Hi. I am also an older transwoman. I felt female from a young age 3 to 4, but also knew this would be social suicide. I played cops and robbers etc, never liked sports, loved house and school. I innately knew my true feelings would end up with me as an outcast maybe even a sex worker. I went to college then med school, met someone ( a tomboy) fell in love married and had kids. The feeling that I should really be a girl never left. I was fired in middle age and had a huge identity crisis.I saw a gender therapist. I told my spouse that I sas trans but was not going to transition. She wanted a divorce anyway. My kids and family rejected me along with my former spouse. I now had nothing left to lose, soI decided to transition. I have been on hrt for 2 years and living a female over a year. I am happier living as my true self, but it came with a terrible cost and loss. Life is about change and resiliency, onward and upward. Best wishes to all. Bridget

@jimileecrawford7731

2 жыл бұрын

Oh girl! The compromises we make to stay safe! I really feel for you! ❤️

@missalisa-i2i

2 жыл бұрын

Don I am totally witrh you on this -from a very early age i always thought I was the wrong sex-to cut a long story short I had to go to bording school(out in Africa) very disciplined that was then i went to medical school for 5 yrs then the Army called. In my time in the British Army if you were lesbian or gay or wanted to transgender you were dismissed the service(1980-1995 ish ).I very pleased to say that has now changed!. then followed many yrs in IT -married 3 times (lost 2 wives to cancer) and now as I am semi retiring I want to be myself so at the age of 62 I have embarked on that journey. Sadly there is a 4-5 yr waiting in the UK just top see a shrink then get refered to a gp who might put you on hormones etc. Stuff all that I have been self medding now for 4 months (dont recommend that to anyone unless you know what you are doing)but finally convinced my gp to do my blood tests now -happy days-I've never felt so happy in my life. The only surgery i'm going to have now is SRS just a vulvoplasty will do me -which I hope to get done later in this year. Worked on my boobs for 2 yrs vacuum pumps etc and they are to die for now. Take care sweetie

@juliamiller2299

2 жыл бұрын

It was the same with me. In my youth, kids and teens didn't transition. I went through most of my life living as a man, just figuring that I would have been such an ugly woman if I transitioned, and it wasn't in the cards for me. Like you, I had an identity crisis in my later years and I felt that I had to transition to stay alive. So here I am a senior trans woman. I don't regret it one bit.

@jimileecrawford7731

2 жыл бұрын

@@juliamiller2299 I found a soulsister ❤️✨

@ditjedatje9741

Жыл бұрын

you are a dysphoric MAN, playing a woman. it's degrading towards women, like blackface to black people.

I didn't come out until after I turned 60, I'm now 68 and I'm very happy!

I think the desire to transition is multifactor. I'd always had an attraction to the feminine from as early as I can remember. I'd play with my mom's makeup, nail polish etc. While I wasn't effeminate, I wasn't particularly masculine either. I was bullied a lot growing up. I had extreme social anxiety and didn't kiss a girl until I was 20yo. I was married at 26 to a woman. It was an 11 years horrible marriage. My ex was very emotionally and verbally abusive. The urge to transition became extremely strong. I think maybe it was a way to kill my old life. I made the decision to transition knowing it would end my marriage. Fortunately, I never had children. After my transition, I started a whole new life, went back to school, and became a nurse. And I don't regret my transition for a second.

I didn't begin my physical transition until I was 56. However I will was always a girl. There are many reasons that I kept it hidden. I raised 4 children on my own playing duel roles. I was a dad and mom now I am just a mom. My kids love and accept me and I have been walking towards happiness ever since 😁. Thank you Lee❤️

Great vid and thank you so much for doing these, and sharing with us! But I felt you left a bit out, and I think it’s from your prospective: you aren’t old enough yet! And that’s a great thing!!! I’m 54, transitioned at 50. Had a great life before, and now it’s almost back to great again. But the reasons we transition late-in-life are, I believe, much more complex and varied. But gender dysphoria does Not relent, no matter how tough you are. It will either eventually break you or worse, if you don’t do something about it. I decided I needed to stay around for the people I love, and all the relationships I had built up and put together, and there was only one way I would be able to keep living with myself and that was transition.

@paranoidrodent

2 жыл бұрын

I can relate to so much of what you said. I just recently started my transition process at 49 and I will be 50 before HRT has a real chance to kick in. I’ll probably be 54 or 55 by the time I am done. I had my "oh sh*t, I’m trans" realization at 44, promptly backpedaled to "maybe I’m just genderqueer or non-binary" because I didn’t quite fit the typical mould (undiagnosed autism and having a butch/androgynous thing going on kept me in the weeds figuring myself out for a while). In hindsight, I figured out that I was trans at a very visceral level as soon as adolescence started and had tells before that. I also learned to bury it really deep because it wasn’t a safe time or place. Dysphoria absolutely does not relent, as you said. My motivation for transitioning was very similar. I was finally wearing down, wanted to stay around and be able to live with myself. Hell, I kind of feel like I have finally given myself permission to just be myself.

Lee ... how nice to see you back doing a video! Some deep stuff in this one ... touching on things that I, personally, don't have much experience with. I did have an acquaintance who decided to transition in his late 50's, which I certainly didn't envy him. Lost track over Covid, but I assume she was still having issues as she shut down her Facebook account. At least the marriage involved had fallen apart a decade earlier, so that wasn't adding complications. There are several 60's plus trans gals who hang out over in Ashley Adamson's Discord server, and some of their stories go into dealing with kids who are now having to adjust to their Dad becoming another Mom.

This is true! I experienced the same feelings. Very honest of you to share.

Why do we transition at any age...because we want to be ourselves more completely, more truly, more honestly, more authentically, and because it enlivens us, and makes us happy. Pretending we want to be boys can be toxic, and depressing. How can we be loved for who we are, how can we love and accept ourselves, when we are seen and known as boys / men, and we ache to be the girls we are inside, completely. Most of us have tried everything to be happy as men even though our longing was to free the woman inside. It's exhausting to fake being a boy. I'm a girl, even if I lose the people / family / public who want to lock me in boy prison. Thanks Lee. Cheers!

Hi Lee, great video. I'm 54 and have my 1st HRT appointment in a month I can't wait. I've lived this way for too long. Now I am doing something about.

I totally agree with you on this topic . I’m 48 and transitioning mtf with hormones and definitely what I want to do . Having children absolutely delayed my transition timeline being I didn’t want to impact their child hood and try to make it normal as possible. In my early twenties, every time a relationship ended with a girlfriend the first thing I would do is shave my body , paint nails and dress female in privacy and would do so until the next girlfriend came along then back to the masculine male and tried to bury that inter feminine part of me that always came back and when it came back it always came back stronger and stronger , now that my children have grown older I have made the decision to transition and started doing so when my previous wife and I split up . So my way of dealing traumatic situations (relationships) has always been going back to the feminine me inside. Thank you for doing this video, I can really relate and it helps validate my transition .

I have known I wanted to be female since I was 4 years old. I grew up in a very rural and religious community in the US. When I was 18 I was in the military. This was the early 70s. When i actually decided to do it, i was married to a woman I loved, and had a professional career. At the time, I would have lost the career, and would have been forced to divorce. As I had no desire to be a prostitute or in porn, and did not want to lose my wife, I just stuffed it inside. Now I am 65, retired, and my wife passed away from cancer. I have been on hrt for one year, had an orchiectomy, live full time as a woman, and have a court date in these weeks for my legal name change to Wendy.

@ditjedatje9741

Жыл бұрын

you were groomed and exploited.

Thanks for sharing your perspective. I think it is different for everyone and many of the things you said help one think their own situation through more thoroughly. I admire your strength and determination to get your life where you want it to be.

Walking towards happyness! That goes to the core of why we are here and why some might transition! And I thank you for your open words on potential problems on the way and to providing a face to the MtF world!

Brilliant analysis, and helpful. Thank you

thank you so much... it's very helpful to hear experiences that are not mainstream.

Thank you for your insights! It is very helpful for me right now.

Very insightful. I think that discription of transitioning will ring true for a number of us. Like many of us older mtf transgender individuals, when people would ask me when I knew this or that, I wish I would have just told them that. Not that I lied or tried to deceive anyone, I would often get stuck in the details. It was exhausting. I think I'll phrase things that way in the future if anyone ever asks me again. Thanks for taking some time on your day off to include all of us. Mucho Appreciato! Have a great week! 🌺💃

Well, in my case, since a lot of time I really knew that I was a girl trapped in a male body, but despite knowing that feeling, I decided to keep living a false life as male, trying to struggle and search answers from life, without getting anything. Now I'm 32, and finally since my last year, I understood what was going through me and I accepted it, embraced it, and decided to take action. For me, that was the best choice of my life, and the decision was the detonator for change in a lot of ways. I feel like I reborn. And with that transformation, I feel like a lot of new things bloomed for the best: courage, expression, communication, style, determination, presence and charm. Things that were for me imposible when I was the male version of me. I'm still working on stuff like procrastination and discipline, but other than that, when I embraced my alter ego and reckoned my shadows, everything went to light and finally I could find the answer I was waiting for so long, despite having it in front of me. It is very complex, and depends of each trans person. Some finds the answer after a trauma, hard decissions, embracing own inner self or just taking action. Some can find the answer soon or later, some can feel like me, or have very different reasons. In my case, despite my confidence, to be a trans was a jump of faith to the abyss, especially because I'm from Colombia, a very transfobhic and sexist country, but fortunately I have the support from my family and friends. I don't have the hormone therapy yet, but that doesn't stop me from living the best of me. Thanks for your content 😉

@jimileecrawford7731

2 жыл бұрын

You are awesome 😎. The support of family and friends means so much! I love ya girl ❤️. This is life on hard mode but I really can tell that you are up to the task.

@emmasofia3622

2 жыл бұрын

@@jimileecrawford7731 Thank you very much. Your comment encourages me to keep moving forward. Best wishes to you too 😉😉😉

I am 6 months into transition at age 59. I had a few months on hormones when I was 40 and chickened out and quit and I really regret that. I also regret that it's taken me this long to get the courage to do it. So far, I have no intentions of quitting and I'm so much happier. Good video 😊

I tried to show my feelings once before but my parents were selfish and I started to transition after my Mum died and I have never been happier I'm now 60 and I find that the world is more enlightened now and I can be free to live my life that I always wanted

@ditjedatje9741

Жыл бұрын

Your parents wanted to protect you from the scientific exploitation you are a victim of.

I can relate to what your talking about, I think in retrospect I never hated being male but didnt really know what the heck I was feeling and why I would always gravitate towards dressing and enjoying femine things. There was always dysphoria but a confused dysphoria, it was only till I found out what being transgender was and all the pieces fell together finally found some resolution in why I felt the way I felt even though I didnt understand it? I dont think you can get dysphoria or confusion that lasts a lifetime out of trauma. I talked to my therapist about this She said that nothing could cause you to feel the way u feel as a Woman not living as a Woman. Due to many yrs of ignoring how u feel and even fighting it to a point of near madness and never having any support to pursue how u feel causes deep rooted denial and lack of self love.. So I think when you discover yourself you can finally feel love for self and move towards being the best version of yourself as your real gender.🎉🍾❤ but I still get confused thoughts but this is from a lifetime of playing a Male roll because I had no other choice.? Dysphoria?? Didnt even know what that ment 3yrs ago? Learnt so much!! It really is a Journey that not many people have to go through 😮🤷‍♀️

@rogerbertrand8178

2 жыл бұрын

Great comments I am going through something similar...looking back I like feminine stuff and yes we play a male role even though deep down we don't want to

@silkebroxdude7625

2 жыл бұрын

You are still a male

I can relate to your story. Thank you for sharing.

Thank you for sharing these thoughts, I have found myself thinking similar thoughts watching transition videos and hearing some of the more common narratives. I'm questioning things and I hear a lot of talk about regret, about people externalizing the weights to society etc (fair) but at least my internal experience very much is of me questioning stuff myself as well, and not just feeling external barriers, but also internal ones, and that seems to be a narrative that's lacking

This has been a very insightful video and has open my eyes as a cis woman to why someone may transition later in life. Thank you once again 🤗❤

As an older trans woman I thoroughly agree with you by saying that I have not felt all my life that I was a woman trapped in a mans body because that has never crossed my mind to make an impression on my decision to transition. I had a really crappy childhood, in and out of foster homes, not having a stable relationship with either of my parents made me very rebellious. I started wearing omen’s clothing but not for sexual gratification but for emotional comfort. Wearing the clothing felt right and that is what I wanted to do. Getting married and having two children was a huge mistake, don’t get me wrong I love them both to bits. My ex-wife was supportive of the clothing to a certain extent but she turned out not to be the person I thought she was. I have been on my own now for four years now and I made the decision to transition three months ago. I have been seeing a psychiatrist for the best part of eight years and not once has the issue of being a woman trapped in a man’s body been discussed basically because it is not what or how I feel.

Very good insight, spot on!

Hi Lee, it's interesting you bring this topic to light because it makes a lot of sense to me. I have started my transition Feb 2022 shortly after my 51 birthday and I do feel a lot like what you describe. I have tried and tried to be a guy and act the typical male but for some reason I feel like I get rejected by females. When I actually analyze why I have to be honest that I may the one sabotaging any relationship I may actually start. Since I started HRT I have stopped for a week or so a few times because I do feel a sense of not knowing for sure. My biggest fear is to actually face the social barriers down the road...meaning my family and friends. I feel like that in a short time I will be totally alone with no friends and no family. The desire to actually keep going is stronger and I think I will be happier.

I transitioned at 35, waiting partially because of my career as well. That was 17 years ago and there have been ups and downs, but being a woman has most definitely been better overall.

@ditjedatje9741

Жыл бұрын

you didn't transition, you selfharmed, gaslighting others into pandering.

@DrJaneLuciferian

Жыл бұрын

@@ditjedatje9741 Fascism is an ugly look, but it suites you.

@ditjedatje9741

Жыл бұрын

@@DrJaneLuciferian What you are doing is degrading, insulting and humiliating towards women. Like blackface to black people.

@DrJaneLuciferian

Жыл бұрын

@@ditjedatje9741 That weird. All the women I know call me sister. I guess I run with a better crowd. Fasc.

I am so happy to hear that I’m not alone in experiencing most of the same thought processes. I’m 38yo and continue to have the inner battle with myself over will I or won’t I transition and any I’m crossdressing im so happy and transitioning is for me 100%. Oh when you mentioned the timeline vids where they’ve used baby photos, that was fantastic to know someone agrees with me. Kids pics, I feel don’t add any real value to those videos.

@louiswheeland6628

3 күн бұрын

I'm turning 34 and think it's too late and beat myself up into thinking it was something I should've done sooner but I feel alot better now knowing it's never too late 😊 I got this

Thank you for being rare in speaking the way you do about being Trans. I fall into a similar camp as you. Yes I had a troubled childhood, not manly enough etc. Never really wanted to play with Barbie, my natural way was more feminine than male, as puberty kicked in, the differences really showed. It has always been about me living as the person I am not the person others think a body that looks the way I did before HRT, should be. The changes HRT have given to my body has really helped, with changing the way others will let me live in my own way. I did not care what body I had, I just wanted to be me. Cant deny, I love the more feminine shape and looks, they help me see in a mirror, more the me I am in my mind. Thank you. As you say this is not the mainstream way of talking about being a trans who is or has transitioned. Everyone has their own path, all we have to do is find the path which lets us be us and be happy with being us.

This video speaks to me.

Thank you for sharing 📿

Proud of you Sweet & thx really too much 🥰🥰🥰

We've always been manipulated into believing that we are what we are because of some trauma, and this misconception still lies in the Human belief. Truth is, in reality, that trauma is just a wound received from somebody else(especially if occured in tender age, like it happened). That wound operates like a shadow and it holds captive, hidden, all those aspects of our persona which we tend to hate of ourselves. Question is: By why do we hate those? Answer is: we were educated, and indoctrinated to. The very first understanding that you ever had about this matter of fact is totally subconscious. And it is from there that you started, despite of age. It was never about the pain, it was about disposing of guilt and shame that was never yours. You are all of those emotional and feminine traits that you never got to set free. When you realise this, you become aware that you're abusing yourself for the sake of the abusers still in your mind; let's become conscious. The decision to drop the hatred that we give to ourselves is ours, for as long as we are able to recognise the illusion and break the cycle; and this is how a find our true, original self. If you discovered you trans identity later in life, you count as much as a trans kid. People should be taught and made aware of this, because it's true. Stigma is also believing that if you didn't know in tender age and didn't play with dolls, you wouldn't get to be who you really are(cisgenders who tells you how gender dysphorya feels like). There are many factors which could have a bad influence onto the awakening, that's why some people find out later in life.

Respect for the honesty here. I find it hard to believe the stereotypical barbie doll child stories.

There are a lot of factors that likely play into this decision but your point is valid about someone who’s been traumatized wanting a new life. Someone, for example, who went through a painful divorce, lost everything, became suicidal, and who may have had transgender questions could theoretically become more committed to a completely different lifestyle.

It is probably difficult for the younger generation to understand but, there was no medical support for trans people when some of us were young. I am not old enough to have been at Stonewall but, I know their courage set in motion a shift towards accepting diversity. There was more bigotry and hate towards race and LGBTQ people of all kinds, in the past. There were no websites with forums or any recorded system of study. I'm not jealous of the young people who are seeing a better opportunity than I did. I am relieved to know there is just a bit better life ahead for them. And the notion that there is a point of being too old is simply nonsense. Every day is a new chance to live your life your way. Do it whenever you are ready.

Thank you for this video, I honestly can't begin to tell you how isolated I felt because of this similar thing, since I started puberty (I'm 21 now) I've had horrible dysphoria and wished thousands of times that I would wake up as a girl, but there was always one thing that severely held me back, it's that I didn't feel this way as a kid. Sure I didn't feel like I was a boy, but the problem was I didn't feel like I was a girl and it seems every single trans woman I've ever talked to or read the story of they tell me that they've "always known" and that makes me think that I'm just faking it or I've somehow convinced myself that I'm trans when Im really not. I DESPERATELY would like to talk with somebody about this but there's nobody that relates to ,how I feel, the closest that I can find is nonbinary people so I've explored that some and I think that the best description is that I'm somewhere between woman and nonbinary, but that doesn't change my worries that I'm "actually lying to myself and I'll want to detransition and will have made a fool of myself, and ruined my life" I've already lost 2 out of 4 friends and etc because of me being trans. Also therapists are actually the worst and no help it seems, whenever I try and talk about this or I see others talk about something that doesn't fit the "narrative" they just get brushed off and that's so damaging IMO. I felt as though this video was intended for an older-than-myself audience but I still relate to the thoughts behind it I guess; the difference is I don't believe there's any chance I would live long enough to transition later in life and I really really don't want to, if I'm not content with myself by 25 I refuse to stick around any longer and I've said this since I was a kid, it's just real now because the time is running out and I don't know what to do. it's like, do I want to live and more than likely hate my new appearance because I won't pass and neither will my height and voice and embarrass myself and ruin everybody's perception of me and be an outcast from my family and friends, or do I want to kill myself at 25 or younger so people can have a good memory of me. I /want/ to be happy and like how I look it's just that I'm far too ugly and I don't have anywhere close to enough money to get ffs so I would be stuck in this limbo for many years trying to go to school, pay for an apartment, pay bills, etc while also saving tens of thousands of dollars just for ffs, it seems nearly impossible and i don't think that it is. I've even been too afraid to go on hormones for like a year now, I'm afraid that if I do I lose my job and or be homeless because they'll see my chest and then know I'm trans, or my family will notice and then confront me about it, or people in public will harass me and want to hurt me, etc. so even this makes me think that I'm not "actually" trans because I feel like I should feel compelled to despite the risks (which I am it's just I haven't). I apologize for this long whiney comment. PS I've tried therapists but they didn't help me so I've kind of given up on them.

@darkdinoflagel

Жыл бұрын

Hey, I just kind of stumbled over this video and all I wanted to say is that I can relate to you. Hope you are doing alright.

I'm 23 and want to transition but the wait times here for HRT is like 4 years plus I am scared of coming out to my family that I am trans.

You are amazing! And you are so beautiful and way beyond a women I could ever have in my life. I only make 50 grand a year and from the looks of your videos , you make way beyond me as well as far more educated. I just thought I would throw out the chance of at least becoming friends or not. I guess I'm ... Lost? I don't know wtf I'm doing... It's just your eyes peirce my soul and take my breath away leaving me vulnerable an defenceless.

I knew at around the age of 8 in 1959 that I should have been a girl, but had no idea why I felt this way and in my tween and teen ages I tried to hid it. Graduated school, got in trouble with the law and at 18 when into the Army, served in Vietnam and came home, got a woman pregnant and tried to be the man that people assumed I was and finally couldn't take it anymore and finally transitioned at 36 and couldn't have been happier now. And finally last July at 69, I was able to afford it and got my SRS and now I'm in heaven with my complete body at 70

@missalisa-i2i

2 жыл бұрын

I am so happy for you hun. my storey is not disimilar to yours -was in the british army (in my time being gay or lesbian or wanting to transgender =instant dismissal from the service). Im 62 and only just started my journey 4 months ago. I have the most delightful B cup boobs now pert upright and nubile -not alot of women my age could say that!. As I tip to anyone I use nipple developers (not heavy duty ones just the little silicon cups you can get from wish or amazon daily as in i leave them on under my bra all day) I have also vacuum pumped them daily too -hope it helps anyone . I am fascinated you say your feet get smaller I have heard that from other lovely transgendred women. For me this has happend 1. my hair gets alot softer .2 Not often metioned but your spacial awareness changes (cis women apparently have ever so slightly larger eye pupils)you have heard the comment women drivers but its something I have noticed -a good trans friend of mine used to be a bus driver as a transgered women she hasd certainly noticed the spacial awareness change. 3. ones boobs do get bigger.4 One of the nicest changes is the fat and weight re distribution hips larger and a butt to die for -love nothing better than wearing those lovely leggings that have a scruncy bit at the back and being able to do a sweet girly wiggle as I walk now. 5. I was on spiro -makes you pee alot but now on fenestoride 5mg. and evoril 100 patches = no more erections and very little dribbles out of that thing between my legs but I am starting to experience full body orgasms just by playing with my nipples sometimes -what a feeling -cant wait for srs now. 6. not noticed much change in foot size but that might come. If it helps anyone I have had good results by putting castor oil on my lashes and I also derma roll and rub in minoxi 5 in the little bald patches on my head. Bless you xxx

Great video! I love how you said how you didn't transition because you hated living as a male (& also the privileges that came with it), but because you felt happier presenting as female. I know that sounds kind of contradicting, but I also did not despise growing up male (trapped in a boy's body) either. Yes I still feel emphoric presenting as female, but as for medical transition I'm still very on the fence about that too though.

You put it very clear ... although you haven’t mentioned the genetic factor during or before transition ... in this particular subject it’s obvious that you are and always been a woman ... some others trans woman don’t have the same luck ... you are absolutely perfect 📿

Lee, all of our experiences are different and how we define ourselves varies but I think at our core we are all the same. We don’t know what it means to be male or female, so mostly we are conditioned by family and society, and we are indoctrinated into being one or the other. People need to have an inordinate need to force children into whatever role they perceive is proper. Otherwise, we would just become ourselves. It takes longer for some of us to figure out who we are. We are still in the throws of history. Even the youngest transgender kids say they never knew how to define themselves until they heard about it in some media or other. It will be interesting to see how people are when transition is commonplace and accepted-probably in your lifetime, not mine-and the old pressures no longer apply.

You transition when you have onset and develop unbearable gender dysphoria, bit the signs are present since very early age.

what is your opinion about autogynephilia?

@aw3299

2 жыл бұрын

Are you asking if she thinks it's real or made up?

Ok. Hold it. Time out. There are a myriad of reasons why I follow you. YOU are the only one I subscribe to. You're honest, not afraid to tell it like it is and I believe you. It's difficult. I get that. But why I am the only one wondering ( I haven't seen others asking) what happened to the last 2 videos? Did someone give you a hard time? Or did you just not like the videos? I'm curious because I have invested a lot of time on this channel of yours. I am just a concerned " Subscriber"

@leefrancis007

2 жыл бұрын

Things got very nasty between me and Chloe. So I took them down

@chadkilger1234

2 жыл бұрын

@@leefrancis007 OK. Thanks for the reply. I was concerned.

As for my story I have been drawn to feminine things. Have always been envious of makeup and clothing. Also the variety you have to change your hairstyle or color. Never really considered being transgender. After reading several articles and looking back over my life I can see how I am transgender just haven’t transitioned

It is always a pleasure to listen to an intelligent and rational human beeing. How are your SRS.plans doing? Ever read Carl Gustav Jung?

@leefrancis007

2 жыл бұрын

Srs is is on hold sadly

Smart ideas. I choose to do what I choose to do. I don't know why. I don't need to know why. When I "came out" really I just did what I wanted to do. Categories and words, communication is dangerous. It's like people see each other's joy and pain. "Explanations" pretty much don't matter.

My love, do not say that you do not have family or friends. We are your family and friends and everything you wish for. I love you very much. Even my mother loves you and your followers and wishes you all the best.

TBH grew up the youngest of 3 boys and grew up in a super masculine environment and tried to fit into the whole masculinity thing my whole life. In my 30s I realised I hated being male but it would still take years for that mental breakdown to occur where I decided I can no longer live like this and had to transition for my own mental health. Sometimes it just takes time to come to that point and everyones story is different but in talking to other trans women it is pretty common to try to be as masculine as possible, for me it was playing in metal bands, for others it might be weightlifting, muscle cars ECT. Not all transwomen fit into the playing with barbies or the effeminate gay guy stereotypes.

Transitioning changed me spiritually than more anything else.

Bravo.Thenks

The answer is simple, denial and social sigma. I knew I was different when I was 6, but did nothing about it because back then it just wasn’t acceptable. I am 57, and I am just coming to terms with this now.

@ditjedatje9741

Жыл бұрын

it is a failed life, a reattempt to make something off yourself. AGP most likely, couldn't get a date, be your own fetish.

@jessicatymczak5852

Жыл бұрын

@@ditjedatje9741 ya, ok. What an ass.

I get it, and I too can relate. I never really felt I needed to be female, til I did.

@ditjedatje9741

Жыл бұрын

you are still a dude though, nothing in the world can change that.

As long as you are happy with who you are, that is all that matters. I think you are a very attractive woman.

Lee, As true, in great number of peoples lives, one of the big questions life is are you doing this to avoid something or to move torward something ? When you send you felt free when presenting female. My question would be free of what. Which could be just about anything from, free of a role or job duties to free from social judgement or social questioning of your existence. Being female does this allow you to feel femininity or is it a case free to act or due thing in a different way. Why do I say all of this, to try and answer your questions. If you could put your finger on the core items that motivates you, you can move forward them and do more of them.

Hi. Interesting content there. I’m an older Trans and like us all still learning things everyday and usually the hard or most expensive way. As you say everybody’s experience is different and their purpose for doing things are are different. One question I have is if you want to maintain a bit of male sex drive so you can still have a bit of libido, do you limit your deadening drugs that you will be on? Is it by trial and error? I’m local HBC and would love to have a chat sometime as there are so many others suppling me with their experiences and some of them are pretty out there. If not, keep up the handy tips.

"Walk toward the light, Lee! Walk toward the light!"

This answers a question I've had for a while. I was wondering why the percentage of men that are deciding to live as women seems to be increasing and I strongly suspect you have the nail on the head with your speculation. It could be partly because the experience of living as a women today is so much richer than living as a man. I have seen more videos on youtube of women detransitioning than men that have decided they made a mistake in deciding to live as woman.

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There is a book covering this titled "it never goes away" by Anne Koch, who is a dentist.

I would modify it a bit and say if living as a woman makes you feel healthier rather than happier, because I feel that while certainly happiness is a part of it, there is more to it then that.

@jimileecrawford7731

2 жыл бұрын

Yes I think healthier is definitely a big part of it. My depression mostly has subsided. No it's not a perfect life but it's more mine now. Thank you for reminding me Nadia ❤️

ALL TRUE for some! life in transition is very painful for me, and i don't think it should be.i disagree with you it dost matter how we get there and how we are treated.it broke me as a person, and yet i could never give it up.i am in no way Kinky!! an am broken through failure in transition and its killing me

@jimileecrawford7731

2 жыл бұрын

Sending you a ❤️. Love ya girl! Center yourself and walk bravely on! Your sisters, especially this one from Manchester NH walk with you.

Nice

I don’t know what category I would fit into I just want to wear women’s clothes I love the colors styles the patterns the cuts and materials I’m not looking to do makeup or even shave I just love all the clothes I’m not trying to attract men or anything I just love the clothes so I’m not sure what category I would fit into

I know exactly how you feel

Honest Abigale

Do a political video on the Ukraine disaster babe. Please we value your views xxx

Answer, you don't always get what you want, until later in life. You don't always know what you want until later in life. But mainly because as a 62 year old transgender woman in 2024, my 5th year was in 1967, NOT in 2015. Good luck being transgender in1967. If I had known then, I likely wouldn't have mentioned it then. Or 1977 or 87 or 97 as well. It was barely possible in 2007. So no surprise my GRS was in 2017.

Valuable and valid observation

IAM almost 70 Iam I to old to transition. From male to female???

Oh by the way... my profile piture is of my cat Dee Dee who passed away last year in May She was 15 years old and it crushed me! I'm a man who has served my country with honnors and just turned 59. I don't feel old and people say I look younger. I say the age is in the mind and the mind is not in the age!. To each their own. I live in Vegas going for my second shot of covid, taking care of my parents who are getting old. I want to take up arms and go help the people of Kyive because I believe in freeing the world of tyranny . I believe in letting allowing people to live freellly to express who they are without hate or judgement or to the people who love them.

I was 48 when I opened up and tolled my doctor how I was feeling and she referred me to the Gender Identity Clinic.

@ditjedatje9741

Жыл бұрын

ofcourse, 48.. not too old to be a cashcow.

Remember God still love you just like me

I have been kind of missing you. I wonder if everything is OK with you in NZ.

@leefrancis007

10 ай бұрын

I've been put in KZread jail till Friday, however they are combing my channel to try and strike me more and ban.my channel

Or it might be that the traumer we have experienced was the reason we where holding back.. i waited undtil could not living as a man anymore that the fear and anxiety of people knowing hurts less than hiding.. I did know quit long, but not in the sense i knew is was a girl.. but i knew that i definitely did not felt as a man.. i thought i was attracted to females, but it was more that i wanted what they got.. I though always was girlish 😅

"Older people transitioning,: Wait until you're 73 years old and still wondering.

My mom and other family members are forcing me to wait because they don't want me to transition they say God made me a man for a reason

@leefrancis007

2 жыл бұрын

Do it for you.

@jimileecrawford7731

2 жыл бұрын

Lee is right! You are going to live your life no one else is. Cheers!❤️💕

Congratulations girlfriend!

💋💘💘💘💋...with love from France...❣❣❣❣

I'm rambling and I appoligize

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Make that video babe, we need an outsider political opinion xxxx

I am begin to wonder is this all some deep deep trauma?? The words trapped make me burst out in laughter!! In a way it made me realise maybe its deeply.pschological like being anorexic. Could be so many are traumatize so being a girl bring relief. Since your starting fresh??

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Ugh, I am sorry but your video really leaves a bad taste. I can see what you are saying but I don't think it is as simple as you have stated. Yes, I would agree that the age-old argument of I never felt like a male/female is also a sour taste. When in reality you feel the way you feel. If clothing, hairstyles, makeup, body parts, and social circles. Did not fit the way you felt they should change is the result of the need within each of us to adjust. As for my experience, I could not say that I had I don't feel like a man or a woman. This is due to the fact that I can't tell you what each one feels like. What I have always known is that A+B did not equal C for me. I was always confused by both sides of the fence, but I felt closer to the female side than I did the male side. I have always disliked having "male bits". Though some of us have to survive in that role because we could not see another way to a peaceful life. Each path that a Transperson takes is valid. It is not the Destination where we grow but the journey. The Journey to who we are as a person if that path leads you to a full medical transition then that is valid for you. Not one of us should feel the need to justify our journey it is ours alone. No one should feel that they have the right to make someone justify as well.

Wow you are super cute 💋👠

Absolute rubbish. So far from my lived experience it’s not funny. Not sure that random hypotheses based entirely on data free random thoughts helps anyone in our community

Your GAY and always will be forth of May GAY DUDES