Another 1 hour of dark piano kzread.info/dash/bejne/Y6uMxat-nsK-iKw.html&ab_channel=LucasKing

@dylanweymothleehaley6981

2 жыл бұрын

thank you

@dragonuh7915

2 жыл бұрын

I don`t know you but, as someone whit autism, it is not a mental ilness it is a permanent thing from the moment you are born that changes the way you view the world to a more literal one, acording to scientists that is basically it, nothing of ilness.

@LucasKingPiano

2 жыл бұрын

@@dragonuh7915 I'm aware, I was giving themes to various conditions for people who have them. Autism isn't a mental illness, but there are people who have hard lives with it and I thought those people deserved to have a piece in here.

@Hacks536

Жыл бұрын

Yay!

@thaoriginal1332

Жыл бұрын

Family I don't speak on much but this right here is truly mind blowing and deep rhythmic of thoughts on the instrumental and I have so many storyline for every one of them magnificent frequency seriously 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾🔥🔥💯💪🏾✌🏾😤

There is beauty in the Dark.

@YapCorner

5 жыл бұрын

This is why I found Corpse bride the most stunning film I’ve ever watched and witnessed

@mrfinland8332

5 жыл бұрын

It's just me i forgot to turn my lights on

@jps17183

5 жыл бұрын

The problem is rather the necessity of the understanding to categorize beauty in a binary kind by attach meaning to it... After all, if one is mental, one can't tell, specialy if one's mind deals with meaning. One can't thought outside his own psychology. If justice was rigorously rational no one could be blamed for nothing. Even if you add metaphysical assumptions you only extrapolate the problem. Saying: I must have sin in another life, my spirit is rotten! - That's only the same and inexorable mental process of meaning. Either we are all crazy or no one is. The truth is that we are all different... Nothing else.

@antifurrywalmartgirl7772

5 жыл бұрын

Scary

@josiahsmailes791

5 жыл бұрын

@@Jeremiah-mj9kw the night time is peaceful, the darkness has a tranquility to it... a profound sense of peace...

“In a strange way, I had fallen in love with my depression. Dr. Sterling was right about that. I loved it because I thought it was all I had. I thought depression was the part of my character that made me worthwhile. I thought so little of myself, felt that I had such scant offerings to give to the world, that the one thing that justified my existence at all was my agony.” - Elizabeth Wurtzel

@shineeisthebest48

4 жыл бұрын

......that's exactly how i feel...

@AlastorTheNPDemon

4 жыл бұрын

I became terrifically addicted to mine during my episodes. Addicted to the illusion of reality... the depth of the pit calling to me, filled with promises of wisdom, but painfully empty. No matter how often or how deep I jumped, I could never learn from my mistake, and so I kept jumping. Falling. Hurting. As miserable as it made me, it much more so drove me totally nuts.

@andreshishkin2001

4 жыл бұрын

Peter the Nightwalker how did you escape out of that pit of madness.

@AlastorTheNPDemon

4 жыл бұрын

@@andreshishkin2001 Can't recall. If I said "I simply started small with my influence on the physical world and moved my way up to slightly more ambitious actions," that could very well just be a result of me getting out of my funk. I suppose what helped me the most was compartmentalizing it as the disease it was, distinguishing between symptoms of the illness and my own personality traits. Started distancing myself from it by using impersonal, semi-technical terms... "Just got a bit of the brain flu", or in more severe cases, "I am dealing with substantial mental health difficulties right now." I'm obsessed with mental illness, so I like to think my basic knowledge of neurology makes it far easier to deal with, since it's being observed Impersonally.

@andreshishkin2001

4 жыл бұрын

Peter the Nightwalker I’ve been obsessed with depression wallowing in it, for years now. I saw your comment and I was able to relate to what you were saying. Ive been blowing it off as brain fog lately as it became progressively worse. Its hard to pull yourself out when you cannot explain what is going on in your head and in a way it’s been starting to kill my memory.That is some much appreciated advice.

"Sometimes, mental illness is terrifying because you feel like you lost control of your mind and nothing makes sense. it's like watching yourself on autopilot and having little to no control." unknown-

@nightcoreplushie767

3 жыл бұрын

...wow That’s exactly how I feel

@andycook6480

3 жыл бұрын

MAYBE YOUR JUST WEAK-MINDED

@ThePlaylist8766

3 жыл бұрын

@@andycook6480 Maybe you can go fuck your self?

@thelocalnecromancer1224

3 жыл бұрын

@@ThePlaylist8766 I agree

@rzx-ku1ul

3 жыл бұрын

@@andycook6480 i think you are fucking empathy less asshole

*For the 2% who read this, I wish you for a total success in your next project!!!*

KZread Recommendations: Dark Piano for Mental Illness wut you trying to say, YT?

@Max-pr4lf

4 жыл бұрын

Bossu Revere true!! Man even YT is concerned

@ijustwantedtobecoronafree6600

4 жыл бұрын

@@Max-pr4lf ( ͡◉ ͜ʖ ͡◉)

@Max-pr4lf

4 жыл бұрын

Bossu Revere 😂😂😂

@nikolamanojlovic3764

4 жыл бұрын

Your name checks out as well

@PanzerStudios

4 жыл бұрын

Me:Yeah is crasy... YT:Yep i'm the best!

I am a pianist and have struggled with mental illness most of my life. I think this is absolutely beautiful and perfectly captures the emotion of what it's like to live with these illnesses. I felt a deep connection to every one of these, even the ones I don't have. Your musical talent is beyond words and honestly think you are way too good to be on KZread. I really hope your music is heard all over the world and that others can connect emotionally with you and other through your music.

@LucasKingPiano

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much, Ivy.

@hopefranklin7037

3 жыл бұрын

@@LucasKingPiano I really like that you added adhd, autism and PTSD in this it's very validating literally.

@thelocalnecromancer1224

3 жыл бұрын

@@hopefranklin7037 Me too.

@mammon5023

3 жыл бұрын

@@hopefranklin7037 i have ptsd and you were able to capture exactly how i feel

@MayHugger

3 жыл бұрын

@@hopefranklin7037 I dunno, I have Autism, and it feels kinda off to have it listed under a video about mental illnesses.

Friends: “what kind of music do you listen too?” Me:”ADHD”

@rubenthedoornob6949

3 жыл бұрын

Aye you too.

@alexthiel6676

3 жыл бұрын

xdddd

@perkinson75

3 жыл бұрын

i totally agree because i have serious ADHD and it honestly mad me cry so yea.!

@gladememmott3001

2 жыл бұрын

ADHD just means your bored.... Just find something to put everything into... If it doesn't work??? Just find something else.... Its the journey not the destination.

@cyaneyedinmydrink42069

2 жыл бұрын

​@@gladememmott3001 thats not how it actually is but if you want to learn more google is free. Most people just think that we just need to focus or find a new hobby but it a lot more than that. If you don’t want to learn anymore its fine just know that I hope you have a wonderful day either way.

I have schizo-affective disorder and was going through full on psychosis, hearing the voices and seeing things from the side of my eyes. It was night and i was too terrified to turn the light back on across the room. My adrenaline and fear only pushing the psychosis further. The sense of impending doom. I tried to distract and gain control again. I tried watching cartoons or something lighthearted but it didnt help. Then i found this. The beautiful and morbid music coupled with the titles referring to my disorders helped me mentally associate my disorders and fear with the beauty of this music. It pulled me out of a state of hopelessness in those moments. Now everytime i listen to this it helps me calm the fear and replace it with a sense of acceptance of whats happening. Thank you for this.

For mobile users... (This original comment was supposed to let mobile users go to which song they wanted to go to, since the timestamps in the description didn’t work for mobile, now it does. I’ll still leave it here but the timplestamps in the description work now.) 00:00 Pyschopath 05:57 Dementia 13:15 Depression 16:55 Anorexia 20:58 Sociopath 27:08 Alzheimer’s 31:13 Anxiety 36:54 Aspergers 39:18 Bipolar 43:36 BPD 46:41 Liar 56:57 OCD 1:00:57 Paranoia 1:03:50 Paranoia II 1:06:54 PTSD 1:09:58 Sadist 1:13:59 Schizophrenia 1:16:55 Social Anxiety 1:19:55 Addiction 1:23:32 ADHD 1:27:12 Autism

@banjoleb

5 жыл бұрын

Merci bcp

@speakerbox3602

5 жыл бұрын

Thank you!

@jackeyedpeas4013

5 жыл бұрын

They forgot RAD

@TheOpportunist007

4 жыл бұрын

Straight to 13:15 for me.

@edvamirso4056

4 жыл бұрын

I have 8 combine illness ' s on this list.Don't wanna tell you. 😈 😔

I'm autistic (Asperger's specifically), but I'm not sick. I just see the world differently from other people. Being autistic does not cripple me or make me unhappy. It just makes it difficult for me to understand things that are natural for others. I'm not less of a person for having special needs and hobbies, that a non-autistic person would have trouble understanding. I'm not less intelligent for being uncomfortable around people, nor do I have a superiority complex, because I don't interact with them. Anyway, I really love your music and this playlist specifically. Since I'm an autist with Asperger's and a slight melancholy (not a depression, mind you), this really speaks to me. The Asperger's track is vibrant, otherworldly and bittersweet and feels like the musical version of a world view that isn't distorted, but clear in a different way from others. The track for the autism gets an additional point from me for the singing. The singer has a fine voice and brings over the emotion of what she's singing very well (and that means something from me, because I have an absolute pitch). It sounds melancholic and well brings over the feeling of misunderstanding and (sometimes self-imposed) ostracism that autists are often subjected to. Edit: Oh my gods, thank you all for the likes and nice comments! I'm so happy to have read them all and to see you relate to my point. ^^

@chemchonk3117

5 жыл бұрын

Whats up my fellow puzzle piece man.

@davidmartinez688

5 жыл бұрын

My 🧩 piece squad where y’all at lol

@codypatton2859

4 жыл бұрын

Me too, I couldn't have put it better myself.

@Crow-Dragon

4 жыл бұрын

I have a high respect for people with special needs. And I'm glad that your proud of yourself. I hope you have an awesome day/night dude 👍

@brujo_millonario

4 жыл бұрын

"being uncomfortable around people" sometimes indicates a higher intelligence.

"If you keep your mouth shut they can't hear your suffering. "

@OhTheRiverWasDeep.

3 жыл бұрын

But anyone with sight could see the pain in our eyes if they dared look.

@InaReivax

3 жыл бұрын

I like this, I never realized that. Crazy.. 🤔 Thanks. ✌🏾☺️

@jgtbonem4

3 жыл бұрын

I sit in silence more then I should

@justinel2606

3 жыл бұрын

keeping your mouth closed can be sometimes the best solution

@thetrintarianmessianicyahw589

3 жыл бұрын

They will still see it. They just will pretend they don't.

I’m Bipolar and the music is so accurate. The dark , slow, playing and then picking up to happier and more hopeful sounds before going back down is so accurate for mood swings. This is beautiful.

@rzx-ku1ul

2 жыл бұрын

And I heard the manic phase out

Happy New Year everyone!

@RosekRossini

5 жыл бұрын

Happy new year Sir lucas! :D

@itsmemario195

5 жыл бұрын

Lucas King you said happy new year with this music ?😱😱😱😱 2019 will be a long and terrible year. Of course happy new year !!!!🎉🎉🎉

@ilovedogslol3041

5 жыл бұрын

Happy new year..

@adenentertainment7365

5 жыл бұрын

that's a f*cked up way of saying it

@NA-lx2kn

5 жыл бұрын

Happy New Year👏 Blessings🔥🔥

I have Borderline Personality Disorder. When people talk about suicide and say "when people think that it's the only way. It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem" to the person wanting to commit suicide, it may not be a temporary problem. I know because I attempted it last year. Sadly my problem isn't temporary. When you are in such physical and emotional pain and have tried all the treatments, pills and therapies it's overwhelming and you just want the pain to end. I do NOT consider myself weak or selfish. You don't see me on the floor crying, begging God to help me. I know I have become a burden to my family and I don't get the support I need. You honestly feel you are doing your loved ones a favor. It's a very lonely, sad life.

@LucasKingPiano

5 жыл бұрын

Really sorry to hear that. You don't sound weak or selfish to me, but I seriously doubt you would be doing anybody a favour by ending your life. More than likely all you would be doing is transferring your pain to your family. Have you discussed this with your doctors? Maybe your meds need tweaking?

@justjoan82

5 жыл бұрын

@@LucasKingPiano yes, I have talked to numerous doctors and we are trying to find the right medication combo. I wasn't trying to be a bummer or anything, I just wanted to share the view of someone who has been suicidal .

@LucasKingPiano

5 жыл бұрын

Not being a bummer at all that's what I did this video for. So people can share their troubles. I hope the Dr can find the right combo for you, hopefully they can make it more manageable.

@justjoan82

5 жыл бұрын

@@LucasKingPiano thank you :)

@lukas_6924

5 жыл бұрын

Yo, another borderline friend. I'm not good with words, just wanna say I sincerely hope for your happiness.

I have ADHD and Autism . I have always struggled making friends and when i finally do have someone they see me differently because of my disability’s (that seem more like a curse ) They say I’m ether to hyper or I’m to lazy and don’t even try. To different. It seems that everyone slowly fades away until I’m alone feeling depressed and unworthy. This piece is beautiful because it captures the emotional impact of these illnesses even without words feels like it understands.

@notconvinced

Жыл бұрын

We're all apart from each other, but we're not alone. We're just not in the same room right now. ie. I know how you feel. Different illnesses but the results feel the same 💙☮💚

Me sitting here listening Ad: honey is a free browser extension

@johnny3481

3 жыл бұрын

how depressing!

@platonicbuu7454

3 жыл бұрын

Honey issss legit though. It helps

@graysteenstra198

3 жыл бұрын

Bruh I wish I had ads... I have yt premium lmao

@stanbabyphotostheslither-p8815

3 жыл бұрын

omg everytime!

@thelocalnecromancer1224

3 жыл бұрын

@@graysteenstra198 no, you don't.

you are not alone too,Lucas

@midvalley3805

3 жыл бұрын

GANGBANG

@gayvagina7353

3 жыл бұрын

When you got that paranoia

@Laryon720

3 жыл бұрын

you are not alone lucas ... Lucas : i know. I never was alone ...they speak to me. i hear them all the time they are telling me to do bad things...right now they are talking about you

@gangstae3838

3 жыл бұрын

@@Laryon720 lmao stop sjkajskaj

There is a thin line between sanity and insanity. But in darkness it’s harder to see that line.

@andycook6480

3 жыл бұрын

OPINION

@dolphone6748

3 жыл бұрын

bruh, that is literal nonsense.

@starry4873

2 жыл бұрын

yes... you cant see the line because its dark

@commonconservative7551

Жыл бұрын

@@dolphone6748 it is all nonsense, hot air from a bison

@totallytoffy

Жыл бұрын

Facts frfr.

I love how the OCD track repeats itself over and over. That's how I feel with my OCD; a constant need, rhythm, annoying thoughts in my head that won't go away until I've scrubbed my hands raw, despite knowing I'm not dirty. A lot of people overlook how torturous it is to have OCD.

@anon_1-n1e

3 жыл бұрын

:( people are trash

@chacala7501

3 жыл бұрын

@@anon_1-n1e Yeah. :'(

@ieaterasers5986

2 жыл бұрын

I know. I still can't get my father's girlfriends words out of my head. She joked about it even after I asked her to stop. She just continued. Even the thought now makes me burn.

@ieaterasers5986

2 жыл бұрын

@@chacala7501 Truly.

@indrimza

2 жыл бұрын

I had a friend in 6th grade who has OCD. I never really understood what that was, but I let my friend be herself and I didn't make a big deal out if it.

“I was born in the dark, molded by it. You were seemingly adopted by it. The shadows betray you”

@jahjah7940

2 жыл бұрын

„Victory has defeated you!” *breaks your back*

@ssww3

Жыл бұрын

Betrayed me? Them sons a biches

I have been searching for dark music for a while now and I couldn't find anything that commited to the darkness of the human psyche, prefering to appeal to a sense of adventure... Somebody told me I'd find what I needed here, and I must say, I am almost in tears, it's exactly what I needed... Wow, this is beautiful, haunting...

@nikolaimaharaj2319

4 жыл бұрын

I know right, this is exactly what I was looking for, didn't think I'd ever find it though, it's perfect

@pixelsalad

4 жыл бұрын

you should listen to Goëtia

@andresfelipegalindosalgado2518

4 жыл бұрын

Try listening to gullagg or DSBM, thats pretty dark and recomforting

I have ADHD, and it was a struggle in my life. I didn't understand things, and I'm hyperactive without my meds. Everyone treated me like I'm not normal, that even I was aware I was not all because I didn't think like others. All through I gain some intelligence, I want to learn more but I get distracted by other things. I felt like I don't get the proper help, I really need. I've done some bad things that I regret because of my stupidity, such as losing trust, everyone, even my friends sees me as not normal. If you want to take your life because you feel like you're doing someone a favor, don't they'll regret it saying it, you're not doing a favor to anyone. I understand people pain, and I'm really sorry for the most painful life you had like me. Hopefully you get the help you'll need...

@dustinbiddy594

4 жыл бұрын

I have ADHD to. It gets worse and it gets better. But lately it's just been , I don't know. Just...Bad. I hate it with every fiber of my being. But there's nothing I can do about it.I just gotta "keep rolling with the punches". Isn't how that phrase goes? Keep rolling with the punches?My depression hasn't gone away since late last year. First my grandma died a few years back. And the my grandpa died back in 2018. He died on my brother's birthday. Plus we're going to have to move out of our house in March. I don't know where we'll go.I'm trying to stay positive but it's not working. I hate admitting it. But it's true.Please pray for me. For us.

@BellaStanley732_

4 жыл бұрын

I had that when I was little but I growed out of it thank god

@marinetteagreste1001

3 жыл бұрын

I also have ADHD and I've been taking pills for as long as I can remember I've been treated differently my whole life

@oakenaikemeja

3 жыл бұрын

Personally, I believe that people with disabilities should be treated as a normal(on standards). I have a sibling with a disability, though myself I am fine, I don't think it's nice to be treated that way, I'm sorry that you had such a painful life, I hope it gets better.

The description: "You are not alone" Everyone with Paranoia: " W A I T W H A T"

@starlover4748

3 жыл бұрын

As someone with psychosis this is almost true aha...

@Yamaguchi_Tadashi

3 жыл бұрын

@@starlover4748 I cant tell if I should laugh or if I do its rude

@starlover4748

3 жыл бұрын

@@Yamaguchi_Tadashi You can chuckle Tadashi my boy.

@Yamaguchi_Tadashi

3 жыл бұрын

@@starlover4748 T h a n k y o u

@twilightemily-afton4602

3 жыл бұрын

*Quiet chuckling*

I'm not depressed , I'm not sad, I'm just pretending , I feel like this feeling of being sad is making me not to forget myself as someone who is wrong . I don't know how , I'm just happy , my black is my happiness . I love people, deal with them , laugh with them , have conversations, but when I become alone I transform to this feeling. Yes i'm pretending . Yes my sadness is protecting me from myself . Yes, I'm fooling my subconscious mind. Yes and I'm fooling you if you think of me I'm weird . I'm normal I'm just living the role and it is freshening 🖤

Have you ever walked into a room, but then forgot why you went in there? You know there was a reason, it was something that needed to be done, something simple, but you can't remember it for the life of you. You hang around for a bit, looking for a reminder, wondering if it will come to you, but it doesn't, so you leave the room only to see something which reminds you what you were supposed to do... Well, if you take that moment where you stand in the room, that feeling of frustrated uncertainty and stretched it out over 20 years, that's pretty much what my life has consisted of since around middle school... knowing there's something that needs to be done, and it's something I could do, if I could just remember what it was. One day I'm going to exit this life, and I'm sure the moment I do I'll remember why I came here in the first place. Unfortunately, I won't get another shot...

@jacobsnyder7771

3 жыл бұрын

Damn this hit me harder than I thought it would

@andycook6480

3 жыл бұрын

WHATEVER

@_syd_sucks_6008

3 жыл бұрын

@@andycook6480 Is there a reason why you are replying negatively to a ton of people's comments?

@yumekojabami4179

2 жыл бұрын

Damn…

@tonstertoaster618

2 жыл бұрын

God is why you are here

Whenever I'm depressed, which is a lot recently, I get really creative and start to paint, draw and write. I always listen to your work when I'm feeling down. Whenever I'm sad and depressed, I'm no longer numb.

@megwarren4691

3 жыл бұрын

Pain and sadness can create something beautiful

@tonstertoaster618

2 жыл бұрын

Christ Loves You.

@ennieharrison8177

2 жыл бұрын

I feel exactly the same! Nice to know that there are other people with this experience :)

@Unknown-bd4np

2 жыл бұрын

Fight your depression.because if your fully depression you will lose all of your creativity.

"Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and oftentimes we call a man cold when he is only sad." - Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

They captured dementia perfectly. I have been struggling with memory loss for a while now and that repeated idea feels like memories that i'm desperately trying to hold onto all of the time.

When People Don't Believe Darkness Can Be Beautiful, I Find Myself Listening To Lucas King Music. Never Disappointed With The Masterpieces.

I suspect a lot of us who the "normal" people call negative are simply in touch with reality in ways that scare them ...we can't lie to ourselves as well as "well adjusted" people.... I'm in my 50's and after decades of their crap about,"just be positive", have concluded that I am someone who just has a need to embrace the darkness that has always been with me.... that has made me happier and better able to cope with the world as it is.... I still care, have empathy for others, love ,feel and experience joy sometimes but know I must face the pain to remain sane

@0Beyonder0

3 жыл бұрын

what scares you about reality bud

@andycook6480

3 жыл бұрын

MAYBE YOU GONE CRAZY?

@ShiroiOkami_A

3 жыл бұрын

I was once down and was a bit moody in a server a while back. The people currently active at the time were spewing those overused positive messages and how I should look on the bright side of things. They'd even go far as to say stuff like "you may not want our help, but you need it", insisting that I needed to basically change my world view. I think they meant well, but it was like trying to shove a gumball down my throat. All this to say... People like that, to quote an actual friend of mine, "are not trying to sympathize", and/or have no sympathy for you. In fact, it's probably that... need to be a "good person" in the world that they say those things. I think people who always look on the bright side have never gotten close to the... not so bright side. We've all had our ups and downs, sure, but not everyone has suffered the way others have. I say this all in hopes of... confirmation? Or something... I hope that in reading this, if you've read it at all, you gain something from it. To anyone, actually. People are capable of sympathizing, yet not everyone does it. People are often unpredictable, so it's best to expect the worst and then be surprised by the good, rather than expect to find good in every little thing - because expectations quickly turn to disappointments. Thank you kindly for reading. -T.A.D.

I have adhd and when I clicked the chapter with the adhd in it, I heard a melody that made me remember the good times, light a darkness that had been bothering me for quite some time, and ease my mind, when I heard the social anxiety I finally felt like I fitted in somewhere, my own little bubble of comfort, of friends that I never had, I thank you for making this video, it is amazing and you should be world known for your talent

I feel at home listening to the music here and reading the comments. I feel like I’m not the only one. I feel comforted, relaxed, and in a weird sense, understood. I can’t explain why but I feel...happy just being here? I’m just taking it all in and accepting it. I feel relieved.

@michaelpritzl4153

3 жыл бұрын

Damn me too, I'm misunderstood underappreciated I walk through life inebriated Just so I can look at my world And feel alleviated, Life is what you make it, This I've heard a million times, But it's not that simple, My darkness hides from their little eyes, For my pain will not be their demise, So I stay, slipping further away day by day, I'm sad alone, she's always away, even with our talks she'll never see the real me beating on the back of my eyes. Knees getting weaker slipping further and further in the night.

@itscristoff9036

2 жыл бұрын

same :( especially during a time like this

@arteCee

2 жыл бұрын

yeh. it's weird, who would have thought listening to piano music could be so normal everyday activity.

@kennydjvulgartrendkiller4314

2 жыл бұрын

Cause your normal if you start letting people tell your crazy then you will also wear a mask of shanne i mean for corona virus 😉 they are sneaky thejy only love money n will say normal thought is bad so they can dope you up n get you in church

@Hacks536

Жыл бұрын

@@michaelpritzl4153 misunderstood and under appreciated? God this explains me Also nice poem

Strange, but this somehow calms me. Like i had connected the headphone to my veins and would be listening to my own emotions transformed into music. I feel. Understood. Odd.

@dorothyjoycassilles1056

5 жыл бұрын

It pulls my emotions out of the hidden boxes in that dark shadow of my mind and allows me to release them, heal myself and maybe help others in the end

@horizon_rubis4153

4 жыл бұрын

@@dorothyjoycassilles1056 same😐

@winkres

3 жыл бұрын

I thought I was literally the only one-

@_syd_sucks_6008

3 жыл бұрын

@@shotaaizawa9271 ok MHA fan

@bobdaniels9056

3 жыл бұрын

After long years of suicide attempts, I stumbled upon this video. I also felt understood. Years after PTSD was brought upon me, years after I found of my fathers death, years among the depression. People think after great disasters the victims get up, brush themselves off, and move on. They don't. They have to live through the suffering that is PTSD. It is like watching yourself in a movie, yourself slowly transforming into something that doesn't want to be seen or even talked about. Sooner or later, they are torn apart in agony and end it.

You okay, Lucas?

@sarahguhl3071

5 жыл бұрын

He's been like this sense I met him, still can't tell if it is normal or not.

@LucasKingPiano

5 жыл бұрын

Struggling with mental health but I'm hopeful for this year. Thank you for asking!

@WJstudios04

5 жыл бұрын

@@LucasKingPiano feel ya, brother - don't give up

@sh9683

5 жыл бұрын

@@LucasKingPiano your music is a gift to all, we all appreciate what you do, thank-you, I understand how you feel a bit

@Aruoka

5 жыл бұрын

@@LucasKingPiano Since I couldn't find a place that made sense to, elsewhere quickly, I just want to express my appreciation for your Work here. Since I discovered you I found many of your pieces joy- and helpful in dealing with my own Issues. So. Thank you very much, dear Sir.

i have borderline personality disorder, bipolar, generalized anxiety disorder, social anxiety and agoraphobia and every day life is such a huge struggle. there is not a moment when i’m not anxious or stressed. the bpd and bipolar tracks hit me the most- bipolar captured the scary feeling of depression perfectly, while bpd captured that feeling of hopelessness and mental agony that just never wants to leave. overall all of the tracks are absolutely mesmirizing and i love listening to this a lot.

I don't suffer from mental illness (which I am extremely greatful for, especially whenever I see the statistics of the amount of people my age with depression these days), but there are some people in my close family circle that do suffer from it, and I have to say, that those that put up with that shit and are strong enough and have enough self discipline to wake up another day and not lash out on others because of their issues brought on by their mental illnesses. To everyone that has them, you have my deepest respect and admiration, you guys are unbelievably strong and I wish you all the best!

I swear its like theres 20 wise men for every 100 edgelords here.

@Bumble-hw6eq

4 жыл бұрын

god, how much I love this comment 😹😹💜💜

@SNAAAAAAAKE

4 жыл бұрын

Hahaha nail on the fucking head dude.

@emotionalsloths9463

4 жыл бұрын

Which one are you ??? Haha

@purpletape6594

4 жыл бұрын

Emotional Sloths I am el papi, you will know of me soon enough

@MrRimuzz

4 жыл бұрын

That is honestly not a bad ratio.

nothing like enjoying the first day of the year with these Darks and genuine masterpieces ¡Long live Lucas king!

@Herm.Q-92

5 жыл бұрын

Off to a cheery start right?

The world is different in every persons reality

@varenneduvar2062

3 жыл бұрын

🌷 kzread.info/dash/bejne/iJ1krbame7awc7g.html

@Hacks536

Жыл бұрын

And every persons reality is based on his/her personality

"I'm not afraid of the dark. I'm afraid of what's inside it."

@thanosmichos8834

3 жыл бұрын

Wise..

@pritamsvlogs8858

3 жыл бұрын

Beautiful thought

@Kisuke323

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah, you are in the dark. Awesome. So deep.

@averagedoomenjoyer1232

2 жыл бұрын

"Fear not the dark my friend and let the feast begin."

@MkUltra570

2 жыл бұрын

The dark is afraid of you .. don't ever forget that

“You are not alone.” That right there is what scares me most. The fact that other people like me exist, and the threat that they, well, we pose to society.

@rain-cy6ve

4 жыл бұрын

Terrifying isn t it?

@janethekiller8497

4 жыл бұрын

Why is it most things on here I'm not allowed to comment on? I agree with you wholeheartedly.. And most others on here... But- I'm not even allowed to give a thumbs up in most cases... Ah well..

@Mike343ful

4 жыл бұрын

I think I know what you mean but I'm not sure...what threat? An inclination towards nihilism?

@justinnix1347

4 жыл бұрын

@@janethekiller8497 What do you mean not allowed to comment on?

@melissag834

4 жыл бұрын

We only pose a threat if we want to. We can live peacefully and among the populous, even benefitting them. Though, it depends on what exactly you mean by "we"

We all clicked on this video for a reason, which means we’re all in this together ❤️

@K_Voices

5 жыл бұрын

I relate to a lot of these. It was funny when I clicked the anxiety one and it triggered the anxiety, shows how people can really feel the music. Whatever you're going through, as you said, we're all in this together

@kierstenmathers4515

5 жыл бұрын

WolfPaw02 :) 💗

I have a mental illness " i hear voices and sirens " i never told my family I have this illness even tho they hear me talking , I'm 13 so I'm trying to ignore it , I have a stuffed doll to talk too when I feel lonely , depressed , when my dad's being abusive and when my mom hits me or screams at me , but my doll is the only one who tells me it'll be okay

@TheNewTraveller

3 жыл бұрын

Its hard to be alone trust me i know that...

@user-bw5mx7jo8m

11 күн бұрын

I’m so sorry, idk how to help you, but I wanna know, why sirens?

Listening to this while I have a dimly lit light on in my room with me doing my homework is nothing more than comforting oddly enough. Most would consider it to be off-putting but for me, its kinda relaxing.

Hey, man, dunno if you're going to ever end up reading this or not. But, you've been one of the reoccurring things in my life that a actually follow through. Since i know you got stuff going on to, you ever felt like, whenever something goes wrong, it's always just a cycle of, feel like shit and have small bursts of joy? That's what life has been the past... 6 ish months. But every time I find a new video you've made, i always just let it play and let the music flow through me. Wanna know why? Because it seems that your music brings out the thoughts that i normally dare not think. Your music captures the mental illnesses, the feelings, the raw emotions of something, purely, dark. And that's beautiful. You've been the one person on this Earth to draw the most distant parts of my subconscious mind and I don't even know you. Every time something goes wrong, which does happen often, i put on something from you and just, talk. I just let the conversation flow and it's like as if I'm talking to someone else. Because it feels like someone is there. It feels like someone knows what twisted, disturbing, dark thoughts go through my head. And it makes me think like i would never have before. Sure, there's some bands like Blue October or My Chemical Romance that'll capture some emotion and put it into song. But your head is being filled with words that influence how you think. But with art like yours, where there is no words, only ambiance, that's where the true emotions come out. Because it's only you, your thoughts, and the music to help ease those thoughts out of you. You give me the purest way of release that any musician ever could. And i fucking love it. Everything you make is art. Dark or happy. No one dogs on Poe for his depressing poems, but people dog on you for making sad music? No, what you make is art. Art more beautiful than Picasso, art that no poet could ever match with words. Because your art reaches into the darkest, farthest, most forgotten parts of the mind and exposes those things in a new light one would never expect. Before I listened to your piece for BDP, i never knew what BDP was. And i would've never gotten diagnosed with it. Because i just thought i was fucked up in the head from depression. But no. Your art made me realize that my emotions are much more complex, much more dark, and much, much different than i would ever had expected 2 years ago. Having lost an entire nights worth of sleep listening to your music, and thinking, talking to myself, I don't know if anything i just let loose to you made sense. But i hope at least someone read it. One step closer to feeling i belong.

@CassandraSophitia

5 жыл бұрын

I read it... and wow... yes... this is music that really makes you feel something. I love it too.

@agustinamansur5665

5 жыл бұрын

I've read it and I loved your inspiring and well-written text! I'm glad this music makes you feel special, because you are. I wish you all the best :)

@dorothyjoycassilles1056

5 жыл бұрын

You express the thoughts inside my mind

@thatweirddiezel4311

3 жыл бұрын

Now I know this was a year ago now but I would like to say that: I read this twice, not to understand it but to feel it and let myself fall into my subconscious to let my emotions flow like a waterfall. And I would like to thank you for that...

Hey you❣ You're an irreplaceable gem in this world, you know that? Don't ever think you're unworthy of love, too broken to be wanted, or too messed up to stay here. Gems are transformed by great pressure and stress. And so are you. Think about it, by the time you make it through this storm, what a radiant, strong gem you will be! So hope on my friend for this too shall pass. If you have no one around to tell you this, let me remind you that you are wanted, you are loved, you are valuable, you are YOU and that's beautiful❤

@gaybot8375

3 жыл бұрын

❤️

@ourania7563

3 жыл бұрын

No❤

@thegreatcommisar2924

3 жыл бұрын

thx man

@massacref4ku398

3 жыл бұрын

Ohh yes this is the light will fade in seconds

@andycook6480

3 жыл бұрын

NO, I DONT THINK LIKE THAT

I have autism, I had psychosis (had being treated a few time and if it ever returns I get help immediately) and although I don't have (hopefully), I've shown behavioral patterns of Schizophrenia. Lucas king.... Thank you. I've cried at the symphonies of the mential issues and illnesses I live with. You music has made me feel more human then any therapy session or guidance council ever did. Please keep up the good work and never stop

@jakerodrocks

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing your diagnoses. As a person who has dedicated my life to children diagnosed with autism, I will never understand but I try my best.

I'm not having any mental illness, depression or whatsoever. I just find all these pieces are beautiful. Thank you. ❤️

This will be in the background when I play a horror game.

@sadaesthetics5674

5 жыл бұрын

Dude I was thinking the same thing

@Stigmatix666

5 жыл бұрын

Why? The music in the game not good enough? I could never play Silent Hill without Akira Yamaoka's music, for instance..

@Blue-qu1nf

5 жыл бұрын

Listening to this while playing a horror game would just make me pity the monsters.

@blood-agent-j1012

5 жыл бұрын

Stigma I couldn’t play silent hill without Akira Yamaoka either but not all horror games have such talented composers to set the mood for the game

@Stigmatix666

5 жыл бұрын

@Lauren Victoria ?? Read the comments and you'll figure it out

*Finally,* I've found out what this kind of music is called! In my opinion, this genre is possibly the most beautiful kind of music there is. It's so emotive and moving, yet soothing and calming.

@andycook6480

3 жыл бұрын

WHATS UR POINT BESIDES LIKING THE MUSIC?

"don't be afraid...I am you...and you are me..." he said with such a calming and serene voice. "I mean you no harm...I want to help you" he said. I then accepted him and went with him... He took care of me, nurtured me, accepted me like no one did... I said to him, "Why are you like this to me?" "Why do you care so much about me?" He giggled and answered with a comforting voice, "I told you...I am you and you are me..." I was confused...I didn't get what he said and just forget about it... After a few years...he raised me...educated me...loved me like his own child...but I was still hesitant of all of this... It was too perfect to be true... I now became an adult, 20 years old...he still took care of me...loved me like he was my own father... I was in deep gratitude...I wanted to repay him... I few moths later, I said to him..."How should I repay you for all that you've done to me" It was silent...he didn't speak for a while...I was...scared... He then answered finally, saying, "Why do you think I did this?" he said with such a loving voice... "Because...you said...I am you and you are me..." I said with a confused face He then looked at me in the eyes...held my hand...and then hugged me tightly... I was a bit weirded out by it...it was too sudden...but then I was fine with it and hugged back... "I'm sorry..." he said while crying... "Why-" I then was surprised as he injected me with something that made me unconscious... I then woke up...I saw so many people...some...almost looked like...me? "Ah! You're here! Finally after years of waiting!" One said with an alluring voice "Who are you all?" I said with fear and confusion "Why? We are you! and you are us!" Another spoke with a lustful voice "What do you mean?" I said with deep confusion in my eyes They all crowded on me...and everyone spoke... "We are all dead...we died of but one cause" I was confused and asked, "Who killed you all?" Everyone went silent... Then, someone who is like an older version of me, then approached me and spoke, "It was you..." he said with a straightforward face "M-me?" I was confused and scared... "Yes you...but not you, this life...not you in this form, this version...but...the original...first borne" I was so scared and confused and then realized... "I AM DEAD? AM IN HEAVEN?" I screamed as everyone became sad and gloomy... "Yes...but...this is not heaven..." he said with a sorrowful face... "This is purgatory...we can only watch as every version of us are killed by many of evil versions of us...ruled by the first born" "We can never escape this loop of fate...all of them will die...and we all will live in this purgatory...watching them die...together..." If this comment hits 5k likes...I will finish this...see yah!

@souw135

2 жыл бұрын

would be good on r/nosleep

these are time stamps: 00:00 Pyschopath 05:57 Dementia 13:15 Depression 16:55 Anorexia 20:58 Sociopath 27:08 Alzheimer’s 31:13 Anxiety 36:54 Aspergers 39:18 Bipolar 43:36 BPD 46:41 Liar 56:57 OCD 1:00:57 Paranoia 1:03:50 Paranoia II 1:06:54 PTSD 1:09:58 Sadist 1:13:59 Schizophrenia 1:16:55 Social Anxiety 1:19:55 Addiction 1:23:32 ADHD 1:27:12 Autism

@sofiamartins9051

2 жыл бұрын

I know it's late but thank you very much

@eugenewaterslide7328

Жыл бұрын

they're in the video description dumbass

@willyjankins

Жыл бұрын

dissociative identity disorder

@Jason-eo1rh

Жыл бұрын

Congratulations on doing what the author did anyway. Fucking loser.

@ssww3

Жыл бұрын

Autism isn't a mental illness

Depression in my case. God bless all of us. Thank you for share your beauty. A big hug from Argentina.

@emotionalsloths9463

4 жыл бұрын

God will never help you but hahaha enjoy the pain

@_JELA

4 жыл бұрын

@@emotionalsloths9463 you're the type of person who uses a roller backpack in college cuz your mom doest want you to hurt your back

@lordorochimaru9431

3 жыл бұрын

@@_JELA deleted this man

I don't know but I feel good, when I'm sad The night, my favourite Time. Black, my favourite colour. Dead, the most interisting for me. But I act in Front of my friends and family a happy boy A Boy with two faces A boy, who likes the villians in movies more, then the main characters. And i feel good at sadness My girlfriend acted, that she loves me A WHOLE YEAR But when I was sad, I feld no pain I feld nothing. And if I lerned something about love, then, that it is a very big mistake.

@massacref4ku398

3 жыл бұрын

Oh yes split personality but in my case I don't have feelings but the question is do you know who you really are?? Because I'm not

@fengar4551

3 жыл бұрын

@@massacref4ku398 I think you are right. Know who I am? Very good question. Do people know, who they are? I don't. It's hard to discribe myself. If I talk with my friends about deep things and I say things about my personality I think: " Well, that's not true." So, you are what this video is about? A sociopath. Don't see it as a weeknes. Think about it as a ability. You can not be manipulated by feelings. Sociopaths have often very good jobs.

@ritad.n7458

3 жыл бұрын

You just described everything I feel, everything I am...I am literally speechless...

@alexiko9461

3 жыл бұрын

you are a gothic person like me (* _ *)

@LostSoul340

3 жыл бұрын

I feel the same now and understand this perfectly although it is unfortunate.

This Piano play sooths my inner conflicted mind and thoughts.

this is an absolute masterpiece. I never tested if i suffer any of the mentioned illnesses. The only thing that i know is that I definitely don't think like a normal person (or at least those who surround me). I lie so easy and so much that sometimes I get scared of myself. Or every time someone does something i don't approve of I imagine VERY cruel that I want to do to them, things that i don't even want to say out loud. I at some point lost track of when I was real and to who. Everyone just keeps on disappointing me that I lost track of who I could really trust. Sorry I don't even know why i am typing all this it is just that i think this is the only place i can share a little bit of myself without getting looked at in disgust. What i want to say with all this is that you are absolutely incredible for creating a place where people can bond and share things about themselves without shame and nobody who would judge you.

@Hacks536

Жыл бұрын

I know it’s late but I feel like you have a mental illness my guy… try to see what it is. Undiagnosed and untreated mental illnesses get worse over time Good luck

Im diagnosed with mental illness. I use you music as my grounding exercise. Thank you .i love your music 💜

That was one of the most beautiful peaces I have ever heard. I have ADHD, OCD, BPD and social anxiety. I was taking 4 types of pills last month. Now I stopped them and I started fighting with my will. Your music made me feel special. Thank you!

@oeaoo

2 жыл бұрын

Asked the universe to give you power to get well. Know it please.

tw: eating disorders i struggled with anorexia nervosa, major depressive disorder, and social anxiety disorder. my illnessed stopped me from going to school when i was at my worst point. even if i did go to school, i felt so cold all the time, despite wearing four jackets, and i always felt like no one liked me. i felt alone. i was even scared of exercising because i didn't want to gain muscle mass. anything to keep my weight low, to feel in control. i was eventually hospitalized. i wouldve died from malnutrition by the next month had i not been admitted into the hospital's ed unit. it's been a long journey. inpatient, partials, outpatient, back inpatient, and it repeats over and over again. i've even been tubed. i'm no longer in treatment anymore, but anything that reminded me of treatment (even the smell of the lotion i used everyday inpatient) triggers me. i'm considered weight restored now, after gaining 50lb. i was 79 lb when i was hospitalized. i now feel the effects of having a healthy body. i can smile now, i feel warmth, my hair doesnt fall out as much, and i can move. to anyone struggling, please get help. recovery is more than worth it. the people in the ward with me were the kindest people i've ever met. you won't regret it. stay strong :)

I suffer from Bpd, the way my heart dropped and I felt like crying and filled with grief and loneliness. Too real ❤

@Robertsmith-un5cu

6 ай бұрын

take magic mushrooms.

I'm jealous, you can express the pain through the music and by doing this, you let us feel a little better. I'm dealing with some disorders and when I'm sad i like to listen to this kind of music, I dont know why but it helps. Dementia and Social Anxiety are probably my favourite tracks. Thank you for all your music.

Why does depression make me almost alive Sometimes when I am all alone Miserable It makes my imagination run a riot I write songs I write poems I come up with artistic ideas for animations in the future I want to do Control your depression however Talent Cannot Go to waste It must be used

@agustinamansur5665

5 жыл бұрын

It's good what you do! Keep learning to live with yourself and therefore love yourself :)

@jeffreyswiderski

5 жыл бұрын

Maybe your depression is a gift?!

@idkp.9507

4 жыл бұрын

I feel that so much. It’s terrible.

@damarisschonherr6941

4 жыл бұрын

"Art never comes from happiness" ;-(

@TheEconomicElder

4 жыл бұрын

Ur not depressed, no way a depressed person could do anything like what u say. You sound like ut forceing feeling to me.

I am an avid mental health awareness advocate and spoken word performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my KZread channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💚❤️💚

These are so lovely...they offer me a sense of comfort when all I want to do is fall into the abyss and never wake up... I'm struggling not to completely dissasociate, or fall off the deep end, but all of the stress is catching up to me...I am physically, spiritually, emotionally, and mentally checked out. I'm just so tired, I want a break...sometimes I welcome the bouts of depression, because atleast then Ill be relieved of the anxiety...of the stress...

@Robertsmith-un5cu

6 ай бұрын

magic mushrooms

Choose your fighters! Mine are Depression, Anxiety, and Liar. Addiction was one of them too but he got left in the past. I’m now trying to fire Liar as well. I can’t fire Depression and Anxiety bc turns out they have permanent fighting contracts with me. So I intend to trap Depression and Anxiety in cages inside my basement so they will stop breaking shit inside my house but shhh don’t tell em yet!

@zippermaster6986

4 жыл бұрын

You good, my dude?

@wolfsani1792

4 жыл бұрын

Zipper Master69 Not everyone is "normal" some people are special ^_^. ;)

@MoskusMoskiferus1611

4 жыл бұрын

OCD, SAD, Depression. And yet I'm still Alive to Suffer

@animal8006

3 жыл бұрын

Depression, anxiety, liar, and sadist. Sadist is one of my new fighters, he seems pretty strong but I hope I'll beat him. Liar's the only one I have no hope of beating

@kirstyswan1009

3 жыл бұрын

The demons inside are not going to escape their cages not this time.

-The oldest and strongest emotion of mankind is fear, and the oldest and strongest kind of fear is fear of the unknown.- H.P.Lovecraft . . . . . This phrase made me think.. a lot, now my head hurts and i still have to study. So searched for music and here i am.

@omarbendahou9711

Жыл бұрын

Oui c'est vrai

I love how pianos are the most beautiful instrument, like..... You can make a slow sad melody, and even though, I will be beautiful, peaceful and relaxing, like a real dream

This is what it feels like. This music is so calming, no lyrics yet it speaks to me.

I really like the one for ADHD, didn't know I needed this in my life until now.

I never really understood that something without words could speak to me so well. Thank you

I like how there is that one constantly repeated note in the OCD one... Meaningful :(

One of the titles is my diagnosis and I feel like I’m hearing my emotions expressed in a piece of music... this is so beautiful 🙏🏼

I lost my wife this time last year ,i don’t how I came across your music but I’m great full I did it got me through a lot of emotional pain it is truly beautiful ,and listening again tonight thank you so much x

@romusans

5 ай бұрын

Hasta que alguien escribe algo positivo, todo mundo al parecer tiene desequilibrios aquí, aunque pensándolo bien, ¿quién no los tiene?

This touches me I suffer from mental illness the feeling from the music is how i feel everyday when no one sees the true inside for what we special people are thank you for making this beautiful.

i have been drawing with this for over an hour now. i had nothing on my mind but the drawing that the music created is actually terrifying

As someone suffering from depression, living with autism, and treating lying like it's my lifeline after doing it for so long(I am trying to get better). I am very drawn to the music in this and it definitely calms me down a bit and helps distract me. Thank you for compiling these songs together.

Sorry guys, I need to let a part of my feelings out. Read it if you like, but it's only me, and my feeling of life^^ I love too much my darkness, I promised the others in my head that I will never repulse them again. I did it once, years ago for a specific person, and I still regret it. If someone is in something like this, choose well, 'cause my relationship with all the guys in my head isn't anymore what it used to be. And I guess, they will never forgive me. Everyone around me keep telling me that I'm not normal (what does it even mean ?? Because I'm not like you, I'm not normal ??) and keep hurting me for who I am, maybe they want it, maybe not, but the pain is here. So I choose to follow my own path, alone. And even if I love the life I have with myself and my other selves (not sure that this word exists...), it still hurt a little, and then again, and again, and it still keep getting bigger and bigger onto the point of no-return. I feel like I'm near this point but I got (not so many) friends that understand me, and other persons, like Lucas and his songs, or even you guys that subscribed to his channel, that help me a lot in my everyday life. I feel like people here understand those kind of problems better than the people we know in real life and who said themselves our "friends". So thanks to you guys, I needed to let this out and I feel better now. Thanks you if you're still reading this and I pray that you'll all find your path, one where you could be in peace with eventually others, but with yourself too because, this is what matters the most after all. That's my point of view, goodnight. (Sorry for the bad language if any, I've never been a very good english speaker)

@MGbar

5 жыл бұрын

​@@Shin-hc6ne It means "May his soul rests in peace"

@NA-lx2kn

5 жыл бұрын

For Some reason I Like The feeling of Isolation and Darkness, I fought against it for quite a while, but I just accepted it and embraced it, as long as im not 'Physically' Hurting anyone its ok. Embrace The Feeling of aloneness and darkness.past mistakes are 'past' mistakes, learn from them and use them to your advantage! *Edit, ×Fuck The World×

@Herm.Q-92

5 жыл бұрын

As a wise person once said, "Normal is an illusion, what's normal to the spider may be chaos to the fly." Don't let someone else's definition of normal define you or bother you for that matter. So long as you are not a deviant/criminal or don't cause harm or pain to yourself or others, give no attention to negative comments of others and do your thing and work towards your own pursuit of happiness.

@NA-lx2kn

5 жыл бұрын

Herman Quiroga 👏

@MGbar

5 жыл бұрын

@@NA-lx2kn I totally agree with you, my friend. I accepted it years ago and I'm happy like I am now. We made mistakes, and I'm sure we'll make some in the future too, but we won't regret anything since we've chosen our path and we will be able, like you said, to use them to our advantage. And as for hurting anyone, physicaly or even psychologicaly, I, sometimes, hurt myself. I know some people won't see any good in that, and it may be correct, but I feel like it helps me getting control of myself when I feel the rage burning in me. There are times when I just want to set the world on fire (this sentence sounds familiar...) and I just don't know what to say, what to do, so I just pass it down to my other self since he love it. Sorry to speak so much about myself, but it feels liberating to let it out with others that can understand me ^^"

I have a husband with rapid cycle bipolar and a son with bipolar 1. I myself have depression and anxiety. Some of these were beautiful, some I could not listen to all the way through, and on the OCD one, all I kept thinking was SOMEONE TURN OFF THAT DRIPPING FAUCET!

@treasuretvjackson8018

4 жыл бұрын

I have OCD, it isn't that bad for me thank God. I find it weird.

Having mental illness is like being a prisoner of your own mind. If you disagree and you have a mental illness or psychological disorder, then I envy you. I have clinical depression, generalized anxiety disorder, ADHD, auditory processing disorder, and dyslexia. Learning and coping with literally anything is more difficult than it should be. I can't tell you how difficult because I've never known a life without ADHD and my two learning disabilities and I can't remember a life without anxiety. My heart bleeds for anyone who feels like mental illness is a prison. Sometimes, people don't see you the same once they know what you have. It's like they see you behind the bars of your own prison. Mental illness can be a nightmare for those who have it. It can even be a horror story depending on what you have. I want to help people like me. But how can I do that when I can't even help myself?

@MayHugger

3 жыл бұрын

Having ASPD, I don’t really feel like a prisoner. But what I do feel is......sort of, incomplete would be the best way I can describe it. Like there’s situations I know I should be feeling something, I should care, and yet I feel nothing. Not just just a feeling though, cause I’ve seen scans of my brain, and there’s literally a part of my brain that should be way bigger than it is. I don’t feel emotions though, just not for others.

@tariq4259

2 жыл бұрын

this comment describes me perfectly. i dont know whats what or whos what anymore. i have bpd and cherophobia and it's awful

@nemf4873

2 жыл бұрын

Bunu kendi dilimde yazacağım. Daha iyi ifade etmek için. Benim sana tavsiyem, hikayene sahip çık Emily. Bunu kimse senin için yapmaz. Ben bunun sözünü çocuk yaşta verdim. Hala bu söze ruhen sadık olmak iyi hissetiriyor. Bu senin hikayen. Herkesin bir hikayesi vardır ama önemli olan senin hikayenin ne olduğu..

@thpritam

Жыл бұрын

Greetings Emily, I pray for your goodwill. The only way you can get normal is by teaching yourself, mind is in every cell of your body and not just brain, so that’s why emotional intensity gets overwhelming. Teach yourself, you will get cured, you are gifted being.

@ygg9888

Жыл бұрын

Yeah I feel you Emily Yates... the prison thing... me I say a cage. To a certain point there's almost solace to be found in the very fact of it all being dumbed down, it the end, to those heroic words: it sucks. Thank you for your sharing. Happy bringing the world to conscious state!

Edit: Since so many have asked. I am fine. This was a story I wrote in the comments like everyone else. I just wrote one cohesive story about every song. This has nothing to do with me. Also, sorry for the typos. I wrote this all on my phone. Anyway, enjoy the story! :) He smiles. Every time I look in the damned mirror. He smiles. With that, god awful grin. He know. He know my every sin. My every wrong doing. He knows. And he know I know. He reminds me. And he takes eminem Joy from it. He takes things from me, ya know. First. He took my wedding. Then. My wife. And finally. My daughter. They're all gone now. Only blurs in my mind. I think I remember. Marie. Right? No. It wasn't Marie. Was it? It's been years now. I think. My judgment is clouded. He took that too. I fear what he takes next. Worthless. Pointless. Useless. Every time I look in the mirror. I see him. Every time I try to sleep. I hear him. I know what he wants. He knows I know. I don't want to give it to him. But. I fear I may have to. It may be the only way......Yeah.. Only way. No one will care. Right? It's not like anyone will see this. It'll just be drowned out by all the others. My voice is meek and pointless. Nobody will notice. Nobody will care. I won't be missed. The mirror is a cursed thing. Every time. It's a new demon. A new thing. This one. She is ruthless. I do as she says. I purge every night. It's working. I think. She seems...Happier now. I feel weak. Tired. Hungry. So...so hungry. But. I can't. She won't let me. At least I'm pretty. Right? I think he's back. To judge my sins. No. No that's not him. This one. This one is devoid. Devoid of everything. This one doesn't care about my sins. I can tell. He wants me to indulge in them. But. I can't. I can't add more. No more sin. No more torture. Please. Please god. No more. That face. I-I know it from...Somewhere. I just. Don't remember. The face twists and contorts into faces I should remember but...Can't. It takes me places. Familiar places. Places with broken memories. Places with people. Is that...Laughter? Is that...My. Laughter? Who am I? Why am i here? What did i do to deserve this? I did something wrong. I know I did. Mabye I can fix it. Y-Yeah. I'll fix it. But how? He knows what I did. I know he does. Mabye if I do something for him. He will forgive me. But. What if he doesn't? What if god isn't merciful? What if heaven is hell and there is no real heaven? What if we're in hell and there is no afterlife. We just suffer. Then we die. What if... The nightmares won't stop. He won't stop. He's always jumping around my damn head. I've tried bashing my head into the wall. It only got worse. I've tried calling for help. Why can't I call for help? Why can't anyone hear me? I'm trying to get help! Someone! Anyone! Please... There's a new monster. I thought it was a savior. A small flicker of light. No. It was a lie. She got my hopes up. She comforted me. Listen. To me. She understood. Or so I thought. Oh. She listened alright. Too well. I told her everything. She comforted me. I felt warm. Safe. Dare I say...Happy. I forgot what that's like. But then. It flipped. She revealed her monstrous self. Everything I'd hold her. She used against me. My fears. My stress. Everything. I no longer trust her....I hear knocking...It's her. She sounds cheerful. Mabye...Mabye I'll trust her. One more time. I mean. We all have off days. Right? A man of many faces has arrived today. Some of them helped me. They told me things. If I can make it through this. I'll reach salvation. But. His other faces. The more prevalent ones. They torment me too. Just like all the others. Constantly taunting me and torturing me for a sin long forgotten. This man. He told me he lost his family too. But. He remembers his. But. He says they left because of thing he didn't do. Is that why mine are gone? What did I do? Can I get them back? I'll just have to beleive tbe good faces. Hope is a bad thing to have here. Mabye I can hide it. A little birdy told me that this is almost over. Just a few more. And I can see my family again. Just a few more.....It's been a week now. I think. I don't know. He keeps telling me the same thing. "Just a few more!" He says. "Just a few more." There's a pattern. I've noticed. So. I tried doing something different. No one came from my mirrors. I may have warded them off. I think. Whatever I'm doing. It's keeping them away. I'll just have to continue it. It should keep me safe. Hopefully until this hell is over. God o hope it ends soon. Until then. I'll just try to find ways to ward off the others. Yeah. I'll do that. It's out there! It is! I'm telling you! It watches. It sees all. It knows all. I'm being watched. By some secret...Thing. it knows I know. And it takes pride in it. I KNOW YOU'RE OUT THERE! END MY SUFFERING! PLEASE! I KNOW YOU'RE CAPABLE OF DOING IT! DO IT!....Please.....I'm sorry... The memories. They're back. But. They're not good. They haunt me. They haunt my every waking moment here. Is-Is that why I'm here? Those memories. Is that what I did? Oh god...I'm sorry. I didn't know. Please. Forgive me. Someone. Anyone. Please. He hurts me the worst. He tortures me. Avhses me. All the while. He has this twisted grin. As if he enjoys it. God. Why here? Why me? Why plague me like this? Haven't I been through enough? You torture me mentally. Now you must do it physically? Why? I made a new friend today. He doesn't have a body. His name is Skit. It's a weird name. But. He helps me. He gets me through this. He doesn't lie to me. He listens. He supports me. He's all I need. He won't abandon me. He can't. So many new people? Every day. A new demon enters my hell. Why? Why? Why so many? Why does it take so many demons to torture one man? It's getting hard to breathe. Hard to think. I can barely move. It's so cramped. Good news. I found something. Something great. My friend have it to me. You remember him, right? Skit. It makes me feel nice and safe....Oh. I hear knocking...And muffled voices. Guys! I'm fine! I knew skit was my friend! He found me a way through the rest of this hell. Thank you. God. I am so fucking hyper all the sudden. I want to do something. But I can't. But I also want to do nothing. But then. I'll have so much energy. But. What is there to do? I can't do anything. I'll just wait. I think it's almost over. I see...People. And lights. The lights burn. Hey! Help! Get me out of here! Help me! This is hell! I want out! God. Help!....Yes! I am- what do you mean trying?! I'm speaking in full coherent sentences! Can you not hear me I-What do you mean? I never- Oh. Oh god! Is that what those- What have i done?! Was that my punishment? Is this my eternity? I'm sorry! Forgive me! Haven't I suffered enough? Will you ever forgive me? Or was my sin rely too great? I'm sorry. Please. God. Jesus. Anyone. Forgive me.

@d.alsema3356

3 жыл бұрын

U ok?

@GlitchedMuse

3 жыл бұрын

@@d.alsema3356 Honestly. I'd forgotten I'd even wrote this. But to answer your question. Yes. I'm fine. I just saw everyone else writing stories to go with the songs. So I decided to do the same.

@fionahuang9020

3 жыл бұрын

holy this is amazing

@peach_undertones4159

3 жыл бұрын

Through whole embrace of self, shall one's suffering end.

@andycook6480

3 жыл бұрын

MAYBE YOU TALK TOO MUCH?

Beautiful Lucas, tragic but also a light of hope in your song ! Thank you Lucas for this emotional moment

The vivid flash of a knife, the sigh of air, a soft thud. Blood, so much blood. A chuckle, red seeping from the mouth. Liar. The melodic jingling of coins, the rustle of cloth, the barrel of a gun. Blood, it stains us all. The twitch of a dying limb, the finality of death. Liar. The plunge into unknown waters, entrapment of an inescapable reality, the deep dark. Blood, as cold as ice. The last breath, eyes closed forever. Liar.

@TomorrowWeLive

5 жыл бұрын

Beautiful.

@walmart4411

5 жыл бұрын

😨

@wolfsani1792

4 жыл бұрын

Good Job

@wholestep

4 жыл бұрын

nice poem

@mathildem.9727

4 жыл бұрын

@@wholestep thank you

In late 2019 I was confirmed autistic after a car accident uncovered some pretty obvious symptoms as the paramedics tended to me, previous to that, there was always this weird sort of haunted inkling in the back of my head, later described to a therapist as "Standing in the middle of an empty, brightly lit snow-laden street. No one but myself on the pavement in the dead of night as it continues to fall in almost slow motion ", and the last song on this video expresses that sensation exactly, haunted as though alone on a street corner of what should be a bustling little town, only company being the icy loneliness and phantom in the glass of a shop window you're standing in front of. Can't see it, you can feel the presences outline but are confused as to why it's there and where the other people are even though it feels like the roads and pavements should be heavy with traffic. It's like being alone in the midst of silent noise, and even before being diagnosed, it's affected my mental state so much in different ways, however, since the confirmation, I've felt better as it's meant I can come to terms with the invisible presence and understand that just because it looks like I'm alone, I'm not, everyone else is just on another filter, or pane of glass, and even if it's not the case, I imagine the presence is the neurotypical side, like that element I'm missing in the form of an outline, the person/people I can't see yet see. It's weird and sad and there are times it gets to me as I'm annoyingly self-aware mentally despite having autism. but this song is bittersweetly comforting. It has some notes of misery and loneliness but to have it captured by another person, makes me not feel so enclosed or by myself. If someone else can feel it, then how is it a one-man battle.

@alexheat0678

3 жыл бұрын

Autism should of never been classified as a disorder

I have mild autism and the autism track really hit home , love the backup vocals they give the vibe of being misunderstood and as someone who is on the spectrum I struggle a lot with social situations . I love being alone for most of the time but sometimes I crave friends but it be hard for me to make friends at times I really do struggle with social communication and once I stumbled upon this playlist I actually started to feel a bit better about myself !!

What. These songs- I I can’t stop listening. I feel like I’m reliving my life every second these songs play.

This playlist is like a buzzfeed quiz “Which Disorder Are You?!”

@morty8832

3 жыл бұрын

Depression and you ?

@publius8945

3 жыл бұрын

@@morty8832 Sociopath, sadist, and masochist at your service.

@lxcy0190

3 жыл бұрын

@@publius8945 okay edgelord

@publius8945

3 жыл бұрын

@@lxcy0190 I wouldn’t say that about official diagnoses but you do you. The excellence of exercising free will is that you can believe what you want to :).

@lxcy0190

3 жыл бұрын

@@publius8945 okay edgelord, sadism isn't a diagnosis so sociopath, before lying and trying to seem cool, dear psycho wannabee, you have to know maybe a little about psychiatry. Also a person that's actually diagnosed with these spectrums will never share it to random people on the internet, they'll hide it.

I don't know how you call it but I find it hard to show emotions. Even in funerals I barely cry it just dosent happen for me. And people been calling me heartless and mentally ill. Although I have a full life working and paying bills like a normal person. But I have a side in me where I isolate myself and listen either piano music or classic music while wearing a white mask and sleeping on my grandparents rocket chair and talking to all the voices inside my head. Than I cry till I start laughing and after that I wash my face and pretend like everything it's ok. 🙂

@TheNewTraveller

3 жыл бұрын

Same here am afraid everyone even my family thinks that am strong and emotionless. Some think that i don't feel anything at all. I even find it hard to keep people close to me, they mostly avoid me because of that. My life made me who i am i learned to depend only on myself from very young age, i guess that made me to distrust people even my close ones thats why i try to hide my feelings, my insecurities even my fears!!

i dont listen to this because im sad or whatever. I listen to this because i love it

This is insanely relaxing I listen to it while laying down it helps with my depression thankyou :)

I actually have depression, adhd, and autism So I have to say I enjoy this alot

Mans really making a song for every horrible mental illness. I got nothing but respect for him now

I'm not sure what I was expecting with this playlist, but it definitely wasn't raw, brutal honesty like this.

clicked for sad piano ad:*funky music while stuffing sardines in a jar

@zaulbot617

4 жыл бұрын

Yeah, it is outrageously annoying

*I have found truth in shadow.* --Warlock, Dawn of War II

@celarvaa5109

4 жыл бұрын

lol

@kosta_sdk

3 жыл бұрын

Heil Mosley!

@llluminatixx7

3 жыл бұрын

Based profile pic

@iamadogepleasepetme.8139

3 жыл бұрын

@Will I already subscribed to him.

For some reason..when it comes to “Lier” I imagine the majestic kinda feeling and calm high pitched tone symbols the fake comfort or fake reality a good lie would be. If you’re a good lier, a lie could have a happy feeling, but then when it gets to those darker deeper notes it symbolizes the true darkness of a lie, that it’s just a fake reality.

That's the best Christmas present ❤

This kind of music is really deep and makes you re-live your feelings and bad thoughts. I suffer social anxiety and depression. I'm in love with my girlfriend who has BDP and hard drugs addiction. Every day it's like a struggle, we fight together against our demons (We think that those are the real demons, according to us they live inside all our minds). I feel like she's saving my life and for her is the same.

I listened to this playlist before I learned I had full on depression, and social anxiety, the only one I knew I had was full on adhd, I'm now getting help for depression and I gotta say I've fallen in love this playlist

Beautifully delicate and introspective. . .......!