Kavi Jezzie Hockaday

Kavi Jezzie Hockaday

Integrating spiritual awakening and emotions, relationships and the body.
Visionary poet, teacher, guide and musician. Harnessing the power of words to unveil the profound essence of life, while offering transformative experiences that awaken the deepest chambers of the heart.

Answering important questions for the spiritual seeker:
Are there techniques that can bring me nearer to inner freedom?
Do I need a teacher?
What happens to emotions after awakening?
How can I live my realization or glimpse of awakening?
Why do I keep being hooked back into the story, why do I become reactive again?
I realize that I’m nothing other than consciousness, but I haven’t had a radical, life-altering shift like the ones I read about. Does this matter?
I keep forgetting and being sucked back into the old patterns and stories. What can I do?

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  • @jangoodwin4196
    @jangoodwin41962 күн бұрын

    Thank you.

  • @YouAreLight
    @YouAreLight2 күн бұрын

    Beautiful 🤲🌺🌹🌸🦋 Thank you.

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji2 күн бұрын

    Thank you x

  • @deb4610
    @deb46102 күн бұрын

    Beautiful ❤

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji2 күн бұрын

    Thank you Deb x

  • @BertScholl
    @BertScholl2 күн бұрын

    Thank you 🙏🏽❤️✨

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji2 күн бұрын

    Thanks Bert. x

  • @fernandatellez5866
    @fernandatellez58664 күн бұрын

    Thank you for the reminder. ❤

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji2 күн бұрын

    Thanks!

  • @romwiz2010
    @romwiz20105 күн бұрын

    OK

  • @jamesthomas1244
    @jamesthomas12446 күн бұрын

    Thank you Kavi. I have been blessed with energetic and crushing sense of contraction within; a claustrophobic protective shell against life that is here 24/7. So my path is crystal clear. Silently accept and lovingly open into the depths of these feelings. Feeling that before drove me to attempts of suicide. Perhaps the biggest trap is opening to them as a covert maneuver of trying to get rid of them. Which is not love. What is hidden slowly becomes apparent in the light.

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji6 күн бұрын

    @@jamesthomas1244 beautiful. Yes to all you say James.

  • @robertarnone220
    @robertarnone2208 күн бұрын

    Facing the shadows and darkness, I’ve learned to be comfortable in going outside my comfort zone. I remind myself daily to keep going…

  • @J0D51
    @J0D5110 күн бұрын

    I can really relate to your journey. Not having acheived anything in particular, in the conventional sense. Being a misfit and poet. The hardest part for me I think was treading water, so to speak, until i was either willing or able even, to enter my own forest. I spent many years hanging out largely in the witness state. Waiting but not knowing I was waiting; trying to convince myself that I had 'arrived' but really, I was afraid of entering into the darkness, but not quite knowing that either. Many times over the course of years since my intial awakening I staggered and stumbled around the fine line between the knife edge of now and a psychotic abyss. And whiile i have proufound compassion for myself in this regard now, I know too that this journey does not need to be that hard. Its is not like that now. And the reason for that is that, at long last i began to turn fully toward the pain. fully toward the darkness as you put it. And your right it is not easy. But it is damm sight better than waiting in a kind of strange no-man's land, constantly trying to hold back a fecking ocean of unmet fear and anxiety and sadness and grief. thanks for your message Kavi. Its a really good one. Keep at it.

  • @jamesthomas1244
    @jamesthomas124410 күн бұрын

    "I know the terrible truth of darkness, and I say, bless the darkness, for in darkness I stumbled and fell upon the crystal road. After years of doubt, the dark mind turns again to light. In the black mountain of the heart, I found my way home again. I am that light in the darkness. I am a diamond, a bright secret veiled in black cloth. The light beyond heaven is the light within." --- Egyptian Book of the Dead

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji10 күн бұрын

    @@jamesthomas1244 wow. That’s it.

  • @Amorcomacento
    @Amorcomacento10 күн бұрын

    Forests of shadow ❤ I'm there to! No idea at all!

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji10 күн бұрын

    I know that forest well. Keep walking. x

  • @Kerry-ft2zf
    @Kerry-ft2zf10 күн бұрын

  • @Stopwrongdoing
    @Stopwrongdoing10 күн бұрын

    Love you man❤

  • @natalienuttallinnatewellbe1771
    @natalienuttallinnatewellbe177110 күн бұрын

    It is indeed a wild ride. Thanks for all you share 🙌

  • @titanalpha4774
    @titanalpha477411 күн бұрын

    ❤ poetry in motion. Truly

  • @Kerry-ft2zf
    @Kerry-ft2zf12 күн бұрын

    I used to be so loving & openhearted. My heart closed because of trauma & heartbreak. But it opened a bit yesterday. I just feel exhausted unable to do anything today.

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji12 күн бұрын

    Opening what has been closed can be exhausting. The creaky doors, the tight muscles, the rigid survivalism all start to loosen up, even if it's just a little. That causes an energy movement which can feel exhausting. Be kind.

  • @titanalpha4774
    @titanalpha477411 күн бұрын

    Rest, recover, heal...... But get back up and get after it!! The only way out....is through.

  • @gkopij
    @gkopij13 күн бұрын

    Well spoken.

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji13 күн бұрын

    Thank you 🙏

  • @lainas3603
    @lainas360315 күн бұрын

    Perfecf

  • @russellwalker3830
    @russellwalker383015 күн бұрын

    My narrow focus doesn't ever allow me to get into politics, but in my own journey, truth has definitely now come to forefront of my spiritual search. First, I always had a kind of shallow pride about being the honest one, since pride has always been a thing of sore lack in my life. Even this is a kind of humble brag. So honesty was a part of my ego. Which I think makes me lucky. And then, after a few years of strong spiritual interests, I started all of a sudden noticing how truth was a big buzzword in spirituality. And I didn't understand what the fuss was about, or what it was supposed to mean. It seemed very abstract, and everyone seemed to have something elaborate to say about it. But I didn't at all identify with it, or the concept of truth on my journey. Then, my personal identification with being honest with others and with myself, my long experience of really thick abusive deception from certain kinds of people, the spiritual breakthroughs that were happening during my total rock bottom year living homeless in a bush, and this buzzword in the spiritual community called truth, all aligned to reveal to me that this mysterious truth thing was something I already knew, and everyone already knows. And it's honesty. The experience of it was fairly impactful. I remember being convinced it was the experience of God. That I had encountered God and Gods all knowingness. But slowly I kind of settled to the maybe conclusion that it was just a really jarring psychological experience of temporarily not being able to lie to myself. So jarring it seemed mystical, and possibly omniscient. Since then, even though I still don't really have a thing for the "Truth" bandwagon, I somehow have steadily ventured closer and closer to it until it has now ironically become something I sort of commune with. Sort of like God. Yet, I don't know why I'm saying all this, other than it certainly is tainted with the motivations of fear and desire from this human system. So, it's not meant to represent truth. I'm just talking out of a kind of loneliness, and pride.

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji15 күн бұрын

    Thanks.

  • @jamesthomas1244
    @jamesthomas124415 күн бұрын

    Regarding politicians -- they appear to have a type of 'integrity' or honesty in that they remain true to their pathological BS.

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji15 күн бұрын

    A kind of narcissistic integrity 😮

  • @karimsabry9502
    @karimsabry950215 күн бұрын

    Bloody brilliant - champion video 🏆🏆🏆 thanks!

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji15 күн бұрын

    Thank you! x

  • @jamesthomas1244
    @jamesthomas124415 күн бұрын

    Thank you, Kavi. “The amount of light you emit is not based on how positively you think, it’s about how much of your darkness you can accept.” - Kyle Cease

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji15 күн бұрын

    That's a great quote James.

  • @ginevrajdeluca6589
    @ginevrajdeluca658916 күн бұрын

    💯🙏💞

  • @8anby
    @8anby17 күн бұрын

    Appreciate your thoughts and words brother.

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji17 күн бұрын

    Thanks so much x

  • @jorgedaly1618
    @jorgedaly161817 күн бұрын

  • @russellwalker3830
    @russellwalker383017 күн бұрын

    On a somatic level, I notice that whenever I'm caught in one of these ways of running away from the discomfort, I'm sort of holding my breath. And then consciously breathing feels almost painful. So I've been learning to do uncomfortable things by remembering to breath.

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji17 күн бұрын

    In many ways breath is key. I remember this for myself. Deep emotion locked up in shallow breathing and restricted breath. And releasing the breathing inevitably releases discomfort and pain. x

  • @sarahbee593
    @sarahbee59315 күн бұрын

    You're sooooo right! I passed by a guy in the park a few months ago who had climbed a 5 foot chain link fence barefoot to retrieve a volley ball. He was perched on top and preparing to jump back down again, assessing and planning. Can't remember what I said as I passed, but he said, "It's ok. I just have to breathe." And then I watched him relax his body, breathe in and out a few times, and jump back down onto the sidewalk in a beautiful, seamless movement. No shock or pain. I've been carrying that moment with me to remember in times of psychological stress, and it does work as you say!! There are two benefits. It feels uncomforatable to relax and breathe. But then... breathing facilitates staying with whatever is causing discomfort.

  • @russellwalker3830
    @russellwalker383017 күн бұрын

    I watched three videos so far and the resonance with your words is deep. The tenderness part moved a lump through my chest

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji17 күн бұрын

    Thanks for that. Glad there is some resonance x

  • @ginevrajdeluca6589
    @ginevrajdeluca658917 күн бұрын

    Right-on. Many of us were poorly raised, developing an aversion to the RIGHT HAND via being spoiled and coddled at one end of the spectrum, to mercilessly abused / neglected at the other. The middle way = way of awareness. Good parenting = proper discipline along with sweet softness: The darkness and light of love. We need to parent ourselves into seeing the beauty and necessity of BOTH aspects as one

  • @ginevrajdeluca6589
    @ginevrajdeluca658918 күн бұрын

    So beautiful 🙏❤️‍🔥

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji18 күн бұрын

    Thanks! x

  • @shekhinah5985
    @shekhinah598518 күн бұрын

    My awakening process started in 2020. Since then a lot of trauma that was previously suppressed came up. My left side of my chest is now often in great pain. Is this already the re-experiencing and I just have to welcome and embrace the pain or is the re-experiencing a second process where I have to go to a past event and re-experience that event. If so: What if I don‘t remember the event, can‘t visualise it and the event is from a time where I still was a baby?

  • @shekhinah5985
    @shekhinah598518 күн бұрын

    The interesting thing is: Although the pain doesn’t seem to go away I‘m not pushing it away anymore, I react less emotionally from inside that pain and I can now be in great emotional pain for days or even weeks and still be happy. I‘ve grown a lot over the last year. In fact I’ve grown so much that I‘m beginning to wonder if the pain just will go away on it‘s own when I‘ve reached a certain strength level.

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji18 күн бұрын

    @@shekhinah5985 This is your answer. " I‘ve grown a lot over the last year. In fact I’ve grown so much that I‘m beginning to wonder if the pain just will go away on it‘s own when I‘ve reached a certain strength level." You don't have to remember everything that happened, it's impossible. What you are doing and the decrease in reactivity is the journey. It does its thing when you allow it. Don't look for the results, just pay attention and love the journey as best you can. x

  • @J0D51
    @J0D5119 күн бұрын

    A lovely simple message. How often I have refused to meet myself in the simple ordinariness of everyday life, out in the market place, as you put it. And I agree that is where true transformation happens. IT is so easy to get stuck in the comfort zone of the witness state. Landing into my human body with all its messiness and vulnerbility and absolute ordinariness is really where its all at. Thanks for sharing this.

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji19 күн бұрын

    Exactly. Embracing the grit of the everyday is the test of our spiritual depth and realization. Thanks for your comment.

  • @jamesthomas1244
    @jamesthomas124422 күн бұрын

    Thank you, Kavi.

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji22 күн бұрын

    @@jamesthomas1244 thanks James 🙏

  • @Corteum
    @Corteum23 күн бұрын

    Rituals are superficial. Just go direct via mediation and breathing.

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji23 күн бұрын

    When rituals are a communion with life they are not superficial. When they are done without communion, without love, they may be superficial, but they cannot be simply dismissed. Did you watch the video?

  • @Corteum
    @Corteum23 күн бұрын

    @@kaviji Youre right. I was incorrect to say that theyre superficial. what i meant more was, are they necessary? Or is it really a matter of preference?

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji22 күн бұрын

    @@Corteum Got you. No maybe not necessary. But some want/need, long for, a daily return to grace. That might be meditation or contemplation. But necessary, probably not.

  • @jorgedaly1618
    @jorgedaly161824 күн бұрын

    Beautiful!

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji24 күн бұрын

    Thank you x

  • @ginevrajdeluca6589
    @ginevrajdeluca658924 күн бұрын

    🙏❤️‍🔥Beautiful poem, beautiful soul

  • @lindaimpens6361
    @lindaimpens636128 күн бұрын

    So warm, pure, vulnerable, genuine, authentic…

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji28 күн бұрын

    Thank you. x

  • @jimoreilly4309
    @jimoreilly430928 күн бұрын

    This resonated deeply with me - as I've gone through this too. I'm a musician - I will put your poem to music 🎶 Thank you 🙏

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji28 күн бұрын

    Great, let me hear what you do if you want. Glad it resonated. 🙏

  • @iAmingAsLLD
    @iAmingAsLLD29 күн бұрын

    Thank you for continuing to share Kavi

  • @danigomes6969
    @danigomes696929 күн бұрын

    Beautiful, thank you so much. I needed this.

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji28 күн бұрын

    Thank you!

  • @jorgedaly1618
    @jorgedaly161829 күн бұрын

    Dear Kavi, thank you.

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji29 күн бұрын

    Jorge x

  • @jangoodwin4196
    @jangoodwin419629 күн бұрын

    Thank you so much. Thank you for continuing to offer words and poetry of truth and beauty

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji29 күн бұрын

    Thank you! x

  • @susannabreinholt4135
    @susannabreinholt413529 күн бұрын

    Dear Kavi - Thankyou for this beautiful and loving drop. Think of the conversations we shared a few years years back, and how I felt meet and understood in the gentle guidance you provided, wish you the very best. Love Susanna

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji29 күн бұрын

    Susanna how nice to hear from you! Yes I remember our time together well. I wish you all the best now and always x

  • @susannabreinholt4135
    @susannabreinholt413528 күн бұрын

    @@kaviji 🙏❤

  • @jamesthomas1244
    @jamesthomas124429 күн бұрын

    I enjoy your ramblings. Thank you, Kavi.

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji29 күн бұрын

    James thank you x

  • @spartakus
    @spartakus29 күн бұрын

    Thanks!

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji29 күн бұрын

    Thanks!

  • @zacmente-cammarano8023
    @zacmente-cammarano802329 күн бұрын

    Beautiful man 🙏

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji29 күн бұрын

    Thank you x

  • @jamesthomas1244
    @jamesthomas1244Ай бұрын

    That's beautiful, Kavi.

  • @kaviji
    @kaviji29 күн бұрын

    Thanks James.

  • @jamesthomas1244
    @jamesthomas1244Ай бұрын

    Yes. This is a key insight -- that the "troubles" that follow us are drawn to the light. Looking forward to your new book; The Ragged Way. ;-)

  • @kaviji
    @kavijiАй бұрын

    Embracing the mess of the past.

  • @Rtbs467
    @Rtbs467Ай бұрын

    Başı yok mu bunun ortasından olmuş anlaşılamıyor 👀

  • @kaviji
    @kavijiАй бұрын

    Your comment doesn't make any sense? Can you elaborate?

  • @BrigittePatrice4750
    @BrigittePatrice4750Ай бұрын

    The Ego mind has enslaved us

  • @kaviji
    @kavijiАй бұрын

    Yes it really has.