Lauren Rose

Lauren Rose

iamlaurenrose.com

Author, mama, and anxious folk.

Where Have I Been?

Where Have I Been?

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  • @christopherkuhl1537
    @christopherkuhl15373 сағат бұрын

    Gotta remind myself; There is no such perfect time to go out 1. They’re not thinking about me and have their own lives 2. I don’t always need validated emotion from another person 3. It’s okay if I am by myself doing a thing out there 4. You are not being seen doing anything wrong 5. You’ve been alone in an apartment this long. What’s the difference?

  • @sprigs08
    @sprigs084 сағат бұрын

    I can relate so much xx

  • @crispytoad
    @crispytoad2 күн бұрын

    I hype myself all night. I wake up and I'm back to avoiding life. It feels like insanity. If I dont change my routine, Im doomed.

  • @samsbin
    @samsbinКүн бұрын

    I'm the exact same right now. It's terrifying how I can be so desperate before going to bed yet when I wake up my brain tells me everything is fine just sit at your desk again.

  • @josepedromachado902
    @josepedromachado9023 күн бұрын

    Hi! I've been dealing with this for 10 years and I'm at a breaking point starting exposure therapy. Is there any way I can contact you and ask you a few questions about life after agoraphobia?

  • @Caitlintg123
    @Caitlintg1233 күн бұрын

    I feel like you’ve just read my story word for word! I started getting agoraphobia symptoms after lockdown and I became housebound last year. It started getting better for me with walks, going further as soon as I felt more comfortable. It’s been 9ish months and I can now drive around my town (mostly), I’ve been to the gym, went shopping the other day, things I could only have dreamed of a few months ago. Some stuff is still a no go and it’s such a longgg process but thank you for giving me some hope that it is possible to get back to normal. Also a hugeeee well done to you, it’s so much harder than people will know.

  • @barbaras5874
    @barbaras58746 күн бұрын

    Shouldn't a person not push themselves too far at first?

  • @longlivecrow
    @longlivecrow6 күн бұрын

    What an episode! Thanks!

  • @lillianadragon
    @lillianadragon6 күн бұрын

    Thank you for posting this ! It really helped me.

  • @LaurenRose.
    @LaurenRose.6 күн бұрын

    I'm so glad it helped! ❤️

  • @baylamakarov8701
    @baylamakarov870110 күн бұрын

    I’ve struggeled with this since I was 10. I’m 23 and can count on 1 hand the amount of times I’ve slept away from the house. I’ve missed out on travel, college, and work opportunities. I don’t have friends anymore. After so many years of living a shell I honestly don’t know what my next steps will look like.

  • @rebeccahallberg3830
    @rebeccahallberg38305 күн бұрын

    Go easy steps every day, expouser terapy. Littlebit by littlebit you will see progress whitch will motivate you more

  • @diannthus
    @diannthus13 күн бұрын

    Thank you so much for sharing your experience!! Very uplifting ❤

  • @joanadarc0000
    @joanadarc000013 күн бұрын

    Thank you so much for this message and your videos in general ❤ I experience really harsh physical symptoms with agoraphobia and it's been so hard getting out into the world again. At first I thought there must be something going on with my heart or my gut and I got so many medical tests done, but they all concluded the same: it was a pretty extreme psychosomatic anxiety. Now I know I just need to learn that it's okay to feel nauseous or dizzy or agitated while doing all those things that scare me but I really want to do (like traveling or hiking). It's not about fighting anxiety but embracing it without so much suffering. Your videos are helping me a lot, I wish you the best!!

  • @DelusionalGemini
    @DelusionalGemini14 күн бұрын

    I’ve been like this since the start of pandemic in 2020, I’ve left my home a handful of times from then to now…the thing that stops me is I feel like I’m going to burst out in tears and I hate crying in front of people. I make it a couple houses up and then that feeling comes over me and I turn back around. I want to enjoy life again. I have hope, I hate feeling like a prisoner.

  • @dstroviolin
    @dstroviolin13 күн бұрын

    I wonder how many people have similar stories to yours. Lost in the obvious scientific part of the pandemic, and the horrible fact that it was politicized, is the mental health toll it has taken. It’s just not healthy to feel trapped, to feel confined, and for those of us who have dealt with anxiety through our lives, a pandemic is the last thing we needed. Yes, the pandemic is technically over but those other aspects remain. I for one understand how this horrible experience has taken, and is still taking, a toll on the sensitive among us. You’re not alone.

  • @lakeside4218
    @lakeside421815 күн бұрын

    I always resonate with your videos Lauren! I hope things ease up for you soon

  • @LaurenRose.
    @LaurenRose.6 күн бұрын

    Thank you - I so appreciate that ❤️

  • @codaliddell
    @codaliddell17 күн бұрын

    I watched your video and then instantly went for a local walk; it's been a while since I left the house. Thank you!

  • @LaurenRose.
    @LaurenRose.16 күн бұрын

    This is the best!!!!! 🥰🥰🥰🥰

  • @the.kai.eros.experience
    @the.kai.eros.experience19 күн бұрын

    Wow. The alien feeling of seeing other people have fun. Yes. I oscillate between extremes. I face terror and go to events and have a blast. But then I wake up the next morning and feel frozen again. Every day is a battle beyond words. I’m fucking tired.

  • @Gabrielarubii
    @Gabrielarubii20 күн бұрын

    It’s been over two years since my agoraphobia journey started. I couldn’t leave my home for months and it took a lot of exposure and practice to feel more comfortable leaving the house. I have now traveled to San Antonio, Dallas, Houston, Corpus, basically all over Texas by Vehicle. My next big step is flying. What scares me about flying is the thought of not being able to get off if I need to. I just don’t want to feel the intensity of a panic attack mid-flight and create a scene. I’m also afraid of landing at my destination and immediately regretting being so far away from home. As mentioned in the video, these are just creative ways that our mind thinks of in order to hold us back, to keep us “safe” when in reality we are safe. I’m scheduling a discovery flight this coming week for exposure and practice with flying. I can now leave my home comfortably, I can go out, I can do road trips. Now I just need to fly so I can travel.

  • @elliemews9003
    @elliemews900320 күн бұрын

    I know exactly how you feel with the feelings of hopelessness. My anxiety keeps going in cycles of suddenly getting really bad and then even going anywhere out the house feels awful 😮‍💨 almost 30 and the panic/agoraphobia hasn’t improved overall greatly

  • @LaurenRose.
    @LaurenRose.16 күн бұрын

    I'm sorry to hear that, Ellie. The cycles can be a lot and it can be so jarring to go from generally good to that debilitating fear again. Sending you love while you navigate this period of new (and uncomfortable) growth. ❤️

  • @makeanddohandmade
    @makeanddohandmade15 күн бұрын

    I try to trust that every time I circle back, I have a new tool to help me get back on track with more ease the next time 🌸you can do this

  • @longlivecrow
    @longlivecrow21 күн бұрын

    The queen has returned!!

  • @LaurenRose.
    @LaurenRose.16 күн бұрын

    aww haha I appreciate your positivity! (also I won't lie, this comment went straight to my head 😂)

  • @thebigscreentheory
    @thebigscreentheory22 күн бұрын

    I just most say, it was seeing this video that made me not lose hope for recovery... and look at more now!

  • @carlenewalters6981
    @carlenewalters698126 күн бұрын

    I can relate so much!!! I’ve suffered with health anxiety / agoraphobia for 4 years now. But looking back to how I used to be, I’ve come on so far!! My goal that my therapist asked, was to be able to fly to Greece from the UK to see my parents. In April 2024, I flew, by myself (and my daughter) to Greece and I made it! Every little win keeps you going and makes you realise that it is really just in your head. That little anxiety voice that used to be shouting at me, is now a little whisper 😁👍 wishing everyone struggling the best and keep going!!!

  • @das_ist_auto
    @das_ist_auto23 күн бұрын

    Are u taking meds?

  • @user-gh7et7fh7n
    @user-gh7et7fh7n28 күн бұрын

    I could relate to this videos among every video I saw! I never felt scared to watch this. ❤

  • @user-gh7et7fh7n
    @user-gh7et7fh7n28 күн бұрын

    I think I also have agoraphobia-panic-anxiety attacks because I really get to have the attacks, meaning, out of breath, hyperventilating and all. I can go out of the house if it’s our familial house we’re referring to, i can walk up to the market and convenience store but when I stay at our couple’s house which is farther from my comfort zone, i could not even go to the corner lot alone unless I have someone with me who knows my condition. I resigned from work because Ive become anti social in a way. I could not commute for years already and could not go out far away from home alone. I could not drive anymore along the highways because I get scared when it’s traffic, i begin to feel suffocated and claustrophobic. Now we’re scheduled to travel far but im really really scared to go even if i’d be with someone who knows my condition. I avoid a lot of situations that I feel so unsafe. I think im partially agoraphobic and at the same time have stress related panic something. I hope I could also help myself because I also feel alone and helpless. Plus the fact i have never tried riding an airplane because im scared that i might have attacks and the plane could not land to help me. 😢

  • @puregaming2398
    @puregaming239829 күн бұрын

    i subscribed. you are the key . thank you in advance.❤

  • @courtney3477
    @courtney3477Ай бұрын

    This is literally the same thing I’m going through. I’ve tried many medications I tried CBT none of which helped. The only thing that helps along with my current Ssri is benzos and they’re so addictive so I need to be careful with them. It’s a vicious circle. I’m going to try exposure therapy. It’s so hard to start just thinking about having panic attacks 😩 I need to do it though! You’re an inspiration

  • @yahyabullit2919
    @yahyabullit291913 күн бұрын

    Take magnesium tablets it helps you stop your panic attacks

  • @PokeMike
    @PokeMikeАй бұрын

    I just want to say a huge thank you for making this video. Although I’m not completely homebound, I cannot get on public transport without panic attacks and the thoughts of how I will be so anxious and scarred that I won’t be able to get the return journey. This has now affected me everytime I drive myself anywhere. I have also read DARE and as you say the motivation you get from books is amazing. I just wanted to ask though what do you think is different between what DARE suggests you do vs what you did. You still just put yourself out there and made yourself experience the anxiety and panic. I find if I expose myself on days I don’t feel like it and have a super hard time, I actually make things worse and trigger more anxiety. I’ve noticed this when I’ve really made an extreme jump in with exposure therapy. However if I don’t do it, I feel like a failure and that I’m making things worse because I gave into the anxiety so it seems like a loose loose for me. On those harder days where you decided to not do the difficult things were you just kind to yourself and say there’s always tomorrow, today just isn’t a great day? All the books and therapy suggest this isn’t the best way but sometimes it’s just too much, I force it, then for a week or so my anxiety is way worse from forcing through the panic! I really appreciate this video and your insights and I’m glad you are much better!!! 🫶

  • @amandamarie3e
    @amandamarie3eАй бұрын

    Thank you for this video. I’m currently struggling with a bout of bad agoraphobia. I just started daily walks, I’m hoping I can come around soon and be able to start living my life again.

  • @jennifergraham5950
    @jennifergraham5950Ай бұрын

    This is the third video in a row ive watched of yours, cannot stop crying! Never felt so understood. Thank you.

  • @TobeyTobez
    @TobeyTobezАй бұрын

    God bless you

  • @judeskingsbury5549
    @judeskingsbury5549Ай бұрын

    This has been sooooo helpful! I have developed agoraphobia after being ill in a foreign country (where I moved to with so much excitement and enthusiasm almost two years ago), for three months. I got so used to hiding and not interacting with people except for essentials. I have to just get out and see my world again, and stop searching for fix its, which I have been obsessively doing. Thank you!

  • @UN1XZ
    @UN1XZАй бұрын

    I have my sisters wedding in a week and ive been slowly driving towards the venue. It is only an 18 minute drive from my house but it just feels impossible. I am terrified that I wont make it there or that I will ruin the wedding somehow. The most terrifying thing for me above all else is the drive and I mean both drives the one to the venue and the one home. For some reason lately the drive home is sometimes just as bad and my main anxiety symptom that I am feeling besides panic is the intense tight rippling feeling over my heart almost like its being squeezed. I tapered off medication last year and have just been trying to get better. I took medication for 6 years and they only made me worse and I mean a lot worse. Ive had anxiety since I was a kid but nothing compares to the attacks I had on medication and the ones I am currently having even though the attacks since stopping have been a fraction better.

  • @ellyw389
    @ellyw389Ай бұрын

    Thank you so much for sharing this❤

  • @mokari9268
    @mokari9268Ай бұрын

    I love your style. Thank you for sharing on the topic.

  • @iichakoo
    @iichakooАй бұрын

    I need some help from the ladies here, This is embarrasing for me to say but I really do need advice. I’m 12 turning 13 next month, and I got my first period about 6 weeks ago and it wasn’t that bad, until I needed to shit. I had terrible anxiety that when I went I would bleed and it made me terrified and I ended up having constipation for days and days which made me feel so uncomfortable. My body finally forced me to go and it was awful I felt like I was gonna throw up and it was painful and scary. I got my second on the 14th, and I have this same phobia. I tried to change my mindset but I can’t and the same thing is happening and I’m scared of bleeding loads. I’m in discomfort and it’s making my cramps worse. I really do not know how to solve this and I fear what’s going to happen and my next period and it’s making me miserable. Please help me and give me tips ☹️

  • @withlovelica
    @withlovelicaАй бұрын

    This is what I love about KZread…you know you are not alone! And people from all over the world go through the same thing. :) thank you. I have been dealing with anxiety and my triggers are ever-changing, I do not know what I will be fearing next - peeing, pooing, difficulty in breathing, fear of having a heart attack hahaha I am amazed I am still here battling it on! 😂I think one of the things that helped me was humor hahahaha just trying to laugh at the silliness of it all while going through it.

  • @Bee-mi8ml
    @Bee-mi8mlАй бұрын

    This is me! Mine started with dizziness and has left me housebound for 15 years. I’m scared to go out alone because the anxiety is so great that I feel Like I will faint and humiliate myself. Thanks for your story and input. Slow and steady but I’ll get there:)

  • @TheMarpleholmes
    @TheMarpleholmesАй бұрын

    Hi 😢 I’m a teacher in Malaysia, and recently I’ve been feeling exactly as you have described in your video. It started around November 2023. At first, I didn’t know what it was.. after doing some research, I realised it’s called toilet anxiety. It’s more like “what if I need to go, is there a toilet nearby?” I’ve also been observing myself, often when I feel trapped like in someone else’s car or a taxi or bus (a situation where I can’t control), the feeling will seep in, my heart will beat faster and faster and at some point, I really feel like crying as I start thinking, what if I need to go to the toilet now? Recently, my hand start shaking, but I tried to hide it and distract myself by watching KZread so that my friend didn’t notice (we’re in a taxi). Once, it was in the middle of manicure pedicure session, the water was warm and there’s a fan blowing straight to my face, my body just didn’t feel good, I asked the staff to stop and rushed to the toilet, luckily the toilet is just next door. I also feel like I can no longer go anywhere without checking is there a toilet nearby, even when my friend uploaded her trip in Japan on Instagram, I would ask “Is it difficult to find public toilets there?” I am not like this before. I used to go camping, hiking and travelling. I even used to travel by bus long distance when I was a student. Now, I’m starting to hate myself… As a teacher, sometimes we need to travel by bus with the students, I always fear that day will come, and I feel stressed thinking about it. In my country (Malaysia), people have started to recognise mental health treatment, but normally it’s related to other causes like the loss of loved ones or depression from studying etc not something like toilet anxiety. I’m so afraid that people will ridicule me if I tell them how I feel. I’m really worried….

  • @ess3360
    @ess3360Ай бұрын

    I'm going thru this now, I'm starting to have my breakdowns since covid I have gone downhill fast. Been stuck in my house for 4 yrs now. Also, the world the way it is now makes it even more challenging. Many folks not very nice currently due to political reasons (I'm gay, so doesn't help even had a dentist treat me badly because of my lifestyle, clash in belief system & I'm not religious I digress...) I've had this before 10 years ago when I had to leave abusive EX....but anxiety wasn't as bad - luckily, I have wife is dr. and I have therapy but I lack friends as many are lone gone because of the pandemic and other reasons unknown.--It's been hell for me- I try to go out and sometimes I'm able but last couple of months is just not good. I do have panic disorder and have meds but I still have to deal with sudden attacks. For me, medication is necessary. Thanks for sharing.

  • @rostone24
    @rostone242 ай бұрын

    Thank you for this. You’re awesome and a blessing.

  • @opencurtin
    @opencurtin2 ай бұрын

    I’ve developed this since Covid or should I say it’s gotten worse I’m in freeze mode, I’m on Duloxatine for social anxiety as well . My self esteem is very low and this adds to it . I’m thinking of going on a group holiday as o don’t have any friends left unfortunately.

  • @ellyw389
    @ellyw3892 ай бұрын

    thank you!

  • @truehuman9449
    @truehuman94492 ай бұрын

    Thank God as i am not alone.

  • @lisb6655
    @lisb66552 ай бұрын

    I stayed in a motel for the first time in 7 years it was huge for me

  • @june1319
    @june13192 ай бұрын

    Could you please say if you had your first child while on an AD? Thank you in advance.

  • @LaurenRose.
    @LaurenRose.2 ай бұрын

    My first child, i was on an antidepressant for the first few weeks of my pregnancy and then again from halfway through the third trimester. With my second, I was on an antidepressant for the entirety of my pregnancy.

  • @june1319
    @june13192 ай бұрын

    @@LaurenRose. thank you for your response! I’m not going to ask how your kinds health is - I believe that are well!! (Even though you probably know that this question is the main one on the minds of those who consider have a child on these drugs).

  • @tommyvandenhoute
    @tommyvandenhoute2 ай бұрын

    I experienced my first panic attack a couple of years ago. I was commuting to work on the train when I suddenly felt something akin to an electric current coursing through mij body. My heart was racing, I experienced an enormous pressure on my chest. It felt like a heart attack. Medical examination showed no somatic disorders so I eventually ended up in mental health care. A psychiatrist diagnosed me with panic disorder and agoraphobia. Treatment started with ssri and therapy. Currently I'm doing better. I still suffer from chest pain and certain things are still complicated but overall I am optimistic. When I look back at it now I even feel gratitude, because it learned me to validate my emotions and the resulting bodily sensations

  • @anjalibarmase370
    @anjalibarmase3702 ай бұрын

    One thing which help me is that i take a little time for me before work and make sure that i poop properly so that i am relieved 😌

  • @jfgghjdf
    @jfgghjdf2 ай бұрын

    do you still get adrenaline rush??

  • @whoknowsnugget
    @whoknowsnugget2 ай бұрын

    a year ago my agoraphobia started with a stomach flu!! recently i’ve developed it again and i feel like nobody fully understands me and it’s so nice to know that im not alone, i went on my first walk today and also to a store!! still not feeling super great but i don’t want this to ruin my life anymore. i hope everyone else fighting with this finds something that helps them even a little bit :)

  • @judeskingsbury5549
    @judeskingsbury5549Ай бұрын

    I believe our gut and brain connection can cause this, as mine set in after months with an intestinal parasite infection. Crazy! Home bound for three months and NOT normal for me.

  • @mariarooney6262
    @mariarooney62622 ай бұрын

    I’m proud of you for deciding when it was time to go back on your medications. Even if you went off for months and the medication was out of your system, you don’t know for sure what would be in the other side. I just went through the horrors of withdrawal and wouldn’t give up, now I’m left with not being able to hardly function, fatigue, feeling and thinking horribly. I regret going off because of some side effects, but when I was in them I was functioning even though not exactly the way I wanted. It’s all about the root of the problem. The antidepressants don’t get to root. I’m at the root and it’s not good. I might have to go back on and start all over again, if it works because I’m extremely sensitive to side effects. You do what you need to do for your life. I’m proud of you that you are being so honest especially about the prideful thing. That’s a wonderful admission in knowing that. You are brave and courageous. Always be true to yourself inside. Most of the crying and other emotions are from the medicines. I empathize with you. The only one that can truly help us is God. He knows your body, mind, spirit and will guide you to what’s correct for your body.❤️

  • @RareGem369
    @RareGem3692 ай бұрын

    Thank you so much for having the courage to share your story! I’ve been battling agoraphobia for almost 3 years now, I can leave the house but I just find it difficult to go further than a 1 kilometre radius. I’m also dealing with long covid and peri menopause so my hormones are all out of wack! I feel like hormones internal health, gut health plays a big part in why we could start having panic attacks that can lead to agoraphobia. Our gut is literally our second brain.

  • @sonamchodon2852
    @sonamchodon2852Ай бұрын

    Exactly on same boat here..

  • @RareGem369
    @RareGem3692 ай бұрын

    The isolation part is very deep because I cut myself off from people because I don’t want them to sense my negative emotions. Because the frequency of fear and anxiety act as a repellent that people can feel! 😔