Basically for people who don’t understand, Ian has a system, him (as Ian, Christian etc.) is the host. MITO is an dissociative alter that would have been created in childhood in the event of trauma. When that traumatic event was happening to him he would have dissociated, Under the cover of another ‘character’ so his conscious (as Ian/host) could turn off and the trauma would not be remembered. Then whenever trauma was experienced throughout life, mito would take over through dissociation to ‘protect’ the consciousness from triggering traumatic responses. MITO is the system protector, he protects the system by holding all the traumatic memories. Dependant on how coconcious the system is, Ian may have knowledge of these memories, or mito may be compartmentalising them and holding them back in the unconscious mind. If Ian gets stressed or triggered and feelings that align to the trauma experiences occur, mito will take over if continue to protect the conscious mind from memories that are too painful to handle. This is based on what Ian has told us, and there are many other facets to DID that he will be experiencing that he hasn’t given information on. But just a run down.

Is this the first time christian has shared with us that he has D.I.D? I just have so much respect for him. I mean D.I.D develops from extreme extreme trauma(usually in childhood) and he has somehow managed to use this in his art. so so much respect. Also he trusts his fans sooo much. Sharing details like these. I hope he only meets good people in his life.

@Isseyah

8 ай бұрын

Actually he already shared about his disorder a few interviews before.

@ninam4423

8 ай бұрын

​@Isseyah but he never talked openly about having DID he talked about his bipolar but that's it

@seraphinakitty2190

5 ай бұрын

same, to think that did only develops from extreme trauma before the age of 8.. 😭 i have no words

@spr5033

3 ай бұрын

@@ninam4423No, this is not the first time. He’s done multiple interviews where he specifically says he has DID.

@ninam4423

3 ай бұрын

@@spr5033 no... he only talked about having Bipolar disorder he talked about having did and said the term for the first time on a live where he was on his medications

I don't know how to explain how much this means to me. Is scary to say it on the internet but I (we) also have DID. I discovered DPR IAN like a month ago? Not too long ago, randomly because of the thrist tweets video on buzzfeed, I remember I loved his personality so I started searching for his music and videos, the first one I watched was "Don't go Insane" and something felt very weird and right about it, like I got the feel that I could recognize various characters/people and that was so intriguing. I just thought in that moment that I was just searching for representation and making it up, like imagining "what would happen if this is real, because it's like what's happening in our mind". Then I just got into watching all of the videos and when I found So Beautiful everything made sense, it was so much more differentiated and there was a comment saying about Ian telling that the b&w were Mito and he black out during that time... I remember I suddenly got so hyperactive, anxious and shocked, then I searched it up and I found a clip of this live and... How to describe how important is for me, for us, to see someone who is putting himself, themselves, out there, showing what is like to live with those disorders... It's so weird to find good representation, regarding of visual arts, about D.I.D (Split was so harmful on various ways)... I am still speechless, we're completely immersed on the lore, we understand everything he says, we are making theories, enjoying the ride. He became our absolute favorite artist and somehow a comfort zone. We're so grateful and we hope Christian/Ian, Mr.Insanity, Mito and whoever else is there, stay as healthy and happy as they can be on any situation and that they keep bringing such beautiful art to the world. Ian deserves all the recognition he's getting lately and more. ❤ (Sorry if it's there any grammatical mistake, English is not my first language, still learning)

He's such a beautiful, brave, passionate, warm-hearted soul... How can you not love this beautiful human being knowing that how much strength and hope he has. Wish every piece of light aligns to his long long journey. 롬오빠 I would always, always, always love you

Dude, I am so grateful for this live, ESPECIALLY the last bit, because I really needed to hear that and no one has been able to tell me HOW to actually live yourself more and not be so hard on yourself. Also I still don't know too much about Ian yet since I only just recently became a fan after being a casual listener for years, but I am so so proud of him and really I can tell he has such a good heart. I am so glad he has such a wonderful mom who supports him so much in everything. I don't know what he's been through but I'm so glad he survived it. Those disorders are no joke to deal with and I just wish the absolute best for him in life. I fully support him in all his upcoming endeavors and look forward to watching his growth as an artist and individual in the years to come! What a cool, inspiring, and talented guy.

@ticoiiiiii610

5 ай бұрын

Me too, you totally speak my mind there. I can't believe I've been a casual listener of the whole DPR gang since 2017, and like not look into their MVs or other aspects, and now I am mindblown, in every single possible way. And what he said via his lives and interviews is just so fascinating, and it resonates so much with me, as one with ADHD who wanting to be an artist and still finding my ways. Lots of engaging insights and perspective that I'm gonna dive in for months tbh.

He is so real. I feel like a lot of mental illnesses exist because we weren’t supposed to live the way we do today. Burning ourselves out working just to pay bills and taxes, conforming to what society says we should be. Bipolar is a lot more complicated, but I know for me personally, depression is quite literally the suppression of our soul.

Damn this actually makes a lot of sense now. As someone who has BP1, I've always suspected that the experiences Ian described during interviews (like the older Zach Sang interview, or the more recent KIISFM one) or IG Lives didn't really line up with just Bipolar Disorder on its own, and that he either wasn't well educated on some things/definitions, or just wasn't mentioning it, or that he had something other than BP1 and didn't know it yet (especially when he would talk about blacking out in the past, and basically dissociating). I'm really glad that he says here that he took the time to really research and get educated on it more, and something like D.I.D makes a lot more sense for the blacking out/dissociative/amnesic symptoms, that aren't at all typical to bipolar disorder itself (you can experience dissociation but in a different way than something like DID). Wishing him good health and hope he stays strong in his mental health journey 💜🙏

@zmxn159

7 ай бұрын

To be honest, when he talked about the two characters of Mito and Mr. Insanity, and that he would lose his memory when switching, I somewhat guessed it, but because DID is a completely different disease and he never talked about it before, I have always avoided thinking about it deeper. So i'm a little surprised but not that surprised.

@OfficialRogue

7 ай бұрын

@@zmxn159 Exactly, same. Plus the fact that he would use technically incorrect terminology, like saying my "manic lows" which is pretty much an oxymoron, since mania specifically only refers to the "high" episodes of bipolar disorder, or he means hypomania i.e basically less severe mania, which is still a "high" so saying it's a low would be incorrect, so I'm guessing he probably means depression. But maybe since his mood episodes somehow intertwine with DID switches (which sounds very complicated and I don't really know if the two conditions are supposed to interact exclusively like that, or if it's just how he's experienced it so far).

@OfficialRogue

7 ай бұрын

What makes it more complicated is that mania can reach such extremes that you can feel so different from your usual self (and seem like someone else to people) and behave in ways that you never normally would, but it's still NOT another identity/personality (an alter) like in DID, but just the illness (bipolar) causing an extreme mood dysregulation. So it's possible that Mr. Insanity is not referring to an alter but just him during mania (related to Bipolar), and that MITO is an actual alter (related to DID).

I find it so unique how Ian's mind works. The way he is able to explain everything and that after listening to his words it is possible to at least somewhat imagine what it means to live with bipolar and DID it is amazing. The idea that Mr. insanity is more dangerous than darkness, than Mito itself, how he is able to describe everything... When I started looking at dpr music and analyzing the lore, I didn't catch this idea at all. Every time I listen to him I admire him and his art more and more, everything makes so much sense...

I love that Ian came out so openly with his mental health issues. It's so scary to say it out loud. I feel like it can give you power in yourself once you face it. Or I like to think so... I also have DID and I think Ian does a great job describing it. It's amazing all the things he can get done in a day! I love how he talks and is so positive minded. Thanks for this, seriously!

This legit feels like a college course

@mehlanie13

Ай бұрын

a *good* college course

Glad he talked abt how the movie Split is such an exaggeration. As a kid i really thought ppl with DID turned into actual demonic beings and kidnapped ppl. It was such a horrible concept of a movie and truly demonized the disorder

@hasnaehasnae8986

7 күн бұрын

that's more like schizophrenia it is more dangerous and can cause alot of damages than bipolar sadly

I absolutely love you Dwrdspiral. For this, I couldn’t watch and had to leave in between!

2:48 the origins 32:28 who is Mito? 34:25 who is Mr.Insanity? 36:01 what is the other side? 40:48 the 1st +IAN in Peanut butter & Tears mv 41:48 dear insanity concepts 44:22 miito > mito movie part1 > the present timeline (future mr. insanity (extream mr.insanity), on the clock of Mito to really stop mr. insanity) 49:29 limbo? The hybrid?

Every time i watch one of his interviews, I have to go rewatch everything from the very first video to present.

I have both of the same disorder Christian has and let me tell you guys it’s crazy waking up not remembering well what happened or what I did or said as I gotten older is just a tiny bit better but yes we do have alters there a whole person and mine I have 4 at the moment living with these desorder is not easy but I try very hard to live each day the best I can I admire Chris for being honest with us and telling he’s true story of what’s in he’s mind and personas ❤ thank you for giving people like us a voice too❤

I've never listened a so insteresting and fascinating explanation of what is to live with a bipolar and did disorder. The way Ian (a great artist) deals with it is impressive and inspiring. His capacity to observe and analyse himself is incredible. I admire him. I think he has a powerful mind despite his mental disorders. I agree with him, we need experience life, and be grateful. Thanks Ian for this live. And for your music.

omg his mom is adorable 😭❤️

Every live that i watch from him i just gain more respect towards this man the way he's dealing with his disorders is so impresive and inspiring to me ...ive been suffering from anxiety & OCD ( pure o) u know its not the same disorder but i can relate to him on so many levels living with ocd is being constantly anxious abt those intrusive thoughts ideas or images u get and it gets worse when u start associating them with yourself you star to doubt if u really want to do such bad thing for example( throwing someone in front of the train ) so i feel like ppl with ocd tend to become so cofused and doubtful abt themselves feeling like they dont know who they really are bcs of all these intrusive thoughts they get which are againts their values so eventhough im not going through the same shits he does i can understand him even if its a bit and it gives me comfort hearing how he talks abt such difficult struggles like he has this optimistic point of view ،not in a unrealistic way btw that i really need to learn from him . ever since i started knowing him as a person i can feel how my prespective on my own condition is changing for better God bless his pure soul i wish Ian nothing but peace and health ❤

I love the fact that he talks about them so clearly simply and aware. He knows it’s because of a trauma and it’s for scientific reasons and I love him for that. Because even though these topics sometimes trigger me because I have anxiety and during Covid it went worse, I still have that sometimes but now it’s muuuuuuuuch better. And I’m scared of these things, well he really explained that in such a clear and calm way! I love his awareness

문신이 이렇게 잘어울리는 남자는 처음봐요^^ 멋져요 이안^^ 승승장구 하시길 ❤🙏🏻

his mum is adorable esp when she sang nerves haha

Bless him

Thank you so much for uploading every Instagram live, you are so amazing for doing this, love you so much ❤️❤️

@Swmdwn.Khakhlary

8 ай бұрын

happy to see an INDIAN fan as well!

I love this pure soul 💗

Thank you so much for uploading the live! I'm a new fan (I started following him only 6 months ago) so I feel really grateful everytime I get the chance to learn more about him and about the lore behind his works! Honestly, I feel extremely honored for being able to listen to him talking so openly about his mental disorders and sharing so much about him with us... I'm sure it's not easy to expose himself to such extents so I really appreciate what he's doing to spread awareness and to help us understand more about his art and about what he goes through. As someone who struggles with mental health myself (even though I don't share the same diagnosis as him), he makes me feel seen and represented. He's an incredibly talented artist with an amazingly brilliant mind, he's an inspiration and one of the most interesting and charming people I've ever had the immense pleasure to listen to. I think he's a very strong and brave person and I'm glad he's sorrounded by supportive and understanding people like he deserves! I just have mad respect and admiration for him and I feel sincerely grateful for finding out about him 🙏🏻

팬입니다😊 영어 몰라서 ㅠㅠ 열정은 자~알 보여요!!!!!

I’m getting choked up at this honestly whatever happened to this beautiful soul to make him go through all this and ended up with this mental health😢💔 the fact that he opened up about it made me fall in love with him even more🖤 we are here for you hun🖤

I discovered DPR Ian the same way. I saw one of his videos, and realized there are multiple people in here. He has no idea how he got to where he is. Black outs are hard to cope with. It can be very hard to be yourself. That is why his videos and songs are easy to connect with. It is helpful the more people speak out about D.I.D

When he went live i was going to bed cause it was 12 am in my country. I watched half of the time but then i fell asleep and had to comeback to watch the end. Thank you so much for uploading this ❤😊

@Modernwriter_2

8 ай бұрын

It was 3 am I was already asleep :')

So, basically, we have to learn to accept and coexist with our demons, instead of fighting them... Thank you, ian❤ You're amazing... And thank you, dwrdspiral, for sharing this with us!

Thank you this live was beautiful

DPR Ian is an amazing artist thanks for uploading this; his newest song is a huge banger.

Thank you for sharing. ❤ ❤ ❤

omg thank you!!!! 고마워요❤

Me encanta cuando dice que lo ha conversado con Lori.

Thank you!❤❤❤

Thank you for uploading this!!

Thank you soooo much too share his lives !!

thankyou for upload!!!!!

I am completely in awe of this man. I could sit and listen to him explain these disorders all day and still be captivated by it. He is just so incredibly fascinating and I am amazed at how he able to function daily in conjunction with all of the art he is creating. Such an inspiration! So much respect and love for him ♥️🫶🏻

thank youu

You are a life saver ❤ thank you so much!!!

I literally fell asleep watching his live so thank you 😊

Wow!… wild ride.. thank you for posting.. what a fascinating glimpse into “madness” almost and how brave and generous of Ian to share in order for us to understand and profit from this journey so that we in turn enrich our world as he enriches his world by embracing his “other” selves and turning a “disorder” into a positive experience … a genuine/ genius artist and human being! So glad to have stumbled into Ian! Dreamers love you to the dark side of the moon and back👁️❤️‍🔥🎬🎥🎶 DPR WE GANG GANG!!! From a quite recent but die hard dreamer!

Thank u for uploadingg

Thank you!

Thank you very much, every IG live you upload helps me a lot!😭

I'd gotten up super early to see his live and waited all day just to miss this eventually because he decided to do a random time 😭 thanks for uploading it

Christian talking about his experiences deeply resonates with me even though i don’t have BPD or DID. Ever since I was a young girl, I’ve suffered from severe bouts of depression and suicidal ideation. Christian talking about his blackouts feels so similar to what I feel at times. I’ll be my normal self and be doing just fine, and then suddenly, it’s like I’m a changed person and a switch is flipped. I get so low so quickly, I don’t even realize it’s happening and then before I know it, I’m thinking about killing myself and fantasizing about my suicide letter/my death. This is so fucking morbid, I know. The way Christian talks about his own mental disorders is soo relatable to me and I love his transparency in everything and how much he trusts us Dreamers to talk about this kind of stuff. Like, when I’m at my lowest point, I feel like I black out too. I’ll cry myself to sleep and then the next morning I’ll wake up and not even remember what I was crying about. I was just… crying. And I’ll have no memory of my attempts either. Some significant times I’ll remember them, but for the most part all I can recall is the feelings I have during my lows - just nothing, numbness. Christian talking about Mito feeling empty is exactly how I would describe my lows as well. Damn, I’m just so lucky and privileged to say that I’ve been here since day one - I first discovered his work in late 2020, when he released his single So Beautiful… and I’ve been in love with him and his artistry ever since. He’s so amazing and inspiring and genuine…. A true gem in today’s world!! 💜

@stqrli3ht

4 ай бұрын

Bpd is different from bipolar disorder!! Bpd is Borderline Personality Disorder💗

I just love this guy. Thank a lot for all the beutyfull music , letters and visuals

Thank u soooo much I was dead asleep when he went on live

Thank you very much for uploading it! I 😭💜 I wasn’t able to keep up with the IG Live bc I wasn’t at home. I’m so grateful fr ㅠㅠ✨

Respect, open up 💯❤️❤️❤️ Today, first time i heard his music and instant i love it💯❤️❤️

Thank you for uploading, I missed the first 30 minutes and last 15 because I was moving! He always goes live when I’m busy lmao!

Thanks 🙏🏻

So interesting….such a great explanation of your conditions..helps me understand both you and your work. You are remarkable in my eyes for actively learning about yourself that not only allows you to function but excel! As much as this video taught me me..i now have soooo many questions that i wish i could ask. I really respect and enjoy your work and wish you only the best in all that is to come!❤

Thanks for uploading, I couldn't catch it

Thank you! My notifications sucks and I missed it again (I guess I sleep hard last nights). So happy to see him doing well :)

이안 💝

Love U💕✨💖

Guapo! ❤

No one grants me comfort like Christian does

Спасибо, очень талантливый певец, песни супер.

he is such an amazing artist. i do really respect him❤❤❤

thank you so much for re-uploading it. i missess it, i don't even get notif from ig. i even watching k-drama through my phone around that time, but didn't get the notif. i'm so mad at myself

@annemariestrehl

8 ай бұрын

I didn't get notifications either even though I enabled them

Thank you for this. I watched it live but there were so many things he said and he switched topics so quickly I barely had time to process my emotions and really reflect on what he said.

Our hero

SO HANDSOME/ LOVE YOU

omg thank you for the upload ❤❤❤

You are such a beautiful person, so talented and intelligent and very handsome!!😍😊❤🙏💋

hey, thanks for posting this, i got into Ian's music through PB&T and it's interesting to hear the lore and story behind the colorful chaos that is Ian

Im Laufe des Lebens lernt man damit zurecht zu kommen. Ist nicht einfach, aber es ist möglich.

he's accent is so cute omg

Christian, I will support you every step of the way ❤

i was waiting for this cause i payed attention to like half then zoned out💀💀

Hello Christian, I am French and I have followed you since your beginnings; I like what you do because I feel it like an echo (I love it) I also think about your bipolarity because I have a 22 year old daughter who has similarities but her illness is called "Borderline" on a daily basis this n It's not always easy, she was studying medicine and she had to stop altogether because it was impossible for her to concentrate and as you say she has very highs and very lows. My husband, her brother and I support her as best as possible. that we can but sometimes we are frustrated at not being able to do more and cure it. She's fighting, she's tired but hold on and I talked about you and she likes what you do (artistic video etc.) This allows her to understand that you can do beautiful things even when "sick" . Sorry, I'm telling you all this because it feels good to be exhorted. Thank you for your art and good luck :) I also like your latest clip ;) Kiss of France:) Bonjour Christian , je suis Française et je vous suis depuis vos débuts ; j'aime ce que vous faites car je le ressens comme un écho (j'adore) Je pense également à votre bipolarité car j'ai une fille de 22 ans qui a des similitudes mais sa maladie se nomme "Borderline" au quotidien ce n'est pas toujours facile , elle faisait des études de médecines et elle a du tout stopper car impossible pour elle de se concentrer et comme vous dites elle a des très hauts et des très bas, Mon mari , son frère et moi la soutenons du mieux que l'on peut mais quelques fois nous sommes frustrés de ne pouvoir faire plus et la guerrir . Elle se bat , elle est fatigué mais tiens le coup et j'ai parlé de vous et elle aime ce que vous faites (vidéo artistique etc) Cela lui permet de comprendre que l'on peut faire de belles choses même en étant "malade" . Désolé je vous dit tout cela car ça fait du bien de s exhorter🌞 . Merci pour votre art et bonne continuation :) J aime également votre dernier clip ;) 🍀🌹☺

Идеален❤Крис💋

This music is fitting in my life right. My life has taken a very harsh and hurtful turn and I'm lost. I am not who I was, shes lost to me. I'm now trying to give a new lead to away to continue without her.

Love is all there is.

Is Mito like a complete different person than who is speaking in this live now? For example, if Mito makes a friend (and Ian is blacked out during this phase like he says), does that mean when Ian wakes up again, he’s not friends with that person? He doesn’t have the memories Mito made with that friend?

@ninam4423

7 ай бұрын

Yeah exactly they are totally different from each other they also have different taste, different goals, they are their own person

🖤✨

I really hate that I am always missing this when it first airs.

Omg! He read my question!!!!

Hi, thank you so much for sharing this live with us. I tried to screenshot it but it seems like I never have enough space in my iPhone. Also, do you by any chance still have the one from back in august where he was in Indonesia with his pal ronald? I would love to rewatch it but I can’t find it. Hopefully you still have it! Thank you!

@dwrdspiral

8 ай бұрын

Yes I do have the live up on my page :) No worries!

@marionjulia5349

8 ай бұрын

@@dwrdspiral hi, could you send me the link? It’s not showing up for me

@dwrdspiral

8 ай бұрын

I forgot it got banned in some countries. Let me figure it out and I'll send the link

@marionjulia5349

8 ай бұрын

@@dwrdspiral thank you so much !!! 🙏

@dwrdspiral

7 ай бұрын

Hey good news!! The video frm August is not banned anymore since the album has been released 😅

big THANK U!👿

Okay, so if we're being brave and sharing stories...😬😄 I've had a strong connection to the gods and goddesses like Artemis, Ares, and Venus and my Zodiac since I was very little and when I had lucid dreams and had dreams that played out in real life it felt like magic. I remember playing in the different worlds in my dreams to this day( the homes and architecture in my dreams were always my favorite). But trauma and having to grow up quickly stunted a lot of that. I created a very "strong" identity thanks to Ares and Artemis (not a complete switch though) that I now know protected the little inner Brooke. Over the last few years, reconnecting with those feelings and energies (because that's what felt natural) I've had experiences with energies that I know were beyond the normal human realm and all of them were very kind and protective actions towards me in real times of need after i started thanking, just like energy and nature in general for all the little things. I've decided that I won't feel vain in saying that my instincts tell me that I am being guided and that my "neuro divergence" is gifts from energies beyond us and that I am meant to make something of them. Those energies have different names for everyone, I'm just more connected to entities like the Moon, Artemis, and the God of war Ares, so that's what works for me. My path in life is to heal trauma and I am studying and creating a business plan to do just that specifically for neuos, and I just want anyone who is struggling with your differences in a world not made for you that honestly, you are magic. Your imaginations and empathy and capabilities are something magic, and the more you believe in that and thank the universe for those gifts and use them for GOOD, the better and better you are going to feel internally. And when you feel that way inside, the people around you are going to see your magic too (honestly fuck em' if they dont right?🖤🌕) I promise, you're special and you haven't been given anything you can't handle. You've been chosen to carry a gift and the universe loves you. That was a lot 😂 but really I just want neuo divergent babies to realize that it's not a disorder to be different and that you deserve to have all the confidence in the world you chosen, sweet things🩷 Now like, go stick together and change the the whole world and shit😄🩷

이날 외모 미쳤다.....

😮

Has ian ever actually discussed what trauam he had gone through for him to have dissociated to alter personalities? There is so much underlying issues but i am glad that he has accepted and is in a place where he is able to vocallise his feelings/experiences. Also from we have read in psych classes__ it was mentioned that the alter personalities do not know they exist, nor remeber what has happened. Which he does mention blackouts but he still is aware that are different alters. Someone must be following him around most times if not all times for him to gain this much insight. I hope he ia getting professional help ❤

@jennafreyaurora9417

2 ай бұрын

In his previous (deleted, i think) live he said that he doesn't remember what trauma it was, which is typical for did

@ranigautam2523

2 ай бұрын

@@jennafreyaurora9417 That's so sad. It must have been so traumatising

name of the FILTER he uses on IG live, anyone pls?

How do you manage to catch ALL the lives?

@dwrdspiral

8 ай бұрын

It's really just luck ahahaha I was on my way to work when he went live ytd 😅

@Dprneko

8 ай бұрын

@@dwrdspiral your luck is really a superpower that brings happiness for all dreamers 😍

1:21:54 - 1:26:45 ah the implications of this... 💔

Me parece a mí, o spoileó sin querer quien es The green? 🙊

I have manic depression and social anxiety. When I was younger vi used to attempt suicide I don't anymore I almost succeeded afew times with odd I had to have my stomach pumped and the second time they made me drink charcoal out of a cup

Translate plis🥺

Has he actually been diagnosed with DID or is he just saying he has it?

@MidnightFightr

3 ай бұрын

he's said he sees a specialist for his DID so I would assume so

영어공부해야겠다..

1:15:45 아빠 이안ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

영어 공부는 해보겠는데.. 제발 먼저 누가 이거 해석 좀 해줬으면..😢

@SKDunni

2 ай бұрын

초반 30분 한글 자막본이에요! kzread.info/dash/bejne/d3x-zaiMhKXPhbg.htmlsi=P2OKo1_Dg_iQE7ft

@sunnibunnimomo

2 ай бұрын

@@SKDunni 감사합니다!!!!🙏🏻

SO much trauma in his life. (I'm just guessing though, sorry If I'm wrong)