7 years of hell. Dissociating, hospitalizations, seriously suicidal all the time. All gone! In 5D love and bliss.

@mayphoenix4725

4 жыл бұрын

Glad to hear there's hope! I hope I get out of this soon, it's been going on for 10yrs and it's driving me crazy!

@Erin-000

4 жыл бұрын

How did you do it? We're eager to hear!

@WillowZeyphr

4 жыл бұрын

when you come back here searching again, remember you are strong and I love you

@WillowZeyphr

4 жыл бұрын

@MsAgnostica Goes Quantum try improving when and what you eat helped me without a doubt! You got this and if you don't eh,you will next time right🌝🌹💝 love you.💜

@daniellerodgers6493

4 жыл бұрын

Please elaborate. 😁

In reference to coming out of The Dark Night faster; One thing that helps me a lot, that I want to share, was that I made a physical list of all the people in my life that I felt wronged me in some way. (It was long, even some from my childhood.) One by one I visualized a face to face conversation where I told them I forgive them (specifically for what they did) and asked them to forgive me (specifically for how I reacted) and then I virtually wished them love and peace, gave them a hug and sent them on their way. I repeated this until I no longer felt that they owed me an apology. Now when their faces come up in my memory I feel peace and forgiveness for them. It was hard at first--. I can't tell you how many people I virtually slapped in my mind but eventually my heart softened and I dropped the burden of hateful baggage. Wonderfully, some I have been able to tell in person. I still have to practice sometimes but it's such a relief to get rid of the anger, self-pity and the "woe is me" attitude from being wronged. Do it for you, not for them. I love myself a lot more now because the dark was eating me up. You can forgive their humanity and make more room in your heart for the light. It doesn't mean you condone what they did or the hurt they caused. It just means that you don't have to carry it everywhere you go. You have to PRACTICE forgiveness. I find that now, I am much quicker to forgive rather than holding it in. We are all a collective. The Universe hears your thoughts and does reward your positive intent! Hope this helps!

@vikrammunjal7902

4 жыл бұрын

I followed that process and I had a glimpse of Jesus.

@skghbk9702

4 жыл бұрын

I'm proud of you

@Harv1790

4 жыл бұрын

Karma Rules I love this idea. I’m going to do this today.

@sheilasanabria2704

4 жыл бұрын

I’m very happy you were able to get out of the Dark Night. Your story is almost similar to mine, I thank you for sharing how you’re able to find Peace and Happiness with yourself. Love your technique, going to try it myself. S.S

@lynnwalker3593

4 жыл бұрын

Your comment was pivotal to my process of forgiveness. Thank you for sharing your knowledge and experiences.

1) feel low in energy. Depressed 2) feeling no purpose in life 3) feeling completely disconnected from God and source energy 4) You have no energy 5) Not knowing what to do with your life 6) You don't know who you are 7) You don't know what you want in life 8) You don't know what you want to do 9) Things you like to do before you no longer like. 10) Some passions disappear Top symptom:- Your life turns meaningless Tips to come out of dark night 1) Surrender Mantras:- "I surrender to life" "I surrender to my soul's will" "I drop resistance to my process" 2) Reframing 2.1) Use mantra 2.2) Gratitude 3) Energy cleansing 36:15 Sit in meditation, close your eyes, imagine bright light coming from heaven, Mantra "It is my intention to..."

@beautifullove6198

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you I feeling like that now

@KV-on3ht

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you 🤍

@karenhughey3103

2 жыл бұрын

Yes thank you💙

@marieseifert7105

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you Ajay

@marieseifert7105

2 жыл бұрын

What to do concrete? Give me an example of surrender? How to surrender? Can anyone please tell me?!!

Some physical relievers to note too: Cold showers! Breathwork (I love Wim Hof's-clears the mind calms the body) Music (life saver) Hug a tree, walk barefoot, get away from the cars and the people for a moment. This could especially be important for empaths. This was a great video. Mantras, affirmations/gratitude, and visualizing will be my focus now!

@amyevans5273

3 жыл бұрын

Could not agree with you more- especially about the music! Stay blessed 🌻

@ARCASIAUK

3 жыл бұрын

100% ive been doing wim’s breathing every morning and taking cold showers for nearly a year now

@jd1ggs102

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks brother. Will be trying some of these out. Love you

@cheyanne919

2 жыл бұрын

Thank You. I have been grounding. It helps. 💗

@313demos

Жыл бұрын

Ha! Great comment! I do all these things! Also, I hugged my first tree today! Felt incredible🦶🏻🌎🌳🤗

Jesus said we have to die to really live,he meant the ego

@fredericksharon6908

4 жыл бұрын

Amen DK

@cykz70

4 жыл бұрын

I am not so sure about that. The process of dying is real and of essence. But he didn't mean you have to be dead I am sure.

@mojo8781

4 жыл бұрын

Love it! All glory to our Lord and Savior 🙏

@kishanitaliya1408

4 жыл бұрын

Amen to that.

@WillowZeyphr

4 жыл бұрын

Our old ways of thinking must die. Our instilled thought processes... 💖✌

U feel so lost No purpose feeling Exhausting Hopeless Just want to be left alone ...

@melaniemoment8961

5 жыл бұрын

Coco Castro Exactly! The hopelessness was awful!

@cococastro4006

5 жыл бұрын

@@melaniemoment8961 Yes I'm still struggling with all .. Hope you are doing better☺️

@beckyanderson1989

5 жыл бұрын

Yes, I am struggling. Fear is huge...

@melaniemoment8961

5 жыл бұрын

@@beckyanderson1989 is it the fear of the unknown or more like anxiety?

@beckyanderson1989

5 жыл бұрын

@@melaniemoment8961 just anxiety I guess. Overwhelming anxiety.

My dark night involved becoming homeless. This went on for years. Although I was blessed with understanding WHY I was going thru this so it kept my head above water. I had ZERO family and friends to talk to. I can only say Im so much stronger in an invisible way. I am now 64 years old and can say Im seeing the Light again. And yes I still get reminders, but I've NEVER FELT SO BLESSED & GRATEFUL in my entire life. I cry at times just feeling SO THANKFUL ! Life is awesome and it continues to become more beautiful & full. Thank you with all my Heart for the work you do for all Souls. Much Love ❤.... Kristin 👣 👣 👣

Mother died of cancer when I was 17. 3 years of drug abuse after that cause I couldn’t face the reality, the accumulation of pain in my body so big that I couldn’t breathe after 5-6 years of deep intense pain everyday, I’m feeling a bit better but nowhere in balance yet. But man have the pain changed me... suffering humbles you, but it’s hard to keep going. One of the things that help is knowing that it’s an evolution of your soul that’s taking place, is really helpful. To anyone going through this I feel you out there. Stay strong.

@ceejay9641

4 жыл бұрын

Wow... thanks for sharing that. Wishing you continued growth and expansion 👊🏾💕👊🏾💕👊🏾💕👊🏾

@elyssashields6955

4 жыл бұрын

Stay strong! thanks for sharing that!

@salam5333

3 жыл бұрын

✌🏻🙏🏻

@ThePutriDuyung

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing sending you lots of ❤❤❤

@brandibunn9395

3 жыл бұрын

Thank u for sharing. How did u overcome your addiction? What type or shall I ask what was your DOC? I had childhood trauma (alcoholic, drug addict, violent to my mom and sisters, emotionally and mentally abusive, manipulative), trauma as an adult (son almost died at age 7, broken marriage, ex-husband murdered, grandma diagnosed with Alzheimer’s, and hit by at SUV that broke my left leg, caused me to move, loss of work/finances/job on 2 different occasions, COVID ....all these things in 7 yrs.& turned to opiates at first for a few months in 2013 when son seized 4 hrs straight and went into a coma..and then again the last 2-3 yrs around death of ex husband. I’m struggling. Any advice? Thanks!!

Horrible horrible feeling. Maybe mine is anger, jealousy, outrage, loneliness, confusion. I feel all of these and very depressed. I cannot stop crying. Thankyou for this video. Your words have helped.

@lizperez5625

3 жыл бұрын

I'm not understanding what I'm going through when I lay down im feeling something in my body it moves all over within me like its crawling within me its so scary can't sleep my bed feels like it's lightly shaking but its not its within me it feels like it's feeling me it starts rising through my ankles up my legs and it keeps rising it does this repeatedly hope you have a answer to this

@fml5910

3 жыл бұрын

You and me both, I agree with you.

@cheyanne919

2 жыл бұрын

If you take out jealousy and add lost. That is me. I just started mine. I miss the joy stage.

@BrookeLyn39

Ай бұрын

Yes. It is horrible. I didn't realize what was going on at first.

@victoryamartin9773

Ай бұрын

​@@lizperez5625Anxiety shows up in weird ways in the body. For me it's a physical sense of burning in my abdomen upon waking. Then it spreads out to my extremities. Doctors can't explain it.

Shedding your skin was a good analogy because i feel detached from the things that use to interest me. The hardest part of the dark night is the lonelyness and not being able to express my feelings. It feels like death. And i think people notice my disconnect.

@Thegiant46

4 жыл бұрын

So you experiencing the lack of Vitamin ME.....

@ric2910

4 жыл бұрын

Tiffany, I have always been an outsider. At times through conscious choice. Mostly through unconscious choice. Your message, gave me a aha moment. THANK YOU :D

@biddlear

3 жыл бұрын

I’m going through this now and couldn’t understand why I was losing people “close” to me. You feel so isolated and alone but still like something deeper is keeping you going.

@mandolaa4855

3 жыл бұрын

Yes!! Same! I found difficulty to express myself too! I'm trying dealing with my emotions my writing, punching pillows or meditating

@evareed3373

3 жыл бұрын

My own isolation was almost a forced rescue. My life relationships fell apart in every area of my life, then I was injured and could not walk for a month. During that time I was forced to sit down so I searched on-line for answers, scouring so many sources, until I found Christina Lopes. I hovered over the exit button for the first few moments and with each moment her voice and words sank into me and hooked. Thank goodness. I am now moving forward into a new me and a new life, gradually while hungrily devouring the manna I have needed for recovery.

thank you. extreme fatigue, cold cold legs, lack of energy/fear/lots of crying/emptiness

My biggest challenge right now is to face the fear of ego dying and letting go. I'm in that between place where I cannot go back but also don't know how to go forward, I'm scared of what I will become when I let go of my identity, but I feel it's releasing anyway bit by bit.

@mpesce6667

Жыл бұрын

Exactly!! Same here

@beatrice3795

Жыл бұрын

Same been going through it over a yr

@MadEye302

Жыл бұрын

I have a strange feeling if we prove we can let go of ego and identity...we get to keep it.

@rocio4292

9 ай бұрын

Same here 😬😬😬😶‍🌫️! This is SO STRANGE🫠 ( sometimes I EVEN feel DISCONNECTED 🔌 from reality, like an 👽, this is so F*CK up 🫤😕😵‍💫...🙃🤣😆😂!)

@michellestaton8774

8 ай бұрын

❤

U said it correctly '" Ego doesn't die it transform itself into its new divine form " . I had gone through all these and now I m just witnessing miracles happening around me knowing the fact that I m pure consciousness.

@newlife4646

4 жыл бұрын

pure consciousness indicates that your are no longer in your 3D body. That seems like the only viable solution to this.

@sarazephyr8224

2 жыл бұрын

someone recently told me he was going through what he calls an ego death and I said that it dies but it grows back.

@allyssavaldez8855

Жыл бұрын

This gives me such hope. I'm excited for my turn. I'm happy to see others celebrating their new life ;)

Omg im going through this now. I dropped 4 friends, i feel so isolated yet hopeful. Im changing rapidly I am scared and in and out of pain.

@jean-francoiscamire5095

4 жыл бұрын

I'm in it too. We will get out stronger from this. We can make it!

@nandinisingh5786

3 жыл бұрын

Yes the same thing has happened with me. Everyone I loved other than my parents are away from me now. I have also dropped a lot of friends. I had a best friend for like 8 yrs but I had to let her go cuz of the mental pain she was causing me. I have been feeling all the symptoms of the dark night and I am lost cuz I am like only 18 and a student. Studying right now is really important for me but everyday I feel so tired. I feel exceptionally drained and everyday chores is just a big task for me. I feel like I am in a huge black hole or something. Nothing absolutely nothing is going right in my life. My friends are lost, the guy I loved is lost, my relationship with my parents is a little bit odd, my grades have fallen.

@nutech1810

3 жыл бұрын

@@nandinisingh5786 A lot of times they return new and improved. My bestie returned after 2 years apart. She made sweeping changes. Sometimes you have to create loss, to create change.

@nandinisingh5786

3 жыл бұрын

@@nutech1810 no in my case I wouldn't want her to return. But I get what you're saying.

@biddlear

3 жыл бұрын

I’m going through this now and couldn’t understand why I was losing people “close” to me. You feel so isolated and alone but still like something deeper is keeping you going.

Hello, It is so good to know that I am not going crazy. I have been experiencing constant headaches and migraines for 5 years already- still going on, plus nerve pain, mysterious different ailments in my body, chronic issues, severe constant eye strain, sinus issues..relationships issues... Went to so many doctors, did so many tests, scans, maneuvers, healings, teachings, exercises, techniques... no help at all, just pain, pain, pain, physical, emotional.. This caused anxiety, fear, depression...I feel broken, very weak, lost... started blaming myself for everything, feel enormous guilt and regrets for many things I have done in the past while not living consciously. I fear future... I think this is how the rest of my life will also be, cause I do not see how this all would end. A few days ago I signed up for Transcendental Meditation course hoping that this meditation can calm me down a bit and help me live with this. My ego must be enormous according to my experience of the "dark night"! Or, maybe, I am not spiritually awakening at all, it is just my life that sucks! Anyway, thank you Tina so much for your videos and help and hope I got from watching!

I lost my husband and Daddy within a year. Husband, sudden car accident. My Daddy heart failure. I'm self medicating and wanting inside, needing to break out of the day to day sedation. I also have 3 little wild boys under 8. 7, 6 and 3. So that's a whole bunch of love and mental stress. So I continue to do my yoga, listening to the encouraging videos and knowing this won't last forever. Love and light to y'all wonderful folks.

@McMilesE

Жыл бұрын

So sorry. You never know what another is going through. I have experienced no physical death from close family members yet, but yet still experience at least a little of this confusion and exhaustion. Bless you. Stay strong. I've talked to my mom about how I will be when she is gone and she said "YOU WILL BE STRONG."

Dark night of soul videos are so soothing to me. Make me feel sane 😂

@stars19735

2 жыл бұрын

lol same

@BrookeLyn39

Ай бұрын

Absolutely.

I am not fitting in filling alone and I find myself crying a lot because I feel lost and alone in the universe

Absolutely amazing. You perfectly described my life for the last 9 months.. I feel like I was dying, going crazy and everyone around me not validating me and not feeling supported AT ALL. I’ve felt so alone and in despair but I realized I’m the only one who can help myself. I always wanted to be protected and rescued but now I understand why I had to go through all of this… I will never abandon myself ever again from here on and I will only live life MY WAY. My heart is still in a million pieces but the more I put it together, the stronger I become..

@laquannashipp2798

10 ай бұрын

I resonated with this so much ❤❤

@AnaIrimiabooks

8 ай бұрын

😢 I am going through it and I am also not getting support.

I'm almost 53. My first dark night was Sept. '84 when I was 16. Anyone else in this group suffer that far back? It's hard to get help or even understand what's happening when the world treats you like you have 3 heads. Lol Panic attacks and extreme anxiety disorder were constant companions from ages 16-30! I took no meds. I worked through it the hard way, but I wouldn't change it for anything.

@GeorgiaGabet-sb7wv

9 ай бұрын

March Campbell, my first Dark Night happened when I was 7. Teenage Dark Nights are fairly common. It's surprising shrinks haven't thought about this before. I was acting out what Mom tried to keep secrets in hopes of finding help for both of us, but I was the one considered insane. Life accepted. I made the best of it and lived well despite expectations.

I'm deep in this, it's been the hardest most painful 4 months of my life. Anxiety and depression, disconnection from myself and the world around me (like I'm in a dream sometimes), irritable and angry, crying a lot. Thank you for your video.

@chriscampbell703

2 жыл бұрын

How are you doing now Casey? Going through the same.

@sapphic7779

2 жыл бұрын

Same I’ve been feeling this since October it’s now May :(

@Sabrina-vw5dg

Жыл бұрын

♥️

@kenanidhyaikapratiwi6776

Жыл бұрын

do u have any tip? i’m going through the exact thing 😢 never been this depressed & stuck, i also feel like i’m dreaming

@caseyburridge2268

Жыл бұрын

@@kenanidhyaikapratiwi6776 Yes. Let it be there. Try your best to accept it, don't resist it or deny it. You're going through it, it's happening. Accept it, embrace it. Meditate and try to still your mind. Pray and set positive intentions for becoming happier, healthier, stronger and more at peace. Know that the universe is on your side. Identify your biggest fears, accept them and then deal with them with courage. Don't worry about things, just work on things. Allow yourself the time and space that you need. Realise that this experience is a gift as it is providing a massive opportunity for you to grow, learn and become a better person. You are strong.

As I was sinking into a depressive state, for me it was definitely a must to change daily habits to support me through the dark night, it made the whole process far more peaceful and smooth. 1) Practicing Hatha Yoga daily 2) Changing to a plant based diet, with as much fresh veggies and fruit as possible. Avoiding processed foods. 3)Starting Intermittent Fasting 4) Listening to music to help me process emotions and go through the hardest moments ( I remember there were a couple of months when I kept listening over and over again "Head Above Water" from Avril Lavigne, it became like a mantra 😅 5) Journaling the process 6) Looking into my past to proactively heal old wounds 7) Finding few moments of stillness every single day, to stop the mental process and contemplate: just enjoying the sun, or the breeze or just taking the time to seep in the beauty of a tree 8) Practicing gratitude every single day I learned the hard way that it is essential to support our bodies and minds throughout the process, it really changes the game. People around me kept asking "But why are you changing all your habits when you are so healthy? What is going on with you?". I couldn't really answer because I would sound crazy to them, so I just said "Nothing special, just in the mood to try something new" 😂😂😂 The truth is that I was completely desperate but I would just hide everything behind a smile (not anymore, learned the hard way again that it's a really toxic behaviour). But I am glad that it didn't discourage me from keeping doing it, because after a couple of months started paying back and I felt stability and peace in the middle of it, my anxiety finally receded. I wish the best to all of you going through it 🙏💖💖💖

THE MIRROR THING IS EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. I have been going threw my dark nights of the soul for over half a year now and when I looked into the mirror, I would have to remind myself ‘this is your face, this is your face, this is your face’ and it got to the point where even other people became a blur. This has been incredibly difficult because I have always felt a profound connection to God and source my entire life and so having that stripped away left me cram long to find my breath for months. I am just beginning to feel that connection again, but now in a much more intense manner. God is good and I am thankful for my journey 🙏🙏🙏💖💖

@victoryamartin9773

Ай бұрын

I can't wait for that reconnection with God. I miss Him, but I am even losing all my preconceived, immature ideas about who I believed Him to be and what faith is supposed to look like. I find myself cringing at all the Christian in-group virtue signalling I hear and used to participate in. Bring on this ego death; I want to know the true promised abundant life!

I'm going through this right now i feel lost no one to talk to depressed no energy I feel whipped

@dmalka336

4 жыл бұрын

Same. Going through challenges. If you need to talk, i am here. 💗

@iamspiritualtechnique4177

3 жыл бұрын

Are you okay now?

@HareKrsna..

3 жыл бұрын

Hope you are doing well! More Love and Light to you!

@cyeeda44

3 жыл бұрын

How are you now?💛

@lingilowci2904

3 жыл бұрын

Nature helps!:)

First dark night of the soul is truly shattering. My ego woke up. I was in an extraordinarily abusive situation, it was like remembering my self. Because my self was spiritual to begin with, I lost my ego to abuse at first. I had to rebuild it knowing how helpless I had made my self. I found my purpose in life, I started working 24x7 to help survivors of abuse.

@fredericksharon6908

4 жыл бұрын

Oh man Good on u.

@kaleighpatterson9275

3 жыл бұрын

I’ve never looked at an abusive situation as a situation to wake up your soul, but wow it makes sense.

@shitface762

2 жыл бұрын

🙏

@Vyjayanthi41

2 жыл бұрын

@Elena Wilkins You will make it , believe in you !

@katrina8382

Жыл бұрын

Same for me

I’m super depressed and I feel like I’m just floating through life.

@newlife4646

4 жыл бұрын

Not floating..being dragged.

@foryourglory_

4 жыл бұрын

me too but with those feelings growth is inevitable and lets try our best to remember we aren’t alone, it won’t be easy at all but just try 💕

@zerofuks416

4 жыл бұрын

How are you now? Feeling in the dark knight or are you coming out?

@stuarthiggs3845

4 жыл бұрын

Ride the storm we are all in it together

@66lordez50

4 жыл бұрын

we can float together

How long does it take? Until you learn the lesson. i.e. going back to that abusive relationship, job, habit, place, you don't want to let go. Let him go! Let her go! Move forward. The Universe has all the time in the world. Just waiting for you to learn the lessons. Thank yo so much for your time! ♡♡♡

@leosruletheworld9622

4 жыл бұрын

I'm away to leave my mentally abusive partner I went through the dark knight for a year with him he won't leave me even though I've told him to I went through the dark knight for a year it must of been my soul needing to rid myself of this horrible, distructive person out of my life

Was enlightened at the age of 7 walking in our garden. Then I have had drugs placed in my cola and raped 3 times woke up twice from the roofies almost died once all these in a matter of 3 years once under age. A decade later my mother was diagnosed with a rare cancer. I was the main caregiver unless she had to be in hospital then I would sleep on the floor as they allowed me. After she passed my dad had a cancer even more rare; took care of him at home the entire time-there was nothing for them to do so I watched and did things I shouldn’t have with no help. This was a total of 13 years back to back not including my furry babies that was about to hit me. I sought a dr to talk to made things worse and I refused medications. Three years later 3 of my furry babies, I had for over 20 years, all were ill and going to die. Again I was there with them as I was for my parents with the most 4 hours of sleep. I lost everyone in my life and not a soul called me to see if I was alive or needed to talk. All my friends disappeared, all my parents friends disappeared on me. Being the only child and so emotionally attached to them all I actually said out loud to myself, “I am free now, there is no one else to die on me” and I felt so numb, so lost I did not speak for weeks. I was told I was a nurse in past lives and I never believed it till those times. I use to do this odd healing where I would extract black matter out of bodies and expel it to the universe then flood the body with white light. I still can not find out what this type of healing is called but it works till there is so much matter that I can not. The only time I understood it was in a movie I saw called The Green Mile. Except my black matter comes out of my other hand as one vacuums it out. I don’t know what kind of healing his is called either. I wish I knew. One day after a year of seeing a psychiatrist for a year to no avail he told me off the clock, “I don’t understand how you have not committed suicide “. I looked at him and told him I have furry babies at home that need me and never went back again. It’s been since 2016 since the loss of my last furry babie and just last year around this time I felt bliss. I felt I was “allowed” to live again. Unfortunately I called an ex boyfriend from my college years and he dismissed me quickly and hung up on me. I actually called him to see if he was ready to reconnect as I believed we were meant to do good on this earth together. My bliss left me and a mini dark night still holds on to it’s finality. I am realizing how alone I have been for so long and I am still here. It sounds sad but it really is not. I do have a friend who lives in another city in which he heard a lot of what went on in my past. He is a kind and caring soul who wants to help me but this is my battle not his. Why burden someone and bring them down when you can elevate them to vibrate at a higher level. But I now understand people die yes. It is painful yes but, it is part of life; just wish it was so traumatic for my loved ones or for me either. All I know now is that I need to be somewhere in order to do my life’s purpose. I am almost there. I have not seen anything else since that walk in the garden at 7 years old. I am now 51 and know when the time is right I will be there. Thank you for sharing your words with us Christina. Apologies for this mess of message but if anyone reads it please know you can get through it. I believe in you. Thank you for reading dear souls. 🤍

@SuperLammens

2 жыл бұрын

incredible story, no human should be suffering and certainly not a child. I feel we should take more care for one another. love and hugs to you, thinking of you, you are not alone in this, we are connected through yr experience touching my heart

@dawnmichelle

2 жыл бұрын

May you experience the light and love of the universe from this day forward ✨️

@aml8760

Жыл бұрын

Shamanism

Yes i'm going through the dark night of the ego. My biggest fear is propably that this isn't going to pass and that i don't have enough of strenght to work myself through this.

@Thesionshow

Жыл бұрын

I agree with you on the strength part

I'm just coming out of my second, feels like a death experience.

@iamspiritualtechnique4177

3 жыл бұрын

What I'm going through right now

@chrisharville3722

3 жыл бұрын

Same

@suze6083

2 жыл бұрын

For me it’s like grieving the death of a loved one, that I can’t seem to shake or stop. Never ending grief, that’s exactly how it feels to me.

@rainbows9060

2 жыл бұрын

@@suze6083 Hang in there. All will be well. Thankyou for sharing.💜

I think I'm currently in the dark night of the soul. I can't go to sleep it feels like I can't breathe. I sometimes wake up in panic because it feels like I'm choking. I don't know what to do, I feel so disconnected to everyone. It feels like they're living in a bubble and I disconnect from them and go all alone somewhere else. But I don't know where. This video helped me so much to understand what it is. I feel depressed but I still have my positive thoughts, that's such a weird feeling but now I see why I have it and what's it all about.

@veronikasoralova6106

Жыл бұрын

how are you feeling now?

I am going through the dark knight of the ego. I feel lost, no purpose, confused, hurting a deep pain in my heart. No desire to be in the moment to get out of bed. I feel heavy like my body is always weighted and sluggish, sick, out of myself yet deeply consumed and trapped by my skin. There's glimpses of a sense of spiritual peace I feel a vibration centered in my shins that is intense there but lightly throughout the rest of my body. My heart though is blocked like this darkness has its grasp around it keeping it within it's depths unable to feel fully the peace of my spirit and hear what my soul is trying to speak.

@Pujja1313

2 жыл бұрын

You are not alone, hang on it will pass, I’ve been there too,❤️

@christinegorman3629

Жыл бұрын

Feeling exactly this…grateful to have come action items to try. Trying to feel grateful for the small things is so hard when I feel this awful but have to try.

Wish I found this video before haha. I am just getting out of this. I know i was getting rid of the shit in my mind as i used to call it. All my childhood traumas, past mistakes, wrong perceptions and mental disfuncioning that was so exhausting for 40 years were finally coming to surface fast and more furiously these last 4 months. Oh, I wish I have anticipated this. Before that, I was feeling a sense of relief. I thought the worst was over but no. I really needed time alone but I wasn't alone. Now that I think about it, for me, it was necessary to go through this. I was for sure kicking and screaming. Going against it. All my negative narratives and victim mentally would just not want to leave. I was the one looking to understand what was happening to me. Searching, desceminating, over analyzing and trying to make sense of it. Blaming others for what I was feeling and somehow I came to surrender. Sadly on my way out of it. I shared what I was going through and I hurt someone. I wish I knew this before. Dont do that. Just be still, have this time for yourself. Because no one will understand. You will see that at the end of this dark night you will feel glad that you finally got rid of that old story of yours. You will find that you need to forgive yourself and others in a way you havent forgiven before. That forgiveness is so important. Do it well, let go. You will find that "most" of the pain will sease (at doing that) and your will forget the negative feelings! I said it, It is not that you will act as if nothing has ever happened, you will act as if everything has already happened! It's done and gone. And you will want to ask for forgiveness as well, dont do it until you truly know what you are apologizing for, let your heart guide you. It's is important to take responsibility for what you have said and done in the past when you were hurt. We all have a share and so honor yourself and authentic about it. Part of the process of letting the ego die is to get courage to take a positive action. Dont be sad if people dont forgive you. Just know that in your heart you mean to heal yourself and others. Just be what you were meant to be. Love. That's it. You are the source of love. Love will heal itself. And once you are healed, you will be able to heal others. Know that everything that your soul is getting rid of is not allowing you to be that (love). So let it go so you can find bliss and peace in your life. For that you must let your old and sick ego die. It's being three long years for me with 3 very dark nights, with the last one being the worst and the best... and today I know that I will be ok. I know that this is a good thing and so I have decided to run with it. Reframing like she said was key. Changing your paradigm... not so easy when you have to discover what it was before. Scary to actually meet my old true self. Or was it me all this time? Was I just a puppet of my hurt ego? Surrender and stop resisting. Letting it all come to surface and being kind to yourself will help you accept with grace what you couldn't before. Remain still. Do not react to it. See things as they are and not as you think it should be, it's ok. And if your mind takes you to where you dont want to go, let it be, you are not your mind. Watch it and bring your awareness to what's important. Little by little you will find meaning and will to focus on what's really important. It is all good. Revelations will come to you. You are not crazy. You are almost there and for now, Just be there. Thank you for this video!! ❤

I've been going through the dark night for a year now. It's been painful. Dissociation, hopelessness, loneliness, anger, depression, fear, guilt, grief, you name it. I'm still in it but I feel the ending. It's so close. Almost as though I could reach my arms out and touch it. This will definitely help me to finally step into the light that I've been longing to be apart of for so long. Thank you for your guidance 🙏🏻❤️

@_ayannaxo

3 жыл бұрын

Has this stage ended for you yet?

@MegaWhateveridontcar

2 жыл бұрын

Have you had suicidal thoughts ever during the process?

@soulswork1111

2 жыл бұрын

How are you doing now, Lexxie?

I just went through a year of a spiritual awakening mixed with bliss, connection and at times fear. Now I am at the dark night which I feel I have gone through small episodes of this since childhood. I just want to be able to love myself, to heal and to know who I am. I've sobbed through this whole video, I've sobbed for days now. The pain is so deep. Spirit please guide me through this darkness 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

@pearlsummers8140

6 ай бұрын

I am feeling all these right now - I hope you are now at peace🤗🤗

This sounds like my whole life I’ve always been this way not wanting to get out of bed, depressed, no purpose in life, I’ve always liked being alone and isolated myself from everybody. I’ve always felt different like I don’t fit in don’t have no friends the only friends I have are pets I don’t really talk to nobody I’ve always had anxiety and been a introvert but this time it feels a little different my sleep schedule is off my face is breaking out but most of it is what I’ve always gone through

I am going through that right now. And it is freaking my husband out. I'm feeling disconnected from source and from him. And I'm hoping it will pass with the relationship in tact. I explained to him at the beginning of this journey that I want him to come along but I understand if he doesn't. I also explained that I can't stop the transition. It's happening in waves right now and I've experienced the bliss, then rage, now emptiness. I've been in communication with others on their spiritual journey and one tried to shame me for not blaming this experience on a 'demonic' presence. At the time I hadn't heard the term 'dark night of the soul' but I do understand demonic to be a human construct. So that didn't work out so well for them. I'm glad to better understand it is an ego affliction and I now have the vocabulary to help the Mr through what I'm going through. I knew it would pass because I've been going through these bouts my entire life. I didn't realize the tools to help me through until this video. So, thank you for that. Sending light and love your way.

@dbonanno89

5 жыл бұрын

Stephanie Brown I am the complete opposite at you. I’m watching my husband go through it and it’s been almost 4 years. We also have a 2 year old. He’s told me many times over the years to leave and let him be but I never wanted to. Now I’m finding it become impossible to be around him and he is very upset with me for this that I did not leave sooner.

@mrs.joeschmoe5681

4 жыл бұрын

@@dbonanno89 I'm going through a similar experience. I know it this is weird and personal but are you still with your husband? I don't want to leave...😢

@markoperic5023

4 жыл бұрын

Oh my, sometimes idk if Im feeling my emotions or those of others

@beatricem.knight8487

4 жыл бұрын

You are on the path, woman, just keep going! I've been going through the same thing. Well, similar, uh... Places?? Trust your intuition, and your genius heart! I've been listening to an amazing, truly wonderful teacher lately, here on you tube and on her website, her name is gangaji. She will help guide you to profound breakthroughs, so gracefully. Truly an incredible woman. I hope you look her up, and much love and blessings to you on your journey ⚓

@divinegod9171

2 жыл бұрын

GOD bless you and us all🙏 ❤ 🙌 Amen

This darkness hit really hard today. Thank You. This is helping

During spiritual awakening and dark night of the soul I would highly recommend to have some spiritual healer, helper, teacher. They can help you to understand it and go through the process with love.

I felt disconnected and detached from everyone. I wanted to run away from everything because I felt so ashamed as to how I felt. I went from a state of bliss one day to physical ailments and sadness, disconnection from source and my community the next day. I am still going thru this phase. I still have physical ailments and I cry everyday because of the sadness I experience but I’m taking it one day at a time. Nature helps a lot, gratitude, music, and surrendering to people loving and supporting me. My friends, family and partner have showed up in immense ways. I will forever be grateful

@melanitebeauty403

3 жыл бұрын

I'm currently going through the same thing I'm getting triggered by everything thing I've thought I've healed are coming back up I'm lost and confused I'm also crying everyday I'm an empath and have a high sensitivity so its alot scary things happening in my body negative thoughts resurfacing after doing so much inner work I feel so alone I'm not close with family and the ones I live with don't understand I'm just trying to stay positive...we will get through this sending you some much love❤❤❤❤

@nadiamckinney4146

3 жыл бұрын

@@melanitebeauty403 thanks for sharing your story. Makes me feel less lonely. Sending you lots of love and blessings and healing on your journey. We got this ❤️

@aml8760

Жыл бұрын

@@melanitebeauty403 same

Omg, the mirror incident, I had it last night.. for 5 minutes staring and crying...not recognising my face. I told my boyfriend cause I thought I'm going crazy.. I will show him this video

I've felt this way my whole life. It definitely came in waves where sometimes I was okay around people, but once I was alone my true emotions could come out. I think I am undoing generations of ancestral trauma. I am the "responsible" person in my family. Going to college was my way to escape but once I got there I started feeling even more helpless. I felt disconnected from that space (as Black woman who grew up poor in a white private liberal arts school) while knowing I needed it to be able to get a job and be able to support myself and my family. I am 25 and as I get older I just want to run away from myself but I know there are people who would be hurt if I did that. Knowing that people I love depend on me makes me want to heal. Heal so I can show my loved ones that it is possible and help them on their journey. I cant help anyone if I can't help myself.

@iamspiritualtechnique4177

3 жыл бұрын

How are you now? 🙂

14yrs. It's affected my health, I have zero motivation, lost all sense of inspiration. I wonder how people do the things they do, how they get themselves to move with energy. I'm isolated and have been for years, any potential of new friendships have fizzled out before they've properly started. I often feel adrift, lost in a vast ocean, often panic, terror and deep sense of dread in the pit of my stomach. I feel pointless, without purpose, like nothing has any meaning or point to it. Disconnected even though I cognitively understand the true nature of the universe and energy etc. I'm not feeling it, not embodying that knowledge as I have in the past. Spaced out, disconnected also from the human world, physically heavy, everything is such a huge effort and I have no patience with people.. especially when I'm being lied to. I have adhd which could be making things worse because of the inability to keep focus clear. Watching this video has made me realise how much I need to feel in control of events and the way they happen...Fear,lots of fear and perhaps worst of all, definitely the biggest challenge is the level of demand avoidance that's going on.. I struggle to get myself to do even things I know I like and want to do. It's such a bizarre battle to deal with. Anyone else have that? Something has changed tho, I felt a big shift at the beginning of the year. Lots of realisations and shifts in my patterns but still that numbness and it feels so slow.. there's that need for control again! I want to feel again but need to get to the point where it feels safe to do so I guess. This work is so intense but does it have to be? I've gained deep, deep levels of insight into myself but feel so self absorbed. Anyway I'm very glad to have found this video and to you for making it, thank you 💜

I swear I been going through for 2 years and I'm sick of it!

The only thing I can say is, in order to do a video like this you have to had been there. Blessings to you!❤👊

@hayleyclayton7624

5 жыл бұрын

Elijah Effron when you think you’re alone in these thoughts......places like this make you realise, you’re not alone. Surprising and refreshing

@elijaheffron7065

5 жыл бұрын

Hayley Clayton ...Thank you I appreciate you. 🤗

25 year old here! I know I shouldn’t be counting months or how long I’ve been in this phase but god these 7 months have been grueling agony. I’ve lost connections with my friends and family but honestly for the best, things are starting to appear in the light which I’m very grateful for, however there’s a part of me that longs for connection but afraid of showing vulnerability to people that ultimately are energy suckers and there are a lot of people who are not aware of that. I must say that this video has been a life line when I’ve been consumed in darkness and dispair. I remember waking up ultimately knowing a HUGE change is about to work my life. Although it’s been a rollercoaster from birth up until now, words cannot fathom how extremely honored I feel to experience this in this lifetime thank you for the light Christina ✨

@perlzspective

3 жыл бұрын

not sure why, but 25 was tough for me. existentialism, ego death to the fullest!

@bakshinspires

3 жыл бұрын

❤️

I feel lost. I'm without my family without my kids. It's been 2 years now transitioning from motherhood to just being on my own. I'm in a another state working and feel lonely without purpose. I cry everyday it seems but I'm fighting my ego and I know this. I bury myself in work and then end up exhausted and in bed for 2 days. I don't like to be around people but I have to for work. I feel like a hermit. And I feel a little crazy. I picked up painting to express my inner feelings and started to feel some kind of accomplishment in my expressions. Even in talking now I feel like I am all over the board with my words.

I feel like I have been going through this for a few months. It is the most challenging experience I have ever had. It feels like I am in between two worlds. My old world which used to make sense to me and an unknown world where I just don't seem to be quite there yet or fully understand its allure. I feel forsaken or abandoned at times and wake up to dark thoughts. I felt better this morning and I am not sure if this is temporary or a turning point. I keep letting go of things that used to be of utmost importance to me. Control has been the most difficult illusion for me to release, but I keep surrendering to the Universe. About a week ago I had no idea what I was experiencing, but then i watched Aaron Abke's video on Spiritual depression. It helped tremendously knowing that this is part of the process. I appreciate your video. Thanks 🙏

I am going through a dark night and have for some time and while it’s scary....it’s also very exciting because I don’t want to be that old person that everyone comes to...to tell me their problems - I’m having to distance myself from friends that just want take from me (consciously or unconsciously) and so that is hard.....Thank you for sharing - this helps me reaffirm that what I’ve been doing is on track.

@hayleyclayton7624

5 жыл бұрын

Kellie Morgan I feel empathy can be abused a little. I shut myself away....it’s difficult for people to understand that we go quiet because we allow ourselves to think of situations that bother us. I don’t know how to focus on me.....to know my own self purpose....

@ILOVENJ00

5 жыл бұрын

After going through this dark night, we have no tolerance for BS! Lol I prefer to be in my own company. I've had so-called 'friends' fall away left and right but it's all good. I am also spending less time on social media.

I've watched quite a few of your videos today. As you speak about the Dark Night, I honestly feel like I've been stuck in it for many years. As I say it, "I keep recycling my life and I don't know how to move forward." I'm hoping to gain more control to grow through this and finally be at peace. Thank you for your insights!

My dark night (purge stage) lasted a little over 5 years. I didn't realize my ego was in constant battle with my soul. If I had known earlier that I was going through the dark night, I would try to let my ego give up. I am very happy my ego surrendered and I am currently a few weeks in the Void phase.

Using your shower time to cleanse your outer body and negative energy along with it is a great tool. As the water is falling off me skin I imagine all the negative energy being washed away too. 🙏🏻

@GeorgiaGabet-sb7wv

9 ай бұрын

Don't forget that you can also remove negativity while going to the bathroom. I repeat the intent to detoxfy, release what no longer works with gratitude for its previous assistance, and remove what I don't use so someone else can use it. At first it felt like I got sicker after this meditation, but I figure my body was releasing more junk to be removed. The more I've done it, the better I've started to feel, but it takes time.

Yes, Christina, I've been through several Dark Night of The Souls throughout my lifetime (I'm now 70). They do get easier or at least I can reside in a space of peace even though my outer reality is swirling and twirling and I still may be feeling sad, stressed, whatever. And the little ego does die more with each one as the Healthy Big Ego (Universe, God, Jesus,) grows more and more. A grateful Human!!!! :)

@notavailable708

4 жыл бұрын

Do you follow the teachings of paramahamsha yogananda? I think they'd help you

@udensionyebuchi1974

3 жыл бұрын

Nice Aloha. just going through mine now

I'm going through this right now. I feel like I'm going crazy that I feel like I'm going to scream. I left my town, all my so called friends, changed my name, lost my dad who died in my arms and cousin in 24hrs of each other, lost my cat, I dont speak to my family just my mum and that's pushing it, I have my 14year old son. I'm in a house hidden away from society. I have nobody. I've been terribly disappointed in people and depressed all my life. I feel like I'm watching all this outside of my body, like watching myself from a distance. I look at my family like how did I come from these people. Listening to this has given me some hope as now I understand hopefully, what's happening to me. By the looks of it, I'm not the only one going through this, so many others,which is kind of nice as this process is so lonely. Thank you💜.

I have been crying for 4 months seemingly for no reason. Not just getting teary a few times a day, but gut-wrenching sobbing half of the day, when not sobbing feeling flat, so tired and frustrated with the knowledge I know there is more but I can't seem to pick a direction to go. I found information on the dark night of the soul it helped me to know it might something else other than depression/anxiety. Thank you for these practices. I will certainly try them, anything to move this process along would be most welcomed!

I can't get out of this dark hole and I feel like I'm losing it. I obtained my PhD in December 2019 and have worked in social services all of my life . I don't know what I am here to do anymore. I am unemployed and I am afraid of moving forward. There is no meaning in my life right now. This is SO hard. I feel so ashamed of where I am right now. I always thought that I was strong and determined. But now I am a deer in headlights. I am trying to move forward but it hurts so much and I'm afraid.

It’s taken me 16 years of being lost terrible, terrible, years. I was never suicidal but certainly did not want to not be here and hoped I didn’t wake in the morning. Still here. I think I’m through it, feeling now so much better. Hope it never comes back. I was 62 years when it started. I’m now 79 years. Amen. My darling niece committed suicide going through the Dark Night. God Bless Her Soul.

@rachaelsimone521

3 жыл бұрын

I’m so sorry for your loss, happy to hear that you are in a better place now✨ love and light to you ❤️

Omg I kept thinking I'm going crazy, this, everything. Thank you. 💜🙏

I am going through it. We have so much in common. I wish there was a Zoom meeting to go to and talk to other people and share. I am reading others' comments that I am not alone. Love to hear more and share.

Darkness describes it. Loneliness, disconnect, not knowing what you want or like anymore, not knowing or feeling anything that gives you hope. Loss of your mental ability to stretch a thought forward into what's coming up next in life to be hopeful for or to strive for. Just numb. Floating through every moment. And in the darkest of times being scared of what you have turned into, not recognizing who you are or what your body is doing; not understanding any part of it. Feels like am being pushed into unchartered territory of having to be entirely vulnerable to everything and there's nothing that can stop it.

very helpful. I had 1.5 years of bliss and now i am going through hell. Thank you for these insights. Will use the tips. 😍😘

I went through Dark night not really understanding what was happening, but because of my faith walk, at the time of the 10yr episode, even if I felt separated or abandoned by God, I knew better. I remember going to sleep, so weak, yah, this thing blew me up, by faith I knew I was not forsaken, and even if I couldn't hear The Voice, the truth was...I would never be abandoned and I was never really alone and I had a grip on these truths that had become ingrained into every cell of my beingness. I don't know where I'd be if I didn't have that. I remember feeling buried alive, so to speak, and all I could do was whisper, Does anybody know I'm here? What a deep and amazing experience that caused sink deeper into those everlasting arms, and trust. In myself, I was helpless but again, to know at my heart, when I'm weak I'd be made strong, I rested in it, going with the flow. I'd already learned to fly like the Eagle, so as I was being pressed, squeezed out, being destroyed, I knew, even if I was being destroyed, it would somethow all work to my good! I guess I had mantras not knowing that's what they were at the time...and these like I say were grounded at my core. Gosh, how many times now I've saiW to God...whatever needs to be torn from my flesh, Do it! I will not draw back. Yup, it's been an amazing walk and at 64, I'm still here to talk about it? Yay:) Hehe, and now I have even more understanding and I thank you:) xo

The ego part really makes sense, ego goes against spirit so there ya go. In the span of 4 years I lost all of my clients. I felt more alone than I ever have. I didn't know who I was, I was crying all the time, I was depressed, I felt unappreciated, invisible and dismissed. I released held emotions, I also got through the loss of 3 pets in 6 months (which was devastating), but I got stronger and found me. Yes, I think we need an ego but not a selfish one, not one at all costs, not one that interferes with spirit, a softened ego. One thing that helped me was St. John's Wort capsules.

My awakening was triggered by serious trauma that made my heart ache and throat throb. I used chanting as a way to quite the mind and get my voice back. I journal daily as a way to remain aware and reduce mental clutter. I also do yoga and meditation to connect to my body. Sometimes I cried threw all these processes and sometimes I was angry for the things that I did not understand. But I know that’s ok and every day gets better. Just being able to put a video out like this is a blessing, Thank you so much Christina! XO!

I call it Spiritual sadness. Feels like life is pointless and I just can't take it seriously😢"

I lost everything going through this dark night of the ego. My house, my truck and the love of my life. This truly sucks and it’s sooo freaking hard!

@Affrimmorina

3 жыл бұрын

Let it gi

@jamesleth806

Жыл бұрын

lost everthing also. Your not alone brother. Stay Strong.

I’m in the beginning stages but it’s heavy. I’m going through this now and couldn’t understand why I was losing people “close” to me. You feel so isolated and alone but still like something deeper is keeping you going.

@ChrisJohnson-lh9qb

3 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry I know how it feels to be lonely without the person you love, we've all lost our love ones in death one way or the other, either a spouse, child, family members, or a true friend that meant the world to us, such is life I understand how you feel but life goes on because death is inevitable and we'll all have to face it someday, I lost my son jersey on may 24th 2020 during lockdown on a car accident he just turned 22 on his birthday, got hit by a drunk truck driver, that was the worst and most lamentable day of my life as a single Dad raising two kid's, my 13yr old daughter is my everything and the reason I keep strong, my late wife passed away 3yrs ago to a cardiovascular disease, I felt deeply devastated with grief, but that's the past now, time is indeed the best healer. I'd love to talk to you more if you don't mind! it'd be nice if you just say hi, here is my number +17866676668 or rather you can send me your gmail address so I could reach out on you.

My old self died a long time ago, I have changed so much and became a lot stronger,you're right it is scary.

My ego is saying all types of crazy thing's and I kept feeling a sense of floating away like a balloon...I feel anxiety and scared, fear of I don't know what, unsure, sad, a deep depression, off and on anger or aggravation...But I will be fine, just didn't know this was a real thing lol. I will keep praying and meditating. Thank you for your video's, I wanted to cry because I needed help with this... ❤

I am going through a dark night of the soul and I am now gaining insight on why I feel this way... Somewhere along the line I stopped loving myself. That is why I am stuck here right now and why everything is so painful. This is new for me. I've always loved myself so much.

This is so reassuring,reminds me of my actual birth, being dragged into the world kicking, screaming and overdue.

@sunrise52269

3 жыл бұрын

Im not ok , i cant believe it's taken away

@rainbows9060

2 жыл бұрын

@@sunrise52269 hang in there, I know it's tough. I try and connect to a loving spirit guide when I'm in that place. All dill be well.

I‘ve been through this dark night of the soul two years ago. It lasted for a few months. And it was a frightening but also fulfilling experience. Now after diving into my shadow and healing some major wounds I feel like the old me is starting to disintegrate. At least my core beliefs are turned upside down. It feels like I‘m walking with a blindfold. Although I can see everything with my eyes, I can only live on by feeling into my heart and following my intuition. In these past years I‘ve made major decisions and cut lots of people out of my life forever. I am changing. Now it‘s only me or me. My soul doesn’t allow me to pause anymore :) Spirit knows what it wants and it‘s directly telling me which steps to take. So I‘m grateful for that 💜✨

It’s been 13years for me. I feel I’m coming out of the valley of the shadow of death. One step at a time. The grief has been unending.

I went through a dark night last year, and it literally felt like dying. The whole process lasted about 9 months. I lost so much... but won peace, health, love & soul alignment 🙏❤️💫

Gratitude and long conversations with God/myself….gratitude….more conversations with God. I speak to my ego, my higherself, the trees, my cells, the wind, the birds, the building, all who and that is listening ….recharges me every time ❤️ knowing i’m not alone gets me out of those “negative” feelings all the time . it’s all perfect, the plan and design is all perfect.

I am still attached to my family. I find it difficult to let them go. They don't want to heal. They want to hold onto the past, the anger and the hurt. I'm still hoping/wanting to heal and grow the family. How can I let them(my adult sons, my mother, my nephew, my brothers) go? I feel so isolated and alone. They don't want me in their lives. They believe I am optional, inconvenient and a bother. I speak the truth and ask questions. I ask them to be kinder and more loving to themselves and each other. I've been the bridge, the support but they only want to talk about their own issues. They don't want to reciprocate.

I'm in the dark night and my struggle is identifying my repressed pain and trauma from childhood. This video will help me, I just need to follow my soul's lead, no resistance, surrender to the process. Thank you beautiful soul!

I’m afraid of being alone, I don’t need somebody to make me whole. I need to love myself more.

I got very sick 10 years ago, had to give up my beloved business I worked so hard for, it was almost on the streets, family was not there for me, and even a 12-year relationship ended. My daughter and I was almost on the streets. After working so hard all my life to make everything work. decided to change my name, change my perspective on life, and everything, and recovered about 50%. Only to fall way back down because health issues have gotten really bad. Again losing another batch of friends. This is where I'm at now. It is so tough. I've even been having suicidal ideation, so lonely. In deep physical and spiritual pain. I know the techniques to help keep my mind positive, but nothing is happening.

2019 has been this way

@margotboon8919

4 жыл бұрын

Frederick Sharon , how does 2020 feel thus far?

@torkaerius

4 жыл бұрын

@@margotboon8919 hahaha true that. I'm living that moment of total dark night of the ego right now.

I am beyond grateful for your videos during this incredibly difficult time! As someone with an educational background in psychology, I thought I was losing my mind especially when I began experiencing symptoms of "not knowing who I was anymore" or a "deep sense of meaninglessness" and "profound emptiness". I'm currently trying to take it day by day but the feelings of depression have been so debilitating (partially because my ego has been resisting the ascension process). Having a conceptual understanding of the dark night of the soul really helped me make sense of it all. Truly appreciate all that you do. Thank you so much! 🧡

I slept a lot, cried a lot, and received messages of what my life was and had to look at and dispose of those images and forgive myself as they are washed away from my own ego's identification as suffering, doubt and BS that fuk-ed me up for years. I feel released, yet there is always some reminder that" aw look at this, what is is, remember this?", I used it now. I like when that happened, I am loved. Some of I laugh at 2, so. I've been thru the worse now. I mean the very worse. Carry water, chop wood. Love the last time I cried, after that iit became easier, the Feminine with ease. For me about 2 months. With residue. I pray a lot.

i feel that my dark of the soul lasts a few days and then i see again the light and then i am back again to darkness. since my awakenin begun iv been experiencing an emotional rollercoaster. is it possible to experience it like this;

I've gone through cycles of this over the years. It lasts a couple of months up to a couple of years, and then went into the void. Went back and forth for about 15 years. Recently started feeling more grounded, and started moving into a place of peace with myself

The hardest thing for me going through the dark night of the Ego 😉 is that I have no patience and I am easily irritable. My emotions are just everywhere 😭 I cry every other night just about. So thank you for this informative video! It really helps with the tips you said.

@digi222

2 жыл бұрын

Same here! It's very hard to be patient and I cry everyday over the littlest stuff

I knew it was the dark night of the soul but it felt more like a break or nervous breakdown. I went through the worst of it alone . I am a reiki master healer . I had no idea this was part of the process . I’m still going through it . Not as bad now . Much easier than it was .

"I am safe" has also helped me so much, especially before bed when Im thinking about all of this. Positive affirmations are a big help. Talking to yourself like you are a young child helps, I know it sounds silly, but I know I feel like a little lost child when I'm going through it. Also, remind yourself that you're not doing it wrong, I know I keep thinking its about over and then its not and i beat myself up and tell myself Im not doing any of it right. This is when surrounding helps, and telling yourself that you are being guided with love through all of it. Acceptance helps too, I will accept that I feel like crap and I have no idea what's going on and I just need to trust it will work out. It's okay to feel horrible and take care of yourself. We are human.

I feel like I’ve gone through a number of them in 2018 and the last one was induced from my job... I never thought a job could actually brake my heart and this weekend something in my personal life something triggered another one... I truly want to believe that I am on my right path but there comes a point where you stand and ask how much pain can each person process . I’m getting better of coming through to the light.... and I try very hard to learn from each experience ... sometimes I just feel alone and it’s the loneliness continuously going through this with no one there is starting to get to me

O MY SWEET!!! IM A NEWBIE ON YOUR CHANNEL..THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR PUTTING THIS "WHAT EVER NEGATIVE THING" A LABEL..LOL..IM 61..EXTREMELY EMPATHETIC..AND COMING INTO OLD ABILITIES I HAD AS A CHILD..AND IVE SPENT MOST OF MY LIFE ALONE AFTER BEING A PUNCHING BAG FOR THIS MAN WHO HAS CROSSED OVER IN 92..I BELIEVE I HAVE JUST PASSED THROUGH THE SECOND ONE" THAT FASE" AND I BELIEVE IM GETTING IT. WHAT USED TO GET ME AND IS STILL LINGERING A BIT..IS I CAN FORGET WHEN THE EGO BEAST AS I CALL IT..TRIES TO COME AND RECK MY PLANS OR GOALS THAT I HAVE SET FOR MYSELF..BUT IM HITTING IT..SO THANK YOU FOR THOSE BEGINNER MONTRAS..THAT TO WILL HELP. YOUR CHANNEL WILL HELP ME SO MUCH. I JUST A FEW MONTHS AGO DECIDED TO GIVE LIFE A CHANCE. MAYBE MEET SOMEONE. IM IN THE MIDDLE OF STARTING OVER AFTER LOSING EVERYTHING. BUT IM BETTING ON MY GUIDES AND THE UNIVERSE TO GUIDE ME. WISH ME LUCK..OR JUST A BLESSING WILL DO. SO MUCH LOVE AND LIGHT! 🙏😊✌💖💖🤩😘

@Stardust414

4 жыл бұрын

Your story resonated with me so much!! My situation was a little different (I'm divorcing my narcissist husband) but like you, I was a punching bag. I feel compelled to tell you to research healing from the Narc, C-PTSD & EMDR therapy. KZread has hundreds of helpful videos on all of that stuff. Some of it might be helpful & if not that's ok too. I just felt lead to share! Regardless of that, I pray that this next phase of your life is filled with blessings of joy, love & laughter!! 🌈☀️💕

Horrible feeling. I believe I just came out of mine. The mental and physical symptoms were something else. I felt like I was going crazy to say the least. Anxiety attacks I had never experienced before prior. Doing the everyday routine scared the crap out of me. So much more I could say. But I will say I am grateful for it. I am ready for the next chapters in my life.

My life before spirituality for ab 14 years was severe depression, I discovered these spiritual truths and felt them so deeply it lit me up I found a way to shift into bliss. Bliss- when before I never even thought it was possible for me to feel happiness. I was so grateful. I made bad choices during this blissful period bc I thought it was untouchable, I thought I would feel that way for the rest of my life and for the first time I wanted to socialize, I wanted to help people feel the way I did. I didn't know that these choices would eventually cause me to abandon my dedication to my connection. I've now been depressed again for the last 3 years.. I don't think it's a dark night of the soul.. I can't find a path back to that blissful place. I cant feel elevated emotions. It hurts so much. I don't blame anyone not even me for my ignorance but I just don't know how to get out of emotions of suffering and resistance. I'll never stop trying.. I know how good it's possible to feel and I am so grateful for that awareness.

When I first watched your video on stages of spiritual awakening, I was going through "bliss". Like you have said in that video, I thought I was never going to be sad again. Few months later, dark night of the soul came in picture. It happened slowly and gradually. Now, 5 months into it, it gets so hard sometimes. Everything I have ever known about myself is seen drifting away from me and it is so much hard to give up control.

So happy this topic is discussed and recognized alot more nowadays. Very hard process to go through and many just think I am depressed and being dramatic when I cry every day. The little things good or bad make me cry. Thank you for the channel and everyone going through it, you all are badass and will get through it! The world is a beautiful place with our beautiful souls healing

In the last two years my losses have been 6 deaths (from parents to close friends), empty nester, husband diagnosed with rare blood cancer, health crisis with other dear friends, (I'm grateful to be healthy as far as i know even though I've taken to over drinking and smoking during pandemic). I keep trying to re enter life and work at my Pilates studio but the energy and organization aspect is very difficult for me. This summer i have had three terrible falls in which by some miracle i wasn't hospitalized. I feel like Im meant to sit down but i have many responsibilities. Those are my symptoms. Thank you for your work.

I was in the dark night phase for two years,became an addict,I had dropped out of school,my whole family(immediate family) were all against me,friends almost everyone didn’t want to associate with me,you feel like an alien to the world,,,,, but what I know is normally tested here is your faith,,you and your faith alone!!!

Lots of anger, fear, and headaches, thank you for sharing your insight with us.✌🏻🙏🏻

So true…I’m happy I came across this video because this is a scary and different experience to be going through, especially alone. Even reading these comments is making me kinda nervous lol. The best thing is to remind ourselves constantly when we start to lose grip of ourselves and our sense of purpose/ meaning, we need to tell ourselves it’s just a phase and it will pass eventually.

I've never had the bliss stage but I do feel like during this period of the Dark Night I am starting to have random moments of bliss and connection to everything. This video was so helpful, you explain everything so slowly and well that I'm getting addicted to your videos. Thank you so much for this, I suddenly feel less lost and even slightly excited about this process.

I relate to the feeling of seeing everything as gray. The last 4 years have been an on and off dark night of the soul… and in some ways I feel as though it has been on and off my entire life. Constantly evolving. I always adapt and find new ways to overcome, but while I am in it, I just cannot see anyway out. How do you work out and eat healthy when your mind and body does not seem to have the energy. Lately I just watch Netflix and do the bare minimum I need to in life and still feel overwhelmed. I keep looking for something that can let the light switch go on of what I need to do to see the light again… but I feel I have tried so many things. I know eventually I will figure it out… but right now I just have no idea what it is.

@aml8760

Жыл бұрын

Same i feel ya..