"Always keep a beginner's mind. Always be ready to tear down the castle you built, to build it BETTER." Stephen, loving the videos! I wish I had this advice when I was much younger.

@Luger0312

4 жыл бұрын

Is exactly what I'm doing but that is because I'm fully self taught and have build some rather hindering habits. Not that I can't play, it just feels like I'm starting to max out what I can do with the little of technique I naturally figuered how to do. So back so square one, extend my technical skills and see what it does for me.

@gickygackers

3 жыл бұрын

But why do a lot of these master drummed barely hold any of the stick at all lol

I'm a guitarist who turned to the dark side a few years back. Always find your lessons teaching me three or four things. Your hand position videos are one thing I needed!

When I first "discovered" this it immediately increased my speed exponentially. It was unbelievable.

@StephenTaylorDrums

5 жыл бұрын

Yea, this is one of those real Hinge points that once you grasp the concept it unlocks things quickly.

Middle finger fulcrum has the best rebound but I find that when I want to move around the kit really fast the loose nature of the fulcrum makes it hard to hold onto the sticks. Like you said there is no do all fulcrum. Both index and middle finger fulcrums are essential in mastering this difficult instrument.

@joshuajosiahcolumbus

7 жыл бұрын

anto d I think that the more you practice slowly moving around the kit the easier it becomes as you gradually speed it up

How many kids are sitting in physics class saying, "When am I going to ever use this stuff, I just want to play drums in a band?" LMBO! Another great lesson. Thank you sir!!

Jim Chapin points out using the middle finger and thumb as a fulcrum instead of the index finger in his video as well. I switched from index to middle finger fulcrum due to pain in my hand. It relaxed my hand which as you mentioned improved speed and reduced the pain. My playing improves proportionately with relaxation.... the best way I can describe the feeling is when the sticks are "dancing in my hands". For me, finding more opportunities to relax gives the best use of practice time.

I find your teachings very helpful, as someone coming back to drumming after thirty years and basically starting from scratch, Im finding the science off it very interesting and you exsplain it very well, Please Keep on doing what you do!

I actually love Scott Pelgrom's vision of it: not choosing a grip, but rather practice any fulcrum and let yourself change when you need to. It helped me stop correcting myself all the time when i'm performing.

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Morgane Gautier I agree with this. Because of the nature of our instrument, one hand position just will not work on all points of the kit. So we're faced with adjusting in the moment instead of forcing the moment to adjust to us. Just like music, it's an ebb and flow that we all too often miss.

@joshuajosiahcolumbus

7 жыл бұрын

Stephen Taylor Well put, makes sense to switch grips because as you move around on the kit it will be easier to switch grips and I feel like the more you practice the more natural this becomes

Great lesson as always Steve , enjoy the way you teach and convey your points

Great tutorial Stephen, I've been looking at improving my hand technique. You hit the nail on the head when you said we max out when gripping to much, can't wait to get in the practice room tomorrow.

Such a great lesson! I've experimented quite a bit with where and how I grip. I've found I naturally change depending on what and how I want to play. This has taken many years of practice and intuitively modifying my grip based on the effect I get vs how much energy I put into it. It's really great to be able to quantify it and explain the physics of it.

Thanks for your channel, just bought my first drum kit and trying to get started with a good technical base and knowledge - your videos help a lot

Just what I needed to hear today! Thank you Stephen!

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

You bet!

@saedt

6 жыл бұрын

EYYYYYYYY! :D

As an engineer with a long time love for drumming, i love the explanation.

Thank you Stephen, that makes a lot of sense. I have recently stopped using a stick pad, in favor of practicing on my Roland drums. That has improved my playing a lot. Nothing wrong with practice pads, but as you explain, you have to adjust your fulcrum on the kit, whereas on the practice pad, the fulcrum only changed when shifting between german, american and french grip.

Very in depth and useful info, I love these types of lessons.

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Thanks Alex...gad you found it helpful

Thank you for making these videos! This kind of in-depth explanation is exactly what I've needed to move past the intermediate level. Keep up the great content!

@StephenTaylorDrums

6 жыл бұрын

You bet!

I love your videos Stephen. Everytime I watch one it opens new doors, new possibilities, things I didn't think of. Small details but they make a HUGE difference. Thx for this!

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Makes my day to hear it...you're more than welcome

You are such a talented teacher/instructor. I feel like I learn more just watching your videos at my kitchen table without any sticks than I do with most private instructors. You are most defiantly an influence on my drumming.

@StephenTaylorDrums

6 жыл бұрын

Thanks so much, very humbling to hear that. Really glad the lessons hit home with you

love your lessons . I have the same exact problem you do with the left hand a lot slower than the right one. actually been trying what you explained before I saw this video. great job explaining it all . I'm going to try to work the left to match. tks again.

Good stuff as always Stephen.....being away from home for several weeks with nothing but a practice pad and sticks, this gives me something solid to work on that will enhance my playing when I get back on the kit!!! We appreciate you doing these quick tutorials....

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Man, I actually have gotten to the point that I LOVE being away from the kit so I'm forced to work on these issues. With the kit around, I just want to hit the shiny things lol. Glad it gave you some food for thought Mark

I enjoyed this lesson a lot. Thanks, Stephen!

Hello Stephen, this is your most important lesson for me. Thanks, this will alleviate many issues.

This is 100% excellent and exactly what I needed to know (and now to learn haha). I've come to realize I'm an extremely tense person in general, and it's reflected deeply in my playing. This is the technique and knowledge on relaxed playing that I needed. Now to tear that castle down...

This is very useful information. Thank you for taking the time to fully explain this with many examples. Great job!

@StephenTaylorDrums

5 жыл бұрын

You bet!

Thanks for a top end lesson again just learning how to hold my sticks better has improved my playing so much and I have you to thank for that I have stopped waving my arms around and focused on stick control thanks again top job 👍🏻

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Makes my day to hear that

Stephen Taylor, PhD

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Lol

Yes! Thank you. This is exactly the information I’ve been looking for. As a self taught drummer I’ve been chocking the stick way too much and struggling with high speeds

Hell of a teacher... Great content as usual! Keep it up bro! Cheers fro Brazil

Great lesson I always explain to my students the importance of the fulcrum . Seems like using the middle finger rather than the index finger for fulcrum placement would result in using one less finger when utilizing the finger technique. Yes I’m a drum nerd and think about these things too.

Great talk Stephen. As long as I have been playing, I always try to learn something from another. Then I try to apply it to my playing and teaching. I'll get a lot of mileage out of this. worth its weight in gold. Thank you so much. Ken

@StephenTaylorDrums

6 жыл бұрын

Ken Schaefer Thanks for always being willing to learn Ken. I'm the same way. I'm not interested in being right...I'm just interested in bettering myself and my students a little every day. Glad the lesson hit home.

very good point you're making there. maybe it will help me with my blast beats. thanks for the video

This is a really good lesson. Thank you so much!! Beginners Mind!!

"It'll cause you to start peaching down on it." I'm just teasin'. You have a knack for teaching/instructing. Another great video. Keep 'em coming. ;)

Interesting video for me because I recently realized I was gripping the end of the stick and once I moved away from that my music improved leaps and bounds. Good lesson, always can learn something here.

Good stuff, Stephen! Thank you!

Really awesome lesson on the physics of drumming!

You are such a good teacher! I've learned more off this channel then from actual lessons!

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

shaun davies Thanks so much Shaun. It really does make my day to hear that.

Awesome video. Such a simple idea, but so complex in terms of how it affects your drumming in more advanced techniques

@StephenTaylorDrums

6 жыл бұрын

The farther I get in my drumming the more I go back to these simple, yet profound, topics

Cheers for that, man. Very cool. Going to try it out. Been a self taught drummer since the age of 8 so this is pretty clutch.

Very articulate. Subscribed! Thanks!

This was really helpful. I was born without a joint in my right thumb so the stick keep floating and it's quite challenging to progress so I turned to hand drums. I have a great support team but get frustrated easily when it comes to getting tips, it's just so slow going. Your video was encouraging. Thank you!

Great! Excellent!!! Txs so much you are the man!!! My playing changed a lot!

Thanks for the help, I find myself locking up whenever I play bebop or fast rock. Keep up the great work Stephen!!

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Tate Davis You bet Tate. All about the rebound and fulcrum on those fast tunes. Glad it helped.

Great in depth lesson Steven

thank you Stephan never thought of some of this before.

Your effort to choose your words carefully is appreciated...and you won! Nce job!

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Thanks so much...glad it helped!

Excellent Teacher... Excellent Advice Thank you for this!

@StephenTaylorDrums

9 ай бұрын

Glad it helped!

Stephen....I'm a 66 year old rocker. Also, named Steven (just spelled different). I haven't played in about 30 years, but have always enjoyed watching a good, tight drummer playing with a group. Recently I decided, after much prodding by my family and friends, to start back up, again. Bought a new kit, and sat down for what has become an exercise in futility. Not as fast, or as accurate as in the past. Some things are okay, at best....other things, not so much. I just didn't realize, in the past, what was REALLY GOING ON, but I have to say that, after following your videos, on U-tube, that I have already seen excellent results. Minor results....but excellent. Your presentations, analogies and "going deep" on your lessons, make it a pleasure to learn. Thanks for all you do and good luck with the new studio. Sincerely yours, Steven "Woodie" Wieting 😎😎😎

@StephenTaylorDrums

5 жыл бұрын

Welcome back to the family Steven! And thanks so much for the kind words. Makes my day to know that the videos have helped that much.

Great lesson! I was actually thinking about this while practicing this morning, not all the leavers and stuff, just that I need to choke up on my stick and not just hold the very end (very similar to what you've gone through, I think). Thanks for sharing!

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Yea, this is the reason behind why you felt you needed to do that

Thanks Stephen. I've actually been trying to work on this very aspect of my playing. I'm a self taught player(15+ years) and am currently in a successful band with some challenging music. I've been going back to the basics, so to speak, and this really helped a lot. I tend to hold the stick close to the ends and knew I needed to get from A-C but did not understand how. Believe it or not I tried looking on KZread but nobody explained it the way you did. Thank you for your help and your videos are very informative by the way.

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Robert So glad it connected the dots for you Robert. And congrats on your bands success. Proud of you for putting the work in, having some success, and still being humble enough to try and better your playing.

Im glad to find my new favourite hero, great lesson!

@StephenTaylorDrums

6 жыл бұрын

Glad it helped

You teach on a level where everyone can understand your instruction. Thank you.

@StephenTaylorDrums

2 жыл бұрын

So glad to hear that my friend!

Mr. Taylor, This is not the first time I have commented on your videos. The one other time was when we disagreed on your description of the blues. We came to a gentleman's agreement. But this video is extremely well thought out and articulated. I am an old dog who just took a lesson. Well done Sir bravo and thank you! David Gallgher

@StephenTaylorDrums

6 жыл бұрын

Jason Michael So glad to hear from you again David. And humbled that this helped at all.

Great video!!! Have you ever tried the "phone books under the arms" trick? I find it helps students that are struggling to use the right muscles to make the sticks work.

Ur a beast !!!! Thanks for all the help man

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

ivan hita Sure thing Ivan!

Eye-opener... good tips here...thanks

@StephenTaylorDrums

6 жыл бұрын

You bet!

I've always played further back on the stick to get more power and throw. I'm one of those downstroke/upstroke players, which helps me greatly, but like you said I've reached a maximum level. But playing this way has always been the most comfortable for me. I'm sure it's force of habit and I haven't made the time and effort to break down and rebuild my technique. I've tried moving up on the stick to improve my fulcrum and rebound but a few bad things happen as a result: 1) The now exposed butt end of the stick constantly slaps and hurts the outside palm of my hand with each rebound. 2) When trying to play looser, my sticks never stay in the same position in my hand and creep further away from me. If I don't grip harder at the fulcrum, causing tension, or constantly re-position the sticks while playing, they will fly out of my hands. 3) Moving up on the stick reduces my reach to toms and cymbals that were easily within reach when further back on the stick. Yes I can re-position my setup, but then everything feels too close. I want to improve all of this and your video finally explained it to me in a way I can relate to and understand. Besides making the time to break my technique down, I need some of your advice, pointers and a place to start. Thanks.

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Hey Brian...so you've hit on THE reason why this is not addressed more in more experienced players. It takes a lot of work and changes everything. I went through a very frustrating time with my gigging life while going through this process. I'm happy to help. Drop me an email at help@stephensdrumshed.com and we'll see if we can get you pointed in the right direction to start. The journey to revamp your technique is well worth it. It just requires patience.

Great lesson!man,love the shirt too man!

The further back you hold the stick the faster the tip will move with less movement from the rist even though there is less rebound, but like you said it’s all about using different fulcrum points for different types of playing very cool

Wicked Stevo as I've tendon damage & have no choice but to use 3 fingers & thumb !!

This is exactly the subject I've been dealing with for the past few years, I have changed my sticking position a couple of times (German,French, American) but lately it has transformed into a Tony Williams kind of sticking position. That was a big change and revelation for me. Mainly because of injuries It has been very hard for me to use the thumb-and-first finger fulcrum, that's why I searched for a good sticking position.

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Constantijn Prijs Man, last Saturday night I wound up watching an old solo of Tony's after the wife and I had finished a movie. It was a close up of him doing open rolls around the kit...crazy technique. So effortless. I think this proves two things... 1. Tony is a beast in every way. 2. My Saturday nights are embarrassingly uneventful these days.

@Constantijn09

7 жыл бұрын

His drum clinic in 1985 is Tony Williams talking about his "grip" and technique. It's almost frightning how much he combines technique with knowledge and groove.

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

In the first few minutes of this they do some great close ups of his hands. I watched it on my HD big screen TV to really check out the details: kzread.info/dash/bejne/Ym1pt7SlYraweZc.html

Great video. After 40 years I'm finally trying to get my hands right, so I can speed up. You've described what I'm trying to learn perfectly here. I moved from the pad to the kit the other night and couldn't figure out why I was playing french grip all of the sudden. Now I know. LOL Now if I can just get my 16th notes up to 210 so I can play those Pat and Debbie Boone tunes. ;) I thought it was the carpenters at first. Heading off to watch your other videos....

@StephenTaylorDrums

6 жыл бұрын

Livinthosesongs So glad it helped

Nice video Stephen! Very helpfull. Do you use push/pull technique? And if the answer is yes, can you make video about that? Keep up with good work!

Drinking game: one shot every time Stephen says fulcrum... good luck!

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

ThaTyger *dead*

@joshuajosiahcolumbus

7 жыл бұрын

ThaTyger “Im so drunk I cant even see anymore wahaha!”

@ShetlandTec

3 жыл бұрын

Or becaaaause XD

hey steven, oh captain my captain.... i got no idea what the heck i'm talking about...but here goes... okay, here's where i took this, or where this went for me. the distinction between fulcrum fingers only, and full finger use, was paramount. in terms of what i believe to be the point/goal/purpose of this exercise. i began as you demonstrated, going from finger to finger, and saw a pattern emerge. i was thinking, i never use just a single finger, for control when playing. it became clear to me, what i'm trying to control is all fingers, plus maintaining a smooth stick bounce/tracking, or fulcrum/lever. without a constant fulcrum, there's just not constant control. it goes in and out, perhaps in such quick intervals, anyway, it is the foundation, forget about it. one can control a stick with just the fulcrum fingers, and no others. but not the other way around. it reduces down into 2 parts. 1: the fingers that essentially are the on the stick as the ones which are the axle points, which is the see-saw the stick rides on. 2: the fingers that keep the stick bouncing/dribbling/see-sawing, with maximized results produced by/resulting in a minimum of effort. like a quick bag in boxing. once it's going, keeping it going, using the least amount of effort, is the goal. this requires precise timing/accuracy/consistency from hit to hit. so again for me, same results occur when alternating one finger at a time as it did going from the fulcrum fingers alone, and alternating between all fingers. putting both parts together, seamlessly/constantly and at all volumes, and tempos is the key to the goal.. the grasp/tension/lbs per sq in/used for the axle/fulcrum/lever part, must remain identical with both parts. no more or less, with all fingers and/or with just fulcrum fingers. keeping control, and not loosing the rebound/bounce/dribbling, keeping the stick tracking on a stable parallel lever, continually, while, using the rest of the fingers as the ones that make the stick go from up to down. reaching the perfect balance of these 2 things. this is the final goal, of mastering drumming with sticks. with economy of effort, and maximized officiants and effectiveness. whatever you want to call it, as far as i can see. get those happening together, you'll have it. no compromises. 50% of each, that is balance. which is also control. if you see 70%/30%, 0r 40%/60% or 49%/51%, you will not be maximizing potential. ultimately, for me, it came down to this: keeping the stick bouncing almost effortlessly became a real challenge. maintaining the exact lever, parallel tracking up and down, keeping it see-sawing, not allowing the stroke to become disrupted, in any way, when alternating between, full finger, vs. fulcrum/lever fingers only strokes. is the destination for which the journey is undertaken. happy shredding

Good stuff

This is very usefull. Thanks! I also like your positive attitude towards people using techniques that are clearly inferior in your opinion.

@StephenTaylorDrums

6 жыл бұрын

Tom van Wijk Thanks Tom, glad it helped!

Ty. Finally i get the answer about 16th on the hi hat. Noone KZread teacher doesn't tell abou that. Thank a lot Stephen.

Thank you so much

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Behzad Amiri You bet!

Very helpful

love the way you think brother drummer. you're right about the use of the word grip, and how it pertains to holding a drumstick. there needs to an accurate word used, cradle is good. jim k. say it's likening to holding a baby bird. i'm struggling with the tightness of my grasp on the fulcrum point. sticks suddenly flying out of my fulcrum from the rebound. but like you say, i don't want to choke it off. it's my other fingers not watching close enough. to be sure, but is that grasp on the lever, per square inch a constant for you? i mean, isn't there a minimum that you can loosen up under? i hope you get that in the content/context/intent was intended. since you use every manner of holding a stick, clearly that pressure if you will, is going to be in constant flux. i'm using a drumkat. so my lever/fulcrum point changes little moving over a small surface, with equal rebound on every voice. like a practice pad, you know a drumkat, right? in any event, i'd love to hear your thoughts. btw, this is the first i've ever bothered to comment, for whatever that's worth. quit a bit, in my book. quantity unknown.... i'll never forget seeing james b. telling about how he was asked what his best song was. in a way only he could, he says my best? james b. got no best, there just aint a best james b. 'how is there no best of jb?' cause ain't nobody seen the best of james b. yet oh, and thank you so very much for sharing, mighty.... something/word//pick, of you. much appreciated.

Thank you Stephen. Great lesson. What is your approach to open close o push pull technique?

So I just recently discovered that I have been choking back on the stick in both hands. I didn't notice it until trying to learn some faster parts in a song for my band and that is what I am working on right now. So thanks for this video Stephen! If you had this "issue" and could over come it, I'm sure I can as well! :)

@StephenTaylorDrums

6 жыл бұрын

Mark Fuller Choking back is something that we naturally go to for reasons other than controlling the stick. Anytime it's high volume your body seems to want to go the route of least resistance...which is choking back. But that hinders us in a lot of other ways. Glad it helped Mark!

@markfuller4551

6 жыл бұрын

It made me feel better to know that this isn't "wrong"... but it is for the fact that I always go to a chocked back position even in quiet parts. But now that I know I do it, I can actively correct it. All of your videos have made a HUGE difference is my playing, technique and the way I mentally approach everything. Thanks for everything you do! There's a chance I would have given up on the drums if it wasn't for your videos.

So glad i learnt about pivots in science last week. also jesus... ur smart

Mmmmm, I'll explore moving my fulcrum to the middle finger. Does the index finger then play a role in controlling direction and amount of rebound? or should it stay totally out of the way?

If I had a dollar for everytime Stephen talked physics I'd be a millionaire !! haha Love your videos. Your lessons and insights are priceless. Immensely grateful fan here, cheers

Awesome

Wow, ypu had asked at the end of one of your vids "What's the hardest rudiment for you" I said single stroke, and you replied about my problem being mechanical. Idk if you made this for my ?(ego lol) GREAT lessom btw.

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Tobydog Loser Lol, no, not specifically for you...but if it hit you where you needed it, then yes, I made this specifically for you 💪🏻 Fact of the matter is, a lot of the issues we deal with come down to simple technique and mechanical issues. Glad it helped!

Going to get back on the drums after 5 years off. Was never great, just decent. This time I’ll do it right by getting my snare technique down correctly! Good video!

@StephenTaylorDrums

2 жыл бұрын

Welcome home!

Awesome video! Quick question: how do you prevent the sticks from sliding form the fulcrum point while playing or even having your sticks drop as a result of "cradling" the sticks as you said

@pinnsnare

7 жыл бұрын

That's happen with my left (weak) hand a lot

This will definitely help me to better play ZZ Top's "Just Got Paid" with just right hand playing the hi-hats. :)

So did you say your you use both your pointer finger and middle finger (two fingers) for your fulcrum? You said it was somewhere between those two fingers but does that mean you use both?

I"m curious, can't i change the grip and loosen the friction between the first finger and thumb to what it is at the middle finger? Couldn't one also create too much friction with the middle finger? I guess ultimately, why is there more friction between one and the other? Second question, what purpose does the first finger then serve in your "grip"?

Thank you

@StephenTaylorDrums

4 жыл бұрын

You bet

Thanks

Thanks that's helpful

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Sheng-Wen Lai Glad to hear it Shen!

Are you wearing a Pat and Debbie Boone shirt? DUDE! You have the best T-Shirts! People used to give me shit for my Bananarama shirt lol but I never cared either. You rock.

Dear Stephen, I got sick in middle of my drum start and I have no idea what happened but I lost the control over my left portion of body, I practiced with leg but its hand that is not getting back to control. Suggest some techniques please.

what part of the middle finger and thumb are in contact with the stick so where should you FEEL that friction

I'm late to the game here, but the physics in that lesson was awesome!

12:30 to see why he's talking about this so much, and how much of a difference it makes

Hi Steven, just wondering if you have a close up video of how you hold the stick with each finger placement, and do you follow the idea that you should be able to fit a stick in between the space between your fingers and the stick, if you know what i mean :)

@StephenTaylorDrums

3 жыл бұрын

Look up the slow mo vids on my channel. And the space...depends. my grip is always relaxed but sometimes that space varies

I have loose ‘grip’ on the sticks and have practiced the Moeller method for some time now and have become comfortable with holding the sticks in that way without being overly tense, however I don’t have a fulcrum as such, and whenever I try to practice this my hands just slip back into their original positions on the stick and I can’t get used to holding the sticks with that pivot point and so I don’t really know if I’m doing this wrong or right or somewhere in between 😅. If anyone has any advice, I’d appreciate a reply =D ~ thanks

My problem is the stick in my right hand keeps sliding up as I hit the cymbal or drum. I don't wanna grip it too tight, as then I lose bounce or rebound. Is that natural?

Interesting, I also started at 14 but my teacher was an orchestral player so everything was heavily based on "the boring part" which i actually loved

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Yea, mine was a heavy cat but I just wanted to play punk rock and not deal with things like fulcrum, finger control and technique. I got it to a certain level and then I felt it was good enough. Which meant, by the time I landed my first full time gig at 19, I was in to some bad habits. Glad you dug in to that "boring" stuff!

playing fast 16th or 8th as far as that goes would that not b considered low moehler with down stroke up stoke

My hi-hat doesnt have much rebound with sticks could it be because its cheap or a skill issue?

Hi Stephan, I play traditional grip. Could you do a shorter video on how this would apply to me? By the way, I really like how you impart your knowledge and musical ideas.

@StephenTaylorDrums

6 жыл бұрын

Thanks Gil...I'll see what I can do

Do you find that the middle finger fulcrum rather than pointer finger may help prevent tendonitis in wrist/arm? Thanks Stephen.

@StephenTaylorDrums

7 жыл бұрын

Not necessarily. I do find that when the fulcrum is on the index finger, I have to grip a bit tighter.