I can't imagine what his dad felt knowing his son had been building his own suicide instrument all this time. Rest in peace Boyd, and strength to his father.

@MissBunny850

2 жыл бұрын

He didn't want to live anymore... we can all say if only what would of... but he

@hollystiener16

2 жыл бұрын

His dad shouldve gone in there while he was building it.

@randomentertainingvideos3545

2 жыл бұрын

@@hollystiener16 The son was 36, I think they were used to living there own lives, and also, if it was near Christmas than you never can guess what is going on with woodworking projects, it defiantly wasn't the dad's fault.

@hollystiener16

2 жыл бұрын

@@randomentertainingvideos3545 I see what you're saying. But they said the son was showing many signs of depression on top of that. Just the combo, I would check on anyone living in my house. However, I am sure the father had and has so much grief over this that I couldn't blame him.

@randomentertainingvideos3545

2 жыл бұрын

@@hollystiener16 Yeah, but he also thought he was getting into a new hobby.

This was a sad story. I hope his dad isn't buried in guilt. He was trying to be supportive and could not have known.

@mmp3pets

2 жыл бұрын

if he was a real Dad and man he would have opened the door in HIS OWN HOUSE. He reaped what he sowed

@paigekrzciok9681

2 жыл бұрын

I can’t stop thinking about what the poor father saw. I mean imagine the state he found his sons body in.., He not only found his son dead but decapitated by his own doing. The father has to have nightmares about it. 😢

@kcb8130

2 жыл бұрын

@@paigekrzciok9681 could've been avoided if he'd opened the door in the months before

@user-987ki34t

2 жыл бұрын

@@mmp3pets It’s easy after the fact to say, “well the dad should have checked,” now that we know the outcome, but he was an adult in the construction industry who appeared to be working on a woodwork project.

@mmp3pets

2 жыл бұрын

@@user-987ki34t WRONG!! he was an effed up person his whole life. Again so you understand, It was the FATHERS house, who KNEW his kid was fucked since birth, any REAL man or FATHER would have dealt with this years before it happened. It was his house, if the adult son wanted "privacy" he should have gotten his own place. Bottom line, he FAILED as a FATHER, MAN, and HOMEOWNER

When he started describing the woodworking sounds I thought he was maybe constructing a gallows. But after he said it's been around since 1789 I knew what it was. What a very sad story, for both men.

@donovanphillips4507

Жыл бұрын

Same.

@MasterMirror

Жыл бұрын

same

@ericaespinosa4030

Жыл бұрын

That is what I thought too

@frankienichols5135

Жыл бұрын

Likewise, the ‘crash’ sound he described made me think of the trap opening and rope tightening almost simultaneously, the year was a dead giveaway that I was barking up the wrong tree

@carolynwelsch

10 ай бұрын

Yep. First thought that came to mind was a guillotine. He's(John) such an excellent story teller.

This was so wholesome to start with, Robert is the dad everyone wished they had. I hope he is healing and im so sorry for your loss 😞

@signtureautodetailingsanti4213

Жыл бұрын

That’s what’s wrong with society. Parents afraid to be real parents giving their kids (grown ass kids still living under their roof) too Much slack

@federicopobiati8773

Жыл бұрын

@@signtureautodetailingsanti4213 bro what are you talking about🤦‍♂️

@investigativeoutcomes9343

Жыл бұрын

@@signtureautodetailingsanti4213 🤦‍♂

@amsyarrahman9728

Жыл бұрын

Its so long ago. I'm sure he's already healed.

@rmcar549

Жыл бұрын

NO! I definitely don't think that Robert - a man so completely OBLIVIOUS & uninvolved to not notice that his son was constructing a gigantic guillotine in his bedroom alcove- is the type of parent one wishes for. Respecting your kids privacy is one thing but having absolutely no knowledge of their activities to the point you're enabling them is quite another. As a mother of four who's also a mental health professional I'm gonna have to disagree with you on this one.

This is just depressing.... Can't imagine how his dad must be feeling after discovering the truth.

@feliciaburton5309

2 жыл бұрын

was fhis fathers fault

@ginosko_

2 жыл бұрын

What was the son building ensidee his room?

@louisecoffey9843

2 жыл бұрын

@@feliciaburton5309 Dont be stupid. Its no ones fault when someone commits suicide. What a stupid thing to say.

@piperatthegatesofdawn

2 жыл бұрын

@@feliciaburton5309 please, never have any children

@jacethamane4430

2 жыл бұрын

@@ginosko_ did you watch all of the video? it was a guillotine

Poor Robert, he was just trying to be a good father by respecting his sons privacy and wanted him to enjoy a hobby, this must’ve killed him when he found his son, that’s genuinely heartbreaking.

@jewels964

2 жыл бұрын

I feel so bad for dad. I know as a mom I would beat the hell out of myself saying why didn't u check sooner. Why didn't u ask more questions. U should have. U could have. But it all hindsight...dad did the best job he could and was def trying to respect his sons personal space. Heartbreaking 😓

@mreaper4905

2 жыл бұрын

@@ultimaterurish you sir, are the devil

@jewels964

2 жыл бұрын

@@lilo4399 do u have kids? BC I'm thinking not. When u have a child u will do ANYTHING to keep them happy and healthy. And when a child is struggling with depression u don't get a handbook and I know if this happened to one of my kids I would be devastated and I most def 100% would think I should have could have done more. Fine if someone is hell bent on taking their lives it doesn't mean u don't still try to help.....why why would u ever just be like oh well they depressed they prob gonna kill themselves anyways so fuck it.

@astaraoneill9166

2 жыл бұрын

@@lilo4399 , many, many, many people have been saved from suicide because somebody cared, and never tried again. Many potential bridge jumpers gave up their plan because of a bridge watcher who spoke with them with compassion. It is NOT their destiny or their fate, it is a choice, and a choice that can be and IS changed by kind human interaction, and connecting with another human with kindness and compassion is not a God complex, it is simply being human, at its best.BTW, most survivors of suicide by jumping say that the second they let go, they regretted their decision, and wished they had not done it.

@nekowatt2402

2 жыл бұрын

@@lilo4399 I understand where you're coming from but your conclusion is just something else entirely. People aren't as evil as they seem. A lot of us have some sort of instinct to selflessly help others. It's just something we have within us. We have the ability to be compassionate and kind to each other and help each other out in times of need. There is no god complex going around in these cases. We just want to help. I understand that our death is inevitable and it will come but in this such situation? Come on, his son has contemplated it for a long time now. If he were to at least open up to someone and spill whatever darkness is pushing him then at least something could've been done. It's a sad story because there were so many possibilities where help could've been sent. If it was a freak accident then this would be a different situation. It would still be sad but there's nothing that could've been done. It's not egotistical to help others. I absolutely hate that mindset. Okay I will admit that narcissists exist and some of them do thrive in support communities but that doesn't mean that everyone is the same. There are good people out there who just want others to have a better life, one that doesn't end on a sad note.

I pity the father. He'll never get the image of his decapitated son out of his mind. I do hope he finds some measure of peace.

@ilacallya324

Жыл бұрын

I guess I don't need to watch this now....a$$

@banjokazooie8124

Жыл бұрын

@@ilacallya324 Your comment was unnecessary and unacceptable. This video deals with a serious topic and the only thing you're upset about is the fact that someone left spoilers in the comments? Who raised you?

@aerostrafe1075

Жыл бұрын

@@ilacallya324 Or or or or or or or or or or or or or or or . Watch the damn video first then go to the comments?

Robert lost his son, a passion for wood working, and gained the trauma of hearing his son die. Thats awful

When I first started watching I thought to myself “man this is so easy, this guy just tells these stories and gets paid” but after binge watching for days I realize that what Mr Ballen does isn’t easy at all, he must read like a maniac and research all day. To be able to tell the story like he does is truly amazing.

@jenniferdickinson-hanley4874

2 жыл бұрын

Story telling like John does is a gift and talent.

@nathanhurst3192

2 жыл бұрын

Psure he reads a script like anyone else who does this type of thing.

@lesliemiller9286

2 жыл бұрын

@@nathanhurst3192 but he still has to do hours worth of research to even begin to write that script. It’s a lot of work!

@darthsidioustheemperor7976

2 жыл бұрын

@@jenniferdickinson-hanley4874 writing a script is hard, even with all the details laid out in front of you he has to right it in a story format and not as a documentary style righting it' does take a while

@junaydfisher211

2 жыл бұрын

@@darthsidioustheemperor7976 also considering the subject matter, it certainly can't be east. It's hard just listening to some of these stories, I can't imagine the pain of having to do all the research behind them.

His dad was so supportive of him! Then to end up finding out that this is what he was doing all along, I can't even begin to imagine how he felt. My heart goes out to the father and the rest of the family.

@bombomos

2 жыл бұрын

Sometimes no matter how much support you give won't be enough. It's sad.. I can't image

@HighTreason007

2 жыл бұрын

@@bombomos u look goodt. 😍

@unavoidablycanadian397

2 жыл бұрын

What did Boyd make? 😬

@glorygloryholeallelujah

2 жыл бұрын

My thoughts exactly! I can’t even imagine how absolutely heartbreaking it was/is for the family (especially the dad!) 🥺💔

@tr6524

2 жыл бұрын

@@unavoidablycanadian397 a guillotine

I struggle with depression issues myself but I can’t even imagine the amount of pain you have to be holding to build your own guillotine to commit suicide. Three months of working on it and hiding it, and swallowing so many sleeping pills hours before the decapitation to ensure the job is done. The only thing that I keep getting caught up on is the willingness to leave such a gruesome scene for his father to find. Not many people can say they have parents that care, but Boyd did. His dad seemed devoted to his son and it breaks my heart knowing that he’s probably going over everything still to this day wondering if he could have stepped in sooner and helped. One things for sure, Boyd did pass some of his suffering on to his father. That’s one of the few reasons I stay on this earth, for as much pain and trauma as I’m holding I’m only going to be passing it on to friends, family, and whoever finds me. I never want my suffering to end at the cost of everyone else around me suffering as well (obviously exclusionary of terminal illnesses).

@mab5710

2 жыл бұрын

wont dont commit suicide stupid. stop faking it. literally 80-90% of suicides are men, typically lonely men like Boyd socially excluded by women like you. Las 10-20% are females seeking attention or superficial self harm like they would when cutting but accidently overdosing.

@VeracityLH

2 жыл бұрын

I understand, being in a similar position. ((hugs))

@Hanavannin

2 жыл бұрын

The best thing anyone ever said to me after my suicide attempt was " taking your life doesn't end the pain, it just passes it on to someone else" and that has stuck with me ever since. It's been the only thing that's kept me going sometimes

@oluchiehirim1074

2 жыл бұрын

Jesus Loves u, He loves us all, just give Him a chance and u will see, everything will be just fine, I used to be depressed at some point but Jesus gave me a reason to live and He can do the same with u as well 😊

@hoodieap2858

2 жыл бұрын

@@Hanavannin that’s the most cringiest and guilt trip statement I’ve ever heard

I lost my son in an accident 10 days after he turned 10 yrs old. No parent should ever have to bury their child but I cannot imagine the pain Boyd’s father must have been in! He was just trying to be a supportive parent! You feel so much guilt anyway just for being alive when your child isn’t, I can’t imagine the added guilt of knowing that was going on right under your nose! Prayers for Robert and the rest of Boyd’s family!❤️

@emgothgirrrl

Жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry for your loss

@angeliqueulrich5269

Жыл бұрын

❤❤❤❤

@lauraelizabeth4444

Жыл бұрын

🙏🏽❤

@mebutnotme.Khan78

Жыл бұрын

I am so sorry for you 😥

@missmcphee8859

Жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry for your loss!

It took him over 2 months to build this. I wonder if he was buying time to talk himself out of doing this, or if working made him more determined.

@prettyhatemachine8887

2 жыл бұрын

Seems to me like a convoluted way for a religious person to take their own life, but without actually being the one to "pull the trigger" on themselves. That, or was afraid of the dying process, so he found a way to not afraid be aware at the time of death. though if that's the case, then he could've just overdosed on sleeping pills with alcohol and prevent himself from being aware att of death that way, so so unless he wasn't aware of that option - which he most likely was if he researched enough to create this mechanism - then the first option seems more plausible,

@LS-ti1rz

2 жыл бұрын

that question is irrelevant! The young man took his own life! Done! Over with! I understand I believe your curiosity but what is your rational? I believe the only thing that seriously comes to mind is how in the hell could his father allow his son to go so long without inspecting what the hell is he up to?

@HoneyBeeForMe

2 жыл бұрын

@@LS-ti1rz His father was just trying to be supportive. How would he or anyone for that matter have ever guessed that this is what he was building? For all he knew his son could have been building a nice hang out space in there.

@LS-ti1rz

2 жыл бұрын

I understand being supportive but being a parent many times is so so much more than being their "friend" It means at times you may have to get up all in their business because young people do really stupid shit. I should know I was young once. Just think about it for one second just one second! His son was making all kinds of noise and acting a bit out of character for well over a month. Just imagine if the father would have been like "Oh hell no! and busted down the door or waited to the son went out somewhere and made his way into his room and saw what it was that he was building? Do you think he may have at the very least have a conversation with him about the item he was building? Bottom line if dad would have did what I just stated maybe not 100% but maybe his son would be alive today. We cannot allow our children to do as they please without checking up on what their up to every once in a while. Its NOR violating their privacy! We as their parents have an obligation to make sure our children are not getting into shit that isn't good for them. I can't think of anything more that proves the point that I'm trying to make than what this young man did to himself!!

@HoneyBeeForMe

2 жыл бұрын

@@LS-ti1rz I think you are getting a little heated. I understand that you’re upset about this case. It’s very hard to understand why he would do this. I’m just trying to understand what the dad was doing too. The son was an adult. Not a child. Also we weren’t there. We don’t know all of the details about what was going on day to day or what their relationship was like. This may have seemed like his son was getting out of a funk because he had a hobby like Mr Ballen said.

The part about his dad knocking on his door and then leaving for work despite not getting an answer hits hard because that’s how my mom just barely missed finding my brother after his stroke. He was in the shower, locked the door and then the aneurysm burst. About 30min-1h later mom is on her way out the door and tries to say bye… no response. (He’s neurodivergent so silent treatment from him isn’t uncommon) She’s running late so she leaves. Everyone else in the house is asleep or busy for the next 12+ hours. He laid there in the tub with 3 people just beyond the door and his brain swelling for over 12 hours and no way to alert us. He survived but is permanently paralyzed on his right side and blind in one eye and it’s a fucking miracle he’s with us.

@mohammadtayyab456

2 жыл бұрын

Aye man I feel so bad for your brother, hopefully he is doing well not just only being alive but hopefully he is also happy and in a good state mentally. Make sure u try to make his life as good as it can be. It must be hard on u and your whole family, prayers to your family and hopefully everything works out 🙏

@MJ-oi5wb

2 жыл бұрын

I hope you don't blame your mom or are mad at her. It's different being a parent than a sibling.

@UniqueornBacon

2 жыл бұрын

@@MJ-oi5wb oh I don’t blame her at all. I just know she blames herself and there’s nothing we can do to make her stop. It wasn’t her fault (in fact it was my brothers own fault for the choices he made that led to his health) but she will never be able to let go of how she was RIGHT THERE on the other side of the door.

@lorisinclairminor

2 жыл бұрын

Wow sorry to hear this but glad he survived

@farrahfeathers6668

2 жыл бұрын

The same thing happened to my father, so I feel your pain. He was left paralyzed on the left side of his body and mostly bed ridden for the remainder of his until he past away 5 years ago. Not a day goes by that I don’t miss him and wish that those of us who were at home knew something was wrong sooner. I’m happy he is still with you , God Bless you , your brother, & your entire family

I've never heard of someone putting so much time and effort into this. Talk about determination! He never wavered, he had a lot of time to change his mind. This was definitely not an impulse.

@MrBallen, I find the fact that you are a proponent of mental health care and often post crisis numbers in your stories to be a strong indicator of your character. Too many of our brothers and sisters lose this battle each day and many of those who don’t are of an archaic mindset against getting help. Thank you for all you do to help!

As soon as he mentioned 1789, I knew. Absolutely mental. Hope Boyd is at peace. And that poor father, absolutely supportive till the end. What a blow to the soul that must have been.

@mered30

2 жыл бұрын

I knew when he mentioned that year what the son created

@viwedayile8748

2 жыл бұрын

Me too.. I just remembered the French revolution.

@jamesgordon177

Жыл бұрын

I thought he was some mental case historian, gets into French revolution, now lets try it out irl.

@kelsiegranneman6287

Жыл бұрын

Shoot as soon as he said loud noise

@dewaldsteyn1306

Жыл бұрын

1989 not 1789. Its just a type of device the son used invented in 1789.

“He didn’t have friends, he didn’t try to make any friends, he just sat in his room by himself” damn… stop spying on me Mr. Ballen

@gloriagehring8676

2 жыл бұрын

I'm 😞 sorry! leave your room, NOW and hug someone 🤗

@rustinstardust2094

2 жыл бұрын

I too felt personally attacked

@rezawicaksono4753

2 жыл бұрын

by the love of the god, please don't take carpentry as a hobby

@AceThaWinner

2 жыл бұрын

Yo Elias, u got a friend in me 👊

@boomwizardyt7228

2 жыл бұрын

That’s exactly why he killed himself and it’s sad

respect for not just using this story for like n $ but giving MULTIPLE help hotline numbers for different countries. you always show much empathy and compassion for people in stories

That poor father. How could he do that to his dad knowing he would find him like that. In the most horrific way possible. He's definitely traumatized for life now.

@pabopablo

Жыл бұрын

​@Silk Sonic cap

@azul9655

9 ай бұрын

Maybe he secretly hated his dad? Or didn't care anymore or blamed him for being that way. Who knows... we don't really what kind of relationship they had.

@ashb4smoke

7 ай бұрын

He was definitely sending a msg. Way too much effort for a simple suicide.

The sheer effort he put into ending his own life is both tragic and terrifying. Show kindness to the lonely, everyone. Sometimes you don't know what they're going through until it's too late.

@jacquelynejohnson9127

2 жыл бұрын

It did make history probably as the most strange way of suiside, and I wonder if he did it that way to make history, much like those who commit murder for the 15 minutes of fame

@azureavocado5195

2 жыл бұрын

It’s also wild. Like even from the depths of despair- inventive and creative energy can still exist. …it is just sad to see that energy was used for his own destruction. I can only respect his decision and that he didn’t take anyone else with him. Rip and I hope his Dad is somehow doing ok today... 🥀

@kalielik

2 жыл бұрын

Maybe it was so he really had time to think about it and if it is what he wants to do.

@planexshifter

2 жыл бұрын

Dude in there building Jigsaw traps.

@oORiseAboveOo

2 жыл бұрын

I think he wanted to make sure it was successful and there was no chance of him surviving, so he came up with this plan. So tragic

When you said he built a device invented in the 1700s I was like, "did he build a guillotine? No way." Turned out he did. My heart goes to him. I hope his soul found peace in the afterlife.

@summera4019

2 жыл бұрын

🥺❤️

@dutchvanderlinde7348

2 жыл бұрын

DUDE SAME

@generalharness8266

2 жыл бұрын

Why would it take a month to build?

@demonv1nce407

2 жыл бұрын

Heard if you kommit suicide that your sole stays on the earth

@AnnaSapau

2 жыл бұрын

Me too 💔

This is the video my brother showed me that got me hooked. My brother (33) has since then passed on from heart issues in December 2022 so finally seeing this video again... well regardless of the dark content of the video it brings me fond memories of watching MrBallen with him. THANK YOU!!!!

You never know what’s going through a loved ones mind, such a sad story

As the story progressed I suspected that might be his " project ". Shame he didn't reach out to his dad first for help. The father sound like a good and considerate guy.

@justkittensbeingkittens5892

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah… I knew something was up. If he was building a gift it wouldn’t be on this channel. The only other option was a method of suicide

@gingw7333

2 жыл бұрын

I knew when he said when it was invented. Sometimes strange what random facts you remember 50 years out of school.

@tylerm4709

2 жыл бұрын

I literally had the same feeling as to what it was he was building, this is extremely sad, I’m sure his dad would’ve done anything to get him the help he needed

@OP._.

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah, his dad had just as much wood working skill as him. He probly couldve gotten it put together in half the amount of time if he wouldve just asked.

@Anita-k

2 жыл бұрын

@@gingw7333 Yup, I also thought this would very likely be a guillotine he was building. But given the crazy stories we've already heard about killers on this channel, I wasn't sure, if it was for himself, or first for his family and then for strangers. Not meaning, the su1c1dal son was crazy, imo he was just severely and chronically depressed; (I'm only mentioning this, before someone's misunderstanding my comment, thinking I believe people with depression were "crazy").

Does anyone else miss the days when he said “we upload 3,4, even 5 times every week” in his intro? Only the long time subscribers will remember that!!

@jillbaker5658

2 жыл бұрын

Yes especially when you binge watched all episodes

@carvinblack

2 жыл бұрын

Yes, almost all of us do.

@allengreer2771

2 жыл бұрын

This sounds like a complete ripoff of my comment on his video from a few days ago

@nordicpandi

2 жыл бұрын

Yes :( he has said that once his subscriber number jumped so high he wanted to raise the quality of each video, which takes a lot more time so he can't put out as many.

@carvinblack

2 жыл бұрын

@@allengreer2771 Pretty much human nature. We all have the same thoughts at the same time. That is why Marketing companies have no problem sucking money our of our pockets. Hahaha. It's all psychology.

I don’t know who I feel worse for- Robert or Boyd. Such a heartbreaking story.

@phangirlable

Жыл бұрын

Definitely Robert. Eff Boyd.

@dark_baphomet

Жыл бұрын

@phangirlable I agree, I'm not usually hating on the person who did it but he could have not done it in his house or left a note or attempted to reach out or something and now his dad will be traumatised for the rest of his life and he doesn't have a note saying it wasn't his fault or something and he never reached out even though he said he was willing to help with anything he needed. It's like he was blind to the fact that his horrific death would have any affect on anyone else or he didn't care

@arduousPopsicle

Жыл бұрын

@@dark_baphometand also why not just take more sleeping pills? Why such an elaborate death?

@silverstar1178

Жыл бұрын

@@phangirlable lets just hope you're never suffering from suicidal ideation. People like him are not in their right mind, He could have been suffering some other mental illness even he didn't even realize. DID, Schizophrenia, bipolar, anything. Saying f him is pretty harsh.

@me5969

Жыл бұрын

​@@arduousPopsicle that's what I was thinking. It's a hell of a run up just to do yourself in. There is almost a sadistic or narcissistic element to it. I'm not judging the boy as he clearly had mental problems but that's a very calculating and thought out thing to do. It's not like just hanging yourself or driving your car off a bridge or something.

This story isn't just sad, but also horrifying. Seeing someone killed in such a way is bad enough, but a loved one? Your own child??? I can't imagine. As a father, these are some of the hardest stories to listen to.

I so feel for the Father. As a Mother myself, I could not even imagine the horrific sight and overwhelming sense of guilt the Father has endured. My heart goes out to him.

@grantlowe8382

2 жыл бұрын

3:30am my I eyes are burning & I should be asleep but I can't help myself.Another job well done Mr Ballen.....Cheers 😉🇦🇺🦘

@nikkic0509

2 жыл бұрын

@@grantlowe8382 I know the feeling.

@grantlowe8382

2 жыл бұрын

@@nikkic0509 😉😆👍

@oORiseAboveOo

2 жыл бұрын

Why would the son do that to his father? He knew his dad would be the one to find his body.

@timschulte6371

2 жыл бұрын

I agree this is sad but as a fatherI don't see letting my child do months worth of woodwork in my house without me knowing what's going. I feel like if he had pushed a little harder to see what was in there he could have stopped it.

My dad committed suicide in 2015 out if nowhere. Well, to me it felt like it was out of nowhere. My dad had been suffering in silence for a long time. Thank you for the awareness.

@bearschmidt3180

2 жыл бұрын

Stay strong Jacqueline , and never go down the path your father did . I'm sending positive vibes to you and your family.

@meatballsandwich5329

2 жыл бұрын

@Ben Christ quirky.

@hannahkirkland1301

2 жыл бұрын

Sending love to ya, you’re a strong woman❤️

@hey7492

2 жыл бұрын

Im sorry to hear that, please remember to keep being strong

I fell asleep for a bit over 5 minutes while watching the video (I have a neurological condition causing this). But as the video was still playing, I incorporated parts of it in my dream. That was really intense! I can tell that I definitely don't want to placed on a guillotine. In fact, that stress is what woke me up again...

@randallrigney420

7 ай бұрын

I got a rare neurological disease too, ain't it fun? JK 👍✌️👍.

As soon as you said '1789' I *KNEW* exactly what you were talking about. When thinking about it it is a very long and thought out suicide; very calculating from beginning to end. In all the time he was building it he was obviously very determined to not only still end his life but also in that particular manner. As a person who thinks about suicide a lot I am in awe of his persistence, and I don't mean that disrespectfully to him or his family. Whatever negative thoughts he was dealing with I wish him nothing but peace.

I can't even imagine what his dad felt as soon as he opened that second door. The realization of just how long his son was prepping for that moment was probably overwhelmingly horrifying and sad.

@drelocs2878

2 жыл бұрын

Meep.

@mementomori4840

2 жыл бұрын

That is definitely not the surprise contraction project he was expecting his son to have made.

@SpydersByte

2 жыл бұрын

yea, really hope the father didn't have to see his son's lifeless decapitated head sitting on the floor, that would certainly scar you for life, on top of the fact that you've just lost your son. I've had times in life where I dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts and thinking of my family finding me and dealing with my death are the biggest reasons I never attempted it. My dad straight-up told me that if he lost me he'd have to end his own life and that has definitely stuck with me.

The poor father, probably was the one to teach his son lovingly, everything he knew about woodworking, and then to be done like that 💔💔💔 Depression is the absolute worst

@elliec7677

2 жыл бұрын

This is what made me so so sad. My dad is one to tinker with wood working stuff in his little shed and has taught my sister and I how to use tools. Depression is such a horrible thing and suicide never solves the problem it just trickles down onto the next family member. My friends husband was a USMC Veteran and deputy sheriff who sadly took his own life leaving his wife and 5 children behind. My friend found him in his shed the night it happened and it was just horrific for her as you can imagine 😔 suicide is never the solution, help is available and ive been in a psychiatric hospital a couple of times and so many more people from all walks of life suffer with different forms of mental illness. Help is available. I really hope Boyd’s dad was able to get help after he found his sons body. I don’t know how you get over that 😔

@elliec7677

2 жыл бұрын

@@allmodescrew5548 For my friend things are still hard but she is doing her best and focuses on raising her kids right. She’s an amazing mommy and a nurse too so she gives as much as she can to others. I check on her when I can and she’s a tough cookie 😊 I’m doing good at the moment too 💗

His poor father had to find his son like that. I'm sure he'll never not see it. What a horrible way to die. I feel so bad for this family. I feel bad that Boyd felt that much pain that he decided to leave this world the way he did. I hope his father has found some kind of peace. This is truly a nightmare.

Great video! I pray for those suffering from mental health problems to find peace and happiness in their lives asap, but I also hope that people finally come to understand that not everybody who enjoys being alone most of the time is dealing with mental issues!

I had a friend , many years ago , who overdosed in his room and his parents had to break the door down and find him passed away .. this reminds me of that:( anyone who is struggling, you are loved !! Do not make a permanent decision when the circumstances of life can change day to day minute to minute , not always when we like but everything happens for a reason and makes us who we are ! ❤️

@defnotcam9166

2 жыл бұрын

Sheesh you’re beautiful.. take my money and ruin my life pleeeeease!!!

@Stormblade1810

2 жыл бұрын

@@defnotcam9166 tf is wrong with you?

@defnotcam9166

2 жыл бұрын

@@Stormblade1810 nm slightly thirsty. What about you?

@eerohughes

2 жыл бұрын

Not everyone's lives are fixable

@dawnmichele6847

2 жыл бұрын

Very well said

This is one of the most heartbreaking stories I’ve ever heard. Poor Robert had to endure all that pain all alone. He just wanted to be a nice dad and give his son some privacy and not be overbearing. He thought his son finally had a hobby too 🥺

@stevencorscadden5767

2 жыл бұрын

He went waaaaay beyond giving his son some privacy. My child at any age is behaving like that in my house imma gonna be wanting to know what they are up to.

@mrsunnypolo1679

2 жыл бұрын

@James Peterson what do you mean by forcing him to be normal his son had no friends or hobbies just worked and slept so his dad was happy that a man in his 30s was starting to do more things in his life how is he hurting him?

@jesusrodriguez3728

2 жыл бұрын

@James Peterson what in the hell are you talking about? He just thought if his son socialized some it would help him out. There's nothing wrong with that. Boyd was in depression and most often that's caused by seclusion. I should know because as a teenager I didn't go out much and it messed with my head and gave me suicidal thoughts daily. If you don't like to socialize with people or you're not extroverted or whatever, that's fine, but don't blame your parents or family for wanting better. That's just throwing the blame at someone else for your own misery. Once you're 18 go and live by yourself if that's what you truly want, but don't blame anyone for the pain you go through.

@fayemurray9977

2 жыл бұрын

Can't blame it on his dad, seems like the son kept shutting him out

@GalaxiiBunnii

2 жыл бұрын

@James Peterson his dad wasn't forcing him to be or do anything. If you think parents worrying about their children being so cut off from everything is bad, i honestly don't know what to say. At least his dad cared about him. Which is why he left him to his project and gave him all that time off work, even though it'd be hard on him. He WAS letting him be himself. And that's why Boyd died. Because no one knew just how depressed he was and that he needed intervention and help from professionals. I understand being introverted, but this was too much of an extreme and clearly out of character

Mr. Ballen, you are doing a wonderful service to the many people listening to your stories..This son's depression was more than he could bear to go to such lengths to comit suicide. So agonizing for his dad.

I just want to say thank you. The fact that you took the time to add in the suicide hotlines for each country is Amazing. Thank you

I’ve heard every conceivable way to commit suicide, this one is the most complicated one yet, so sad a person went that far to ensure his death, my heart breaks for his dad

@yatokami1783

2 жыл бұрын

You obviously haven't seen his video titled "this chatroom kills people" cause that's the most elaborate way to get yourself killed I heard

@monadugas9113

2 жыл бұрын

Some parents act they’re afraid to enter a kids room. This is your house you pay the bills. That kids owns nothing. Enter the damn room and see what’s going on. Or the kid yells get out. And the parent listens.Not in a house I’m paying for. I will enter your room anytime I want to .know what you’re doing. If he would have entered that room earlier Maybe his kid would be alive today. Stop letting your kids tell you what to do.In your house

@EmergencyL0tion

2 жыл бұрын

@@monadugas9113 I agree but in this story the son didn’t have friends or hobbies so when he saw his son this dedicated to a project and the son asking for privacy he probably thought this meant the world to him so gave him privacy

@monadugas9113

2 жыл бұрын

@@EmergencyL0tion privacy is one thing.But not entering a kids room for weeks. That doesn’t even make sense. How long did it take him to build this death device.

@sakuramochi5610

2 жыл бұрын

@@monadugas9113 gee you must be a wonderful parent! Boyd was a GROWN ass man, he worked with his dad and they BOTH payed the bills, so Robert does not have the “I pay the bills” card to use on him. If you and your roommate pay the bills equally you do NOT have any authority to barge into their room if they don’t want you to, get off your high horse

I can't believe how considerate of a father that kid had. My parents never left me alone when i was doing something they didn't know about.

@cathorse11

2 жыл бұрын

@Sammy Van Dankstein LMAOOO-

@sieteLineas

2 жыл бұрын

well, he was 36

@mattolivier1835

2 жыл бұрын

His father being considerate cost him his life. Shame on you.

@peacectrkam_ty7747

2 жыл бұрын

Maybee bc of ur pfp

@Queenhaylihill

2 жыл бұрын

My mother interrupted my meditation today.

Everyday I look for a true crime story on youtube to tell my coworkers the next day because they know how obssessed I am with the genre and they appreciate how I tell the stories. This one is DEFINITELY the one I'm telling tmw...wowwww, this was crazy disturbing😳 R.I.P Boyd and much strength to his father😔

The sound of the saw would have driven me crazy. My friend and I after listening to this story like my friend would have snuck in to see what the son was doing where as I would have most probably not intruded but I would have been curious. Thank you for bringing mental health and domestic violence into our awareness.

Easily one of the most heartbreaking endings I've heard from any of your stories, this cuts deep dude.

@SonekR

2 жыл бұрын

yeah, absolutely heartbreaking

@anamietion4236

2 жыл бұрын

Every videos of mr. Ballen you always here in comment section

@luketheduke02

2 жыл бұрын

Poor choice of words

@ARedMotorcycle

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah, really funny. You should be a stand up comedian, but you're just some guy without a mustache.

@The_Governor81

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah it really is

as soon as i heard “1789” i thought ooof a guillotine. i can’t imagine being robert having to find your son that way or even being boyd for feeling that way. such a tragic situation

@MonTube2006

2 жыл бұрын

Actually that device wasn't invented in 1789 but in 1792.

@icecreaman805

2 жыл бұрын

I missed that. It clicked for me when he said "8 foot tall".

@shaneomarley

2 жыл бұрын

i thought the very same thing

@hellbabyari

2 жыл бұрын

that was my exact thought process

@MonTube2006

2 жыл бұрын

1789 = gUiLLotINe 🤪 You simpletons are discouraging... So much slipping under your radars once again

Thanks for posting those help lines buddy. There really are alot of people who feel alone in that way but surely are not! You're a good guy, no doubt about it.

That guy really put everything, every skill of his trade that he had into his suicide... This has to be the most amount of work i have seen someone put into their own suicide, sounds like as if at some point he just started romanticising about his own death, and just obsessed over it.. But still what a horribly selfish act... What the hell did his dad even do that he punished him like this... To be honest, i still can't believe he did that...

This is the first story where I guessed the outcome before it was said

@kao4339

2 жыл бұрын

Same

@alexwaderich3235

2 жыл бұрын

Me too

@caitiewickboldt3140

2 жыл бұрын

Same, unfortunately. 😪 Also, I just wanted to say, you’re so handsome!

@TWCH

2 жыл бұрын

That's bc you're related to the sawing mechanism.

@kamimargos1882

2 жыл бұрын

Me too, when he said how old this "device" was. It was the first thing I thought.

Imagine how bad that poor lad must have felt to spend weeks making a device to cut off his own head. Depression is horrendous.

@rachellicee2380

2 жыл бұрын

demonic.

@erismana2105

2 жыл бұрын

@@rachellicee2380 it's not demonic ffs

@rachellicee2380

2 жыл бұрын

@@erismana2105 Looks like you know nothing about this.

@Sluzbo80

2 жыл бұрын

Oops replied to the wrong person.

@brandoncook7323

2 жыл бұрын

That was my thought too. Depression and mental illness really make you feel like you're the worst person on earth that everyone would be better off without. An awful feeling I don't think I would wish on anyone. I hope this guy found some peace and that his dad got some help for that truly traumatic experience that he had to go through

I don't have depression or any signs of it, however, I greatly appreciate that you have posted lines of help for people that do realize they are in a depression. Many feel isolated and alone with no one to help them and you give them the resources they need

Nothing more heartbreaking than to lose a loved one like that. It leaves you asking the question,, could i have done more. The sad part is they reach a place within, where they shut down. My heart goes out to those who have gone through this,, i hope you find peace.

I’m so sorry for his dad. Not a sight any parent should ever see. And I’m addicted to your channel! I’ve binged for the past 5 days!

@blakex6723

2 жыл бұрын

Lol it's so good!

@birgittabirgersdatter8082

2 жыл бұрын

This channel is simply addictive.

@fabianatrindade56

2 жыл бұрын

Same!! Found it just recently too and have been LOVING it!

@martinamccosker9603

2 жыл бұрын

I've only discovered this channel a couple of months ago and I agree, compulsive viewing, Mr Ballen is so professional, love it.

@fabianatrindade56

2 жыл бұрын

@@Burnttoastwithvegemite I have seen a couple, but apart from the "lost episodes" the shorts are like spoilers for the vids from his main channel, so I tend to avoid the shorts 😁

The fact that this man took the time to put the suicide hotlines up for depressed people is extremely admiral of you! You really truly are a great man.

@T.R.U.T.H..

2 жыл бұрын

Great? That's a bit overstated to say the least. He's just a man with a good heart, plenty of them around, we just don't all have blown up youtube channels to show it.

@zackfowler8613

2 жыл бұрын

@@T.R.U.T.H.. 🤣🤣 you salty.... And maybe jealous af

@Willpower-74205

2 жыл бұрын

"Extremely admiral?" One of his earlier videos said that he was in the Navy, but I don't think he ever went THAT high in the ranks. 😁

@floridasoldat

2 жыл бұрын

@@Willpower-74205 nice lol

@floridasoldat

2 жыл бұрын

@@T.R.U.T.H.. I’d say being a former Navy SEAL who was wounded in action is a bit more relevant to him being great than his “blown up KZread channel”.

Wow. That is crazy Absolutely insane Being alone …. Is dangerous. I understand loners. I’m a huge introvert But being alone is torture. The worst possible thing for me

I was wondering why the dad didn't insist in going in the room but then I went back to the beginning of the video and realized the guy was 36 years old. It makes more sense that the dad respected his privacy knowing the son's age.

@cdes1776

Жыл бұрын

After all that time though? I would have snuck a peek.

@Matilda-y

5 ай бұрын

It was definitely odd behaviour, you would definitely have to check everything was ok. My children are adults but after that length of time id be checking. Odd not to.

So sad. His dad was very patient with him and sounds like a great dad. Wish he had reached out to him for help.

@debshaw680

2 жыл бұрын

There’s such a thing as too patient.

@aliencat11

2 жыл бұрын

Some people are very good at hiding their depression.

@saladasss2092

2 жыл бұрын

sounds to me like he was spoiling his son. My parents would have whooped the floor with me if I took 3 months off of work without an explaination. And the work he did was a family business too which is even worse.

@mattolivier1835

2 жыл бұрын

Maybe being "patient" was not a good thing. His son was clearly acting weird for the few months leading up to his death. I prefer parents to intervene, even if YOU would consider it intrusive. Shame on you.

@YungSteambuns

2 жыл бұрын

@James Peterson talk is cheap buddy, keep trying to role-play being in the fathers shoes, should of, could of, would of, it's called hindsight

Now that I think about it, you would make a great history professor.

@Amy-gh8lw

2 жыл бұрын

Not enough money. He's making the big bucks.

@Rachel-ju5vt

2 жыл бұрын

@@Amy-gh8lw oh of course!!!

@markwestervelt9708

2 жыл бұрын

Absolutely. He has a amazing gift to grab your attention when he speaks. 👍

@TheGhostOfLeslieChad

2 жыл бұрын

He is a good story teller and he doesn't rely on jump scares and horrible one liners like a lot of KZreadrs with similar content.

@Rachel-ju5vt

2 жыл бұрын

@@TheGhostOfLeslieChad it's a really good skill, a rare skill, to captivate an audience the way he does.

Such a truly sad story 😢 My heart just fell to the ground listening to this. I couldn't imagine and don't want too. Poor soul. I feel bad for the father, worse nightmare

I am very thankful for my family though when times get real rough you can often lose sight of those things. One thing my dad told me and has always helped me in those hard moments is: "Don't use a permanent solution for a temporary problem." I'm thankful for this because I know it's just his own way of saying "I know it's rough but it'll turn out fine." Remember everyone we're all fighting our demons and have people who love and care about us.

I cant believe how Mr.Ballen and crew can keep the balance so well. Even though they upload less a week than in the beginning, they compensate by getting the story telling quality up to a new level. You guys are awesome! Keep it up!

@jordan12374

2 жыл бұрын

Honestly one of the most professional KZreadrs I’ve ever seen, the guy seems like a good soul too.

@gurrac710

2 жыл бұрын

@@jordan12374 Agreed kind one.

@hanzohasashi1116

2 жыл бұрын

Maybe that’s why they upload less now. More research is probably involved 🤷🏽‍♂️ but you’re right on the quality

I feel so bad from the father. He was so supportive and caring to his son Y’all have never had your families make fun of you for doing something you like and yell at you for not being happy and it shows.

@randalthor6872

2 жыл бұрын

The dad was the true victim. The son was a POS for doing that to him. Sick.

@ontxtteredwxngs

2 жыл бұрын

was he? that's not what I got from that story AT ALL. My parents would have knocked down the door minute one. I don't even like my family, but at least I know that much.

@AmosLaRue

2 жыл бұрын

I'd argue that the father was not as supportive as it sounds. I think a supportive and dedicated father would fight past his own tendency to be agreeable and would have gone in to see what his son was doing, despite the son's wishes. As a parent, we have to sometime do things that may upset our children for their own good. Despite this man's son being an adult, he was still living at home, and exhibiting behavior his father deemed to be out of the ordinary.

@AmosLaRue

2 жыл бұрын

​@@ontxtteredwxngs If my parents heard me doing any kind of woodworking inside the house they would have busted inside my room and raised hell for all the sawdust on the floor. But seriously, my parents have always said that it is a good thing to be a well informed parent, and that kids (especially ones living under their roof) don't exactly have the right to *utter* privacy. We had a decent amount of privacy, and my parents taught us to respect it, but my parents always seemed to know what was going on in our lives and had eyes and ears all over town to keep us out of trouble. I think parents have to sometimes fight against their own desires to avoid conflict to ensure their kids are healthy and doing well. And sometimes you have to be uncomfortable to make sure your adult children can get the help they need to happy and healthy.

@Chookwoman

2 жыл бұрын

@@ontxtteredwxngs Wow...so you are trying to blame the father for respecting the sons privacy?? Perhaps your family would do it in a minute, because something crazy is expected of YOU. However, this family appeared to be relatively normal...

Living with the loss of a loved one from suicide is a painful empty void that never goes away.

I haven’t been able to cry for months… but god this made me cry because it’s so close to what goes on inside my head. I normally just joke about my thoughts to make them less real but this really got to me. Thank you for the numbers at the end!❤

@mandeepsheera6272

7 ай бұрын

Please don't do anything you shouldn't. Those numbers are there to help you. Please please please reach out if you want to talk to someone. 🙏

@Panickbutten

7 ай бұрын

Don’t worry, I’m being admitted to a psych ward:) Im getting the help I need

I just wanted to say, that at the very end when he said that he wanted us to know that we are not alone, I actually teared up. I recently went back to college and I don’t have a roommate this semester and I’ve been struggling with my depression, mainly stemming from my loneliness. I watch a lot of KZread to distract myself from these thoughts, and just hearing you say that helped me a shocking amount. Just as little as 4 words can help someone so much, please everyone, remember this. You are not alone.

@hollowone777

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah, Alexis. You're not alone, I promise. I'm really sorry you're having a rough time this semester. If there's anything I can do to help, please say. No one should ever feel that they've been abandoned by everyone else because I promise you that there's someone else out there who feels the same way. Loneliness is so awful.

@sufficientsostrive

2 жыл бұрын

Jesus loves you, give your whole life to Him and your loneliness will slowly but surely fade. I pray and hope amazing people come into your life to help you in these times.

@sufficientsostrive

2 жыл бұрын

@Xero I’m telling him there is much hope and comfort in Jesus, where is the brainwashing? Did I tell him to do 10 Hail Marys and go do this and that like a cult so that his sins can be forgiven? You my friend, have empty religion and a healthy relationship with God through Christ extremely twisted.

@sufficientsostrive

2 жыл бұрын

@Xero that may very well be but the exact same can be said about anyone in this world, whatever their religion or lifestyle may be. What I’m saying is that your original comment about religion has nothing to do with what I said under this comment. That’s the problem and where we fail, what the Bible talks about is not a religion but a relationship, thats why so many people become obsessed or fail, or take advantage of others through it. As for me speaking about the Bible, I will continue to speak on it for the rest of my life because as I have seen - when the Bible is understood (not just known, as in head knowledge but truly understood) - there has come much transformation in people’s lives and I have seen it in my life too. When I was depressed and spiritually afflicted and tormented, His word is the only thing that brought me through, I did not get brainwashed or taken advantage of because I did what I told the original poster of this comment to do, I gave my life to Him, not to a pastor/person. If you study the Bible for yourself, you’ll soon see it was never about religion.

@rabbitguts2518

2 жыл бұрын

I'm truly sorry you're struggling with this monster we call depression, I'm in the same boat. Sometimes it can feel like even though you're in a room FULL of people you're entirely alone, an alien confused at how others seem to plod along and be happy with the most minimal of effort. While I know I can't really help in any definitive way I might suggest, from one lonely soul to another, trying to find a discord or hobby specific group to join(hell even just visiting a coffee shop or lounge can work sometimes). Even if it's just for an hour it's a nice small way to get even a little bit of social interaction (small tip if you're an artist or like to draw there's a lot more clubs about and acts as a really good icebreaker if people see you sketching, because people natturally wnat to see what you've drawn). Regardless I hope your situation improves and your depression lessens even just a little bit, know you're never alone and that people care. Even if it's just a random on the internet, your comment matters, you matter, and I appreciate seing it :)

Robert seemed like a wonderful man and father.

@Ace_Cabbage

2 жыл бұрын

Certainly willing to “give a little space” to Boyd. Taught him a trade and everything!

@victorpascow3262

2 жыл бұрын

he was a terrible father waht are you talking about?

@ks6874

2 жыл бұрын

@@victorpascow3262 but he didn't realise

@paulhodges9145

2 жыл бұрын

Kid should've reached out

@victorpascow3262

2 жыл бұрын

@@ks6874 He didnt realise that leaving hes kid to isolate that long with pre conditions was a good idea? To many idiots having kids not knowing anything about life themselves

Your introductions are always so funny! Even if you tell bad stories, you are always making my day! I am watching you from Quebec, Canada! Have a good day!

Man, what a sad story. In the beginning I did have a feeling about where it would go, but still. I have contemplated ending my own life many times, but I haven’t felt brave enough to do it. And now I keep myself alive for the people I love. It’s not easy, and I can definitely relate to anyone who chooses to leave this world ❤️ it’s even sadder to see all this stigma that’s till around mental illness tho!

Depression is a darkness, a disease where your own mind targets yourself as an enemy. The reason it's so hard to overcome is because who else knows exactly what to do or say to get under your own skin other than yourself? It takes a lot of energy and will power to overcome it. I hope those that are going through that battle find the strength to win. My heart goes out to this Father.

@reesetana1345

2 жыл бұрын

Well said brother

@thenextbondvillainklaussch3266

2 жыл бұрын

The realy nasty part about Depression, is when you try to sleep , and your brain starts going through every bad thing thats happened to you ever! or embarrassing thing , or sometimes even making bad shit up in your head like your loved ones being hurt or harmed or worse ........ and it hits you again and again , and again , until its 4am in the morning and you want to blow your fking brains out. Im not sure how much valium it takes to overdose on , but i bet whats left of my sanity , that ive come damn close a few times. ............ Fuck my life ........ Fibromyalgia .... the only escape is death ........ And the laundry list of issues with it, whole body Pain and Depression being the worst 2 , and ive got all but one .... im male so i dont get the increase in Period pain hmmm ........... so it could be worse. 10 years on and im 44 , not sure how many more months i can do this for..... Ive also got a broken Disc in my back from a lady going through a Stop sign and smashing into me , Osteo arthritis in every joint , and probable Osteoporosis , like my Grand mother and mother, and i recently failed a Lupus test lol ......Fuck! .... my! .....life! ............. 2 kids , Married , Car of my dreams , and i sit here watching KZread trying to distract from the pain , and just get through 1 .... more ....day! ....... its no fucking life ...........

@krystaldickison4046

2 жыл бұрын

@@thenextbondvillainklaussch3266 I hear your pain and I'm sorry. That was really courageous to share. I also watch KZread to avoid life. Regardless of how we feel when were low, our lives are valuable. I hope you don't feel alone. Take care! P.S. I'm also glad you don't get period pains.

@violethouseworth5943

2 жыл бұрын

Learning to LOVE YOURSELF, you can overcome any depression...It starts there because if for not loving yourself first, you can never really love another..so many people suffer from depression for so many different reasons...DEATH is probably the #1 .Love is a start for a very good reason

@keentrasborg2566

2 жыл бұрын

@@thenextbondvillainklaussch3266 My empathy friend; I too struggle with depression, and have for 10 years. If it helps, any amount, you are not alone with this disgusting, insidious, evil fucking disease. It is the vilest thing in planet Human. Maybe it's because I'm younger, but I believe death isn't the only escape from this disease, and although I've made tiny amounts of progress in those 10 years, I choose to believe we can get better with medication and therapy, perhaps even escape it. Wouldn't that be something? Anyway, take care. I hope you find relief and that a small amount of satisfaction or joy will return to you.

"He was trying to build a device created in 1789" Me, being french : "Oh no..."

@rjvanloon4769

2 жыл бұрын

As an ex-dutchie and a bit of a buff of European history, I had that same reaction

@howey935

2 жыл бұрын

Invented by Dr Joesph Guillotin who was inspired by the German “planke” a beheading device and the english “Halifax gibbet” a sliding axe beheading device.

@howey935

2 жыл бұрын

@@rjvanloon4769 ex Dutchie? You no longer live in the Nederland’s? I love the Nederland’s and the Dutch I lived and worked there in the early 2000s the last place I lived was staphorst and what a strange little place that is but amazing friendly people.

@gabriellashimone6546

2 жыл бұрын

I'm not French but I know history well enough. It gave me shivers and, at first, I feared for his father. As the story went on, it began to feel more dreadful.

@321scully

2 жыл бұрын

me too!

This kinda hits home. My uncle took his own life (was bipolar off meds) and I have depression and there were quite a few times I thought about as well as actually attempted suicide. But I was lucky to have kids. They're the only reason I'm still here 😁

I fall asleep to you, and learn from you when I’m not sleepy. You’re genuinely an incredible story teller 😍

@BrittanyStar

Жыл бұрын

lol i LOVE Mr Ballen and his story telling skills are amazing but i would NOT want to fall asleep to him ...i already have horrifying dreams...i def do not to hear any of these stories subconsciencely (or whatever) ...i'm pretty sure that would cause some sort of serious disorder for me .. xoxo ...

@silverstar1178

Жыл бұрын

funny how you can fall asleep to "horror" stories 🤣 Just goes to show how soothing his voice is

@MikeColeman-kd9ki

Жыл бұрын

@charlottewalker1584.its hard for me to sleep.this guy here will put me to sleep but keith Morrison on dateline is the best.i promise you won't be disappointed.

poor dad, you can tell he really cared about his son by respecting his privacy and letting him take time off. and despite being curious about his son's project he let him be when he asked him too. depression is a hard thing to fight. may he rest in peace.

@vCLOWNSHOESv

2 жыл бұрын

It's just unimaginable.

@EZ-D-FIANT

2 жыл бұрын

It was around December he probably thought he was making him a Christmas present or something, I feel so sorry for him.....

@michele1083

2 жыл бұрын

@@EZ-D-FIANT for 6 weeks, everyday? The whole thing got suspicious after the first week.

@birgittabirgersdatter8082

2 жыл бұрын

@@michele1083 really? You must have a very low tolerance for long term projects, or an incredibly short attention span.

@EZ-D-FIANT

2 жыл бұрын

If it took him that long to build that then he was slow and his dad probably knew he was slow so maybe, but yea I'd probably have been a lot more suspicious myself too.....

"Remember, you're not alone." Thumbnail for the next video: _They were not alone_

@dapsilisvanitas3875

2 жыл бұрын

This is why people look both ways before crossing the street

@charlesyoung7436

2 жыл бұрын

That technology may have been old, but it was still cutting edge.

@glorbojibbins2485

2 жыл бұрын

Lol sketch

@Connor44444

2 жыл бұрын

@@Die-Angst glad you’re here still, i’m proud of you

@TheyLuvMikey317

2 жыл бұрын

@@Die-Angst i found it fucking hilarious

That is so sad, his kid was hurting and he didn’t know, we don’t even know how much he spent time crying in that room not having friends 🙏🏾 check on your kids.

Very ,Very Cool of you to list these numbers for people dealing with Mental/Suicidal issues. As a Combat Veteran who has PTSD, I will say that I commend you for this, and also, you need to make more videos, jk, but seriously I have watched everyone of your videos. You are a great story teller.

I had a feeling this was what he was building, giving how his behavior was at the time. Depression, PTSD, and other mental illnesses are serious. Keep an eye on friends and family. Most of the time they seem absolutely normal. There is help out there. It helped me.

@slosandwich7287

2 жыл бұрын

i make awesome skits

@helenbartoszek243

2 жыл бұрын

I actually thought he was building a wall unit or bookcase and that had fallen on him and crushed him. Regarding the matter of suicide, not everyone wants to be 'helped ' and can be pissed off that their chosen method didn't work .

@kittyk.klandasions7008

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah but, did you Actually think it was a Guilitine though??

@julielevinge266

2 жыл бұрын

PTSD? Don’t think it sounds like that, bi polar serious depression, but being that determined for that length of time? Not sure if anyone could have helped?? Just really, really sad🌹

@kittyk.klandasions7008

2 жыл бұрын

P.s i Know About the Devil that is Deppression 💔 i Hope ypu are OK Now..? Im feeling better these days 💚

Other than the obvious tragedy to this story, he was clearly a very intelligent man with immense skill and talent. It is such a shame he used it for his own demise. So so heartbreaking 💔 😢

@migueljuarez6788

2 жыл бұрын

Maybe he wanted to make a final project before he died.

@destituteanddecadent9106

2 жыл бұрын

@@migueljuarez6788 yeah, like wanted to make sure he died by his own hand

@wickednana3555

2 жыл бұрын

Yes very sad

@peetl9738

2 жыл бұрын

Not sure we can say he was immensely talented, he was a carpenter yet it took him months to built a pretty simple device

@randalthor6872

2 жыл бұрын

The son was a real piece of shit for doing that to his father. Imagine how evil one must be to leave that type of gruesome mess for one's own father to walk in on.

Tragic story, well told as always. Too bad these hotlines aren't always very helpful, but I hope those who really need them end up speaking to an operator who is actually helpful (or better yet, talk to a friend or loved one and see a therapist).

@deprofundis3293

2 жыл бұрын

(Speaking from personal experience in terms of hotline operators not always being helpful.)

I came back to this story after a while and just thinking about the father being so cheerful and interested in what his son is doing, “hey can I see the project you’re working on? Oh take as much time as you need, itll be good for you” and knowing what the end is, that’s the twisting of the knife, just awful

This goes far beyond suicide and depression, there was a very deep seated mental illness there as well, to go to such lengths says something else entirely. Not to mention the fact that he knew how his elaborate contraption was going to affect his father for the long term…how sad and tragic.

@theshevanel

2 жыл бұрын

When one is at that point in being suicidal, your brain usually has you 100% convinced that everyone around you will be better off after your death, so I highly doubt that played into the mental equation in any significant way. If anything the only reason he was being so secretive is because he knew he would be stopped if anyone knew what he was making.

@9catlover

2 жыл бұрын

totally agree

@ItAllFadestoBlack

2 жыл бұрын

And the part of him creating a sub room that locked. Did he think his dad would never try to enter? He was very determined and specific about how he wanted to go. A lot of questions we won’t get answers to

@ellemmenn2930

2 жыл бұрын

You’re absolutely right there’s definitely more than depression and feeling suicidal that was on a whole other level

@catherine8262

2 жыл бұрын

Sleeping pills and decapitation = quick and relatively painless. It’s really not that crazy.

I'm just stunned by this story. So many "whys".

@aaronburratwood.6957

2 жыл бұрын

Because, “Showmanship.” Hit your high note and leave on top, his high note just was his homemade guillotine.

@nicholeghostingparanormalg5050

2 жыл бұрын

I was going to say the same

@mattolivier1835

2 жыл бұрын

Like, "why are you so stunned"? "why did it take him 3 months to build a simple device"? "Why was his daddy so dumb to just ignore the obvious"?

@mattolivier1835

2 жыл бұрын

@@lindam9018 You're welcome.

A suicide is such a grieving ripple effect on a family. My mom lost a son,my siblings and I lost a brother,and my niece and nephews lost a father 9yrs ago due to suicide.

i fucking love you’re way of saying, “hey, go fuck with that like button, yo!” lmao. makes me like it every time. massive amounts of love and light to you, @mrballen - thank you for the company.

I lost my mother to suicide a little over a year ago and I miss her every moment of every day. I was the one that found her and I can’t even explain to u the heartbreaking image that goes thru my mind constantly. I’m so sorry that Boyd’s dad has to live with that awful image. Thank you for shedding light on something that isn’t talked about nearly enough. If you are struggling plz reach out, I promise u r NOT alone.

@epizzle9232

2 жыл бұрын

I’m so sorry

@beverlywalton4744

2 жыл бұрын

I’m so sorry about your Mom, prayers for you and your family.🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

@theSpiritofVengence

2 жыл бұрын

My best friend who was a brother to me we were living together he was acting normal told me wed go play darts or do something the next day i said yeah for sure he told me good night i went to bed he hung himself in our basement 3 hours later i woke up to his mom knocking on my window i let her in and me and his mom found him hanging in our basement i cut him down but it was too late

@hollywont9447

2 жыл бұрын

I’m sorry 💙

@LinDuhLou

2 жыл бұрын

@@theSpiritofVengence 🙏😪

I don't think we will ever find another story teller as good as MrBallen... every video captivates me, and he always has the upmost respect for the people in his videos. Thank you, MrBallen!

@angelesramos4779

2 жыл бұрын

Plus forgetting that it's Thursday and discovering that there's a new video to enjoy. Blows my mind.

@Violet-Lily

2 жыл бұрын

*Utmost

@angelesramos4779

2 жыл бұрын

@@Violet-Lily lolz yeah but she meant upmost so yeah Have a blessed day. 😉

@user-rx3vs9mb1n

2 жыл бұрын

@@Violet-Lily helpful 🙄🙄🙄

@MrBallen

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you!!

The way MrBallen keeps some details hidden to deliver that massive bomb at the end is such good storytelling. Even if most people have probably already put together what was going on, it's still effective, because you're just waiting for the reveal with a sense of impending doom. So you're just sitting there going "Oh no, it's a guillotine, isn't it? It's a guillotine. Oh no, no, no." And when he reveals it you just go "Nooooooooo. That's so messed up."

This is the most complexed suicide I've ever heard and I was a mortician.

@rotten2209

2 жыл бұрын

Lol 3 months for a few hour project...

@mementomori4840

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah, you definitely aren’t seeing this happen everyday

How heartbreaking for his father to have witnessed his son's body in that condition. My prayers to everyone involved.

@dungeonmaster217

2 жыл бұрын

Not only that but also that his son constructed guillotine inside his house. And all this time he was tinkering and working on his "project", he was preparing for suicide.

My heart absolutely breaks for his dad!! Obviously, we all know that he was just trying to be a good dad and support his son and respect his privacy. But, even though we know that, I'm sure his dad is racked with guilt and constantly going through the "what if's". I hope and pray that his dad can find peace!

This is so so sad. I am so sorry for his Dad. I hope he never holds blame on hisself for the choices his son made. He is so not at fault.

Heartbreaking story, can’t imagine what the father went through. But thank you for sharing and potentially helping people in need. I know this video is a change of pace but it’s good once in a while to reach out to those struggling. Because, like the father in this tragic story, you just never know. It helps to talk, people! You are not alone ❤️

@omsmada

2 жыл бұрын

the father was probably ridiculously confused. someone acting super interested in something laborious like that over a long period would send pretty much the opposite message of what the outcome was.

@jackiecartwright9343

2 жыл бұрын

@@omsmada good point, my most depressed times in life were spent in bed for days. This was quite an industrious depressed person.

@user-us7vw3yq8p

2 жыл бұрын

I only know that when no one get hold of my son one day, I started to think the worst, and the burning of guilt just as a parent, in my solar plexus would have been unbearable had it continued. Thankfully my son was ok. That's a tiny sliver of how the dad feels, I didn't know it could feel that bad.

@vincentmetallive

2 жыл бұрын

What the father went through? What about Boyd went through?

@EarthtoAdam95

2 жыл бұрын

@@vincentmetallive obviously, to go through with something like that you’d have to be so hopeless to feel that was the best thing to do. But I’ve been there and millions of others have too and know just how he felt. However, he’s not in pain anymore, but his father has to live with the pain and the guilt for the rest of his life.

I’ve been depressed, it’s not easy to deal with… I’ll always be extremely grateful to all the people that didn’t give up on me.. This story hits me deep

@kaileim970

2 жыл бұрын

Hang in there Tony!

@naughtyvalues

2 жыл бұрын

@@kaileim970 Thank you, I truly do appreciate it

@deannarosie2303

2 жыл бұрын

I hope you feel better Tony! I know how hard depression can be. If you have any loved ones or friends please reach out to them. Personally medication helped me a lot but I don’t know your feelings on that type of treatment

@alexiaacuna975

2 жыл бұрын

You got this ! You are not alone

@donoberloh

2 жыл бұрын

@Barney McGrew it’s difficult to convince a very depressed person that things will get better. Some feel that it’s the worse thing you do. It often comes across as condescending.

Woah.... What an episode. I don't know if it's the funny like button jokes or something but I'm so hooked on this channel. I can't believe how much he disregarded his father, from the time off work, to the way he left himself for his father to find without so much as a note to explain his feelings. Sad stuff.

This is not just depression, this is madness.

Awe that’s such a sad story .. I couldn’t imagine how that dad felt seeing that. And how that poor son struggling that bad he was that dedicated to die .. that breaks my heart

@dalriadajohannsen

2 жыл бұрын

Me too 😣 I know this will never leave him 💚

@beverlyrickell7354

2 жыл бұрын

I know exactly how he feels .my son took his own life I found him three days later . You never ever get over it .

@slosandwich7287

2 жыл бұрын

i make awesome skits

@DaniellesDetails

2 жыл бұрын

@@beverlyrickell7354 oh my god I am so sorry 😞 I have two sons myself and I cannot even imagine that pain you felt. I am so sorry 😢❤️❤️❤️ No one should have to see that and go through that.. especially!! A parent with their Child 😢 I’m sending you a huge virtual hug ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

@prsee5969

2 жыл бұрын

It’s messed up I really understand that kid. A bit too well sadly. Rip.

Everytime suicide is brought up it's bringing awareness and I can promise there'll be at least one who had the thoughts at one point or another. Thank you Mr Ballen for reminding us that we're not alone and we'll be leaving a distraught family behind. 🙏❤️ God bless you all! Lots of love from Sweden! 🌲🇸🇪❤️

@soulfly3438

2 жыл бұрын

its actually shocking the amount of people around us in our day to day lives who are silently suffering thru depression. or even who have reached out for help many times. but its just such a long term problem even friends and family grow weary of dealing with it. many many people you know are silently suffering and considering suicide. so if your reading this then consider that. and be a light in there lives. be loving and be a reason on the plus side for them to stay. the most common thing among depressed people is feelings of being all alone.

@izzyjones7108

2 жыл бұрын

I always thought the saying "Suicide is a permanent solution to a Temprary problem "= it is true. no matter how bleak or hopeless things can seem..and life can be hard..It isnt going to last forever. nothing does the very nature of life is that it CHANGES all the time.

@izzyjones7108

2 жыл бұрын

@@soulfly3438 kinda..but your username ..I saw those guys years ago

@ManiacalMaxPage

2 жыл бұрын

Me and a friend are trying our best to share info and awareness on these topics. I'm glad someone feels the same way.

@oneinchme3289

2 жыл бұрын

@@ManiacalMaxPage I believe we are many who have experience with the effects of suicide and or how it feels to hit rockbottom and get that urge to end your life. Anyone who have that experience feel the same and wish they had known so they could've helped. Keep spreading knowledge, compassion and love! ❤️

I love your channel, the way you deliver these stories, and as someone who knows sign language, I mimic your intro gesticulation for gesticulation.🙂

You’re a great storyteller! The detail you provide make it sound like you were at the scenes you describe.

You know we love Mr Ballen when we all swarm to his video even 1 minute after upload, keep doing what you're doing John we all love you!

@MrBallen

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you!!!

@UncleSlimJimmy

2 жыл бұрын

@@MrBallen Yep of course! 😊

@RoxannBoykin

2 жыл бұрын

Yes we do