What a wonderful testimony of the power of Christ Jesus to make us whole!✨
@galacticknight55544 Жыл бұрын
I'm a 24 year old male, and I suspect that I might have BPD. I'm very afraid of rejection and paranoid about people finding stuff out about me that will cause them to shun me (I'm into some weird stuff). The fear of rejection is 1,000X worse in the romantic and sexual contexts, and I worry all the time that no woman will ever love me in those ways and that unless I seize everything in front of me that even remotely looks like an opportunity, it will never happen. And at the same time, I feel afraid when a woman actually agrees to go on a date with me. I think because part of me is afraid of commitment and vulnerability, even though another part of me wants those things. It makes no sense, I know. Overall, I feel like I'm too ugly, socially inept, and just plain weird to ever be loved, and I also feel worthless a lot of the time. Does this sound like BPD?
@kaciacaroline Жыл бұрын
The part where you said "it makes no sense. I know." THAT in my opinion screams BPD. So much of what we feel and do doesn't make sense. And yet it does in our brains. It's like living as 2 separate people at times, one that can see reason the way the world would see it and the other that feels the crazy inside.
@galacticknight55544 Жыл бұрын
This comment really speaks to me more than you know. I feel like I’m in this miserable place between sanity and insanity where I’m sane enough to realize that I’m crazy, yet too crazy to do anything about it.
@kimmy58482 жыл бұрын
I got diagnosed with bpd in 2020, never a boring day at least I guess?
@kaciacaroline2 жыл бұрын
Never a dull moment! I found that once I could recognize what I was doing as my BPD, I could sort of reevaluate my actions and make what I hope have been better choices. It's not perfect, but having that diagnosis sure can help.
@kimmy58482 жыл бұрын
@@kaciacaroline Yes, I've recently had a big relapse because I never took time to process my trauma and I'm in a very stressful period now too, but because I got diagnosed and finally have good therapy even tho I put the rest "on pause" for now I finally get a better understanding of myself.
@danielaspitz30522 жыл бұрын
Well.....I thought I was a BP for 49 years. After leaving a bad relationship with a covert narcissist I realised my mother is a covert narcissist. I have stopped accepting people telling me I'm I'll or sick. And I'm quite sure I have never been a BP. My mother drove me mad, made me feel horribly insecure, kicked me verbally when already pushed to the flood by her. Taking a Borderline test now, I'm barely passing as BP
@kaciacaroline2 жыл бұрын
It's amazing how circumstances change who we are. But still, our core remains. I'm so glad you are free from the bad relationship. Enjoy who you are.
@danielaspitz30522 жыл бұрын
@@kaciacaroline What is my/our REAL core, if we/I have been manipulated, gaslit, oppressed and degraded for all our/my childhood and adolescence?
@kaciacaroline2 жыл бұрын
@@danielaspitz3052 the person that survived it all. You.
@Floodyink2 жыл бұрын
I live in Ireland and iv been trying to get help with my BPD for the last 3 months and they keep brushing me off, and I think I'll have ended my life before they do anything to help..
@kaciacaroline2 жыл бұрын
Lod willing, you'll get help before that! And if you do get the help you need, make the most of it. Good luck. Hold onto the good moments when they come. As small as they may be. I wish you well.
@Floodyink2 жыл бұрын
@@kaciacaroline I really appreciate your response, I will fight till the end. No matter how long it takes.
@tekiomus2 жыл бұрын
@@Floodyink you will be OK I have friend struggling from that it took me 10 years to figure out so you just need to fight it and you’ll be the winner I don’t know you but I love you you will be OK
@jodievivienna2 жыл бұрын
Thank you 🦋💙
@kaciacaroline2 жыл бұрын
You're welcome!
@filipacosta12792 жыл бұрын
Right on time! :D Thank you so much for the tips, Kacia!
@kaciacaroline2 жыл бұрын
Thanks for watching! I'm glad to help where I can.
@wawrzyniecpolski62582 жыл бұрын
Hello and thank you for your rich information about it ,but as you said it's lot of differences between a types of bpd ,like me I don't have few simptoms as the other ones but rest is almost the same ,and now I am sure that will overcome, but wasn't easy ! To many years been struggling with , but how will ends it's couts :) , regards
@danielaspitz30522 жыл бұрын
Check your environment. Having toxic people around could make you think you're a BP while you're simply reacting to these people
@danishaferreira77963 жыл бұрын
Yes quick anger😡negative thoughts 🤨😒and impulsiveness😑🏃♀️🏃♀️💆🏻♀️🤬 are my predominant defects. Disassociation happens during black outs or black out moments. Basically it takes part in the “black out” usually over very intense emotions 🖤
@stacyg5853 жыл бұрын
Hi I think my sister has BPD and I don't know how to tell her. I want to help her, but I think she may lose it if I tell her she has it. She's seeing a therapist, but she hasn't been diagnosed, because I don't think she's shared everything with the therapist. She needs to start treating this thing, because it's affected me as well. Do I tell her that I think she has it?
@kaciacaroline3 жыл бұрын
Not being transparent with therapists is actually a common problem with BPD patients. We like to keep the advantage. Telling her so that she can investigate it herself may be the best option. Before I knew about BPD, I was so lost as to why I am the way I am. Be careful. She may freak out, but if you put the idea of it in her mind, she's sure to do a little research. Good luck.
@stacyg5853 жыл бұрын
@@kaciacaroline Thank you, that is helpful! Probably over email that she will read in the morning? We live on the opposite sides of the country, so its either that or FaceTime or phone call.
@kaciacaroline3 жыл бұрын
@@stacyg585 I hope it goes well! Once we know what we're dealing with we can start to get better. ❤❤❤
@beccagee4813 жыл бұрын
Blood work for vitamins deficiencies or hormone imbalance is so vital!!! Not all doctors request the full panel so you have to request it specifically. I do EMDR therapy which is incredibly effective, especially for trauma. For more naturopathic healing: touch for health, a type of kinesthetic/acupressure treatment is amazing! I also recommend learning moves and brain gym for children. Thanks for making these Kacia! You're awesome.
@kaciacaroline3 жыл бұрын
I have got to try EMDR! I hear only good about it.
@beccagee4813 жыл бұрын
@@kaciacaroline it was revolutionary for me.
@kaciacaroline3 жыл бұрын
It took me a while to post this video. Some of the material is very sensitive to me. While I do not expect the people of the internet to give me any special treatment, I do hope that we can all be understanding that we are all different. This is my experience. That is what I know. I share it to connect with others. Not to offend. Not to discredit. Just to connect. Thanks!
@ginamegan43603 жыл бұрын
I’ve microdosed mushrooms for about 3 years, I’d recommend it for everyone, look up Mush_trips on Instagram.Their product helped me fight anxiety and depression.Thank me later.. And thank you for this😘😘
@arimnemonic3 жыл бұрын
It's great that you have come to learn more about yourself. As someone with diagnosed DID however, that is what it is called not MPD. DID, OSDD, or NOSDD as they are known and diagnosed as now because they are NOT a personality disorder (like once believed) The DSM5 explains all this and is the most current updated text on behavioral and mental health which all the professionals use. If a mental professional diagnosed you with MPD I would seek another opinion because that term is not only outdated but very wrong. Which this isn't me saying you don't have DID or OSDD but to say MPD and use that outdated term can be stigmatizing along with spreading misinformation. And you say you've integrated to one? So functionality, which is something systems spend YEARS trying to do, if they even can, which if you've managed to do, that's awesome, but the fact that you call it MPD and not even what the disorder actually is, is concerning and confusing, esp since it was not years of therapy that helped you reach functionality but a prayer, if I am not mistaken. I am torn between being offended as a DID, as this is a trauma-based disorder, that one can't control. You have to have suffered consistent abuse and trauma from early ages (5-10) when you're fragmented parts normally form a whole, but the trauma constantly happening stops that integration of parts. You are misinformed and misleading others with lots of misinformation.
@kaciacaroline3 жыл бұрын
I am aware that it is DID and not MPD. MPD is what more people are familiar with outside of those with DID. I've my own set of traumas as many of us do. And I've been to my share of therapy. But I cannot discount the work of God in my miracle. I never mean to offend or discredit the work others do in their own recovery or coping. I only know my experience.
@silvershadow76553 жыл бұрын
Such an interesting disorder. I believe my ex had this. If those two people went to the lake together, why should that make anybody angry? They are not pawns for anyone to control. They can go to the park together if they like. It's so bizarre that someone should feel entitled to that level of control over other people. Especially people that are not your child, your relative, your anything. It must be so painful living with this senseless angst.
@kaciacaroline3 жыл бұрын
As an adult, I can see the ridiculousness of my anger. But as a teenager, being left out of an activity with my only friends seemed like the end of the world.
@silvershadow76553 жыл бұрын
@@kaciacaroline I understand. That must be hard. I never knew how to support my ex and I didn't know how to tell him I think he has this condition. Hearing other people's stories does give an insight into what it can be like - and I really admire your courage in sharing. Thank you x
@an1rb3 жыл бұрын
That T-shirt will be an impulsive buy for sure.. Well targeted business plan.
@kaciacaroline3 жыл бұрын
*takes a bow* 😉
@mollycluff9433 жыл бұрын
This makes me so stinkin’ excited for you for whatever comes next in your life!! I hope we keep hearing updates 🖤🖤 love you girlie.
@beccagee4813 жыл бұрын
You're amazing Kacia! So strong! I'm so happy for you. I'm so grateful you are feeling whole and energized. I know God has healed you. You have such an important role here, wether you see it or not, he does. You matter so much!!! I'm so blessed to be your friend, you give me courage to keep fighting the good fight. I love you so much, fragmented or whole, you are incredible to me!
@kaciacaroline3 жыл бұрын
I'm finally starting to feel that my life has purpose. You have been a treasured friend to me. Thanks for being you. ❤
@thebuddysystem32503 жыл бұрын
I swear the other day I was like maybe I dont have did 🤣🤣 n then they started gabbing again alot n I was like nm🤣
@kaciacaroline3 жыл бұрын
The quiet inside my head now is a bit unnerving to be honest! I've started talking to myself out loud just to fill the void.
@icebludger3 жыл бұрын
What an amazing experience and outcome! I am seriously so happy for you!! <3
@kaciacaroline3 жыл бұрын
Thank you! And thanks for sticking around while I was MIA.
@icebludger3 жыл бұрын
The housing market is so terrible for a buyer right now! So glad you found a good home for your family! <3
@icebludger3 жыл бұрын
That wait time is awful! I wish that mental health was treated the same as physical health, no one would ever make someone with a physical condition wait months just to check it out. I wish there was more awareness about mental health conditions. My mom struggled for years with PTSD and Depression without even really knowing what it was or how to get help for it, luckily she's doing better now that she does have a therapist and a treatment plan, but it was a hard journey to get there. Thanks for spreading some awareness! <3
@kaciacaroline3 жыл бұрын
Some people don't realize that mental conditions can be just as dangerous as physical conditions. And in the current state of the world, it can be impossible to get an appointment at all. It's very disheartening. Thanks for your support!
@codybarnes71143 жыл бұрын
Commenting for whatever boost it provides XP but I do love your noise, it helps!
@mollycluff9433 жыл бұрын
Such good real talk and very great perspective! And that jacket is amazing 🖤
@icebludger3 жыл бұрын
Commenting to get the stats up because you deserve it! Great video!
@kaciacaroline3 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much! I really appreciate it!
@beccagee4813 жыл бұрын
You're cool. Also, I have a diagnosed Dissociative Disorder and it is trippy. Haha.
@kaciacaroline3 жыл бұрын
I do not envy you my friend.
@beccagee4813 жыл бұрын
@@kaciacaroline it's been a lot better lately though!!!
@alyshastuartjorgenson38003 жыл бұрын
Yes!! I need any advice I to have a few of thease! Thanks for sharing!
@beccagee4813 жыл бұрын
You should put a link to your peel time channel on your channel tab.
@alessiooliviero33873 жыл бұрын
This was so awesome! I have been trying to search for KZread vid like yours that educates everything in this video! 🩺Your tip actually is like the content of Dr. Ethan. Doctor's demonstrations are knowledgable and he actually helped me on school. He is a great medical student. I suggest you watch his KZread out and give the Doctor a subscribe over here! 👉 #DrEthanEducational
@beccagee4813 жыл бұрын
Also, I am proud of you. Lots of days it's just a main dish for us 😜
@beccagee4813 жыл бұрын
Is Maggie a new border collie? I'm not sure I have met her.
@kaciacaroline3 жыл бұрын
Maggie is one of Baileys pups from a year ago. We meant to sell her and then got attached... 🤦🏾♀️
@beccagee4813 жыл бұрын
@@kaciacaroline that's sweet you still have one of her babies.
@mollycluff9433 жыл бұрын
Hooray!! I’ve been waiting for this update!
@beccagee4813 жыл бұрын
Yaaaaaaay!!!! I'm so happy for you!
@kaciacaroline3 жыл бұрын
You know this has been a long time coming! Come visit soon! I have cabbage! Lol
@beccagee4813 жыл бұрын
@@kaciacaroline yay!!!
@robertpihl93474 жыл бұрын
This was wonderful. 😊
@kaciacaroline4 жыл бұрын
Well thanks very much Mr Peel. You're a lucky man to be married to such a good wifey. 😘
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This is so inspiring ❤️❤️😍 god bless
What a wonderful testimony of the power of Christ Jesus to make us whole!✨
I'm a 24 year old male, and I suspect that I might have BPD. I'm very afraid of rejection and paranoid about people finding stuff out about me that will cause them to shun me (I'm into some weird stuff). The fear of rejection is 1,000X worse in the romantic and sexual contexts, and I worry all the time that no woman will ever love me in those ways and that unless I seize everything in front of me that even remotely looks like an opportunity, it will never happen. And at the same time, I feel afraid when a woman actually agrees to go on a date with me. I think because part of me is afraid of commitment and vulnerability, even though another part of me wants those things. It makes no sense, I know. Overall, I feel like I'm too ugly, socially inept, and just plain weird to ever be loved, and I also feel worthless a lot of the time. Does this sound like BPD?
The part where you said "it makes no sense. I know." THAT in my opinion screams BPD. So much of what we feel and do doesn't make sense. And yet it does in our brains. It's like living as 2 separate people at times, one that can see reason the way the world would see it and the other that feels the crazy inside.
This comment really speaks to me more than you know. I feel like I’m in this miserable place between sanity and insanity where I’m sane enough to realize that I’m crazy, yet too crazy to do anything about it.
I got diagnosed with bpd in 2020, never a boring day at least I guess?
Never a dull moment! I found that once I could recognize what I was doing as my BPD, I could sort of reevaluate my actions and make what I hope have been better choices. It's not perfect, but having that diagnosis sure can help.
@@kaciacaroline Yes, I've recently had a big relapse because I never took time to process my trauma and I'm in a very stressful period now too, but because I got diagnosed and finally have good therapy even tho I put the rest "on pause" for now I finally get a better understanding of myself.
Well.....I thought I was a BP for 49 years. After leaving a bad relationship with a covert narcissist I realised my mother is a covert narcissist. I have stopped accepting people telling me I'm I'll or sick. And I'm quite sure I have never been a BP. My mother drove me mad, made me feel horribly insecure, kicked me verbally when already pushed to the flood by her. Taking a Borderline test now, I'm barely passing as BP
It's amazing how circumstances change who we are. But still, our core remains. I'm so glad you are free from the bad relationship. Enjoy who you are.
@@kaciacaroline What is my/our REAL core, if we/I have been manipulated, gaslit, oppressed and degraded for all our/my childhood and adolescence?
@@danielaspitz3052 the person that survived it all. You.
I live in Ireland and iv been trying to get help with my BPD for the last 3 months and they keep brushing me off, and I think I'll have ended my life before they do anything to help..
Lod willing, you'll get help before that! And if you do get the help you need, make the most of it. Good luck. Hold onto the good moments when they come. As small as they may be. I wish you well.
@@kaciacaroline I really appreciate your response, I will fight till the end. No matter how long it takes.
@@Floodyink you will be OK I have friend struggling from that it took me 10 years to figure out so you just need to fight it and you’ll be the winner I don’t know you but I love you you will be OK
Thank you 🦋💙
You're welcome!
Right on time! :D Thank you so much for the tips, Kacia!
Thanks for watching! I'm glad to help where I can.
Hello and thank you for your rich information about it ,but as you said it's lot of differences between a types of bpd ,like me I don't have few simptoms as the other ones but rest is almost the same ,and now I am sure that will overcome, but wasn't easy ! To many years been struggling with , but how will ends it's couts :) , regards
Check your environment. Having toxic people around could make you think you're a BP while you're simply reacting to these people
Yes quick anger😡negative thoughts 🤨😒and impulsiveness😑🏃♀️🏃♀️💆🏻♀️🤬 are my predominant defects. Disassociation happens during black outs or black out moments. Basically it takes part in the “black out” usually over very intense emotions 🖤
Hi I think my sister has BPD and I don't know how to tell her. I want to help her, but I think she may lose it if I tell her she has it. She's seeing a therapist, but she hasn't been diagnosed, because I don't think she's shared everything with the therapist. She needs to start treating this thing, because it's affected me as well. Do I tell her that I think she has it?
Not being transparent with therapists is actually a common problem with BPD patients. We like to keep the advantage. Telling her so that she can investigate it herself may be the best option. Before I knew about BPD, I was so lost as to why I am the way I am. Be careful. She may freak out, but if you put the idea of it in her mind, she's sure to do a little research. Good luck.
@@kaciacaroline Thank you, that is helpful! Probably over email that she will read in the morning? We live on the opposite sides of the country, so its either that or FaceTime or phone call.
@@stacyg585 I hope it goes well! Once we know what we're dealing with we can start to get better. ❤❤❤
Blood work for vitamins deficiencies or hormone imbalance is so vital!!! Not all doctors request the full panel so you have to request it specifically. I do EMDR therapy which is incredibly effective, especially for trauma. For more naturopathic healing: touch for health, a type of kinesthetic/acupressure treatment is amazing! I also recommend learning moves and brain gym for children. Thanks for making these Kacia! You're awesome.
I have got to try EMDR! I hear only good about it.
@@kaciacaroline it was revolutionary for me.
It took me a while to post this video. Some of the material is very sensitive to me. While I do not expect the people of the internet to give me any special treatment, I do hope that we can all be understanding that we are all different. This is my experience. That is what I know. I share it to connect with others. Not to offend. Not to discredit. Just to connect. Thanks!
I’ve microdosed mushrooms for about 3 years, I’d recommend it for everyone, look up Mush_trips on Instagram.Their product helped me fight anxiety and depression.Thank me later.. And thank you for this😘😘
It's great that you have come to learn more about yourself. As someone with diagnosed DID however, that is what it is called not MPD. DID, OSDD, or NOSDD as they are known and diagnosed as now because they are NOT a personality disorder (like once believed) The DSM5 explains all this and is the most current updated text on behavioral and mental health which all the professionals use. If a mental professional diagnosed you with MPD I would seek another opinion because that term is not only outdated but very wrong. Which this isn't me saying you don't have DID or OSDD but to say MPD and use that outdated term can be stigmatizing along with spreading misinformation. And you say you've integrated to one? So functionality, which is something systems spend YEARS trying to do, if they even can, which if you've managed to do, that's awesome, but the fact that you call it MPD and not even what the disorder actually is, is concerning and confusing, esp since it was not years of therapy that helped you reach functionality but a prayer, if I am not mistaken. I am torn between being offended as a DID, as this is a trauma-based disorder, that one can't control. You have to have suffered consistent abuse and trauma from early ages (5-10) when you're fragmented parts normally form a whole, but the trauma constantly happening stops that integration of parts. You are misinformed and misleading others with lots of misinformation.
I am aware that it is DID and not MPD. MPD is what more people are familiar with outside of those with DID. I've my own set of traumas as many of us do. And I've been to my share of therapy. But I cannot discount the work of God in my miracle. I never mean to offend or discredit the work others do in their own recovery or coping. I only know my experience.
Such an interesting disorder. I believe my ex had this. If those two people went to the lake together, why should that make anybody angry? They are not pawns for anyone to control. They can go to the park together if they like. It's so bizarre that someone should feel entitled to that level of control over other people. Especially people that are not your child, your relative, your anything. It must be so painful living with this senseless angst.
As an adult, I can see the ridiculousness of my anger. But as a teenager, being left out of an activity with my only friends seemed like the end of the world.
@@kaciacaroline I understand. That must be hard. I never knew how to support my ex and I didn't know how to tell him I think he has this condition. Hearing other people's stories does give an insight into what it can be like - and I really admire your courage in sharing. Thank you x
That T-shirt will be an impulsive buy for sure.. Well targeted business plan.
*takes a bow* 😉
This makes me so stinkin’ excited for you for whatever comes next in your life!! I hope we keep hearing updates 🖤🖤 love you girlie.
You're amazing Kacia! So strong! I'm so happy for you. I'm so grateful you are feeling whole and energized. I know God has healed you. You have such an important role here, wether you see it or not, he does. You matter so much!!! I'm so blessed to be your friend, you give me courage to keep fighting the good fight. I love you so much, fragmented or whole, you are incredible to me!
I'm finally starting to feel that my life has purpose. You have been a treasured friend to me. Thanks for being you. ❤
I swear the other day I was like maybe I dont have did 🤣🤣 n then they started gabbing again alot n I was like nm🤣
The quiet inside my head now is a bit unnerving to be honest! I've started talking to myself out loud just to fill the void.
What an amazing experience and outcome! I am seriously so happy for you!! <3
Thank you! And thanks for sticking around while I was MIA.
The housing market is so terrible for a buyer right now! So glad you found a good home for your family! <3
That wait time is awful! I wish that mental health was treated the same as physical health, no one would ever make someone with a physical condition wait months just to check it out. I wish there was more awareness about mental health conditions. My mom struggled for years with PTSD and Depression without even really knowing what it was or how to get help for it, luckily she's doing better now that she does have a therapist and a treatment plan, but it was a hard journey to get there. Thanks for spreading some awareness! <3
Some people don't realize that mental conditions can be just as dangerous as physical conditions. And in the current state of the world, it can be impossible to get an appointment at all. It's very disheartening. Thanks for your support!
Commenting for whatever boost it provides XP but I do love your noise, it helps!
Such good real talk and very great perspective! And that jacket is amazing 🖤
Commenting to get the stats up because you deserve it! Great video!
Thank you so much! I really appreciate it!
You're cool. Also, I have a diagnosed Dissociative Disorder and it is trippy. Haha.
I do not envy you my friend.
@@kaciacaroline it's been a lot better lately though!!!
Yes!! I need any advice I to have a few of thease! Thanks for sharing!
You should put a link to your peel time channel on your channel tab.
This was so awesome! I have been trying to search for KZread vid like yours that educates everything in this video! 🩺Your tip actually is like the content of Dr. Ethan. Doctor's demonstrations are knowledgable and he actually helped me on school. He is a great medical student. I suggest you watch his KZread out and give the Doctor a subscribe over here! 👉 #DrEthanEducational
Also, I am proud of you. Lots of days it's just a main dish for us 😜
Is Maggie a new border collie? I'm not sure I have met her.
Maggie is one of Baileys pups from a year ago. We meant to sell her and then got attached... 🤦🏾♀️
@@kaciacaroline that's sweet you still have one of her babies.
Hooray!! I’ve been waiting for this update!
Yaaaaaaay!!!! I'm so happy for you!
You know this has been a long time coming! Come visit soon! I have cabbage! Lol
@@kaciacaroline yay!!!
This was wonderful. 😊
Well thanks very much Mr Peel. You're a lucky man to be married to such a good wifey. 😘
Haha, weaponry NERDS ;D
Awesome!
Oh. My. Gosh. That made me laugh until I choked!