If you feel suicidal dont visit a psych ward for sure

@Loufoque19

4 жыл бұрын

So true...in 2016 I stop taking effexor and feel very bad. A couple day later a go to the hospital and they keep me at psych. They give me prozac, olanzapine and clonazepam. I got a really bad reaction and I never been the same since that day. I'm now 1 year and half clean from all this shit but its was pure hell to quit. Even now i'm not feel fine. All these years wasted cause of these drugs.

@lorig1087

4 жыл бұрын

They seem to know less!!

@UrielX1212

3 жыл бұрын

They do not see you as a person in those places and they think everything can be treated by pills. They just want you in and out quickly.

@bugosestfire

3 жыл бұрын

@@Loufoque19 i am 11 months off venlafaxine (effexor) and its pure hell...i feel your pain. Cheers from France

@Loufoque19

3 жыл бұрын

@@bugosestfire j’te comprends ;) cheers du Québec

Thank you for this intelligent and thorough message and for the generous use of your energy to help others.

I did find you a few months back. I too am on a healing journey. I let go of pharmaceuticals 3 1/2 years ago now. Iam in recovery from a hopeless state of mind and body. I want to thank you for taking the time to share your story. We need to keep spreading the message of hope.

@sangeetalambh6389

2 жыл бұрын

Angela how r u now my friend

@katrinamenzies9398

2 жыл бұрын

@@sangeetalambh6389 💞

@tu_madre4

2 жыл бұрын

Angela dare how are you doing this far out?🙏💝

Amazing story. Wow. Thank you for serving our country. Congratulations on 4 years off benzos. You are a true warrior. I'm so sorry you have suffered so much. You are in my prayers. I'm 2 years off klonopin. lexapro and trazadone. I was kindled and on and off psych meds for almost 20 years. This has been brutal but I'm doing much better. I'm 54 and healing has been slow but steady. I still struggle with fatigue, psoriasis, sleep issues and peripheral neuropathy all due to benzo withdrawal. God bless you.

I wish you all the best Angela.. don't be too hard on yourself, you are an inspiration to all of us a soldier of the light and you've lit the path up for us, and for that you deserve more than a medal ❤️👏🏼.

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

El Buffalo 20 thank you so much. 💜

Your words and descriptions are so familiar! Thanks for for your voice it has helped me and thank you for what you are doing to bring awareness and support.

You are a very very strong person. Thank you for sharing your story and helping others.

Damn you are so strong!! Your story is amazing. I have only been on and off benzos for short periods of time and I still went through total hell. I can not even imagine what you have been through. ❤️❤️❤️

I love how you own your recovery and progress, it was especially uplifting to listen to you describe how *YOU* choose to describe things, choosing your own language in doing so is such an empowering tool. Some might say that "damage", as opposed to "withdrawal", is merely semantics. ......... there are so many reasons why that simply isn't true and you named a few yourself. I'm not a woman, not a soldier & have never been under fire .....I am however in awe of you & your journey. As one who has both walked the multi-pharma consumer path & also works in medical/healthcare, the difficulties determining what is physiological & what is drug side-effect is ubiquitous, patient or practitioner. Multimorbidity is difficult enough to try and tease apart in an attempt to discover each individual's unique set of component conditions; throw the phenomena of polypharmacy in the mix and the task passes from possible to VERY VERY unlikely. Throw in a smidge of professional bias (every health care professional on the planet has some, they wouldn't be human without it), add some misunderstanding by family, friends, health professionals, some confirmation bias and it has now become 100% impossible to differentiate side effect from physiological irregularity & diagnosable condition. Basically, without the resolve and determination that you've demonstrated, many people are simply doomed to more of the same. The good thing, though that seems a bad choice of words, is that none of us need be a genius, or super motivated to start the journey ..... in my experience, they all start from the same point ........... overwhelming desperation & pain ..... way beyond what can possibly be conveyed in these here words. As for people trying to compare and saying "I suffered more than you" or "You can't be that bad if you're able to drive" blah blah blah ENOUGH ALREADY ........ Jesus H .... like the journey ain't tough enough and the odds are stacked against us enough already, we got a turn on ourselves now ... REALLY!?!?!?!?! Each other is all we got here ... take a breath and show some love. I only know my own experience, there is no possible way I can know yours or anyone else's, not unless I have walked EVERY SINGLE step they have. My experience might be similar to some, but NEVER the same. Rock on my sister ....... you are a freaking inspiration and MUCH LOVE to you!!!

I pray your recovery is soon.

I’ve watched you from the beginning and I was so scared to come off Xanax. I quit taking it June 2016 and didn’t have any problems. Listening to you and some others I feel so damn lucky!

@denisemartinez4566

4 жыл бұрын

benzo awareness I crossed directly over to Valium and quit the Xanax. Tapered Valium over 6 months. Started at 20 mg a day and dropped 2 mg every two weeks

@denisemartinez4566

4 жыл бұрын

benzo awareness I am really lucky. The only withdrawal was insomnia and anxiety but it went away fairly quick. I still get anxiety attacks sometimes but I just lay down with headphones until I feel better.

@amandaoneill5136

4 жыл бұрын

Hi really you can say you had no problems, fair play. I get so scared some of the stories i read

@andreaturnquist4855

4 жыл бұрын

Ugh! My doctor took me off of Klonopin cold turkey. Day 2 without it and I am going to freak out!!

@denisemartinez4566

4 жыл бұрын

Amanda Oneill I did fine tapering. Everyone is different. Be positive because you can be a lucky on. Only 30-40% experience the bad stuff.

And this was 4 years ago! Look how far you’ve come! 🎉🎉🎉

Beautifully done video Angela on all benzo wd & healing is. Congratulations .. you will keep improving. I appreciate all you are doing to help all who took benzos.

Congrats on 4 years!! I'll be off 3 years on Jan 26th!!

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

nybeachgirl 1976 congratulations!!! The worst is behind us!

@kevinforrester3379

4 жыл бұрын

great job keep going stay strong

@daliac4023

3 жыл бұрын

Do you still have anexity or insomnia?

Angie you are so strong, I’m amazed. I think you are one of the strongest persons I’ve ever seen. I hope you find more relief soon.

@AngiePeacockMSW

3 жыл бұрын

I'm strong AND so tired!

Thank you for your service! I have followed the medicating normal platforms.

You're amazing, I'm grateful for your story it gives me so much hope

Thank you for you honesty. ♥ Everyone has a longer road ahead than any of us realize. Thank you for helping me, as I listen to you on Jan. 2, 2023.

Congrats on 4 years off. Today is my 4th year off from a cold turkey and while i’m still suffering greatly and largely debilitated I really appreciate your videos. They help me feel less alone and they give me hope. You are awesome being an advocate 👍🏻. Thanks! Ty also for your service to the country 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Smiths NYI thank you so much for the nice comment. ❤️

You are so strong i cant believe it i hope you keep getting better

Ty and congratulations on the milestone. Wow. Truely. Peace from Aus.

Please Angie don’t stop this KZread channel I need to watch them please

Thanks so much for this video, I'll have to watch it three times. You understand. much love xo

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Yes I can barely watch a 5 minute YT video, I'm so sorry this one is so long!!!

Please keep this channel going xx

Been off Klonopin for a few years now. It was the only thing I took for 2 yrs. Just had a bad panic attack while getting my haircut. It's rough.. a good support system really helps the process of healing.

Hi Healingfrom benzos. Thank you so much for inspiring us all, and for holding the torch of hope for a community that goes through a lot of suffering. I was poly drugged with Lexapro, Ambien (tapered off now) and still tapering off Ativan. I have followed your videos and and follow the DR D podcasts. I also experience many of the same symptoms you describe in this video, and not sure which is worse, the loud tinnitus, this internal akathesia and feeling you at the edge of a cliff all the time, but the visual issue with 24/7 DP/DR, where the brain cannot process too much visual input at once throws me completely. Even though I have been through military & war, and a passed outdoor/nature enthusiast, I struggle to go outdoors now (like just outside my home), as feel too disorientated and get over anxious. Its firstly too bright when its a sunny day or too dark when cloudy, and like there too much information (area) for the brain to process the ""big picture"". I cannot drive far neither now, as traffic and physical motion all happens to fast for my brain to analyse which makes me anxious.. My vision also went very blurry, and it feels like a huge pressure behind my eyes all the time.I just wanted to know what coping mechanisms you use to get through the visual issues and DP/DR?

Thank you for sharing your story. I have followed from beginning. I, too, have the visual issues and vertigo. You have put into words what I have been dealing with. I am roughly 44 months off cold turkey. My life has been a nightmare for past 10 years and trying to come to terms with it, and not fully remembering it is so painful. I appreciate you so very much.

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Sending you hugs Stephanie, I know this is so hard!

@stephanieott9056

4 жыл бұрын

Healingfrom Benzos , do you have issues also with lights? Since the beginning, when lights or any brightness hits my vision I keep seeing that light imprint in my visual field. I reminds me of when someone takes a picture with flash and you see the flash. I have this all the time with regular lights, it is like it has imprinted on my retina. Makes it very difficult to see at night.

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

@@stephanieott9056 yes I sure do but mine usually goes away in a few seconds. Also, I get a white circle that just appears randomly then goes away several times a day. Seems to be top right of my vision. It looks like when you see a camera flash and then look away and still see it except I don't have to look at any lights at all, it just appears and then goes away.

Hey I wanted to chime in and say I have the exact same vision issues! I am only 8 months off klonopin. I have had a lot of slow healing done over time. My vision issues, just as you described, have been my main symptom along with the dizziness. Thank you for sharing your ‘list’ it helps to know that we’re not alone in this.

@TheTurtleTribalNation

4 жыл бұрын

Lacey Bretthauer research Lions Mane Mushroom to repair the damage

@KT-ie6vf

3 жыл бұрын

Did your vision issue clear up? I still have light DPDR

@sangeetalambh6389

2 жыл бұрын

@@KT-ie6vf how r u now my friend

Thank you for hard rock truth and all your service for us. Amazing story! You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I too have a symptom I’ve never heard anyone talk about before. Two years off Kolonipin. Thank you again for your bravery ❤️

Thank you so very much for making this video . Please do another one in a year or 2

God bless you and thank you for endeavoring to preserve freedom by serving in the military.

WOW. thank you for all you have done. I know my words will always fall short. I AM currenetly 11 months off a 26 years Klonopin habit. The 11 months followed a 5 month taper. Right now I am currently going thru hell. I also got off of a 10 yr. fentenly and oxycodone habit. (12 month taper - a walk in the park compared to this). @ 65 yrs of age I have been in a wheelchair for 45 yrs. Old age is creepin' in also. Please be strong. I cannot drive now at all. It's not safe. We are all different & have different stories but we are all in this together. Please hang in there. SINCERELY.

Thank u for making me feel less Alone

Outstanding, thank you 🌹

You are so strong. I am just starting to taper and you give me hope!! Thanks so much

You are my new hero. I’m an addict, and have detoxed from just about everything you can think of. I was trying to come off Suboxone (a second time) last fall. The doctor prescribed me Klonopin for the brutal anxiety. It was the only thing that really helped. I took it on and off throughout my taper. I came off Suboxone successfully back in 2012, and as brutal as it was, in no way did it feel as nearly dark as how I’m feeling now. My last dose of Klonipin was about 2 weeks ago. My brain didn’t even establish reality for a whole week. Throughout ANYTHING I’ve ever been addicted to, this darkness is on a whole new level. Unlike you, this is largely my own fault though. I just thought somehow I would be different, and I wouldn’t get withdrawal. So now, I’m still stuck on Suboxone, because I cannot afford for anything to get darker in my head. I used to think that the depression and anxiety from Suboxone withdrawal was the worst thing someone could feel, but I was so wrong. This is the absolute worst thing I’ve ever felt in my 38 years of being alive. I made up my mind to NEVER touch another drug again. When I do finally come off Suboxone, I’m not going to use Benzos. I have no idea how long this will take, but I don’t know how people get the strength to push through it. It’s debilitating. I thought I would be OK just taking them for a week or two than stop, so I didn’t get a dependency. Nope. Every time I stop and start, it gets worse. I wasn’t even aware that it was the Klonipin that was doing it at first. I thought it was my Suboxone taper, but nope. I’m NEVER doing this to myself again. Ever.

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

jax jaxie google “Ashton manual” and read how to taper off SLOWLY!

God bless you for what you have been through and thank you for your service in the military. Anyone who would ever say or cut down someone elses experience is just a down right awful. I have been clean since 2016. Still have symptoms. You say damage and I totally agree.

Wow....you're a Trooper....These Dr's need to be held accountable....

This gives me hope!!! I'm at 4 years off now, and I can relate to what you are saying about your symptoms. I'll keep going!!!Thank you!!!!!

@AngiePeacockMSW

Жыл бұрын

Keep going! Also, I offer coaching one-on-one so if you need a session, book here: www.angiepeacock.com

@philippgrote6554

Жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW Thank you. I just had one with B., but I will keep it in mind as my story seems quite similar to yours. The nerve pain as well as the agoraphobia is similar. Your videos are gold!

It's been 6 years and counting and I just found out what what is happening to me. I actually started to believe the doctors when they kept telling me it was all in my head. I got so angry at the word psychosomatic, but after so many years, I began to give in. Then I saw what happened to Dr. Jordan Peterson recently and realized that this is what's happening to me. Hearing your story gives me hope...I'm still tapering with 5 to go. Just finished the first one after 6 years. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences. I needed to hear that. And I subscribed.

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

John W. Ryon IV I’m so sorry John! I’m glad you figured it out!!!

@johnw.ryoniv8953

4 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW I only figured it out because of wonderful people like yourself who share their story. And of course, led here by our Heavenly Father!

@sangeetalambh6389

2 жыл бұрын

@@johnw.ryoniv8953 how r u now

I’m back to akathisia as well. I can say that these videos help me realize that I’m probably not dying . Thank you

@sangeetalambh6389

2 жыл бұрын

Stubbornly how r u now myy frd

Sorry to hear about your troubles. I’m taking care of my brother who is still suicidal after 18 months off Klonipin and 11 months off Seroquel. He is still suffering from a toro agoraphobia,acathesia and sleeping problems. He also felt as if if was going to have a heart attack and muscle weakness. Anxiety and panic attacks have gotten better. I’ve tried to find a lawyer who would take this case and sue the doctors and pharmaceutical companies for damage. But I haven’t been able to find one. My brother is 62 and has been on various drugs for 11 years starting with hydrocodone for severe headaches that he suffered from when he had an accident at his auto shop and injected fuel. He lost his wealth and family due to a divorce that he was unable to defend. I’ve saved his life so far having cooked food and doing hot external ginger compresses on his kidneys. You must be feeling better being off the poisonous drugs. In your case, I think the government is responsible for taking care of your financial and living necessities. They owe it to you.

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Emmanuel Vacakis he needs more healing time it sounds like. I was very suicidal until 22 months off and still had that symptom a little after here and there. Also, I wrote this about the justice system . There is no justice for us: www.madinamerica.com/2019/08/battles-of-a-benzo-injury-jeans-story/

Good video. I'm five years off the only thing that got better is ringing in my head.

@hyperanthropos6716

4 жыл бұрын

How long have u used them Peter?

@peternoble1183

4 жыл бұрын

@@hyperanthropos6716 I was on benzo for 35 years. ct I hope this year things start to change

@ramraungthong822

4 жыл бұрын

peter noble omg im so cry off benzo 11months(tranxene and clonazepam) still have ringing in my head all the time,who helping me.

@sangeetalambh6389

2 жыл бұрын

@@ramraungthong822 how r u now my. frd

I watched this 4 times.. Seriously a very helpful video.. Thank you.

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Eric Evans I’m glad I could help even a little. Hang in there!

@lcf3335

4 жыл бұрын

9months in and everyday it's rage with burning skin and satan Steven King intrusive thoughts like you said in one of your other videos.. Thanks for your comment.. Bless you👊

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Eric Evans keep going Eric! It’s all temporary. All those thoughts are gone for me. Long gone. THANK GOD! If I am healing so will you!

@lcf3335

4 жыл бұрын

I appreciate that.. Thanks a million👍

Sad when we have to defend our symptoms to others in withdrawal. Good video.

Thank you.

Sending love to you xx

Thank you for coming back with an update . I can’t believe you are pushing through all this still. Wow you are a strong woman!!! Most people including myself would crumble with that kind of anxiety and driving. God Bless you for getting yourself through this. ❤️🙏🏻 As I was listening toward the end and you talk about people talking to you or walking into the grocery store and feeling a flight or fright response ...I honestly think you are still having panic attacks. I will definitely check out that website.

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

it's like an overstimulation response, not really a panic attack.

@g.s167

4 жыл бұрын

Of course, angela is extremely courageous and clever: she was a soldiar in Iraq. I m not sure, each woman is able to have her strenght!!

@stacisrainbownursery7825

4 жыл бұрын

Healingfrom Benzos ok thank you 😊!!

@stacisrainbownursery7825

4 жыл бұрын

frantz kafka I agree

you are one yr behind me and yet you helped me thank you stay strong I will pray for you

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

kevin forrester thanks Kevin! How are you feeling? Is there more healing up ahead for me?

@kevinforrester3379

4 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW we both hope sorry I'm in such pain talk later

@sangeetalambh6389

2 жыл бұрын

@@kevinforrester3379 my frd how r u now

Thank you for sharing. I am so bad right now in major AD withdrawal PAWS and Xanax tolerance and no one believes. I am in hardcore withdrawals shaking and today I am starting xanax daily water titration. But thank you for sharing. I have inner anxiety. So so bad. God bless you.

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Mary B it takes a long time but we do get better! Taper at your own speed, seek support from the support groups and take it one second at a time. It’s taken me many, many years to get to where I am now.

@Jannietime1

4 жыл бұрын

All of us who have been thru it believe you.

@TheTurtleTribalNation

4 жыл бұрын

Research Lions Mane Mushroom to repair the damage

I'm sorry to hear that but glad to hear ur off I'm on 1 mg klonapin and now been taking 3 months I broke both legs from a fall from 20 but now I'm tryin to get off this shit I'm trying to taper and get help I have beautiful 2 yr old son has to watch go through detox I'm tryin to taper off I'm done with all this sickness and thank you for ur service

Bless your heart!! Going through a similar thing, right now ..... 😢

53 months out . I still have some of this as well . I see double lines at night still but my eye test are normal . Heart rate stuff is much better but still can flare up . I only feel about %70 . My brain still burns sometimes but much better . Stay safe out there .

Thank you for your honesty, your personal experiences and helping so many of us. It's been only 4 months off benzos for me. It is hell. Noone in my world understands. I no longer talk about it. This is my new normal. No life. All the horrid symptoms you've described I'm living. But, at least now I have an answer. Thank you.

@putgodfirst1192

3 жыл бұрын

I've been off for 13 months now and I'm just wondering how you are doing now? If you have time to reply that would be very nice! Thanks!

@maureenriddell9513

3 жыл бұрын

@@putgodfirst1192 Hi! It's been almost 17 months now. Sleeping better. Feeling better. However, continuing problems vertigo, balance issues. According to ENT specialists and neurologists, everything checks out fine. Thank goodness! Still taking this journey one day at a time. Blessings to you my friend!🙏💜🙏

@putgodfirst1192

3 жыл бұрын

@@maureenriddell9513 Did you have any paranoia? Thank you so much for replying and your a success to benzo people! Many blessings and prayers to you!!

@maureenriddell9513

3 жыл бұрын

@@putgodfirst1192 Hi! No. No paranoia. Anger, frustration and depression. Not able to do what I use to. Focusing on healthy foods and vitamins. Taking one day at a time. Exercise, getting outdoors, prayer and meditation do help. Be well! You're going to be ok!🙏💜🙏WE are going to be ok!

@putgodfirst1192

3 жыл бұрын

@@maureenriddell9513 thank you very much!! Have an very goodnight!

Thank you for your honesty. I’m on xanax and very scared to come off. . But it’s people like you who keep it real for me. Screw the hatersXO

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Annette Dellapi if you decide to come off, just don’t cold turkey! Healing is inevitable it just takes a long time

@annettedellapi9047

4 жыл бұрын

Healingfrom Benzos You’re very kind for taking the time to acknowledge me❣️It truly helps to know that I’m not alone...

@annettedellapi9047

4 жыл бұрын

The Ministry of Truth KMK thank you, greatly, for your advice.❤️❤️

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Annette Dellapi you are not alone! There are a lot of us here just in the comments to support you!

@annettedellapi9047

4 жыл бұрын

Healingfrom Benzos Wow❣️The support. Thank you❣️.

Thank you for the video. I went from being a med student to really struggling.

@AngiePeacockMSW

3 жыл бұрын

Eric Horwitz sorry Eric. You will get your brain back.

Wow, yeah. Previous traumas prepared me as well. I'm familiar with longterm suffering.

Girl your amazing a true benzo warrior. I don't know you I'm just a scared 37 year old on 20mg of Valium for over five years living in Ireland. But I've watched your videos and saw the hell you were in but blew my mind when u still went to school etc an inspiration truly. I can see how much you've come on and just well done xx

@g.s167

4 жыл бұрын

She was a soldiar in Iraq!

@Paul-ek5lu

4 жыл бұрын

Hi Amanda, i am same age as you , from Dublin and have successfully withdrawn 20 mg. 17 months off after 15 years on. You hang in there, keep strong. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Look up blood type diet, its the only true way of eating.Eat all organic foods. Eliminate all sugar. Fast, if and when you can. Drink water only for fluid. Keep electronic and WIFI away from you when sleeping or resting. Be careful of all supplements.

@amandaoneill5136

4 жыл бұрын

@@Paul-ek5lu Paul hi So good to hear from someone from my planet! Thanks so much for the info and congratulations on coming off the poison! Paul was it very hard going, did you taper, what's the best plan??

@amandaoneill5136

4 жыл бұрын

From Dublin also

Your vision stuff will clear x

Thanks Angie.

Angie,, I feel like I know you thank you so much❤ thank you for helping me😢🙏🏼❤️

@AngiePeacockMSW

2 ай бұрын

So many say that!

Thankyou for ur videos. I jumped off .25 Ativan and had very few side effects. Now trying to wean off .25 serequel and then the trazadone. One at a time.

Thank you. And Congratulations! You are one of my heroes (I have just a couple)!

Yep. I thought about 45 drugs, but I counted one day its around 60 medications. Incredible that we survived. 🙏

@AngiePeacockMSW

3 жыл бұрын

AS mine was more than 60 too but psych drugs only was like 45.

@grv91vr23

Жыл бұрын

I’m damaged more than this from only one drug after 1 year use. 3 years out. Zero healing. Some have luck some don’t

@Slidehhy

7 ай бұрын

@@grv91vr23 what have you tried?

I just found ur channel Thank u for Sharing..I've been on benzos & other psych meds..for many many yrs..now I'm withdrawaling badly from benzos that were prescribed to me in the early 90's this is pure Hell...I hope to b were ur at fingers crossed 🤞 Btw does anyone goin thru this have a hard time doing anything even working? As I currently can't do anything without severe dizziness ect

@AngiePeacockMSW

2 ай бұрын

Hello and welcome and I'm sorry! Yes most I coach are not able to work because symptoms can be so bad.

I can sooooo relate with the restless almost "super human energy" as you put it. Luckily I found ultra marathons and iron Man to blow off all that steam but I agree it's unnatural and very uncomfortable, especially in a social setting!

@goalsoverbenzos5384

4 жыл бұрын

I admire your tenacity and would really appreciate your opinion on something: I go really hard physically and mentally, I can work out and study for hrs...but socially I don't really push myself at all. Mainly for 2 reasons. 1. I don't have a car and in the middle of nowhere and 2.because every time I do I panic and I go back to thinking "well if time is going to heal me anyway then why the fuck would I make the time harder by forcing myself to be all panicky?"...which I'm conflicted because I've always been taught to embrace fear and pain in order to grow..but I don't feel like I'm growing from social situations, I feel like I'm just torturing myself and then get bitter about it. What are your thoughts?

I find your story inspirational. You have come out of a nightmare history and are sane and reasonable, albeit still challenged, understandable given your background. You were damaged while serving. Short synopsis of me = 35 years on, using Klonopin and Ambien, 3.5 months off, regrettably cold turkey, huge mistake! I’m still uncomfortable but up from miserable. As a citizen and taxpayer I feel we all should take care of our military veterans, whatever it takes. FWIW, I see you as a high need achiever personality, prone to to burdening yourself by taking on many responsibilities… . You might want to back off where you can; life doesn’ have to be hard to be okay.🤷🏼‍♂️

@AngiePeacockMSW

2 жыл бұрын

you speak the truth! I'm trying!

@sangeetalambh6389

2 жыл бұрын

All in how r u now my friend

@Fwmatl

2 жыл бұрын

@@sangeetalambh6389 Thanks for asking, wounded warrior😊. I’m at 11 months and have nuclear-like anxiety and insomnia, along with IBD, feeling awful! I’m hoping all this perseverance will pay off with some equanimity. I’m on the verge of reinstating benzos (for life) to function better but will give effort another month or so. How are you; gradually getting more relief?

@sangeetalambh6389

2 жыл бұрын

@@Fwmatl I quit alc and nicoteen take benzos only 15 days and quit still feel dp dr 417 days sober now

I call it’s protracted shock syndrome I’m going through it right now I been on medication from childhood to adulthood I’m 42 it’s been hell on earth

Same sympoms!!!! 2 years off. This is what keeps me housebound.

@hollylockman9363

4 жыл бұрын

I can’t look at trees while in a car, other vehicles, bright lights, snowing, rain, fog etc etc

@TheTurtleTribalNation

4 жыл бұрын

Holly Lockman Research Lions Mane Mushroom for the damage . I too understand. Sorry for your pain

@hollylockman9363

4 жыл бұрын

The Turtle Tribal Nation have you used this yourself? I’ve heard of it.

@TheTurtleTribalNation

4 жыл бұрын

Holly Lockman yes and it really works . I had a lot of healing just amaze me after a couple of months of using it . I got the tincture from Escastic Earth . Can be found on their website, eBay or amazon . Or there are several people who make it but I like the Escastic Earth. I also started on Bacopa and Ashwangha and wow what a difference! I also use BCAA powder, lithium orotates with Pink Salt and a few other tricks up my sleeve . But when I went through withdrawals, I could not feel my skin teeth every single part of my body has stinging nerve pain , my brain zapped and popped .. so did my skin like I think I may have already said . This lions mane brought so much light back into my life . I can’t live without it now . I am slowly getting better. It’s been 3 years for me . It’s been the hardest most difficult time of my life . I am just trying to return back to the community that I have not been able to face because it freaks me out watching this kind of stuff. Neighbor Bob on you tube has done great ideas and knowledge base too. We know each other . His recommendations are awesome. I just haven’t done the heavy metal cleanse yet but I got the nutritional yeast powder and that’s a lot of B vitamins you can throw on eggs and stuff. Protein is the key but it’s hard carb cravings bad and cause me extreme nerve pain . I try to eat as much organic as possible but I am poor . I also use a mood probiotic from garden of life . It’s expensive but it has strains that repairs the damaged receptor sites because they are built through good nutrition. I really hope this helps you and anyone who sees this because this is my project , try to find a benzo suffer , someone who I think is still suffering and try to dedicate and give back a little hidden knowledge. The lions mane brought me back from the depths of hell. I still have major issues but not no where when I wasn’t on it , I thjnk I would have really died . I didn’t sleep for a year and had to lay sitting up major stomach problems like crazy . Now for the last few months I am actually able to lay down now . It’s nice . Still difficult anxious and stuff but I have complex PTSD and it’s noisy in this plex and drives me apeshit sometimes ... especially when my blood sugar is off . Our food air water s so toxic . These big pharma companies are evil and santanic .. so are the drs .. I mean come on have you ever pulled up the CDC vaccine ingredient page and actually researched what they use ? Some of those vaccines contain aborted baby fetal cells . That’s diabolical. Don’t trust the drs Anymore. Got a tooth removed in January and they couldn’t even do that right . Now the next tooth they cracked and half of it fell out . When they did the first tooth it was painful and they gave me another Brain injury called Trigelia Neurologica or something ... and I used the lions mane and it went away , the next tooth they took the nerve out so that’s the tooth they cracked . They spent hours and hours in there , my Brain injury is not being taken into account by these morons , since this is the most perfect chemical weapon with no proof of test ... so that has to be taken into account because I have had Brain pressure the entire time .. well that’s subsided with the supplements ... anyways pretty nervous about having to get another tooth removed. So try to do some coconut oil rinses in the morning and keep your teeth and collidial silver because this is destroying mine . I hope I don’t make anyone panic .. you will be fine just take care of your teeth . The coconut oil is also needed to be taken with the bacopa and Ashwangha to help facilitate it into your liver . Just a tablespoon and it also helps you .. but the rinses try to do for at least 10 min before eating anything in the morning .. it makes a huge difference. You see I was going to college to be a nutritionalist but I would put big pharma out of business My dad’s cancer is healed as of yesterday with no chemo or drugs just CBDs and turmeric You also should look into the turmeric and maybe I am suppose to say check with your doctor first on all of this ???? And do your research for sure .. god bless y’all

@hollylockman9363

4 жыл бұрын

The Turtle Tribal Nation thanks you sooooooo much for all this wonderful info! Truly appreciated

Thank you for your service! Also, thank you for this channel. I am on day 2 benzodiazepine free. My doctor took me off of Klonopin cold turkey after. I am going to freak out!!

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Andrea Turnquist not everyone has a hard time coming off. Can you ask him to do a sensible taper?

@andreaturnquist4855

4 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW I did. I took 3mg of Klonopin 3x a day. He just stopped and told me the benzo withdrawal is in my head. It is very real.

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

@@andreaturnquist4855 9mg total a day? What was his reason for not tapering you?

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

please report him to the medical board in your state.

I'm so sorry for what has happened to you. I pray for continue healing for you. In 4 years I was switched many many times on different meds, AD.'s, benzos, z drugs, like 19 different times. Sometimes trying the same med 2-3 times. I was cold turkey from all the meds, I was also kindled so many times. I did not know any of this until I started researching wondering why I was feeling worse and experiencing all these different symptoms. I had to research on my own because nobody believed me and my Dr would tell me it's me not the meds. Even though I didn't have any of these issues before meds. I wanted to ask you if you still have symptoms for a long time, (like 3 years) does that mean you are permanently damaged and those symptoms won't go away? I have symptoms that come and go and then I have symptoms that are here everyday like head issues, eye pressure, vision issues, inner vibrating/shaking, body pain, jaw tightness, muscle tension/tightness and some others. Looking for hope but also honesty. Thank you!

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

PrayforHealing ! I still have symptoms at 4 years off but the trajectory has been towards healing so I expect to keep healing.

@prayforhealing1729

4 жыл бұрын

Healingfrom Benzos Another question.. Did things like having an intense conversation, arguing, getting excited, loud noises, make you feel worse? I guess overstimulation.?? Also, do/did your eyes get worse if it's cloudy out or when the sun setting. It seems like my eye pressure and vision gets worst during these times.

Thank you

You look healthy been following you since the beginning. I have the same visual things going on. you encourage me to divulge my story. ❤ I believe it is damaged! You really have been through it!

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

KING L.A. do you feel comfortable telling me more about your vision stuff? You can find me on FB if that’s better. “Angela Peacock”

@NAMASTEONELOVE

4 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW when you mentioned the wheels on the car go the opposite way. Pretty much the same symptoms that you speak of. I have been cut and if I could go back in time never have ever taken any of these meds especially Benzos aside from psychoactive medications. Thank you for reaching out to me it's very hard for me to describe sometimes. I got your page on Facebook thank you so much. Edit: I didn't get Angela I will look you up.

@NAMASTEONELOVE

4 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW you are a wealth of information and a lot of people will be greatful for your strength and your story!

I am on 1 mg alprazolam.. Easily available but scary to remove them from my table what you suggest.

As I was also doing my research I believe I saw it takes 5 years to recover. But it also has alot to do with what you eat and how you manage on daily basis.

I've been off from clonazepam 4 months ago. Tapering with my doctor, that lasted 4 months. It's safer to do it with patience... I'm on daily rehab meeting which have helped a lot and weekly seeing my psychiatrist. I'm ok during the day. I've got photophobia at night but I'll cope with that. Being alone is not the answer...reach some group meetings. It's not hopeless. It's worst being on it.

I am a survivor too .. am overwhelmed myself today but have seen great benefits with the lions mane mushroom.. I know I repeated all over your page so thank you just trying to help y’all ... also if you need to talk or want more recommendations cool I just don’t want to overwhelm God bless I get you though....

@TheTurtleTribalNation

4 жыл бұрын

Michael oh wow cool yes you can email me and I can give you my number if that’s easier. Whatever your more comfortable with universallove8@icloud.com

Do you know why when the dose gets really , and I am coming off benzos now. Why is it that the small dose I take seems to sometimes causes me anxiety ..

If you don't mind me asking, how do you find the will to keep going? I'm at 20 months and I'm starting to feel like none of this was worth it. I mean yes I feel better but it doesn't feel worth everything I've been through and continue yo go through

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Robert Hazouri the way I do this is one day. One second, one hour at a time. I do not let myself worry about next week or tomorrow or next month. One day at a time is how I do it.

My brother was also on psychotic drugs for 13 years. Can you explain in more detail about your class action case against Seroquel and how much you got.

I see pin pricks of light too.

When I started watching your other channel I was convinced you were healed. I cant believe you are still going through this although I hear it is not uncommon. The mental symptoms are the worst I feel. Can you please do an update on what mental symptoms you are dealing with and do you feel like yourself now? Did you find the joy that we are all missing still, that desire that makes you want to get up everyday. Is the apathy gone? Would love to know. You are amazing!!!!!!! and inspiring

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Monica Bennett I act as normal as I can but no I don’t feel good, never. My feelings are still pretty gone. I know how to act happy or excited but inside I feel nothing. I don’t even remember what it’s like to feel good. I’ll make another video soon.

@mb589

4 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW we are so similar. People think because I kept working that I'm not as bad off. They have no idea how I have to push through everyday, secretly freaking out and not showing it. Having panic attacks out in the parking lot or in the employee bathroom. I can't stay home either, can't sit still, can't ever relax, never calm, never feel right, total apathy. Totally don't feel like myself and can't even remember what "normal" feels like. Even when I'm in a so called window im always waiting for the other shoe to drop and withdrawl is ALWAYS on the back of my mind. The real messed up part of this was I was only on .75 Xanax for 5 months given to me by my idiot gastro for stomach issues. Pulled me off cold turkey. I had never taken meds before that. 28 months in protracted, still can't believe it. I too was one of the unlucky ones. Just like you I get my hope from others that are farther along that have healed or still healing. I just had to reach out cuz I our withdrawl is so similar, minus the vision issues I had it all. Look forward to your next video, thank you for all you do!

@mb589

4 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW hope you are doing good. Another horrible Holiday for those of us still struggling. Can i please ask you what mental symptoms if any you still have. When you said in your last video it took you longer for your psychological symptoms to go away and you were worried cuz it happened soon we for others is how I feel now. They are the worst in this. Also do you still get adrenaline/cortisol surges? Thank you for replying. Hope you and Joe are having a good holiday in the road

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Monica Bennett mental left now is still dr dp but it’s not nearly as bad as other times. I have a lot of weird existential type thoughts but the suicidal and other scary thoughts that are too taboo to write on KZread mostly left around month 28. I might still get them randomly but they are REALLY REALLY MILD and really I shouldn’t even mention it because they are super rare and super mild. Hmmm what else mental: I have cog fog all the time and mostly it feels like someone hit me over the head. I feel stupid and slow and like I can’t think straight. Also, it’s hard to organize my thoughts or read or concentrate or plan things. Anything that takes multiple steps, I have to ask people to help me because I just can’t do it.

Hey angie I am also on my 4th year after a 6 years of abuse of anti depressants and i still feel like a crap horrible blood sugar issues hypoglycemia vertigo and a very severe depression since one year i feel like i have no reasob to live for i just feel so un motivated. When i wake up in the morning i feel so lost and disconeected then I start ahving anxiety and panic attacks can you suggest any thing that would help me with this depression and panic and anxiety. Thank you

@AngiePeacockMSW

Жыл бұрын

First, check your diet and try to eliminate all sugar or caffeine. Next listen to “the anxious truth” podcast starting on episode one and see if any of his principles help.

Just curious, and maybe you will address in a future video, but did the visual problems ever go away?

@AngiePeacockMSW

3 ай бұрын

No they sure haven’t. Some of the more mild ones went away but the more severe ones have not improved not even a second. No windows from them. I’ve just sort of learned to live with it.

@user-vn7jy1cn1o

2 ай бұрын

I'm over 3.5 years off all meds and have similar visual problems. I was on Paxil for 12 years and my doctor tried cold switching me to a different antidepressant which went horribly wrong and caused some kind of neurological damage (which wasn't resolved by reinstating Paxil). I also tried vision therapy with no improvement. It's such an awful symptom and is intertwined with other debilitating symptoms like dizziness, headache, head pressure, neck pain, brain fog, fatigue, and DP/DR. I'm sorry to hear this has not improved for you after all these years. I anticipate it will be the same for me. It's unbelievable the damage these drugs can cause.

It's fucking mind boggling how you are this far out but also how functional you've kept yourself and no doubt it's down to your military background much love, stop listening to other stories you know this!!! X

I am still on clonazepam! I weaned myself off of 2 milligrams over 4 months and started going through paranoid schizophrenia then psychosis and then was taken to a mental hospital. Why I was in the hospital, I was placed back on clonazepam. Symptoms I can’t handle anything that causes the least amount of stress. I can not be on the phone for more than a minute. My brain was damaged, yet I look normal on the outside. I’m not able to work. The fatigue is tremendous! I have severe fatigue. I also have to lay down most of the time to get relief. Going anywhere for entertainment I just say I don't want to go, but the truth be known as I shut the door I break down crying. I feel burning all over my skin and my brain and am in fight or flight all the time.

OMG I don't drive anymore, but what you described about how your brain cannot process everything that is going on on the highway @5:15 is EXACTLY what I go through and unfortunately it causes dizziness, imbalance, and panic for me. I told my therapist this and she told me to try starring at the sky because it doesn't move... but the problem is the peripheral vision still picks up all the movement going on around. I wear fit over shades now, and that has helped because for me, sunlight makes it 10 times worse whereas with shades it kind of dampens and balances the colors to like a hue which calms my brain down a bit. I also have problems riding in small cars like my echo....I haven't driven my car in 4 years due to this mess. :(

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Atypical Lavender I have the same exact thing.

I'm going back to school at 35 years old. Tomorrow will be my first day. I went through the worst of the withdrawal about 2.5 years ago. I can't tell if I'm over it. I still get triggered when I have a bad night of sleep. I go to sleep thinking I may not go to sleep. That was my worst symptom was the insomnia and I still feel like I'm not going to sleep even though most nights I do. Usually life changes leads to anxiety leads to sleepless nights triggers memories of those days and I get depressed. I'm hoping tomorrow will go ok and tonight I won't be too anxious about it. I'm so sorry you are still going through it. Everything you are saying takes me back to those days. I hope you will get better soon.

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Congratulations! You can do it!

@ghoulinrouge5392

4 жыл бұрын

Healingfrom Benzos Thank you. You will get through this as well Angie. I always tell myself the only way out is through. You can do it as well!!

@kostasvalanidis7560

4 жыл бұрын

@@ghoulinrouge5392 how long your insomnia last??

@ghoulinrouge5392

4 жыл бұрын

Kostas Vaxevanidis I'm not even sure. Days were long that's for sure. Maybe around after almost a year, it started getting better. I'm sure it was better before that, but mentally I was still struggling with the fear that sleep won't come tonight. or the next night. What really helped me though was to not put so much pressure on sleep. I had real bad sleep anxiety though. the more I thought about sleep the more it would not come. you can't chase sleep. you'll never catch it. So just lay in bed not with the intention to sleep, but you just relax. don't put so much pressure on it. That's what helped me anyway.

@kostasvalanidis7560

4 жыл бұрын

@@ghoulinrouge5392 thanks that you reply me and the advices that you give. How long did you use;;

Congratulations

Am barley getting to all your video's. I understand 100 am gonna continue to do my research. And I will get back to you. Dont worry you are not alone.

Wow ! That's a lot of different meds 😥and the VA did that to you?

Hey im glad you are better..we have to fight this epic battle and we gona win it.. did you have tinnitus and how long it lasted?

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Kiko Kiklis I’ve had tinnitus for over 16 years from the very first few years of taking meds. I was also in the army and around lots of weapons without ear plugs so it’s better not to compare to my timeline.

Thank you for posting your story Please keep continue to make more videos I’m on my way to tape this devil medicine

I know exactly what you are talking about...it has been 7 years since I took my last benzo. I’m going through all those things too. I talk to a person and all of a sudden I feel like I’m in a dream and I can’t even focus on what they are saying 😟 horrible!

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

David J. Day I have the exact same problem. In and out of reality.

Yes their are mean people in the groups. That’s why I have a select few people I talk too who are off. Not a comparison but the list of meds is large like myself. And the white matter thing as well, I think both of us having that. Might count for some other issues.

Can you walk straight or is every thing swaying???

The name of the Lord is like a strong tower. Those who do what is right can run to him for protection. Proverbs 18:10

Driving was the worse I do not have friends or family I cannot drive! But we all have things we are more sensitive to. Our phobias vary. You are very well spoken and like you say all is different...not a contest!

Hope you heal all the way soon at least your able to function a lil hope all your symptoms improve very soon but do you think can you completely heal or or some peoples symptoms or damage is permanent?

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Rashad Aljouwani I know that I have been slowly healing so far so why would the healing just stop? I am a complicated case with extreme amount of medications in my history so I don’t know for sure but I believe in my healing yes

@rashadaljouwani235

4 жыл бұрын

Im sure you’ll heal completely too you did come along way some people say they healed at 5 years my case is different too after I tapered and jumped off Xanax and gabapentin I started drinking about 2 months after I got off to help me sleep I’d only drink at bedtime every 2 to 3 days kinda heavily for about 8 months cause at the time I needed to get sleep to function than I stoped drinking and the symptoms were way worse I feel like I did some permanent damage some symptoms have improved a lilt but some symptoms haven’t improved at all it’s been a year and a half since I stoped drinking i feel like some of these symptoms permanent that’s what it feels like that’s why I asked you but I’m glad you’re doing wayy better I’ve been fallowing you since 2016 that’s when I started my taper

@rashadaljouwani235

4 жыл бұрын

And what I meant to say in my first comment is am glad your able to function a whole lot...

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

@@rashadaljouwani235 You will heal too, just stay away from alcohol and those other things. Let your body heal as naturally as possible.

@rashadaljouwani235

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you hoping so..am definitely staying away from alcohol or anything that messes with my gaba receptors thank you again an god bless you !

I call my akathesia extreme anxiety, agitation, restless, no sleep, and a buzzing internal tremor. I cant settle physically or mentally. both exhausted and wired.