"If you could read my mind, you'd be in tears" -The Joker
Call me Hazel. I also love my nickname Haze‼️
she/they/her
Hi, I'm Hazel and I make gacha and sped up music/playlists and rant content. ✨
My channel is a mix of stuff, so feel free to subscribe.. or not 💅
Cisgender female
Straight
ILYGUYS SFM 🩷🩷🩷
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why cant anyone like me for who i am?... <3
Time stamps :) 🥱🥱🥱 0:00 All I want is you 2:16 Freaks 4:27 Christmas kids 6:31 Jealous 8:53 Bubble Gum 11:12 Feel Better 15:00 Nobody 17:16 Alien Blues 19:29 505 23:05 Cigarettes out the window 25:53 Devil Town 28:38 Michelle 31:36 My Alcoholic Friends 33:46 I hate my mom 35:53 washing machine heart 37:40 TreeHouse 39:41 Rat
Started at 12 n never got fully healed even after 2 yrs.
100% sure i have autism/am autistic, but no one would belive if i don't explain it all, even worst, if i do explain how i think i might have autism, they question me more
summer boutta stunt my growth.
I have been told that im depressed and i have anxiety. This playlist sums it up real quick of how i feel on a daily.
wait so I have a question so this is kinda weird but do you play meep city and have your name as hazel?? just wondering because i feel like u might be somebody i know
It's sad how parents just don't understand why we cry.. Don't they understand were scared? Don't they understand were sorry? You curl up in a ball and cry and they tell us to suck it up? I'll tell my mom how I feel and I get called sensitive? Why can't you understand.. We're only children.. We don't know any better as much as you do!! I hope you guys stay safe and if you feel abused or suicidal.. Call someone to make you feel better!! ✰
Some people in my class talked about how weird I am, that I'm sick for being an autistic person. After days, I'm finally crying thinking that I will never be treated like a "normal person" because I was born this way. They are always finding reasons to hurt me in some way, I don't feel it at the time thanks to my friends and logical thinking, but sometimes I just remember their words.
js wanna vent even its at nothing: i know im not a good friend but when i needed them the most with a handful of random pills, all i got was "you're just on your period" "stop overreacting." "honestly deserved it since you're a bitch" i feel bad for feeling mad now. i cant help it. looking through our texts makes me wanna rip my skin off. the only reason they replied to me at all in the first place was so i could help with homework :)
2022: I don’t feel like me..2023: I don’t like me sometimes.. 2024: I hate me.. now: I’m getting better!!!! Life and thoughts:no. You never will. Me:why..
Remember if im not dead now I WAS WHEN I WAS 7-10
My brothers boyfriend made me be like this He made me sh He called me names He teased me And my brother broke up with him and casted a spell on his ass And I am so happy because now because of him I am back with my dad and I am 10x happier than I was before More rambles He made me run away He made me snuck a phone 2 times in my house He made me "a broken record" He made me sneak the vr to watch youtube past bedtime And I did the vr and phone thing bacuase I am an addict to the phone and he never handled it in a healthy way More rambles He made my bothers mental health ten times worse He made MY mental heath worse too He said he would laugh at me when I came to my dads He made me feel bad about my personality, looks, words, feeling, and actions He was never supportive He made a joke of me His family made a joke of me and my brother He made a mess and never cleaned it up with me and my brother He made my triggers worse He fucked me and my brother up so fucking much but now we are away from him and 10x happier then before More rambles He was lazy He induced suicidal thoughts on my brother and me And he made my brother be so love blinded he join his bullshit on me Thank for listening to my rambles and my vents and sorry you had to be involved Have a great day and remember shine bright because your a star and when your at you lowest there is still hope even if doesn't look like it ❤❤❤
IM LATE AF. SO TWEEK IS ALIVE???
Your playlist is honestly made by GOD
currently chugging a bottle of rum in my room to this song while crying. My mom blamed me for having panic attacks and for TAKING A FUCKING SHOWER and now i'm drinking my life away because "I'm just girl"
After 10 days i have a think that's somedays are again That's makes me sad and interes, they dont care that i feel weird im trying to be the best version of me🥲
The thing is that we can’t trust bugga either . They r horrible to so
want to ask permission to vent. am 11 yr old and really need to get this of my chest so if you can let me vent to you please reply..
Hey you can totally vent, (just so you know I wouldn’t put your age out on the internet)
Oh my God please put this on Spotify❤ I love it!
100 reasons to stay alive: 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your Favorite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you are religious) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone like you. 75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships. 76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person. 77. Joy and happiness in the little things. 78. The power to inspire others. 79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression. 80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life. 81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet. 82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family. 83. Learn new things and develop new skills. 84. Create a legacy that will outlive you. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Cuddles 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it.
I can't even vent to my friends because I don't know where to start. I don't wanna get better anymore. What's the point? I deserve it right? My whole existence is a sin. I'm bisexual, bigender, and muslim. How the fuck does that work. I can't fucking do this. I don't even know how to end it. I wanna stay. But I don't want to. How the fuck do I decide? I don't know if my parents want me. they're not proud that their 'gifted" kid is actually a fucking mess. I hate my skin. I wanna rip it off. why can't I rip it off? God, it's so disgusting, why is it here? Take it all away. Stab it. Scratch it off. "you're so mature for your age!!" Oh I fucking wonder why, mom. i wonder why, dad. My parents went through worse. Is this generational trauma? I don't know. i just wanna leave. Why am i here? Fuck it. Fuck it all.
im crying right now and only because this play list reminds me of my grandma who died.
After I told my parents about how much I’m suffering from anxiety, the title wasnt a POV anymore. I never thought it would end up like this…..should have kept all that to myself shouldn’t I
i recently relapsed for a kinda stupid reason, and I honestly just feel horrible. this playlist helped me cheer up a lot. tysm <33
My friends call me autistic because im like- sick at reading, and math..They say im smarter because of autism idk what they mean though, not being rude but i dont think i am idk..Also the space song kinda made me cry at the “im on your side” because when i was listening to it, that lyric played at the exact moment my mom left after saying im useless and dumb-😅(I confide in internet strangersz :D)
I wont vent considering that has lost all purpose to me in any way. but great playlist
“I’m so sorry..I just want to be your dad again..” “Please give me a hug.” “Please..just one hug”
I'm not mentally ill...It's just I'm weird
Ya and I'm not depressed, I'm just lazy. Please, sugar, if you need someone to talk to, I'll be here.
@@Mr.happy689 Thank
The way this society has made kids feel like they need to grow up faster, it’s genuinely so sad because you should live your childhood to the fullest. Coming from a person who was forced to grow up fast
im really struggling right now my home life is shit and my friends that ive told about my family says that im being abused but i dont think i am and im scared because both me and my boyfriend are suicidal and so are a bunch of our friends so im scared my family my family will get so bad again that ill attempt and it work but my boyfriend will off himself too im so close to just ending everything but i cant because im the reliable friend that everyone talks to about their problems and everyone leans on and yeah i like knowing they care about if i live or die but i hate being responcible for everyones well being
why every one better than me??? i'm try hard very much, i don't sleep all night to studying, i drink a lot of coffee, although feel tired and stressed, idc and keep studying. But why? why noone think i'm work hard, they just thought i'm lucky, and they doesn't study any time but they just better than me??? there's not fair, not fair, not fair, not fair!!! what about me??????
All these songs are on my playlist 😢
I hate myself.
TW(s): vent, mentions of suicide and failed suicide attempts, near death experiences, mental illness, hospitalizations I’m not a kid anymore, but I’m still young. I’m 19, and I’ve had mental health issues since I was 9. So ten years, I’ve suffered. I’ve watched my diagnosis’s go from depression and anxiety, all the way to schizoaffective (bipolar type), anxiety and ptsd. It’s hard. I’ve been hospitalized a total of 7 times since age 14 up to 19. They’ve all been for suicidal reasons, including one failed attempt when I was 16. I thought I was getting better, then at 17 I almost died of an accidental overdose of medication prescribed by my psychiatrist. I developed severe ptsd from it. I just want to be normal. Right now, I’m on medication and stable, but I still occasionally wish I was dead c:
I’m glad you’re doing better. I have been suicidal recently and probably have mental health problems. But it’s really hard to tell anyone because they just think I’m not trying hard enough or they will think I’m crazy. I just want to be normal too.
I can't do this anymore my parents are always yelling at me i'm losing everyone and everyhting i have nothing left i dont know what to do with life i cant do anything without breaking down every 2 seconds i cant even take pictures without crying idk what im doing wrong ive got suspended 3 times my bestfriend introduced me to weed and alchohol got me addicted to weed and just dropped me today when its effected me worse then it has her it's ruined my life all this in the past 5 months keep in mind im 13 ive been to a mental hospital have 2 attempts i have a therapist i have to go to so many med appointments im tired of all of it im addicted to sh and idk wtd anymore i was doing really good i was clean for months until i got sent to my mental hospital im failing all my classes except gym im currently sespended
Best playlist i've heard so far thank you so much this is helping me a lot
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U : r doing great G: good person L: lovely eyes Y: ou are here that’s all that matters
The title matched me perfectky
I have this one friend lets call him "p" so p and i are really good friends i told him everything and hes my best friend because he hasn't treated me differently just cuz of anything yesterday i leaned hes going to a different school for grade 8, i only have 2 more months left with my best friend.
who am i anymore?😶🌫
Я из России и обожаю многие песни отсюда,мне комфортно сидеть и слушать эти песни вечером
Funny thing about this is the songs are a vibe, but my mom(the one who is more in charge in my household) doesn't believe I have any brain sillies. Of any kind. It hurts in what is likely a similar way, because she still acknowledges that my brain is different. She said that I have "always thought divergently" to my doctor, for goodness sake!
So this is a vent..so my grandmother makes a big deal about grades and i had failed a semester but i wasnt learning. She said that i could have asked anyone to help me, but there has been to many times that people has said no and to figure it out urself so i didnt ask for help. And i told her this bit she made a big deal out of it and she is always saying something about my grades about how i dont try but im always TRYING. But back to the whole thing abt the not learning, i cant learn just reading something that is not something im interested in (this class im talkin bout is math) cuz i cant focus on it, that ive got adhd (maybe autism idk my dads gonna ask to get it checked for me) but she says that i could read a book in a day with out getting up, ofc i can cuz it interests me. But she has done this to many times. SHES DONE IT ON MY BIRTHDAY W/ MY BSF THERE! It like do you not know that i felt like a fùçkin failure, that i haven't been beating myself up abt it... Ive always been the As and Bs 'girl' so i get why shes upset but she keeps on saying im makin up excuses... Anyway i hope yall have a good day/night
Your grandma is being an asshole, the best thing you can do is ignore her. Many people won't get it, they'll say that you're not trying hard enough, that you're lazy. It's not true. You know that's not true. Ignore those idiots. Be neurospicy, we can hyperfocus. Those neurotypicals are boring. You got this! You win this queen!
Wake up its 2018 you just fell asleep outside silly
I wish
Wake up its 2018 you just fell asleep outside silly
Yeah…That is how my caregivers see me. I think that is why they just lost hope for me and just don’t comment about my future.
i love youtube play lists so if im at school i can listen to this and work 😁
Me who actually has mental health issues: …❤…