I’m Jenna Miscavige. I was born into and grew up in Scientology, and I left the cult in 2005. My uncle, David Miscavige, is the leader of Scientology.
In 2013, I wrote a New York Times bestselling book called Beyond Belief: My Secret Life Inside Scientology & My Harrowing Escape. I've shared my experience growing up in this dangerous and abusive cult on national and international media, including ABC Nightline, ABC 2020, The View, Anderson Cooper, Piers Morgan, and media in many other countries, including Germany, Italy, France, The Netherlands, Poland and Sweden.
I continue to share my own story and highlight others stories here on KZread because the more information there is about Scientology, the less likely people are to get trapped by them, have their livelihoods stolen and their families destroyed. I hope that this information can one day lead to their downfall through criminal charges, public uproar, and revocation of their governmental subsidization, i.e., tax exemption.
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I’m so proud of you. You have obviously grown so much into your own person with acknowledgement that you indeed have thoughts and feelings. You are giving your children a better mom by understanding it’s ok to be angry and process feelings.
But given that a charity like Child USA actually removes children from harms way and abuse in the real world and that most SPTV creators, and their allies so to speak, spreading rarely verifiable information about this or that employee of Child USA in a way that implies the whole company is evil limits (albeit so far they've only succeeded minimally i think ) its ability to do what it has been doing for years because people are being dissuaded from donating to it. Its just it makes me wonder if most SPTV creators and their allies (im not saying you) constantly repeat key phrases pertaining to the abuse of minors in their videos to create the illusion that they care about the subject. They actively try to limit the resources of those who make an actual difference in the world, in other words to try and get me to agree that Mike Rinder is an evil person they are willing (indirectly through sabotage of their perceived enemies) to sacrifice children to the very same kind of abuse they are claiming he knew about and should have reported to the police thirty years ago. Anyway you seem genuine so i just wanted to know what you think.
You showed the street signs. I'm worried about weirdos that can use that to find your location. You can edit it out in YT studio. Thank you for the video. You are a wonderful person!
Hugs. So glad you got out. Thanks for sharing. Frim someone who was in s different cult. Living a full lufe is the best way ti heal
Jenna I'm reading your book right now. I must say, as I'm reading this I just keep saying in my head, oh my God she's a kid & and this s*** is happening to her? These adults should be protecting her. Her parents should be with her. Oh and yeah your Aunt Shelly is a manipulated b****. Then there's that other lady I can't think of her name. I believe she was one of the wives that knew every inch of their husband's bodies, lol, what's the interview with Cooper. She was a raging b****, kissed your uncle's tiny hiney. I'm sorry if I used tacky language. I can't help it. I just wanted to give Jenna the child a big hug, as I'm reading this book. As for this video. Did you ever go through something in life that you were struggling with. Then you hear a song or you're watching youtub video etc.etc. it is exactly what you needed to hear. Because in my life there was a lot of gaslighting going on. in my gut I feel like I should be angry about something. Yet there was a lot of gaslighting going on, yet I didn't see it because it's family, family are not supposed to do that. So it Confusing me. Am I wrong? Am I crazy? That you hear something to were it just clicks, giving you answers, clearing up that confusion. Realizing my gut was right. Remind me family can be buttholes too. Now knowing I was right to be angry. I can let it go. Yet now know I have to set Big time boundaries. Never let people rent space in my head again to where it affects my life decisions. Get off of my bo ho butt, & put my life back on the right path. Surround myself with positive happy good people. LOL, I got all that from this video. Sometimes you find what you needed to hear or help in the strangest place, you never expected 🫶😁 Lol, I do you make the video to help me. Yeah I'm going to selfishly take that help. I would like to give you a big fat THANKS❣️
I am sure many left COS because you were courageous enough to write the book.
My parents split when I was 3. I have a vacant Dad and a Mom as too busy to really be there for me. I never went through what you did, but I always had responsibilities that had to be done just to survive.
👍 Just for support for you and your husband
This is such a good message for everyone. Bad things happen to everyone and it is not a reflection of love. I spent so much of my life waiting for the other shoe to fall, and shoes fall. Allot. After a while your mind is conditioned and it becomes a self fulfilling prophecy. I dreaded and focused on the bad things that happened and dismissed and ignored all of wonderful and perfect things that happen every day, all day. It takes a long time to recondition your mind to see all of the good but it was the only difference between me and the people who always seemed so upbeat,happy and satisfied. I call it “borrowing trouble.” By the time I was finished worrying, plotting, planning on preventing this awful thing I just knew was coming, if it did not happen, it may as well have.
Hi Jenna, Thank You for being open about this message. I experienced this with my most recent romantic relationship. In comparison to my bad-Ex, my most recent Ex was supportive, respectful of my boundaries, and worked hard to take care of me when I wasn't doing well. It threw me off, because previous relationships were with manipulators, and I kept waiting for the other shoe to drop. I also had a recent friendship with someone break up completely because I became his target (and it alienated me from another online community). Seeing this as an adult, I can imagine how difficult it must have been to experience the emotional neglect and rewards/punishment culture of Scientology. It breaks my heart that adults played in to this situation and caused you this deep harm. I return to the paraphrased bible verse: Love is Patient. Love is Kind. It does not Judge. That's how I try to live my life. ~ Indigo-Twin
Great topic and realisations, Love is all about being with your best friend. ❤ Great insights
Your level of insight and self reflection is incredible. And I love the start of your video.
I used to think it was okay to be open and vulnerable, then I joined Scientology. There were certain key moments where I decided to let down my guard and be more vulnerable and that was when I got ripped. They suddenly went from normal to yelling and severely berating me, it was traumatic to say the least, you cant show weakness in Scientology because when you do they will see it as an opportunity to bring you down. Never experienced that in my life before and to this day I struggle to be vulnerable when I never had that problem before. Being treated well before Scientology is what got me out. The most evil, deceitful, controlling, cold organisation and people that I have ever come across. So many beautiful people like Jenna were trapped in there and being abused for the so called greater good.
A counselor once told me I "was the best person at self sabotage' she'd ever worked for. I have gotten better, but still not easy and I can slip back. The good thing is I am aware of it and can continue to work at to 'retrain my brain'. Best of luck to you. You are an eloquent, wise, young woman.
Everyone has a different interpretation of love. The obvious one is the caring and sharing concept with a partner, The usual love with friends, loved ones and children. Ive learned over the years that love doesn't have to be all physical between partners. I can have a deep connection with a partner by just being on the couch watching something on the television with their head on a pillow in my lap and me running my fingers through their hair or running circles on their back. There can be a deep satisfaction with a connection that doesn't always involve a physical interaction. If a couple can have a relationship that has soft touches and kisses. Holding hands and feeling deeply in tune with one and another. I think people lose track of the simple things because they are taught that love involves, only involves physical touch that leads to a roll in the sheets. I guess Im old fashion. More couples need t try the simpler things and might be surprised how deep of a connection they create....Thanks again Jenna for a great topic.. I always looks forward to your new videos/
🤔It would be difficult to put yourself first if you're taught that the individual doesn't matter. You've done admirably well for yourself. When I read your book right after it came out, I saw you as extremely brave for speaking out at all. But to write a book, that was beyond courageous.
Bless you Jenna… the degree you’ve had to untangle the web you were spun up in is quite amazing🌷
What other thing I thought about listening to this today is I have decided I’m not going to apologize for being myself anymore and that if someone doesn’t love me for who I am and I sit there and think that maybe I’m the one picking the fight maybe I’m just not with the right person and that’s kind of where I’m at with this.
It even goes back to when parents tell their little girls that if a boy is mean to her, that means "he likes you." So essentially, being treated poorly equals love. Absolutely disgusting.
The part about needing drama is very helpful. One problem with that is attracting a romantic partner who also needs drama.
Thank you for sharing. You are so thoughtful.
Your little sock feet in the intro. So cute Jenna. 😂❤
Thank you, for sharing this video. It resonated with me, and made me feel like that I’m not alone in the world and that sometimes things do hurt but it’s not OK that they do. I appreciate this share.
You really have a beautiful way of expressing your experiences, it helps me in the healing process from a 20 year abusive marriage.... it's been some years however I am still trying to find myself.❤I can't wait to read your book as soon as I am able to $$ it. Not that your book is expensive, just been " a journey " for me. Your voice helps ❤
Replay crew😊I appreciate you and your voice ❤
It's ALL reLIEgions!! It's ALL Christianity!!
Very much like narcissistic abuse…
Hi Jenna, I love how you speak to us as a friend sitting outside, having a lovely day, drinking tea. I love your thoughts and I am glad you want to share this with us. After all that has happened in your life, you turned out to be a wonderful person. Still with so much love inside. Stay you girl. You can be proud of yourself. Stay save girl. Enjoy life❤
❤❤Hi!! I just subscribed...❤❤Been watching you and Aaron. I'm a huge fan of both of you. Haven't been in S. I am a survivor of a crazy family however. Its imprinted me for life . My son had me focus more on today...noticing my triggers and wanting to be better and stronger for him. I'm allowed to be triggered...its what I do next that can help me become who I'm meant to be today. Breathe first and hug myself. Proceed with love leading the way. Thank you for your beautiful shares.❤❤
It’s so amazing that you are doing this hard work at 40, Jenna. It’s still hard for me at 60❤
I realized four years ago that I have fear of abandonment. I have for a different reason. This year I reread your book. I though I recognized the fear of abandonment in your book when Dallas was separated from you.
I have been working on not self sabotaging myself for the past year. It can be so hard.
Be proud of your self awareness ❤
That was excellent Jenna.
My love life is destroyed, I had a crush on my supervisor at Flag but as soon as she realised she was attracted to me she treated me really badly (my very presence seemed to trigger her). Lacey Hollingsworth was her name. I hope she see this one day. I bet there are many closeted lesbians in their dying in relationships with men or they probably don't even know what they are because they are too scared to even think of what they might be which is what happened to me. As soons as I had the thought ...I might be a L........ I stopped the thought dead in its tracks...because I thought that the e-meter would pick it up so I repressed it and brushed it under that carpet really quickly.
I just found Tim Fletcher last week, amazing, help me to see somethings about my childhood too that lead me to falling prey to a cult!
Wow, you are an intelligent, insightful woman! You communicate your ideas very clearly and you are just adorable! Thank you for sharing, it helps me to heal from Scientology too!
Love this, its also refreshing that you are having open conversations with your kids. That builds relationships in deep and meaningful ways. Knowing our history (and our families history) is important and can sometimes help shape them in ways we may not know until years later. ❤❤
I love so much that you are speaking out more now. You have tons of support. I have been a long time watcher/listener!
#nomorekidsinscientology
You have the most beautiful disposition (and beautiful on the outside too, my friend). 💕 I’m just here to support you. I’m so glad you found your way to YT to speak up about Scientology!! 😍
Those messages you received from COS were gaslighting and extremely abusive crazy making. This is so sad.
Am koving your book.❤❤
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Very insightful.
So glad you have beauty, friendship, love, and joy in your life!
Jenna love all your intros, so creative! The Dahia’s are stunning, just so beautiful, thanks for sharing your thoughts and experiences!!
You never lost your voice. That is gold..
great insights!
Such profound wisdom and interpretation of how Scientology really hurts people... the things done to children is horrible! You are definitely on your way!