I never give up And I never give up and not quit

I nevergive up I fight Jordan fight my family❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Looking forward to even the most pedestrian events is a life fulfilled...🧐

Hi. If we are breathing in oxygen , then we are living. It doesn't matter if you are struggling or dealing with issues you are still alive. I believe when we die we go into a spirit world. There is no more suffering. We are at peace. I have viewed people talking about NDE ' s and it's very interesting how people's descriptions of what happened to them are very similar . You are right , enjoying nature is good. I'm responsible for my own happiness. It's up to me to have a good day. I'm not dependent on anyone. I don't OWE anyone anything. Good yo hear you young man. From Carl in New Zealand.

@Bens_Journey

Ай бұрын

Thank you Carl for your message, I really appreciate it. 'I'm responsible for my own happiness' I couldn't have said it better than you did there. I appreciate you sharing your wisdom and hope you stick around!

I just want to say that you dude look majestic🥹 clever and handsome too

My situation is not quite like my life flashing before my eyes but damn close?? I'm age 22 now and did gymnastics for 14 years. I'm adopted from Ukraine and raised in very rural USA. I was bullied growing up and my adoptive parents divorced when I was age 10. When I was still age 16 I was doing a bar workout at our country high school on a hot summer night. I was all alone until some older athletes happened to drive through school and see me. I was only 5'6" tall and weighed 145 lbs. I was a great size for a gymnast and extremely muscular with no body fat. I had trained my abs hard since I was first in gymnastics and trained my abs all the time at our school. That night those 3 athletes decided they would beat me up. I was shirtless and had done a lot of pull ups and muscle ups and hanging leg raises. They put me in a full nelson and I felt small. My feet barely touched the dirt. I felt scared shitless but also extremely vulnerable and helpless. My entire torso was held wide open and the athletes were making fists in front of me. They took turns throwing extremely hard punches into my body. While held taking hard punches I felt very much alive. Everything seemed to be in sharp focus. I felt like I was waking up to a new reality. I took their first punches very well and I decided to last as long as I could. I lasted over 30 minutes with very short breaks to change who held me. I went from feeling scared shitless to a new sense of confidence that I never knew. Being bullied so much for being a gymnast and talking with a Russian accent made me not have any confidence. But as they laid into my abs I could see they were impressed. Their fists mostly bounced off my abdominal muscle. I felt like I was a different person after they finally finished. That night change my life in many ways. But I was a totally different and much more confident guy after. When I recovered enough I went to the summer school weight room to learn to lift weights to gain a lot of muscle. I met some athletes who were totally impressed with me and all that I was able to endure that night. They also saw my abdominals badly beat up. Over time I made bad decisions as I was living on mine at age 16. When I was age 18 I had grown to 5'9" and 180 pounds and still all muscle. But I was also very deep into severe abdominal training and got too good at taking punches. That night my life didn't so much flash before my eyes but being in such danger somehow transformed me. I never had any fear of getting beat up and my confidence also gave me respect that I never had before. Thanks for the video message.

@Bens_Journey

29 күн бұрын

Thank you for your story mate, I'm glad you could see a positive transformation out of that experience and you now use that experience to create opportunities such as improving yourself in the gym. It takes a lot to be strong after suffering abuse such as what you did. Well done for seeing the positives from it, it will take you far in life with that mentality.

@anthonywilson1754

29 күн бұрын

@@Bens_Journey I've done a lot of reflecting on my life so far. I'm only age 22 but feel I've been through a lot since starting life in Ukraine to now. I realize that I probably had exercise addiction since maybe age 7 or 8. And that was mostly abdominal exercising. I grew up on a bar and have loved doing pull ups and hanging leg raises from very young. I got praised for my strength and especially how strong my abs are--I could hold L-sit and do high numbers of hanging leg raises. And my abs popped out and older gymnasts praised me for my core strength.When I got adopted and brought to strange rural USA I coped by training abs. But I didn't understand about exercise addiction. In high school 1 athlete told me I was addicted to abs training but then said some addictions are better than others and mine was a good addiction. I knew that to be true for me. But later taking hard punches became part of that addiction or maybe an extension of that addiction. When other guys with very muscular abs tried taking the hard punches I can they would crumble and that went to my head. That got me into showing off more and that got me a lot of positive feedback I felt I needed to have friends at school. But I think addiction is bigger and included me being addicted to their praise of what I could do. I would let them do things to see what I could take. For example I would let myself be duct taped to a pull up bar and they wouldn't let me down until I had taken 500 punches. I wore only gym shorts and then some guy pulled those off. So I was hanging there naked with wrists taped and I was taking insanely hard punches. That was something I never did again. It was the naked part that angered me. Leaving high school I knew I needed new friends and people who didn't know I could take hard punches for a good challenge. I also felt very un-datable. What girl would want to date a guy always all beat up? I didn't care how badly beat up I looked and was happy to be shirtless. It took almost a year after stopping taking punches after high school for the skin over my abs to heal up a lot. I used to get tans to cover the bruising that accumulated. I also needed to stop taking ibuprofen as I feared it was dangerous. I feel I'm a lot healthier physically and mentally now. I lift weights 3-4 days a week and train my abs 5-6 times a week. I work in construction and that keeps me busy and burning calories. I'm also a lot more self-reflective and feel I'm more than a muscular body. I always did very well in school which I thought was easy. I applied to a university of my dreams and was accepted. But since I left gymnastics at age 18 I didn't have scholarship for college. I felt that gymnastics got beat out of me as my training goals changed to bodybuilding. And so I went to a community college when the pandemic closed it. I've not gone back to finish. I'm only age 22 but feel that life is passing me by as friends from high who did go to college have graduated. Thanks for that video Ben. I got me thinking some more.