my school is doing mean girls and i really hope they change the 115 line because i know there are a ton of people struggling with their weight who don’t need to hear that line

@surreptitially

10 ай бұрын

Yeah that line makes sense for the character (kind of in line with what we saw in the movie) but it is SUPER harmful!

@sergiomolina6138

10 ай бұрын

Hi, I was recently in a production of Mean Girls, and I can confirm that the official script comes with a list of alternative lines by Tina Fey, and in it, there is a the option to change the 115 line to 'All the filters you use look just like me' which is what we ended up using (and honestly it should be the forever line then an option)

@theEricWalker

10 ай бұрын

They need to get a thicker skin

@mar-ui2sr

10 ай бұрын

@@theEricWalkerI'm assuming you've never dealt with an eating disorder before.

@theEricWalker

10 ай бұрын

@@mar-ui2sr you'd be assuming wrong. I learned very quickly that you have to change because the world will not change for you.

It's so sad when we gain weight because we are relaxed and less stressed about things and enjoying life and we still are made to feel bad about it. "you're not taking your health/career seriously" hurts us mentally so severely, like we are constantly underperforming in life while actually enjoying life.

This video makes when Mariah sings "Enlightenment" from Starry hit different in the good way. Glad to see you back. I remember seeing perform at 54 Below in New York and you were the sweetest. Sending you positive vibes through the screen.

@MariahCasillas

10 ай бұрын

This really hit me. Yeah i have a RELATIONSHIP with that song. Thank you for the love

@classicalheroes8910

10 ай бұрын

​@@MariahCasillaswould you consider returning to the role after its west end run?

i diddnt get to see you as Regina, so i took a trip across the country to see you as Steph. you are amazing! its so good to see you again like this and how happy you look!!

@classicalheroes8910

10 ай бұрын

also, dont be scared to branch out!! post absolutely anything and we will eat it up lol

Welcome back!!Thanks for sharing and being vulnerable. ❤❤ ps lmk if you’re ever in the mood for a fun collab 😘

Sometimes we need a break to reevaluate and appreciate what we got. It's always so nice to hear someone be genuinely happy about taking time to live their life for themselves the way they want to. There are too many that apologies for having to take time to themselves, and i think that's just so sad. Keep on keeping on!

I'm 25 and idk how else to say this but the releif i felt watching this video was very unexpected. Just, idk, seeing someone whos a little older trying to figure out life and med and just exsisting in this world is really nice to see. So yea ill always stick around

@livvyg5081

7 ай бұрын

Totally agree, I feel like we’re told to have everything worked out by now but we’re still SO young? We don’t have to have it all worked out, we can just chill and take a break.

I've never heard of you, but I'm fresh off of watching "Nerdy Prudes Must Die" and was like, "I need to look into this chick, she's phenomenal". Thank you for sharing all of that, I'm in a bit of a funk myself and I needed to hear that it comes back around. Self care is an interesting thing. Anyway, you're doing great, keep at it!

This literally feels like my story too. Doing nothing FOR ONCE felt so good. I also found love too and felt that feeling. Love can be another dream.

I’m so glad that you’re back on KZread, Mariah. What makes it better is that this is something you consider fun to do with your time. I also appreciate you sharing your journey, it is relatable even as someone who isn’t a performer. Sending so much love! 💚

Oh wow this resonates with me. I valued my singing career more than anything, and when I fell in love with my (now) fiancé in undergrad I felt so "anti-feminist" for struggling with the idea of being in a path where I'd always be leaving my partner for long periods of time. When my mental health finally reached rock bottom and I announced I was quitting music to find a different career, I felt like I'd let my 3 year old self down. Now I have a happy relationship and a successful, stable career, but I'm back to where I want to perform again and I'm stuck thinking "Oh, but none of my dream roles 'come in my size' anymore. I've gained 40 pounds since college". I'm proud of myself for taking a step back and prioritizing my mental health, which meant completely restructuring my identity, which previously had been singing, singing, singing. But now I feel ready to go back and I'm at a loss for how to get back there without also returning to the body and the mind that I had 5 years ago. From one Mariah to another, you are not alone. I'm so glad you're taking the time to figure this all out for yourself. We may not be shiny and new, but we're here!

you are my one biggest inspirations i am 16 with anxiety and i have a disability surrounding coordination. which made dancing hard for a long time. your transparency and personality makes me feel more comfortable as im falling more and more into the theatre world. sorry i don't know how to word half of this i just got my wisfom teeth out

@rioisnotokay-ipromise-6115

10 ай бұрын

Omg hi, I’m also 16 and a disabled aspiring actor! U got this!

@basil5089

10 ай бұрын

@@rioisnotokay-ipromise-6115 omg hii! this is so sweet. thank u :)

@niamhs6042

6 ай бұрын

This is so cool! I have dyspraxia which affects my coordination and although I don't want to perform like you I am sure it's frustrating sometimes trying to learn new steps and things. I hope you do amazing and I hope mariah will see your comment. Her character steph inspired me to be a bit more confident after watching npmd and I did try to learn some of the dances just for fun

@basil5089

6 ай бұрын

@@niamhs6042 this is so sweet! thank u so so much. lots of positive change happened since i wrote that comment, and i was feeling insecure about my skill around that time. this means the entire world... it would be awesome if she saw this but im just as happy if she doesn't bc she still inspires me everyday :D

I saw you as Regina on tour in Buffalo and would have NEVER known you were dealing with those problems. Your weight never crossed my mind, and you blue the house down. Discovering Starkid through NPMD and pulling out my playbill to connect the dots was one of the coolest moments in the world to me. But, on a more human note, I was a theatre major in college and we were pushed so hard to audition for professional work after graduation. I never wanted to do that because I'm a heavyset man with a mezzo-soprano belter's voice so there aren't many casting opportunities for me. I stopped auditioning and I was so content with it, even though singing is what feeds my soul and it's the only thing I ever want to do. You are a gem and I relate to your story so much. Thank you for sharing. ❤

the anti-depressant weight gain is so real 😐😐it is really hard seeing your body change when you've always been a certain size. i hope you feel better now

Welcome back. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. I’ve been on a similar journey with musical theater these past two years. This was my favorite thing to do, but over time it started to cause me physical pain but I still loved it. Then I was injured by a director’s negligence and I’m still working through that. What was once my biggest source of love was now my biggest source of pain. I had to take a step back and realize who I was as a person without theater in my life. It was hard, but it was so worth it. I just came back and did a summer camp of Legally Blonde and it was so fun. And I totally agree with what you said about directing. Thank you for sharing your journey, it was just what I needed to hear.

@MariahCasillas

10 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing YOURS!! THIS really really resonated with me

Beautifully transparent. It’s all happening. Dad

This is very touching. Thanks for sharing your struggles. It's brave, and it resonates with a lot of us. I was introduced to you from Starkid shows, and you are just killer in them! :)

When the world needed her most, she returned! So great to hear from you, Mariah! You are such an inspiration to us all, and we're so glad you're feeling happy and healthy. Best of luck 💙

As a current 24 year old who does not have their mental health situation totally situated at the moment, I can’t even imagine the stress of touring but I am experiencing the hustling and the feeling like garbage all the time. About to do the same move back across the country to chill the hell out with my parents. This made me feel seen and hopeful for the future. Thank you for sharing ❤

I'm so happy for you! I'm also excited for what's to come for you! Best wishes

Love you, Mariah! So great to hear your story. ❤

I’m so happy you took some time to heal yourself ❤️ also so happy to have you back 🥰

This video is absolutely perfect. I didn't know I needed to hear this, but I defiantly needed to hear it. Thank you for sharing and being authentically and honestly yourself and not hiding the hard stuff.

I'm glad you took that time. You are amazing. Keep on trucking Mariah!

so proud of you sharing your journey and growth queen!!! ure inspiring and we’re glad to see you back 🩷

Sending love your way, doll. You seem at peace and very happy and I am so proud of you!

this video made me so emotional !! im really happy you felt safe to share everything with us, sending so much love 🫶🫶

So glad you're back, Mariah! Thank you for sharing this super important journey with us. Taking a breather for self reflection and reevaluation of everything one does is really important sometimes, and I'm happy to see it improved things on your end. Can't wait to see what the future has in store for your gorgeous self. May you keep getting those Ws, wherever you go!

Proud of you for sharing and staying so authentic to yourself 🥹💜

hey mariah! just wanted to say that a lot of the things you touched on resonated with me. i'm just starting to get into theatre, but i'm a young and anxious college gal, so your story meant a lot. you are so strong and inspiring for growing, being gracious to yourself, and letting yourself heal. i'm so glad that you're feeling happier and healthier now

Omg it's soo good to see you again! And lol its completely normal to take breaks! I used to do theatre up until last year but then I stopped because shit went down and its fine! Taking breaks is fine and its amazing!!

so glad youve decided to come back to youtube! cannot wait to see what the future holds for u and will always been supporting

THE GENGAR LIGHT I LOVEEEE also so glad you're back Mariah

I am so glad you are back ❤️ and I’m so glad that you have taken time to grow and feel more comfortable as yourself.

I'm very happy for u and I cannot wait to finally see NPMD 😊

amazing what time can do. so happy you're in a better headspace!!!

I'm so glad I clicked on this video. I'm so glad that you're doing better and I hope that you continue to be happy and find success and be well 💛

yeah baby! give us the content!! 🎉 love you. proud of you. excited for you. you doing what you felt was right for you was what was always most important. you’re amazing and so damn loved ❤

I resonated with this so much because I also took a break from my passion when the pandemic hit and didn't realize how much I needed it until much later. I haven't returned to it in the same way and I'm still scared that I never will but you talking about patience just gave me the validation to keep going how I'm doing it now. Excited to see you back. ❤

Hearing you say that taking that time off was beneficial, and being scared of taking that time resonated with me so hard❤❤ i really needed to hear that, and I'm so glad to hear that you're doing better. You're an absolute inspiration as a performer but more importantly as a person❤

I wanted to say thank you for everything you said; it really resonated with me!

Thank you so much for sharing Mariah! Of course don't ever feel as though you have to, but hearing about you dealing with your anxiety has really helped me accept my own anxiety and my decision to take medication for it x

You look happy :) I'm glad that you are having fun, and back in KZread, and with your new spark for Theater. You also look amazing and I loved hearing your covers ^^

The way you continue to be the coolest person I know!!!

I'm so glad you're feeling better, and I'm equally glad I got to see you in Mean Girls for my birthday. Wecome back to KZread :)

Oh my God, I didn’t expect this video to be so full of life lessons as it is, but I’m greatful it was❤ I’m so happy for you that you’ve discovered this about yourself and that you’ve found a way that works for you. I’ll take the life lessons you shared here to my grave. You articulate it in a way that really touches me, and I’m glad it did

I am so so so so so happy for you, for knowing your limits and taking the time away to find yourself and what you want. I found you when you first joined Starkid with TGWDLM, and your journey has been nothing but inspiring -- an aspiring actor myself, it's been a huge blessing to see your growth and your ever-changing relationship with yourself. All the best to you in the new, exciting season! ♥️

I'm glad you were able to take a break and work on yourself. I hope life is treating you well and know that you have a lot of us who are behind you. I may not have always known about you, but now that I do, I hope to see you grow as a person and am looking forward to seeing what you do with your life. I'm glad you're doing what you love for you and not because you feel obligated to. Also, that song you and Joey did (If I loved you) has been living rent free on my mind since watching NPMD on KZread.

I really appreciate this video! I know this video covered many topics, but at this current moment, I especially appreciate the discussion of having a complicated relationship with theater, the thing that used to bring me the purest and widest joy.

thank you so much for sharing this. i'm not in theatre, but i'm currently facing a choice in my own field between taking a break/recovering from burnout and taking a job that would be objectively amazing for my career by societal standards. this has been really difficult for me since i'm also someone who has been go-go-go my whole life, and it's hard to admit that my passion and drive just aren't there anymore. hearing your story has been incredibly encouraging and honestly another nudge in what is probably the right direction for my health that i'm just partly still in denial about (i also happen to be 23 right now and fighting all those feelings about how time is running out for me to jumpstart my life, so what you're saying is hitting extra hard). anyway, so glad to see that you're doing well and feeling passionate and excited again after taking some time that it seems was sorely needed, wishing all the best!

I’m so excited for your future and creating more opportunities that make you happy. your voice and your happiness are your power 🤍🤍 I’d love to hear your version of Someone Gets Hurt someday, the control you have is incredible

i feel so lucky to have seen you as regina back in 2019!! i feel so sorry that you were going through so much at that time. when you announced you weren’t coming back, i was sad (even though i already saw you lol) but i completely understand why you left after watching this, it sounds like you made the right choice. ❤

Video games and wine really resonated with me, haha. I’m obsessed with Red Dead Redemption 2. Anyway, I’m so glad you did what was best for you, and not what you thought you “should” do. I’m so excited to see the proshot of NPMD and to see you and all your fabulousness with awesome sound and video quality!!

Hi from Thailand. I’m rarely post my comments but I really want to let you know that during pandemic, my students and I, we’re all incredibly inspired by you. I first found your video when you sung “Enlightenment”. Since then, I’m secretly rooting for you. I also showed my students of your cover or they also shared links of your cover during pandemic. We even did the similar things for our studio like, create our home cover version of Musical songs and put them together as a small concert. You’re amazing and you inspired us during the darkest times too. THANK YOUUUU! Welcome back and sending love and hugs your way. ❤❤❤

Nice to see you back! I did my senior project on you not too long ago. You got me an A 😉 You’re so talented, beautiful, and inspirational. Keep doing what you love.

Wow am I glad to see you back. I remember seeing you at the DPAC in February of 2019 or 2020 I believe? ( it’s been a while since then so I don’t remember 😂 ). You were fantastic as Regina and I followed along with your videos and Instagram. As someone who’s also grown a lot since that time, I’m so proud of you for taking the step back that you needed. I’m sure it was a difficult choice since you were at your “peak” in terms of work, but I’m very glad to see you doing well and happy. Sometimes the Lord guides us down the road less traveled to heal us. So happy for you love, and looking forward to your future success 🩵

hi Mariah :) just dropping in to say everything your talking about sounds perfectly normal to me. That's not me taking anything away from the heaviness of things like: needing a serious time out, needing to go home, anxiety, physical health and period stressors, weight... it's all significant. All I'm saying is your not alone, your not a strange being for having these experiences. I didn't hate COVID either. I was relieved too because it meant I didn't have to deal with anyone and nothing was expected of me. I get you. I wish you the best and I'm sending you love from the UK ❤ It's also really cool that your open about having therapy, I've been considering it for a while and every person I hear talk about it in a positive/casual way nudges me closer, and I'm sure its the same for others.

I saw you perform in Spring Awakening back in 2016 and I just found your account again - so happy to see you’re doing well!!

Thank you for this. As someone who was doing nearly consistent shows in school before COVID, and then Bam, I've done one thing and auditioned for maybe two shows since then... I've changed so much since I last did theatre. I found my identity, I found my real friends, and I found out so much more about who I am. I want to get back in to theatre, but especially as someone who lives in the Midwest and doesn't conform to a "typical" gender identity... it's been hard to figure out how to get back in there. I'm slowly searching for community things, and I'm trying to save up so one day I can move someplace with more opportunities and more ways to stay authentically myself. Seeing how a break revitalized you so much really inspires me to keep trying, and I'm so happy to see you happy in theatre once more. Seeing you in NPMD in February was absolutely fantastic, and I can't wait to see what projects you take on next. Take care!

Good for you to take care of yourself and take time for yourself!! You are so talented so I have no doubt if you want to share it you will be able to. PS Nerdy Prudes Must Die was amazing!

Welcome back!! ❤

so glad to see you again!❤❤

I’m so happy for you!!!

14:36 > 15:06 👍🔥 yesssss! actually had a job interviewer today spot something in me that I hadn't named for myself, that I'd kinda been shying away from. What your saying here is valuable. I'm a fan of yours Mariah and am interested in whatever it is that's coming: performing or directing. Same goes for vocal coaching/vocal coach reactions if you decide to go that route at any point.

welcome back!!

Love your Gengar in the background!

You are an inspiration.

This is so true, god. In the last year i left a bunch of projects to protect my health before it got horrible. I only stayed in the projects in which i actually felt safe staying in! No matter how many 'lifetime oportunities' i might lose. Nothing is worth risking your health! Ever!

you're so talented

trigger warning: for medication related weight gain when I was pretty young, like 14, I wen through some hard things, I got put on a few diff meds, and some of them made me gain a lot of weight. went from 110 to 150 in a month. that stuff was super tough. especially as a teenage girl. all my brothers were thin, and I felt like was constantly being judged. but at the same time, my thoughts were less jumbled. I may not have looked my best, but it helped me start to thrive.

How much do the lessons cost ?

LET 👏MARIAH👏CO-DIRECT👏STARKID👏SHOWS👏👏👏👏

love you forever

Interview Starkids.

❤❤❤

The hottest and moust skilled singer i ever saw on earth

Touring isn't easy, I've been touring in production for the last 10 years. It takes a special type of person to be able to do that and maintain a stable relationship. Happy to have you back in whatever you're fashion you see fit.

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Mariah i have been following your progress since TGWDLM and saw you in Cincy in 2019! Seeing your progress and how stepping away made you even better and how beneficial it was is really helping me as an actress to reflect on myself! Can’t wait to see what else you become a part of! 🫶🫶 You are absolutely glowing and amazing!