Why did you do this to me?
#fanvidfeed #domesticviolence #viddingisart #abuse #multifandom
TRIGGER WARNING.
For best quality I uploaded in 4K.
This video is extremely personal and close to me. It's pretty much a relationship autobiography of mine of a very toxic relationship I was in for years.
Started years ago, and he was addicted to K2, the synthetic marijauna, for the majority of our relationship. He got us evicted, multiple orders of protection, abuse, threats, we were homeless during my entire pregnancy, and he only recently got a job to help with anything during the last year.
It got to the point that I was eventually responding to his aggression with aggression of my own, which only got CPS involved with our son. And losing him didn't even pause his addiction.
Multiple promises of redemption and begging and improvement, nothing worked. Eventually he called himself leaving one day, moving out when I was gone to try and punish me, and I said it was over, refusing to let him back the next week.
I had to move from our home of 3 years, because every room in the house was full of property damage, holes in walls and cabinets, too many reminders.
I'm realizing I'd rather be alone, than stay with that for more years to come.
The only good thing about our relationship is my two year old son, which finishes off the video.
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What you have is not love. It's some kind of evil alchemy. Where you amplify the most vile instincts in each other. You're toxic.
You don't know me in the least do you?
Yes, I do. We're a bad match.
I cant do this anymore.
I just said I was sorry.
That's not enough.
What have I ever done to you for you to treat me this way?
What is wrong with me?
Sometimes he looks at me like I disgust him.
Get your hands off me.
For what its worth I'm sorry.
I don't know why I keep doing this.
I'm a bastard when I drink.
I'm going to go to counseling.
Imma be good, baby I promise. You hear me?
I'll do anything you want just forgive me please.
Tell me what you want me to do and I'll do it.
You don't mean that shit.
And I thought it was my fault.
Is this a game you want to play with me?
What kind of man are you?
I hate you.
I loved you, I never would have hurt you. Why did you do this to me? To us?
The things that I have given up, the pieces of myself that I have given away for you, and you treat me this way.
You don't deserve anything.
Do you even love me anymore?
You took life from me, and you never even said I'm sorry.
You don.t have to be so mean.
I'm not trying to hurt you, I'm trying to get rid of you.
I have spent too many years trying to protect your heart.
Now you've made your choice.
I need to protect mine.
Is that what love feels like? Pain?
I have no more fight left to give.
I've got nothing left.
I have nothing left.
I'm done.
I don't love you anymore.
You have to let me go.
The woman I am now, is done with you.
You have to let me let you go.
This cant be it.
Then how come it is?
I break up with you.
And I will never be yours again.
I think I already got the best part of you.
We can have everything.
What's left over just doesn't look so good anymore.
The only thing that truly made me happy was my son.
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I like that you showed Belle and Rumple. Sometimes abuse isn’t always bloody noses and bruises.
I searched "healthy relationships multifandom". This is what I got... I feel like I missed something
@VioletEmerald
Жыл бұрын
XD
To all: Domestic violence comes in many forms both physical and mental/emotional, and can be done by anyone of any gender identity or sex to anyone regardless of their own gender identity or sex, in any kind of relationship whether romantic or not. All humans deserve kindness, respect for autonomous personhood and boundaries regardless of their similarities or differences to others boundaries, and the meeting of basic needs like food and shelter. We should have these things as a given we should not need to be super grateful for. If your relationship is toxic, please leave it and/or get good help.
@juileb197473051
2 жыл бұрын
He's not perfect, And I ain't either, But being completely honest with each other would totally increase love and trust and remove a lot toxicity and relieve some symptoms boundaries being broken. But someone who doesn't love you doesn't care enough about you to help you heal from the toxicity by doing what you ask and simply confessing, apologizing, and making right the offensive intrusive behavior
This video is the definition of powerful and emotional. I am so sorry that you can relate so much to this video but you're a survivor and a warrior and I'm incredibly proud of you! While I was not physically hurt, I was extremely manipulated and gaslighted and abused in a different form so thank you so much for making this video for other women (and men) out there.
Currently crying my heart out for letting myself go through a toxic abusive relationship
this is incredibly heartbreaking and I'm so sorry you went through that. I can't even begin to say how sorry I am! Thank you for telling your story and sharing it with everyone. ♥️
This is so deep. I am so sorry for all that tou have been through. I am happy you are in a better place. Your edits shine through and they are a masterpiece! Thank you for sharing your story and edits.
This is beautifully meaningful and very important. Thank you so much for making this. This hits so close to home for me, and I'm sure it's the same for many others who have been through similar things. You're strong for getting out of that situation, and you've created something that gives a voice to all those people out there that needed to see something like this. So again, thank you. Also, the editing is amazing!
I’m so sorry for what happened to you .you didn’t deserve that at all .Thank you for this edit it’s so beautiful,shows so many emotions so again thank you
"I have nothing left to give " it hits so hard....😔
This is so stunning. I'm so happy more and more editors touch of this topic and raise awareness. Very very well done!! I love your editing style ❤️❤️
Getting into this kind of relationship terrifies me. I’ve never dated in my life because of it. I hate pain.
@salendriajefferson5230
4 жыл бұрын
Z T I understand how you feel but you shouldn’t let that fear stop you from experiencing something potentially wonderful. Every relationship isn’t like this.
@gardenfairy8479
4 жыл бұрын
Talk about relationships!, I got beaten up by who I thought was my friend because his fiancee cheats on him and he came to my house because I hid it from him all I remember was punches everywhere. Friendships are toxic too
@salendriajefferson5230
4 жыл бұрын
Jelali Malah They sure can be, sounds like it’s time for you to make some new friends.
@gardenfairy8479
4 жыл бұрын
@@salendriajefferson5230 yes when im done with therapy
@salendriajefferson5230
4 жыл бұрын
Jelali Malah I’ll be cheering you on! 🥳👏
Great video! Some people may just see an edit but I see you raising awareness to domestic abuse, rapists, sexual abusers, verbal abusers and many more! Keep up the great work!
This is so profoundly meaningful, I can really tell you poured your entire heart and soul into it! I'm so proud of you for putting this together so beautifully and telling your story most importantly for the fact that you have come out on top and are in a so much better place now. Also, I really love the definitions that you placed throughout the vid, from a pure editing standpoint it's so aesthetically pleasing LOL
@LiviaWinchester
5 жыл бұрын
I didn't even realize you had commented thank you so much I swear I poured my soul into this video
you know your relationship is fucked up when you relate to these
I could relate to this. My 2nd boyfriend was the worst thing I've ever put myself in.
When my narc came back for the hoover: that when I asked that question. Why are you doing this to me? His answer said I wasn't special. He told me I was just there! I told him to get out, and I showed him the way to the door.
The 1st Part is Helen from Diary of A Mad Black Woman!
I cried so hard❤❤❤❤ amazing, I relate to this greatly
What's the Name of the Song?
Which series are?
Can you sketch in enumerations the appellations of all the series and movies you have made references of?
What the name of the movie in 1:22 pleaseeee??
What movie/show is the scene from where he is snapping at her? Also the scene where she says "and I thought it was my fault."
@livmanri2191
4 жыл бұрын
the and i thought it was my fault is from the movie about tonya hardeing
@LiviaWinchester
4 жыл бұрын
The snapping scene is from "why did i get married?"
What the name of the movie in 1:22 pls??
Peace please.
I was sexually abuse by my friend and sexually abused by a classmate and physically abused by my older brother
@sarahl3464
3 жыл бұрын
My heart honestly broke hearing that I’m here if you need anyone 💕
@kaheelasterling3499
3 жыл бұрын
God bless you . He is always with you , through your highs and lows . He loves you , have a relationship with Jesus Christ because he wants one with you .
@noemimikus3326
3 жыл бұрын
Oh my God.. im so sorry...., but everytime you get down, you always stand up stronger, please don't give up, we love you❤
1:11 the scene with Ross and Rachel was not domestic violence, they broke up
@tobesthealien1254
4 жыл бұрын
But you could argue ross was abusive to rachel
@AshleyU18
3 жыл бұрын
It’s actually not Ross and Rachel it’s another couple Ross and Rachel starts at 1:12
@LiviaWinchester
2 жыл бұрын
That scene was just meant for the imagery of someone begging for forgiveness
Very emotional video. Heartbreaking. Are you able to list the names of the movies and/or shows you showed in this video?
@LiviaWinchester
5 жыл бұрын
absolutely. any scene in particular?
@AM-er3ic
5 жыл бұрын
@@LiviaWinchester Thank you! Not any one in particular. If it is not too much trouble, maybe you could list all shown in the video? I know some movies and shows are shown more than once, but if you could do that, I would greatly appreciate it! Thanks again!
@LiviaWinchester
5 жыл бұрын
@@AM-er3ic I uses the voiceover from Empire. The movies are Diary of a Mad Black Woman, The Duchess, Why did I Get Married, Petals on the Wind, Baby Boy, Girls Trip, Beaches, Hope Floats, Amazing Spiderman, Mother. TV shows are Scandal, Greys Anatomy, Mistresses, Once Upon A Time, Gossip Girl, One Tree Hill, Shameless, The 100, Friends, Reign
@LiviaWinchester
5 жыл бұрын
Also Madeas Family Reunion
@AM-er3ic
5 жыл бұрын
@@LiviaWinchester Thank you so much! 🙂🙂
it bothers me that this was me for too long.
Every aspect of this video describes my 2-year abusive relationship with my ex. i am weeping so hard because the terrible thing about this is: after you leave a toxic relationship, the trauma is still there. They continue with texts, phone calls, Facebook notifications, etc. I have an open domestic violence case that is pending for a court date with felony battery charges against him for strangulation/choking. we live in different states. I had to flee. Thank God for rescuing me from him. God makes an escape for you when you ask for it. God hates evil of all forms especially abuse. My heart goes out to anyone who is experiencing this nightmare. It is definitely on the rise!!! Silence is not optional. There are too many dead bodies at the hands of the abuser, man, no matter the gender. Please be safe and be wise. 1 Corinthians 13 expresses the right type of love, God"s love. This love is unconditional. Anything else outside of that love is evil.
where does 1:11 from?
Can i ask what software did you use to edit this?
@LiviaWinchester
3 жыл бұрын
Sony Vegas pro 15 I think
@urodlivyychtobyni265
3 жыл бұрын
@@LiviaWinchester thanks!
What a powerful Opening Quote. At first I thought it sounded like Fiona on Shameless speaking but I see it was from Empire when I Google. That's so powerful and kinda makes me want to watch Empire, plus all the vidding I've seen of that show is always so interesting. I'm so sorry you went through such a horrific and traumatic abusive dating relationship and that you had a son in that context and CPS had to be involved and everything. I am glad you are so grateful for your son and that you escaped the abuse finally. I know you were always in ViddersofSteel with me (I'm luvtheheaven5 but changed my username a couple years ago) and I never would've suspected you were going through such a home life. Although maybe your involvement in ViddersofSteel kinda ceased when all this started? I'm not sure. Either way, I'm just so sorry. I love how well this song also worked for this concept. Really powerful video.
Song??
@larakya
4 жыл бұрын
zach berkman - down to the second
what is the film at 1:05? Also great video. It was very moving and powerful
@daddychill3379
4 жыл бұрын
Miriam A it’s petals on the wind
@AshleyU18
3 жыл бұрын
@@daddychill3379 thank you
Please can you something tell me what is 0:24 ?????🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
@LiviaWinchester
4 жыл бұрын
The duchess.
Song ?
@larakya
4 жыл бұрын
zach berkman - down to the second
What's 1:26?
Someone save me...
@anaayana2632
3 жыл бұрын
Save yourself.
@hoodo1733
3 жыл бұрын
Stay strong
@elmaxstarsx5716
2 жыл бұрын
R u okay?
Derek and Meridith are toxic?
@LiviaWinchester
4 жыл бұрын
I sont think i have them in here. I have jo/brooke and her ex husband Paul. And christina crying when burke left
What's the song??? 😢😢❤❤
@LiviaWinchester
27 күн бұрын
Down to the Second - Zach Berkman
1:15 please
@daddychill3379
4 жыл бұрын
Bảo Kim Nguyễn Lê petals on the wind
1:13 Ross never abused Rachel
Song
What 1.22 from
What is 1:09 from
@LiviaWinchester
5 жыл бұрын
Baby Boy
Title of 1:37 please
1:14
Name 1:16
Can I please get the name of 1:05 and name of 1:22 and 1:23 I think that they're the same but I don't really know
@sophiechall25
3 жыл бұрын
Petal on the wind, or something like that (I saw it on another comment)
@anissaanissa3272
2 жыл бұрын
@@sophiechall25 thanks 😊
Whats 1:20
@livmanri2191
4 жыл бұрын
tonya harding a movie about the ice skater
What’s at 1:05
@daddychill3379
4 жыл бұрын
Tyler Ross petals on the wind
What is 1:54?
@LiviaWinchester
4 жыл бұрын
Why Did I Get Married?
Sorry I mean 1:27
@dearlove7564
3 жыл бұрын
It's why did I get married ☺️
What the name of the movie in 1:03 pleaseeee?
Song ???
@munirawr
3 жыл бұрын
Zach berkman - down to the second
What the name of the movie in 1:15 pleaseeee?
@sanaimartin3042
3 жыл бұрын
Madea's family reunion
What the name of the movie in 0:34 pleaseeee?
@kourtney7623
3 жыл бұрын
Madea’s family reunion
@Amanda-hg9th
3 ай бұрын
Yea 0:21