Thank you for making the upstate video. It is very much appreciated. It's vital to hear that other benzo survivors are experiencing the same symptoms and IT IS NORMAL!!!!!

@Healingfrom Benzos It's such a blessing that you are able to go to school. Thank you for posting! Hugs!

So happy for you..glad u made another video

@ronrosati8896

5 жыл бұрын

yeah

You Go Angie!!!!! So very very proud of your continued healing!!!!

So awesome you are in grad school! I especially think people like us who get into counseling and social work will make a huge difference. 👍🏼😊

Great video! You and I think the same and yes you need to "ACCEPT" & have "PATIENCE through this 😇

Thank you so much hun! You're such an inspiration!

So good to see you. Been wondering about you

It's so nice to hear you are feeling better. I wish you the best and continued healing 💜🤗

I think it's truly awesome that you went what you went thru and now going to school! Seriously, you truly are a strong person!! You will heal fully! Thanks for being encouraging! I cold turkeyed (unintentionally) off my ssri. And it's hell... Thanks for being encouraging. We all need it.

So glad you're getting better.

Happy to hear your progress..Gives me Hope...

So good to see you doing so well - and even better again by now (Sept) I hope ;) x

Thanks for your videos. You are very positive and encouraging! I'm 9 months off klonopin and 6 months off lexapro and trazadone. I still have a lot of painful symptoms but it is getting better. The fatigue, peripheral neuropothy, joint pain and intense depression makes this very challenging. I'm glad to see you accomplishing so much! Keep it up! You give us all hope! I have not worked in 15 months. I pray all your w/d symptoms go away and that you heal 100% in Jesus' Name. I pray we all do! God bless you!

You are incredibly strong!! I'm so, so, proud of you!! This is the hardest thing to go through!! 🙏🙏😇

Good to hear from you again, I wish you a fantastic healing. I am the same time and same symptoms as you, only my sleep still disturb, I get to sleep 3 am in the morning and wake up at 10

Well done Angie, i take my hat off to you such an inspiration to all, bless you ❤️

I'm on 18 months cold turkey. my memory is starting to come back but my driving anxiety is still really bad. I can't drive freeways which is causing bad depression. However, 10 months ago i could barely walk around the block or sit at a red light without freaking out so I'm definitely getting better. I just pray that i can eventually get back on the freeway and drive wherever I want.

@AngiePeacockMSW

Жыл бұрын

yes, healing can be really slow, but IT IS HAPPENING. Just keep hanging in there and it will get better!

@thesaint9276

Жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW thanks. Before I found this community of people, I thought I was naturally going insane. It was only after I tied it to the benzo’s that I realized what was going on. We are a very misunderstood group of people.

@AngiePeacockMSW

Жыл бұрын

@@thesaint9276 You are so right. I didn't know anything about this either until I was 6 days off benzo cold turkey and I googled "benzo withdrawal." Everything I was feeling for months, was right there. So shocking!

@rameshlumb4003

Жыл бұрын

​@@AngiePeacockMSWafter 800 days u get a sleep like 5 hour ple ans

I cant believe i missed this. Ive been watching you since i ct. I am coming up on 27 months in a few days. And holy shit months 25 and 26 sucked so bad. Hopeful month 27 gets better

Yaaa so glad you made this!I need a bunch of angela videos lol.You're my hero.You were def meant to go through this because you are so strong and touch alot of lives and help so many,between veterans and also the benzo community.I can't wait to see how great your life gets and once you fully heal .I know you're going to have a great beautiful life and whoever gets you in the future is one lucky person!I think you're def going to school for the perfect profession that will make a huge difference in so many lives! I hate you got the weight gain like i did too!Man that sucks!Too bad we couldn't get the weight loss symptom lol

@Sarajanesjourney

5 жыл бұрын

I am gaining weight too, but I've always struggled with weight. My appetite has actually increased and I crave endless amounts of sweets so I just ordered my favorite caramel apple suckers. I figure it's better to have a couple of suckers a day then a bunch of cookies or candy bars.

Your awesome and inspiring!! Thank you!! 🤗😇🙏💞

Wow congrats on 27 months. So inspiring. I noticed there are many withdrawal cases from various substances that induce digestive issues. Bloating, horrendous gas, food sensitivities etc. It seems to be the last symptom to go away. Hang in there. God bless😎👌

@liamo54321

6 жыл бұрын

Andy P hi Andy I have bad digestive problems how do we fix my belly is distended 24/7 is yours like that

@Andrew_P86

6 жыл бұрын

liamo54321 many possible causes. Chronic stress, food sensitivities, drugs, withdrawal symptoms. Check those

@Andrew_P86

6 жыл бұрын

My issues were caused by a porn addiction. It's worse than people think

Great video.

Props to you for making it through school i had to drop after a year in school cause my insomnia got so bad again . Kind of a bummer but everything happens for a reason. I am happy i didn't flunk out at least. Like you it was hard to read and study .

I definitely feel so slow in the head too. I've noticed it seems like when I try to initiate something, my old "programming" to run can't be found, resulting in a crash. I actually get lightheaded trying to make simple decisions hundreds of times per day still. I literally catch myself holding my breath and have to manually breathe. It's so frustrating. I'd love to blow off some steam in a rant, but instead I'll simply say it's been the most frustrating 15 months of my life. It's getting better, just so slowly! I seriously miss my ability to focus for more than a matter of seconds on any one thing. My vision seems to be getting worse too. But honestly it's better than them always feeling like they are being squeezed. Silvers linings surround me nowadays. "At least it's not as bad as it was..."

@nybeachgirl

6 жыл бұрын

David Harry I'll be 15 months off from a CT. My vision is screwed up too 😵

@harmedbuthealing

Жыл бұрын

Hey David how are you now?

I’m in college too and I can totally relate to what you dealing with

You give so many people hope! I'll be 9 months benzo free on the 17th of May. Still get DP & allot of muscle & nerve issues but my mind is so clear...minimal brain fog. Yes, any muscle can get stiff at anytime. I'm a germaphobe but after tapering for 15 months, surviving Influenza A in Feb & am getting the TIF surgery for a hiatal hernia which was dulled by Lorazepam...I see lines of fuzzy black & white after I read for a few mins. It lasts for a few seconds & fades. Then I read, look away from the page & see lines of almost letters but it's fuzzy. Neon colors don't glow as much. I too get stiffness or nerve pain in 1 or both sides. It fades too. Can occur anytime. Stay strong! I recently made my wd vids public again but won't watch them. I just can't but hope they help others.

@sangeetalambh6389

2 жыл бұрын

Because of kkittens how r u now frd

Im in protracted antipsychotic withdrawal.Its been 18 months now and the symptom i find most annoying is the burning sensation in my spine. Now im in a minor window. Alot has improved for me, but still got awhile to go.Thanks for making this video.

@sangeetalambh6389

2 жыл бұрын

Kristian how r u now frd

thank you for sharing your an inspiration i def would taper next time personally its been like torture. stay busy got it im 20 months cold turkey pray for me!! its getting easier still dizzy feeling panic attacks driving far distances but have good support system from my wife. much love you really are a soldier

@angelajackson7079

Жыл бұрын

How are you now

yes cotton balls, ,, Hope you have a complete recover, been on klonopin 15 yrs, take 0.5 mg now, but I am just really understanding how much I have changed this year, like to be alone and not interact to much with people when I was a manic type talkative person. I'm 59 so I hope its worth trying to get off now, I have failed a bunch of times got down to 0.5 from 1.o easy enough ,I was on 3 mg per day back 15 yrs ago, You sound a lot like me with the pain issues. But it moves around the pain does. Liked your post a lot.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

You can do it! It will be worth it I promise.

Just to hear you speaking normally and calmly gives me cope. Two years is more doable than 10! However, I am on far more meds and have been on benzos since 1980. I'm 62 and "stable." You sound and look great. I can follow your speech, which is often hard with benzo sufferers (I'm the worst!!!!) Your cognitive issues sound familiar. You go, girl. Yes, the vision. It's the brain. I feel like I'm looking through Coke bottles when I'm in interdose withdrawal. I've had the skipping. It's NOT your eyes, but if you're worried, getvit checked. If you wear contacts, it makes it worse. Keep on with the great fight!

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

Thank you! I have to keep fighting!

You’re smart and beautiful i love you so much! I was a translator in the green zone with KBR🙂 I was with the military for a while before! Sorry about what you went through in my country😞😒

Youre effing superwoman!!! Thanks for sharing!

I was also wondering when you turn the corner to kind of get back into real life? I feel that in withdrawal, withdrawal is kind of your life. And it's almost an anxiety feeling to get back into normal life. Did you have this feeling at all and how did you turn the corner with that?

So I started getting anxeity and severe fatigue . Then started ativan, wound up with pots/cfs. Have been trying to come off ever Since. Was on a very low dose. I am currently on 5 mg of valium . Tapering super slow, 1/8 every week. Can t wait to be fully off. My husband always tells me once I'm off this crap I will heal. I pray everyday that God will keep me strong on this journey. I'm so happy that your feeling better....♥️

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

Healing is happening even though you don't feel it! Happy for you to be nearing the end of your taper!

Hello ! My its vanessa , i was with Ambien 4 months and i cold turkey im 3 months off and im still feeling bad . When you get able to start to go out ans when the symptoms start to be less in which months ? God bless you ! Thanks !

ativanda iyilestinmi ne kulandin iyileşme için şu an iyimisin

Hello dear❤️❤️ How are you doing now? I am tapering Klonopin, I did few months of taper successfully but I came to a point where my inner restlessness (Akathisia) is over the top How are you doing as far as that inner anxiety. I listened to one of your videos and you mentioned it? I am so terrified I am almost to the point of going back to the drug full time. Any word of advice?🥺

Thank you for posting. I recently finished my MSW and then cold turkeyed xanax after and have been struggling since. I hope to be healed and contribute to the social work field and know that you will be valued so much as well. My main symptoms are feeling that I am completely empty inside. I feel as though my brain has shut off and have no connection to my sense of self or feelings and just have my memories. I am wondering if you experienced this as well? I am 3 1/2 months off and most of my other symptoms are gone now, although I did experience all of the HORRIBLE initial withdrawal symptoms in acute which you described so well in another video. Thank you!

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

Yes that's all normal unfortunately!!! I'm so sorry you are feeling that. Congrats on your MSW! As you keep healing, each month, you will feel better and better! Just keep putting one foot in front of the other.

@wildpackofwolves

6 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much! I hope you keep posting videos because they are very helpful.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

here's a really cool website that has a lot of stuff that is helpful too! withdrawal.theinnercompass.org/

Any way you would do an update video?

You are a true warrior. For you took charge and didn’t allow drugs to run your life. I forgot how the whistle last week.. Took two days to remember how to. LOL. Benzos are pure evil.. This is just a moment in time, I will heal.

Congrats :) I am so happy that I came across such a positive story . Do you have any advice on balance problems . Turning head while waking or standing in one spot in places with lot of stimulus makes my balance off

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

I did vestibular exercises. There are videos here on KZread. It took a few months but the exercises helped.

@nikoletaniki8408

6 жыл бұрын

thank you so much if you have a video to reccomend please do . All the best

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

just search "vestibular exercises" and try 1 per day.

I got sick with the flu and I’m still can not recover after one month I don’t see any improve . Did you got sick with the flu or cold in the withdrawal ? Thank Angela for your support !

Pls respond what is your diet like? My sleep and brain his really suffering at 13 months off

Hi congrats on coming this far I taped you in the past has your benzo belly gone away

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

not yet! Still struggling with that. I just started taking digestive enzymes and probiotics to see if they will help. I'll check back in in a few months with results.

Hi Ang, you’re so cool. I been xanax withdrawal nearly 3 years. Although I managed to move back to where I should be. Stress stress, nearly lost everything. Just managed to save my business. Feel so good. Thinking of driving to the beach and swimming. Ur so right. You inspire me.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

Go to the beach!!!! Xoxox

@karencramb1672

6 жыл бұрын

I’ll post a photo, of course I like to climb through the dunes, walk miles down the beach to my place. Totally alone. Snorkelling Bit dangerous been collapsing a lot. I have to do it for me. Thanks good luck xxx

Sorry I don't know if you mentioned it but did you have agoraphobia and anxiety/panic disorder after you stopped taking it? These are my two main symptoms It's been 7 months and I'm still dealing with this.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

yes. I had horrible panic and anxiety until about 14 months off.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

This really helped me so much..... www.junior-anxiety-depression-exchange.org.uk/Relax.html#HowToRecover

How long did your inner akathesia last for? I have inner agitation and I feel like I’m falling, but I also have cortisol surges so I’m not sure what it is. I feel so much fear for no reason and it gets intense during the surges… not terror but just fear. The surges don’t usually last all day. They dissipate as the evening goes on.

@AngiePeacockMSW

Жыл бұрын

lasted about 6 years honestly. I still feel it a tiny bit but please watch my most recent video to see my progress this past year.

I have vision problems too but just in case maybe you should see an opthamologist.

I’m 29 months off and absolutely miserable. I can’t even leave the house even if I wanted too :( I’m losing all hope that I’ll actually heal

I just rewatched this because I remembered your strange vision problems. I also have bouncy vision and see weird light flashes when I close my eyes half the time. Really strange and freaky but it helps to know that others have this as well.

@KatelynIngle

4 жыл бұрын

Kyle Macdonald i Have this too and freaked me out bad!

@KatelynIngle

4 жыл бұрын

I have all the vision symptoms she’s spoken of.. every single one.

@KatelynIngle

4 жыл бұрын

I think it’s anxiety related mine started after a bad panic attack! Before I ever took benzodiazepines. I have nerve pain too.. nothing is actually wrong tho.. I know it’s anxiety related for me. It sucks. My ears ring or pop more often and I hear my heart beat in my ear a lot. It’s crazy..

I am 23 weeks clean and I also have vision problems things are blurry out of no where . Also I have gained weight and have bloating. I’m praying it’s apart of the healing process and God will let it get better . Your doing really well I will be praying for you 🙏🏻 . Thank you for sharing .

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

Yes, that's all normal unfortunately. Check out this cool website about specific withdrawal symptoms: www.theinnercompass.org

@PrettyHotBossIsBack

6 жыл бұрын

Ang Peacock thank you 😁

Did you have any seizure disorder from detoxing off of the benzo meds you were taking ?

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Elsa Blair-Salerno not technically fully diagnosed because I was so terrified of doctors but yes, I’ve had low threshold seizure type episodes the last few years after I was taken off.

Yes...neuroplasticity! I believe you...someone also said it’s like traumatic brain injury! Well...being on drugs does cause Candida, Adrenal Fatigue...I got tested & found out! A functional Med pro is great! Congratulations! Super achievements! 😃👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼. Thank you for great healing ideas! All are wonderful!

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

yes it is a brain injury! and body and nervous system and muscles and bones and eyes and hormones!

@davidkruse4030

3 жыл бұрын

Your candida is nonsense. Your body has inflammation. That’s it

thank you for your video I am currently 20 months off of a rapid taper my symptoms are chronic head shocks constantly especially at night when I'm trying to sleep they keep me from properly resting also pain and back and along the spine that is caused by the shocks that are coming from my brain it seems do you know of anything that can help with this

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

,all this is really common and it will pass like your other symptoms. Have you been checked out medically just in case?

@tygreen8831

6 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW how are you today? How long was you on benzos total time.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

6 years this last time. A few years back in 2003-2006. Then on and off here and there a few more times between then and now.

@tygreen8831

6 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW thank you. Is it true the longer we are on benzos the longer it takes to heal?

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

nope. Everyone is different. Some can come off after 30 years and have no problems coming off at all.

I've been taking 2mg of Klonopin for 23 years and seriously want to stop taking it. Can you please email me or get a hold of me on youtube with some help? Greatly appreciate your videos and hope to hear from you.

The acute phase for you was 5 months and 2 weeks. So how can I say that I am in acute or not, now I am 3 and half months off, and feeling worse day by day, because the things which I could do two months before, now I am not confident for that, as time passes, symptoms maybe less or sometimes severe, but I am totally off and can't associate myself to this present life. At end of the day I feel, I am just living a fake life. This is so scary and I feel so hopeless. Please help 🙏

@AngiePeacockMSW

7 ай бұрын

I don’t know about 5 months. In hindsight the first year was the absolute worse but I had the high terror and intrusive thoughts for 3 years.

Any links for correct sleep hygiene?

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

withdrawal.theinnercompass.org/coping/withdrawal-induced-insomnia-z-list-tips

I completely understand. Im five months in cold turkey xanax 2.5 mg/day. I was at a movie today...i have hardly been able to leave the house in months so this was huge for me. I've have such terrible symptoms of depersonalization when I leave the house. Noise, motion, and sound can be very overwhelming. Then we had a tornado halfway though "a quiet place" and had to sit in the hallways. I thought it wasn't reality and I was going mad. I had to self talk through it. I understand the cotton ball feeling and not being able to form a sentence or mixing up words. In supposed to be going back to work in a month from being gone almost 5 months and im terrified.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

You can do it! The anticipation anxiety is worse than the actual thing.

@a.c.9993

6 жыл бұрын

Ang Peacock Thank you. And congrats on grad school!!!!! I have my psych bach. and have been thinking about getting my masters for A LONG TIME!!! I graduated in 2007 and still haven't made it back and now this is going on. I feel like it will never happen but I know it takes time and you must have patience. I have found that prayer really helps also. Thank you again. Take care ❤❤

@bigups8103

6 жыл бұрын

alley katt Hi I'm not going through total withdrawal right now but 3 weeks ago a substitute doctor wouldn't fill my prescription. I have been on 4-9mgs of xanax for over 20yrs! Now I'm on 1mg of Klonopin. My daughter found out how bad it was gonna get and after seeing me for 72hrs she freaked and got my doctor to see me... I think you're all so amazing but idk if I have what is needed to willingly go through with this? I'm asking would i be in trouble staying on a small dose for life? Are some forced too? Sorry i get super triggered seeing what I'm supposed to live with. Idk y doctors give it out. I didn't know any of this was a symptom and it's a lot! Can't believe the pharma companies don't warn ya! Anyway u seem to be doing good and most i here are coming off something i thought wasn't as strong as xanax. Is that right? Sorry just trying to get informed! Take Care & God Bless

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

All the benzodiazepines are strong. All of them can cause damage. they are not meant to be used long-term. You may be someone who doesn't have a hard withdrawal. Almost all people will EVENTUALLY be harmed. For you, that could be tomorrow or 10 years from now. We don't know when. There is never a good time to come off benzos. But, speaking for myself, I feel so much better being off as compared to being on them in tolerance.

@tygreen8831

6 жыл бұрын

Alley cat how are you now?

What percentage would you say you're better? If you had to put a number on it.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

70%

@busybeefitnessexperts-pers9997

6 жыл бұрын

Not bad at all. Slowly but surely getting there!

how did you work and go on with your life during withdrawal

@AngiePeacockMSW

5 жыл бұрын

I didn’t work. I’ve been on disability and just went to school a few hours a week. The rest of the time I was home secluded.

P.S. How you survived cold turkey blows my mind. I got really skinny off Klonopin, but everybody is different!

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

people either lose or gain. I gained ugh

For how long time did you feel bad after Kampuchea? Did you have food sensitivities?

@AngiePeacockMSW

5 жыл бұрын

i got much worse for about a month. I still have food phobias, where I am too afraid to eat certain foods- fearing an allergic reaction. I am sensitive to garbonzo beans, MSG, alcohol, gluten and sugar. Meaning, my anxiety gets much worse if I eat any of these foods.

@vaneramirez5235

5 жыл бұрын

I got better yesterday after I ate chips it set me back 2 days and it was horrible I know that I’m little better because I slept

Did you have really bad periods from the hormonal shifts? Did it make you more depressed and have more SI whenever you started your cycle of bleeding I had PMDD never was suicidal and I go off benzos and become suicidal at my period. Did your periods get better? It’s like I get to go into acute withdrawal every month over and over.

@AngiePeacockMSW

10 ай бұрын

More SI the week before my period for sure. It took me about 3 years before that slowly got better.

I had to separate myself from the groups as well for self preservation. Everyone is so different, but I couldn’t keep revisiting it.

Hello ! Did ypu experienced stomacal pain?

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Yes on and off. Strange pains in organs, bloating, diarrhea, all kinds of stuff.

Hey did you ever experienced like your abdomen muscles were really tight

@stephaniebrandstetter9107

5 жыл бұрын

Yes!! All the time. 3 months off zyprexa after taking 5mg 2 times a day for 4 months. Cold turkey off. Horrible withdrawls

@tylerkonrade4474

4 жыл бұрын

Hell to the yes, its a feeling like you cant breathe, plus getting stabbed in the stomach

@nyclettetoby2908

4 жыл бұрын

Tyler Konrade I get this and it has been my constant symptoms. I hate it

@KatelynIngle

4 жыл бұрын

Yes but all over! My body hurts from tension.. constantly scared. And dizzy lightheaded.

Did you experience painfull period . Every month it’s awful when my periods . I’m 18 months off benzo . When you started to see improve with your period ? Hope everything it’s good with you !!

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

carolina madariaga year 3 was much better with periods. You have to clean up your diet and eat well and that will help too. I had bad anxiety and intrusive thoughts 7-10 days before period. Now I’m fine and don’t even know when it’s coming. No pain no scary thoughts anymore.

did you deal with fear? I am 14 months off and just feel so much fear all the time and just terror like something awful is about to happen, I am just so scared

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

yes I had terror/fear every single day 24/7 no breaks until month 6. Then it slowly slowly got less and less. I still had it pretty bad until 18 months or so.

@harrietberholtz3594

6 жыл бұрын

you're awesome thank you, I've had to take a break from benzo buddies, that place can be kind of toxic at times, I am sending you so much love and continued healing, one of my friends who healed totally at two and a half years off had horrific visual snow and then it all left suddenly, we will all make it

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

That would be wonderful to have my vision issues go away overnight. Oh my goodness!! Thanks for sharing that!

@momoftwo571

5 жыл бұрын

Harriet Berholtz What happened to your Benzo channel?

@jorgei.hernandez610

5 жыл бұрын

Harriet Berholtz how you feeling now?

What were your head symptoms?

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

Mental or just physical head symptoms?

I'm screwed I'm on 10 mg of xanax for about 12 years now and I'm scared shipless I'm just gonna stand it through until I die But my doctor said she won't up my dose but She will keep refilling my script... What should I do?

@AngiePeacockMSW

5 жыл бұрын

I can’t give you medical advice but it sounds like you have some choices: taper at home SUPER SLOWLY or stay on it for the rest of your life.

@cherbear6377

5 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW Thank you so much for responding um yes I plan on staying on them for the rest of my life because my doctor and I both agree I wouldn't survive The with straw so can you tell I talk text um I honestly don't know what to do if I taper too slow I could be in trouble with tolerance I just I'm terrified that I'll have a really badd with draw that will take years for me to heal I'm 52

Did you go cold turkey or did you wean very slowly?

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

I weaned slowly for the first 2 years until the doctor told me to drop my evening dose. Then I entered tolerance and interdose withdrawals and had to ct because of suicidal urges. The ct saved my life and damaged me all at the same time.

@citygirl138

5 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW Oh, I'm so sorry that you are going through this.

When did the terror or fear feeling go away for you? Now at almost 4 months off, a feeling that I am drenched in fear, some thing bad is going to happen, all doom and gloom is most frightening.

@AngiePeacockMSW

7 ай бұрын

It’s slowly tapered off but it took me 3 years for the terror to start coming down. Please don’t compare to me because I am a severe case. I was on over 40 meds in a 13 year period and had multiple benzo wd = kindling. Your experience is surely going to have a different timeline than mine.

@angel_2022M

7 ай бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW thanks for replying. You are so encouraging and helpful in this frightening process. 💐

Do you still have a hard time to sleep or how is your anxiety I can tell you that me my anxiety I couldn't do that I would have to get something for my anxiety if you know what is anxiety and how painful I could never be able to go through this situation cause it's so much emotional pain that I can't help but to get something to kill my anxiety it's so hard

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

David s Lefort I still have trouble sleeping every single night. But taking something for anxiety is absolutely out of the question after what I’ve been through!

@davidslefort6541

4 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW yes I know how you are so scared of making your anxiety worse I take escitalopram it's not a diazepam I can't live without it am on methadone and seroquel and amlodipine for my heart I can't imagine how it was so bad and hard for you to get off benzos but you know what even seroquel is addictive and escitalopram but I still have anxiety attacks but it is so much less than it used to be my anxiety disorder I rather have a leg broken then to go through a anxiety attack when I do it last for hours but it gets better after a while but I know that I can't live without my meds the combination of methadone escitalopram and seroquel is helping me sleep and be able to control most of the time my anxiety when I have a anxiety attack I think about my worst fears that the earth will open under my feet and being swallowed up by the water filled up dirt and I can't get out of it and drown and much more like that I think about when I have a anxiety attack

@davidslefort6541

4 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW I understand your fears believe me I know but I am so empress that you have the danm strength and courage to get off something that is so addictive and the anxiety for me I went to detox and I was doing China white that is 400 $ a gram and very little cut down product like morphine and benzodiazepines cause you metabolize it very quickly because of that I had seizures and after a few more they sent me to ICU intensive care unit cause I was sweating and throwing up and they could not stabilize me with morphine and they just put me on a machine that was given me the dose I needed but I was so full of morphine that they have no choice to transfer me to methadone and they were given me so much morphine it was horrible for me cause it took a long time for me to get the methadone working anyway I know that pain and you have gone through it to but not like I have

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

David s Lefort I came off opiates in 2006. You don’t know the pain I’ve been through. Benzos were 100000x worse and longer than opioids.

@davidslefort6541

4 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW well I had really bad seizures and I was doing a gram of China white a day 400 a gram 50 to 70 % pure and yeah steven that after my seizures I was sent to ICU intensive care unit and they gave me high doses of morphine and I still had seizures and danm the anxiety and the withdrawal was really bad not everyone could afford that China white and I regret today for doing it anyway my experience was really bad but I don't know nothing about benzos and I admire your courage and determination for getting of benzos

Currently tapering off klonopin of 8 years.. I down to 0.75mg a day. A lot of thoughts about death and anxiety..Is this normal? What dose of klonopin were u on? Thank u!

@jasonvalencia8565

6 жыл бұрын

Was on 1 mg a day

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

yes that's 100% NORMAL. i had them for a lonnnnngggg time before they resolved. I was on 2mg Klonopin then crossed over to 3mg Ativan and tapered down from there. I tapered wrong under the guidance of a VA doctor who then cold turkey'd me when I hit 1.5mg and had overwhelming death and suicide thoughts.

@nybeachgirl

6 жыл бұрын

Jason Valencia I also thought about death a lot. It was horrible but it will stop. I cold turkeyed off of Klonopin and Xanax. The last year I was taking 6 mgs a day bc of interdose and tolerance withdrawal which I wasn't aware of. My doctor just kept changing and adding new benzos and upping my dose. I'd probably be up to 8mgs now if I didn't decide to stop. I will be 15 months off on April 25th. It's been the scariest and craziest time in my life. You will have scary, crazy intrusive thoughts but don't let it scare you bc it's your brain healing. Good luck with your taper ☺

@jasonvalencia8565

6 жыл бұрын

Thank u Ang and congratulations on how far u have gotten. I love your videos a lot. They mean more than u know to other people. Nybeachgirl also that sounds like a wild scary ride u we’re on. Congratulations as well on your benzo free life. I really appreciate the feedback. I’m fighting day after day, it’s very difficult going to work everyday and trying to be normal again but I know I’ll get through it. The thoughts are scary but I know I love life and have a great support system. Thanks and talk very soon!

@nybeachgirl

6 жыл бұрын

Jason Valencia You definitely have the right attitude! You will be fine and a different person when you no longer take benzos 😀

Hello my friend ! Can you eat organic meet ?

@AngiePeacockMSW

5 жыл бұрын

sure do!

Did you have neuropathy? My nervous system is in overdrive! Tingling, shooting down legs. Anyone?

@AngiePeacockMSW

5 жыл бұрын

Yes both feet would burn so bad on the bottoms I couldn’t walk at night. Tingles and hot patches down both legs, tingling in face. Most of that is gone now!

@goddessvibes08

5 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW This sucks man. I went to a naturopath/Ayurvedic doc. I got flared up from herbs 🙏 I'm scared but really weird stuff is happening in my cns. Antidepressants didn't work for me either. At what month did your burningg go away. Peace x

@AngiePeacockMSW

5 жыл бұрын

That Girl I still had burning patches on my legs in year 2 but it’s all gone now. What did the herbs do to your cns? w-bad.org/reactions-setbacks/

@goddessvibes08

5 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW Hey, I took librax 2 yrs ago, quit no problem. Last year I took Magnesium Glycinate and that threw me into cold turkey.😥🙁☹️ I have no words. No one believes me but it's right there on that page you shared. Started on Klonopin last yr and tried every AD in the books. My nerves can't handle it. Now tapering. I have neuropathy on left side of my body. The Herbologist might ve given me some ashwagandga or brahmi. I have tingling, traveling pain, fibromyalgia, burning- i feel like my nervous system has been destroyed by these stupid supplements. Im sorry about this rant but if natural herbs hurt so bad what the hell are we supposed to do.

@AngiePeacockMSW

5 жыл бұрын

That Girl I stay away from everything. I do take Epsom baths and have taken magnesium before in tiny doses but I felt a little worse from the pills and stopped. No one knows how each of us are damaged so I 100% believe you. Our nervous systems are fragile and don’t work like “normal” people.

What support groups can you suggest ?

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Elsa Blair-Salerno facebook.com/groups/benzorecovery/?ref=share or www.benzobuddies.org/forum/index.php

@elsablair-salerno2962

4 жыл бұрын

Healingfrom Benzos Thank you. I’m starting the process of weaning off doctor prescribed Xanax and need all the support I can get. I watched a couple videos you made about your journey. Hope you are doing well still.

@AngiePeacockMSW

4 жыл бұрын

Elsa Blair-Salerno I’m doing better than any other period in my life! Not quite healed all the way but I’m fully functional.

I remember you talking about your mouth pain and weird tongue stuff. Just got it at 15 months. Scary stuff.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

so sorry! Sucks huh?

@firefly-cq5ck

6 жыл бұрын

Healingfrom Benzos just wondering if you could answer questions for me I was wondering if you had a strange taste in your mouth and your tongue burned I have these symptoms along with quite a few others and one of my other main symptoms if my ribs feel like they're being squeezed a lot I have been off Lorazepam for 11 months now

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

Yes, the weird burning mouth stuff I had for the first 10 months or so but then it came back in my throat and tonsils and is kind of lingering around still. The weird tongue stuff I mention relates to that burning mouth stuff too. I believe its some form of a migraine if you google "burning mouth syndrome" Its not that but super close. DON'T WORRY- IT WILL GO AWAY. I didn't really have the strange taste although I've heard that from a LOT of people. Seems pretty common. The brain will balance back out, it just takes time.

6:35 I know exactly what you mean, I get that all the time with my vision and it chops yes,...holy shit you hit the nail with that...goes to show you it's brain damage

Hey there my name is Rayna and I've watched your videos but I haven't had honestly the guts to comment because this is been so hard for me. My doctor took me off my klonopin after three and a half years..she said because she feels like there was alternative treatment, counseling and that she didn't feel comfortable continuing to prescribe the type of medicine even though she was the one that increase my dose to 1mg and had been prescribing it for well over a year before the other doctor was who only works with children now I tried to talk to her I bawled my damn eyes out but she refused to listen to any of it which is common with her because she refuses just to listen in general. She is young and thinks she is helping the World by working at a facility that takes sliding scale or people that have no income or insurance and I really don't know that she's ever worked with the mental health population before this. It's like a doctor or a teacher going to school to be in that profession but never working with a patient or an actual student. That may not be the case but that's what it seems like and it upsets me greatly. Anyway, she just decided to rapidly taper me over a two to three week. August through September and I just went crazy... I lost it I know that sounds crazy but I did. I tapered mostly appropriately with the exception of maybe two or three times where I saved a half just in case I had a bad day but then my anxiety started to get worse and worse to the point where I end up in the hospital one night... I just froze. I also cannot lose weight I literally have hardly eaten and I still weigh 130 which is fine but it's not my norm and it still shouldn't be 130 considering I haven't eaten but my body is just in survival mode I think and saving whatever it can I don't know and when you talk about the pain you're experiencing obviously in the first week of withdrawal my legs every single thing on my body hurt and now I had a chronic back condition which is pretty severe being young and appearing healthy doesn't help that because one people usually don't believe me until they see my paperwork or two they think oh you're fine the medicine will wear off and oh you're fine I'm just so sick of hearing oh you're fine you'll be fine. I don't think anybody realizes how serious this is and that people actually die from it. I am on Lamictal which I am not sure if you're familiar with but it is an anti-seizure Med but also really well treated for people with bipolar or borderline personality which has helped me greatly and it's a godsend during a time like this. She wanted to put me on Seroquel to replace the Klonopin but I've already been on Seroquel years ago and it makes me a zombie so I still haven't decided whether or not I'm going to do that yet I'm literally living minute-to-minute. Right now I'm trying to find either part time work or something that I can just do from home because thank God I still live with my parents at 35 which is embarrassing but it's what I have to do right now. Sorry this is all over the place I don't expect you to read it but if you do thank you so much. I lost my job... and for the past two weeks I have just been at home. My moods are erratic, I shake, I cry, my BP at the psychiatrist today was 224 over something because I was having a panic attack but luckily the nurse was new and nice and held my hand and told me to breathe and it came down because they probably would have called ambulance. I tried talking to her apparently she works from home on Mondays so she was over the Telecom thing and she just kept talking over me and I told her that's my problem you talk over me you won't listen I've been on your caseload which there are only two doctors there and she's a PA so she's not even a psychiatrist I told her that she had my file she could have read it and she's never asked about my triggers, how things are at home, if I'm doing anything for my stress nothing that counselor does necessarily but just questions, general questions so that she can treat me in a psychiatric manner. But instead let's jerk you off your benzos and refer you to therapy when I am actually really really sick and has been since I was 6 years old. I never knew that benzos had such a hold on me or that they were even this addictive until now... I've learned a lot over the internet and KZread and I'm just thankful that I've made it through this far and pray to God that I can keep going because I don't know what I'm going to do for work which wasn't my fault but anyway no clue what I'm going to do for work, no clue how to get out of the bed some days... The last and final day that I finally had enough and I took the if you have that she or that I saved I felt like bugs are crawling all over my skin it was the worst thing ever. I've read so many stories like yours but you really resonated with me and I wanted to say thank you for sharing your story because without people like you I would literally feel like I was all alone and that there have been no one who has been through this hell not that I wish it on anyone but I didn't realize it did this to people I would have never gotten on the medicine if I did. I wish you luck I will be thinking about you and perhaps we can chat from time to time if you need someone to talk to obviously once I get more stable because right now I don't think you'd want to talk to me haha when I was at the large mental health facility where I live in Charlotte North Carolina they when I was at the large mental health facility where I live in Charlotte North Carolina they had me Effexor, lithium, Remeron, Gabapentin, Depakote, Wellbutrin, oh my God you name it I was on it they kept trying and antidepressants and I wasn't depressed so they would do the opposite and make me depressed I was very much more just on a roller coaster ride and it's hard to treat that I realize that but you don't give somebody that doesn't have depression antidepressants because it's going to do the opposite a lot of medicine does the opposite to me for instance Benadryl or things that should make you tired don't make me tired. so finally when I found the Lamictal I was very grateful Seroquel working okay for sleep so I took it for a little while at a very low dose because I finally was like this stuff makes me like a zombie so I got down to 25mg and then I ended up going to the ER but mental health ER years and years ago and they gave me Klonopin and all of a sudden my physical tics stopped and I was able to live a primarily normal life so to have that taken has been devastating. I found out today the actual reason why she tried to take them not to mention the overall facility is just not prescribing benzodiazepines.

@palomaharper2810

5 жыл бұрын

Real Life With Ray Hi Rayna, how are you now?

I usually have the gift of gab and it's very easy to talk to pretty much anyone. 6 months off and I can barely keep eye contact and hold a conversation. Is this normal? The hell is wrong with my brain? It's like it's dead.

@AngiePeacockMSW

5 жыл бұрын

Yep thats normal. Same happened to me. I started just saying hello to 1 person per day. Did that for a few weeks. Then 2. Then more sentences. Wasn't able to socialize for a long time. Probably two years and now I public speak! It'll go away don't worry!

@goalsoverbenzos5384

5 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW oh thank God lol it's been the most confusing and frustrating symptom and I haven't really gotten a straight answer until now so thank you so much! Will time heal it automatically or is it something I have to continue working at kind of like a muscle?

@AngiePeacockMSW

5 жыл бұрын

@@goalsoverbenzos5384 i had to do both. Give it time and work on it a little each day by forcing myself to interact with people. Not easy but worth it.

@goalsoverbenzos5384

5 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW As a person who has had to overcome extreme shyness I understand the importance of forcing myself through the anxiety, however I feel like pushing myself to hard in this regard is kind of unnecessary torture if time will heal it up and my nerves aren't as raw. Even sitting around the dinner table with relatives for upcoming holiday dinners seems terrifying. It's ridiculous. Haven't been this timid since I was a teenager.

@goalsoverbenzos5384

5 жыл бұрын

Will I heal even if I don't force myself to be around people?

Eye lid and lip twitching???

@AngiePeacockMSW

5 жыл бұрын

Yes and I think blephorspasms are mentioned in the Ashton manual

I was on K for 3 months got off last nov 2017 Doc weened me off to fast They tell me I am still have WD symptoms Some like you have They want me to go back on K then ween off all over again I told doc NO I am not going back on I will just have to gut it out

@thelazyminimalistlife7183

6 жыл бұрын

what s WD

@garysimone4977

6 жыл бұрын

Lisa Jasper with drawell

I don’t know how you did it cold turkey...that would kill me.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

Cynthia Ennis it did almost kill me. I was seconds away.

I now have 16 months of NO Klonopin. 4 mgs. a day. then I decided to clean up. Down to 1 mg. last year. now clean!

@javiertorres7970

6 жыл бұрын

This is after 14-15 years of 4 mgs a day.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

great! Addiction language is not helpful when we follow the doctor's prescription and don't crave... benzoinfo.com/2017/01/26/benzodiazepines-why-the-term-addiction-must-go-the-term-addiction-is-pejorative-and-misleading-iatrogenically-harmed-not-addicted-2/

@azeminasuljic2947

4 жыл бұрын

javier torres Hello my friend How long were you on 4 mg of Klonopin? Thank you

i'm here now, all GOD'S blessings on you

How many years u take propranolol

@AngiePeacockMSW

Жыл бұрын

I took metoprolol for 13 years while on the meds and then only 7 months off the other meds. I only took propranolol for about a week during 4 months off but then I went back to metoprolol.

@rameshlumb4003

Жыл бұрын

​@@AngiePeacockMSWmy friend how is ur low energy sym is it improve some please answer

❤

I am entering a treatment facility to get off these things and I honestly do not feel that I deserve this opportunity. I see so many people struggling on their own for a long time and I can't go through years of more torture.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

Please read this. I wrote it: benzoinfo.com/2016/09/10/why-cold-turkey-detox-may-not-be-the-best-approach-for-benzodiazepine-cessation/

@THXx1138

6 жыл бұрын

+Healingfrom Benzos Thank you for that. I am going to a place in Sedona, AZ called the Alternative To Meds Center. They do NOT taper quickly.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

leslie Petoski you are very blessed. That place is very expensive and out of the reach of most people. Before you go, read this too as I’ve heard of people who go there are given a lot of supplements. Sometimes that can harm us further. And please, report back and tell me how it goes ... w-bad.org/reactions-setbacks/

@THXx1138

6 жыл бұрын

+Healingfrom Benzos I have to go into this with courage. There is no easy road for any of us trudging the path toward homeostasis. I am not ok with my husband spending this amount of money on my pathetic ass. It pisses me off that he got stuck with a screwed up person like me. He doesn't deserve any of what I bring. I have to make this experience as successful as I can because he deserves that. I could give two shits about my issues. I just suck at life.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

leslie Petoski none of this is your fault. Think of it this way... that treatment facility will be a much easier road than many of us have to take. On your hard days. KNOW that if I can heal from a cold turkey, you will heal too. One day, you will look back and think “holy shit, I made it through that mess and lived to tell.” You can do this. It won’t be easy but it will be worth it. Freedom is priceless.

I wish I did a video but I'd have a panic attack if I watched it.

are you ok ? you dont look well.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

^^^^^didn't watch video

@chrissirhc7337

6 жыл бұрын

lol , i watched the first 5 minutes . sorry i couldnt get through the whole 20 min. video.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

but you had time to make a snarky comment. smh

@chrissirhc7337

6 жыл бұрын

im sorry if you thought i came off as snarky , i made the comment out of genuine concern and sympathy . i did end up watching the rest of the video and i guess it answered my question . in any case i hope you can fully recover soon.

Dizziness and agoraphobia are the hardest for me

@enricoambayec3626

5 жыл бұрын

I have severe dizziness also. I'm afraid to go out because of that. I have tinnitus also. What is your phone no.?

Thanks for sharing. I too have been off for about 27 months and doing a ketogenic diet really helped my vision issues. I still have some mild symptoms, but this has been really helpful. kzread.info?o=U&video_id=ml75RYuBmVw Congratulations on your healing. We've all been through hell....and the doctors are so clueless. I haven't seen a doctor in over three years.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

Hi Mary- when I click that link, it sends me to my own videos.

@merrycitoli6728

6 жыл бұрын

That's weird. I double checked the link, and it should take you to my channel. Here's another one. I have several videos on this. kzread.info/dash/bejne/i6iAzaqopdzMY7g.html ~M

Has anyone ever healed 100% from benzos I can't find anybody that is totally symptom free!

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

Yes, the healed ones are all living their life! Here's one of them: kzread.info/dash/bejne/YpNomcp_eLupY5c.html

@tygreen8831

6 жыл бұрын

@@AngiePeacockMSW thanks gives me hope and you do also I guess I have to wait it out this sucks:(

Did you get worse under the period ?

@AngiePeacockMSW

5 жыл бұрын

Yes for about 2 years.

@vaneramirez5235

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you and god bless you

@vaneramirez5235

5 жыл бұрын

Can the cigarettes makes the symptoms worse ?

Ativan affects the eyes too you will heal

There is nothing wrong with your memory. It’s called information overload, what teacher preach can be too much . As far a protracted withdrawal I understand. Take GABA supplements and Ginko , also gotu kola . Look up the gotu kola , it will help your brain

Angie, ask the VA for food allergy testing. Made a world of difference for me. Candida connection. Eric Berg really helped me.

Congrats! Stay away from honey.

@AngiePeacockMSW

6 жыл бұрын

it good have been the hummus or the decaf green tea. I have no idea which one did it.

@scotte.3693

6 жыл бұрын

Ang Peacock ya true. Honey kills me though, gives me horrible waves.