Фу-х, я немного расстроена, если мягко выразиться. Я не могу поделиться с кем-то из семьи своими чувствами, потому что я разочарована в себе и ненавижу себя. Редко пишу комментарии, но здесь хочу оставить, чтобы узнать также, что будет дальше. Хочу поделиться своей жизненной ситуацией, начнем... Я ещё подросток и только переступаю во взрослую жизнь, я боюсь неизвестного и перемен, которые происходят в жизни, мне страшно подумать о том, как что-то пройдет мимо меня и я потеряю драгоценное время. И вот, сегодня я узнала результаты по экзамену, я готовилась к нему так долго и упорно, что у меня даже шла кровь из носа, а также в собственную болезнь, я сидела над учебниками через силу и учила материал. В первый раз, я завалила его полностью, набрав всего один балл, а затем, собравшись с мыслями на пересдаче я уверенно писала экзамен, только легкое волнение. Как итог, сегодня утром я просыпаюсь и узнаю, что я прошла порог и закончила школу, все 11 классов. Однако, моя мама не была счастлива, так сильно как при разговоре с моей сестрой. Мне не хватило одного балла, для поступления в университет. И это меня очень расстроило. Я сижу плачу уже второй час, побила пару стен в спальне, а теперь сижу со стадией принятия. Я не знаю что мне делать, я знаю что могу пойти работать или пойти в колледж, но - страх того, что я буду там не в своей тарелке, сильнее. Я не планировала проваливать этот экзамен и не добрать баллов для поступления в университет мечты, у меня нет других выборов на данный момент, кроме работы или колледжа. Мои мечты, разрушились и наблюдая за своей младшей сестрой, которая сдала все экзамены лучше меня, я хочу плакать. Мне кажется, что жизнь идет против меня, будто я недостойна хорошего счастливого финала. Я пишу данный комментарий, чтобы в будущем вернуться сюда и узнать, как я справилась со всеми испытаниями, добилась ли я тех высот, о которых мечтала так давно, так усердно готовясь.
@strikegr112 күн бұрын
Just found out I failed at getting the CPE English exam with C2 level. I put so much time and effort into this. I stopped gaming for months. My friends were telling me to play games with them. I said no. I practiced as much as I have ever practiced in my life. And I missed on getting the pass on C2 level by just 11 points. Now that grade 11 is starting for me I will barely have any time to continue doing practice for that degree. The odds of me doing as good as I did, 11 points off of C2, are so low that I honestly feel like giving up. This whole thing has driven me crazy and insane. I legit started breaking stuff. I raged way more than I rage when playing videogames. I don't see any light at this point.
@justcreepyinside36464 күн бұрын
4 days, two plays of Shakeyboy, one exam to pass. Let the show begin
@Fake_blonde58 күн бұрын
I just feel everyone would be happier without the things I do that I feel are out of my control
@thelastbluebloodgreaserboy78908 күн бұрын
1.Chopin: Prelude No. 17 2.Beethoven: Piano Concerto No. 3, II. Largo 3. ? 4. Schumann: Kinderszenen, Op. 15 5. Beethoven: Piano Concerto No. 5 “Emperor,” II. Adagio un poco moto
@aintgonnaletuknow575810 күн бұрын
I failed my younger self, turns out not all dream are ment to be yours. Sometimes you just don't have what it requires to reach the goal even when u had the chance, I guess that's what growing up mean. But now I'm stronger because of what I've been through everything doesn't hit as hard anymore because I had been through worse.
@nathanoehlerking925411 күн бұрын
It doesn't matter how hard you try at your job if they don't like your face, they throw you out. My manager only sees my mistakes all of them do. I had too many jobs to think I'm gonna keep one
@youyangwu12 күн бұрын
This is amazing, thank you
@eduardocampos851512 күн бұрын
*inconsciente
@Fish1013017 күн бұрын
Why… Help me :/
@eyyo183121 күн бұрын
phenomenal
@Milan_1422 күн бұрын
I can't talk to anybody no more. I tried and tried to run from the fact that I am and will be so shy that I won't be able to socialize anymore with people. I think that for this, people see in me a loser that doesn't talk and stays on it's own. I love someone, deeply, and I will never be able to tell her. Someone else will be brave enough to tell her, kiss her, hug her, marry her, and by the time that happens, where will I be in life? Everyone says to me that life is only one and that I should be more chill and less stressed about things, but I can't do it, I literally can't do it, I'm too nervous and shy, and this in dragging me down into an infinite hole, it only gets worse. I feel like shit, I can't do anything about it.
@hafeezasraf503723 күн бұрын
Really needed this kinda video thanks bud ! keep it up :) i am also a pluviophile :)
@beenie370828 күн бұрын
I was a relatively gifted kid. Graduated with double diploma from hs, moved abroad to study sciences (and to escape the pressure from my family too lol). I thought - new place, new chapter, new me, it will get better. And then I started failing. Every year, every semester, every exam, every subject. I barely passed. But this year I got myself together. Found what I want to do in life. Managed to get an interview in the engineering masters program I really want to get into. Started studying once again as hard as I could - like let’s try again, ofc it’s hard, it’s uni and it’s science of all things! I really want to get it this time! And… I failed. I failed pretty much all of my exams. I started revising month in advance. I did everything. It wasn’t enough. I’m preparing right now to re-pass them. I get sick even thinking about exams. I am crying constantly, even in public. And no news from the program’s admissions office, while others already received proposals from them. That point in my life, where I finally got out of the dark place, where I thought that finally, I found something I really wanted to do, and put in all of my efforts, was nothing but delusion. I am so tired. I poured my heart into studying, but still miserably failed. I haven’t even done art in years. I have no confidence in being able to re-pass my exams and I don’t want to repeat this year, it will destroy me. People around me are succeeding, getting offers, getting good grades. And I am once again behind everyone. Unable to keep up. I am literally hanging on the last strings of my child-self’s dreams. Let me get at least something that *I* want, please…
@witmancristianaresteguigar125Ай бұрын
Una belleza ,como titula el penúltimo tema
@Weskers_GFАй бұрын
I'm legit reading C&P to this and this is awesome ❤️🔥
@spmoran4703Ай бұрын
I have read the book a few times . With each read i get a incite into the period of time that it was set in ..
@4kbabyjjАй бұрын
I'm 13. I shouldn't feel this messed up.but I do it's like theres nothing I can do to stop it. I beat myself up about things that I didn't make or do. because if I didn't make or do it I feel like im disappointing people. I've got this label on me of being a smart kid. I don't feel smart if I was smart I wouldn't drive people away. If I was smart I'd know what to do with myself. but I dint. and it hurts badly. I was about 9 or 10 thinking about killing myself because I acted stupid around 11-12 I took my belt and started choking myself till I stopped because I didn't wanna feel pain. life is fucked up and I don't want anybody to feel the way I feel especially anybody younger than me. I try to protect kids so I can feel better about myself I try to lead things so I feel like I have a purpose on this planet. it's not working I still can't figure myself out. all I know is that I'm a smart academically I like girls but I'm not for sure. I have a few friends and attachment issues.my dad doesn't do all the things he's supposed to so I've grown to tell myself that if I have a kid ill be their father figure even if I'm a girl. I'm confused and I'm scared of what's going to happen to me.everybody looks happy they have a bunch if friends they don't have to try to look cool.im just barely making it. I don't wanna harm myself like my brother did but something is telling me to do it. I think I like watching and talking to myself or pretending like a ghost friend is there so I don't feel as alone as I do. loneliness is a confusing thing to me I have people but I feel like they do so much better when I'm not around. they look and feel okay. I'm not okay I wish the world was easier like me having a cut and putting a bandaid on. I have problems but wish them away instead. life is horrible for me. I tell myself I look good but then I tell myself I'll never look good in anything or doing anything some may think I'm good. for their entertainment. from the age of around 9 or 10 to where I am now I have been sexually assaulted and have not spoken up about it except one time. this has happend more than twice. I wish I had confirmed clarification from God or Jesus that everything will get better. it never does and it hurts to think that I'm gonna grow up and possibly not do the things i want and die we all don't get to do the thing we want but this is more deep than not getting your slice of cake. truthfully if I could get just one wish I'd be for me to have the life I've always dreamed of and stop having these obstacles hit me left and right. but touch luck huh.? I know honestly I wanna leave earth. nothings working if it does work it gets destroyed I'm SO DAMN TIRED so tired it's like it's killing me slowly. I wanna end this bad dream.
@alexandreleite2541Ай бұрын
Her acting is superb, she has total control of it, her eyes😮. Not to mention her voice.❤
@Fenerli4ever123Ай бұрын
Underrated video
@yhosmarrey3450Ай бұрын
Franz kafka
@vegetaintherain2570Ай бұрын
Damn bro u should drop names of the songs fr fr
@johnandrewguevarraАй бұрын
I participated in a half marathon today with my friends. I'm the only one who didn't make it before the cut-off. I trained for almost a month and still didn't make it. I loss.
@user-kt8wn8vp8l2 ай бұрын
wait did nietzsche saw tiktok?? plz made another version with tiktok sounds TT
@meinster.716811 күн бұрын
AHAHAHAHAHAHA
@user-kt8wn8vp8l11 күн бұрын
@@meinster.7168 I intended without but I suddenly just realized that I wrote 'with' LMAO
@BionicJett2 ай бұрын
I always feel as if I let my mom down when she is mad or upset at me😭
@TotalMisplays2 ай бұрын
God, i love meursault so much..
@DrDoge6242 ай бұрын
I miss being a kid. Life was easy, fun, great, just stress free and I wish I could go back. Everything was better. Everything
@tenmice2 ай бұрын
This is exactly what I needed to get into reading War and Peace! Thanks from Russia :)
@Elaine-pi6qw21 күн бұрын
same. I have to read it because of the literature exam and this music fits the atmosphere perfectly (егэ пугает, хорошо оно только через 2 года)
@tenmice21 күн бұрын
@@Elaine-pi6qw оо, у меня ЕГЭ уже на этой неделе, молодец, что заранее готовишься :)
@Elaine-pi6qw21 күн бұрын
@@tenmice удачи!!!
@tenmice21 күн бұрын
@@Elaine-pi6qw спасибо! И тебе через два года ✨
@xik6202 ай бұрын
Being a failure at the dreams i had and pursued with what I consider “immense work” into the things I was passionate and loved It hurts a lot, knowing my time to reaching people with games or music or videos is basically near its end Eventually I’ll just have to accept that I wasn’t born for this. Maybe I was just born to appreciate life and live it comfortably. It just hurts and tears me apart that I couldn’t be one of “the best” at anything. These days I just cry when I lose over and over again. Even though I get back up because thats how i was raised… to never give up…. I know one day, i will give up. I just hope if i ever have kids, that they don’t get this curse of mine. The curse of being a failure until death.
@marissaburke13572 ай бұрын
I grew up too quickly, then I started this program in highschool to get a college degree for free, my family looked at it like it was gold. I'd be the first one to really attend it, but I can't do it anymore! I keep having this desire to just be a normal highschool student that never had to worry about college and how much it costs! It's been 4 years! The pressure of all their eyes if I drop it, if I become a drop out. The fear of disappointment, "this is one of the greatest opportunities how could you drop it?" I keep failing! IT HURTS HOW MUCH I PHYSICALLY CARRY IN MY BAG! I am a failure 😭
@user-bj1gq3ye6j3 ай бұрын
Listening to this while finishing a 10 page essay on Tale of Two Cities!
@yaizylema72663 ай бұрын
All this stress pouring onto me at such a young age, then the fact that I was born too stubborn to quit or ask for help as taken its toll. Memories feel scattered, and my personality feels non-existent, like a toy, fake as plastic. This is the feeling I've never wanted to feel, what I've tried so hard to run away from. Turns out I was running right into it. Maybe, to rise, I have to fall first, but if that's true, I must be rising to the sky because I've fallen down a void.
@yasemin_933 ай бұрын
I’m listening to this on repeat whilst reading East of Eden. Beautifully put together, thank you
@Mr.CementLollipop3 ай бұрын
The worst part is realising you did have potential. You still do. But you lack the time and knowledge to do anything with it. It's utter waste. Do I deserve this? I probably do. Rotting alone in my room. Whereas most of my batchmates are doing something meaningful with their lives. Travelling, partying, working, making meaningful relationships, enjoying every bit of what the world has to offer. And here I am, in my darkened room, doors, curtains all closed. In solitude, listening to songs that might make me cry, coz I otherwise can't allow myself to cry. What has become of me! Envy? No, disappointment. Failure. Garbage. I know comparison is wrong, but it doesn't feel fair. Even tho I know it is. It's my own wrong doings that lead me to this path. Regrets. How do I stop everything? How do I end it? Is there hope to repair this broken vessel of my fate? Is this it? Is this life worth living? Is there any point in any of it? Mediocrity, do I adjust to it? Accept my fate and move with it? A potential prince, now a mere commoner. How my dreams and confidence shattered? Where have I lost my lantern of hope? Now only the void remains. Empty, meaningless. And I wander through the dark, hopeless. O what a life!
@rogerroger3473Ай бұрын
feeling the exact same way here buddy
@luismachado2497Ай бұрын
I am gonna be honest, I usually dont make comments on yt or any other social plataform, but I never thought that after cliking in a random yt video music and start scrolling through the comments I found such a intimist and blissful description of how I have been feeling for so long, written in such poetic way while listening to such calming music. And I cant describe how this feeling of deep loneliness even when I am surround for such great friends that always support me, i just can t shake it off, it s always there lurking disappears so fast as I read this random comment that only a miserable number of people will read and the world will never be able to met such beautiful and most important truthul words, this feelings aren t no way unique to me, there are others who are just like me, scattered but they exist, I am not the only one, this dread fevers other human beings just like me, how calming, how relaxing. I thank you for my very existence. if by any case you found a path to out of this feelings, I beg to you for sharing it.~ Once again, random stranger in internet, I thank you for my very existence.
@gouravtadaАй бұрын
+1@@rogerroger3473
@Kyle.42Ай бұрын
This is my exact thoughts rn. I'm currently on a year gap due to my reckless decision to stop for 1 year before going to college. A year ago I not only discovered my potential but I also awakened my determination. But just when I finally had a grasp on, It then betrayed me, and all hope now seems lost. I'm not good with words and I've been working on those lately for the reason that I want express what I've been feeling these last couple of months. I thank you for this, whoever you are. Just like the other guy that replied here, I want to thank you for putting my unsaid feelings into words, "I thank you for my very existence". I realized that I am not alone. Hopefully, someday things get better for us.
@SMAAMB18 күн бұрын
It's more like you've been beaten down so hard you don't have the drive to even really try anymore... you just keep your head down and try to duck everything...
@edsonlaya75034 ай бұрын
Please @pluviophile, the song of 36:00
@spmoran47034 ай бұрын
Your in Turkey . Have s blessed Ramadan .
@spmoran47034 ай бұрын
In the thumbnail photo . Those statues are breeding . Its statue a rama .
@olgakuznetsova_bass4 ай бұрын
1.Preludes, Op. 28: No. 13 in F-Sharp Major - Diana Jaworska 2. Nocturnes: C sharp minor Op. posthumous - Mikhail Pletnev 3. Partita for Violin Solo No. 2 in D Minor, BWV 1004: Chaconne in D Minor - Jayson Gillham
@uncleusuh4 ай бұрын
It's so beautiful and I'm pondering over the House of the Dead at the moment.
@frolik81874 ай бұрын
Hi, would you happen to know the exact same version of the first song by any chance? I know the name of it, but I just can't seem to find the exact same version elsewhere :/
@alinaviter71505 ай бұрын
Reading war and peace
@msp98945 ай бұрын
What is the meaning of the background sound?
@nxlyrics76405 ай бұрын
1:18 Why are there background sounds? Xd
@nooneknows54635 ай бұрын
Maybe that is intentionally
@walidbouderbala40246 ай бұрын
life happens to us all , don't be sad muther fukka you are still alive
@shyguydeweeb7536 ай бұрын
No one’s a failure you’ve just been caught at a bad time in your life you might have greater things ahead and you might have worse and if you do have worse just remember the time you were great and get back in touch with it again there’s always room to get better
@yellowpete794 ай бұрын
Wrong, constant failure proves your statement to be incorrect.
@shyguydeweeb7534 ай бұрын
@@yellowpete79 well there has to be room in between that failure a time when you were happy but also that’s contrary to what I said if you cared to read the whole paragraph instead of the phrase no one’s a failure
@Kyle.42Ай бұрын
@@yellowpete79life's not a finish line, it's a journey. I've been slowly realizing it now. There really is no final destination in life it's an endless voyage. If good times are always followed by bad times then it is a primordial rule that the former is to be followed by the latter. It's a cycle, it's a struggle, there's no true sense in life, so we try to make sense out of it. Existence is a chaos, but chaos produces creation, and through it, beauty.
@yellowpete7913 күн бұрын
@@Kyle.42if we could all only have the peace you have.
@yellowpete7913 күн бұрын
@@Kyle.42if we could all only have the peace you have.
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Фу-х, я немного расстроена, если мягко выразиться. Я не могу поделиться с кем-то из семьи своими чувствами, потому что я разочарована в себе и ненавижу себя. Редко пишу комментарии, но здесь хочу оставить, чтобы узнать также, что будет дальше. Хочу поделиться своей жизненной ситуацией, начнем... Я ещё подросток и только переступаю во взрослую жизнь, я боюсь неизвестного и перемен, которые происходят в жизни, мне страшно подумать о том, как что-то пройдет мимо меня и я потеряю драгоценное время. И вот, сегодня я узнала результаты по экзамену, я готовилась к нему так долго и упорно, что у меня даже шла кровь из носа, а также в собственную болезнь, я сидела над учебниками через силу и учила материал. В первый раз, я завалила его полностью, набрав всего один балл, а затем, собравшись с мыслями на пересдаче я уверенно писала экзамен, только легкое волнение. Как итог, сегодня утром я просыпаюсь и узнаю, что я прошла порог и закончила школу, все 11 классов. Однако, моя мама не была счастлива, так сильно как при разговоре с моей сестрой. Мне не хватило одного балла, для поступления в университет. И это меня очень расстроило. Я сижу плачу уже второй час, побила пару стен в спальне, а теперь сижу со стадией принятия. Я не знаю что мне делать, я знаю что могу пойти работать или пойти в колледж, но - страх того, что я буду там не в своей тарелке, сильнее. Я не планировала проваливать этот экзамен и не добрать баллов для поступления в университет мечты, у меня нет других выборов на данный момент, кроме работы или колледжа. Мои мечты, разрушились и наблюдая за своей младшей сестрой, которая сдала все экзамены лучше меня, я хочу плакать. Мне кажется, что жизнь идет против меня, будто я недостойна хорошего счастливого финала. Я пишу данный комментарий, чтобы в будущем вернуться сюда и узнать, как я справилась со всеми испытаниями, добилась ли я тех высот, о которых мечтала так давно, так усердно готовясь.
Just found out I failed at getting the CPE English exam with C2 level. I put so much time and effort into this. I stopped gaming for months. My friends were telling me to play games with them. I said no. I practiced as much as I have ever practiced in my life. And I missed on getting the pass on C2 level by just 11 points. Now that grade 11 is starting for me I will barely have any time to continue doing practice for that degree. The odds of me doing as good as I did, 11 points off of C2, are so low that I honestly feel like giving up. This whole thing has driven me crazy and insane. I legit started breaking stuff. I raged way more than I rage when playing videogames. I don't see any light at this point.
4 days, two plays of Shakeyboy, one exam to pass. Let the show begin
I just feel everyone would be happier without the things I do that I feel are out of my control
1.Chopin: Prelude No. 17 2.Beethoven: Piano Concerto No. 3, II. Largo 3. ? 4. Schumann: Kinderszenen, Op. 15 5. Beethoven: Piano Concerto No. 5 “Emperor,” II. Adagio un poco moto
I failed my younger self, turns out not all dream are ment to be yours. Sometimes you just don't have what it requires to reach the goal even when u had the chance, I guess that's what growing up mean. But now I'm stronger because of what I've been through everything doesn't hit as hard anymore because I had been through worse.
It doesn't matter how hard you try at your job if they don't like your face, they throw you out. My manager only sees my mistakes all of them do. I had too many jobs to think I'm gonna keep one
This is amazing, thank you
*inconsciente
Why… Help me :/
phenomenal
I can't talk to anybody no more. I tried and tried to run from the fact that I am and will be so shy that I won't be able to socialize anymore with people. I think that for this, people see in me a loser that doesn't talk and stays on it's own. I love someone, deeply, and I will never be able to tell her. Someone else will be brave enough to tell her, kiss her, hug her, marry her, and by the time that happens, where will I be in life? Everyone says to me that life is only one and that I should be more chill and less stressed about things, but I can't do it, I literally can't do it, I'm too nervous and shy, and this in dragging me down into an infinite hole, it only gets worse. I feel like shit, I can't do anything about it.
Really needed this kinda video thanks bud ! keep it up :) i am also a pluviophile :)
I was a relatively gifted kid. Graduated with double diploma from hs, moved abroad to study sciences (and to escape the pressure from my family too lol). I thought - new place, new chapter, new me, it will get better. And then I started failing. Every year, every semester, every exam, every subject. I barely passed. But this year I got myself together. Found what I want to do in life. Managed to get an interview in the engineering masters program I really want to get into. Started studying once again as hard as I could - like let’s try again, ofc it’s hard, it’s uni and it’s science of all things! I really want to get it this time! And… I failed. I failed pretty much all of my exams. I started revising month in advance. I did everything. It wasn’t enough. I’m preparing right now to re-pass them. I get sick even thinking about exams. I am crying constantly, even in public. And no news from the program’s admissions office, while others already received proposals from them. That point in my life, where I finally got out of the dark place, where I thought that finally, I found something I really wanted to do, and put in all of my efforts, was nothing but delusion. I am so tired. I poured my heart into studying, but still miserably failed. I haven’t even done art in years. I have no confidence in being able to re-pass my exams and I don’t want to repeat this year, it will destroy me. People around me are succeeding, getting offers, getting good grades. And I am once again behind everyone. Unable to keep up. I am literally hanging on the last strings of my child-self’s dreams. Let me get at least something that *I* want, please…
Una belleza ,como titula el penúltimo tema
I'm legit reading C&P to this and this is awesome ❤️🔥
I have read the book a few times . With each read i get a incite into the period of time that it was set in ..
I'm 13. I shouldn't feel this messed up.but I do it's like theres nothing I can do to stop it. I beat myself up about things that I didn't make or do. because if I didn't make or do it I feel like im disappointing people. I've got this label on me of being a smart kid. I don't feel smart if I was smart I wouldn't drive people away. If I was smart I'd know what to do with myself. but I dint. and it hurts badly. I was about 9 or 10 thinking about killing myself because I acted stupid around 11-12 I took my belt and started choking myself till I stopped because I didn't wanna feel pain. life is fucked up and I don't want anybody to feel the way I feel especially anybody younger than me. I try to protect kids so I can feel better about myself I try to lead things so I feel like I have a purpose on this planet. it's not working I still can't figure myself out. all I know is that I'm a smart academically I like girls but I'm not for sure. I have a few friends and attachment issues.my dad doesn't do all the things he's supposed to so I've grown to tell myself that if I have a kid ill be their father figure even if I'm a girl. I'm confused and I'm scared of what's going to happen to me.everybody looks happy they have a bunch if friends they don't have to try to look cool.im just barely making it. I don't wanna harm myself like my brother did but something is telling me to do it. I think I like watching and talking to myself or pretending like a ghost friend is there so I don't feel as alone as I do. loneliness is a confusing thing to me I have people but I feel like they do so much better when I'm not around. they look and feel okay. I'm not okay I wish the world was easier like me having a cut and putting a bandaid on. I have problems but wish them away instead. life is horrible for me. I tell myself I look good but then I tell myself I'll never look good in anything or doing anything some may think I'm good. for their entertainment. from the age of around 9 or 10 to where I am now I have been sexually assaulted and have not spoken up about it except one time. this has happend more than twice. I wish I had confirmed clarification from God or Jesus that everything will get better. it never does and it hurts to think that I'm gonna grow up and possibly not do the things i want and die we all don't get to do the thing we want but this is more deep than not getting your slice of cake. truthfully if I could get just one wish I'd be for me to have the life I've always dreamed of and stop having these obstacles hit me left and right. but touch luck huh.? I know honestly I wanna leave earth. nothings working if it does work it gets destroyed I'm SO DAMN TIRED so tired it's like it's killing me slowly. I wanna end this bad dream.
Her acting is superb, she has total control of it, her eyes😮. Not to mention her voice.❤
Underrated video
Franz kafka
Damn bro u should drop names of the songs fr fr
I participated in a half marathon today with my friends. I'm the only one who didn't make it before the cut-off. I trained for almost a month and still didn't make it. I loss.
wait did nietzsche saw tiktok?? plz made another version with tiktok sounds TT
AHAHAHAHAHAHA
@@meinster.7168 I intended without but I suddenly just realized that I wrote 'with' LMAO
I always feel as if I let my mom down when she is mad or upset at me😭
God, i love meursault so much..
I miss being a kid. Life was easy, fun, great, just stress free and I wish I could go back. Everything was better. Everything
This is exactly what I needed to get into reading War and Peace! Thanks from Russia :)
same. I have to read it because of the literature exam and this music fits the atmosphere perfectly (егэ пугает, хорошо оно только через 2 года)
@@Elaine-pi6qw оо, у меня ЕГЭ уже на этой неделе, молодец, что заранее готовишься :)
@@tenmice удачи!!!
@@Elaine-pi6qw спасибо! И тебе через два года ✨
Being a failure at the dreams i had and pursued with what I consider “immense work” into the things I was passionate and loved It hurts a lot, knowing my time to reaching people with games or music or videos is basically near its end Eventually I’ll just have to accept that I wasn’t born for this. Maybe I was just born to appreciate life and live it comfortably. It just hurts and tears me apart that I couldn’t be one of “the best” at anything. These days I just cry when I lose over and over again. Even though I get back up because thats how i was raised… to never give up…. I know one day, i will give up. I just hope if i ever have kids, that they don’t get this curse of mine. The curse of being a failure until death.
I grew up too quickly, then I started this program in highschool to get a college degree for free, my family looked at it like it was gold. I'd be the first one to really attend it, but I can't do it anymore! I keep having this desire to just be a normal highschool student that never had to worry about college and how much it costs! It's been 4 years! The pressure of all their eyes if I drop it, if I become a drop out. The fear of disappointment, "this is one of the greatest opportunities how could you drop it?" I keep failing! IT HURTS HOW MUCH I PHYSICALLY CARRY IN MY BAG! I am a failure 😭
Listening to this while finishing a 10 page essay on Tale of Two Cities!
All this stress pouring onto me at such a young age, then the fact that I was born too stubborn to quit or ask for help as taken its toll. Memories feel scattered, and my personality feels non-existent, like a toy, fake as plastic. This is the feeling I've never wanted to feel, what I've tried so hard to run away from. Turns out I was running right into it. Maybe, to rise, I have to fall first, but if that's true, I must be rising to the sky because I've fallen down a void.
I’m listening to this on repeat whilst reading East of Eden. Beautifully put together, thank you
The worst part is realising you did have potential. You still do. But you lack the time and knowledge to do anything with it. It's utter waste. Do I deserve this? I probably do. Rotting alone in my room. Whereas most of my batchmates are doing something meaningful with their lives. Travelling, partying, working, making meaningful relationships, enjoying every bit of what the world has to offer. And here I am, in my darkened room, doors, curtains all closed. In solitude, listening to songs that might make me cry, coz I otherwise can't allow myself to cry. What has become of me! Envy? No, disappointment. Failure. Garbage. I know comparison is wrong, but it doesn't feel fair. Even tho I know it is. It's my own wrong doings that lead me to this path. Regrets. How do I stop everything? How do I end it? Is there hope to repair this broken vessel of my fate? Is this it? Is this life worth living? Is there any point in any of it? Mediocrity, do I adjust to it? Accept my fate and move with it? A potential prince, now a mere commoner. How my dreams and confidence shattered? Where have I lost my lantern of hope? Now only the void remains. Empty, meaningless. And I wander through the dark, hopeless. O what a life!
feeling the exact same way here buddy
I am gonna be honest, I usually dont make comments on yt or any other social plataform, but I never thought that after cliking in a random yt video music and start scrolling through the comments I found such a intimist and blissful description of how I have been feeling for so long, written in such poetic way while listening to such calming music. And I cant describe how this feeling of deep loneliness even when I am surround for such great friends that always support me, i just can t shake it off, it s always there lurking disappears so fast as I read this random comment that only a miserable number of people will read and the world will never be able to met such beautiful and most important truthul words, this feelings aren t no way unique to me, there are others who are just like me, scattered but they exist, I am not the only one, this dread fevers other human beings just like me, how calming, how relaxing. I thank you for my very existence. if by any case you found a path to out of this feelings, I beg to you for sharing it.~ Once again, random stranger in internet, I thank you for my very existence.
+1@@rogerroger3473
This is my exact thoughts rn. I'm currently on a year gap due to my reckless decision to stop for 1 year before going to college. A year ago I not only discovered my potential but I also awakened my determination. But just when I finally had a grasp on, It then betrayed me, and all hope now seems lost. I'm not good with words and I've been working on those lately for the reason that I want express what I've been feeling these last couple of months. I thank you for this, whoever you are. Just like the other guy that replied here, I want to thank you for putting my unsaid feelings into words, "I thank you for my very existence". I realized that I am not alone. Hopefully, someday things get better for us.
It's more like you've been beaten down so hard you don't have the drive to even really try anymore... you just keep your head down and try to duck everything...
Please @pluviophile, the song of 36:00
Your in Turkey . Have s blessed Ramadan .
In the thumbnail photo . Those statues are breeding . Its statue a rama .
1.Preludes, Op. 28: No. 13 in F-Sharp Major - Diana Jaworska 2. Nocturnes: C sharp minor Op. posthumous - Mikhail Pletnev 3. Partita for Violin Solo No. 2 in D Minor, BWV 1004: Chaconne in D Minor - Jayson Gillham
It's so beautiful and I'm pondering over the House of the Dead at the moment.
Hi, would you happen to know the exact same version of the first song by any chance? I know the name of it, but I just can't seem to find the exact same version elsewhere :/
Reading war and peace
What is the meaning of the background sound?
1:18 Why are there background sounds? Xd
Maybe that is intentionally
life happens to us all , don't be sad muther fukka you are still alive
No one’s a failure you’ve just been caught at a bad time in your life you might have greater things ahead and you might have worse and if you do have worse just remember the time you were great and get back in touch with it again there’s always room to get better
Wrong, constant failure proves your statement to be incorrect.
@@yellowpete79 well there has to be room in between that failure a time when you were happy but also that’s contrary to what I said if you cared to read the whole paragraph instead of the phrase no one’s a failure
@@yellowpete79life's not a finish line, it's a journey. I've been slowly realizing it now. There really is no final destination in life it's an endless voyage. If good times are always followed by bad times then it is a primordial rule that the former is to be followed by the latter. It's a cycle, it's a struggle, there's no true sense in life, so we try to make sense out of it. Existence is a chaos, but chaos produces creation, and through it, beauty.
@@Kyle.42if we could all only have the peace you have.
@@Kyle.42if we could all only have the peace you have.
please the tracklist…
What is the playlist tho
this book crushed my soul, i love this playlist
Listening to this while reading war and peace ❤