️

I love these videos. Reading the poems without them seems dull now and not as special and heartbreaking as reading them with the videos

That voice makes such a difference and on point with the poem. Thank you!

Keep up the good work. It is great to have poetry like these to look upto in life

This poem feels so gloomy and it hits me more and more everytime I hear it.

This is gold! The way the video is presented is pure gold!

As someone who really doesn't like poetry the videos you make are an exception.

Out of all the writings that I have read from Henry this one brought me to tears. Heavy stuff.

Illneas, u are making art, please dont stop. I really love what u re doing

This poem is one of the best for me touching my soul deeply. What a great!.

Incredible, true, deep and alive poem!

A mother loves and hates - this poem shows it truly - magnificent work.

I'm checking out every charles bukowski poem in this channel than you illneas❤

I think the music is beautiful,it has it's own poetry ,at the same time compliments the other

@illneas

4 жыл бұрын

thank you for your positive comment :)

I appreciate your work illneas. Keep going. This channel wil be a big thing in poetry.

So beautiful.... he breaks my heart..

These are so true to life I love each and everyone of them your so amazing your voice is so smooth and calming thankyou keep up this lovely beautiful work 😊💙

The way we all looked up as the kiddos we we're when he says "while raging inside his 6ft2 frame" .... Funny how time makes liars out of all of us. Back then my only wish in life was to be big enough to handle it all. Now 34 yrs later, with 2 kids, I kind of wish I could go back and play. Seems like it was easier to not, know...

I adore the way you tell your poems

Thanks for giving me this present. Deep and very well done video.

Song is "with wings of feathers and glue" by Suis La Lune. A great Skramz/Screamo band.

@illneas

3 жыл бұрын

Yeeeep

Wow his poems always tell a story you can see so clearly in mind.

This is heart-wrenching. The music is perfect

@illneas

5 жыл бұрын

^^

Wonderful, watched it again and again

Tears and fears all resurfaced at such familiar memories. Love you

It’s great! Thank you for posting!

@illneas

5 жыл бұрын

Thanks for the support !!

This is sad but also at the same time so beautiful

So simple verses yet so deep ..damn

@Dogestronaut2.0

10 ай бұрын

⁠ ““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.” ‭‭Matthew‬ ‭11‬:‭28‬ ‭because of him I’m healed. and he wants to heal you too. he’s the reason why I’m alive today💖 And it’s not the end. There are many times in the Bible where they thought it was the end. Like the the death of Jesus. Or like Moses in the wilderness. And even Me I thought it was the end But God rescued me. Even tho your not a Cristian. Give ur pain to Jesus. He loves u.❤ I’ll be praying for u❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤😊

Captivating unforgettable uncomfortable addicting insanely beautiful......please continue to make more

My heart hurts. Tears form. What power in so few words.

One of the saddest poems I’ve ever heard. 😢

@johnsrome8459

4 жыл бұрын

I totally agree. I think illneas has great talent but I struggle to watch/listen to this. Poor mamma Bukowski, trying so hard in the face of such hideous abuse. Aw, f**k, if I dwell on this I'm going to cry.

@tangobango9653

4 жыл бұрын

John S Rome Me too. F**k!

@johnsrome8459

4 жыл бұрын

@@tangobango9653 Here's to kind mothers, everywhere. Take care, buddy.

Some smiles keeps the grief within...

Hank was DG, damaged goods. His father was brutal. He had a miserable Life. That’s why he wrote, to let out the pain.

Great once more, your videos are brilliant! Keep it up (:

@illneas

5 жыл бұрын

THANK YOU!!! Is the smiley face reversed to mess with my OCD ?

@argyrobazouka5153

5 жыл бұрын

@@illneas haha I just prefer it that way. First comes the smile, then the eyes. You should be happy about this, it is caused by your video.

,,The saddest smile i ever saw, it touched me coz there are so many women in life who have lived this way!! Sad 😔

@parisadr5142

4 жыл бұрын

My mother😊

Very frightful and tearful. So many emotions.

@illneas

4 жыл бұрын

This means a lot thank you.

That is the greatest poem ever written.

this one ends up so well. good job on the editing

@illneas

4 жыл бұрын

That's so nice of you Thank you

My God... that was incredible

This is heart wrenching dude

I think listen to this almost everday. I listen to all your videos. Multiple times. 😥

A poem of depression..a violent husband.. and a deep desire to break free..a smile meant to be sweet but sad..

This is so dark loved it !!!

This poem is a gem

Great job! Love your videos!

@illneas

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing that with me ^^

may God be with any who suffer such as this!

I just thought I'd pop by & refresh my memory of this particular video. It's been a while. Yup, it's still unbearably sad. Bukowski can rip your heart out with ease. Quite simple visuals but as powerful as hell, nevertheless. It's beautifully crafted. Perfect. Still, it while take a while to pluck up the courage to pop by again...🖤

Today is my birthday.that damn day that i stuck with this family.and today agian my father fight.to all of us.you know we think we grow up and things get better or even change.well nothing change in my21 years.stil my mom liveing with someone who hate.still me and my brother dreaming of killing him. my mother is Exactly like"the saddest smile i ever saw" and i cant do anything but look at her and broke to the million peases everyday. I just feel safe here so i write it. Thanks for making this🖤🙂

Who reads these poems? Such a moving voice

hits home and tear ducts open at end

Soy adicta a Bukowski!! Que hermoso como editas estos vídeos !!🖤

@victortheboss1474

4 жыл бұрын

Eva Lilith Es muy bueno! Lastima que la mayoría no lo aprecia

Happiness can make us smile. A smile, even if forced at first, can make us happier. A genuine smile, can bring happiness to others.

@Dogestronaut2.0

10 ай бұрын

⁠ ““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.” ‭‭Matthew‬ ‭11‬:‭28‬ ‭because of him I’m healed. and he wants to heal you too. he’s the reason why I’m alive today💖 And it’s not the end. There are many times in the Bible where they thought it was the end. Like the the death of Jesus. Or like Moses in the wilderness. And even Me I thought it was the end But God rescued me. Even tho your not a Cristian. Give ur pain to Jesus. He loves u.❤ I’ll be praying for u❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Awesome man!🙏🏿

Really nice work and really nice poem

Wow, what was Bukowski super great! My father never hit me, he learned me violence was no good. My Mother was pure love. I had the most fine Parents you can think off..And I was not a easy kid, even now I am not a easy person. But violense, never.

this is an amazing production. i think this is a great modern way of interpreting poetry, id love to see a lot more of these from other great writers. bukowski: such a beautiful writer.

@illneas

4 жыл бұрын

This is so kind of you. Thank you, more will come.

Beautifully devastating

Wow!!! Just Wow 😮😮

I saw the author and I knew I was in for the feels

This broke my mind.

Goosebumps

Its heart wrenching😞💔