You seem to know during your episode that you are having a psycotic episode or a delusion. Does the denial go away and you realize you have bizarre delusions?
@athena58629 сағат бұрын
My son suffers from persucatory delusions that he is going to be murdered by a group that is after him. He does not have any recognition that he is in psychosis after 6 months. Im trying to assure him he is safe. I dont know how to get him to willingly examine his ideas.
@sirijanthakur4 күн бұрын
ur blessed with good friends bro
@sirijanthakur4 күн бұрын
bro same telepaty thing happened to me, i thought it costed money to talk tho haha, then it transitioned into war with god, ai trying to take over and control god which is me xD its funny how all the psychotic episodes are kinda similar in one form
@alilih36527 күн бұрын
More like my first experience lettinf demons attach to me. Also you can clearly tell this man opened himself up to demons bc of the belief he had “we are all infinite beings” and “infirtile love energy” yea that’s all bullshit from the demons. Thwy decieve ing you and you lettin them that’s why they was able to fully connect to you and make you “schizophrenic” which is really just them revealing themsleves to you and only you and no one else around them. They’re spirits so of course they can reveal themselves to only you and no one else bc they’re not physical
@Over60sowhat11 күн бұрын
This is so important! Thank you so much for posting this!
@Over60sowhat11 күн бұрын
Such an amazing person. May God continue to Bless you.
@Over60sowhat11 күн бұрын
Wonderful! So easy to understand! Thank you for being so aware of and able to explain your feelings!!! You have been beyond helpful in aiding my understanding for my friend! Thank you.
@mimilookamie801919 күн бұрын
Thank you for sharing your experience. When I've experienced psychosis I carried alot of self blame around for losing my grip on reality but your calm demeanor and casual tone describing your thoughts made me feel like maybe it's not the end of the world or something to be embarrassed for after all so that is very much appreciated. God bless! ❤️
@BipolarLiving23 күн бұрын
I’m so sorry that you’re struggling with psychosis I’m so sorry 😔 🙏🏾 please stay strong and continue to take care of yourself 💜 the telepathy part was actually relatable to a lot of people here on earth. Wouldn’t that be cool if we could hear each other’s thoughts.
@user-re4wq9ou5uАй бұрын
اتمنى لك الشفاء أنشاء الله يا أخي ❤❤❤
@giorgiomxАй бұрын
So is like if I suddenly started to dream while being awake, mixing up my real surroundings with hallucinations and interacting with it. 🤔
@lazarcatalina1176Ай бұрын
I never had bipolar,mania or schizo but i took antidepressants for first time 6 mnoths ago,called Tritico Trazodone i felt like have bipolar or something! Vision of grandeur,was sure im winning lottery,i was controled by that vision,half of day i was day dreaming violently that im winning lottery,i felt like im posessed by a demon,i was realising this may not be true,but i was so sure i feel a paranormal expeirence,despite being aware it may not be true! The day dreaming was so violent,the images i was having not as hallucinations but inside my head,like when u remmeber soemthing have that image in ur head,i was having those,,it was fucknig crazy! Having this violent day dreaming mixed with episodes of my body shaking like im posessed,felt very real. I experienced how is like ot have bipolar or schizo! In a way ws interesting but just for a short while! Im done with antidepressants!
@sirijanthakur2 ай бұрын
i follow being factual about things, ignoring the philosiphy, works well
@sirijanthakur2 ай бұрын
hello, i had it twice, right now im on resperdon tbh its a funny experience, pray for me and thanks for taking this step of being open about it, lots of stigma for it for sure 😊❤
@lettersfromschizophreniaАй бұрын
I’ve actually found the more open I am about it, things get easier for me. It allows people a chance to adjust to me in a positive manner, and gives them a chance to see people functioning with it.
@lettersfromschizophreniaАй бұрын
Good luck on your journey friend. You got This.
@dionysusapollo2 ай бұрын
I have just the same connection to nature experience he describes.
@dentkort20462 ай бұрын
I seriously think psychosis is what happens when whatever filter there is in our brains that keeps us from seeing the spiritual... Just stops working, leaving us vulnerable to demonic entities and negative thoughtforms. Always take your meds but remember God is always there to help as well, no matter if it is in the form of Jesus, Allah or even Buddha.
@BipolarLiving23 күн бұрын
I like to relate mental illness with spirituality too
@jenijean86912 ай бұрын
Listening to music, silencing headphones and earplugs work well ❤
@Redacted.1352 ай бұрын
Thank you for sharing
@YesminWahab-bj2bz2 ай бұрын
Do you hear voices?
@lettersfromschizophrenia2 ай бұрын
Yes, not all the time when I am not in psychosis. It happens mostly when I am trying to sleep or rest. Which is why being engaged in activities helps
@YesminWahab-bj2bz2 ай бұрын
What do yo do for work, if I may ask. Thank you.
@lettersfromschizophrenia2 ай бұрын
I work a remote job in IT as a dev
@monte68x2 ай бұрын
No, it does not. If cannabis causes psychosis, it is coded as a Substance-induced Psychotic Disorder NOT "Schizophrenia".
@CowboyLloyd2 ай бұрын
Thank you so much for talking about your situation. Stay strong🙏🏻
@nishanacht2 ай бұрын
Fantastic✨tyfs ❤
@techsavytronicstechsavytro5282 ай бұрын
how can you tell difference between an anxiety disorder and psychosis? I took weed and benzos together 2 years ago and my brain has never been the same since. I get thought patterns such as "hes figured us out quick run away" like someones talking in my head acknowledging that i recognise the thing in my head if that makes sense. Ive been treating it as anxiety, but the symptoms, thoughts and emotions are pretty intense
@lettersfromschizophrenia2 ай бұрын
I think anxiety is fear of possible outcomes that stem from real things. Like the fear of crashing not allowing you to drive a car. Where as psychosis is believing in something that is not real to most others, that has become real to you. I have made logical sense of un real things in my head that I cannot unsee. And when I cannot disregard it, I call it psychosis when I start interacting with it, or it makes me dysfunctional enough to impact my life negatively.
@techsavytronicstechsavytro5282 ай бұрын
@@lettersfromschizophrenia I smoked thc and took some benzo pills 2 years ago and my brain is constantly producing these disgusting degrading thoughts but dont know if its something like anxiety/OCD or pyschosis. Thoughts?
@lettersfromschizophrenia2 ай бұрын
@@techsavytronicstechsavytro528 it happens to me, I get very vile thoughts that are repulsive and I judge myself for having a thought like that. But the more I accept that it is not me and they are a feed from a source unknown. It helps me live. I then get so far from it by engaging in life and routine, that I don’t think those thoughts anymore.
@fedenovo12 ай бұрын
So you have psicotic episodes and still smoke up? Bon voyage…..
@lettersfromschizophrenia2 ай бұрын
I personally do not, but I know of people that do. And its their choice to take part in it or not.
@bearclaus26762 ай бұрын
People get spiritual and mystic smoking weed. Little do they know its the beginning of madness.
@Theonegov2 ай бұрын
Individuals that use drugs are likely to be chosen to be used in high technology behavior experiments. When you have a 2 way conversation with those type of things being said to you - it is actually a group of humans using psychotronic weapons. Classic electronic harassment - targeted individuals.
@secularargument2 ай бұрын
What? Brain-altering chemicals affect the pre-disposed??? Get right outta town!!!!
@daisymei-oy3xs2 ай бұрын
Thanks for providing this important information so clearly, succinctly.
@daisymei-oy3xs2 ай бұрын
Very helpful video
@dmtdreamz77062 ай бұрын
A person might come to the realization very suddenly and spontaneously that they're made of jello. This thought just comes to them because the unconscious has this kind of fantasy-like nature where it just kind of tests things and comes up with crazy thoughts. There are many reports of schizophrenics coming to such beliefs that their bodies are made of glass or wood because the unconscious presents them with this idea. The people you speak with in your dreams are very similar to the entities who speak to the schizophrenic. Insanity is a dream which has become real. Very often the hallucinations seemed to come from Gods, Goddesses, Angels and Demons. Early humans were essentially all schizophrenic but as we've developed and become more sophisticated and have moved away from our natural foundations. Our egos have become stronger and we've been disconnected from the forces of the unconscious. So when they erupt forth we find it very strange, alienating and oftentimes very terrifying. However many schizophrenic patients don't experience this eruption of the unconscious all the time. Instead it seems to be triggered by episodes of psychic distress.
@diana.l.gentry3 ай бұрын
I am sorry your doctor told you that. He doesn’t know that. That is what is wrong with mental health they never want to give you hope, which is the first thing they should do.
@user-lv6zl4pe8n3 ай бұрын
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@dianaadamson89543 ай бұрын
This is precise, I work in that field and you're so accurate, thank you
@waleriankarcz9703 ай бұрын
Hey man, have you looked at all into metabolic therapies like fasting or the ketogenic diet to help manage your schizophrenia? I have seen others that have had good results with those methods. Might be worth talking to your doctor about.
@lettersfromschizophrenia3 ай бұрын
Thank you for your comment. I will definitely look into those and discuss with my doctor!
@chick22843 ай бұрын
What are some other activities that are relaxing but engage focus? I am in a room alone for some hours but then someone returns in the room, do I have to learn how to be alone completely? And how do I do that if I cannot just do what he did such as leaving that place?
@lettersfromschizophrenia3 ай бұрын
The most relaxing and fun thing I did in my room alone, when I was trying to learn to be alone is learning calligraphy with an oblique pen on rhodea paper. It improved my writing, and I got a few chapters out of my head of a possible story I might finish one day. But the nib sounds on the paper, and the color of ink, the rhythm all were very fun to experience. Also, if you can get your hands on walnut ink, it is fun as it changes color as you write. You dont have to do exactly what I did, your journey is different. So I would suggest if you are with people, be open with them that you need to focus and engage in activities with them such as baking, cooking, riding bicycles, walks, gardening. You can even let people know hey I want to talk less, or more etc. Tell people what you need, and they want to help generally. I just excuse myself to my room when I need a break from everyone. I also, go in my backyard and feel the wind, hear the birds, planes flying overhead, etc. Just enjoy my surrounding without anyone around. Hop this helps.
@lettersfromschizophrenia3 ай бұрын
I also looked into getting better at music. So i expanded on my guitar skills and learned some piano. I utilized youtube to learn everything. Also, I enjoy videos without words. So leather-craft and shoe making videos help. If there is talking, I just mute it.
@chick22842 ай бұрын
@@lettersfromschizophrenia Thank you, it took a lot of courage for me to have commented on this video, and I have been feeling more like myself again. And yes while I was sitting and reflecting the other day, I decided to make plans to do the activities that you had mentioned, such as cooking, practicing new skills, and spending time with others.
@lettersfromschizophrenia2 ай бұрын
@@chick2284 You are doing amazing! Good work! Dealing with psychosis is like learning to ride a bike, at first you go a little bit and fall or stop, but you get up and keep pushing pedals to go further. You got this! Thank you for your comment. It keeps me motivated to make more videos.
@in-serenesanity45143 ай бұрын
Thank you for the optimistic and even inspirational video! Only one thing that I was taken aback at was about your doctor who thinks you only have 4-5 episodes left before going completely difunctional. I could not believe my ears that a doctor could utter such a nonsensical and irresponsible thing. No one can see into the future and say exactly what the dynamics of the illness are going to be. Could you please give a bit of a context around this - Why did the doctor say so? Because I just can't wrap my head around it, to be truthful. Thank you and the best of luck with your recovery journey!
@lettersfromschizophrenia3 ай бұрын
I do not know if that is going to happen to me, but I do take the advice of my doctors seriously. I realized during my last psychotic episode that I could not even hold a conversation with people around me because I was stuck in my head conversing with entities and thinking hard trying to make sense of things. I think if this turns permanent I would lose the ability to function normally. If the symptoms i experience during an episode become permanent, I can see that happening. Generally, during episodes, I am very aware that there is a way back to typical way of being, but I was not sure of this during my last episode. Which was sort of a blessing, because it allowed me to seek help from others, not just the experts, but from my loved ones as well. I can only imagine thats what he meant, but his words were "not trying fear monger" but that I probably have 4-5 of these episodes left. Apparently episodes can cause brain damage, that I get checked for during my appointments. They make me do things like move my arms, hands, facial muscle movements. They also ask me questions to make sure its not progressed to some point I think they generally see people reach? They asked me if I felt like things were all around me all the time, like if I was eating the food was behind my head. I thought that was pretty wild, but I dont know, maybe that will be me some day. Anyways hope that provides context, and answers your question. Thank you so much for commenting and watching. It inspires me to make more videos and makes me feel this youtube adventure is worth continuing.
@in-serenesanity45143 ай бұрын
Oh Absolutely! I'm subscribed and looking forward to your videos always, your KZread adventure is worth continuing and I Thank you again, this time for your detailed reply. One more question if you don't mind: I'm new to your channel so apologies if you have answered this question already - Are the episodes you describe "break through" symptoms (occur in spite of you taking medication/s) or you have been medication-free for some time?
@lettersfromschizophrenia3 ай бұрын
@@in-serenesanity4514 They are breakthrough symptoms. I have been compliant with medication for about 4-5 years now. Thank you for the sub!
@shiza912 ай бұрын
In the clinicians defense, he may have said it in a context where he was trying to encourage measures to prevent another episode or discourage behaviors that induce episodes. It is a tough place to be in for clinicians. Sometimes you have to be 100 real with patients for their own good. It’s like when a parents gives their child tough love. It’s necessary sometimes.
@kristenr83113 ай бұрын
your wise and empathic words are comforting for me- thank you!
@cass33133 ай бұрын
Would you say schizophrenia is a part of your identity now? My experience as someone living with a partner with schizophrenia, is that they are almost like a whole different person while in psychosis. This wouldn't be so hard to accept if they were nice to be around, but it's not nice, they are a lot more irritable, unkind, harsh etc... so I find myself remembering the "old" them, and comparing. Thanks for the video, it really is helpful and interesting and makes me think about schizophrenia in ways I haven't before.
@lettersfromschizophrenia3 ай бұрын
I would say that it is a part of me, and I am much better today at handling it than I was when it all started. Because of the struggles, it has helped me grow in a positive direction. But that is because I am not fighting it anymore trying to fix myself back to something. I have accepted that this is me, and it wont be easy, but I can choose how I react to it. I think people including myself can get frustrated with the constant struggle of negativity. Imagine if everyone was your enemy all the time, and you were still trying to have a relationship with them. I know its not true, my family is my family, but I cant help what I see through them. Living like that is very challenging. And I say enemy because its very negative, demeaning, and scary. But I also realized, I am just as mean without meaning to be mean to it. So really at the core of it its a misunderstanding. I am trying to put something into words that does not make sense at all so I hope its not too far from the point. Thank you for watching
@cass33133 ай бұрын
@@lettersfromschizophrenia I think I get what you're saying.. I think! For sure I can see how it would be hard to live with that constant negativity. It's such a complicated situation. I hope I'm an open and accepting enough person to allow someone I love to be themselves and to accept them, flaws and all, good and bad. It gets complicated when my perception is the opposite of theirs, I guess. I perceive them as struggling, distant, paranoid, obsessive and so on. Their perspective of themself is totally opposite to mine - all is well, their truth is the truth for all, they are grounded in reality. Etc. (I can only guess these are the things they think, and from what they tell me). How to live in harmony, and, most of all, without detriment to either of us, is my goal.
@lettersfromschizophrenia3 ай бұрын
@@cass3313 Good luck! Sounds like a worthwhile effort. As with all things, its never just easy, there is lots of opportunity for growth in both directions. Hopefully you both are open to it, your goals are aligned and things smoothen. Thank you for being open to seeking different perspectives on schizophrenia and psychosis. The goal of the channel is to just to be a perspective shared with the hope that it assists people in some way.
@llrr81153 ай бұрын
Please ask for a blood test for food allergies/sensitivities, there is research that gluten intolerance can make schizophrenia worse and or cause psychosis. I hope this helps someone.
@justmadeit23 ай бұрын
These days it’s probably grown artificially or cross bred, the stuff back in the 60s was probably weaker. I dunno though, just guessing
@xRest6843 ай бұрын
hey thank you for uploading, ill be trying to do real activities to engage back into reality, just like you.. i have the same exact description of your voices, i like to take 4 750mg GABA tablets daily to stop my brain from thinking so much. have you ever thought about getting a hearing test done. i want to take one soon, as I've heard that when you have a hearing problem your mind will misinterpret words and possibly sounds just so you get a message of what's going on around you. its a condition called APD(Auditory Processing Disorder). i got a question for you, what medication are you on?
@lettersfromschizophrenia3 ай бұрын
Thanks for the comment! I have not taken the auditory test as when I am in my typical way of living I have no issues with sounds. It only happens to me during psychosis. But I can see how during psychosis I interpret sounds differently but it’s not just limited to people talking. Even a noisy air condition unit is talking to me at that point. I am on 12 mg of paliperidone. Like with all meds, docs know best. Just putting it out there to raise awareness around meds.
@xRest6843 ай бұрын
@@lettersfromschizophrenia wow I might be in psychosis 24/7, all sounds to me are voices.. it’s very heavy for me than, glad you at least get a couple hours of peace. I’m also starting meds from my doctor too, where you ever this bad like me?
@lettersfromschizophrenia3 ай бұрын
@@xRest684 for me the voices turn 24/7 in what I call psychosis it lasts about a week to 10 days for me nowadays. It lasted months before this and years before that because I didn’t know how to navigate out of it.
@xRest6843 ай бұрын
@@lettersfromschizophrenia hey thanks for replying, so did you get any help from your meds to get out of the years of psychosis? I’ve been on medication for a few months now without seeing any improvement which really sucks for me.
@lettersfromschizophrenia3 ай бұрын
@@xRest684 My length of episodes has gone drastically down but it is a combination of many things. Medication does help me though, I used to think it didn't but it helps me stay out of my head most of the time. Along with Meds, there is therapy that teaches you coping techniques, DBT helps, it helped me. Also, my psychosis feels spiritual to me, so spiritual growth has also helped me I think come out of psychosis. I feel like I am involved in spiritual warfare without wanting to be a part of it. To me my voices and negative thoughts feel like a spiritual attack and learning to navigate this has helped me be in reality more.
@daisymei-oy3xs3 ай бұрын
Hope you are better now. Your videos, especially this one, are helping me understand what a family member is going through
@daisymei-oy3xs3 ай бұрын
Thank you for making these videos. Your explanations are clear and to the point. You are also very calm and grounded. It helps me understand what a family member who recently had their first psychotic break is going through.
@lettersfromschizophrenia3 ай бұрын
Glad you find the videos helpful! Hope it gets easier for both the family and your loved one going through it!
@AlexandraCouvertier-pd3kl3 ай бұрын
This is so slam dunk spot on I get so paranoid and frighten from the entities just makes me tremble and shiver inside with a sense of impending doom but this is the best description I have heard for what is occurring
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You seem to know during your episode that you are having a psycotic episode or a delusion. Does the denial go away and you realize you have bizarre delusions?
My son suffers from persucatory delusions that he is going to be murdered by a group that is after him. He does not have any recognition that he is in psychosis after 6 months. Im trying to assure him he is safe. I dont know how to get him to willingly examine his ideas.
ur blessed with good friends bro
bro same telepaty thing happened to me, i thought it costed money to talk tho haha, then it transitioned into war with god, ai trying to take over and control god which is me xD its funny how all the psychotic episodes are kinda similar in one form
More like my first experience lettinf demons attach to me. Also you can clearly tell this man opened himself up to demons bc of the belief he had “we are all infinite beings” and “infirtile love energy” yea that’s all bullshit from the demons. Thwy decieve ing you and you lettin them that’s why they was able to fully connect to you and make you “schizophrenic” which is really just them revealing themsleves to you and only you and no one else around them. They’re spirits so of course they can reveal themselves to only you and no one else bc they’re not physical
This is so important! Thank you so much for posting this!
Such an amazing person. May God continue to Bless you.
Wonderful! So easy to understand! Thank you for being so aware of and able to explain your feelings!!! You have been beyond helpful in aiding my understanding for my friend! Thank you.
Thank you for sharing your experience. When I've experienced psychosis I carried alot of self blame around for losing my grip on reality but your calm demeanor and casual tone describing your thoughts made me feel like maybe it's not the end of the world or something to be embarrassed for after all so that is very much appreciated. God bless! ❤️
I’m so sorry that you’re struggling with psychosis I’m so sorry 😔 🙏🏾 please stay strong and continue to take care of yourself 💜 the telepathy part was actually relatable to a lot of people here on earth. Wouldn’t that be cool if we could hear each other’s thoughts.
اتمنى لك الشفاء أنشاء الله يا أخي ❤❤❤
So is like if I suddenly started to dream while being awake, mixing up my real surroundings with hallucinations and interacting with it. 🤔
I never had bipolar,mania or schizo but i took antidepressants for first time 6 mnoths ago,called Tritico Trazodone i felt like have bipolar or something! Vision of grandeur,was sure im winning lottery,i was controled by that vision,half of day i was day dreaming violently that im winning lottery,i felt like im posessed by a demon,i was realising this may not be true,but i was so sure i feel a paranormal expeirence,despite being aware it may not be true! The day dreaming was so violent,the images i was having not as hallucinations but inside my head,like when u remmeber soemthing have that image in ur head,i was having those,,it was fucknig crazy! Having this violent day dreaming mixed with episodes of my body shaking like im posessed,felt very real. I experienced how is like ot have bipolar or schizo! In a way ws interesting but just for a short while! Im done with antidepressants!
i follow being factual about things, ignoring the philosiphy, works well
hello, i had it twice, right now im on resperdon tbh its a funny experience, pray for me and thanks for taking this step of being open about it, lots of stigma for it for sure 😊❤
I’ve actually found the more open I am about it, things get easier for me. It allows people a chance to adjust to me in a positive manner, and gives them a chance to see people functioning with it.
Good luck on your journey friend. You got This.
I have just the same connection to nature experience he describes.
I seriously think psychosis is what happens when whatever filter there is in our brains that keeps us from seeing the spiritual... Just stops working, leaving us vulnerable to demonic entities and negative thoughtforms. Always take your meds but remember God is always there to help as well, no matter if it is in the form of Jesus, Allah or even Buddha.
I like to relate mental illness with spirituality too
Listening to music, silencing headphones and earplugs work well ❤
Thank you for sharing
Do you hear voices?
Yes, not all the time when I am not in psychosis. It happens mostly when I am trying to sleep or rest. Which is why being engaged in activities helps
What do yo do for work, if I may ask. Thank you.
I work a remote job in IT as a dev
No, it does not. If cannabis causes psychosis, it is coded as a Substance-induced Psychotic Disorder NOT "Schizophrenia".
Thank you so much for talking about your situation. Stay strong🙏🏻
Fantastic✨tyfs ❤
how can you tell difference between an anxiety disorder and psychosis? I took weed and benzos together 2 years ago and my brain has never been the same since. I get thought patterns such as "hes figured us out quick run away" like someones talking in my head acknowledging that i recognise the thing in my head if that makes sense. Ive been treating it as anxiety, but the symptoms, thoughts and emotions are pretty intense
I think anxiety is fear of possible outcomes that stem from real things. Like the fear of crashing not allowing you to drive a car. Where as psychosis is believing in something that is not real to most others, that has become real to you. I have made logical sense of un real things in my head that I cannot unsee. And when I cannot disregard it, I call it psychosis when I start interacting with it, or it makes me dysfunctional enough to impact my life negatively.
@@lettersfromschizophrenia I smoked thc and took some benzo pills 2 years ago and my brain is constantly producing these disgusting degrading thoughts but dont know if its something like anxiety/OCD or pyschosis. Thoughts?
@@techsavytronicstechsavytro528 it happens to me, I get very vile thoughts that are repulsive and I judge myself for having a thought like that. But the more I accept that it is not me and they are a feed from a source unknown. It helps me live. I then get so far from it by engaging in life and routine, that I don’t think those thoughts anymore.
So you have psicotic episodes and still smoke up? Bon voyage…..
I personally do not, but I know of people that do. And its their choice to take part in it or not.
People get spiritual and mystic smoking weed. Little do they know its the beginning of madness.
Individuals that use drugs are likely to be chosen to be used in high technology behavior experiments. When you have a 2 way conversation with those type of things being said to you - it is actually a group of humans using psychotronic weapons. Classic electronic harassment - targeted individuals.
What? Brain-altering chemicals affect the pre-disposed??? Get right outta town!!!!
Thanks for providing this important information so clearly, succinctly.
Very helpful video
A person might come to the realization very suddenly and spontaneously that they're made of jello. This thought just comes to them because the unconscious has this kind of fantasy-like nature where it just kind of tests things and comes up with crazy thoughts. There are many reports of schizophrenics coming to such beliefs that their bodies are made of glass or wood because the unconscious presents them with this idea. The people you speak with in your dreams are very similar to the entities who speak to the schizophrenic. Insanity is a dream which has become real. Very often the hallucinations seemed to come from Gods, Goddesses, Angels and Demons. Early humans were essentially all schizophrenic but as we've developed and become more sophisticated and have moved away from our natural foundations. Our egos have become stronger and we've been disconnected from the forces of the unconscious. So when they erupt forth we find it very strange, alienating and oftentimes very terrifying. However many schizophrenic patients don't experience this eruption of the unconscious all the time. Instead it seems to be triggered by episodes of psychic distress.
I am sorry your doctor told you that. He doesn’t know that. That is what is wrong with mental health they never want to give you hope, which is the first thing they should do.
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This is precise, I work in that field and you're so accurate, thank you
Hey man, have you looked at all into metabolic therapies like fasting or the ketogenic diet to help manage your schizophrenia? I have seen others that have had good results with those methods. Might be worth talking to your doctor about.
Thank you for your comment. I will definitely look into those and discuss with my doctor!
What are some other activities that are relaxing but engage focus? I am in a room alone for some hours but then someone returns in the room, do I have to learn how to be alone completely? And how do I do that if I cannot just do what he did such as leaving that place?
The most relaxing and fun thing I did in my room alone, when I was trying to learn to be alone is learning calligraphy with an oblique pen on rhodea paper. It improved my writing, and I got a few chapters out of my head of a possible story I might finish one day. But the nib sounds on the paper, and the color of ink, the rhythm all were very fun to experience. Also, if you can get your hands on walnut ink, it is fun as it changes color as you write. You dont have to do exactly what I did, your journey is different. So I would suggest if you are with people, be open with them that you need to focus and engage in activities with them such as baking, cooking, riding bicycles, walks, gardening. You can even let people know hey I want to talk less, or more etc. Tell people what you need, and they want to help generally. I just excuse myself to my room when I need a break from everyone. I also, go in my backyard and feel the wind, hear the birds, planes flying overhead, etc. Just enjoy my surrounding without anyone around. Hop this helps.
I also looked into getting better at music. So i expanded on my guitar skills and learned some piano. I utilized youtube to learn everything. Also, I enjoy videos without words. So leather-craft and shoe making videos help. If there is talking, I just mute it.
@@lettersfromschizophrenia Thank you, it took a lot of courage for me to have commented on this video, and I have been feeling more like myself again. And yes while I was sitting and reflecting the other day, I decided to make plans to do the activities that you had mentioned, such as cooking, practicing new skills, and spending time with others.
@@chick2284 You are doing amazing! Good work! Dealing with psychosis is like learning to ride a bike, at first you go a little bit and fall or stop, but you get up and keep pushing pedals to go further. You got this! Thank you for your comment. It keeps me motivated to make more videos.
Thank you for the optimistic and even inspirational video! Only one thing that I was taken aback at was about your doctor who thinks you only have 4-5 episodes left before going completely difunctional. I could not believe my ears that a doctor could utter such a nonsensical and irresponsible thing. No one can see into the future and say exactly what the dynamics of the illness are going to be. Could you please give a bit of a context around this - Why did the doctor say so? Because I just can't wrap my head around it, to be truthful. Thank you and the best of luck with your recovery journey!
I do not know if that is going to happen to me, but I do take the advice of my doctors seriously. I realized during my last psychotic episode that I could not even hold a conversation with people around me because I was stuck in my head conversing with entities and thinking hard trying to make sense of things. I think if this turns permanent I would lose the ability to function normally. If the symptoms i experience during an episode become permanent, I can see that happening. Generally, during episodes, I am very aware that there is a way back to typical way of being, but I was not sure of this during my last episode. Which was sort of a blessing, because it allowed me to seek help from others, not just the experts, but from my loved ones as well. I can only imagine thats what he meant, but his words were "not trying fear monger" but that I probably have 4-5 of these episodes left. Apparently episodes can cause brain damage, that I get checked for during my appointments. They make me do things like move my arms, hands, facial muscle movements. They also ask me questions to make sure its not progressed to some point I think they generally see people reach? They asked me if I felt like things were all around me all the time, like if I was eating the food was behind my head. I thought that was pretty wild, but I dont know, maybe that will be me some day. Anyways hope that provides context, and answers your question. Thank you so much for commenting and watching. It inspires me to make more videos and makes me feel this youtube adventure is worth continuing.
Oh Absolutely! I'm subscribed and looking forward to your videos always, your KZread adventure is worth continuing and I Thank you again, this time for your detailed reply. One more question if you don't mind: I'm new to your channel so apologies if you have answered this question already - Are the episodes you describe "break through" symptoms (occur in spite of you taking medication/s) or you have been medication-free for some time?
@@in-serenesanity4514 They are breakthrough symptoms. I have been compliant with medication for about 4-5 years now. Thank you for the sub!
In the clinicians defense, he may have said it in a context where he was trying to encourage measures to prevent another episode or discourage behaviors that induce episodes. It is a tough place to be in for clinicians. Sometimes you have to be 100 real with patients for their own good. It’s like when a parents gives their child tough love. It’s necessary sometimes.
your wise and empathic words are comforting for me- thank you!
Would you say schizophrenia is a part of your identity now? My experience as someone living with a partner with schizophrenia, is that they are almost like a whole different person while in psychosis. This wouldn't be so hard to accept if they were nice to be around, but it's not nice, they are a lot more irritable, unkind, harsh etc... so I find myself remembering the "old" them, and comparing. Thanks for the video, it really is helpful and interesting and makes me think about schizophrenia in ways I haven't before.
I would say that it is a part of me, and I am much better today at handling it than I was when it all started. Because of the struggles, it has helped me grow in a positive direction. But that is because I am not fighting it anymore trying to fix myself back to something. I have accepted that this is me, and it wont be easy, but I can choose how I react to it. I think people including myself can get frustrated with the constant struggle of negativity. Imagine if everyone was your enemy all the time, and you were still trying to have a relationship with them. I know its not true, my family is my family, but I cant help what I see through them. Living like that is very challenging. And I say enemy because its very negative, demeaning, and scary. But I also realized, I am just as mean without meaning to be mean to it. So really at the core of it its a misunderstanding. I am trying to put something into words that does not make sense at all so I hope its not too far from the point. Thank you for watching
@@lettersfromschizophrenia I think I get what you're saying.. I think! For sure I can see how it would be hard to live with that constant negativity. It's such a complicated situation. I hope I'm an open and accepting enough person to allow someone I love to be themselves and to accept them, flaws and all, good and bad. It gets complicated when my perception is the opposite of theirs, I guess. I perceive them as struggling, distant, paranoid, obsessive and so on. Their perspective of themself is totally opposite to mine - all is well, their truth is the truth for all, they are grounded in reality. Etc. (I can only guess these are the things they think, and from what they tell me). How to live in harmony, and, most of all, without detriment to either of us, is my goal.
@@cass3313 Good luck! Sounds like a worthwhile effort. As with all things, its never just easy, there is lots of opportunity for growth in both directions. Hopefully you both are open to it, your goals are aligned and things smoothen. Thank you for being open to seeking different perspectives on schizophrenia and psychosis. The goal of the channel is to just to be a perspective shared with the hope that it assists people in some way.
Please ask for a blood test for food allergies/sensitivities, there is research that gluten intolerance can make schizophrenia worse and or cause psychosis. I hope this helps someone.
These days it’s probably grown artificially or cross bred, the stuff back in the 60s was probably weaker. I dunno though, just guessing
hey thank you for uploading, ill be trying to do real activities to engage back into reality, just like you.. i have the same exact description of your voices, i like to take 4 750mg GABA tablets daily to stop my brain from thinking so much. have you ever thought about getting a hearing test done. i want to take one soon, as I've heard that when you have a hearing problem your mind will misinterpret words and possibly sounds just so you get a message of what's going on around you. its a condition called APD(Auditory Processing Disorder). i got a question for you, what medication are you on?
Thanks for the comment! I have not taken the auditory test as when I am in my typical way of living I have no issues with sounds. It only happens to me during psychosis. But I can see how during psychosis I interpret sounds differently but it’s not just limited to people talking. Even a noisy air condition unit is talking to me at that point. I am on 12 mg of paliperidone. Like with all meds, docs know best. Just putting it out there to raise awareness around meds.
@@lettersfromschizophrenia wow I might be in psychosis 24/7, all sounds to me are voices.. it’s very heavy for me than, glad you at least get a couple hours of peace. I’m also starting meds from my doctor too, where you ever this bad like me?
@@xRest684 for me the voices turn 24/7 in what I call psychosis it lasts about a week to 10 days for me nowadays. It lasted months before this and years before that because I didn’t know how to navigate out of it.
@@lettersfromschizophrenia hey thanks for replying, so did you get any help from your meds to get out of the years of psychosis? I’ve been on medication for a few months now without seeing any improvement which really sucks for me.
@@xRest684 My length of episodes has gone drastically down but it is a combination of many things. Medication does help me though, I used to think it didn't but it helps me stay out of my head most of the time. Along with Meds, there is therapy that teaches you coping techniques, DBT helps, it helped me. Also, my psychosis feels spiritual to me, so spiritual growth has also helped me I think come out of psychosis. I feel like I am involved in spiritual warfare without wanting to be a part of it. To me my voices and negative thoughts feel like a spiritual attack and learning to navigate this has helped me be in reality more.
Hope you are better now. Your videos, especially this one, are helping me understand what a family member is going through
Thank you for making these videos. Your explanations are clear and to the point. You are also very calm and grounded. It helps me understand what a family member who recently had their first psychotic break is going through.
Glad you find the videos helpful! Hope it gets easier for both the family and your loved one going through it!
This is so slam dunk spot on I get so paranoid and frighten from the entities just makes me tremble and shiver inside with a sense of impending doom but this is the best description I have heard for what is occurring
Thanks!
Hi Moji !! Thank you for sharing ❤
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