what happened... where I've been and how I'm healing

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  • @marissacruz5410
    @marissacruz54103 жыл бұрын

    All the mommies who didn’t make it through childbirth are in heaven taking care of all the babies who didn’t make it through their delivery❤️

  • @ashlynnreader1499

    @ashlynnreader1499

    3 жыл бұрын

    I love this thought 💕

  • @jennl93

    @jennl93

    3 жыл бұрын

    This is a wonderful view of such tragic situations. Thank you for this comment.

  • @rebeccawright9508

    @rebeccawright9508

    3 жыл бұрын

    What a beautiful thought.

  • @dianekiko4504

    @dianekiko4504

    3 жыл бұрын

    I love this!

  • @Banks040

    @Banks040

    3 жыл бұрын

    Amen 🙏🏻

  • @Aliadale
    @Aliadale3 жыл бұрын

    Your baby girl didn’t know her life was cut short, she only knew warmth and love. We loved you then, now, and always. Heal you and your family. If you’re worried about putting out content frame it this way, you can’t give your all to videos if you’re not all there. You come first.

  • @deendrew36

    @deendrew36

    3 жыл бұрын

    I love the realization that this little girl did not know how short her life (on earth) was, but only that she was/is loved and cherished. I believe she has eternal life now. ❤️

  • @bronwyngavin6076
    @bronwyngavin60763 жыл бұрын

    Rach, I'm so sorry. I lost a son at 23 weeks, and I'll never forget holding his tiny little body. It's a pain no one should ever have to feel. On top of the pain of losing a child, you have people who try to minimize your feelings and big emotions. Time is the ultimate healer. 💙💙💙 💕💕💕

  • @kyliedunmire7280

    @kyliedunmire7280

    2 жыл бұрын

    My mom passed away on New Year’s Day of 2020 and one of the greatest gifts I’ve held in my heart was her finally getting to hold the baby she lost before my brothers and me. As much as I her, knowing that she is eternally surrounded by love is everything.

  • @prettyinpink9893

    @prettyinpink9893

    2 жыл бұрын

    I just lost my son at 24 weeks last Friday. I hope I’ll be ok. I don’t feel like I’m going to make it

  • @bronwyngavin6076

    @bronwyngavin6076

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@prettyinpink9893 I am so very sorry. It's a pain unlike any other in the world. I'm not going to tell you things happen for a reason bc I HATED all the well meaning people that said that to me. Time is truly the only thing that will help. My son would have just turned 15, and I still feel that pain every year. I'm here to talk if that helps. It helped me to share with other women that had gone through the same thing. What happened to us wasn't a miscarriage, and I had a lot of resentment towards the people that tried to minimize it to that by telling me a lot of women have miscarriages. I, as I'm sure you did, had to deliver my son and hold him while he tried to take his one and only breath. And I am NOT saying miscarriages are minute either bc I've had an early term miscarriage as well, and that tore me up inside, too. I will tell you that I have had 2 perfectly healthy normal pregnancies since then. My sons are 5 and 6. It took me a long time to get to the point where I was emotionally ready to try again. You feel all those feelings, cry, scream, whatever you feel at the moment allow yourself to feel it. The pain and heartache never truly go away, but you will be able to deal with it easier as time passes. And like I said, I'm here to chat if you need to. 🌈 💙 💙

  • @gracealicious1

    @gracealicious1

    2 жыл бұрын

    I lost my first daughter at 23 weeks and it was so hard I wish I would have held her and looked at her but I was so hurt in that moment and didn’t know what to do I just didn’t even want to see her biggest regret in my life

  • @aoyamiuriko5059

    @aoyamiuriko5059

    2 жыл бұрын

    Wow....I know i shouldn't be on here this is making me cry and my heart goes out to you and everyone on this thread. I had a daughter at 21 weeks on literal new years eve. I thought I didn't want to see her but im glad the nurses held onto her until I felt better, also never seen my husband cry like that ever and I thought he wasn't connected. My sister had a still birth 2yrs ago and I don't want anyone to go thru what we went thru. I can't imagine any of it and I went thru it. Hoping this time a rainbow 🌈 for all of us in Jesus name!

  • @xpeekabooqtx
    @xpeekabooqtx3 жыл бұрын

    Almost identical situation here-I was due in December and I also had a missed miscarriage. I was pregnant with twins and babies had stopped growing at 9w3d. It was such a horrifying experience, both physically and emotionally. I am also still struggling. Sending warm thoughts your way. You are not alone.

  • @Mcmom14

    @Mcmom14

    2 жыл бұрын

    Hey hun, you’re not alone either. I just went through it too 😢 The most traumatic thing I’ve ever experienced. I’m sending you lots and lots of love!

  • @kaitjones1678

    @kaitjones1678

    2 жыл бұрын

    My baby was due in December too! I'm sorry for what u went through. March is now a month I dont feel comfortable TTCing in ever again.

  • @godstendermercies6394

    @godstendermercies6394

    2 жыл бұрын

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I was wondering if you had any covid tests or injections before the miscarriage. 💧♥️

  • @89kaitlyn
    @89kaitlyn3 жыл бұрын

    I recently went through a major loss, different than you. My husband passed away suddenly due to a stroke, I was 6 weeks pregnant with our first child at the time. Thankfully my pregnancy is ok and I’m currently 21 weeks pregnant with a baby boy. My grief counsellor said something that resonated with me “I am only an expert at my own loss, no one else will truly understand my loss”. So don’t let anyone tell you how you “should” grieve or how you “should” move on. Do what feels right for you and your family. Im so sorry you are having to go through this trauma.

  • @belindamcaleavy1942

    @belindamcaleavy1942

    3 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry for your loss

  • @jaxxiet5851

    @jaxxiet5851

    3 жыл бұрын

    I’m so sorry for your loss. 🙏💖

  • @georgiatayrac2404

    @georgiatayrac2404

    3 жыл бұрын

    This baby is so lucky to hv you as a mom❤ good luck mama

  • @katy9291

    @katy9291

    3 жыл бұрын

    Im so sorry for your loss 🙏

  • @traceykerr895

    @traceykerr895

    3 жыл бұрын

    I am so sorry for your loss. Best wishes for when your son arrives

  • @AmandaandlolaNL
    @AmandaandlolaNL3 жыл бұрын

    My heart breaks. Especially when you said “last miscarriage video” the fact that you are brave enough to talk about it and help people is inspiring. Thoughts and prayers are with you lady!

  • @nicoledewick2982
    @nicoledewick29822 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing Rachel. The healing process is so hard and it’s comforting to know others are going through it as well. The timeline for mine this year was almost exactly the same.

  • @TheUnknownGazetto8
    @TheUnknownGazetto82 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for posting this. It is helpful for anyone experiencing loss and wanting to hold everything down for fear of feeling too much. It is hard to feel, and you are amazing and powerful for making it through this terribly difficult time in your life. You are working toward peace, and I hope it finds you soon. Take your time to heal.

  • @baileycornell2189
    @baileycornell21893 жыл бұрын

    I always get upset when creators feel the need to thank their viewers for giving them peace when they are inactive. There's nothing you owe us. There's nothing you have to say regarding your absence, as long as you don't want to. You are allowed to not be there. You're allowed to not put out content. We, as viewers, are not entitled to your life. I can't imagine the trauma of all of this. It's heartbreaking and the fact you were able to sit down and film your story is amazing. There's nothing that can be said or done to make it any better, just know you are heard.

  • @Artliker1234

    @Artliker1234

    3 жыл бұрын

    I think it's because some creators have created a community. Some people likely checked in on her when she took the break. I don't think it's meant necessarily negatively or pressure

  • @baileycornell2189

    @baileycornell2189

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@Artliker1234 I understand, I just can't imagine having that much investment without respect. It's awesome to check in, but sometimes space is needed. You know. It's a horrible situation, and I hope her community support helped

  • @amydee0074

    @amydee0074

    3 жыл бұрын

    I know what you mean, I feel the same way about recession lines at a wake 😞 Having to thank all those people when you feel so heartbroken just doesn’t seem right

  • @itsmirandalouise

    @itsmirandalouise

    3 жыл бұрын

    All of this. I totally agree. God bless her. 🙏🏻😢💗

  • @BeckyA59

    @BeckyA59

    2 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for saying that, I feel the same, KZread creators do not owe us their lives!

  • @HealthNutNutrition
    @HealthNutNutrition3 жыл бұрын

    my heart truly broke when you talked about holding your baby.. I only have one daughter and I cant even imagine going through that experience and loss. I truly wish you and your family so much love and healing.

  • @girlandhermakeup4629

    @girlandhermakeup4629

    3 жыл бұрын

    No I’m we

  • @adiposeNarnian
    @adiposeNarnian3 жыл бұрын

    This was such a brave and beautiful video, and I'm so impressed and proud of the responsible way you faced your pain and grief to share it with us.

  • @kristykushmaul2917
    @kristykushmaul29172 жыл бұрын

    I’m praying for you and Chris. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your heartache. We love you! Take all the time you need!! We will be here when you’re ready!

  • @joannapenn878
    @joannapenn8783 жыл бұрын

    I just want to hug you through the screen. Can’t imagine what pain you and Chris have gone through. Love to you both. 💗

  • @MusicLover7545
    @MusicLover75453 жыл бұрын

    You are a whole person, Rachel. We love the sunny, bright Rachel that we usually see in your videos, but we love this Rachel too. Thanks for sharing your whole self with us

  • @confidenceisme3710
    @confidenceisme37103 жыл бұрын

    I absolutely love that fact that you are so transparent and vulnerable. You show true character and love! Your soul is overwhelmingly beautiful! 🤍

  • @JessNV
    @JessNV3 жыл бұрын

    Oh Rachel, I’m so sorry. I completely relate to feeling uncomfortable feeling intense emotion and grief, been going through some hard times and this is a great reminder of how important it is to let my body feel that emotion. My prayers are with you and your family.

  • @brookhall8142
    @brookhall81423 жыл бұрын

    She is and was your baby. A precious life. We grieve with you.

  • @stellabarnard3623
    @stellabarnard36233 жыл бұрын

    I went through a miscarriage, and was left to deal with it on my own. My employer at that time, wouldn't even give me time off, and so I had to go to work the next day. I never had the chance to mourn the loss. I felt so lost and alone, because everyone's life continued on, while mine fell apart. So I want to thank you for this video, and sharing your story with us. I cried with you for the loss of my little one. Lots of love

  • @mandaleemilly6367

    @mandaleemilly6367

    3 жыл бұрын

    I’m so sorry you had to go through that. Time off should be mandatory when you’re dealing with trauma like that.

  • @laurenzavicar9363

    @laurenzavicar9363

    3 жыл бұрын

    I’m going through exactly the same thing right now. Thank you for sharing. Wishing you so much healing.

  • @mygirldarby

    @mygirldarby

    3 жыл бұрын

    We need better laws for women. Employers shouldn't be allowed to do what they did to you. I'm so sorry.

  • @brooklynphillips9514

    @brooklynphillips9514

    3 жыл бұрын

    I’m so saddened and angered reading this. I’m so sorry for your loss and mistreatment

  • @stellabarnard3623

    @stellabarnard3623

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you everyone. I feel miscarriage just gets swept under the rug and is a taboo subject. I'm glad Rachel decided to share her story on KZread. Perhaps it'll enlighten others about the trauma of having a miscarriage.

  • @kelseybright9763
    @kelseybright97632 жыл бұрын

    I'm sorry for your loss. That's not an easy thing to go through and you are remarkably strong for going through this and then sharing it with the world. You are 100% correct in that it's ok to not be ok. That's a really hard thing to come to terms with. I appreciate your videos soo much they always make me feel good after a long day. I'm glad you've gotten the help you needed and wish you all the best on your healing journey.

  • @lizmgarcia1703
    @lizmgarcia17033 жыл бұрын

    My heart is with you, Rachel. Sending you a great amount of healing vibes. So sorry for your loss.

  • @connietankersley9514
    @connietankersley95143 жыл бұрын

    I’m currently going through my first miscarriage at almost 9 weeks. No one I’m close with really understands and I’ve felt so lonely. My son is 4 so I was already sad at the thought of them not being close in age. I watched your first video and was heartbroken for you. Now I have a whole other level of empathy for you. You are so kind and brave to share again. Thank you for making me feel heard. We love all the parts about you, happy and sad, and I hope you find peace in some way ❤️

  • @ccurtis130

    @ccurtis130

    3 жыл бұрын

    It’s sounds cliche, but it does get better. It’s never going to be perfect and you will always think about it. But it gets easier to think about. It’s been 12 years since I miscarried twins, but this year I cried on the day I lost them. But I was able to move on after I cried. I wish you well and hope you heal. Just know it’s ok to cry about the loss and grieve. Sending love and prayers.

  • @zozoeliza

    @zozoeliza

    3 жыл бұрын

    i’m so sorry for your loss. sending you love ❤️

  • @yektaangel1234

    @yektaangel1234

    3 жыл бұрын

    You are never alone even if it’s not with people close to you just know there’s always someone out there who cares for you even if it’s a stranger. So sorry for your loss👼 your baby will always be watching over you

  • @crystalbarfoot

    @crystalbarfoot

    3 жыл бұрын

    I'm sending you love and caring. You aren't alone. It's real. And it's ok to grieve. ❤️❤️

  • @kathrynduprey3744

    @kathrynduprey3744

    3 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry for your loss. It can feel so isolating especially if those around you don't understand.

  • @JuliVibme
    @JuliVibme3 жыл бұрын

    I often watch your content as a safe space, where I can look at this happy woman with a healthy relationship, great husband and kids and a beautiful house. It's a comforting dream but this video reminds me that real life happens when the camera is off. Thank you so much for sharing, take your time

  • @ddpaw7
    @ddpaw73 жыл бұрын

    I’m so proud of you for getting through such a difficult experience. It’s amazing that you spoke about this and your journey, I appreciate you so much ❤️❤️❤️❤️ all the best to you !

  • @americangirl0090
    @americangirl00903 жыл бұрын

    I’m so sorry for your loss, beautiful. I’m proud of you for sharing this even though it’s difficult. We love you and we are here whenever you’re ready to come back. You’re amazing and such a wonderful person. Sending love, peace, and healing to your family.❤️

  • @amberpitman4163
    @amberpitman41633 жыл бұрын

    Miscarriage is such a tragic, indescribable experience. My heart truly aches for you, having been through it myself at 10 weeks. I am keeping you and your family in my prayers. ❤️

  • @misSimplicityXx

    @misSimplicityXx

    3 жыл бұрын

    I also had a mc at 10 weeks end of May. Currently 9 weeks pregnant again so early after and I’ve been a nervous wreck. Ugh!

  • @Glim246

    @Glim246

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@misSimplicityXx Wishing you all the best for a healthy pregnancy. I realize that it is incredibly hard not to worry but if you can find it in yourself to be positive it will help you both stay strong mentally and physically.

  • @lauren3596
    @lauren35963 жыл бұрын

    To everyone in the comments (and Rachel), who have been through this, I am unbelievably sorry. You are truly so strong. Your experience is valid and we see and love you❤️

  • @mandypdx

    @mandypdx

    3 жыл бұрын

    🙌

  • @arpy612
    @arpy6123 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much for sharing your story, Rachel. You are such a strong and inspiring soul. I’ve followed you for years, and you have always been a solid constant in my life. I pray that you can find peace in this heartbreaking time. We are all here for you and will always love and support you and Chris! Please take all the time you need to heal, and when you’re ready, we’ll be here 💕

  • @ashleybartels3355
    @ashleybartels33553 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry for your loss. It's helpful for me to remember "grief is love with nowhere to go". Your grief is all the love you have for your girl over flowing.. sending you and Chris all the love.

  • @gailflora1835

    @gailflora1835

    2 жыл бұрын

    Your comment is so true. I gave the love I had for my stillborn baby to hundreds of women by reaching out after their own pregnancy loss.

  • @mrspokitstheriot477

    @mrspokitstheriot477

    2 жыл бұрын

    That phrase speaks to me and I hope I never forget it.

  • @meganbaum8832
    @meganbaum88323 жыл бұрын

    This is one of the most difficult things we can go through as women. It isn’t talked about enough and you feel so alone going through the process. Sending hugs your way!

  • @meaghanjames2419
    @meaghanjames24193 жыл бұрын

    It is so important to increase awareness of these topics, but it’s so hard and awful that people have to go through these challenges and heartbreaks at all. I am so proud of you for putting your mental and physical health first. It’s extraordinarily difficult and doing so can feel worse before it feels better. Thank you for speaking on this heartbreaking topic, and I am so sorry you’ve gone through it twice. I’m sending all my love and positive feelings your way 💜

  • @hangchungoc9516
    @hangchungoc95163 жыл бұрын

    Rachel, I truly love the fact you’re taking the time for yourself! You’re important and your emotions matter! ❤️

  • @MomNTraining
    @MomNTraining3 жыл бұрын

    That is incredibly intense. I’m so sorry you had to deal with such a scary medical situation on top of your grief. I think taking a break was the absolute right call. ❤️

  • @KalynNicholson
    @KalynNicholson3 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry Rachel. You are so strong and resilient in sharing your story. I pray the healing process held you and is still nurturing your heart and soul in all the ways you need ♥️

  • @memelondon79

    @memelondon79

    3 жыл бұрын

    Ppt ppppppp poop poop poop p poop pppppppppppp poop ppp poop poop pp the best thing to keep me up to

  • @memelondon79

    @memelondon79

    3 жыл бұрын

    Oh wow I was so sad I missed the last one of you and you

  • @jessicaann9027

    @jessicaann9027

    3 жыл бұрын

    Beautifully spoken. ❤️

  • @sponton89

    @sponton89

    3 жыл бұрын

    I am so sorry for your loss!

  • @hayleydonohue2921

    @hayleydonohue2921

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@memelondon79 lll

  • @toodlebug8852
    @toodlebug88523 жыл бұрын

    I’m so sorry for your loss. My daughter Chloe was stillborn at 6 months gestation. It’s been 23 years now. I still think of her every day. 💔

  • @monanana-04

    @monanana-04

    3 жыл бұрын

    I’m so so sorry. How you treasure her and her short life shows what an amazing mother you are❤️

  • @saras.6641

    @saras.6641

    3 жыл бұрын

    💜

  • @dinky..

    @dinky..

    3 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry you went through this Michelle 💕 Chloe is a beautiful name 🙏❤

  • @foreverNwonder

    @foreverNwonder

    2 жыл бұрын

    😔 I’m so sorry for your loss… my little sister had a miscarriage pretty far into her pregnancy, and her daughter’s name was Chloe too ❤️

  • @ItsJustLisa

    @ItsJustLisa

    2 жыл бұрын

    My SIL lost our niece at 5 months due to a heart defect. Josie would have been 20 in November.

  • @nicolettealtieri8777
    @nicolettealtieri87773 жыл бұрын

    Such a heartbreaking journey you’re going through but it’s truly amazing you are sitting here to tell it. My prayers are with you and your family and I’m so glad to see that little by little you are finding a way to put those broken pieces back into place. ❤️

  • @laurenelizabeth1677
    @laurenelizabeth16773 жыл бұрын

    I needed to hear this. I’ve been struggling from things much much smaller than what you’ve been dealing with and this is proof that if you can take a break, I can too. Thank you. I love you.

  • @ciaoobelllaxo
    @ciaoobelllaxo3 жыл бұрын

    I’m so sorry to hear you went through this. 😢 I absolutely could not imagine how traumatic that must have even .. praying for you during this time! 🤍

  • @aneishalopez6669

    @aneishalopez6669

    3 жыл бұрын

    Love you so much! I’m keeping you all in prayer and I’m so glad you are in a place where you could share.

  • @gillypiexo

    @gillypiexo

    3 жыл бұрын

    @Miles Doyle well said 👏

  • @nicolebeck8997

    @nicolebeck8997

    3 жыл бұрын

    We love you ❤️

  • @jessicaw7185
    @jessicaw71853 жыл бұрын

    I am heartbroken that you and Chris have had to go through this again. Thank you for using your platform to help the rest of us learn more about miscarriages. They are more common than we are lead to believe. Thank you for being so open and brave with sharing your experience ❤

  • @heatherlynn1016

    @heatherlynn1016

    3 жыл бұрын

    You’re right! When I had my miscarriage I thought “what did I do wrong” “what’s wrong with my body?” Because you never hear about miscarriages and how common they are and there’s nothing that we did wrong and our bodies didn’t fail us!

  • @stephaniepeebles6350

    @stephaniepeebles6350

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@heatherlynn1016 so true...until u have one and then everyone tells u that they have had one too.

  • @brittanymomto4
    @brittanymomto4 Жыл бұрын

    I’m rewatching this and wanted to say I lost a baby and it’s been 18 hrs and I’ve learned that you do and can heal. You have to learn to live in a new normal.

  • @ashleeobrien9449
    @ashleeobrien94492 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for being brave and sharing your story. I was crying right along with you this entire video. I feel so deeply sad for you. You guys are such kind people and for something so devastating to happen to you, it’s not fair. But you are doing so great. You deserve the world. Thank you so much for being you. You always bring me happiness whenever I come across your videos. You are an amazing positive light for me when I am feeling lonely at night when my son daughter and husband have tucked in and I’m up doing things still. So thank you, for being vulnerable and I am sending healing vibes your way. ❤️

  • @stonesatglasshouses3477
    @stonesatglasshouses34773 жыл бұрын

    Recently, I came to terms with the fact that I will never have another child. My son is 15. I’ve suffered from 7 unexplained miscarriages. My last I lost twins at 13 weeks. Having gone through this, I will say the only thing anyone should say- I am so sorry. You are not alone and everything you feel is valid. One thing I have found is that fathers don’t get enough support when a couple suffers a miscarriage. There are some really great books for men to help them to support you but also process their own feelings.

  • @anabobana20

    @anabobana20

    3 жыл бұрын

    Wow, I'm so sorry you've been through that. I wish I knew you because I don't want to come off as offensive in anyway, but a lot of times miscarriages, especially multiple ones, come from generational curses. Not sure if you believe in that but it's usually demonic. That wasn't the portion the Father had for you at all but the enemy looks for doors to come in to kill, still and destroy. My husband and I cast out demons, and a lot of times they hold on to generational curses and wreak havoc in people's lives.

  • @donnyreiss1180

    @donnyreiss1180

    3 жыл бұрын

    in n.z after ur third in a row miscarriage they take u for specialised tests to c what the root of the problem is.

  • @MsBkboom

    @MsBkboom

    3 жыл бұрын

    I’m sorry for your loss also. I just want to say my mom miscarried 8 times before having me. I guess you could say I was a miracle baby for my parents. My sister and I have a 6 year difference between us. While isn’t isn’t the biggest we aren’t close. Bit of a shame.

  • @roxannemarie7513
    @roxannemarie75133 жыл бұрын

    take your time healing, there is no "correct" time frame we will be here whenever you get back

  • @anazanoni2291
    @anazanoni22912 жыл бұрын

    Rachel you are so, so strong. You’re such a beautiful and wonderful mother, and such an amazing PERSON. Thank you for trusting us with this story and sharing your healing process, I know it’ll help many, and I also hope it’ll help you. You’re not alone and things will be alright ❤️

  • @britajohannessen-kluk7091
    @britajohannessen-kluk70913 жыл бұрын

    I’m so sorry for your loss! Thanks for sharing your story and healing journey, I wish you all the best ❤️

  • @singwithjoy91
    @singwithjoy913 жыл бұрын

    I've never commented on a KZread video before, but I wanted to say thank you for this. All of the moms who have even an inkling of what you have just been through are standing with you and crying with you. You have kept me company through a military move away from family and two rounds of post partum mood disorder and I am so grateful for the brightness I feel when I see you post a new video. We are here because you are real with us. Much love to you and Chris on your journey.

  • @jacquelineclark9783
    @jacquelineclark97833 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing. I had a stillborn baby girl three years ago and EVERYONE treats these topics like taboo. No one wants to talk about and it’s heartbreaking. But thank you for being brave and sharing your experience- I believe that sharing these experiences is a way of celebrating that there IS another part of your family. ❤️❤️

  • @Belcheryl

    @Belcheryl

    3 жыл бұрын

    Bless you. I’m sorry sorry that you had to go through that♥️

  • @Trsanchez76

    @Trsanchez76

    3 жыл бұрын

    So very sorry for your loss

  • @mygirldarby

    @mygirldarby

    3 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry. My best friend had a full-term stillborn. The umbilical cord wrapped around the baby's neck during her labor. When she got to the hospital to give birth she was told there was no heartbeat. They made her give birth naturally. It was her first baby and she was in labor for over 17 hours, knowing he was not alive. I thought it was torture what they did to her. Later the doctor said that had he known how big the baby was he would have done a c section...it was such a nightmare. It was a long time ago but she still grieves and I still grieve for her.

  • @ashleighmryd

    @ashleighmryd

    3 жыл бұрын

    I’m so sorry 😢 sending you lots of love ❤️❤️❤️

  • @bruschi090
    @bruschi0903 жыл бұрын

    Holding space for you, sending you love and light. Thank you for normalizing therapy, grief, rest, and time. You shared your story beautifully.

  • @MariaDemeyer-SyreniaLifestyle
    @MariaDemeyer-SyreniaLifestyle2 жыл бұрын

    You’re such an awesome human being! Such a courageous soul! I’m so sorry for your loss and so impressed you took the time and energy to share and help others going through the same thing! Sending you strength and energy to you and your little family 🥰

  • @crystalillig20
    @crystalillig203 жыл бұрын

    Oh Rachel. I'm soo sorry that you've gone through this twice and had to make this video twice.💙❤ We love you! From one angel Mama to another, all the thoughts in the world!

  • @kristinraeee
    @kristinraeee3 жыл бұрын

    I’ve had 2 miscarriages. It’s such a hard thing to go through. I waited to try and miscarry naturally but wound up having to have surgery both times. I’m so sorry you had to go through that. Much love and support to you ❤️

  • @ThatBetchEllie

    @ThatBetchEllie

    3 жыл бұрын

    I waited too after having 2 missed miscarriages and it never happened so they gave me these pills to stick up my vajay and that moved it along within 24 hrs

  • @viciouslady7482

    @viciouslady7482

    3 жыл бұрын

    I’ve had 1 miscarriage and thankfully it happened naturally. I had no idea these type of complications could happen. At the time, I was also oblivious of how long it took to miscarry. I thought “either you’re pregnant or you miscarry” it felt so awful being in that grey-area stage for 2 weeks waiting for my body to let go.

  • @moondoggiesbaby
    @moondoggiesbaby2 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry for your loss and your pain. We're all here for you. Thank you for this message on being gentle with ourselves and learning to take time. I definitely struggle with this and am learning how to navigate grief too.

  • @MissMelindaFCC
    @MissMelindaFCC3 жыл бұрын

    I am about six months out from cancer treatment. And I’m so glad how you stated and explained your processing and emotional recovery. Trauma is so real. Our minds and bodies need space to feel things and cope and process. Thanks for sharing so openly, and encouraging others in their mental health as well as their own mourning journeys! I loved your explanation of when you didn’t heal last time, it ended up being a brick inside you. Much much love. Gonna go watch some old videos I’ve missed before or enjoy a lot. ❤️😊

  • @lynnctodd
    @lynnctodd3 жыл бұрын

    This was heart wrenching and I can’t imagine how scary this was to go through. Please take all the time you need. I am so sorry you went through this.

  • @Catglittercrafts

    @Catglittercrafts

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@youssefhachicha49 miscarriage

  • @jessm1309

    @jessm1309

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@youssefhachicha49 dude wtf? People don't choose to have a miscarriage. Maybe check a dictionary and delete your stupid comment.

  • @nicolacarr1519

    @nicolacarr1519

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@youssefhachicha49 dude no need to harsh and disrespectful grow up

  • @jessm1309

    @jessm1309

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@youssefhachicha49 no, it doesn't. But I can guarantee you already knew that and you're just trolling. One day maybe you'll grow up 🤷🏻‍♀️

  • @roxiek888

    @roxiek888

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@youssefhachicha49 I’m going to assume you’re a child. A miscarriage is something that the body does on its own, there is no choice in a miscarriage. You’re talking about an ab0rti0n

  • @dixiehull7192
    @dixiehull71923 жыл бұрын

    I just stopped and prayed with my 13 month old daughter over you and your family. May you seek God in all this. Remember He can handle you screaming, crying, and being mad at Him for allowing this. May God be with you. And what a blessing He gave you to hold your beautiful angel.

  • @redblaquegolden
    @redblaquegolden2 жыл бұрын

    This video is a real gift. I'm so sorry you went through this. I'll never experience this type of grief exactly, but loss and grief generally are not unfamiliar to me. Taking the time is necessary. Healing is a long and complicated process, but by god, it's so necessary.

  • @dianajarmann1943
    @dianajarmann19433 жыл бұрын

    I am so sorry that you and Chris have experienced this loss. Thank you for sharing this video with us. I know how alone I felt when I miscarried many, many years ago and I belive that you are helping others feel less alone during their time of grief. You are truly an amazing woman. God bless.

  • @cherylmorton2316
    @cherylmorton23163 жыл бұрын

    We lost our little boy at 20 weeks and have never really recovered, 12 years later. I kept all my emotions to myself and found it very difficult to talk to my friends and family about it for fear of upsetting them, with hindsight I should have been brave enough to show my emotions as I feel this would have helped with the healing. My heart goes out to you and Chris, you are a beautiful soul with a beautiful heart and I admire your bravery in speaking up about your experiences in losing a baby, I feel if I had listened to your words when it happened to me, it would have given me the courage to speak up, God bless you and your beautiful family and I pray for happiness in the future xx

  • @mrsbird2952
    @mrsbird29523 жыл бұрын

    I just want to say I’m so sorry to hear of your loss of your daughter. The fact that you are brave enough to share such a personal story and struggle…how you got through the pain both physically and mentally gives is a wonderful message of hope for all of us who watch your channel. May God bless you and your family and be with you through this time.

  • @bpishner333

    @bpishner333

    3 жыл бұрын

    Very well said ma’am god bless you all

  • @madeleinedubuc3217
    @madeleinedubuc32172 жыл бұрын

    I just discover your channels a week ago and have been binge-watching your videos. You are hilarious to watch. Then I saw this video. The courage must have taken you to show a raw side of yourself with your story. I'm sure it is helping other people in the same situation. You are an amazing woman, wife, and mother with wonderful support around you, that I'm sure will help you heal. I am sending you tons of positive vibes. Thank you for being part of my life.

  • @CMRRollins
    @CMRRollins3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your story and thank you for listening to your body. It’s so easy for our brains to believe that they are in charge. I can’t even begin to imagine what you’re feeling, but just know that we love you and will be here to support you always. Sending hugs and hope for healing for your whole family. ❤️

  • @alim3222
    @alim32223 жыл бұрын

    I’m currently going though a miscarriage and your story has given me a sense of comfort knowing other women have been where I am. I am so sorry you are going through this. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing this.

  • @nikkis7375

    @nikkis7375

    3 жыл бұрын

    Sending so much love to you. ❤️

  • @elliefoust

    @elliefoust

    3 жыл бұрын

    I’m so sorry Alice. My heart is with you. Just know that you will get through. It will never be easy or normal, but you are strong and will get through.

  • @gnyng88

    @gnyng88

    3 жыл бұрын

    Unfortunately this happens way way too often and is not being spoken up enough. I also went through a long miscarriage and the only thing my doctor said we could do was waiting to be over. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I hope you feel better and recover soon.

  • @CarmenMc007

    @CarmenMc007

    3 жыл бұрын

    ❤️❤️ so sorry.

  • @theroadnottaken7

    @theroadnottaken7

    3 жыл бұрын

    I am so sorry for your loss.

  • @CarlaKariott
    @CarlaKariott3 жыл бұрын

    Rachel, this is the most important video you’ve made. This will help so many women heal. This is such a hard topic because most women grieve in silence but you have given this the attention it deserves. I’m sorry to you, Chris and your family for your loss. I hope you heal physically and emotionally.

  • @jubby89
    @jubby892 жыл бұрын

    I'm so so sorry for your loss Rachel. Thank you for making this video. I am learning that we live in a very grief fearful society. We are so uncomfortable with actually supporting people in grief. To actually be alongside them, rather than trying to radiate toxic positivity. I wish you well in your healing journey.

  • @Cheese_and_rice
    @Cheese_and_rice2 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for being strong enough to share. Im so glad you took time for yourself. Sending you hugs and prayers

  • @nataliaanne5193
    @nataliaanne51933 жыл бұрын

    Throughout my years of following you, I've looked up to you like an older sister, or another aunt. Women are so strong, and you sharing your grief and healing journeys is a testament to that. Your baby girl and Michael are surely in Heaven, watching over their beautiful family. Sending lots of love and prayers, and gratitude for opening up like you do ❤️

  • @garbagegirlglam8783
    @garbagegirlglam87833 жыл бұрын

    We missed you and my gut told me you were going through it. I’m praying for you and your family if you are ok with that.

  • @jessicatefft8330
    @jessicatefft83303 жыл бұрын

    Rachel, I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your experience, it’s something that so many of us go through but not many talk about, I appreciate the strength it must have taken to make this video and I KNOW it helped others who have been in the same awful boat. 💗

  • @amymanson7035
    @amymanson70353 жыл бұрын

    I am so sorry for your loss. I am glad you are healing and dealing with your grief in a healthy way. You are so brave to share your story and for that, I say thank you.

  • @delilamartinez9633
    @delilamartinez96333 жыл бұрын

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my son back in March and I sometimes feel like I haven’t fully grieved. I had him at 23 weeks and I got to watch him grow for 2 months before he passed. I love and miss him so much.

  • @debbieversteeg2407

    @debbieversteeg2407

    3 жыл бұрын

    Sorry for your loss. I’ll keep you in my prayers.

  • @FlorPortas
    @FlorPortas3 жыл бұрын

    Oh god rachel im so sorry, i was here the other time it happened and it just completely breaks my heart to see you like this again. You are a beautiful person and an amazing mom, and you are SO strong. My mom went through something like this before having me, and as far as i know she completely shut that whole experience down, so the fact that you actually held baby and are talking about it now speaks of your incredible strength. Im sending you so so much love♥️

  • @boymamatimes3406
    @boymamatimes34063 жыл бұрын

    I just want to start off and say YOU ARE AMAZING! We lost our son at 24 weeks last month and seeing you talk about your loss has gave me so much strength♥️♥️♥️

  • @katiejackson5606
    @katiejackson56063 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry! Praying for you! Glad you're taking time to heal!

  • @tofumasterlee117
    @tofumasterlee1173 жыл бұрын

    Memory Eternal. Baby girl is where there is no more pain, sorrow, or suffering. ♥️

  • @kaylairwin7044
    @kaylairwin70443 жыл бұрын

    I lost my daughter last month… I had went into labor and everything was absolutely fine until two pushes before she was out. Her heartbeat was lost. She had aspirated on meconium. I pushed her out and for 28 minutes they fought to get her heartbeat back and succeeded. Meanwhile I’m bleeding out and nearly died. She was in the NICU for 8 days before it was determined that she wouldn’t recover. Saying goodbye to her has been the hardest thing in my entire life and the grief is unreal. I know exactly what you mean by one day is tough and the other is fine. It makes me scared to try again, she was my only child.

  • @sabinajoh

    @sabinajoh

    3 жыл бұрын

    I’m so sorry

  • @caseyg535

    @caseyg535

    3 жыл бұрын

    thinking of you and your family! Sending hugs

  • @angieto24

    @angieto24

    3 жыл бұрын

    I’m sorry for your loss 🤍🤍

  • @gracesticozzi242
    @gracesticozzi2422 жыл бұрын

    So sorry to hear about your loss and experience 🙁 I too had my own experiences and yes you are right when you say " it's ok not to be ok or to feel ok at times". From one stranger to another, from one women to another, I send you a big hug. 😊

  • @mecreativebee
    @mecreativebee2 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing. Keep healing. We will be here ❤

  • @hannahmatthews3171
    @hannahmatthews31713 жыл бұрын

    This truly breaks my heart for you. I’ve experienced losses as well. I am so glad that you’re taking time to heal and grieve. Sending prayers your way. Thank you for being so brave to tell your story so others might not feel so alone especially since it’s not talked about nearly enough.

  • @michaelamaychristensen0168
    @michaelamaychristensen01683 жыл бұрын

    I am so sorry for your lose. I think it is amazing that you opened up and talked about your experience. I am only 20 years old but I know that this couldn't have been easy to do. I also know that so many people can use your experience to help them. I really love watching your videos and have come to really love you. I hope that you are able to find peace and comfort in this difficult time. Love you so much.

  • @kyledanimiller89
    @kyledanimiller893 жыл бұрын

    When you took your absence I was concerned for you that this had happened again. I'm so sorry it happened, but I am glad you're taking the time you need to heal physically, mentally and emotionally. We all love you here and can't wait for you to come back whenever you are ready. Praying for you lots! Love from Paraguay

  • @becca7378
    @becca73782 жыл бұрын

    You are so incredibly inspirational ... I can't imagine what it took to do this video. I'm so so grateful you chose to share your story. Saying some prayers for you and your family as you navigate through this. My heart breaks for y'all.

  • @suziesmith7616
    @suziesmith76163 жыл бұрын

    This was so powerful and so important. Repressing emotions is so tempting but leads nowhere good. So much respect for using your platform for such a emotional and impactful message.

  • @sroo07
    @sroo073 жыл бұрын

    My first pregnancy ended exactly like this, went in for an ultrasound and there was no more heartbeat. It’s the worst feeling in the world when you’re so blindsided. I’m so sorry this happened to you too I wouldn’t wish this on anyone 💕

  • @lizziesopp
    @lizziesopp3 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry for yours and Chris' loss of your baby girl, Rachel. You're so brave and strong to share your story to help others. Sending lots of thoughts and love to you and your family ❤

  • @nancyrobinable
    @nancyrobinable3 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry for you and your family's loss. Bless you for sharing this painful story with hope of helping someone in the same position.

  • @Emily-po2cl
    @Emily-po2cl3 жыл бұрын

    You did an EXCELLENT job at addressing your big emotions with us. Everything came out beautifully, and you are a queen for opening up about your mental health and grief. Even though I am only a picture of my cat on the internet, but I'm a therapist and I am feeling for you. Your message is so well communicated and we are so thankful you shared ❤️

  • @lenahill3686
    @lenahill36863 жыл бұрын

    Absolutely admire you for sharing this with everyone and my thoughts and prayers are with you, Chris, and your family.

  • @TheGeekinthepink200
    @TheGeekinthepink2002 жыл бұрын

    You are so strong. Thank you for sharing your experience. Your story is going to help so many with the struggle. My heart is with you and your family

  • @miatea4774
    @miatea47742 жыл бұрын

    You’re so strong for sharing. This will always be difficult to think about, so never feel bad for feeling low. I’m so sorry you’re having to deal with this pain right now, hopefully you will find ways to cope. Sending you even more strength and lots of love.

  • @MichaelaMarty
    @MichaelaMarty3 жыл бұрын

    I’m so proud of you for taking time off and focusing on healing. That’s not easy to do! My heart goes out to you and your family. 💗

  • @rileyrodgers3758
    @rileyrodgers37583 жыл бұрын

    My heart aches for you. I’ve had a full term still born and a miscarriage. The grieving is some of the most intense things I’ve ever been through. It’s been 2 years since my daughter passed and I’m still grieving. Sending you so much love right now 💜

  • @traceyleeherrera5247

    @traceyleeherrera5247

    3 жыл бұрын

    So sorry for your loss, full term still born breaks my heart for mothers/parents 😔

  • @wendyraye

    @wendyraye

    3 жыл бұрын

    My heart aches for YOU too - I cannot imagine how difficult it would be to suffer such a loss, yet still having to “live life” and keep going. I imagine feeling guilty for feeling any sort of happiness and for the split second your mind is not dwelling, almost like it’s somehow a betrayal to their memories. I feel like they are looking down from Heaven and saying, “It’s ok mama - don’t be sad, it’s not your fault - we chose you and will love you forever.” 💕

  • @79Kallie

    @79Kallie

    3 жыл бұрын

    I’m so sorry for your loss! I had my daughter at 34 weeks 5 days. She passed away the day after she was born. This has destroyed me.

  • @traceyleeherrera5247

    @traceyleeherrera5247

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@79Kallie my heart goes out to you, such a tragic loss 💔 wishing you so much love, support & healing

  • @wendyraye

    @wendyraye

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@79Kallie I’m so sorry 😢 💔

  • @Girlybabe123
    @Girlybabe1233 жыл бұрын

    So sorry to hear your loss and hardships this past few weeks. Thank you for sharing your struggles with us and know that you are not alone ❤️

  • @summer-lilacsautumn-lilacs3219
    @summer-lilacsautumn-lilacs32192 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your story with us. Thank you for being vulnerable with us. I am so very sorry for your loss. Know you are not alone, and we are here to support you. ❤🙏❤🙏

  • @moonitawithsunoo
    @moonitawithsunoo3 жыл бұрын

    i didn't even notice i was tearing up until the end of the video. rachel thank you for being OUR happy place your positivity shines thru the screen your videos are a safe and happy place for me to always come back to. thank you for sharing this story and thank you for taking time off and taking care of yourself. it makes me very happy to know you're healing and growing 💖 love you

  • @VictoriaBC610
    @VictoriaBC6103 жыл бұрын

    This is truly heartbreaking.. :( was crying with you.. But so glad you're on the road of recovery both physically and mentally. This is definitely a very traumatic experience and good for you, for taking the time to grieve and heal (also very scary for Chris, I'm sure! I work in healthcare and know too well how things happen REALLY quick when someone goes down like that!.. and super scary for the family member witnessing all that.. So I hope Chris is doing well as well).

  • @TheEndlessCuriosity
    @TheEndlessCuriosity3 жыл бұрын

    My heart aches for you. You are such a strong and resilient woman. Thank you for talking about this. Take the time you need to heal. Sending so much love your way. ❤️

  • @itsmirandalouise
    @itsmirandalouise3 жыл бұрын

    You having this conversation so openly is not only going to help so many other women feel connected…It’s very healing for you as well. It’s soooo good that you’re not holding this all in. Grief is so hard. You do not have to carry this alone. Feel all of it. Share whatever you feel comfortable sharing just know that it is ALWAYS okay to talk about your grief. You’re not being negative. You are being real. You are strong, you are resilient, and I appreciate your ability to be vulnerable about something so hard. I have no words to help other than I am with you. I know this pain too. 😔🙏🏻💗

  • @hannahwilliams1034
    @hannahwilliams10343 жыл бұрын

    Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I can’t imagine going through that. I’m proud of you for taking time for yourself, so you can process the grief and loss.

  • @MyCleanLeaves
    @MyCleanLeaves3 жыл бұрын

    I really needed to hear this today. (That we need to take breaks to grieve) I appreciate you having the courage to do this, and I’m sending you virtual hugs Rach. 😌

  • @Brenda6663
    @Brenda66633 жыл бұрын

    i’m so sorry for your loss :/ you’re very strong and an amazing person sending love 💕

  • @scrippscgu
    @scrippscgu3 жыл бұрын

    My heart goes out to you. I'm sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing. I'm glad you have your family and therapy to support you. 💜

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