the reason I’m afraid to kill myself: “He is stupid to kill himself”
@BananaLake19 сағат бұрын
9:00 opposite of the title. also i see that this day the video was recommended to me is the same day that it happened, i hope she happier now, may she receive eternal blessings.
@WaffleMobКүн бұрын
I dont understand why people dont try to understand themselves or the reason of the depression. Trust me when you start to know yourself , you start doing what makes you happy . And if you can understand that happiness can never be found it can only be known , you stop trying to chase happiness and then your whole life changes . You start a better life then and there .
@scottpelhamsr9500Күн бұрын
I've suffered from depression and anxiety for most of my life. I never attempted suicide, but would always go to sleep hoping I would never wake up. I just wanted to be at peace. I'm not a doctor, psychologist or psychiatrist, but sometimes all people need is someone to talk to. I needed medication. Exercise also helped alot, such as running and weightlifting. It was a struggle and I was in an extremely dark place for a long time, but eventually got better. Everyone is different. This lady is truly beautiful inside and out and is beyond strong. Everything she said was spot on. You can't just snap out of it or stop thinking about it. Your brain is wired differently and beyond your control sometimes. It's absolutely nothing to be ashamed of or imbarressed about. I've always been very open about it. I'm 51 now. You're at peace and in Paradise now Josh ❤⚘️😌
@bounceart43312 күн бұрын
I’ve had my own experience with suicidal ideation. It’s impossible to u destined that darkness unless you’ve been there. I will never off myself because I can’t bear the idea of my mom being like this.
@jesus_saves_153 күн бұрын
I've been there.. and I'm really grateful for God for helping me those times It's like theres no way out.. you feel suffocated (all the time) when no ones suffocates you.. nothing makes sense .. you do everything which is supposed to work but it doesn't It feels like the only way is just ending your life.. please don't end your life.. its pain either way Don't pressure your self so much
@gugunanak1343 күн бұрын
When pain becomes terribly impossible to bear. Suicide seems the only option. Depression is an illness and those who commit suicide aren't weak. They have just exhausted everything they could have done with futile results. No one wants to die but then life itself seems like a curse, and death a relief from all pain and suffering. Depression tells lies to oneself. It is serious concern and should be treated at earliest. It's terrible when it's misunderstood and stigmatized in society.
@gugunanak1343 күн бұрын
I'm terribly sorry
@Elliott._._.4 күн бұрын
I fear my mum might talk on one of these videos one day
@mathxyz1-gf9ot4 күн бұрын
" You dont end your pain, you pass it to others " Please don't suicide guys, someone will feel your pain, not because it is selfish or because that you will be weak, it is because someone will really suffer, stay safe.
@amirafilms4 күн бұрын
i need the "girlfriend's" address
@user-oh1mr7um1m4 күн бұрын
R.I.P Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain 🕊️🕊️🕊️
@user-oh1mr7um1m4 күн бұрын
R.I.P 🕊️🕊️🕊️ R.I.P Josh 🕊️🕊️🕊️
@MBYt82645 күн бұрын
People end life because of GF and BF, where as here i am in depression but nobody cares for me, instead i get extra shoulding and if i stop eating, my parents think i am taking drugs and they don't even know the reason is they took all my choices and still I can't distance myself or turn the lights off and stay in my room, i had to just cry out loud and say God i will go through, this and i forget it the next day, 😂😂even if it's the only option to end your life think twice... because our parents will still Moran and you know what will happen after you end your life they will never smile or live their life as usual and also they will never Forgive Themselves for what you had done. Lasty Best choice is to talk, to your friends who really care for you they will really help you and can get you through it 😉 And you know what, One of my friend even say this to me like.Bro i will rather come to your wedding and have a good meal rather than attend your funeral and eat that unhappy meal this lines really touches me okay 😌😌 ❤❤❤😂😂
@Curtis_Fu4 күн бұрын
Some people just cannot take it.
@SunshineSerenade5 күн бұрын
It doesnt matter how good your life is. Depression is depression, and it will always be there, looming around every people, whether they're successful or poor. Rest in peace Josh.
@SunshineSerenade5 күн бұрын
That girlfriend.... May karma get her tenfold
@erwinsugianto36115 күн бұрын
Many people dont learn/prepare to Fail, in life may we can fail, prepare it
@Unknownyetwellknown5 күн бұрын
What if even the reason was gone?
@Viewer8026 күн бұрын
I am depressed because my parents never understand me .... I don't understand why they can't feel that pain of mine 😢😭😭
@jrcanimation6 күн бұрын
Im the next Josh
@loleditz3336 күн бұрын
Same
@msk68315 күн бұрын
bro don't. lock in, there is more to life man. Whatever issue you are facing, it is temporary. Even if it is 1 minute or 10 years, that doesn't mean infinite. It is temporary no matter what. Endure it and use it to become a better version of yourself.
@msk68315 күн бұрын
@@loleditz333 The comment I sent to is directed to you too.
@Curtis_Fu4 күн бұрын
Dude, I am here with you. I think of it sometimes, but don’t. People care about you :(
@jrcanimation4 күн бұрын
@@Curtis_Fu Im hopeless and desperate
@ChadSuave7 күн бұрын
Stop Male desconstruction in society and this will finish.
@yamingxie34517 күн бұрын
A story of true love.
@stevenrodman70468 күн бұрын
The problem is there’s no empathy from a lot of self centered people who only look at others as an extension of their selfish needs
@amithbhagat8 күн бұрын
For some people it's really very hard to cope up with the break up. It's hard to imagine the sufferings Josh had to bear.
@Alon_Bar9 күн бұрын
"When you feel like giving up, just remember the reason why you held on for so long" My fear of doing it
@malathisaravanan629311 күн бұрын
The time when i had depression..... it wasnt really bothering much but influencing a lot. It was a strange feeling, like..... i had a good friend. It helped me move on and kept my head up... at the most wrecking times.... i would randomly just wanna cry or randomly feel so euphoric...i really never cried.... it helped me stay strong.... even my teachers found out that i was going through something.... i was confused, i was like im completely fine...... and they told me no, you are depressed.... you are depressed. Then i found out that the strange friend i live with.... was Depression... i was creative and my entire personality and my disorder mirrored on my art. Everyone hated me... But i loved everyone..... i never called anyone classmates.... i called them friends.... suicidal thoughts.... scared of eternal darkness..... fear of my parents grief...... the only thing keeping me alive is my secret crush..... whom i never saw in 5 years...... but just talked..... she is my only hope.... she doesnt even know i exist at this point..... woke up in 2024.... felt really blessed, felt really light and bright.... had a feeling that ive been blessed by god...... depression left..... when people told me i was depressed, i said thats literal bullshit... but now realizing that i was depressed and trying to tell them that im on the brink of getting depressed again.... they say this fucking quote, " Depressed people wont tell they are depressed " im so close to getting my old friend back again. ( depression ) I used to tell people to have infinite hope ....... sucks that i feel hopeless
@user-vx5bu8tr5y12 күн бұрын
Profitable insight. Make and sell full chrome shiny metal tradies and muscle car steering wheel?
@Jellylikesilica12 күн бұрын
Yes! Mom is absolutely right! I have always said this..People who committ suicide are NOT selfish! People who don't know. It takes a great deal of courage, i mean imagine being so desperate to put a final end to the hell you are faced with day after day. Don't you think that they wish they could go on living? Well sure they do but they just can't , not like that. The magnitude of pain..agony.. hopelessness and desperation becomes unbearable and that's where the courage comes in to end it. The thought of living one more day becomes unbearable. Think about that. Anyone of can get to that point.. Nobody has the right to judge him and say "Oh he was selfish to do that"? Really? How? Because those of us still here have never made it to where they have or we wouldn't be here now. Would we ?
@nurulhude300512 күн бұрын
❤❤❤❤❤
@ricchmus13 күн бұрын
They were poor but happy now we are rich but Kiasu.
@sherhinofc331513 күн бұрын
The fact that she is soo understanding about her sons condition❤
@blessingfidelis223713 күн бұрын
God will comfort and continue to make you happy
@bmdfragile14 күн бұрын
Having kids myself, this is really one of my worst nightmares and there is really no way of preparing for it. Am I too nice for my kids, too harsh? What is the perfect balance of helping your kids and giving them the confidence to do things on their own. Is preventing social media a wise choice or am I just alienating my kids? Time will tell.
@user-gs7dd2yt2k15 күн бұрын
Fresh Cola Cooking Master 2024 (Indosiar)
@playerone229216 күн бұрын
Loud ass video
@machineplayz185012 күн бұрын
🗣️🗣️
@abuser6916 күн бұрын
Don’t let the government raise and judge ur kids folk that’s what you’re here for.
@ostop535316 күн бұрын
Imagine trying to clickbait others for views on someones suicide?
@quellepls256816 күн бұрын
Life is pain
@iamwe703516 күн бұрын
God bless your heart
@SynthesisOfTheUnknown16 күн бұрын
Cut the BS with this title. I tried taking my life many times as a kid. ALLL THEY DID WAS LOCK ME UP. whatever.
@cryrustmusic16 күн бұрын
I'm so cold right now. So tired of all this
@nekogutz15 күн бұрын
Are u ok? ❤
@cryrustmusic14 күн бұрын
@@nekogutz Yes, I'm feeling a bit better today. Thank you for asking. Are you okay too?
@nekogutz14 күн бұрын
A little stressed but overall ok, thanks for asking :3
@ienjoyasmr16 күн бұрын
I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts and depression since I was 15. For a long time I thought I was over exaggerating and all the emotions and thoughts I experienced weren’t serious and instead were just me being dramatic. It wasn’t until about a year ago shortly after my 18th birthday when I suddenly got hit with a massive depressive episode, I couldn’t stop crying, hyperventilating, and thinking that everything I’m doing and have done were for nothing and that I might as well just not exist. It was the first time I ever felt that terrible and it was the first time I ever genuinely spoke about my feelings to my family. My mom, dad, and grandma were all overwhelmed with anxiety and worry since they’ve all experienced losing someone to suicide and took my situation seriously. Up until that point I had kept everything inside and tried to hide my bad days, I kept telling myself I didn’t have depression and that I was just in my own head since I’ve seen so many people discredit young people with depression. I finally decided to open up and it definitely felt good to finally speak about my mental state, aswell as finally getting a proper diagnosis. I’m extremely anxious and don’t like going out too much if it isn’t for work or to hang out with my really close friends so I haven’t done therapy, and even though I have flare ups I can’t seem to bring myself to go nor speak about it with anyone now. I know this contradicts everything I said before but I can’t open up about it anymore, lately I’ve been feeling down more often than not. I constantly flip flop between feeling neutral and depressed, the suicidal thoughts are coming more and more often and I’ve given up on trying to find a significant other. I’ve given myself a timeline of sorts I guess, pretty much if I’m not in a better place by the time I’m around 30 I’m calling it quits. Though I’m not 100% sure if I’ll even stay stable enough to make it that far making that goal makes me feel at ease somehow. I know its weird for my “doomsday” timer to make me feeling better but it does somehow, I really don’t want to live a life where I’m alone, where I’m not happy, where I can’t go a few hours without feeling like I’m worthless and doing nothing worth living for, where I constantly think everyone would be better off with me gone, but for some reason that’s the only life I can imagine. I wonder why things turned out this way, what caused this shift in my mind and why it had to happen. I wonder if I’ll ever get the chance to live without this looming feeling of despair again, I hope I can but my hopes aren’t exactly high. Sorry for ranting, no ones going to see this most likely so I don’t know why I’m apologizing anyway, guess its out of habit.
@phonzy123-zm3zd17 күн бұрын
My heartbreak knowing someone who is same age as me young and have a lot of capabilities taking his own life. Even me during my second semester i suffered from bacterial infection at my testicle nearly lost my life,injecting around 200gm of pain killer for 4 days to keep me alive and to relieve the pain in which i later suffered from severe depression and anxiety. For 2 year with such traumatic event i have a seizure and severe back pain. recently i slowly heal myself again. My seizure is much better than ever so does my back pain. During that time i suffered from seizure i have hard time to talk and communicate with people . Its ok but please stay strong i know its hurt and its pain but please learn to bear it. There are still some people out there who will help you. Please stay strong .
@charalambospamatia-n798017 күн бұрын
💔
@chinibubu41117 күн бұрын
Oh those tiger moms
@eddiecaballero518418 күн бұрын
for him wasnt a small matter
@user-yg7kb1mt9z18 күн бұрын
Crazy you can be dead and people still hate on you 😂
@frost180418 күн бұрын
Sorry for your loss, but only the most selfish individuals take their own lives.
@msk68315 күн бұрын
shut uo
@aaronharun1394H18 күн бұрын
How do you know I exist? You havent seen me. You havent met me before. My post is evidence of me. My post is not me. I typed in my post. I produced my post. What I produce is evidence of me. creation is evidence of the Creator which He not only creates but also sustains, provides, has Power over. You do not see me but you see evidence of me (my post). We do not see God (our Creator) but we see evidence of Him (His creation) all around us. I had a purpose when I made my post. The purpose of our creation in this limited life in this limited world is with our Creator.
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the reason I’m afraid to kill myself: “He is stupid to kill himself”
9:00 opposite of the title. also i see that this day the video was recommended to me is the same day that it happened, i hope she happier now, may she receive eternal blessings.
I dont understand why people dont try to understand themselves or the reason of the depression. Trust me when you start to know yourself , you start doing what makes you happy . And if you can understand that happiness can never be found it can only be known , you stop trying to chase happiness and then your whole life changes . You start a better life then and there .
I've suffered from depression and anxiety for most of my life. I never attempted suicide, but would always go to sleep hoping I would never wake up. I just wanted to be at peace. I'm not a doctor, psychologist or psychiatrist, but sometimes all people need is someone to talk to. I needed medication. Exercise also helped alot, such as running and weightlifting. It was a struggle and I was in an extremely dark place for a long time, but eventually got better. Everyone is different. This lady is truly beautiful inside and out and is beyond strong. Everything she said was spot on. You can't just snap out of it or stop thinking about it. Your brain is wired differently and beyond your control sometimes. It's absolutely nothing to be ashamed of or imbarressed about. I've always been very open about it. I'm 51 now. You're at peace and in Paradise now Josh ❤⚘️😌
I’ve had my own experience with suicidal ideation. It’s impossible to u destined that darkness unless you’ve been there. I will never off myself because I can’t bear the idea of my mom being like this.
I've been there.. and I'm really grateful for God for helping me those times It's like theres no way out.. you feel suffocated (all the time) when no ones suffocates you.. nothing makes sense .. you do everything which is supposed to work but it doesn't It feels like the only way is just ending your life.. please don't end your life.. its pain either way Don't pressure your self so much
When pain becomes terribly impossible to bear. Suicide seems the only option. Depression is an illness and those who commit suicide aren't weak. They have just exhausted everything they could have done with futile results. No one wants to die but then life itself seems like a curse, and death a relief from all pain and suffering. Depression tells lies to oneself. It is serious concern and should be treated at earliest. It's terrible when it's misunderstood and stigmatized in society.
I'm terribly sorry
I fear my mum might talk on one of these videos one day
" You dont end your pain, you pass it to others " Please don't suicide guys, someone will feel your pain, not because it is selfish or because that you will be weak, it is because someone will really suffer, stay safe.
i need the "girlfriend's" address
R.I.P Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain 🕊️🕊️🕊️
R.I.P 🕊️🕊️🕊️ R.I.P Josh 🕊️🕊️🕊️
People end life because of GF and BF, where as here i am in depression but nobody cares for me, instead i get extra shoulding and if i stop eating, my parents think i am taking drugs and they don't even know the reason is they took all my choices and still I can't distance myself or turn the lights off and stay in my room, i had to just cry out loud and say God i will go through, this and i forget it the next day, 😂😂even if it's the only option to end your life think twice... because our parents will still Moran and you know what will happen after you end your life they will never smile or live their life as usual and also they will never Forgive Themselves for what you had done. Lasty Best choice is to talk, to your friends who really care for you they will really help you and can get you through it 😉 And you know what, One of my friend even say this to me like.Bro i will rather come to your wedding and have a good meal rather than attend your funeral and eat that unhappy meal this lines really touches me okay 😌😌 ❤❤❤😂😂
Some people just cannot take it.
It doesnt matter how good your life is. Depression is depression, and it will always be there, looming around every people, whether they're successful or poor. Rest in peace Josh.
That girlfriend.... May karma get her tenfold
Many people dont learn/prepare to Fail, in life may we can fail, prepare it
What if even the reason was gone?
I am depressed because my parents never understand me .... I don't understand why they can't feel that pain of mine 😢😭😭
Im the next Josh
Same
bro don't. lock in, there is more to life man. Whatever issue you are facing, it is temporary. Even if it is 1 minute or 10 years, that doesn't mean infinite. It is temporary no matter what. Endure it and use it to become a better version of yourself.
@@loleditz333 The comment I sent to is directed to you too.
Dude, I am here with you. I think of it sometimes, but don’t. People care about you :(
@@Curtis_Fu Im hopeless and desperate
Stop Male desconstruction in society and this will finish.
A story of true love.
The problem is there’s no empathy from a lot of self centered people who only look at others as an extension of their selfish needs
For some people it's really very hard to cope up with the break up. It's hard to imagine the sufferings Josh had to bear.
"When you feel like giving up, just remember the reason why you held on for so long" My fear of doing it
The time when i had depression..... it wasnt really bothering much but influencing a lot. It was a strange feeling, like..... i had a good friend. It helped me move on and kept my head up... at the most wrecking times.... i would randomly just wanna cry or randomly feel so euphoric...i really never cried.... it helped me stay strong.... even my teachers found out that i was going through something.... i was confused, i was like im completely fine...... and they told me no, you are depressed.... you are depressed. Then i found out that the strange friend i live with.... was Depression... i was creative and my entire personality and my disorder mirrored on my art. Everyone hated me... But i loved everyone..... i never called anyone classmates.... i called them friends.... suicidal thoughts.... scared of eternal darkness..... fear of my parents grief...... the only thing keeping me alive is my secret crush..... whom i never saw in 5 years...... but just talked..... she is my only hope.... she doesnt even know i exist at this point..... woke up in 2024.... felt really blessed, felt really light and bright.... had a feeling that ive been blessed by god...... depression left..... when people told me i was depressed, i said thats literal bullshit... but now realizing that i was depressed and trying to tell them that im on the brink of getting depressed again.... they say this fucking quote, " Depressed people wont tell they are depressed " im so close to getting my old friend back again. ( depression ) I used to tell people to have infinite hope ....... sucks that i feel hopeless
Profitable insight. Make and sell full chrome shiny metal tradies and muscle car steering wheel?
Yes! Mom is absolutely right! I have always said this..People who committ suicide are NOT selfish! People who don't know. It takes a great deal of courage, i mean imagine being so desperate to put a final end to the hell you are faced with day after day. Don't you think that they wish they could go on living? Well sure they do but they just can't , not like that. The magnitude of pain..agony.. hopelessness and desperation becomes unbearable and that's where the courage comes in to end it. The thought of living one more day becomes unbearable. Think about that. Anyone of can get to that point.. Nobody has the right to judge him and say "Oh he was selfish to do that"? Really? How? Because those of us still here have never made it to where they have or we wouldn't be here now. Would we ?
❤❤❤❤❤
They were poor but happy now we are rich but Kiasu.
The fact that she is soo understanding about her sons condition❤
God will comfort and continue to make you happy
Having kids myself, this is really one of my worst nightmares and there is really no way of preparing for it. Am I too nice for my kids, too harsh? What is the perfect balance of helping your kids and giving them the confidence to do things on their own. Is preventing social media a wise choice or am I just alienating my kids? Time will tell.
Fresh Cola Cooking Master 2024 (Indosiar)
Loud ass video
🗣️🗣️
Don’t let the government raise and judge ur kids folk that’s what you’re here for.
Imagine trying to clickbait others for views on someones suicide?
Life is pain
God bless your heart
Cut the BS with this title. I tried taking my life many times as a kid. ALLL THEY DID WAS LOCK ME UP. whatever.
I'm so cold right now. So tired of all this
Are u ok? ❤
@@nekogutz Yes, I'm feeling a bit better today. Thank you for asking. Are you okay too?
A little stressed but overall ok, thanks for asking :3
I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts and depression since I was 15. For a long time I thought I was over exaggerating and all the emotions and thoughts I experienced weren’t serious and instead were just me being dramatic. It wasn’t until about a year ago shortly after my 18th birthday when I suddenly got hit with a massive depressive episode, I couldn’t stop crying, hyperventilating, and thinking that everything I’m doing and have done were for nothing and that I might as well just not exist. It was the first time I ever felt that terrible and it was the first time I ever genuinely spoke about my feelings to my family. My mom, dad, and grandma were all overwhelmed with anxiety and worry since they’ve all experienced losing someone to suicide and took my situation seriously. Up until that point I had kept everything inside and tried to hide my bad days, I kept telling myself I didn’t have depression and that I was just in my own head since I’ve seen so many people discredit young people with depression. I finally decided to open up and it definitely felt good to finally speak about my mental state, aswell as finally getting a proper diagnosis. I’m extremely anxious and don’t like going out too much if it isn’t for work or to hang out with my really close friends so I haven’t done therapy, and even though I have flare ups I can’t seem to bring myself to go nor speak about it with anyone now. I know this contradicts everything I said before but I can’t open up about it anymore, lately I’ve been feeling down more often than not. I constantly flip flop between feeling neutral and depressed, the suicidal thoughts are coming more and more often and I’ve given up on trying to find a significant other. I’ve given myself a timeline of sorts I guess, pretty much if I’m not in a better place by the time I’m around 30 I’m calling it quits. Though I’m not 100% sure if I’ll even stay stable enough to make it that far making that goal makes me feel at ease somehow. I know its weird for my “doomsday” timer to make me feeling better but it does somehow, I really don’t want to live a life where I’m alone, where I’m not happy, where I can’t go a few hours without feeling like I’m worthless and doing nothing worth living for, where I constantly think everyone would be better off with me gone, but for some reason that’s the only life I can imagine. I wonder why things turned out this way, what caused this shift in my mind and why it had to happen. I wonder if I’ll ever get the chance to live without this looming feeling of despair again, I hope I can but my hopes aren’t exactly high. Sorry for ranting, no ones going to see this most likely so I don’t know why I’m apologizing anyway, guess its out of habit.
My heartbreak knowing someone who is same age as me young and have a lot of capabilities taking his own life. Even me during my second semester i suffered from bacterial infection at my testicle nearly lost my life,injecting around 200gm of pain killer for 4 days to keep me alive and to relieve the pain in which i later suffered from severe depression and anxiety. For 2 year with such traumatic event i have a seizure and severe back pain. recently i slowly heal myself again. My seizure is much better than ever so does my back pain. During that time i suffered from seizure i have hard time to talk and communicate with people . Its ok but please stay strong i know its hurt and its pain but please learn to bear it. There are still some people out there who will help you. Please stay strong .
💔
Oh those tiger moms
for him wasnt a small matter
Crazy you can be dead and people still hate on you 😂
Sorry for your loss, but only the most selfish individuals take their own lives.
shut uo
How do you know I exist? You havent seen me. You havent met me before. My post is evidence of me. My post is not me. I typed in my post. I produced my post. What I produce is evidence of me. creation is evidence of the Creator which He not only creates but also sustains, provides, has Power over. You do not see me but you see evidence of me (my post). We do not see God (our Creator) but we see evidence of Him (His creation) all around us. I had a purpose when I made my post. The purpose of our creation in this limited life in this limited world is with our Creator.
Always coming to this video when Im at my lowest.